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Emma, by Jane Austen
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August, 1994 [Etext #158]
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This text is in the PUBLIC DOMAIN.
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VOLUME I
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CHAPTER I
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Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home
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and happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings
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of existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world
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with very little to distress or vex her.
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She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate,
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indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister's marriage,
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been mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother
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had died too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct
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remembrance of her caresses; and her place had been supplied
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by an excellent woman as governess, who had fallen little short
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of a mother in affection.
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Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse's family,
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less as a governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters,
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but particularly of Emma. Between them it was more the intimacy
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of sisters. Even before Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal
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office of governess, the mildness of her temper had hardly allowed
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her to impose any restraint; and the shadow of authority being
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now long passed away, they had been living together as friend and
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friend very mutually attached, and Emma doing just what she liked;
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highly esteeming Miss Taylor's judgment, but directed chiefly by
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her own.
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The real evils, indeed, of Emma's situation were the power of having
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rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little
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too well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened
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alloy to her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present
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so unperceived, that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes
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with her.
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Sorrow came--a gentle sorrow--but not at all in the shape of any
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disagreeable consciousness.--Miss Taylor married. It was Miss
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Taylor's loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day
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of this beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought
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of any continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone,
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her father and herself were left to dine together, with no prospect
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of a third to cheer a long evening. Her father composed himself
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to sleep after dinner, as usual, and she had then only to sit
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and think of what she had lost.
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The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston
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was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age,
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and pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering
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with what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished
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and promoted the match; but it was a black morning's work for her.
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The want of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day.
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She recalled her past kindness--the kindness, the affection of sixteen
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years--how she had taught and how she had played with her from five
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years old--how she had devoted all her powers to attach and amuse
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her in health--and how nursed her through the various illnesses
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of childhood. A large debt of gratitude was owing here; but the
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intercourse of the last seven years, the equal footing and perfect
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unreserve which had soon followed Isabella's marriage, on their
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being left to each other, was yet a dearer, tenderer recollection.
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She had been a friend and companion such as few possessed: intelligent,
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well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing all the ways of the family,
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interested in all its concerns, and peculiarly interested in herself,
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in every pleasure, every scheme of hers--one to whom she could speak
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every thought as it arose, and who had such an affection for her
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as could never find fault.
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How was she to bear the change?--It was true that her friend was
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going only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must
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be the difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them,
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and a Miss Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages,
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natural and domestic, she was now in great danger of suffering
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from intellectual solitude. She dearly loved her father, but he
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was no companion for her. He could not meet her in conversation,
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rational or playful.
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The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had
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not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits;
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for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity
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of mind or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years;
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and though everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart
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and his amiable temper, his talents could not have recommended him
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at any time.
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Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony,
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being settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond
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her daily reach; and many a long October and November evening must
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be struggled through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next
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visit from Isabella and her husband, and their little children,
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to fill the house, and give her pleasant society again.
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Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town,
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to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies,
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and name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses
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were first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had
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many acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil,
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but not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss
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Taylor for even half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma
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could not but sigh over it, and wish for impossible things,
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till her father awoke, and made it necessary to be cheerful.
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His spirits required support. He was a nervous man, easily depressed;
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fond of every body that he was used to, and hating to part with them;
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hating change of every kind. Matrimony, as the origin of change,
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was always disagreeable; and he was by no means yet reconciled
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to his own daughter's marrying, nor could ever speak of her but
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with compassion, though it had been entirely a match of affection,
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when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor too; and from
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his habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able to
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suppose that other people could feel differently from himself,
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he was very much disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad
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a thing for herself as for them, and would have been a great deal
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happier if she had spent all the rest of her life at Hartfield.
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Emma smiled and chatted as cheerfully as she could, to keep him
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from such thoughts; but when tea came, it was impossible for him
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not to say exactly as he had said at dinner,
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"Poor Miss Taylor!--I wish she were here again. What a pity it
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is that Mr. Weston ever thought of her!"
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"I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such
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a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves
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a good wife;--and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us
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for ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her own?"
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"A house of her own!--But where is the advantage of a house of her own?
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This is three times as large.--And you have never any odd humours,
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my dear."
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"How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see
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us!--We shall be always meeting! We must begin; we must go and pay
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wedding visit very soon."
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"My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance.
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I could not walk half so far."
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"No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage,
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to be sure."
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"The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for
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such a little way;--and where are the poor horses to be while we
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are paying our visit?"
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"They are to be put into Mr. Weston's stable, papa. You know we
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have settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston
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last night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like
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going to Randalls, because of his daughter's being housemaid there.
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I only doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was
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your doing, papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought
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of Hannah till you mentioned her--James is so obliged to you!"
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"I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would
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not have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account;
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and I am sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil,
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pretty-spoken girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her,
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she always curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner;
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and when you have had her here to do needlework, I observe she
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always turns the lock of the door the right way and never bangs it.
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I am sure she will be an excellent servant; and it will be a great
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comfort to poor Miss Taylor to have somebody about her that she is
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used to see. Whenever James goes over to see his daughter, you know,
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she will be hearing of us. He will be able to tell her how we
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all are."
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Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas,
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and hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably
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through the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own.
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The backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards
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walked in and made it unnecessary.
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Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not
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only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly
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connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella's husband.
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He lived about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor,
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and always welcome, and at this time more welcome than usual,
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as coming directly from their mutual connexions in London. He had
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returned to a late dinner, after some days' absence, and now walked
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up to Hartfield to say that all were well in Brunswick Square.
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It was a happy circumstance, and animated Mr. Woodhouse for some time.
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Mr. Knightley had a cheerful manner, which always did him good;
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and his many inquiries after "poor Isabella" and her children were
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answered most satisfactorily. When this was over, Mr. Woodhouse
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gratefully observed, "It is very kind of you, Mr. Knightley, to come
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out at this late hour to call upon us. I am afraid you must have
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had a shocking walk."
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"Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild
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that I must draw back from your great fire."
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"But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may
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not catch cold."
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"Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them."
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"Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal
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of rain here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour
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while we were at breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding."
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"By the bye--I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware
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of what sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry
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with my congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well.
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How did you all behave? Who cried most?"
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"Ah! poor Miss Taylor! 'Tis a sad business."
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"Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly
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say `poor Miss Taylor.' I have a great regard for you and Emma;
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but when it comes to the question of dependence or independence!--At
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any rate, it must be better to have only one to please than two."
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"Especially when one of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome creature!"
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said Emma playfully. "That is what you have in your head,
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I know--and what you would certainly say if my father were not by."
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"I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed," said Mr. Woodhouse,
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with a sigh. "I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome."
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"My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean you, or suppose
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Mr. Knightley to mean you. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant
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only myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know--
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in a joke--it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another."
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Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see
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faults in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them:
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and though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself,
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she knew it would be so much less so to her father, that she would
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not have him really suspect such a circumstance as her not being
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thought perfect by every body.
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"Emma knows I never flatter her," said Mr. Knightley, "but I
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meant no reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used
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to have two persons to please; she will now have but one.
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The chances are that she must be a gainer."
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"Well," said Emma, willing to let it pass--"you want to hear
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about the wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all
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behaved charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their
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best looks: not a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no;
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we all felt that we were going to be only half a mile apart,
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and were sure of meeting every day."
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"Dear Emma bears every thing so well," said her father.
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"But, Mr. Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor,
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and I am sure she will miss her more than she thinks for."
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Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles.
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"It is impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion,"
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said Mr. Knightley. "We should not like her so well as we do, sir,
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if we could suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to
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Miss Taylor's advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be,
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at Miss Taylor's time of life, to be settled in a home of her own,
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and how important to her to be secure of a comfortable provision,
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and therefore cannot allow herself to feel so much pain as pleasure.
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Every friend of Miss Taylor must be glad to have her so happily
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married."
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"And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me," said Emma,
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"and a very considerable one--that I made the match myself.
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I made the match, you know, four years ago; and to have it take place,
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and be proved in the right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would
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never marry again, may comfort me for any thing."
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Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied,
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"Ah! my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things,
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for whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any
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more matches."
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"I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed,
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for other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And
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after such success, you know!--Every body said that Mr. Weston would
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never marry again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower
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so long, and who seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife,
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so constantly occupied either in his business in town or among his
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friends here, always acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful--
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Mr. Weston need not spend a single evening in the year alone if he did
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not like it. Oh no! Mr. Weston certainly would never marry again.
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Some people even talked of a promise to his wife on her deathbed,
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and others of the son and the uncle not letting him. All manner
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of solemn nonsense was talked on the subject, but I believed none
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of it.
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"Ever since the day--about four years ago--that Miss Taylor and I
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met with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle,
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he darted away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas
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for us from Farmer Mitchell's, I made up my mind on the subject.
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I planned the match from that hour; and when such success has blessed
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me in this instance, dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave
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off match-making."
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"I do not understand what you mean by `success,'" said Mr. Knightley.
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"Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and
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delicately spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four
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years to bring about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young
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lady's mind! But if, which I rather imagine, your making the match,
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as you call it, means only your planning it, your saying to yourself
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one idle day, `I think it would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor
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if Mr. Weston were to marry her,' and saying it again to yourself
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every now and then afterwards, why do you talk of success? Where
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is your merit? What are you proud of? You made a lucky guess;
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and that is all that can be said."
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"And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?--
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I pity you.--I thought you cleverer--for, depend upon it a lucky
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guess is never merely luck. There is always some talent in it.
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And as to my poor word `success,' which you quarrel with, I do not
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know that I am so entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn
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two pretty pictures; but I think there may be a third--a something
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between the do-nothing and the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston's
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visits here, and given many little encouragements, and smoothed
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many little matters, it might not have come to any thing after all.
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I think you must know Hartfield enough to comprehend that."
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"A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational,
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unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their
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own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself,
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than good to them, by interference."
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"Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others,"
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rejoined Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. "But, my dear,
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pray do not make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up
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one's family circle grievously."
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"Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You
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like Mr. Elton, papa,--I must look about for a wife for him.
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There is nobody in Highbury who deserves him--and he has been
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here a whole year, and has fitted up his house so comfortably,
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that it would be a shame to have him single any longer--and I thought
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when he was joining their hands to-day, he looked so very much as if
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he would like to have the same kind office done for him! I think
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very well of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I have of doing
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him a service."
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"Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very
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good young man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you
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want to shew him any attention, my dear, ask him to come
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and dine with us some day. That will be a much better thing.
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I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so kind as to meet him."
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"With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time," said Mr. Knightley,
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laughing, "and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much
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better thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best
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of the fish and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife.
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Depend upon it, a man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care
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of himself."
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CHAPTER II
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Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family,
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which for the last two or three generations had been rising into
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gentility and property. He had received a good education, but,
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on succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become
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indisposed for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers
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were engaged, and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social
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temper by entering into the militia of his county, then embodied.
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Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances
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of his military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill,
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of a great Yorkshire family, and Miss Churchill fell in love
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with him, nobody was surprized, except her brother and his wife,
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who had never seen him, and who were full of pride and importance,
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which the connexion would offend.
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Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command
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of her fortune--though her fortune bore no proportion to the
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family-estate--was not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it
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took place, to the infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill,
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who threw her off with due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion,
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and did not produce much happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found
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more in it, for she had a husband whose warm heart and sweet temper
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made him think every thing due to her in return for the great goodness
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of being in love with him; but though she had one sort of spirit,
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she had not the best. She had resolution enough to pursue
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her own will in spite of her brother, but not enough to refrain
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from unreasonable regrets at that brother's unreasonable anger,
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nor from missing the luxuries of her former home. They lived beyond
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their income, but still it was nothing in comparison of Enscombe:
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she did not cease to love her husband, but she wanted at once
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to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill of Enscombe.
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Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills,
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as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst
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of the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years' marriage,
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he was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain.
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From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved.
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The boy had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering
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illness of his mother's, been the means of a sort of reconciliation;
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and Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, having no children of their own,
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nor any other young creature of equal kindred to care for, offered to
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take the whole charge of the little Frank soon after her decease.
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Some scruples and some reluctance the widower-father may be supposed
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to have felt; but as they were overcome by other considerations,
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the child was given up to the care and the wealth of the Churchills,
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and he had only his own comfort to seek, and his own situation to
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improve as he could.
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A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia
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and engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a
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good way in London, which afforded him a favourable opening.
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It was a concern which brought just employment enough. He had still
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a small house in Highbury, where most of his leisure days were spent;
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and between useful occupation and the pleasures of society,
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the next eighteen or twenty years of his life passed cheerfully away.
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He had, by that time, realised an easy competence--enough to secure
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the purchase of a little estate adjoining Highbury, which he had
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always longed for--enough to marry a woman as portionless even
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as Miss Taylor, and to live according to the wishes of his own
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friendly and social disposition.
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It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence
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his schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth
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on youth, it had not shaken his determination of never settling
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till he could purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long
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looked forward to; but he had gone steadily on, with these objects
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in view, till they were accomplished. He had made his fortune,
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bought his house, and obtained his wife; and was beginning a new
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period of existence, with every probability of greater happiness
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than in any yet passed through. He had never been an unhappy man;
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his own temper had secured him from that, even in his first marriage;
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but his second must shew him how delightful a well-judging and truly
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amiable woman could be, and must give him the pleasantest proof
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of its being a great deal better to choose than to be chosen,
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to excite gratitude than to feel it.
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He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was
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his own; for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought
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up as his uncle's heir, it had become so avowed an adoption
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as to have him assume the name of Churchill on coming of age.
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It was most unlikely, therefore, that he should ever want his
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father's assistance. His father had no apprehension of it.
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The aunt was a capricious woman, and governed her husband entirely;
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but it was not in Mr. Weston's nature to imagine that any caprice
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could be strong enough to affect one so dear, and, as he believed,
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so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in London,
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and was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine
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young man had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too.
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He was looked on as sufficiently belonging to the place to make his
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merits and prospects a kind of common concern.
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Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively
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curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little
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returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming
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to visit his father had been often talked of but never achieved.
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Now, upon his father's marriage, it was very generally proposed,
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as a most proper attention, that the visit should take place.
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There was not a dissentient voice on the subject, either when
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Mrs. Perry drank tea with Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and
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Miss Bates returned the visit. Now was the time for Mr. Frank
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Churchill to come among them; and the hope strengthened when it was
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understood that he had written to his new mother on the occasion.
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For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury included some mention
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of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had received. "I suppose you
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have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank Churchill has written
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to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very handsome letter, indeed.
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Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and he
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says he never saw such a handsome letter in his life."
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It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course,
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formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing
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attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense,
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and a most welcome addition to every source and every expression
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of congratulation which her marriage had already secured. She felt
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herself a most fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough
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|
to know how fortunate she might well be thought, where the only
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regret was for a partial separation from friends whose friendship
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|
for her had never cooled, and who could ill bear to part with her.
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She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think,
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|
without pain, of Emma's losing a single pleasure, or suffering
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|
an hour's ennui, from the want of her companionableness: but dear
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|
Emma was of no feeble character; she was more equal to her situation
|
|
than most girls would have been, and had sense, and energy,
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|
and spirits that might be hoped would bear her well and happily
|
|
through its little difficulties and privations. And then there was
|
|
such comfort in the very easy distance of Randalls from Hartfield,
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|
so convenient for even solitary female walking, and in Mr. Weston's
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|
disposition and circumstances, which would make the approaching
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|
season no hindrance to their spending half the evenings in the
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|
week together.
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|
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Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude
|
|
to Mrs. Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her
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|
satisfaction---her more than satisfaction--her cheerful enjoyment,
|
|
was so just and so apparent, that Emma, well as she knew her father,
|
|
was sometimes taken by surprize at his being still able to pity
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|
`poor Miss Taylor,' when they left her at Randalls in the centre
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|
of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away in the evening
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|
attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her own.
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|
But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse's giving a gentle sigh,
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|
and saying, "Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay."
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|
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|
There was no recovering Miss Taylor--nor much likelihood of
|
|
ceasing to pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation
|
|
to Mr. Woodhouse. The compliments of his neighbours were over;
|
|
he was no longer teased by being wished joy of so sorrowful an event;
|
|
and the wedding-cake, which had been a great distress to him,
|
|
was all eat up. His own stomach could bear nothing rich, and he
|
|
could never believe other people to be different from himself.
|
|
What was unwholesome to him he regarded as unfit for any body;
|
|
and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade them from having
|
|
any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as earnestly
|
|
tried to prevent any body's eating it. He had been at the pains
|
|
of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr. Perry
|
|
was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were one
|
|
of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse's life; and upon being applied to,
|
|
he could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the
|
|
bias of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree
|
|
with many--perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately.
|
|
With such an opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped
|
|
to influence every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the
|
|
cake was eaten; and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till
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|
it was all gone.
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|
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|
There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys
|
|
being seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston's wedding-cake in their
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|
hands: but Mr. Woodhouse would never believe it.
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|
CHAPTER III
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Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much
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|
to have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes,
|
|
from his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature,
|
|
from his fortune, his house, and his daughter, he could command the
|
|
visits of his own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked.
|
|
He had not much intercourse with any families beyond that circle;
|
|
his horror of late hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit
|
|
for any acquaintance but such as would visit him on his own terms.
|
|
Fortunately for him, Highbury, including Randalls in the same parish,
|
|
and Donwell Abbey in the parish adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley,
|
|
comprehended many such. Not unfrequently, through Emma's persuasion,
|
|
he had some of the chosen and the best to dine with him: but evening
|
|
parties were what he preferred; and, unless he fancied himself at any
|
|
time unequal to company, there was scarcely an evening in the week
|
|
in which Emma could not make up a card-table for him.
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|
|
|
Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley;
|
|
and by Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it,
|
|
the privilege of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude
|
|
for the elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse's drawing-room,
|
|
and the smiles of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being
|
|
thrown away.
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|
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|
After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able
|
|
of whom were Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies
|
|
almost always at the service of an invitation from Hartfield,
|
|
and who were fetched and carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
thought it no hardship for either James or the horses. Had it
|
|
taken place only once a year, it would have been a grievance.
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|
|
|
Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a
|
|
very old lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille.
|
|
She lived with her single daughter in a very small way, and was
|
|
considered with all the regard and respect which a harmless old lady,
|
|
under such untoward circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed
|
|
a most uncommon degree of popularity for a woman neither young,
|
|
handsome, rich, nor married. Miss Bates stood in the very worst
|
|
predicament in the world for having much of the public favour;
|
|
and she had no intellectual superiority to make atonement to herself,
|
|
or frighten those who might hate her into outward respect.
|
|
She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness. Her youth
|
|
had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was devoted
|
|
to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a small
|
|
income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman,
|
|
and a woman whom no one named without good-will. It was her own
|
|
universal good-will and contented temper which worked such wonders.
|
|
She loved every body, was interested in every body's happiness,
|
|
quicksighted to every body's merits; thought herself a most fortunate
|
|
creature, and surrounded with blessings in such an excellent mother,
|
|
and so many good neighbours and friends, and a home that wanted
|
|
for nothing. The simplicity and cheerfulness of her nature,
|
|
her contented and grateful spirit, were a recommendation to every body,
|
|
and a mine of felicity to herself. She was a great talker upon
|
|
little matters, which exactly suited Mr. Woodhouse, full of trivial
|
|
communications and harmless gossip.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School--not of a seminary,
|
|
or an establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of
|
|
refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant morality,
|
|
upon new principles and new systems--and where young ladies for
|
|
enormous pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity--but
|
|
a real, honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable
|
|
quantity of accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price,
|
|
and where girls might be sent to be out of the way, and scramble
|
|
themselves into a little education, without any danger of coming
|
|
back prodigies. Mrs. Goddard's school was in high repute--and
|
|
very deservedly; for Highbury was reckoned a particularly healthy
|
|
spot: she had an ample house and garden, gave the children plenty
|
|
of wholesome food, let them run about a great deal in the summer,
|
|
and in winter dressed their chilblains with her own hands.
|
|
It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple now walked
|
|
after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of woman,
|
|
who had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself entitled
|
|
to the occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly
|
|
owed much to Mr. Woodhouse's kindness, felt his particular claim
|
|
on her to leave her neat parlour, hung round with fancy-work,
|
|
whenever she could, and win or lose a few sixpences by his fireside.
|
|
|
|
These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently
|
|
able to collect; and happy was she, for her father's sake,
|
|
in the power; though, as far as she was herself concerned,
|
|
it was no remedy for the absence of Mrs. Weston. She was delighted
|
|
to see her father look comfortable, and very much pleased with
|
|
herself for contriving things so well; but the quiet prosings
|
|
of three such women made her feel that every evening so spent
|
|
was indeed one of the long evenings she had fearfully anticipated.
|
|
|
|
As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close
|
|
of the present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting,
|
|
in most respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her;
|
|
a most welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen,
|
|
whom Emma knew very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in,
|
|
on account of her beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned,
|
|
and the evening no longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.
|
|
|
|
Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had
|
|
placed her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard's school,
|
|
and somebody had lately raised her from the condition of scholar
|
|
to that of parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known
|
|
of her history. She had no visible friends but what had been
|
|
acquired at Highbury, and was now just returned from a long visit
|
|
in the country to some young ladies who had been at school there with her.
|
|
|
|
She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort
|
|
which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair,
|
|
with a fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features,
|
|
and a look of great sweetness, and, before the end of the evening,
|
|
Emma was as much pleased with her manners as her person, and quite
|
|
determined to continue the acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith's
|
|
conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging--not
|
|
inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk--and yet so far from pushing,
|
|
shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly
|
|
grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly
|
|
impressed by the appearance of every thing in so superior a style
|
|
to what she had been used to, that she must have good sense,
|
|
and deserve encouragement. Encouragement should be given.
|
|
Those soft blue eyes, and all those natural graces, should not be
|
|
wasted on the inferior society of Highbury and its connexions.
|
|
The acquaintance she had already formed were unworthy of her.
|
|
The friends from whom she had just parted, though very good sort
|
|
of people, must be doing her harm. They were a family of the name
|
|
of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as renting a large farm
|
|
of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of Donwell--very creditably,
|
|
she believed--she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of them--but they
|
|
must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit to be the intimates
|
|
of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge and elegance
|
|
to be quite perfect. She would notice her; she would improve her;
|
|
she would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and introduce her
|
|
into good society; she would form her opinions and her manners.
|
|
It would be an interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking;
|
|
highly becoming her own situation in life, her leisure, and powers.
|
|
|
|
She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking
|
|
and listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that
|
|
the evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table,
|
|
which always closed such parties, and for which she had been
|
|
used to sit and watch the due time, was all set out and ready,
|
|
and moved forwards to the fire, before she was aware. With an
|
|
alacrity beyond the common impulse of a spirit which yet was never
|
|
indifferent to the credit of doing every thing well and attentively,
|
|
with the real good-will of a mind delighted with its own ideas,
|
|
did she then do all the honours of the meal, and help and recommend
|
|
the minced chicken and scalloped oysters, with an urgency which she
|
|
knew would be acceptable to the early hours and civil scruples of their guests.
|
|
|
|
Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouses feelings were in sad warfare.
|
|
He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion
|
|
of his youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome
|
|
made him rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his
|
|
hospitality would have welcomed his visitors to every thing,
|
|
his care for their health made him grieve that they would eat.
|
|
|
|
Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that
|
|
he could, with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he
|
|
might constrain himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing
|
|
the nicer things, to say:
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs.
|
|
An egg boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling
|
|
an egg better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled
|
|
by any body else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small,
|
|
you see--one of our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates,
|
|
let Emma help you to a little bit of tart--a very little bit.
|
|
Ours are all apple-tarts. You need not be afraid of unwholesome
|
|
preserves here. I do not advise the custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say
|
|
you to half a glass of wine? A small half-glass, put into a tumbler
|
|
of water? I do not think it could disagree with you."
|
|
|
|
Emma allowed her father to talk--but supplied her visitors in
|
|
a much more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had
|
|
particular pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness
|
|
of Miss Smith was quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse
|
|
was so great a personage in Highbury, that the prospect of the
|
|
introduction had given as much panic as pleasure; but the humble,
|
|
grateful little girl went off with highly gratified feelings,
|
|
delighted with the affability with which Miss Woodhouse had treated
|
|
her all the evening, and actually shaken hands with her at last!
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
|
|
|
Harriet Smith's intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing.
|
|
Quick and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging,
|
|
and telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased,
|
|
so did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion,
|
|
Emma had very early foreseen how useful she might find her.
|
|
In that respect Mrs. Weston's loss had been important. Her father
|
|
never went beyond the shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground
|
|
sufficed him for his long walk, or his short, as the year varied;
|
|
and since Mrs. Weston's marriage her exercise had been too much confined.
|
|
She had ventured once alone to Randalls, but it was not pleasant;
|
|
and a Harriet Smith, therefore, one whom she could summon at any
|
|
time to a walk, would be a valuable addition to her privileges.
|
|
But in every respect, as she saw more of her, she approved her,
|
|
and was confirmed in all her kind designs.
|
|
|
|
Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile,
|
|
grateful disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring
|
|
to be guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment
|
|
to herself was very amiable; and her inclination for good company,
|
|
and power of appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that
|
|
there was no want of taste, though strength of understanding must
|
|
not be expected. Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet
|
|
Smith's being exactly the young friend she wanted--exactly the
|
|
something which her home required. Such a friend as Mrs. Weston
|
|
was out of the question. Two such could never be granted.
|
|
Two such she did not want. It was quite a different sort of thing,
|
|
a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was the object
|
|
of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem.
|
|
Harriet would be loved as one to whom she could be useful.
|
|
For Mrs. Weston there was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.
|
|
|
|
Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who
|
|
were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell
|
|
every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain.
|
|
Emma was obliged to fancy what she liked--but she could never
|
|
believe that in the same situation she should not have discovered
|
|
the truth. Harriet had no penetration. She had been satisfied
|
|
to hear and believe just what Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her;
|
|
and looked no farther.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of the
|
|
school in general, formed naturally a great part of the conversation--and
|
|
but for her acquaintance with the Martins of Abbey-Mill Farm,
|
|
it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied her thoughts
|
|
a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with them,
|
|
and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe
|
|
the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her
|
|
talkativeness-- amused by such a picture of another set of beings,
|
|
and enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much
|
|
exultation of Mrs. Martin's having "two parlours, two very good parlours,
|
|
indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard's drawing-room;
|
|
and of her having an upper maid who had lived five-and-twenty years
|
|
with her; and of their having eight cows, two of them Alderneys,
|
|
and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch cow indeed;
|
|
and of Mrs. Martin's saying as she was so fond of it, it should be
|
|
called her cow; and of their having a very handsome summer-house
|
|
in their garden, where some day next year they were all to drink
|
|
tea:-- a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen people."
|
|
|
|
For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate cause;
|
|
but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings arose.
|
|
She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and daughter,
|
|
a son and son's wife, who all lived together; but when it appeared
|
|
that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was always
|
|
mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing something
|
|
or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs. Martin,
|
|
no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little
|
|
friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she
|
|
were not taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.
|
|
|
|
With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number
|
|
and meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin,
|
|
and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready
|
|
to speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry
|
|
evening games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very good-humoured
|
|
and obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in order to bring
|
|
her some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was of them,
|
|
and in every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his
|
|
shepherd's son into the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her.
|
|
She was very fond of singing. He could sing a little himself.
|
|
She believed he was very clever, and understood every thing.
|
|
He had a very fine flock, and, while she was with them,
|
|
he had been bid more for his wool than any body in the country.
|
|
She believed every body spoke well of him. His mother and sisters
|
|
were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had told her one day (and there
|
|
was a blush as she said it,) that it was impossible for any body
|
|
to be a better son, and therefore she was sure, whenever he married,
|
|
he would make a good husband. Not that she wanted him to marry.
|
|
She was in no hurry at all.
|
|
|
|
"Well done, Mrs. Martin!" thought Emma. "You know what you are about."
|
|
|
|
"And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send
|
|
Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose--the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had
|
|
ever seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all
|
|
the three teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson,
|
|
to sup with her."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line
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of his own business? He does not read?"
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"Oh yes!--that is, no--I do not know--but I believe he has
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read a good deal--but not what you would think any thing of.
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He reads the Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay
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in one of the window seats--but he reads all them to himself.
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But sometimes of an evening, before we went to cards, he would read
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something aloud out of the Elegant Extracts, very entertaining.
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And I know he has read the Vicar of Wakefield. He never read the
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Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of the Abbey. He had never
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heard of such books before I mentioned them, but he is determined
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to get them now as soon as ever he can."
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The next question was--
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"What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?"
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"Oh! not handsome--not at all handsome. I thought him very plain
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at first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know,
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after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every
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now and then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way
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to Kingston. He has passed you very often."
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"That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without
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having any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback
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or on foot, is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity.
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The yeomanry are precisely the order of people with whom I feel I
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can have nothing to do. A degree or two lower, and a creditable
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appearance might interest me; I might hope to be useful to their
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families in some way or other. But a farmer can need none of my help,
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and is, therefore, in one sense, as much above my notice as in every
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other he is below it."
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"To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have
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observed him; but he knows you very well indeed--I mean by sight."
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"I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man.
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I know, indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well.
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What do you imagine his age to be?"
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"He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is
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the 23rd just a fortnight and a day's difference--which is very odd."
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"Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is
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perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable
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as they are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him,
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she would probably repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet
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with a good sort of young woman in the same rank as his own,
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with a little money, it might be very desirable."
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"Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!"
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"Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry,
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who are not born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine,
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has his fortune entirely to make--cannot be at all beforehand with
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the world. Whatever money he might come into when his father died,
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whatever his share of the family property, it is, I dare say,
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all afloat, all employed in his stock, and so forth; and though,
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with diligence and good luck, he may be rich in time, it is next to
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impossible that he should have realised any thing yet."
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"To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably.
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They have no indoors man, else they do not want for any thing;
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and Mrs. Martin talks of taking a boy another year."
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"I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does
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marry;--I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife--for though
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his sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether
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objected to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit
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for you to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you
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particularly careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt
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of your being a gentleman's daughter, and you must support your
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claim to that station by every thing within your own power, or there
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will be plenty of people who would take pleasure in degrading you."
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"Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit
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at Hartfield, and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse,
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I am not afraid of what any body can do."
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"You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I
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would have you so firmly established in good society, as to be
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independent even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you
|
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permanently well connected, and to that end it will be advisable
|
|
to have as few odd acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say
|
|
that if you should still be in this country when Mr. Martin marries,
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I wish you may not be drawn in by your intimacy with the sisters,
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to be acquainted with the wife, who will probably be some mere
|
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farmer's daughter, without education."
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|
"To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any body
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|
but what had had some education--and been very well brought up.
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|
However, I do not mean to set up my opinion against your's--and I
|
|
am sure I shall not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall
|
|
always have a great regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth,
|
|
and should be very sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well
|
|
educated as me. But if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman,
|
|
certainly I had better not visit her, if I can help it."
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Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech,
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|
and saw no alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been
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|
the first admirer, but she trusted there was no other hold,
|
|
and that there would be no serious difficulty, on Harriet's side,
|
|
to oppose any friendly arrangement of her own.
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|
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|
They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the
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Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully
|
|
at her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion.
|
|
Emma was not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey;
|
|
and walking a few yards forward, while they talked together, soon made
|
|
her quick eye sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin.
|
|
His appearance was very neat, and he looked like a sensible young man,
|
|
but his person had no other advantage; and when he came to be
|
|
contrasted with gentlemen, she thought he must lose all the ground
|
|
he had gained in Harriet's inclination. Harriet was not insensible
|
|
of manner; she had voluntarily noticed her father's gentleness
|
|
with admiration as well as wonder. Mr. Martin looked as if he
|
|
did not know what manner was.
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|
|
|
They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must
|
|
not be kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a
|
|
smiling face, and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse
|
|
hoped very soon to compose.
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|
|
|
"Only think of our happening to meet him!--How very odd! It was
|
|
quite a chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls.
|
|
He did not think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked
|
|
towards Randalls most days. He has not been able to get the
|
|
Romance of the Forest yet. He was so busy the last time he was
|
|
at Kingston that he quite forgot it, but he goes again to-morrow.
|
|
So very odd we should happen to meet! Well, Miss Woodhouse, is he
|
|
like what you expected? What do you think of him? Do you think him
|
|
so very plain?"
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|
|
|
"He is very plain, undoubtedly--remarkably plain:--but that is
|
|
nothing compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no
|
|
right to expect much, and I did not expect much; but I had no
|
|
idea that he could be so very clownish, so totally without air.
|
|
I had imagined him, I confess, a degree or two nearer gentility."
|
|
|
|
"To be sure," said Harriet, in a mortified voice, "he is not
|
|
so genteel as real gentlemen."
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|
|
|
"I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been
|
|
repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen,
|
|
that you must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin.
|
|
At Hartfield, you have had very good specimens of well educated,
|
|
well bred men. I should be surprized if, after seeing them,
|
|
you could be in company with Mr. Martin again without perceiving
|
|
him to be a very inferior creature--and rather wondering at
|
|
yourself for having ever thought him at all agreeable before.
|
|
Do not you begin to feel that now? Were not you struck? I am sure
|
|
you must have been struck by his awkward look and abrupt manner,
|
|
and the uncouthness of a voice which I heard to be wholly unmodulated
|
|
as I stood here."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine
|
|
air and way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference
|
|
plain enough. But Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley's air is so remarkably good that it is not fair
|
|
to compare Mr. Martin with him. You might not see one in a hundred
|
|
with gentleman so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is
|
|
not the only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you
|
|
to Mr. Weston and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of them.
|
|
Compare their manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking;
|
|
of being silent. You must see the difference."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes!--there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost
|
|
an old man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty."
|
|
|
|
"Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a
|
|
person grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners
|
|
should not be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness,
|
|
or coarseness, or awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth
|
|
is detestable in later age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt;
|
|
what will he be at Mr. Weston's time of life?"
|
|
|
|
"There is no saying, indeed," replied Harriet rather solemnly.
|
|
|
|
"But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross,
|
|
vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking
|
|
of nothing but profit and loss."
|
|
|
|
"Will he, indeed? That will be very bad."
|
|
|
|
"How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the
|
|
circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended.
|
|
He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing
|
|
else--which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has
|
|
he to do with books? And I have no doubt that he will thrive,
|
|
and be a very rich man in time--and his being illiterate and coarse
|
|
need not disturb us."
|
|
|
|
"I wonder he did not remember the book"--was all Harriet's answer,
|
|
and spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might
|
|
be safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time.
|
|
Her next beginning was,
|
|
|
|
"In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton's manners are superior
|
|
to Mr. Knightley's or Mr. Weston's. They have more gentleness.
|
|
They might be more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness,
|
|
a quickness, almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body
|
|
likes in him, because there is so much good-humour with it--but
|
|
that would not do to be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley's
|
|
downright, decided, commanding sort of manner, though it suits
|
|
him very well; his figure, and look, and situation in life seem
|
|
to allow it; but if any young man were to set about copying him,
|
|
he would not be sufferable. On the contrary, I think a young man
|
|
might be very safely recommended to take Mr. Elton as a model.
|
|
Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging, and gentle.
|
|
He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I do not
|
|
know whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with either
|
|
of us, Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that his
|
|
manners are softer than they used to be. If he means any thing,
|
|
it must be to please you. Did not I tell you what he said of you
|
|
the other day?"
|
|
|
|
She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn
|
|
from Mr. Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed
|
|
and smiled, and said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving
|
|
the young farmer out of Harriet's head. She thought it would
|
|
be an excellent match; and only too palpably desirable, natural,
|
|
and probable, for her to have much merit in planning it.
|
|
She feared it was what every body else must think of and predict.
|
|
It was not likely, however, that any body should have equalled
|
|
her in the date of the plan, as it had entered her brain during
|
|
the very first evening of Harriet's coming to Hartfield. The longer
|
|
she considered it, the greater was her sense of its expediency.
|
|
Mr. Elton's situation was most suitable, quite the gentleman himself,
|
|
and without low connexions; at the same time, not of any family
|
|
that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet. He had a
|
|
comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient income;
|
|
for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known
|
|
to have some independent property; and she thought very highly
|
|
of him as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man,
|
|
without any deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.
|
|
|
|
She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful
|
|
girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield,
|
|
was foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet's there could be
|
|
little doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all
|
|
the usual weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing
|
|
young man, a young man whom any woman not fastidious might like.
|
|
He was reckoned very handsome; his person much admired in general,
|
|
though not by her, there being a want of elegance of feature which
|
|
she could not dispense with:--but the girl who could be gratified
|
|
by a Robert Martin's riding about the country to get walnuts
|
|
for her might very well be conquered by Mr. Elton's admiration.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER V
|
|
|
|
"I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston," said Mr. Knightley, "of
|
|
this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I think it a bad thing."
|
|
|
|
"A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?-- why so?"
|
|
|
|
"I think they will neither of them do the other any good."
|
|
|
|
"You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her
|
|
with a new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good.
|
|
I have been seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure.
|
|
How very differently we feel!--Not think they will do each other any
|
|
good! This will certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels
|
|
about Emma, Mr. Knightley."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you,
|
|
knowing Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here,
|
|
for he thinks exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking
|
|
of it only yesterday, and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma,
|
|
that there should be such a girl in Highbury for her to associate with.
|
|
Mr. Knightley, I shall not allow you to be a fair judge in this case.
|
|
You are so much used to live alone, that you do not know the value
|
|
of a companion; and, perhaps no man can be a good judge of the comfort
|
|
a woman feels in the society of one of her own sex, after being used
|
|
to it all her life. I can imagine your objection to Harriet Smith.
|
|
She is not the superior young woman which Emma's friend ought to be.
|
|
But on the other hand, as Emma wants to see her better informed,
|
|
it will be an inducement to her to read more herself. They will
|
|
read together. She means it, I know."
|
|
|
|
"Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve
|
|
years old. I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at
|
|
various times of books that she meant to read regularly through--and
|
|
very good lists they were--very well chosen, and very neatly
|
|
arranged--sometimes alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule.
|
|
The list she drew up when only fourteen--I remember thinking it
|
|
did her judgment so much credit, that I preserved it some time;
|
|
and I dare say she may have made out a very good list now. But I
|
|
have done with expecting any course of steady reading from Emma.
|
|
She will never submit to any thing requiring industry and patience,
|
|
and a subjection of the fancy to the understanding. Where Miss Taylor
|
|
failed to stimulate, I may safely affirm that Harriet Smith will do
|
|
nothing.-- You never could persuade her to read half so much as you
|
|
wished.--You know you could not."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say," replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, "that I thought
|
|
so then;--but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma's
|
|
omitting to do any thing I wished."
|
|
|
|
"There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as that,"--said
|
|
Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had done. "But I,"
|
|
he soon added, "who have had no such charm thrown over my senses,
|
|
must still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by being the
|
|
cleverest of her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of
|
|
being able to answer questions which puzzled her sister at seventeen.
|
|
She was always quick and assured: Isabella slow and diffident.
|
|
And ever since she was twelve, Emma has been mistress of the house
|
|
and of you all. In her mother she lost the only person able to cope
|
|
with her. She inherits her mother's talents, and must have been
|
|
under subjection to her."
|
|
|
|
"I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on
|
|
your recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse's family and wanted
|
|
another situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for
|
|
me to any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said he, smiling. "You are better placed here; very fit
|
|
for a wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing
|
|
yourself to be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield.
|
|
You might not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would
|
|
seem to promise; but you were receiving a very good education from her,
|
|
on the very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will,
|
|
and doing as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend
|
|
him a wife, I should certainly have named Miss Taylor."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife
|
|
to such a man as Mr. Weston."
|
|
|
|
"Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away,
|
|
and that with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing
|
|
to be borne. We will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross
|
|
from the wantonness of comfort, or his son may plague him."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not that.--It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not
|
|
foretell vexation from that quarter."
|
|
|
|
"Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma's
|
|
genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart,
|
|
the young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.--But
|
|
Harriet Smith--I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think
|
|
her the very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have.
|
|
She knows nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing.
|
|
She is a flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse,
|
|
because undesigned. Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can
|
|
Emma imagine she has any thing to learn herself, while Harriet
|
|
is presenting such a delightful inferiority? And as for Harriet,
|
|
I will venture to say that she cannot gain by the acquaintance.
|
|
Hartfield will only put her out of conceit with all the other places
|
|
she belongs to. She will grow just refined enough to be uncomfortable
|
|
with those among whom birth and circumstances have placed her home.
|
|
I am much mistaken if Emma's doctrines give any strength of mind,
|
|
or tend at all to make a girl adapt herself rationally to the varieties
|
|
of her situation in life.--They only give a little polish."
|
|
|
|
"I either depend more upon Emma's good sense than you do, or am more
|
|
anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance.
|
|
How well she looked last night!"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you?
|
|
Very well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma's being pretty."
|
|
|
|
"Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer
|
|
perfect beauty than Emma altogether-- face and figure?"
|
|
|
|
"I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have
|
|
seldom seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers.
|
|
But I am a partial old friend."
|
|
|
|
"Such an eye!--the true hazle eye--and so brilliant! regular features,
|
|
open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health,
|
|
and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure!
|
|
There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head,
|
|
her glance. One hears sometimes of a child being `the picture
|
|
of health;' now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete
|
|
picture of grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley,
|
|
is not she?"
|
|
|
|
"I have not a fault to find with her person," he replied.
|
|
"I think her all you describe. I love to look at her; and I
|
|
will add this praise, that I do not think her personally vain.
|
|
Considering how very handsome she is, she appears to be little
|
|
occupied with it; her vanity lies another way. Mrs. Weston, I am
|
|
not to be talked out of my dislike of Harriet Smith, or my dread
|
|
of its doing them both harm."
|
|
|
|
"And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its
|
|
not doing them any harm. With all dear Emma's little faults,
|
|
she is an excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter,
|
|
or a kinder sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities
|
|
which may be trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong;
|
|
she will make no lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the
|
|
right a hundred times."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel,
|
|
and I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John
|
|
and Isabella. John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore
|
|
not a blind affection, and Isabella always thinks as he does;
|
|
except when he is not quite frightened enough about the children.
|
|
I am sure of having their opinions with me."
|
|
|
|
"I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind;
|
|
but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself,
|
|
you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma's
|
|
mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think
|
|
any possible good can arise from Harriet Smith's intimacy being made
|
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a matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing
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any little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy,
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it cannot be expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father,
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who perfectly approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it,
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so long as it is a source of pleasure to herself. It has been so
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many years my province to give advice, that you cannot be surprized,
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Mr. Knightley, at this little remains of office."
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"Not at all," cried he; "I am much obliged to you for it.
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It is very good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your
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advice has often found; for it shall be attended to."
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"Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy
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about her sister."
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"Be satisfied," said he, "I will not raise any outcry. I will keep
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my ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma.
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Isabella does not seem more my sister; has never excited a
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greater interest; perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety,
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a curiosity in what one feels for Emma. I wonder what will become
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of her!"
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"So do I," said Mrs. Weston gently, "very much."
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"She always declares she will never marry, which, of course,
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means just nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet
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ever seen a man she cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her
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to be very much in love with a proper object. I should like to see
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Emma in love, and in some doubt of a return; it would do her good.
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But there is nobody hereabouts to attach her; and she goes so seldom
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from home."
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"There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break
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her resolution at present," said Mrs. Weston, "as can well be;
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and while she is so happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be
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forming any attachment which would be creating such difficulties
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on poor Mr. Woodhouse's account. I do not recommend matrimony
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at present to Emma, though I mean no slight to the state, I assure you."
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Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of
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her own and Mr. Weston's on the subject, as much as possible.
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There were wishes at Randalls respecting Emma's destiny, but it
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was not desirable to have them suspected; and the quiet transition
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which Mr. Knightley soon afterwards made to "What does Weston
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think of the weather; shall we have rain?" convinced her that he
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had nothing more to say or surmise about Hartfield.
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CHAPTER VI
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Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet's fancy
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a proper direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity
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to a very good purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible
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than before of Mr. Elton's being a remarkably handsome man, with most
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agreeable manners; and as she had no hesitation in following up
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the assurance of his admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon
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pretty confident of creating as much liking on Harriet's side,
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as there could be any occasion for. She was quite convinced
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of Mr. Elton's being in the fairest way of falling in love,
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if not in love already. She had no scruple with regard to him.
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He talked of Harriet, and praised her so warmly, that she could
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not suppose any thing wanting which a little time would not add.
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His perception of the striking improvement of Harriet's manner,
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since her introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the least
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agreeable proofs of his growing attachment.
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"You have given Miss Smith all that she required," said he;
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"you have made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature
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when she came to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have
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added are infinitely superior to what she received from nature."
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"I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet
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only wanted drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints.
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She had all the natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness
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in herself. I have done very little."
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"If it were admissible to contradict a lady," said the gallant
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Mr. Elton--
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"I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character,
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have taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her
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way before."
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"Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded
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decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!"
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"Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with
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a disposition more truly amiable."
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"I have no doubt of it." And it was spoken with a sort
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of sighing animation, which had a vast deal of the lover.
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She was not less pleased another day with the manner
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in which he seconded a sudden wish of hers, to have Harriet's picture.
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"Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?" said she: "did
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you ever sit for your picture?"
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Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say,
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with a very interesting naivete,
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"Oh! dear, no, never."
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No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,
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"What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would
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give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself.
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You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had
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a great passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of
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my friends, and was thought to have a tolerable eye in general.
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But from one cause or another, I gave it up in disgust.
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But really, I could almost venture, if Harriet would sit to me.
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It would be such a delight to have her picture!"
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"Let me entreat you," cried Mr. Elton; "it would indeed be a delight!
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Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a
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talent in favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are.
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How could you suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in
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specimens of your landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston
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some inimitable figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?"
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Yes, good man!--thought Emma--but what has all that to do with taking
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likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don't pretend to be
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|
in raptures about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet's face.
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"Well, if you give me such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe
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I shall try what I can do. Harriet's features are very delicate,
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which makes a likeness difficult; and yet there is a peculiarity
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in the shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth which one ought
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to catch."
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"Exactly so--The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth--I
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have not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it.
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As you will do it, it will indeed, to use your own words,
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be an exquisite possession."
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"But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit.
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She thinks so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her
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manner of answering me? How completely it meant, `why should my
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picture be drawn?'"
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"Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me.
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But still I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded."
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Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made;
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and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the earnest
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|
pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work directly,
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and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various attempts
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|
at portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that they
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|
might decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many
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|
beginnings were displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths,
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|
pencil, crayon, and water-colours had been all tried in turn.
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|
She had always wanted to do every thing, and had made more progress
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|
both in drawing and music than many might have done with so little
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labour as she would ever submit to. She played and sang;--and drew
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|
in almost every style; but steadiness had always been wanting;
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|
and in nothing had she approached the degree of excellence which she
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|
would have been glad to command, and ought not to have failed of.
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|
She was not much deceived as to her own skill either as an artist
|
|
or a musician, but she was not unwilling to have others deceived,
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|
or sorry to know her reputation for accomplishment often higher
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|
than it deserved.
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There was merit in every drawing--in the least finished, perhaps the most;
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her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had there
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|
been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions
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|
would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A likeness
|
|
pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse's performances must be capital.
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"No great variety of faces for you," said Emma. "I had only my
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|
own family to study from. There is my father--another of my
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|
father--but the idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous,
|
|
that I could only take him by stealth; neither of them very
|
|
like therefore. Mrs. Weston again, and again, and again, you see.
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Dear Mrs. Weston! always my kindest friend on every occasion.
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|
She would sit whenever I asked her. There is my sister; and really
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|
quite her own little elegant figure!--and the face not unlike.
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|
I should have made a good likeness of her, if she would have
|
|
sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to have me draw her four
|
|
children that she would not be quiet. Then, here come all my
|
|
attempts at three of those four children;--there they are,
|
|
Henry and John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other,
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|
and any one of them might do for any one of the rest. She was so
|
|
eager to have them drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no
|
|
making children of three or four years old stand still you know;
|
|
nor can it be very easy to take any likeness of them, beyond the
|
|
air and complexion, unless they are coarser featured than any
|
|
of mama's children ever were. Here is my sketch of the fourth,
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|
who was a baby. I took him as he was sleeping on the sofa, and it
|
|
is as strong a likeness of his cockade as you would wish to see.
|
|
He had nestled down his head most conveniently. That's very like.
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|
I am rather proud of little George. The corner of the sofa is very good.
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|
Then here is my last,"--unclosing a pretty sketch of a gentleman
|
|
in small size, whole-length-- "my last and my best--my brother,
|
|
Mr. John Knightley. --This did not want much of being finished, when I
|
|
put it away in a pet, and vowed I would never take another likeness.
|
|
I could not help being provoked; for after all my pains, and when I
|
|
had really made a very good likeness of it--(Mrs. Weston and I
|
|
were quite agreed in thinking it very like)--only too handsome--too
|
|
flattering--but that was a fault on the right side-- after
|
|
all this, came poor dear Isabella's cold approbation of--"Yes,
|
|
it was a little like--but to be sure it did not do him justice."
|
|
We had had a great deal of trouble in persuading him to sit at all.
|
|
It was made a great favour of; and altogether it was more than I
|
|
could bear; and so I never would finish it, to have it apologised
|
|
over as an unfavourable likeness, to every morning visitor in
|
|
Brunswick Square;--and, as I said, I did then forswear ever drawing
|
|
any body again. But for Harriet's sake, or rather for my own,
|
|
and as there are no husbands and wives in the case at present,
|
|
I will break my resolution now."
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|
|
|
Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea,
|
|
and was repeating, "No husbands and wives in the case at present
|
|
indeed, as you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives,"
|
|
with so interesting a consciousness, that Emma began to consider
|
|
whether she had not better leave them together at once. But as she
|
|
wanted to be drawing, the declaration must wait a little longer.
|
|
|
|
She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait.
|
|
It was to be a whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John
|
|
Knightley's, and was destined, if she could please herself,
|
|
to hold a very honourable station over the mantelpiece.
|
|
|
|
The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid
|
|
of not keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet
|
|
mixture of youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist.
|
|
But there was no doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind
|
|
her and watching every touch. She gave him credit for stationing
|
|
himself where he might gaze and gaze again without offence;
|
|
but was really obliged to put an end to it, and request him to
|
|
place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to her to employ him
|
|
in reading.
|
|
|
|
"If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness
|
|
indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen
|
|
the irksomeness of Miss Smith's."
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|
|
|
Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew
|
|
in peace. She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look;
|
|
any thing less would certainly have been too little in a lover;
|
|
and he was ready at the smallest intermission of the pencil,
|
|
to jump up and see the progress, and be charmed.--There was no
|
|
being displeased with such an encourager, for his admiration
|
|
made him discern a likeness almost before it was possible.
|
|
She could not respect his eye, but his love and his complaisance
|
|
were unexceptionable.
|
|
|
|
The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite
|
|
enough pleased with the first day's sketch to wish to go on.
|
|
There was no want of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude,
|
|
and as she meant to throw in a little improvement to the figure,
|
|
to give a little more height, and considerably more elegance, she had
|
|
great confidence of its being in every way a pretty drawing at last,
|
|
and of its filling its destined place with credit to them both--a
|
|
standing memorial of the beauty of one, the skill of the other,
|
|
and the friendship of both; with as many other agreeable associations
|
|
as Mr. Elton's very promising attachment was likely to add.
|
|
|
|
Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought,
|
|
entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.
|
|
|
|
"By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one
|
|
of the party."
|
|
|
|
The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction,
|
|
took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress
|
|
of the picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it
|
|
was pleased, but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended
|
|
it through every criticism.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she
|
|
wanted,"--observed Mrs. Weston to him--not in the least suspecting
|
|
that she was addressing a lover.--"The expression of the eye is
|
|
most correct, but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes.
|
|
It is the fault of her face that she has them not."
|
|
|
|
"Do you think so?" replied he. "I cannot agree with you.
|
|
It appears to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature.
|
|
I never saw such a likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect
|
|
of shade, you know."
|
|
|
|
"You have made her too tall, Emma," said Mr. Knightley.
|
|
|
|
Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly added,
|
|
|
|
"Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider,
|
|
she is sitting down--which naturally presents a different--which
|
|
in short gives exactly the idea--and the proportions must
|
|
be preserved, you know. Proportions, fore-shortening.--Oh no! it
|
|
gives one exactly the idea of such a height as Miss Smith's. Exactly so indeed!"
|
|
|
|
"It is very pretty," said Mr. Woodhouse. "So prettily done! Just
|
|
as your drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws
|
|
so well as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is,
|
|
that she seems to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl
|
|
over her shoulders--and it makes one think she must catch cold."
|
|
|
|
"But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer.
|
|
Look at the tree."
|
|
|
|
"But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear."
|
|
|
|
"You, sir, may say any thing," cried Mr. Elton, "but I must confess
|
|
that I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss
|
|
Smith out of doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable
|
|
spirit! Any other situation would have been much less in character.
|
|
The naivete of Miss Smith's manners--and altogether--Oh, it is
|
|
most admirable! I cannot keep my eyes from it. I never saw such
|
|
a likeness."
|
|
|
|
The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a
|
|
few difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London;
|
|
the order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose taste
|
|
could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all commissions,
|
|
must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in the fogs
|
|
of December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr. Elton,
|
|
than it was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert.
|
|
"Might he be trusted with the commission, what infinite pleasure
|
|
should he have in executing it! he could ride to London at any time.
|
|
It was impossible to say how much he should be gratified by being
|
|
employed on such an errand."
|
|
|
|
"He was too good!--she could not endure the thought!-- she would
|
|
not give him such a troublesome office for the world,"--brought
|
|
on the desired repetition of entreaties and assurances,--and
|
|
a very few minutes settled the business.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame,
|
|
and give the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it
|
|
as to ensure its safety without much incommoding him, while he
|
|
seemed mostly fearful of not being incommoded enough.
|
|
|
|
"What a precious deposit!" said he with a tender sigh, as he
|
|
received it.
|
|
|
|
"This man is almost too gallant to be in love," thought Emma.
|
|
"I should say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different
|
|
ways of being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit
|
|
Harriet exactly; it will be an `Exactly so,' as he says himself;
|
|
but he does sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more
|
|
than I could endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good
|
|
share as a second. But it is his gratitude on Harriet's account."
|
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|
|
CHAPTER VII
|
|
|
|
The very day of Mr. Elton's going to London produced a fresh occasion
|
|
for Emma's services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield,
|
|
as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home
|
|
to return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been
|
|
talked of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something
|
|
extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell.
|
|
Half a minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got
|
|
back to Mrs. Goddard's, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before,
|
|
and finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left
|
|
a little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away;
|
|
and on opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two
|
|
songs which she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself;
|
|
and this letter was from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct
|
|
proposal of marriage. "Who could have thought it? She was so surprized
|
|
she did not know what to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage;
|
|
and a very good letter, at least she thought so. And he wrote
|
|
as if he really loved her very much--but she did not know--and so,
|
|
she was come as fast as she could to ask Miss Woodhouse what she
|
|
should do.--" Emma was half-ashamed of her friend for seeming so
|
|
pleased and so doubtful.
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word," she cried, "the young man is determined not to lose
|
|
any thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can."
|
|
|
|
"Will you read the letter?" cried Harriet. "Pray do. I'd rather
|
|
you would."
|
|
|
|
Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized.
|
|
The style of the letter was much above her expectation.
|
|
There were not merely no grammatical errors, but as a composition it
|
|
would not have disgraced a gentleman; the language, though plain,
|
|
was strong and unaffected, and the sentiments it conveyed very much
|
|
to the credit of the writer. It was short, but expressed good sense,
|
|
warm attachment, liberality, propriety, even delicacy of feeling.
|
|
She paused over it, while Harriet stood anxiously watching for
|
|
her opinion, with a "Well, well," and was at last forced to add,
|
|
"Is it a good letter? or is it too short?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, indeed, a very good letter," replied Emma rather slowly--"so
|
|
good a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of
|
|
his sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young
|
|
man whom I saw talking with you the other day could express himself
|
|
so well, if left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the
|
|
style of a woman; no, certainly, it is too strong and concise;
|
|
not diffuse enough for a woman. No doubt he is a sensible man,
|
|
and I suppose may have a natural talent for--thinks strongly and
|
|
clearly--and when he takes a pen in hand, his thoughts naturally find
|
|
proper words. It is so with some men. Yes, I understand the sort
|
|
of mind. Vigorous, decided, with sentiments to a certain point,
|
|
not coarse. A better written letter, Harriet (returning it,)
|
|
than I had expected."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said the still waiting Harriet;--" well--and-- and what
|
|
shall I do?"
|
|
|
|
"What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard
|
|
to this letter?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes."
|
|
|
|
"But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course--and speedily."
|
|
|
|
"Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me."
|
|
|
|
"Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will
|
|
express yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your
|
|
not being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must
|
|
be unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude
|
|
and concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires,
|
|
will present themselves unbidden to your mind, I am persuaded.
|
|
You need not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow
|
|
for his disappointment."
|
|
|
|
"You think I ought to refuse him then," said Harriet, looking down.
|
|
|
|
"Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you
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in any doubt as to that? I thought--but I beg your pardon, perhaps I
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have been under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding
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you, if you feel in doubt as to the purport of your answer.
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I had imagined you were consulting me only as to the wording of it."
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Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:
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"You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect."
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"No, I do not; that is, I do not mean--What shall I do? What would
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you advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I
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ought to do."
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"I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to
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do with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings."
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"I had no notion that he liked me so very much," said Harriet,
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contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered
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in her silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery
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of that letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,
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"I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman doubts
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as to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought
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to refuse him. If she can hesitate as to `Yes,' she ought to say
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`No' directly. It is not a state to be safely entered into
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with doubtful feelings, with half a heart. I thought it my duty
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as a friend, and older than yourself, to say thus much to you.
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But do not imagine that I want to influence you."
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"Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to--but if you
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would just advise me what I had best do--No, no, I do not mean
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that--As you say, one's mind ought to be quite made up--One should
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not be hesitating--It is a very serious thing.--It will be safer
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to say `No,' perhaps.--Do you think I had better say `No?'"
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"Not for the world," said Emma, smiling graciously, "would I advise
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you either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness.
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If you prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him
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the most agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should
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you hesitate? You blush, Harriet.--Does any body else occur to you
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at this moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not
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deceive yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion.
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At this moment whom are you thinking of?"
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The symptoms were favourable.--Instead of answering, Harriet turned
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away confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though
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the letter was still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted
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about without regard. Emma waited the result with impatience,
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but not without strong hopes. At last, with some hesitation,
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Harriet said--
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"Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must
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do as well as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined,
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and really almost made up my mind--to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you
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think I am right?"
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"Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just
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what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings
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to myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no
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hesitation in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this.
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It would have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have
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been the consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in
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the smallest degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would
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not influence; but it would have been the loss of a friend to me.
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I could not have visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm.
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Now I am secure of you for ever."
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Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck
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her forcibly.
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"You could not have visited me!" she cried, looking aghast.
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"No, to be sure you could not; but I never thought of that before.
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That would have been too dreadful!--What an escape!--Dear Miss Woodhouse,
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I would not give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you
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for any thing in the world."
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"Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you;
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but it must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all
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good society. I must have given you up."
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"Dear me!--How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed
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me never to come to Hartfield any more!"
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"Dear affectionate creature!--You banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!--You
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confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life!
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I wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it.
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He must have a pretty good opinion of himself."
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"I do not think he is conceited either, in general," said Harriet,
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her conscience opposing such censure; "at least, he is very good natured,
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and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard
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for-- but that is quite a different thing from--and you know,
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though he may like me, it does not follow that I should--and
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certainly I must confess that since my visiting here I have seen
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people--and if one comes to compare them, person and manners,
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there is no comparison at all, one is so very handsome and agreeable.
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However, I do really think Mr. Martin a very amiable young man,
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and have a great opinion of him; and his being so much attached
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to me--and his writing such a letter--but as to leaving you,
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it is what I would not do upon any consideration."
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"Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not
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be parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked,
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or because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter."
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"Oh no;--and it is but a short letter too."
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Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a
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"very true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the
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clownish manner which might be offending her every hour of the day,
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to know that her husband could write a good letter."
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"Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always
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happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him.
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But how shall I do? That shall I say?"
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Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer,
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and advised its being written directly, which was agreed to,
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in the hope of her assistance; and though Emma continued to protest
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against any assistance being wanted, it was in fact given in the
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formation of every sentence. The looking over his letter again,
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in replying to it, had such a softening tendency, that it was
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particularly necessary to brace her up with a few decisive expressions;
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and she was so very much concerned at the idea of making him unhappy,
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and thought so much of what his mother and sisters would think and say,
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and was so anxious that they should not fancy her ungrateful,
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that Emma believed if the young man had come in her way at that moment,
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he would have been accepted after all.
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This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent.
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The business was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low
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all the evening, but Emma could allow for her amiable regrets,
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and sometimes relieved them by speaking of her own affection,
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sometimes by bringing forward the idea of Mr. Elton.
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"I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again," was said in rather
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|
a sorrowful tone.
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"Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet.
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You are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared
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to Abbey-Mill."
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"And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy
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but at Hartfield."
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Some time afterwards it was, "I think Mrs. Goddard would be very
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much surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash
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|
would--for Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married,
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|
and it is only a linen-draper."
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"One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the
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teacher of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you
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|
such an opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest
|
|
would appear valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you,
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|
I suppose she is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain
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|
person can hardly be among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet.
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|
Hitherto I fancy you and I are the only people to whom his looks
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and manners have explained themselves."
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Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering
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|
that people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was
|
|
certainly cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted
|
|
again towards the rejected Mr. Martin.
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"Now he has got my letter," said she softly. "I wonder what they
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|
are all doing--whether his sisters know--if he is unhappy,
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|
they will be unhappy too. I hope he will not mind it so very much."
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"Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more
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cheerfully employed," cried Emma. "At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton
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|
is shewing your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much
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|
more beautiful is the original, and after being asked for it five
|
|
or six times, allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name."
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"My picture!--But he has left my picture in Bond-street."
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"Has he so!--Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear
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|
little modest Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be
|
|
in Bond-street till just before he mounts his horse to-morrow.
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|
It is his companion all this evening, his solace, his delight.
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|
It opens his designs to his family, it introduces you among them,
|
|
it diffuses through the party those pleasantest feelings of our nature,
|
|
eager curiosity and warm prepossession. How cheerful, how animated,
|
|
how suspicious, how busy their imaginations all are!"
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Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.
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CHAPTER VIII
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Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she
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|
had been spending more than half her time there, and gradually
|
|
getting to have a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma
|
|
judged it best in every respect, safest and kindest, to keep her
|
|
with them as much as possible just at present. She was obliged
|
|
to go the next morning for an hour or two to Mrs. Goddard's,
|
|
but it was then to be settled that she should return to Hartfield,
|
|
to make a regular visit of some days.
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|
|
|
While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up
|
|
his mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it,
|
|
and was induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples
|
|
of his own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose.
|
|
Mr. Knightley, who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering
|
|
by his short, decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted
|
|
apologies and civil hesitations of the other.
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|
|
|
"Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you
|
|
will not consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take
|
|
Emma's advice and go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun
|
|
is out, I believe I had better take my three turns while I can.
|
|
I treat you without ceremony, Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we
|
|
are privileged people."
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|
|
|
"My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me."
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|
|
|
"I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy
|
|
to entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse
|
|
and take my three turns--my winter walk."
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|
|
|
"You cannot do better, sir."
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|
|
|
"I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley,
|
|
but I am a very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you;
|
|
and, besides, you have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I
|
|
think the sooner you go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat
|
|
and open the garden door for you."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being
|
|
immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined
|
|
for more chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking
|
|
of her with more voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot rate her beauty as you do," said he; "but she is a
|
|
pretty little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of
|
|
her disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with;
|
|
but in good hands she will turn out a valuable woman."
|
|
|
|
"I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be wanting."
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|
|
|
"Come," said he, "you are anxious for a compliment, so I will
|
|
tell you that you have improved her. You have cured her of her
|
|
school-girl's giggle; she really does you credit."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I
|
|
had been of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow
|
|
praise where they may. You do not often overpower me with it."
|
|
|
|
"You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?"
|
|
|
|
"Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than
|
|
she intended."
|
|
|
|
"Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps."
|
|
|
|
"Highbury gossips!--Tiresome wretches!"
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|
|
|
"Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would."
|
|
|
|
Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore
|
|
said nothing. He presently added, with a smile,
|
|
|
|
"I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you
|
|
that I have good reason to believe your little friend will soon
|
|
hear of something to her advantage."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! how so? of what sort?"
|
|
|
|
"A very serious sort, I assure you;" still smiling.
|
|
|
|
"Very serious! I can think of but one thing--Who is in love
|
|
with her? Who makes you their confidant?"
|
|
|
|
Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton's having dropt a hint.
|
|
Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew
|
|
Mr. Elton looked up to him.
|
|
|
|
"I have reason to think," he replied, "that Harriet Smith will
|
|
soon have an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable
|
|
quarter:--Robert Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill,
|
|
this summer, seems to have done his business. He is desperately
|
|
in love and means to marry her."
|
|
|
|
"He is very obliging," said Emma; "but is he sure that Harriet
|
|
means to marry him?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came
|
|
to the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it.
|
|
He knows I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and,
|
|
I believe, considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask
|
|
me whether I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early;
|
|
whether I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his
|
|
choice altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being
|
|
considered (especially since your making so much of her) as in a line
|
|
of society above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said.
|
|
I never hear better sense from any one than Robert Martin.
|
|
He always speaks to the purpose; open, straightforward, and very
|
|
well judging. He told me every thing; his circumstances and plans,
|
|
and what they all proposed doing in the event of his marriage. He is
|
|
an excellent young man, both as son and brother. I had no hesitation
|
|
in advising him to marry. He proved to me that he could afford it;
|
|
and that being the case, I was convinced he could not do better.
|
|
I praised the fair lady too, and altogether sent him away very happy.
|
|
If he had never esteemed my opinion before, he would have thought
|
|
highly of me then; and, I dare say, left the house thinking me the
|
|
best friend and counsellor man ever had. This happened the night
|
|
before last. Now, as we may fairly suppose, he would not allow
|
|
much time to pass before he spoke to the lady, and as he does not
|
|
appear to have spoken yesterday, it is not unlikely that he should
|
|
be at Mrs. Goddard's to-day; and she may be detained by a visitor,
|
|
without thinking him at all a tiresome wretch."
|
|
|
|
"Pray, Mr. Knightley," said Emma, who had been smiling to herself
|
|
through a great part of this speech, "how do you know that Mr. Martin
|
|
did not speak yesterday?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly," replied he, surprized, "I do not absolutely know it;
|
|
but it may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?"
|
|
|
|
"Come," said she, "I will tell you something, in return for what
|
|
you have told me. He did speak yesterday--that is, he wrote,
|
|
and was refused."
|
|
|
|
This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed;
|
|
and Mr. Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure,
|
|
as he stood up, in tall indignation, and said,
|
|
|
|
"Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her.
|
|
What is the foolish girl about?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! to be sure," cried Emma, "it is always incomprehensible
|
|
to a man that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage.
|
|
A man always imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is
|
|
the meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness,
|
|
if it is so; but I hope you are mistaken."
|
|
|
|
"I saw her answer!--nothing could be clearer."
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|
|
|
"You saw her answer!--you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is
|
|
your doing. You persuaded her to refuse him."
|
|
|
|
"And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should
|
|
not feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable
|
|
young man, but I cannot admit him to be Harriet's equal; and am
|
|
rather surprized indeed that he should have ventured to address her.
|
|
By your account, he does seem to have had some scruples. It is
|
|
a pity that they were ever got over."
|
|
|
|
"Not Harriet's equal!" exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly;
|
|
and with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, "No, he
|
|
is not her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense
|
|
as in situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you.
|
|
What are Harriet Smith's claims, either of birth, nature or education,
|
|
to any connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural
|
|
daughter of nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision
|
|
at all, and certainly no respectable relations. She is known only
|
|
as parlour-boarder at a common school. She is not a sensible girl,
|
|
nor a girl of any information. She has been taught nothing useful,
|
|
and is too young and too simple to have acquired any thing herself.
|
|
At her age she can have no experience, and with her little wit,
|
|
is not very likely ever to have any that can avail her.
|
|
She is pretty, and she is good tempered, and that is all.
|
|
My only scruple in advising the match was on his account, as being
|
|
beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion for him. I felt that,
|
|
as to fortune, in all probability he might do much better; and that as
|
|
to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he could not do worse.
|
|
But I could not reason so to a man in love, and was willing
|
|
to trust to there being no harm in her, to her having that sort
|
|
of disposition, which, in good hands, like his, might be easily led
|
|
aright and turn out very well. The advantage of the match I felt
|
|
to be all on her side; and had not the smallest doubt (nor have I now)
|
|
that there would be a general cry-out upon her extreme good luck.
|
|
Even your satisfaction I made sure of. It crossed my mind immediately
|
|
that you would not regret your friend's leaving Highbury, for the
|
|
sake of her being settled so well. I remember saying to myself,
|
|
`Even Emma, with all her partiality for Harriet, will think this a
|
|
good match.'"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say
|
|
any such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all
|
|
his merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate
|
|
friend! Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying
|
|
a man whom I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I
|
|
wonder you should think it possible for me to have such feelings.
|
|
I assure you mine are very different. I must think your statement
|
|
by no means fair. You are not just to Harriet's claims.
|
|
They would be estimated very differently by others as well as myself;
|
|
Mr. Martin may be the richest of the two, but he is undoubtedly
|
|
her inferior as to rank in society.--The sphere in which she moves
|
|
is much above his.--It would be a degradation."
|
|
|
|
"A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married
|
|
to a respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!"
|
|
|
|
"As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense
|
|
she may be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense.
|
|
She is not to pay for the offence of others, by being held below
|
|
the level of those with whom she is brought up.--There can scarcely
|
|
be a doubt that her father is a gentleman--and a gentleman of
|
|
fortune.--Her allowance is very liberal; nothing has ever been grudged
|
|
for her improvement or comfort.--That she is a gentleman's daughter,
|
|
is indubitable to me; that she associates with gentlemen's daughters,
|
|
no one, I apprehend, will deny.--She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
"Whoever might be her parents," said Mr. Knightley, "whoever may
|
|
have had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part
|
|
of their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society.
|
|
After receiving a very indifferent education she is left in
|
|
Mrs. Goddard's hands to shift as she can;--to move, in short,
|
|
in Mrs. Goddard's line, to have Mrs. Goddard's acquaintance.
|
|
Her friends evidently thought this good enough for her; and it was
|
|
good enough. She desired nothing better herself. Till you chose
|
|
to turn her into a friend, her mind had no distaste for her own set,
|
|
nor any ambition beyond it. She was as happy as possible with the
|
|
Martins in the summer. She had no sense of superiority then.
|
|
If she has it now, you have given it. You have been no friend to
|
|
Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin would never have proceeded so far,
|
|
if he had not felt persuaded of her not being disinclined to him.
|
|
I know him well. He has too much real feeling to address any
|
|
woman on the haphazard of selfish passion. And as to conceit,
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he is the farthest from it of any man I know. Depend upon it he
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had encouragement."
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It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this
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assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject again.
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"You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before,
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are unjust to Harriet. Harriet's claims to marry well are not
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so contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl,
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but she has better sense than you are aware of, and does not
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deserve to have her understanding spoken of so slightingly.
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Waiving that point, however, and supposing her to be, as you
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describe her, only pretty and good-natured, let me tell you, that in
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the degree she possesses them, they are not trivial recommendations
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to the world in general, for she is, in fact, a beautiful girl,
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and must be thought so by ninety-nine people out of an hundred;
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and till it appears that men are much more philosophic on the subject
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of beauty than they are generally supposed; till they do fall
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in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome faces, a girl,
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with such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of being admired
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and sought after, of having the power of chusing from among many,
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consequently a claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is not so very
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slight a claim, comprehending, as it does, real, thorough sweetness
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of temper and manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a great
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readiness to be pleased with other people. I am very much mistaken
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if your sex in general would not think such beauty, and such temper,
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the highest claims a woman could possess."
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"Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have,
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is almost enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense,
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than misapply it as you do."
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"To be sure!" cried she playfully. "I know that is the feeling
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of you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly
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what every man delights in--what at once bewitches his senses
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and satisfies his judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse.
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Were you, yourself, ever to marry, she is the very woman for you.
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And is she, at seventeen, just entering into life, just beginning
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to be known, to be wondered at because she does not accept the first
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offer she receives? No--pray let her have time to look about her."
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"I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy," said Mr. Knightley
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presently, "though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now
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perceive that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet.
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You will puff her up with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what
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she has a claim to, that, in a little while, nobody within her
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reach will be good enough for her. Vanity working on a weak head,
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produces every sort of mischief. Nothing so easy as for a young lady
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to raise her expectations too high. Miss Harriet Smith may not find
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offers of marriage flow in so fast, though she is a very pretty girl.
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Men of sense, whatever you may chuse to say, do not want silly wives.
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Men of family would not be very fond of connecting themselves
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with a girl of such obscurity-- and most prudent men would be
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afraid of the inconvenience and disgrace they might be involved in,
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when the mystery of her parentage came to be revealed. Let her marry
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Robert Martin, and she is safe, respectable, and happy for ever;
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but if you encourage her to expect to marry greatly, and teach
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her to be satisfied with nothing less than a man of consequence
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and large fortune, she may be a parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard's
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all the rest of her life--or, at least, (for Harriet Smith is a
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girl who will marry somebody or other,) till she grow desperate,
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and is glad to catch at the old writing-master's son."
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"We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley,
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that there can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making
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each other more angry. But as to my letting her marry Robert Martin,
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it is impossible; she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think,
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as must prevent any second application. She must abide by the evil
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of having refused him, whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself,
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I will not pretend to say that I might not influence her a little;
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but I assure you there was very little for me or for any body to do.
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His appearance is so much against him, and his manner so bad,
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that if she ever were disposed to favour him, she is not now.
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I can imagine, that before she had seen any body superior,
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she might tolerate him. He was the brother of her friends,
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and he took pains to please her; and altogether, having seen
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nobody better (that must have been his great assistant)
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she might not, while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him disagreeable.
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But the case is altered now. She knows now what gentlemen are;
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and nothing but a gentleman in education and manner has any chance
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with Harriet."
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"Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!" cried Mr. Knightley.--"Robert
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Martin's manners have sense, sincerity, and good-humour to recommend
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them; and his mind has more true gentility than Harriet Smith could understand."
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Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was
|
|
really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone.
|
|
She did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself
|
|
a better judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he
|
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could be; but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment
|
|
in general, which made her dislike having it so loudly against her;
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|
and to have him sitting just opposite to her in angry state,
|
|
was very disagreeable. Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence,
|
|
with only one attempt on Emma's side to talk of the weather,
|
|
but he made no answer. He was thinking. The result of his thoughts
|
|
appeared at last in these words.
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"Robert Martin has no great loss--if he can but think so; and I
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|
hope it will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet
|
|
are best known to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love
|
|
of match-making, it is fair to suppose that views, and plans,
|
|
and projects you have;--and as a friend I shall just hint to you
|
|
that if Elton is the man, I think it will be all labour in vain."
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Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,
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"Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man,
|
|
and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely
|
|
to make an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income
|
|
as well as any body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will
|
|
act rationally. He is as well acquainted with his own claims, as you
|
|
can be with Harriet's. He knows that he is a very handsome young man,
|
|
and a great favourite wherever he goes; and from his general way
|
|
of talking in unreserved moments, when there are only men present,
|
|
I am convinced that he does not mean to throw himself away.
|
|
I have heard him speak with great animation of a large family
|
|
of young ladies that his sisters are intimate with, who have all
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|
twenty thousand pounds apiece."
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"I am very much obliged to you," said Emma, laughing again.
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|
"If I had set my heart on Mr. Elton's marrying Harriet, it would
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|
have been very kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want
|
|
to keep Harriet to myself. I have done with match-making indeed.
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|
I could never hope to equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave
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|
off while I am well."
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"Good morning to you,"--said he, rising and walking off abruptly.
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|
He was very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man,
|
|
and was mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the
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|
sanction he had given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had
|
|
taken in the affair, was provoking him exceedingly.
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Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more
|
|
indistinctness in the causes of her's, than in his. She did not always
|
|
feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that
|
|
her opinions were right and her adversary's wrong, as Mr. Knightley.
|
|
He walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her.
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|
She was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little
|
|
time and the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives.
|
|
Harriet's staying away so long was beginning to make her uneasy.
|
|
The possibility of the young man's coming to Mrs. Goddard's
|
|
that morning, and meeting with Harriet and pleading his own cause,
|
|
gave alarming ideas. The dread of such a failure after all became the
|
|
prominent uneasiness; and when Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits,
|
|
and without having any such reason to give for her long absence,
|
|
she felt a satisfaction which settled her with her own mind,
|
|
and convinced her, that let Mr. Knightley think or say what he would,
|
|
she had done nothing which woman's friendship and woman's feelings
|
|
would not justify.
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|
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|
He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered
|
|
that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done,
|
|
neither with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself,
|
|
in spite of Mr. Knightley's pretensions) with the skill of such
|
|
an observer on such a question as herself, that he had spoken it
|
|
hastily and in anger, she was able to believe, that he had rather
|
|
said what he wished resentfully to be true, than what he knew
|
|
any thing about. He certainly might have heard Mr. Elton speak
|
|
with more unreserve than she had ever done, and Mr. Elton might not
|
|
be of an imprudent, inconsiderate disposition as to money matters;
|
|
he might naturally be rather attentive than otherwise to them;
|
|
but then, Mr. Knightley did not make due allowance for the influence
|
|
of a strong passion at war with all interested motives. Mr. Knightley
|
|
saw no such passion, and of course thought nothing of its effects;
|
|
but she saw too much of it to feel a doubt of its overcoming any
|
|
hesitations that a reasonable prudence might originally suggest;
|
|
and more than a reasonable, becoming degree of prudence, she was very
|
|
sure did not belong to Mr. Elton.
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|
|
|
Harriet's cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back,
|
|
not to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash
|
|
had been telling her something, which she repeated immediately
|
|
with great delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard's to attend
|
|
a sick child, and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash,
|
|
that as he was coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met
|
|
Mr. Elton, and found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was
|
|
actually on his road to London, and not meaning to return till
|
|
the morrow, though it was the whist-club night, which he had been
|
|
never known to miss before; and Mr. Perry had remonstrated with him
|
|
about it, and told him how shabby it was in him, their best player,
|
|
to absent himself, and tried very much to persuade him to put off
|
|
his journey only one day; but it would not do; Mr. Elton had been
|
|
determined to go on, and had said in a very particular way indeed,
|
|
that he was going on business which he would not put off for any
|
|
inducement in the world; and something about a very enviable commission,
|
|
and being the bearer of something exceedingly precious. Mr. Perry
|
|
could not quite understand him, but he was very sure there must
|
|
be a lady in the case, and he told him so; and Mr. Elton only
|
|
looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great spirits.
|
|
Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal more
|
|
about Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her,
|
|
"that she did not pretend to understand what his business might be,
|
|
but she only knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer,
|
|
she should think the luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt,
|
|
Mr. Elton had not his equal for beauty or agreeableness."
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CHAPTER IX
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|
Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel
|
|
with herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than
|
|
usual before he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet,
|
|
his grave looks shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry,
|
|
but could not repent. On the contrary, her plans and proceedings
|
|
were more and more justified and endeared to her by the general
|
|
appearances of the next few days.
|
|
|
|
The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after
|
|
Mr. Elton's return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common
|
|
sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half sentences
|
|
of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet's feelings, they were
|
|
visibly forming themselves into as strong and steady an attachment
|
|
as her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was soon perfectly
|
|
satisfied of Mr. Martin's being no otherwise remembered, than as
|
|
he furnished a contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage to the latter.
|
|
|
|
Her views of improving her little friend's mind, by a great deal
|
|
of useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than
|
|
a few first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow.
|
|
It was much easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let
|
|
her imagination range and work at Harriet's fortune, than to be
|
|
labouring to enlarge her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts;
|
|
and the only literary pursuit which engaged Harriet at present,
|
|
the only mental provision she was making for the evening of life,
|
|
was the collecting and transcribing all the riddles of every sort
|
|
that she could meet with, into a thin quarto of hot-pressed paper,
|
|
made up by her friend, and ornamented with ciphers and trophies.
|
|
|
|
In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale
|
|
are not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard's,
|
|
had written out at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken
|
|
the first hint of it from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse's help,
|
|
to get a great many more. Emma assisted with her invention,
|
|
memory and taste; and as Harriet wrote a very pretty hand,
|
|
it was likely to be an arrangement of the first order, in form
|
|
as well as quantity.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the girls,
|
|
and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting in.
|
|
"So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young-- he
|
|
wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time."
|
|
And it always ended in "Kitty, a fair but frozen maid."
|
|
|
|
His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject,
|
|
did not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind;
|
|
but he had desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about
|
|
so much, something, he thought, might come from that quarter.
|
|
|
|
It was by no means his daughter's wish that the intellects of
|
|
Highbury in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton
|
|
was the only one whose assistance she asked. He was invited
|
|
to contribute any really good enigmas, charades, or conundrums
|
|
that he might recollect; and she had the pleasure of seeing him
|
|
most intently at work with his recollections; and at the same time,
|
|
as she could perceive, most earnestly careful that nothing ungallant,
|
|
nothing that did not breathe a compliment to the sex should pass
|
|
his lips. They owed to him their two or three politest puzzles;
|
|
and the joy and exultation with which at last he recalled,
|
|
and rather sentimentally recited, that well-known charade,
|
|
|
|
My first doth affliction denote,
|
|
Which my second is destin'd to feel
|
|
And my whole is the best antidote
|
|
That affliction to soften and heal.--
|
|
|
|
made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it
|
|
some pages ago already.
|
|
|
|
"Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?" said she;
|
|
"that is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be
|
|
easier to you."
|
|
|
|
"Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind
|
|
in his life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss
|
|
Woodhouse"--he stopt a moment-- "or Miss Smith could inspire him."
|
|
|
|
The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration.
|
|
He called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the
|
|
table containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had
|
|
addressed to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which,
|
|
from his manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.
|
|
|
|
"I do not offer it for Miss Smith's collection," said he.
|
|
"Being my friend's, I have no right to expose it in any degree
|
|
to the public eye, but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it."
|
|
|
|
The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma
|
|
could understand. There was deep consciousness about him,
|
|
and he found it easier to meet her eye than her friend's.
|
|
He was gone the next moment:--after another moment's pause,
|
|
|
|
"Take it," said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards
|
|
Harriet--"it is for you. Take your own."
|
|
|
|
But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma,
|
|
never loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.
|
|
|
|
To Miss--
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|
CHARADE.
|
|
|
|
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
|
|
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
|
|
Another view of man, my second brings,
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
But ah! united, what reverse we have!
|
|
Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown;
|
|
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,
|
|
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
|
|
|
|
She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through
|
|
again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then
|
|
passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself,
|
|
while Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion
|
|
of hope and dulness, "Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed.
|
|
I have read worse charades. Courtship--a very good hint. I give
|
|
you credit for it. This is feeling your way. This is saying very
|
|
plainly-- `Pray, Miss Smith, give me leave to pay my addresses to you.
|
|
Approve my charade and my intentions in the same glance.'
|
|
|
|
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
|
|
|
|
Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye--of all epithets,
|
|
the justest that could be given.
|
|
|
|
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.
|
|
|
|
Humph--Harriet's ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much
|
|
in love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish
|
|
you had the benefit of this; I think this would convince you.
|
|
For once in your life you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken.
|
|
An excellent charade indeed! and very much to the purpose.
|
|
Things must come to a crisis soon now."
|
|
|
|
She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations,
|
|
which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the
|
|
eagerness of Harriet's wondering questions.
|
|
|
|
"What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?--what can it be? I have not an idea--I
|
|
cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try
|
|
to find it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing
|
|
so hard. Is it kingdom? I wonder who the friend was--and who could
|
|
be the young lady. Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?
|
|
|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
Can it be Neptune?
|
|
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only
|
|
one syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it.
|
|
Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?"
|
|
|
|
"Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you
|
|
thinking of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made
|
|
by a friend upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.
|
|
|
|
For Miss ----------, read Miss Smith.
|
|
|
|
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
|
|
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
|
|
|
|
That is court.
|
|
|
|
Another view of man, my second brings;
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
That is ship;--plain as it can be.--Now for the cream.
|
|
|
|
But ah! united, (courtship, you know,) what reverse we have!
|
|
Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown.
|
|
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
A very proper compliment!--and then follows the application,
|
|
which I think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty
|
|
in comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can
|
|
be no doubt of its being written for you and to you."
|
|
|
|
Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion.
|
|
She read the concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness.
|
|
She could not speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough
|
|
for her to feel. Emma spoke for her.
|
|
|
|
"There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,"
|
|
said she, "that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton's intentions.
|
|
You are his object-- and you will soon receive the completest proof
|
|
of it. I thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived;
|
|
but now, it is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided,
|
|
as my wishes on the subject have been ever since I knew you.
|
|
Yes, Harriet, just so long have I been wanting the very circumstance
|
|
to happen what has happened. I could never tell whether an attachment
|
|
between you and Mr. Elton were most desirable or most natural.
|
|
Its probability and its eligibility have really so equalled each
|
|
other! I am very happy. I congratulate you, my dear Harriet, with all
|
|
my heart. This is an attachment which a woman may well feel pride
|
|
in creating. This is a connexion which offers nothing but good.
|
|
It will give you every thing that you want--consideration, independence,
|
|
a proper home--it will fix you in the centre of all your real friends,
|
|
close to Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy for ever.
|
|
This, Harriet, is an alliance which can never raise a blush in either
|
|
of us."
|
|
|
|
"Dear Miss Woodhouse!"--and "Dear Miss Woodhouse," was all that Harriet,
|
|
with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when they
|
|
did arrive at something more like conversation, it was sufficiently
|
|
clear to her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and remembered
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just as she ought. Mr. Elton's superiority had very ample acknowledgment.
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"Whatever you say is always right," cried Harriet, "and therefore
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I suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could
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not have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve.
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Mr. Elton, who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions
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about him. He is so very superior. Only think of those sweet
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verses--"To Miss --------." Dear me, how clever!--Could it really
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be meant for me?"
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"I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that.
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It is a certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort
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of prologue to the play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon
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followed by matter-of-fact prose."
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"It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure,
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a month ago, I had no more idea myself!--The strangest things do
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take place!"
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"When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted--they do indeed--and
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really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is
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so evidently, so palpably desirable--what courts the pre-arrangement
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of other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form.
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You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong
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to one another by every circumstance of your respective homes.
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Your marrying will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does
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seem to be a something in the air of Hartfield which gives love
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exactly the right direction, and sends it into the very channel
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where it ought to flow.
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The course of true love never did run smooth--
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A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that passage."
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"That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,--me, of all people,
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who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he,
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the very handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body
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looks up to, quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after,
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that every body says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he
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does not chuse it; that he has more invitations than there are days
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in the week. And so excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down
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all the texts he has ever preached from since he came to Highbury.
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Dear me! When I look back to the first time I saw him! How little
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did I think!-- The two Abbots and I ran into the front room and
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peeped through the blind when we heard he was going by, and Miss
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Nash came and scolded us away, and staid to look through herself;
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however, she called me back presently, and let me look too,
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which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we thought he looked!
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He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole."
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"This is an alliance which, whoever--whatever your friends may be,
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must be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense;
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and we are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they
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are anxious to see you happily married, here is a man whose amiable
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character gives every assurance of it;--if they wish to have you
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settled in the same country and circle which they have chosen
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to place you in, here it will be accomplished; and if their only
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object is that you should, in the common phrase, be well married,
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here is the comfortable fortune, the respectable establishment,
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the rise in the world which must satisfy them."
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"Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you.
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You understand every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever
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as the other. This charade!--If I had studied a twelvemonth,
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I could never have made any thing like it."
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"I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining
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it yesterday."
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"I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read."
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"I never read one more to the purpose, certainly."
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"It is as long again as almost all we have had before."
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"I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour.
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Such things in general cannot be too short."
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Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory
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comparisons were rising in her mind.
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"It is one thing," said she, presently--her cheeks in a glow--"to
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have very good sense in a common way, like every body else,
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and if there is any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter,
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and say just what you must, in a short way; and another, to write
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verses and charades like this."
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Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin's prose.
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"Such sweet lines!" continued Harriet--"these two last!--But
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how shall I ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found
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it out?--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what can we do about that?"
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"Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening,
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I dare say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense
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|
or other will pass between us, and you shall not be committed.--Your
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soft eyes shall chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me."
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"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful
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charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good."
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"Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you
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should not write it into your book."
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"Oh! but those two lines are"--
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--"The best of all. Granted;--for private enjoyment; and for private
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enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know,
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|
because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does
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|
its meaning change. But take it away, and all appropriation ceases,
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|
and a very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection.
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|
Depend upon it, he would not like to have his charade slighted,
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|
much better than his passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in
|
|
both capacities, or neither. Give me the book, I will write it down,
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|
and then there can be no possible reflection on you."
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Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts,
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|
so as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down
|
|
a declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any
|
|
degree of publicity.
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|
"I shall never let that book go out of my own hands," said she.
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|
"Very well," replied Emma; "a most natural feeling; and the longer
|
|
it lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father
|
|
coming: you will not object to my reading the charade to him.
|
|
It will be giving him so much pleasure! He loves any thing of
|
|
the sort, and especially any thing that pays woman a compliment.
|
|
He has the tenderest spirit of gallantry towards us all!-- You must
|
|
let me read it to him."
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|
|
|
Harriet looked grave.
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|
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|
"My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this
|
|
charade.--You will betray your feelings improperly, if you are
|
|
too conscious and too quick, and appear to affix more meaning,
|
|
or even quite all the meaning which may be affixed to it.
|
|
Do not be overpowered by such a little tribute of admiration.
|
|
If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would not have left the paper
|
|
while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards me than towards you.
|
|
Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He has encouragement
|
|
enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls over this charade."
|
|
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|
"Oh! no--I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please."
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|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again,
|
|
by the recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of "Well, my dears,
|
|
how does your book go on?--Have you got any thing fresh?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh.
|
|
A piece of paper was found on the table this morning--(dropt,
|
|
we suppose, by a fairy)-- containing a very pretty charade, and we
|
|
have just copied it in."
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|
|
|
She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read,
|
|
slowly and distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations
|
|
of every part as she proceeded-- and he was very much pleased, and,
|
|
as she had foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.
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|
|
|
"Aye, that's very just, indeed, that's very properly said.
|
|
Very true. `Woman, lovely woman.' It is such a pretty charade,
|
|
my dear, that I can easily guess what fairy brought it.-- Nobody
|
|
could have written so prettily, but you, Emma."
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|
|
|
Emma only nodded, and smiled.--After a little thinking,
|
|
and a very tender sigh, he added,
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|
|
|
"Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother
|
|
was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I
|
|
can remember nothing;--not even that particular riddle which you
|
|
have heard me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza;
|
|
and there are several.
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|
|
|
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,
|
|
Kindled a flame I yet deplore,
|
|
The hood-wink'd boy I called to aid,
|
|
Though of his near approach afraid,
|
|
So fatal to my suit before.
|
|
|
|
And that is all that I can recollect of it--but it is very clever
|
|
all the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it
|
|
from the Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick's, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Aye, very true.--I wish I could recollect more of it.
|
|
|
|
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.
|
|
|
|
The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near
|
|
being christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall
|
|
have her here next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you
|
|
shall put her--and what room there will be for the children?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes--she will have her own room, of course; the room she always
|
|
has;--and there is the nursery for the children,--just as usual,
|
|
you know. Why should there be any change?"
|
|
|
|
"I do not know, my dear--but it is so long since she was here!--not
|
|
since last Easter, and then only for a few days.--Mr. John Knightley's
|
|
being a lawyer is very inconvenient.--Poor Isabella!--she is sadly
|
|
taken away from us all!--and how sorry she will be when she comes,
|
|
not to see Miss Taylor here!"
|
|
|
|
"She will not be surprized, papa, at least."
|
|
|
|
"I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized
|
|
when I first heard she was going to be married."
|
|
|
|
"We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella
|
|
is here."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, my dear, if there is time.--But--(in a very depressed tone)--she
|
|
is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing."
|
|
|
|
"It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer--but it seems a case
|
|
of necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th,
|
|
and we ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole
|
|
of the time they can give to the country, that two or three days
|
|
are not to be taken out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises
|
|
to give up his claim this Christmas-- though you know it is longer
|
|
since they were with him, than with us."
|
|
|
|
"It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were
|
|
to be anywhere but at Hartfield."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley's claims on
|
|
his brother, or any body's claims on Isabella, except his own.
|
|
He sat musing a little while, and then said,
|
|
|
|
"But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back
|
|
so soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade
|
|
her to stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! papa--that is what you never have been able to accomplish,
|
|
and I do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay
|
|
behind her husband."
|
|
|
|
This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his spirits
|
|
affected by the idea of his daughter's attachment to her husband,
|
|
she immediately led to such a branch of the subject as must raise them.
|
|
|
|
"Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while
|
|
my brother and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased
|
|
with the children. We are very proud of the children, are not we,
|
|
papa? I wonder which she will think the handsomest, Henry or John?"
|
|
|
|
"Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they
|
|
will be to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not."
|
|
|
|
"Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the eldest,
|
|
he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second,
|
|
is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe,
|
|
that the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry,
|
|
which I thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy,
|
|
indeed. They are all remarkably clever; and they have so many
|
|
pretty ways. They will come and stand by my chair, and say,
|
|
`Grandpapa, can you give me a bit of string?' and once Henry asked me
|
|
for a knife, but I told him knives were only made for grandpapas.
|
|
I think their father is too rough with them very often."
|
|
|
|
"He appears rough to you," said Emma, "because you are so very
|
|
gentle yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas,
|
|
you would not think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy;
|
|
and if they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then;
|
|
but he is an affectionate father--certainly Mr. John Knightley
|
|
is an affectionate father. The children are all fond of him."
|
|
|
|
"And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling
|
|
in a very frightful way!"
|
|
|
|
"But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much.
|
|
It is such enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down
|
|
the rule of their taking turns, whichever began would never give way
|
|
to the other."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I cannot understand it."
|
|
|
|
"That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot
|
|
understand the pleasures of the other."
|
|
|
|
Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate
|
|
in preparation for the regular four o'clock dinner, the hero
|
|
of this inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away;
|
|
but Emma could receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye
|
|
soon discerned in his the consciousness of having made a push--of
|
|
having thrown a die; and she imagined he was come to see how it
|
|
might turn up. His ostensible reason, however, was to ask whether
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse's party could be made up in the evening without him,
|
|
or whether he should be in the smallest degree necessary at Hartfield.
|
|
If he were, every thing else must give way; but otherwise his friend
|
|
Cole had been saying so much about his dining with him--had made
|
|
such a point of it, that he had promised him conditionally to come.
|
|
|
|
Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his
|
|
friend on their account; her father was sure of his rubber.
|
|
He re-urged --she re-declined; and he seemed then about to make
|
|
his bow, when taking the paper from the table, she returned it--
|
|
|
|
"Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us;
|
|
thank you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have
|
|
ventured to write it into Miss Smith's collection. Your friend
|
|
will not take it amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed
|
|
beyond the first eight lines."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say.
|
|
He looked rather doubtingly--rather confused; said something about
|
|
"honour,"--glanced at Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book
|
|
open on the table, took it up, and examined it very attentively.
|
|
With the view of passing off an awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,
|
|
|
|
"You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade
|
|
must not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman's
|
|
approbation while he writes with such gallantry."
|
|
|
|
"I have no hesitation in saying," replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating
|
|
a good deal while he spoke; "I have no hesitation in saying--at
|
|
least if my friend feels at all as I do--I have not the smallest
|
|
doubt that, could he see his little effusion honoured as I see it,
|
|
(looking at the book again, and replacing it on the table), he
|
|
would consider it as the proudest moment of his life."
|
|
|
|
After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not
|
|
think it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities,
|
|
there was a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt
|
|
to incline her to laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination,
|
|
leaving the tender and the sublime of pleasure to Harriet's share.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER X
|
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|
|
Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather
|
|
to prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise;
|
|
and on the morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor
|
|
sick family, who lived a little way out of Highbury.
|
|
|
|
Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane
|
|
leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street
|
|
of the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode
|
|
of Mr. Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed,
|
|
and then, about a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage,
|
|
an old and not very good house, almost as close to the road as it
|
|
could be. It had no advantage of situation; but had been very much
|
|
smartened up by the present proprietor; and, such as it was,
|
|
there could be no possibility of the two friends passing it without
|
|
a slackened pace and observing eyes.--Emma's remark was--
|
|
|
|
"There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these days."--
|
|
Harriet's was--
|
|
|
|
"Oh, what a sweet house!--How very beautiful!--There are the yellow
|
|
curtains that Miss Nash admires so much."
|
|
|
|
"I do not often walk this way now," said Emma, as they proceeded,
|
|
"but then there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get
|
|
intimately acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards
|
|
of this part of Highbury."
|
|
|
|
Harriet, she found, had never in her life been within side the Vicarage,
|
|
and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering exteriors
|
|
and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of love,
|
|
with Mr. Elton's seeing ready wit in her.
|
|
|
|
"I wish we could contrive it," said she; "but I cannot think
|
|
of any tolerable pretence for going in;--no servant that I want
|
|
to inquire about of his housekeeper--no message from my father."
|
|
|
|
She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence
|
|
of some minutes, Harriet thus began again--
|
|
|
|
"I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married,
|
|
or going to be married! so charming as you are!"--
|
|
|
|
Emma laughed, and replied,
|
|
|
|
"My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry;
|
|
I must find other people charming--one other person at least.
|
|
And I am not only, not going to be married, at present, but have
|
|
very little intention of ever marrying at all."
|
|
|
|
"Ah!--so you say; but I cannot believe it."
|
|
|
|
"I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet,
|
|
to be tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,)
|
|
is out of the question: and I do not wish to see any such person.
|
|
I would rather not be tempted. I cannot really change for the better.
|
|
If I were to marry, I must expect to repent it."
|
|
|
|
"Dear me!--it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!"--
|
|
|
|
"I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry.
|
|
Were I to fall in love, indeed, it would be a different thing!
|
|
but I never have been in love; it is not my way, or my nature;
|
|
and I do not think I ever shall. And, without love, I am sure I
|
|
should be a fool to change such a situation as mine. Fortune I
|
|
do not want; employment I do not want; consequence I do not want:
|
|
I believe few married women are half as much mistress of their
|
|
husband's house as I am of Hartfield; and never, never could I expect
|
|
to be so truly beloved and important; so always first and always
|
|
right in any man's eyes as I am in my father's."
|
|
|
|
"But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!"
|
|
|
|
"That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if I
|
|
thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly--so satisfied--
|
|
so smiling--so prosing--so undistinguishing and unfastidious--
|
|
and so apt to tell every thing relative to every body about me,
|
|
I would marry to-morrow. But between us, I am convinced there never
|
|
can be any likeness, except in being unmarried."
|
|
|
|
"But still, you will be an old maid! and that's so dreadful!"
|
|
|
|
"Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is
|
|
poverty only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public!
|
|
A single woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous,
|
|
disagreeable old maid! the proper sport of boys and girls,
|
|
but a single woman, of good fortune, is always respectable,
|
|
and may be as sensible and pleasant as any body else. And the
|
|
distinction is not quite so much against the candour and common
|
|
sense of the world as appears at first; for a very narrow income
|
|
has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour the temper.
|
|
Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very small,
|
|
and generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and cross.
|
|
This does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too good
|
|
natured and too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very
|
|
much to the taste of every body, though single and though poor.
|
|
Poverty certainly has not contracted her mind: I really believe,
|
|
if she had only a shilling in the world, she would be very likely
|
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to give away sixpence of it; and nobody is afraid of her: that is a
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great charm."
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"Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself
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when you grow old?"
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"If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great
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many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be
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more in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty.
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Woman's usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then
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as they are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less,
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I shall read more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work.
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And as for objects of interest, objects for the affections,
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which is in truth the great point of inferiority, the want of which
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is really the great evil to be avoided in not marrying, I shall
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be very well off, with all the children of a sister I love so much,
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to care about. There will be enough of them, in all probability,
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to supply every sort of sensation that declining life can need.
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There will be enough for every hope and every fear; and though my
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attachment to none can equal that of a parent, it suits my ideas
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of comfort better than what is warmer and blinder. My nephews
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and nieces!--I shall often have a niece with me."
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"Do you know Miss Bates's niece? That is, I know you must have
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seen her a hundred times--but are you acquainted?"
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"Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes
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to Highbury. By the bye, that is almost enough to put one out
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of conceit with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should
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|
ever bore people half so much about all the Knightleys together,
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as she does about Jane Fairfax. One is sick of the very name
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of Jane Fairfax. Every letter from her is read forty times over;
|
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her compliments to all friends go round and round again; and if she
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does but send her aunt the pattern of a stomacher, or knit a pair
|
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of garters for her grandmother, one hears of nothing else for a month.
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I wish Jane Fairfax very well; but she tires me to death."
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They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics
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|
were superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses
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of the poor were as sure of relief from her personal attention
|
|
and kindness, her counsel and her patience, as from her purse.
|
|
She understood their ways, could allow for their ignorance and
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their temptations, had no romantic expectations of extraordinary
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virtue from those for whom education had done so little; entered into
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their troubles with ready sympathy, and always gave her assistance
|
|
with as much intelligence as good-will. In the present instance,
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it was sickness and poverty together which she came to visit;
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|
and after remaining there as long as she could give comfort or advice,
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she quitted the cottage with such an impression of the scene
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|
as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,
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|
"These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they
|
|
make every thing else appear!--I feel now as if I could think of
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nothing but these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet,
|
|
who can say how soon it may all vanish from my mind?"
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"Very true," said Harriet. "Poor creatures! one can think
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of nothing else."
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"And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over,"
|
|
said Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep
|
|
which ended the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden,
|
|
and brought them into the lane again. "I do not think it will,"
|
|
stopping to look once more at all the outward wretchedness of the place,
|
|
and recall the still greater within.
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|
"Oh! dear, no," said her companion.
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|
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|
They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend
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|
was passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near
|
|
as to give Emma time only to say farther,
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|
|
|
"Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability
|
|
in good thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that
|
|
if compassion has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers,
|
|
it has done all that is truly important. If we feel for the wretched,
|
|
enough to do all we can for them, the rest is empty sympathy,
|
|
only distressing to ourselves."
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|
|
|
Harriet could just answer, "Oh! dear, yes," before the gentleman
|
|
joined them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however,
|
|
were the first subject on meeting. He had been going to call
|
|
on them. His visit he would now defer; but they had a very
|
|
interesting parley about what could be done and should be done.
|
|
Mr. Elton then turned back to accompany them.
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|
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|
"To fall in with each other on such an errand as this," thought Emma;
|
|
"to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase
|
|
of love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring
|
|
on the declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were
|
|
anywhere else."
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|
|
|
Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon
|
|
afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised
|
|
on one side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road.
|
|
But she had not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet's
|
|
habits of dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that,
|
|
in short, they would both be soon after her. This would not do;
|
|
she immediately stopped, under pretence of having some alteration
|
|
to make in the lacing of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete
|
|
occupation of the footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on,
|
|
and she would follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired;
|
|
and by the time she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot,
|
|
she had the comfort of farther delay in her power, being overtaken
|
|
by a child from the cottage, setting out, according to orders,
|
|
with her pitcher, to fetch broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side
|
|
of this child, and talk to and question her, was the most natural
|
|
thing in the world, or would have been the most natural, had she been
|
|
acting just then without design; and by this means the others were
|
|
still able to keep ahead, without any obligation of waiting for her.
|
|
She gained on them, however, involuntarily: the child's pace was quick,
|
|
and theirs rather slow; and she was the more concerned at it,
|
|
from their being evidently in a conversation which interested them.
|
|
Mr. Elton was speaking with animation, Harriet listening with a very
|
|
pleased attention; and Emma, having sent the child on, was beginning
|
|
to think how she might draw back a little more, when they both
|
|
looked around, and she was obliged to join them.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail;
|
|
and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he
|
|
was only giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday's
|
|
party at his friend Cole's, and that she was come in herself for
|
|
the Stilton cheese, the north Wiltshire, the butter, the cellery,
|
|
the beet-root, and all the dessert.
|
|
|
|
"This would soon have led to something better, of course," was her
|
|
consoling reflection; "any thing interests between those who love;
|
|
and any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart.
|
|
If I could but have kept longer away!"
|
|
|
|
They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage
|
|
pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into
|
|
the house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot,
|
|
and fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace
|
|
off short, and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently
|
|
obliged to entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to
|
|
put herself to rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.
|
|
|
|
"Part of my lace is gone," said she, "and I do not know how I am
|
|
to contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both,
|
|
but I hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg
|
|
leave to stop at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit
|
|
of ribband or string, or any thing just to keep my boot on."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing
|
|
could exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into
|
|
his house and endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage.
|
|
The room they were taken into was the one he chiefly occupied,
|
|
and looking forwards; behind it was another with which it immediately
|
|
communicated; the door between them was open, and Emma passed
|
|
into it with the housekeeper to receive her assistance in the most
|
|
comfortable manner. She was obliged to leave the door ajar as she
|
|
found it; but she fully intended that Mr. Elton should close it.
|
|
It was not closed, however, it still remained ajar; but by engaging
|
|
the housekeeper in incessant conversation, she hoped to make it
|
|
practicable for him to chuse his own subject in the adjoining room.
|
|
For ten minutes she could hear nothing but herself. It could
|
|
be protracted no longer. She was then obliged to be finished,
|
|
and make her appearance.
|
|
|
|
The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a
|
|
most favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory
|
|
of having schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not
|
|
come to the point. He had been most agreeable, most delightful;
|
|
he had told Harriet that he had seen them go by, and had purposely
|
|
followed them; other little gallantries and allusions had been dropt,
|
|
but nothing serious.
|
|
|
|
"Cautious, very cautious," thought Emma; "he advances inch by inch,
|
|
and will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure."
|
|
|
|
Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished
|
|
by her ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself
|
|
that it had been the occasion of much present enjoyment to both,
|
|
and must be leading them forward to the great event.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XI
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma's
|
|
power to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures.
|
|
The coming of her sister's family was so very near at hand,
|
|
that first in anticipation, and then in reality, it became henceforth
|
|
her prime object of interest; and during the ten days of their stay
|
|
at Hartfield it was not to be expected--she did not herself expect--
|
|
that any thing beyond occasional, fortuitous assistance could
|
|
be afforded by her to the lovers. They might advance rapidly
|
|
if they would, however; they must advance somehow or other whether
|
|
they would or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure for them.
|
|
There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they will
|
|
do for themselves.
|
|
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual
|
|
absent from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the
|
|
usual interest. Till this year, every long vacation since their
|
|
marriage had been divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey;
|
|
but all the holidays of this autumn had been given to sea-bathing
|
|
for the children, and it was therefore many months since they had
|
|
been seen in a regular way by their Surry connexions, or seen at all
|
|
by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not be induced to get so far as London,
|
|
even for poor Isabella's sake; and who consequently was now most
|
|
nervously and apprehensively happy in forestalling this too short visit.
|
|
|
|
He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a
|
|
little of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to
|
|
bring some of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms
|
|
were needless; the sixteen miles being happily accomplished,
|
|
and Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, their five children, and a competent
|
|
number of nursery-maids, all reaching Hartfield in safety.
|
|
The bustle and joy of such an arrival, the many to be talked to,
|
|
welcomed, encouraged, and variously dispersed and disposed of,
|
|
produced a noise and confusion which his nerves could not have borne
|
|
under any other cause, nor have endured much longer even for this;
|
|
but the ways of Hartfield and the feelings of her father were
|
|
so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that in spite of maternal
|
|
solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her little ones,
|
|
and for their having instantly all the liberty and attendance,
|
|
all the eating and drinking, and sleeping and playing,
|
|
which they could possibly wish for, without the smallest delay,
|
|
the children were never allowed to be long a disturbance to him,
|
|
either in themselves or in any restless attendance on them.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle,
|
|
quiet manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate;
|
|
wrapt up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother,
|
|
and so tenderly attached to her father and sister that, but for
|
|
these higher ties, a warmer love might have seemed impossible.
|
|
She could never see a fault in any of them. She was not a woman
|
|
of strong understanding or any quickness; and with this resemblance
|
|
of her father, she inherited also much of his constitution;
|
|
was delicate in her own health, over-careful of that of her children,
|
|
had many fears and many nerves, and was as fond of her own Mr. Wingfield
|
|
in town as her father could be of Mr. Perry. They were alike too,
|
|
in a general benevolence of temper, and a strong habit of regard
|
|
for every old acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man;
|
|
rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his
|
|
private character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being
|
|
generally pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour.
|
|
He was not an ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross
|
|
as to deserve such a reproach; but his temper was not his
|
|
great perfection; and, indeed, with such a worshipping wife,
|
|
it was hardly possible that any natural defects in it should not
|
|
be increased. The extreme sweetness of her temper must hurt his.
|
|
He had all the clearness and quickness of mind which she wanted,
|
|
and he could sometimes act an ungracious, or say a severe thing.
|
|
|
|
He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing
|
|
wrong in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little
|
|
injuries to Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself.
|
|
Perhaps she might have passed over more had his manners been
|
|
flattering to Isabella's sister, but they were only those of a calmly
|
|
kind brother and friend, without praise and without blindness;
|
|
but hardly any degree of personal compliment could have made her
|
|
regardless of that greatest fault of all in her eyes which he sometimes
|
|
fell into, the want of respectful forbearance towards her father.
|
|
There he had not always the patience that could have been wished.
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse's peculiarities and fidgetiness were sometimes provoking
|
|
him to a rational remonstrance or sharp retort equally ill-bestowed.
|
|
It did not often happen; for Mr. John Knightley had really a great
|
|
regard for his father-in-law, and generally a strong sense of what was
|
|
due to him; but it was too often for Emma's charity, especially as
|
|
there was all the pain of apprehension frequently to be endured,
|
|
though the offence came not. The beginning, however, of every visit
|
|
displayed none but the properest feelings, and this being of necessity
|
|
so short might be hoped to pass away in unsullied cordiality.
|
|
They had not been long seated and composed when Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
with a melancholy shake of the head and a sigh, called his daughter's
|
|
attention to the sad change at Hartfield since she had been there last.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, my dear," said he, "poor Miss Taylor--It is a grievous business."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes, sir," cried she with ready sympathy, "how you must
|
|
miss her! And dear Emma, too!--What a dreadful loss to you both!--
|
|
I have been so grieved for you.--I could not imagine how you could
|
|
possibly do without her.--It is a sad change indeed.--But I hope
|
|
she is pretty well, sir."
|
|
|
|
"Pretty well, my dear--I hope--pretty well.--I do not know
|
|
but that the place agrees with her tolerably."
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any
|
|
doubts of the air of Randalls.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no--none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my life--
|
|
never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret."
|
|
|
|
"Very much to the honour of both," was the handsome reply.
|
|
|
|
"And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?" asked Isabella
|
|
in the plaintive tone which just suited her father.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.--"Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since
|
|
they married. Either in the morning or evening of every day,
|
|
excepting one, have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston,
|
|
and generally both, either at Randalls or here--and as you
|
|
may suppose, Isabella, most frequently here. They are very,
|
|
very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston is really as kind as herself.
|
|
Papa, if you speak in that melancholy way, you will be giving
|
|
Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body must be aware that Miss
|
|
Taylor must be missed, but every body ought also to be assured
|
|
that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our missing her by any
|
|
means to the extent we ourselves anticipated--which is the exact truth."
|
|
|
|
"Just as it should be," said Mr. John Knightley, "and just as I hoped
|
|
it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could
|
|
not be doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it
|
|
all easy. I have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea
|
|
of the change being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended;
|
|
and now you have Emma's account, I hope you will be satisfied."
|
|
|
|
"Why, to be sure," said Mr. Woodhouse--"yes, certainly--I cannot deny
|
|
that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty often--
|
|
but then--she is always obliged to go away again."
|
|
|
|
"It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.--
|
|
You quite forget poor Mr. Weston."
|
|
|
|
"I think, indeed," said John Knightley pleasantly, "that Mr. Weston
|
|
has some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part
|
|
of the poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife,
|
|
the claims of the man may very likely strike us with equal force.
|
|
As for Isabella, she has been married long enough to see the convenience
|
|
of putting all the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can."
|
|
|
|
"Me, my love," cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part.--
|
|
"Are you talking about me?--I am sure nobody ought to be, or can be,
|
|
a greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not been
|
|
for the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have thought
|
|
of Miss Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world;
|
|
and as to slighting Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think
|
|
there is nothing he does not deserve. I believe he is one of the
|
|
very best-tempered men that ever existed. Excepting yourself
|
|
and your brother, I do not know his equal for temper. I shall
|
|
never forget his flying Henry's kite for him that very windy day
|
|
last Easter--and ever since his particular kindness last September
|
|
twelvemonth in writing that note, at twelve o'clock at night,
|
|
on purpose to assure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham,
|
|
I have been convinced there could not be a more feeling heart nor
|
|
a better man in existence.--If any body can deserve him, it must be
|
|
Miss Taylor."
|
|
|
|
"Where is the young man?" said John Knightley. "Has he been here
|
|
on this occasion--or has he not?"
|
|
|
|
"He has not been here yet," replied Emma. "There was a strong
|
|
expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended
|
|
in nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately."
|
|
|
|
"But you should tell them of the letter, my dear," said her father.
|
|
"He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her,
|
|
and a very proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me.
|
|
I thought it very well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea
|
|
you know, one cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps--"
|
|
|
|
"My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes."
|
|
|
|
"Three-and-twenty!--is he indeed?--Well, I could not have thought it--
|
|
and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well,
|
|
time does fly indeed!--and my memory is very bad. However, it was
|
|
an exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston
|
|
a great deal of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth,
|
|
and dated Sept. 28th--and began, `My dear Madam,' but I forget
|
|
how it went on; and it was signed `F. C. Weston Churchill.'--
|
|
I remember that perfectly."
|
|
|
|
"How very pleasing and proper of him!" cried the good-hearted Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley. "I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man.
|
|
But how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father!
|
|
There is something so shocking in a child's being taken away from his
|
|
parents and natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston
|
|
could part with him. To give up one's child! I really never
|
|
could think well of any body who proposed such a thing to any body else."
|
|
|
|
"Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy,"
|
|
observed Mr. John Knightley coolly. "But you need not imagine
|
|
Mr. Weston to have felt what you would feel in giving up Henry
|
|
or John. Mr. Weston is rather an easy, cheerful-tempered man,
|
|
than a man of strong feelings; he takes things as he finds them,
|
|
and makes enjoyment of them somehow or other, depending, I suspect,
|
|
much more upon what is called society for his comforts, that is,
|
|
upon the power of eating and drinking, and playing whist with his
|
|
neighbours five times a week, than upon family affection, or any
|
|
thing that home affords."
|
|
|
|
Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston,
|
|
and had half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let
|
|
it pass. She would keep the peace if possible; and there was
|
|
something honourable and valuable in the strong domestic habits,
|
|
the all-sufficiency of home to himself, whence resulted her brother's
|
|
disposition to look down on the common rate of social intercourse,
|
|
and those to whom it was important.--It had a high claim to forbearance.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XII
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was to dine with them--rather against the inclination
|
|
of Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him
|
|
in Isabella's first day. Emma's sense of right however had decided it;
|
|
and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother,
|
|
she had particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late
|
|
disagreement between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him
|
|
the proper invitation.
|
|
|
|
She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it
|
|
was time to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. She certainly
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|
had not been in the wrong, and he would never own that he had.
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Concession must be out of the question; but it was time to appear
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to forget that they had ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather
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assist the restoration of friendship, that when he came into the room
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she had one of the children with her--the youngest, a nice little girl
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about eight months old, who was now making her first visit to Hartfield,
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and very happy to be danced about in her aunt's arms. It did assist;
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for though he began with grave looks and short questions, he was soon
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led on to talk of them all in the usual way, and to take the child
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out of her arms with all the unceremoniousness of perfect amity.
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Emma felt they were friends again; and the conviction giving
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her at first great satisfaction, and then a little sauciness,
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she could not help saying, as he was admiring the baby,
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"What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and nieces.
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As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very different;
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but with regard to these children, I observe we never disagree."
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"If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men
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and women, and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your
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dealings with them, as you are where these children are concerned,
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we might always think alike."
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"To be sure--our discordancies must always arise from my being
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in the wrong."
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"Yes," said he, smiling--"and reason good. I was sixteen years
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old when you were born."
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"A material difference then," she replied--"and no doubt you were
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much my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does
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not the lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings
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a good deal nearer?"
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"Yes--a good deal nearer."
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"But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right,
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if we think differently."
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"I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years' experience, and by
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not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear Emma,
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let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt, little Emma,
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that she ought to set you a better example than to be renewing
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old grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is now."
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"That's true," she cried--"very true. Little Emma, grow up
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a better woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not
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half so conceited. Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I
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have done. As far as good intentions went, we were both right,
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and I must say that no effects on my side of the argument have yet
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proved wrong. I only want to know that Mr. Martin is not very,
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very bitterly disappointed."
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"A man cannot be more so," was his short, full answer.
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"Ah!--Indeed I am very sorry.--Come, shake hands with me."
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This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John
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Knightley made his appearance, and "How d'ye do, George?" and "John,
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|
how are you?" succeeded in the true English style, burying under
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a calmness that seemed all but indifference, the real attachment
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which would have led either of them, if requisite, to do every thing
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for the good of the other.
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The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined
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cards entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his
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dear Isabella, and the little party made two natural divisions;
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on one side he and his daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys;
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their subjects totally distinct, or very rarely mixing--and Emma
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only occasionally joining in one or the other.
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The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally
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|
of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative,
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|
and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had
|
|
generally some point of law to consult John about, or, at least,
|
|
some curious anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand
|
|
the home-farm at Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear
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next year, and to give all such local information as could not fail
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|
of being interesting to a brother whose home it had equally been
|
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the longest part of his life, and whose attachments were strong.
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|
The plan of a drain, the change of a fence, the felling of a tree,
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|
and the destination of every acre for wheat, turnips, or spring corn,
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|
was entered into with as much equality of interest by John, as his
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|
cooler manners rendered possible; and if his willing brother ever
|
|
left him any thing to inquire about, his inquiries even approached
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a tone of eagerness.
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|
While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying
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|
a full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.
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"My poor dear Isabella," said he, fondly taking her hand,
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|
and interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one
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|
of her five children--"How long it is, how terribly long since you
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|
were here! And how tired you must be after your journey! You must
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|
go to bed early, my dear--and I recommend a little gruel to you
|
|
before you go.--You and I will have a nice basin of gruel together.
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|
My dear Emma, suppose we all have a little gruel."
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Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did,
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|
that both the Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article
|
|
as herself;--and two basins only were ordered. After a little
|
|
more discourse in praise of gruel, with some wondering at its
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|
not being taken every evening by every body, he proceeded to say,
|
|
with an air of grave reflection,
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|
"It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn
|
|
at South End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion
|
|
of the sea air."
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|
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|
"Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir--or we
|
|
should not have gone. He recommended it for all the children,
|
|
but particularly for the weakness in little Bella's throat,--
|
|
both sea air and bathing."
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|
|
|
"Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her
|
|
any good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced,
|
|
though perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very
|
|
rarely of use to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once."
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|
|
|
"Come, come," cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, "I must
|
|
beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;--
|
|
I who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please.
|
|
My dear Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about
|
|
Mr. Perry yet; and he never forgets you."
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|
|
|
"Oh! good Mr. Perry--how is he, sir?"
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|
|
|
"Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious,
|
|
and he has not time to take care of himself--he tells me he has
|
|
not time to take care of himself--which is very sad--but he is
|
|
always wanted all round the country. I suppose there is not a man
|
|
in such practice anywhere. But then there is not so clever a man
|
|
any where."
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|
|
|
"And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow?
|
|
I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon.
|
|
He will be so pleased to see my little ones."
|
|
|
|
"I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask
|
|
him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes,
|
|
you had better let him look at little Bella's throat."
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|
|
|
"Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly
|
|
any uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest
|
|
service to her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent
|
|
embrocation of Mr. Wingfield's, which we have been applying
|
|
at times ever since August."
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|
|
|
"It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been
|
|
of use to her--and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation,
|
|
I would have spoken to--
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|
|
|
"You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates," said Emma,
|
|
"I have not heard one inquiry after them."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! the good Bateses--I am quite ashamed of myself--but you
|
|
mention them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well.
|
|
Good old Mrs. Bates--I will call upon her to-morrow, and take
|
|
my children.--They are always so pleased to see my children.--
|
|
And that excellent Miss Bates!--such thorough worthy people!--
|
|
How are they, sir?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates
|
|
had a bad cold about a month ago."
|
|
|
|
"How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been
|
|
this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them
|
|
more general or heavy--except when it has been quite an influenza."
|
|
|
|
"That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree
|
|
you mention. Perry says that colds have been very general,
|
|
but not so heavy as he has very often known them in November.
|
|
Perry does not call it altogether a sickly season."
|
|
|
|
"No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it very sickly except--
|
|
|
|
"Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always
|
|
a sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be.
|
|
It is a dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!--
|
|
and the air so bad!"
|
|
|
|
"No, indeed--we are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is
|
|
very superior to most others!--You must not confound us with London
|
|
in general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square
|
|
is very different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy!
|
|
I should be unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;--
|
|
there is hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my
|
|
children in: but we are so remarkably airy!--Mr. Wingfield thinks
|
|
the vicinity of Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as
|
|
to air."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it--
|
|
but after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you
|
|
different creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say,
|
|
that I think you are any of you looking well at present."
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those
|
|
little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely
|
|
free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were
|
|
rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were
|
|
a little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness
|
|
of coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow;
|
|
for I assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe
|
|
he had ever sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust,
|
|
at least, that you do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill,"
|
|
turning her eyes with affectionate anxiety towards her husband.
|
|
|
|
"Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John
|
|
Knightley very far from looking well."
|
|
|
|
"What is the matter, sir?--Did you speak to me?" cried Mr. John
|
|
Knightley, hearing his own name.
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you
|
|
looking well--but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued.
|
|
I could have wished, however, as you know, that you had seen
|
|
Mr. Wingfield before you left home."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Isabella,"--exclaimed he hastily--"pray do not concern
|
|
yourself about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling
|
|
yourself and the children, and let me look as I chuse."
|
|
|
|
"I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,"
|
|
cried Emma, "about your friend Mr. Graham's intending to have a bailiff
|
|
from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer?
|
|
Will not the old prejudice be too strong?"
|
|
|
|
And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced
|
|
to give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing
|
|
worse to hear than Isabella's kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax;
|
|
and Jane Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general,
|
|
she was at that moment very happy to assist in praising.
|
|
|
|
"That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!" said Mrs. John Knightley.--
|
|
"It is so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment
|
|
accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old
|
|
grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them!
|
|
I always regret excessively on dear Emma's account that she cannot
|
|
be more at Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose
|
|
Colonel and Mrs. Campbell will not be able to part with her at all.
|
|
She would be such a delightful companion for Emma."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
|
|
|
|
"Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another
|
|
pretty kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could
|
|
not have a better companion than Harriet."
|
|
|
|
"I am most happy to hear it--but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be
|
|
so very accomplished and superior!--and exactly Emma's age."
|
|
|
|
This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of
|
|
similar moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening
|
|
did not close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came
|
|
and supplied a great deal to be said--much praise and many comments--
|
|
undoubting decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution,
|
|
and pretty severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was
|
|
never met with tolerable;--but, unfortunately, among the failures
|
|
which the daughter had to instance, the most recent, and therefore
|
|
most prominent, was in her own cook at South End, a young woman
|
|
hired for the time, who never had been able to understand what she
|
|
meant by a basin of nice smooth gruel, thin, but not too thin.
|
|
Often as she had wished for and ordered it, she had never been able
|
|
to get any thing tolerable. Here was a dangerous opening.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on
|
|
her with tender concern.--The ejaculation in Emma's ear expressed,
|
|
"Ah! there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to
|
|
South End. It does not bear talking of." And for a little while
|
|
she hoped he would not talk of it, and that a silent rumination
|
|
might suffice to restore him to the relish of his own smooth gruel.
|
|
After an interval of some minutes, however, he began with,
|
|
|
|
"I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn,
|
|
instead of coming here."
|
|
|
|
"But why should you be sorry, sir?--I assure you, it did the children
|
|
a great deal of good."
|
|
|
|
"And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not
|
|
have been to South End. South End is an unhealthy place.
|
|
Perry was surprized to hear you had fixed upon South End."
|
|
|
|
"I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is
|
|
quite a mistake, sir.--We all had our health perfectly well there,
|
|
never found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield
|
|
says it is entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy;
|
|
and I am sure he may be depended on, for he thoroughly understands
|
|
the nature of the air, and his own brother and family have been
|
|
there repeatedly."
|
|
|
|
"You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.--
|
|
Perry was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best
|
|
of all the sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very
|
|
pure air. And, by what I understand, you might have had lodgings there
|
|
quite away from the sea--a quarter of a mile off--very comfortable.
|
|
You should have consulted Perry."
|
|
|
|
"But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;--only consider how
|
|
great it would have been.--An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else
|
|
should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much
|
|
to chuse between forty miles and an hundred.--Better not move at all,
|
|
better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get
|
|
into a worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him
|
|
a very ill-judged measure."
|
|
|
|
Emma's attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he
|
|
had reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her
|
|
brother-in-law's breaking out.
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Perry," said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure,
|
|
"would do as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for.
|
|
Why does he make it any business of his, to wonder at what I do?--
|
|
at my taking my family to one part of the coast or another?--I may
|
|
be allowed, I hope, the use of my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.--
|
|
I want his directions no more than his drugs." He paused--
|
|
and growing cooler in a moment, added, with only sarcastic dryness,
|
|
"If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a wife and five children
|
|
a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with no greater expense
|
|
or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should be as willing to
|
|
prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself."
|
|
|
|
"True, true," cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition--
|
|
"very true. That's a consideration indeed.--But John, as to what I
|
|
was telling you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning
|
|
it more to the right that it may not cut through the home meadows,
|
|
I cannot conceive any difficulty. I should not attempt it,
|
|
if it were to be the means of inconvenience to the Highbury people,
|
|
but if you call to mind exactly the present line of the path. . . .
|
|
The only way of proving it, however, will be to turn to our maps.
|
|
I shall see you at the Abbey to-morrow morning I hope, and then we
|
|
will look them over, and you shall give me your opinion."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on
|
|
his friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously,
|
|
been attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;--
|
|
but the soothing attentions of his daughters gradually removed
|
|
the present evil, and the immediate alertness of one brother,
|
|
and better recollections of the other, prevented any renewal of it.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XIII
|
|
|
|
There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning
|
|
among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking
|
|
over what she had done every evening with her father and sister.
|
|
She had nothing to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass
|
|
so swiftly. It was a delightful visit;--perfect, in being much too short.
|
|
|
|
In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than
|
|
their mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out
|
|
of the house too, there was no avoiding, though at Christmas.
|
|
Mr. Weston would take no denial; they must all dine at Randalls
|
|
one day;--even Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded to think it a possible
|
|
thing in preference to a division of the party.
|
|
|
|
How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty
|
|
if he could, but as his son and daughter's carriage and horses
|
|
were actually at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than
|
|
a simple question on that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt;
|
|
nor did it occupy Emma long to convince him that they might in one
|
|
of the carriages find room for Harriet also.
|
|
|
|
Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set,
|
|
were the only persons invited to meet them;--the hours were to be early,
|
|
as well as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse's habits and inclination
|
|
being consulted in every thing.
|
|
|
|
The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event
|
|
that Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been
|
|
spent by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed
|
|
with a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed
|
|
by Mrs. Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house.
|
|
Emma called on her the next day, and found her doom already signed
|
|
with regard to Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad
|
|
sore throat: Mrs. Goddard was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry
|
|
was talked of, and Harriet herself was too ill and low to resist
|
|
the authority which excluded her from this delightful engagement,
|
|
though she could not speak of her loss without many tears.
|
|
|
|
Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard's
|
|
unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much
|
|
Mr. Elton's would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her
|
|
at last tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having
|
|
a most comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much.
|
|
She had not advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard's door, when she
|
|
was met by Mr. Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as
|
|
they walked on slowly together in conversation about the invalid--
|
|
of whom he, on the rumour of considerable illness, had been going
|
|
to inquire, that he might carry some report of her to Hartfield--
|
|
they were overtaken by Mr. John Knightley returning from the
|
|
daily visit to Donwell, with his two eldest boys, whose healthy,
|
|
glowing faces shewed all the benefit of a country run, and seemed
|
|
to ensure a quick despatch of the roast mutton and rice pudding they
|
|
were hastening home for. They joined company and proceeded together.
|
|
Emma was just describing the nature of her friend's complaint;--
|
|
"a throat very much inflamed, with a great deal of heat about her,
|
|
a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to find from Mrs. Goddard
|
|
that Harriet was liable to very bad sore-throats, and had often
|
|
alarmed her with them." Mr. Elton looked all alarm on the occasion,
|
|
as he exclaimed,
|
|
|
|
"A sore-throat!--I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid
|
|
infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care
|
|
of yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run
|
|
no risks. Why does not Perry see her?"
|
|
|
|
Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this
|
|
excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard's experience
|
|
and care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness
|
|
which she could not wish to reason away, which she would rather
|
|
feed and assist than not, she added soon afterwards--as if quite
|
|
another subject,
|
|
|
|
"It is so cold, so very cold--and looks and feels so very much
|
|
like snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party,
|
|
I should really try not to go out to-day--and dissuade my father
|
|
from venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem
|
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to feel the cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it
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would be so great a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon
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my word, Mr. Elton, in your case, I should certainly excuse myself.
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You appear to me a little hoarse already, and when you consider
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what demand of voice and what fatigues to-morrow will bring,
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I think it would be no more than common prudence to stay at home
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and take care of yourself to-night."
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Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make;
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which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind
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care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of
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her's, he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;--
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but Emma, too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions
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and views to hear him impartially, or see him with clear vision,
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was very well satisfied with his muttering acknowledgment of its
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being "very cold, certainly very cold," and walked on, rejoicing in
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having extricated him from Randalls, and secured him the power
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of sending to inquire after Harriet every hour of the evening.
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"You do quite right," said she;--"we will make your apologies
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to Mr. and Mrs. Weston."
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But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly
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offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton's
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only objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much
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prompt satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go,
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and never had his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than
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at this moment; never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes
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more exulting than when he next looked at her.
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"Well," said she to herself, "this is most strange!--After I
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had got him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave
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Harriet ill behind!--Most strange indeed!--But there is, I believe,
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in many men, especially single men, such an inclination--
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such a passion for dining out--a dinner engagement is so high in
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the class of their pleasures, their employments, their dignities,
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almost their duties, that any thing gives way to it--and this must
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be the case with Mr. Elton; a most valuable, amiable, pleasing young
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man undoubtedly, and very much in love with Harriet; but still,
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he cannot refuse an invitation, he must dine out wherever he is asked.
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What a strange thing love is! he can see ready wit in Harriet,
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but will not dine alone for her."
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Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him
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the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment
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in his manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his
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voice while assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard's
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for news of her fair friend, the last thing before he prepared
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for the happiness of meeting her again, when he hoped to be
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able to give a better report; and he sighed and smiled himself
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off in a way that left the balance of approbation much in his favour.
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After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley
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began with--
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"I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than
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Mr. Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned.
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With men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies
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to please, every feature works."
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"Mr. Elton's manners are not perfect," replied Emma; "but where there
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is a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook
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a great deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers,
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he will have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is
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such perfect good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot
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|
but value."
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"Yes," said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness,
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"he seems to have a great deal of good-will towards you."
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"Me!" she replied with a smile of astonishment, "are you imagining
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me to be Mr. Elton's object?"
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"Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never
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|
occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now."
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"Mr. Elton in love with me!--What an idea!"
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"I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether
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it is so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly.
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I think your manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend,
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|
Emma. You had better look about you, and ascertain what you do,
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and what you mean to do."
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"I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton
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and I are very good friends, and nothing more;" and she walked on,
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amusing herself in the consideration of the blunders which often
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|
arise from a partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes
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|
which people of high pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into;
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|
and not very well pleased with her brother for imagining her blind
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|
and ignorant, and in want of counsel. He said no more.
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|
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Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit,
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|
that in spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea
|
|
of shrinking from it, and set forward at last most punctually
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|
with his eldest daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent
|
|
consciousness of the weather than either of the others; too full
|
|
of the wonder of his own going, and the pleasure it was to afford at
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|
Randalls to see that it was cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it.
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|
The cold, however, was severe; and by the time the second carriage
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|
was in motion, a few flakes of snow were finding their way down,
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|
and the sky had the appearance of being so overcharged as to want only
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|
a milder air to produce a very white world in a very short time.
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Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour.
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|
The preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice
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|
of his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least,
|
|
which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated
|
|
nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase;
|
|
and the whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in
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|
expressing his discontent.
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|
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|
"A man," said he, "must have a very good opinion of himself when
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|
he asks people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such
|
|
a day as this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think
|
|
himself a most agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing.
|
|
It is the greatest absurdity--Actually snowing at this moment!--
|
|
The folly of not allowing people to be comfortable at home--and the
|
|
folly of people's not staying comfortably at home when they can!
|
|
If we were obliged to go out such an evening as this, by any call of
|
|
duty or business, what a hardship we should deem it;--and here are we,
|
|
probably with rather thinner clothing than usual, setting forward
|
|
voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of the voice of nature,
|
|
which tells man, in every thing given to his view or his feelings,
|
|
to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter that he can;--
|
|
here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in another
|
|
man's house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said
|
|
and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow.
|
|
Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;--four horses
|
|
and four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle,
|
|
shivering creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they
|
|
might have had at home."
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|
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|
Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no doubt
|
|
he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the "Very true, my love,"
|
|
which must have been usually administered by his travelling companion;
|
|
but she had resolution enough to refrain from making any answer
|
|
at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being quarrelsome;
|
|
her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to talk,
|
|
and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening
|
|
her lips.
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|
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|
They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down,
|
|
and Mr. Elton, spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly.
|
|
Emma thought with pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton
|
|
was all obligation and cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful
|
|
in his civilities indeed, that she began to think he must have
|
|
received a different account of Harriet from what had reached her.
|
|
She had sent while dressing, and the answer had been, "Much the same--
|
|
not better."
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|
|
|
"My report from Mrs. Goddard's," said she presently, "was not
|
|
so pleasant as I had hoped--`Not better' was my answer."
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|
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|
His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice
|
|
of sentiment as he answered.
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|
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|
"Oh! no--I am grieved to find--I was on the point of telling you that
|
|
when I called at Mrs. Goddard's door, which I did the very last thing
|
|
before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better,
|
|
by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned--
|
|
I had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial
|
|
as I knew had been given her in the morning."
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|
|
|
Emma smiled and answered--"My visit was of use to the nervous part
|
|
of her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat;
|
|
it is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her,
|
|
as you probably heard."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I imagined--that is--I did not--"
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|
|
|
"He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow
|
|
morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is
|
|
impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party to-day!"
|
|
|
|
"Dreadful!--Exactly so, indeed.--She will be missed every moment."
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|
|
|
This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really estimable;
|
|
but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay when
|
|
only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things,
|
|
and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.
|
|
|
|
"What an excellent device," said he, "the use of a sheepskin
|
|
for carriages. How very comfortable they make it;--impossible to
|
|
feel cold with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days
|
|
indeed have rendered a gentleman's carriage perfectly complete.
|
|
One is so fenced and guarded from the weather, that not a breath
|
|
of air can find its way unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely
|
|
of no consequence. It is a very cold afternoon--but in this carriage
|
|
we know nothing of the matter.--Ha! snows a little I see."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said John Knightley, "and I think we shall have a good deal
|
|
of it."
|
|
|
|
"Christmas weather," observed Mr. Elton. "Quite seasonable;
|
|
and extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not
|
|
begin yesterday, and prevent this day's party, which it might very
|
|
possibly have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had
|
|
there been much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence.
|
|
This is quite the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas
|
|
every body invites their friends about them, and people think little
|
|
of even the worst weather. I was snowed up at a friend's house once
|
|
for a week. Nothing could be pleasanter. I went for only one night,
|
|
and could not get away till that very day se'nnight."
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure,
|
|
but said only, coolly,
|
|
|
|
"I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls."
|
|
|
|
At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too
|
|
much astonished now at Mr. Elton's spirits for other feelings.
|
|
Harriet seemed quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.
|
|
|
|
"We are sure of excellent fires," continued he, "and every thing
|
|
in the greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;--
|
|
Mrs. Weston indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly
|
|
what one values, so hospitable, and so fond of society;--
|
|
it will be a small party, but where small parties are select,
|
|
they are perhaps the most agreeable of any. Mr. Weston's dining-room
|
|
does not accommodate more than ten comfortably; and for my part,
|
|
I would rather, under such circumstances, fall short by two than
|
|
exceed by two. I think you will agree with me, (turning with a soft
|
|
air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your approbation,
|
|
though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large parties
|
|
of London, may not quite enter into our feelings."
|
|
|
|
"I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir--I never dine
|
|
with any body."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the
|
|
law had been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come
|
|
when you will be paid for all this, when you will have little
|
|
labour and great enjoyment."
|
|
|
|
"My first enjoyment," replied John Knightley, as they passed through
|
|
the sweep-gate, "will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XIV
|
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|
|
Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman
|
|
as they walked into Mrs. Weston's drawing-room;--Mr. Elton must
|
|
compose his joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his
|
|
ill-humour. Mr. Elton must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more,
|
|
to fit them for the place.--Emma only might be as nature prompted,
|
|
and shew herself just as happy as she was. To her it was real
|
|
enjoyment to be with the Westons. Mr. Weston was a great favourite,
|
|
and there was not a creature in the world to whom she spoke with
|
|
such unreserve, as to his wife; not any one, to whom she related
|
|
with such conviction of being listened to and understood, of being
|
|
always interesting and always intelligible, the little affairs,
|
|
arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father and herself.
|
|
She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston had not
|
|
a lively concern; and half an hour's uninterrupted communication
|
|
of all those little matters on which the daily happiness of private
|
|
life depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
|
|
|
|
This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day's visit might
|
|
not afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour;
|
|
but the very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice
|
|
was grateful to Emma, and she determined to think as little as
|
|
possible of Mr. Elton's oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant,
|
|
and enjoy all that was enjoyable to the utmost.
|
|
|
|
The misfortune of Harriet's cold had been pretty well gone through
|
|
before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long
|
|
enough to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own
|
|
and Isabella's coming, and of Emma's being to follow, and had indeed
|
|
just got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come
|
|
and see his daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston,
|
|
who had been almost wholly engrossed by her attentions to him,
|
|
was able to turn away and welcome her dear Emma.
|
|
|
|
Emma's project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather
|
|
sorry to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was
|
|
close to her. The difficulty was great of driving his strange
|
|
insensibility towards Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat
|
|
at her elbow, but was continually obtruding his happy countenance
|
|
on her notice, and solicitously addressing her upon every occasion.
|
|
Instead of forgetting him, his behaviour was such that she could
|
|
not avoid the internal suggestion of "Can it really be as my brother
|
|
imagined? can it be possible for this man to be beginning to transfer
|
|
his affections from Harriet to me?--Absurd and insufferable!"--
|
|
Yet he would be so anxious for her being perfectly warm, would be
|
|
so interested about her father, and so delighted with Mrs. Weston;
|
|
and at last would begin admiring her drawings with so much zeal
|
|
and so little knowledge as seemed terribly like a would-be lover,
|
|
and made it some effort with her to preserve her good manners.
|
|
For her own sake she could not be rude; and for Harriet's, in the hope
|
|
that all would yet turn out right, she was even positively civil;
|
|
but it was an effort; especially as something was going on amongst
|
|
the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr. Elton's nonsense,
|
|
which she particularly wished to listen to. She heard enough
|
|
to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about his son;
|
|
she heard the words "my son," and "Frank," and "my son,"
|
|
repeated several times over; and, from a few other half-syllables
|
|
very much suspected that he was announcing an early visit from
|
|
his son; but before she could quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was
|
|
so completely past that any reviving question from her would have
|
|
been awkward.
|
|
|
|
Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma's resolution of never marrying,
|
|
there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr. Frank Churchill,
|
|
which always interested her. She had frequently thought--especially since
|
|
his father's marriage with Miss Taylor--that if she were to marry,
|
|
he was the very person to suit her in age, character and condition.
|
|
He seemed by this connexion between the families, quite to belong to her.
|
|
She could not but suppose it to be a match that every body who knew
|
|
them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs. Weston did think of it, she was
|
|
very strongly persuaded; and though not meaning to be induced by him,
|
|
or by any body else, to give up a situation which she believed more
|
|
replete with good than any she could change it for, she had a great
|
|
curiosity to see him, a decided intention of finding him pleasant,
|
|
of being liked by him to a certain degree, and a sort of pleasure
|
|
in the idea of their being coupled in their friends' imaginations.
|
|
|
|
With such sensations, Mr. Elton's civilities were dreadfully ill-timed;
|
|
but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling
|
|
very cross--and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not
|
|
possibly pass without bringing forward the same information again,
|
|
or the substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.--So it proved;--
|
|
for when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston,
|
|
at dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares
|
|
of hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton,
|
|
to say to her,
|
|
|
|
"We want only two more to be just the right number. I should
|
|
like to see two more here,--your pretty little friend, Miss Smith,
|
|
and my son--and then I should say we were quite complete.
|
|
I believe you did not hear me telling the others in the drawing-room
|
|
that we are expecting Frank. I had a letter from him this morning,
|
|
and he will be with us within a fortnight."
|
|
|
|
Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented
|
|
to his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making
|
|
their party quite complete.
|
|
|
|
"He has been wanting to come to us," continued Mr. Weston,
|
|
"ever since September: every letter has been full of it;
|
|
but he cannot command his own time. He has those to please
|
|
who must be pleased, and who (between ourselves) are sometimes
|
|
to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices. But now
|
|
I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in January."
|
|
|
|
"What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston
|
|
is so anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost
|
|
as happy as yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another
|
|
put-off. She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do:
|
|
but she does not know the parties so well as I do. The case,
|
|
you see, is--(but this is quite between ourselves: I did not mention
|
|
a syllable of it in the other room. There are secrets in all families,
|
|
you know)--The case is, that a party of friends are invited to pay
|
|
a visit at Enscombe in January; and that Frank's coming depends upon
|
|
their being put off. If they are not put off, he cannot stir.
|
|
But I know they will, because it is a family that a certain lady,
|
|
of some consequence, at Enscombe, has a particular dislike to:
|
|
and though it is thought necessary to invite them once in two or
|
|
three years, they always are put off when it comes to the point.
|
|
I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as confident
|
|
of seeing Frank here before the middle of January, as I am
|
|
of being here myself: but your good friend there (nodding
|
|
towards the upper end of the table) has so few vagaries herself,
|
|
and has been so little used to them at Hartfield, that she cannot
|
|
calculate on their effects, as I have been long in the practice
|
|
of doing."
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case,"
|
|
replied Emma; "but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you
|
|
think he will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been
|
|
at the place in my life.--She is an odd woman!--But I never allow
|
|
myself to speak ill of her, on Frank's account; for I do believe
|
|
her to be very fond of him. I used to think she was not capable
|
|
of being fond of any body, except herself: but she has always been
|
|
kind to him (in her way--allowing for little whims and caprices,
|
|
and expecting every thing to be as she likes). And it is no small credit,
|
|
in my opinion, to him, that he should excite such an affection;
|
|
for, though I would not say it to any body else, she has no more
|
|
heart than a stone to people in general; and the devil of a temper."
|
|
|
|
Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston,
|
|
very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her joy--
|
|
yet observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather alarming.--
|
|
Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be very
|
|
glad to be secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting
|
|
at the time talked of: "for I cannot depend upon his coming.
|
|
I cannot be so sanguine as Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid
|
|
that it will all end in nothing. Mr. Weston, I dare say, has been
|
|
telling you exactly how the matter stands?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour
|
|
of Mrs. Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain
|
|
thing in the world."
|
|
|
|
"My Emma!" replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, "what is the certainty
|
|
of caprice?" Then turning to Isabella, who had not been
|
|
attending before--"You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley,
|
|
that we are by no means so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill,
|
|
in my opinion, as his father thinks. It depends entirely upon
|
|
his aunt's spirits and pleasure; in short, upon her temper.
|
|
To you--to my two daughters--I may venture on the truth.
|
|
Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very odd-tempered woman;
|
|
and his coming now, depends upon her being willing to spare him."
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"Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill,"
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replied Isabella: "and I am sure I never think of that poor young
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man without the greatest compassion. To be constantly living
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with an ill-tempered person, must be dreadful. It is what we
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happily have never known any thing of; but it must be a life
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of misery. What a blessing, that she never had any children!
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Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would have made them!"
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Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have
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heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve
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which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed,
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would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills
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from her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own
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imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge.
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But at present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse
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very soon followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting
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long after dinner, was a confinement that he could not endure.
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Neither wine nor conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did
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he move to those with whom he was always comfortable.
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While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity
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of saying,
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"And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any
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means certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant,
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whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better."
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"Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays.
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Even if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still
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afraid that some excuse may be found for disappointing us.
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I cannot bear to imagine any reluctance on his side; but I am sure
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there is a great wish on the Churchills' to keep him to themselves.
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There is jealousy. They are jealous even of his regard for his father.
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In short, I can feel no dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston
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were less sanguine."
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"He ought to come," said Emma. "If he could stay only a couple
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of days, he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man's
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not having it in his power to do as much as that. A young woman,
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if she fall into bad hands, may be teazed, and kept at a distance
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from those she wants to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young
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man's being under such restraint, as not to be able to spend a week
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with his father, if he likes it."
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"One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family,
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before one decides upon what he can do," replied Mrs. Weston.
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"One ought to use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the
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conduct of any one individual of any one family; but Enscombe,
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I believe, certainly must not be judged by general rules:
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she is so very unreasonable; and every thing gives way to her."
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"But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite.
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Now, according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural,
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that while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband,
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to whom she owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice
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towards him, she should frequently be governed by the nephew,
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to whom she owes nothing at all."
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"My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper,
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to understand a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must
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let it go its own way. I have no doubt of his having, at times,
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considerable influence; but it may be perfectly impossible for him
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to know beforehand when it will be."
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Emma listened, and then coolly said, "I shall not be satisfied,
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unless he comes."
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"He may have a great deal of influence on some points,"
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continued Mrs. Weston, "and on others, very little: and among those,
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on which she is beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be
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this very circumstance of his coming away from them to visit us."
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CHAPTER XV
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Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his
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tea he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three
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companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness
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of the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was
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chatty and convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort;
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but at last the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation.
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Mr. Elton, in very good spirits, was one of the first to walk in.
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Mrs. Weston and Emma were sitting together on a sofa. He joined
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them immediately, and, with scarcely an invitation, seated himself
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between them.
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Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind
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by the expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget
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his late improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before,
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and on his making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen
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with most friendly smiles.
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He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend--
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her fair, lovely, amiable friend. "Did she know?--had she
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heard any thing about her, since their being at Randalls?--
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he felt much anxiety--he must confess that the nature of her
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complaint alarmed him considerably." And in this style he talked
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on for some time very properly, not much attending to any answer,
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but altogether sufficiently awake to the terror of a bad sore throat;
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and Emma was quite in charity with him.
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But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if
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he were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account,
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than on Harriet's--more anxious that she should escape the infection,
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than that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began
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with great earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting
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the sick-chamber again, for the present--to entreat her to promise
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him not to venture into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry
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and learnt his opinion; and though she tried to laugh it off
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and bring the subject back into its proper course, there was no
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putting an end to his extreme solicitude about her. She was vexed.
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It did appear--there was no concealing it--exactly like the pretence
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of being in love with her, instead of Harriet; an inconstancy,
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if real, the most contemptible and abominable! and she had difficulty
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in behaving with temper. He turned to Mrs. Weston to implore
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her assistance, "Would not she give him her support?--would not she
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add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss Woodhouse not to go
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to Mrs. Goddard's till it were certain that Miss Smith's disorder
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had no infection? He could not be satisfied without a promise--
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would not she give him her influence in procuring it?"
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"So scrupulous for others," he continued, "and yet so careless
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for herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day,
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and yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated
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sore throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?--Judge between us.
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Have not I some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support
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and aid."
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Emma saw Mrs. Weston's surprize, and felt that it must be great,
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at an address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself
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the right of first interest in her; and as for herself, she was
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too much provoked and offended to have the power of directly
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saying any thing to the purpose. She could only give him a look;
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but it was such a look as she thought must restore him to his senses,
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and then left the sofa, removing to a seat by her sister, and giving
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her all her attention.
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She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly
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did another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came
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into the room from examining the weather, and opened on them
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|
all with the information of the ground being covered with snow,
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and of its still snowing fast, with a strong drifting wind;
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concluding with these words to Mr. Woodhouse:
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"This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements,
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sir. Something new for your coachman and horses to be making
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|
their way through a storm of snow."
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Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else
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had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized,
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and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston
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and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention
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|
from his son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.
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"I admired your resolution very much, sir," said he, "in venturing
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out in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow
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very soon. Every body must have seen the snow coming on.
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I admired your spirit; and I dare say we shall get home very well.
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Another hour or two's snow can hardly make the road impassable;
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and we are two carriages; if one is blown over in the bleak part
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|
of the common field there will be the other at hand. I dare say we
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|
shall be all safe at Hartfield before midnight."
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Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he
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|
had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word,
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lest it should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse
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|
for his hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen
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or likely to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke;
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he was afraid they would find no difficulty. He wished the road might
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be impassable, that he might be able to keep them all at Randalls;
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and with the utmost good-will was sure that accommodation might
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be found for every body, calling on his wife to agree with him,
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that with a little contrivance, every body might be lodged,
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which she hardly knew how to do, from the consciousness of there
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|
being but two spare rooms in the house.
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"What is to be done, my dear Emma?--what is to be done?"
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|
was Mr. Woodhouse's first exclamation, and all that he could say
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|
for some time. To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances
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|
of safety, her representation of the excellence of the horses,
|
|
and of James, and of their having so many friends about them,
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|
revived him a little.
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His eldest daughter's alarm was equal to his own. The horror of
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being blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield,
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|
was full in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just
|
|
passable for adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay,
|
|
she was eager to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain
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|
at Randalls, while she and her husband set forward instantly through
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|
all the possible accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.
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"You had better order the carriage directly, my love," said she;
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"I dare say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly;
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and if we do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk.
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|
I am not at all afraid. I should not mind walking half the way.
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I could change my shoes, you know, the moment I got home; and it is not
|
|
the sort of thing that gives me cold."
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"Indeed!" replied he. "Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most
|
|
extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every
|
|
thing does give you cold. Walk home!--you are prettily shod
|
|
for walking home, I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses."
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Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan.
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|
Mrs. Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma;
|
|
but Emma could not so entirely give up the hope of their being
|
|
all able to get away; and they were still discussing the point,
|
|
when Mr. Knightley, who had left the room immediately after his
|
|
brother's first report of the snow, came back again, and told them
|
|
that he had been out of doors to examine, and could answer for there
|
|
not being the smallest difficulty in their getting home, whenever they
|
|
liked it, either now or an hour hence. He had gone beyond the sweep--
|
|
some way along the Highbury road--the snow was nowhere above half
|
|
an inch deep--in many places hardly enough to whiten the ground;
|
|
a very few flakes were falling at present, but the clouds were parting,
|
|
and there was every appearance of its being soon over. He had seen
|
|
the coachmen, and they both agreed with him in there being nothing
|
|
to apprehend.
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|
|
|
To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they
|
|
were scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father's account,
|
|
who was immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous
|
|
constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not
|
|
be appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued
|
|
at Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in
|
|
returning home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe
|
|
to stay; and while the others were variously urging and recommending,
|
|
Mr. Knightley and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus--
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|
"Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?"
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|
|
"I am ready, if the others are."
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|
|
"Shall I ring the bell?"
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|
|
"Yes, do."
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|
|
|
And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few
|
|
minutes more, and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion
|
|
deposited in his own house, to get sober and cool, and the other
|
|
recover his temper and happiness when this visit of hardship were over.
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|
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|
The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on
|
|
such occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley
|
|
and Mr. Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some
|
|
renewal of alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen,
|
|
and the discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for.
|
|
"He was afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid
|
|
poor Isabella would not like it. And there would be poor Emma
|
|
in the carriage behind. He did not know what they had best do.
|
|
They must keep as much together as they could;" and James was talked to,
|
|
and given a charge to go very slow and wait for the other carriage.
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|
|
|
Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he
|
|
did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally;
|
|
so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second
|
|
carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them,
|
|
and that they were to have a tete-a-tete drive. It would not have been
|
|
the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure,
|
|
previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked
|
|
to him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have
|
|
seemed but one. But now, she would rather it had not happened.
|
|
She believed he had been drinking too much of Mr. Weston's good wine,
|
|
and felt sure that he would want to be talking nonsense.
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|
|
|
To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was
|
|
immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity
|
|
of the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had
|
|
they passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she
|
|
found her subject cut up--her hand seized--her attention demanded,
|
|
and Mr. Elton actually making violent love to her: availing himself
|
|
of the precious opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already
|
|
well known, hoping--fearing--adoring--ready to die if she refused him;
|
|
but flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled
|
|
love and unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect,
|
|
and in short, very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon
|
|
as possible. It really was so. Without scruple--without apology--
|
|
without much apparent diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet,
|
|
was professing himself her lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly;
|
|
he would go on, and say it all. Angry as she was, the thought of
|
|
the moment made her resolve to restrain herself when she did speak.
|
|
She felt that half this folly must be drunkenness, and therefore
|
|
could hope that it might belong only to the passing hour.
|
|
Accordingly, with a mixture of the serious and the playful, which she
|
|
hoped would best suit his half and half state, she replied,
|
|
|
|
"I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to me! you forget yourself--
|
|
you take me for my friend--any message to Miss Smith I shall
|
|
be happy to deliver; but no more of this to me, if you please."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Smith!--message to Miss Smith!--What could she possibly mean!"--
|
|
And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such boastful
|
|
pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with quickness,
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account
|
|
for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak
|
|
either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself
|
|
enough to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it."
|
|
|
|
But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits,
|
|
not at all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning;
|
|
and having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious,
|
|
and slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,--
|
|
but acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned
|
|
at all,--he resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very
|
|
urgent for a favourable answer.
|
|
|
|
As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his inconstancy
|
|
and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness, replied,
|
|
|
|
"It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made
|
|
yourself too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond
|
|
any thing I can express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed
|
|
during the last month, to Miss Smith--such attentions as I
|
|
have been in the daily habit of observing--to be addressing me
|
|
in this manner--this is an unsteadiness of character, indeed,
|
|
which I had not supposed possible! Believe me, sir, I am far,
|
|
very far, from gratified in being the object of such professions."
|
|
|
|
"Good Heaven!" cried Mr. Elton, "what can be the meaning of this?--
|
|
Miss Smith!--I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course
|
|
of my existence--never paid her any attentions, but as your friend:
|
|
never cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend.
|
|
If she has fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her,
|
|
and I am very sorry--extremely sorry--But, Miss Smith, indeed!--Oh!
|
|
Miss Woodhouse! who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse
|
|
is near! No, upon my honour, there is no unsteadiness of character.
|
|
I have thought only of you. I protest against having paid the smallest
|
|
attention to any one else. Every thing that I have said or done,
|
|
for many weeks past, has been with the sole view of marking my
|
|
adoration of yourself. You cannot really, seriously, doubt it.
|
|
No!--(in an accent meant to be insinuating)--I am sure you have seen
|
|
and understood me."
|
|
|
|
It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this--
|
|
which of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was
|
|
too completely overpowered to be immediately able to reply:
|
|
and two moments of silence being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton's
|
|
sanguine state of mind, he tried to take her hand again, as he
|
|
joyously exclaimed--
|
|
|
|
"Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting silence.
|
|
It confesses that you have long understood me."
|
|
|
|
"No, sir," cried Emma, "it confesses no such thing. So far from
|
|
having long understood you, I have been in a most complete error
|
|
with respect to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am
|
|
very sorry that you should have been giving way to any feelings--
|
|
Nothing could be farther from my wishes--your attachment to my
|
|
friend Harriet--your pursuit of her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me
|
|
great pleasure, and I have been very earnestly wishing you success:
|
|
but had I supposed that she were not your attraction to Hartfield,
|
|
I should certainly have thought you judged ill in making your visits
|
|
so frequent. Am I to believe that you have never sought to recommend
|
|
yourself particularly to Miss Smith?--that you have never thought
|
|
seriously of her?"
|
|
|
|
"Never, madam," cried he, affronted in his turn: "never, I assure you.
|
|
I think seriously of Miss Smith!--Miss Smith is a very good sort
|
|
of girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled.
|
|
I wish her extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not
|
|
object to--Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not,
|
|
I think, quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair
|
|
of an equal alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!--
|
|
No, madam, my visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only;
|
|
and the encouragement I received--"
|
|
|
|
"Encouragement!--I give you encouragement!--Sir, you have been entirely
|
|
mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer
|
|
of my friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than
|
|
a common acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that
|
|
the mistake ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued,
|
|
Miss Smith might have been led into a misconception of your views;
|
|
not being aware, probably, any more than myself, of the very
|
|
great inequality which you are so sensible of. But, as it is,
|
|
the disappointment is single, and, I trust, will not be lasting.
|
|
I have no thoughts of matrimony at present."
|
|
|
|
He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided
|
|
to invite supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment,
|
|
and mutually deep mortification, they had to continue together a few
|
|
minutes longer, for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them
|
|
to a foot-pace. If there had not been so much anger, there would have
|
|
been desperate awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left
|
|
no room for the little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing
|
|
when the carriage turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped,
|
|
they found themselves, all at once, at the door of his house;
|
|
and he was out before another syllable passed.--Emma then felt it
|
|
indispensable to wish him a good night. The compliment was just returned,
|
|
coldly and proudly; and, under indescribable irritation of spirits,
|
|
she was then conveyed to Hartfield.
|
|
|
|
There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father,
|
|
who had been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from
|
|
Vicarage Lane--turning a corner which he could never bear to think of--
|
|
and in strange hands--a mere common coachman--no James; and there it
|
|
seemed as if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well:
|
|
for Mr. John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all
|
|
kindness and attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort
|
|
of her father, as to seem--if not quite ready to join him in a basin
|
|
of gruel--perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome;
|
|
and the day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party,
|
|
except herself.--But her mind had never been in such perturbation;
|
|
and it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till
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the usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.
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CHAPTER XVI
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The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think
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and be miserable.--It was a wretched business indeed!--Such an overthrow
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of every thing she had been wishing for!--Such a development of every
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thing most unwelcome!--Such a blow for Harriet!--that was the worst
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of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort
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or other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light;
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and she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken--
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more in error--more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was,
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could the effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.
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"If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have
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borne any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me--
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but poor Harriet!"
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How she could have been so deceived!--He protested that he
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had never thought seriously of Harriet--never! She looked back
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as well as she could; but it was all confusion. She had taken
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up the idea, she supposed, and made every thing bend to it.
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His manners, however, must have been unmarked, wavering, dubious,
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or she could not have been so misled.
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The picture!--How eager he had been about the picture!--
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and the charade!--and an hundred other circumstances;--
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how clearly they had seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure,
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the charade, with its "ready wit"--but then the "soft eyes"--
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in fact it suited neither; it was a jumble without taste or truth.
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Who could have seen through such thick-headed nonsense?
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Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners
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to herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way,
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as a mere error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof
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among others that he had not always lived in the best society,
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that with all the gentleness of his address, true elegance
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was sometimes wanting; but, till this very day, she had never,
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for an instant, suspected it to mean any thing but grateful respect
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to her as Harriet's friend.
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To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on
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the subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was
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no denying that those brothers had penetration. She remembered
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what Mr. Knightley had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution
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he had given, the conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would
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never marry indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer
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a knowledge of his character had been there shewn than any she
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had reached herself. It was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton
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was proving himself, in many respects, the very reverse of what she
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had meant and believed him; proud, assuming, conceited; very full
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of his own claims, and little concerned about the feelings of others.
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Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton's wanting
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to pay his addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion.
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His professions and his proposals did him no service. She thought
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nothing of his attachment, and was insulted by his hopes.
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He wanted to marry well, and having the arrogance to raise his
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eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she was perfectly easy
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as to his not suffering any disappointment that need be cared for.
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There had been no real affection either in his language or manners.
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Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she could
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hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice,
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less allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him.
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He only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse
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of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite
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so easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss
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Somebody else with twenty, or with ten.
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But--that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as
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aware of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short),
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to marry him!--should suppose himself her equal in connexion
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or mind!--look down upon her friend, so well understanding the
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gradations of rank below him, and be so blind to what rose above,
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as to fancy himself shewing no presumption in addressing her!--
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It was most provoking.
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Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he
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was her inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind.
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The very want of such equality might prevent his perception of it;
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but he must know that in fortune and consequence she was greatly
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his superior. He must know that the Woodhouses had been settled
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for several generations at Hartfield, the younger branch
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of a very ancient family--and that the Eltons were nobody.
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The landed property of Hartfield certainly was inconsiderable,
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being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate, to which all
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the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from other sources,
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was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell Abbey itself,
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in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses had long
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held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood which
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Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way
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as he could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing
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to recommend him to notice but his situation and his civility.--
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But he had fancied her in love with him; that evidently must
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have been his dependence; and after raving a little about the
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seeming incongruity of gentle manners and a conceited head,
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Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop and admit that her own
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behaviour to him had been so complaisant and obliging, so full of
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courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real motive unperceived)
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might warrant a man of ordinary observation and delicacy,
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like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite. If she
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had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to wonder
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that he, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken hers.
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The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish,
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it was wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two
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people together. It was adventuring too far, assuming too much,
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making light of what ought to be serious, a trick of what ought
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to be simple. She was quite concerned and ashamed, and resolved
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to do such things no more.
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"Here have I," said she, "actually talked poor Harriet into being
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very much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him
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but for me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope,
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if I had not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest
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and humble as I used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with
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persuading her not to accept young Martin. There I was quite right.
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That was well done of me; but there I should have stopped, and left
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the rest to time and chance. I was introducing her into good company,
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and giving her the opportunity of pleasing some one worth having;
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I ought not to have attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace
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is cut up for some time. I have been but half a friend to her;
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and if she were not to feel this disappointment so very much, I am
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sure I have not an idea of any body else who would be at all desirable
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for her;--William Coxe--Oh! no, I could not endure William Coxe--
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a pert young lawyer."
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She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed
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a more serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been,
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and might be, and must be. The distressing explanation she had
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to make to Harriet, and all that poor Harriet would be suffering,
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with the awkwardness of future meetings, the difficulties of
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continuing or discontinuing the acquaintance, of subduing feelings,
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concealing resentment, and avoiding eclat, were enough to occupy
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her in most unmirthful reflections some time longer, and she went
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to bed at last with nothing settled but the conviction of her having
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blundered most dreadfully.
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To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma's, though under
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temporary gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail
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to bring return of spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning
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are in happy analogy, and of powerful operation; and if the
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distress be not poignant enough to keep the eyes unclosed, they
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will be sure to open to sensations of softened pain and brighter hope.
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Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had
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gone to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her,
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and to depend on getting tolerably out of it.
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It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really
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in love with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking
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to disappoint him--that Harriet's nature should not be of that
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superior sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive--
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and that there could be no necessity for any body's knowing
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what had passed except the three principals, and especially
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for her father's being given a moment's uneasiness about it.
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These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal
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of snow on the ground did her further service, for any thing was
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welcome that might justify their all three being quite asunder
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at present.
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The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day,
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she could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable
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had his daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from
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either exciting or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas.
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The ground covered with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled
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state between frost and thaw, which is of all others the most
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unfriendly for exercise, every morning beginning in rain or snow,
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and every evening setting in to freeze, she was for many days a most
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honourable prisoner. No intercourse with Harriet possible but by note;
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no church for her on Sunday any more than on Christmas Day; and no
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need to find excuses for Mr. Elton's absenting himself.
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It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home;
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and though she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort
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in some society or other, it was very pleasant to have her father
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so well satisfied with his being all alone in his own house,
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too wise to stir out; and to hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no
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weather could keep entirely from them,--
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"Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?"
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These days of confinement would have been, but for her private
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perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly
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suited her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance
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to his companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off
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his ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him
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during the rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable
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and obliging, and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all
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the hopes of cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay,
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there was still such an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation
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with Harriet, as made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.
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CHAPTER XVII
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Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield.
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The weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move;
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and Mr. Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter
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to stay behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole
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party set off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny
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of poor Isabella;--which poor Isabella, passing her life with
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those she doated on, full of their merits, blind to their faults,
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and always innocently busy, might have been a model of right
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feminine happiness.
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The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note
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from Mr. Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note,
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to say, with Mr. Elton's best compliments, "that he was proposing
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to leave Highbury the following morning in his way to Bath;
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|
where, in compliance with the pressing entreaties of some friends,
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he had engaged to spend a few weeks, and very much regretted
|
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the impossibility he was under, from various circumstances of
|
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weather and business, of taking a personal leave of Mr. Woodhouse,
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of whose friendly civilities he should ever retain a grateful sense--
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and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be happy to attend to them."
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Emma was most agreeably surprized.--Mr. Elton's absence just
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|
at this time was the very thing to be desired. She admired
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him for contriving it, though not able to give him much credit
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for the manner in which it was announced. Resentment could not
|
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have been more plainly spoken than in a civility to her father,
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from which she was so pointedly excluded. She had not even a
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share in his opening compliments.--Her name was not mentioned;--
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|
and there was so striking a change in all this, and such an
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ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful acknowledgments,
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as she thought, at first, could not escape her father's suspicion.
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It did, however.--Her father was quite taken up with the surprize
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of so sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get
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safely to the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language.
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It was a very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter
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for thought and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening.
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Mr. Woodhouse talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits
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to persuade them away with all her usual promptitude.
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She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had
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reason to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was
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desirable that she should have as much time as possible for getting
|
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the better of her other complaint before the gentleman's return.
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She went to Mrs. Goddard's accordingly the very next day, to undergo
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the necessary penance of communication; and a severe one it was.--
|
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She had to destroy all the hopes which she had been so industriously
|
|
feeding--to appear in the ungracious character of the one preferred--
|
|
and acknowledge herself grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her
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ideas on one subject, all her observations, all her convictions,
|
|
all her prophecies for the last six weeks.
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The confession completely renewed her first shame--and the sight
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of Harriet's tears made her think that she should never be in charity
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with herself again.
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Harriet bore the intelligence very well--blaming nobody--
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and in every thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition
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and lowly opinion of herself, as must appear with particular
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advantage at that moment to her friend.
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Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost;
|
|
and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching,
|
|
seemed on Harriet's side, not her own. Harriet did not consider
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herself as having any thing to complain of. The affection of such
|
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a man as Mr. Elton would have been too great a distinction.--
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She never could have deserved him--and nobody but so partial
|
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and kind a friend as Miss Woodhouse would have thought it possible.
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Her tears fell abundantly--but her grief was so truly artless,
|
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that no dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma's eyes--
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and she listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart
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and understanding--really for the time convinced that Harriet was
|
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the superior creature of the two--and that to resemble her would
|
|
be more for her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or
|
|
intelligence could do.
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It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded
|
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and ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution
|
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confirmed of being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination
|
|
all the rest of her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her
|
|
father's claims, was to promote Harriet's comfort, and endeavour
|
|
to prove her own affection in some better method than by match-making.
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She got her to Hartfield, and shewed her the most unvarying kindness,
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striving to occupy and amuse her, and by books and conversation,
|
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to drive Mr. Elton from her thoughts.
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Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and she
|
|
could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in general,
|
|
and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr. Elton
|
|
in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet's age,
|
|
and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might be
|
|
made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton's return,
|
|
as to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of acquaintance,
|
|
without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing them.
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Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence
|
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of any body equal to him in person or goodness--and did, in truth,
|
|
prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen;
|
|
but yet it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive
|
|
against an inclination of that sort unrequited, that she could not
|
|
comprehend its continuing very long in equal force.
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If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident
|
|
and indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do,
|
|
she could not imagine Harriet's persisting to place her happiness
|
|
in the sight or the recollection of him.
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Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad
|
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for each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal,
|
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or of effecting any material change of society. They must encounter
|
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each other, and make the best of it.
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Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at
|
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Mrs. Goddard's; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers
|
|
and great girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only
|
|
that she could have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling
|
|
moderation or repellent truth. Where the wound had been given,
|
|
there must the cure be found if anywhere; and Emma felt that,
|
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till she saw her in the way of cure, there could be no true peace
|
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for herself.
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CHAPTER XVIII
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|
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Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed
|
|
drew near, Mrs. Weston's fears were justified in the arrival
|
|
of a letter of excuse. For the present, he could not be spared,
|
|
to his "very great mortification and regret; but still he looked
|
|
forward with the hope of coming to Randalls at no distant period."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed--much more disappointed,
|
|
in fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the
|
|
young man had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper,
|
|
though for ever expecting more good than occurs, does not
|
|
always pay for its hopes by any proportionate depression.
|
|
It soon flies over the present failure, and begins to hope again.
|
|
For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized and sorry; but then he
|
|
began to perceive that Frank's coming two or three months later
|
|
would be a much better plan; better time of year; better weather;
|
|
and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay considerably
|
|
longer with them than if he had come sooner.
|
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|
|
These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston,
|
|
of a more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition
|
|
of excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband
|
|
was to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.
|
|
|
|
Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really
|
|
about Mr. Frank Churchill's not coming, except as a disappointment
|
|
at Randalls. The acquaintance at present had no charm for her.
|
|
She wanted, rather, to be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it
|
|
was desirable that she should appear, in general, like her usual self,
|
|
she took care to express as much interest in the circumstance,
|
|
and enter as warmly into Mr. and Mrs. Weston's disappointment,
|
|
as might naturally belong to their friendship.
|
|
|
|
She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed
|
|
quite as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps
|
|
rather more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away.
|
|
She then proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the
|
|
advantage of such an addition to their confined society in Surry;
|
|
the pleasure of looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire,
|
|
which the sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections
|
|
on the Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a
|
|
disagreement with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement,
|
|
perceived that she was taking the other side of the question from her
|
|
real opinion, and making use of Mrs. Weston's arguments against herself.
|
|
|
|
"The Churchills are very likely in fault," said Mr. Knightley,
|
|
coolly; "but I dare say he might come if he would."
|
|
|
|
"I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come;
|
|
but his uncle and aunt will not spare him."
|
|
|
|
"I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made
|
|
a point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof."
|
|
|
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"How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you
|
|
suppose him such an unnatural creature?"
|
|
|
|
"I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting
|
|
that he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care
|
|
very little for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with
|
|
those who have always set him the example of it. It is a great deal
|
|
more natural than one could wish, that a young man, brought up
|
|
by those who are proud, luxurious, and selfish, should be proud,
|
|
luxurious, and selfish too. If Frank Churchill had wanted to see
|
|
his father, he would have contrived it between September and January.
|
|
A man at his age--what is he?--three or four-and-twenty--cannot be
|
|
without the means of doing as much as that. It is impossible."
|
|
|
|
"That's easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always
|
|
been your own master. You are the worst judge in the world,
|
|
Mr. Knightley, of the difficulties of dependence. You do not know
|
|
what it is to have tempers to manage."
|
|
|
|
"It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty
|
|
should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot
|
|
want money--he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary,
|
|
that he has so much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at
|
|
the idlest haunts in the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some
|
|
watering-place or other. A little while ago, he was at Weymouth.
|
|
This proves that he can leave the Churchills."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sometimes he can."
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|
|
|
"And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while;
|
|
whenever there is any temptation of pleasure."
|
|
|
|
"It is very unfair to judge of any body's conduct, without an
|
|
intimate knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been
|
|
in the interior of a family, can say what the difficulties
|
|
of any individual of that family may be. We ought to be
|
|
acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs. Churchill's temper,
|
|
before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew can do.
|
|
He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can at others."
|
|
|
|
"There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses,
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and that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour
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and resolution. It is Frank Churchill's duty to pay this attention
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to his father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages;
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but if he wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly
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would say at once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill--
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`Every sacrifice of mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make
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to your convenience; but I must go and see my father immediately.
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I know he would be hurt by my failing in such a mark of respect to him
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on the present occasion. I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.'--
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If he would say so to her at once, in the tone of decision becoming
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a man, there would be no opposition made to his going."
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"No," said Emma, laughing; "but perhaps there might be some made to his
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coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent,
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to use!--Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible.
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But you have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly
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opposite to your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such
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a speech as that to the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up,
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and are to provide for him!--Standing up in the middle of the room,
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I suppose, and speaking as loud as he could!--How can you imagine
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such conduct practicable?"
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"Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it.
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He would feel himself in the right; and the declaration--made,
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of course, as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner--
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would do him more good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger
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with the people he depended on, than all that a line of shifts
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and expedients can ever do. Respect would be added to affection.
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They would feel that they could trust him; that the nephew who had
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done rightly by his father, would do rightly by them; for they know,
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as well as he does, as well as all the world must know, that he
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ought to pay this visit to his father; and while meanly exerting
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their power to delay it, are in their hearts not thinking the better
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of him for submitting to their whims. Respect for right conduct
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is felt by every body. If he would act in this sort of manner,
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on principle, consistently, regularly, their little minds would bend
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to his."
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"I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds;
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but where little minds belong to rich people in authority,
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I think they have a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as
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unmanageable as great ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are,
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Mr. Knightley, were to be transported and placed all at once in
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Mr. Frank Churchill's situation, you would be able to say and do
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just what you have been recommending for him; and it might have
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a very good effect. The Churchills might not have a word to say
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in return; but then, you would have no habits of early obedience
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and long observance to break through. To him who has, it might
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not be so easy to burst forth at once into perfect independence,
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and set all their claims on his gratitude and regard at nought.
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He may have as strong a sense of what would be right, as you can have,
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without being so equal, under particular circumstances, to act up
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to it."
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"Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce
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equal exertion, it could not be an equal conviction."
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"Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try
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to understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel
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in directly opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been
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looking up to all his life."
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"Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first
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occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against
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the will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by
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this time, of following his duty, instead of consulting expediency.
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I can allow for the fears of the child, but not of the man.
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As he became rational, he ought to have roused himself and shaken off
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all that was unworthy in their authority. He ought to have opposed
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the first attempt on their side to make him slight his father.
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Had he begun as he ought, there would have been no difficulty now."
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"We shall never agree about him," cried Emma; "but that is
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nothing extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being
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a weak young man: I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would
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not be blind to folly, though in his own son; but he is very likely
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to have a more yielding, complying, mild disposition than would suit
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your notions of man's perfection. I dare say he has; and though
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it may cut him off from some advantages, it will secure him many others."
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"Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move,
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and of leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself
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extremely expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and
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write a fine flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods,
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and persuade himself that he has hit upon the very best method
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in the world of preserving peace at home and preventing his father's
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having any right to complain. His letters disgust me."
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"Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else."
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"I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can
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satisfy a woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in
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a mother's place, but without a mother's affection to blind her.
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It is on her account that attention to Randalls is doubly due,
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and she must doubly feel the omission. Had she been a person
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of consequence herself, he would have come I dare say; and it would
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|
not have signified whether he did or no. Can you think your friend
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behindhand in these sort of considerations? Do you suppose she
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does not often say all this to herself? No, Emma, your amiable
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young man can be amiable only in French, not in English. He may be
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very `aimable,' have very good manners, and be very agreeable; but he
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|
can have no English delicacy towards the feelings of other people:
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nothing really amiable about him."
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"You seem determined to think ill of him."
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"Me!--not at all," replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; "I do
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not want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge
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his merits as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are
|
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merely personal; that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth,
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plausible manners."
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"Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a
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|
treasure at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men,
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|
well-bred and agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all
|
|
the virtues into the bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley,
|
|
what a sensation his coming will produce? There will be but one subject
|
|
throughout the parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest--
|
|
one object of curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill;
|
|
we shall think and speak of nobody else."
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"You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him
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|
conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only
|
|
a chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts."
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"My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste
|
|
of every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being
|
|
universally agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me,
|
|
of drawing or music; and so on to every body, having that general
|
|
information on all subjects which will enable him to follow the lead,
|
|
or take the lead, just as propriety may require, and to speak
|
|
extremely well on each; that is my idea of him."
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"And mine," said Mr. Knightley warmly, "is, that if he turn out any
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|
thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing!
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|
What! at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company--the great man--
|
|
the practised politician, who is to read every body's character,
|
|
and make every body's talents conduce to the display of his
|
|
own superiority; to be dispensing his flatteries around, that he
|
|
may make all appear like fools compared with himself! My dear Emma,
|
|
your own good sense could not endure such a puppy when it came
|
|
to the point."
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"I will say no more about him," cried Emma, "you turn every
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|
thing to evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him;
|
|
and we have no chance of agreeing till he is really here."
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|
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"Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced."
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|
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"But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it.
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|
My love for Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in
|
|
his favour."
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|
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|
"He is a person I never think of from one month's end to another,"
|
|
said Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma
|
|
immediately talk of something else, though she could not comprehend
|
|
why he should be angry.
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|
|
|
To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be
|
|
of a different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real
|
|
liberality of mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him;
|
|
for with all the high opinion of himself, which she had often laid
|
|
to his charge, she had never before for a moment supposed it could
|
|
make him unjust to the merit of another.
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VOLUME II
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CHAPTER I
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Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and,
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|
in Emma's opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day.
|
|
She could not think that Harriet's solace or her own sins required more;
|
|
and she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject
|
|
as they returned;--but it burst out again when she thought she
|
|
had succeeded, and after speaking some time of what the poor must
|
|
suffer in winter, and receiving no other answer than a very plaintive--
|
|
"Mr. Elton is so good to the poor!" she found something else must be done.
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|
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|
They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates.
|
|
She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers.
|
|
There was always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and
|
|
Miss Bates loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered
|
|
by the very few who presumed ever to see imperfection in her,
|
|
as rather negligent in that respect, and as not contributing what she
|
|
ought to the stock of their scanty comforts.
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|
|
|
She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart,
|
|
as to her deficiency--but none were equal to counteract the persuasion
|
|
of its being very disagreeable,--a waste of time--tiresome women--
|
|
and all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate
|
|
and third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever,
|
|
and therefore she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden
|
|
resolution of not passing their door without going in--observing,
|
|
as she proposed it to Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate,
|
|
they were just now quite safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
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|
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|
The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied
|
|
the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized apartment,
|
|
which was every thing to them, the visitors were most cordially
|
|
and even gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her
|
|
knitting was seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up
|
|
her place to Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter,
|
|
almost ready to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for
|
|
their visit, solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse's health, cheerful communications about her mother's,
|
|
and sweet-cake from the beaufet--"Mrs. Cole had just been there,
|
|
just called in for ten minutes, and had been so good as to sit an
|
|
hour with them, and she had taken a piece of cake and been so kind
|
|
as to say she liked it very much; and, therefore, she hoped Miss
|
|
Woodhouse and Miss Smith would do them the favour to eat a piece too."
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|
|
|
The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton.
|
|
There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from
|
|
Mr. Elton since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must
|
|
have the letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone,
|
|
and how much he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he
|
|
was wherever he went, and how full the Master of the Ceremonies'
|
|
ball had been; and she went through it very well, with all the
|
|
interest and all the commendation that could be requisite, and always
|
|
putting forward to prevent Harriet's being obliged to say a word.
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|
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|
This she had been prepared for when she entered the house;
|
|
but meant, having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther
|
|
incommoded by any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst
|
|
all the Mistresses and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties.
|
|
She had not been prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton;
|
|
but he was actually hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away
|
|
from him at last abruptly to the Coles, to usher in a letter from
|
|
her niece.
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|
|
|
"Oh! yes--Mr. Elton, I understand--certainly as to dancing--
|
|
Mrs. Cole was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was--
|
|
Mrs. Cole was so kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane;
|
|
for as soon as she came in, she began inquiring after her,
|
|
Jane is so very great a favourite there. Whenever she is with us,
|
|
Mrs. Cole does not know how to shew her kindness enough;
|
|
and I must say that Jane deserves it as much as any body can.
|
|
And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying, `I know you
|
|
cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is not her time
|
|
for writing;' and when I immediately said, `But indeed we have,
|
|
we had a letter this very morning,' I do not know that I ever saw
|
|
any body more surprized. `Have you, upon your honour?' said she;
|
|
`well, that is quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.'"
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|
|
|
Emma's politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest--
|
|
|
|
"Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy.
|
|
I hope she is well?"
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|
|
|
"Thank you. You are so kind!" replied the happily deceived aunt,
|
|
while eagerly hunting for the letter.--"Oh! here it is. I was sure
|
|
it could not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see,
|
|
without being aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand
|
|
so very lately that I was almost sure it must be on the table.
|
|
I was reading it to Mrs. Cole, and since she went away, I was
|
|
reading it again to my mother, for it is such a pleasure to her--
|
|
a letter from Jane--that she can never hear it often enough;
|
|
so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is, only just under
|
|
my huswife--and since you are so kind as to wish to hear what
|
|
she says;--but, first of all, I really must, in justice to Jane,
|
|
apologise for her writing so short a letter--only two pages you see--
|
|
hardly two--and in general she fills the whole paper and crosses half.
|
|
My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well.
|
|
She often says, when the letter is first opened, `Well, Hetty,
|
|
now I think you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work'--
|
|
don't you, ma'am?--And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive
|
|
to make it out herself, if she had nobody to do it for her--
|
|
every word of it--I am sure she would pore over it till she had
|
|
made out every word. And, indeed, though my mother's eyes are not
|
|
so good as they were, she can see amazingly well still, thank God!
|
|
with the help of spectacles. It is such a blessing! My mother's
|
|
are really very good indeed. Jane often says, when she is here,
|
|
`I am sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong eyes to see
|
|
as you do--and so much fine work as you have done too!--I only wish
|
|
my eyes may last me as well.'"
|
|
|
|
All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath;
|
|
and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss
|
|
Fairfax's handwriting.
|
|
|
|
"You are extremely kind," replied Miss Bates, highly gratified;
|
|
"you who are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself.
|
|
I am sure there is nobody's praise that could give us so much pleasure
|
|
as Miss Woodhouse's. My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf
|
|
you know. Ma'am," addressing her, "do you hear what Miss Woodhouse
|
|
is so obliging to say about Jane's handwriting?"
|
|
|
|
And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment
|
|
repeated twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it.
|
|
She was pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming
|
|
very rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax's letter, and had
|
|
almost resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse,
|
|
when Miss Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.
|
|
|
|
"My mother's deafness is very trifling you see--just nothing at all.
|
|
By only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over,
|
|
she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very
|
|
remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.
|
|
Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama
|
|
at all deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great
|
|
deal at my mother's time of life--and it really is full two years,
|
|
you know, since she was here. We never were so long without seeing
|
|
her before, and as I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know
|
|
how to make enough of her now."
|
|
|
|
"Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?"
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|
|
|
"Oh yes; next week."
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|
|
|
"Indeed!--that must be a very great pleasure."
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|
|
|
"Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is
|
|
so surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am
|
|
sure she will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they
|
|
can be to see her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which,
|
|
because Colonel Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one
|
|
of those days. So very good of them to send her the whole way!
|
|
But they always do, you know. Oh yes, Friday or Saturday next.
|
|
That is what she writes about. That is the reason of her writing out
|
|
of rule, as we call it; for, in the common course, we should not have
|
|
heard from her before next Tuesday or Wednesday."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance
|
|
of my hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day."
|
|
|
|
"So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not
|
|
been for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here
|
|
so soon. My mother is so delighted!--for she is to be three months
|
|
with us at least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I
|
|
am going to have the pleasure of reading to you. The case is,
|
|
you see, that the Campbells are going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has
|
|
persuaded her father and mother to come over and see her directly.
|
|
They had not intended to go over till the summer, but she is so
|
|
impatient to see them again--for till she married, last October,
|
|
she was never away from them so much as a week, which must make
|
|
it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I was going to say,
|
|
but however different countries, and so she wrote a very urgent letter
|
|
to her mother--or her father, I declare I do not know which it was,
|
|
but we shall see presently in Jane's letter--wrote in Mr. Dixon's
|
|
name as well as her own, to press their coming over directly,
|
|
and they would give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back
|
|
to their country seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy.
|
|
Jane has heard a great deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean--
|
|
I do not know that she ever heard about it from any body else;
|
|
but it was very natural, you know, that he should like to speak
|
|
of his own place while he was paying his addresses--and as Jane used
|
|
to be very often walking out with them--for Colonel and Mrs. Campbell
|
|
were very particular about their daughter's not walking out
|
|
often with only Mr. Dixon, for which I do not at all blame them;
|
|
of course she heard every thing he might be telling Miss Campbell
|
|
about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us word
|
|
that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he
|
|
had taken himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man,
|
|
I believe. Jane was quite longing to go to Ireland, from his account
|
|
of things."
|
|
|
|
At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering
|
|
Emma's brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon,
|
|
and the not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design
|
|
of farther discovery,
|
|
|
|
"You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed
|
|
to come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular
|
|
friendship between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected
|
|
her to be excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell."
|
|
|
|
"Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always
|
|
been rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her
|
|
at such a distance from us, for months together--not able to come
|
|
if any thing was to happen. But you see, every thing turns out
|
|
for the best. They want her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to
|
|
come over with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell; quite depend upon it;
|
|
nothing can be more kind or pressing than their joint invitation,
|
|
Jane says, as you will hear presently; Mr. Dixon does not seem in the
|
|
least backward in any attention. He is a most charming young man.
|
|
Ever since the service he rendered Jane at Weymouth, when they were
|
|
out in that party on the water, and she, by the sudden whirling
|
|
round of something or other among the sails, would have been dashed
|
|
into the sea at once, and actually was all but gone, if he had not,
|
|
with the greatest presence of mind, caught hold of her habit--
|
|
(I can never think of it without trembling!)--But ever since we
|
|
had the history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!"
|
|
|
|
"But, in spite of all her friends' urgency, and her own wish
|
|
of seeing Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you
|
|
and Mrs. Bates?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel
|
|
and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they
|
|
should recommend; and indeed they particularly wish her to try
|
|
her native air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately."
|
|
|
|
"I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely.
|
|
But Mrs. Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon,
|
|
I understand, has no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not,
|
|
by any means, to be compared with Miss Fairfax."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things--but certainly not.
|
|
There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was
|
|
absolutely plain--but extremely elegant and amiable."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that of course."
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"Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th
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of November, (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been
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well since. A long time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her?
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She never mentioned it before, because she would not alarm us.
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Just like her! so considerate!--But however, she is so far from well,
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that her kind friends the Campbells think she had better come home,
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and try an air that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt
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that three or four months at Highbury will entirely cure her--
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and it is certainly a great deal better that she should come here,
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than go to Ireland, if she is unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we
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should do."
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"It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world."
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"And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the
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Campbells leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following--
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as you will find from Jane's letter. So sudden!--You may guess,
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dear Miss Woodhouse, what a flurry it has thrown me in!
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If it was not for the drawback of her illness--but I am afraid
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we must expect to see her grown thin, and looking very poorly.
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I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to me, as to that.
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I always make a point of reading Jane's letters through to myself first,
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before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for fear of there
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being any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me to do it,
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so I always do: and so I began to-day with my usual caution;
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but no sooner did I come to the mention of her being unwell, than I
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burst out, quite frightened, with `Bless me! poor Jane is ill!'--
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which my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly, and was sadly
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alarmed at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so bad
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as I had fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her,
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that she does not think much about it. But I cannot imagine
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how I could be so off my guard. If Jane does not get well soon,
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we will call in Mr. Perry. The expense shall not be thought of;
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and though he is so liberal, and so fond of Jane that I dare say
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he would not mean to charge any thing for attendance, we could not
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suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and family to maintain,
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and is not to be giving away his time. Well, now I have just given you
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a hint of what Jane writes about, we will turn to her letter, and I am
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sure she tells her own story a great deal better than I can tell it
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for her."
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"I am afraid we must be running away," said Emma, glancing at Harriet,
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and beginning to rise--"My father will be expecting us.
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I had no intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than
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five minutes, when I first entered the house. I merely called,
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because I would not pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates;
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but I have been so pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish
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you and Mrs. Bates good morning."
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And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded.
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She regained the street--happy in this, that though much had been
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forced on her against her will, though she had in fact heard
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the whole substance of Jane Fairfax's letter, she had been able
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to escape the letter itself.
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CHAPTER II
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Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates's
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youngest daughter.
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The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the _______ regiment of infantry,
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and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure,
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hope and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy
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remembrance of him dying in action abroad--of his widow sinking
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under consumption and grief soon afterwards--and this girl.
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By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old,
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on losing her mother, she became the property, the charge,
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the consolation, the fondling of her grandmother and aunt, there had
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seemed every probability of her being permanently fixed there;
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of her being taught only what very limited means could command,
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and growing up with no advantages of connexion or improvement,
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to be engrafted on what nature had given her in a pleasing person,
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good understanding, and warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
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But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave
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a change to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had
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very highly regarded Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most
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deserving young man; and farther, had been indebted to him for
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such attentions, during a severe camp-fever, as he believed had saved
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his life. These were claims which he did not learn to overlook,
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though some years passed away from the death of poor Fairfax,
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before his own return to England put any thing in his power.
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When he did return, he sought out the child and took notice of her.
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He was a married man, with only one living child, a girl,
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about Jane's age: and Jane became their guest, paying them long visits
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and growing a favourite with all; and before she was nine years old,
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his daughter's great fondness for her, and his own wish of being
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a real friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel Campbell
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of undertaking the whole charge of her education. It was accepted;
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and from that period Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell's family,
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and had lived with them entirely, only visiting her grandmother
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from time to time.
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The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others;
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the very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father
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making independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise
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was out of Colonel Campbell's power; for though his income, by pay
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and appointments, was handsome, his fortune was moderate and must
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be all his daughter's; but, by giving her an education, he hoped
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to be supplying the means of respectable subsistence hereafter.
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Such was Jane Fairfax's history. She had fallen into good hands,
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known nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given
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an excellent education. Living constantly with right-minded
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and well-informed people, her heart and understanding had received
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every advantage of discipline and culture; and Colonel Campbell's
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residence being in London, every lighter talent had been done
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full justice to, by the attendance of first-rate masters.
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Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy of all that
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friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was, as far
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as such an early age can be qualified for the care of children,
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|
fully competent to the office of instruction herself; but she
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|
was too much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor mother
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|
could promote, and the daughter could not endure it. The evil day
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|
was put off. It was easy to decide that she was still too young;
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and Jane remained with them, sharing, as another daughter, in all
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the rational pleasures of an elegant society, and a judicious
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|
mixture of home and amusement, with only the drawback of the future,
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|
the sobering suggestions of her own good understanding to remind
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her that all this might soon be over.
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The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss
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Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each party
|
|
from the circumstance of Jane's decided superiority both in beauty
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|
and acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not
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|
be unseen by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind
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|
be unfelt by the parents. They continued together with unabated
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|
regard however, till the marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance,
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that luck which so often defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs,
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giving attraction to what is moderate rather than to what is superior,
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|
engaged the affections of Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable,
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|
almost as soon as they were acquainted; and was eligibly
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and happily settled, while Jane Fairfax had yet her bread to earn.
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This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be
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|
yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path
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of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment
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|
had fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty
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|
should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate,
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|
she had resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice,
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|
and retire from all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse,
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equal society, peace and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.
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The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such
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a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived,
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no exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever;
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and for their own comfort they would have retained her wholly;
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|
but this would be selfishness:--what must be at last, had better
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|
be soon. Perhaps they began to feel it might have been kinder
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|
and wiser to have resisted the temptation of any delay, and spared
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|
her from a taste of such enjoyments of ease and leisure as must
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|
now be relinquished. Still, however, affection was glad to catch
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|
at any reasonable excuse for not hurrying on the wretched moment.
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|
She had never been quite well since the time of their daughter's marriage;
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and till she should have completely recovered her usual strength,
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|
they must forbid her engaging in duties, which, so far from being
|
|
compatible with a weakened frame and varying spirits, seemed,
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|
under the most favourable circumstances, to require something
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|
more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with
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|
tolerable comfort.
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With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account
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to her aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some
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|
truths not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their
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|
absence to Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect
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|
liberty with those kind relations to whom she was so very dear:
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|
and the Campbells, whatever might be their motive or motives,
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|
whether single, or double, or treble, gave the arrangement
|
|
their ready sanction, and said, that they depended more on a few
|
|
months spent in her native air, for the recovery of her health,
|
|
than on any thing else. Certain it was that she was to come;
|
|
and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect novelty which
|
|
had been so long promised it--Mr. Frank Churchill--must put up for
|
|
the present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the freshness
|
|
of a two years' absence.
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Emma was sorry;--to have to pay civilities to a person she did
|
|
not like through three long months!--to be always doing more than
|
|
she wished, and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane
|
|
Fairfax might be a difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley
|
|
had once told her it was because she saw in her the really
|
|
accomplished young woman, which she wanted to be thought herself;
|
|
and though the accusation had been eagerly refuted at the time,
|
|
there were moments of self-examination in which her conscience could
|
|
not quite acquit her. But "she could never get acquainted with her:
|
|
she did not know how it was, but there was such coldness and reserve--
|
|
such apparent indifference whether she pleased or not--and then,
|
|
her aunt was such an eternal talker!--and she was made such a fuss
|
|
with by every body!--and it had been always imagined that they were
|
|
to be so intimate--because their ages were the same, every body had
|
|
supposed they must be so fond of each other." These were her reasons--
|
|
she had no better.
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|
|
|
It was a dislike so little just--every imputed fault was so magnified
|
|
by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any
|
|
considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her;
|
|
and now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years'
|
|
interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance
|
|
and manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating.
|
|
Jane Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had
|
|
herself the highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty,
|
|
just such as almost every body would think tall, and nobody could
|
|
think very tall; her figure particularly graceful; her size a most
|
|
becoming medium, between fat and thin, though a slight appearance
|
|
of ill-health seemed to point out the likeliest evil of the two.
|
|
Emma could not but feel all this; and then, her face--her features--
|
|
there was more beauty in them altogether than she had remembered;
|
|
it was not regular, but it was very pleasing beauty. Her eyes,
|
|
a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had never been denied
|
|
their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to cavil at,
|
|
as wanting colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really needed
|
|
no fuller bloom. It was a style of beauty, of which elegance
|
|
was the reigning character, and as such, she must, in honour,
|
|
by all her principles, admire it:--elegance, which, whether of person
|
|
or of mind, she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be vulgar,
|
|
was distinction, and merit.
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|
|
|
In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax
|
|
with twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense
|
|
of rendering justice, and was determining that she would dislike
|
|
her no longer. When she took in her history, indeed, her situation,
|
|
as well as her beauty; when she considered what all this elegance
|
|
was destined to, what she was going to sink from, how she was going
|
|
to live, it seemed impossible to feel any thing but compassion
|
|
and respect; especially, if to every well-known particular entitling
|
|
her to interest, were added the highly probable circumstance
|
|
of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had so naturally started
|
|
to herself. In that case, nothing could be more pitiable
|
|
or more honourable than the sacrifices she had resolved on.
|
|
Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced
|
|
Mr. Dixon's actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous
|
|
which her imagination had suggested at first. If it were love,
|
|
it might be simple, single, successless love on her side alone.
|
|
She might have been unconsciously sucking in the sad poison,
|
|
while a sharer of his conversation with her friend; and from the best,
|
|
the purest of motives, might now be denying herself this visit
|
|
to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself effectually from
|
|
him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of laborious duty.
|
|
|
|
Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings,
|
|
as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury
|
|
afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence;
|
|
nobody that she could wish to scheme about for her.
|
|
|
|
These were charming feelings--but not lasting. Before she had
|
|
committed herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for
|
|
Jane Fairfax, or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices
|
|
and errors, than saying to Mr. Knightley, "She certainly is handsome;
|
|
she is better than handsome!" Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield
|
|
with her grandmother and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much
|
|
into its usual state. Former provocations reappeared. The aunt
|
|
was as tiresome as ever; more tiresome, because anxiety for her
|
|
health was now added to admiration of her powers; and they had to
|
|
listen to the description of exactly how little bread and butter
|
|
she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice of mutton for dinner,
|
|
as well as to see exhibitions of new caps and new workbags for her
|
|
mother and herself; and Jane's offences rose again. They had music;
|
|
Emma was obliged to play; and the thanks and praise which necessarily
|
|
followed appeared to her an affectation of candour, an air
|
|
of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own very
|
|
superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all,
|
|
so cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion.
|
|
Wrapt up in a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined
|
|
to hazard nothing. She was disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.
|
|
|
|
If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more
|
|
reserved on the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing.
|
|
She seemed bent on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon's character,
|
|
or her own value for his company, or opinion of the suitableness
|
|
of the match. It was all general approbation and smoothness;
|
|
nothing delineated or distinguished. It did her no service however.
|
|
Her caution was thrown away. Emma saw its artifice, and returned
|
|
to her first surmises. There probably was something more to conceal
|
|
than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps, had been very near
|
|
changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only to Miss Campbell,
|
|
for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
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|
|
|
The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill
|
|
had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were
|
|
a little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information could Emma
|
|
procure as to what he truly was. "Was he handsome?"--"She believed
|
|
he was reckoned a very fine young man." "Was he agreeable?"--
|
|
"He was generally thought so." "Did he appear a sensible young man;
|
|
a young man of information?"--"At a watering-place, or in a common
|
|
London acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points.
|
|
Manners were all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer
|
|
knowledge than they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed
|
|
every body found his manners pleasing." Emma could not forgive her.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER III
|
|
|
|
Emma could not forgive her;--but as neither provocation nor resentment
|
|
were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had
|
|
seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side,
|
|
he was expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on
|
|
business with Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so
|
|
openly as he might have done had her father been out of the room,
|
|
but speaking plain enough to be very intelligible to Emma.
|
|
He had been used to think her unjust to Jane, and had now great
|
|
pleasure in marking an improvement.
|
|
|
|
"A very pleasant evening," he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
had been talked into what was necessary, told that he understood,
|
|
and the papers swept away;--"particularly pleasant. You and Miss
|
|
Fairfax gave us some very good music. I do not know a more
|
|
luxurious state, sir, than sitting at one's ease to be entertained
|
|
a whole evening by two such young women; sometimes with music
|
|
and sometimes with conversation. I am sure Miss Fairfax must
|
|
have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing undone.
|
|
I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument
|
|
at her grandmother's, it must have been a real indulgence."
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|
|
|
"I am happy you approved," said Emma, smiling; "but I hope I am
|
|
not often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield."
|
|
|
|
"No, my dear," said her father instantly; "that I am sure you
|
|
are not. There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are.
|
|
If any thing, you are too attentive. The muffin last night--if it
|
|
had been handed round once, I think it would have been enough."
|
|
|
|
"No," said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; "you are not
|
|
often deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension.
|
|
I think you understand me, therefore."
|
|
|
|
An arch look expressed--"I understand you well enough;" but she
|
|
said only, "Miss Fairfax is reserved."
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|
|
|
"I always told you she was--a little; but you will soon overcome
|
|
all that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that
|
|
has its foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion
|
|
must be honoured."
|
|
|
|
"You think her diffident. I do not see it."
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|
|
|
"My dear Emma," said he, moving from his chair into one close
|
|
by her, "you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you
|
|
had not a pleasant evening."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions;
|
|
and amused to think how little information I obtained."
|
|
|
|
"I am disappointed," was his only answer.
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|
|
|
"I hope every body had a pleasant evening," said Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
in his quiet way. "I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much;
|
|
but then I moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did
|
|
not disturb me. Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured,
|
|
as she always is, though she speaks rather too quick. However,
|
|
she is very agreeable, and Mrs. Bates too, in a different way.
|
|
I like old friends; and Miss Jane Fairfax is a very pretty sort of
|
|
young lady, a very pretty and a very well-behaved young lady indeed.
|
|
She must have found the evening agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she
|
|
had Emma."
|
|
|
|
"True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax."
|
|
|
|
Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for
|
|
the present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question--
|
|
|
|
"She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one's eyes from.
|
|
I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my heart."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared
|
|
to express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
whose thoughts were on the Bates's, said--
|
|
|
|
"It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined!
|
|
a great pity indeed! and I have often wished--but it is so little one
|
|
can venture to do--small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon--
|
|
Now we have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them
|
|
a loin or a leg; it is very small and delicate--Hartfield pork is
|
|
not like any other pork--but still it is pork--and, my dear Emma,
|
|
unless one could be sure of their making it into steaks, nicely fried,
|
|
as ours are fried, without the smallest grease, and not roast it,
|
|
for no stomach can bear roast pork--I think we had better send the leg--
|
|
do not you think so, my dear?"
|
|
|
|
"My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it.
|
|
There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice,
|
|
and the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like."
|
|
|
|
"That's right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before,
|
|
but that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then,
|
|
if it is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled,
|
|
just as Serle boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a
|
|
boiled turnip, and a little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider
|
|
it unwholesome."
|
|
|
|
"Emma," said Mr. Knightley presently, "I have a piece of news for you.
|
|
You like news--and I heard an article in my way hither that I think
|
|
will interest you."
|
|
|
|
"News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?--why do you
|
|
smile so?--where did you hear it?--at Randalls?"
|
|
|
|
He had time only to say,
|
|
|
|
"No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls," when the door
|
|
was thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room.
|
|
Full of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to
|
|
give quickest. Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment,
|
|
and that not another syllable of communication could rest with him.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse--
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I come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork!
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You are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going
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to be married."
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Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was
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so completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start,
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and a little blush, at the sound.
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"There is my news:--I thought it would interest you,"
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said Mr. Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction
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of some part of what had passed between them.
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"But where could you hear it?" cried Miss Bates. "Where could
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you possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes
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since I received Mrs. Cole's note--no, it cannot be more than five--
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or at least ten--for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready
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to come out--I was only gone down to speak to Patty again about
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the pork--Jane was standing in the passage--were not you, Jane?--
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for my mother was so afraid that we had not any salting-pan
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large enough. So I said I would go down and see, and Jane said,
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`Shall I go down instead? for I think you have a little cold,
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and Patty has been washing the kitchen.'--`Oh! my dear,'
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said I--well, and just then came the note. A Miss Hawkins--
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that's all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley,
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how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole
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told Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins--"
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"I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago.
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He had just read Elton's letter as I was shewn in, and handed it
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to me directly."
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"Well! that is quite--I suppose there never was a piece of news more
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generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful.
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My mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a
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thousand thanks, and says you really quite oppress her."
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"We consider our Hartfield pork," replied Mr. Woodhouse--"indeed it
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certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I
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cannot have a greater pleasure than---"
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"Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good
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to us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth
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themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us.
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We may well say that `our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.'
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Well, Mr. Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well--"
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"It was short--merely to announce--but cheerful, exulting, of course."--
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Here was a sly glance at Emma. "He had been so fortunate as to--
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I forget the precise words--one has no business to remember them.
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The information was, as you state, that he was going to be married
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to a Miss Hawkins. By his style, I should imagine it just settled."
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"Mr. Elton going to be married!" said Emma, as soon as she could speak.
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"He will have every body's wishes for his happiness."
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"He is very young to settle," was Mr. Woodhouse's observation.
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"He had better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off
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as he was. We were always glad to see him at Hartfield."
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"A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!" said Miss Bates,
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joyfully; "my mother is so pleased!--she says she cannot
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bear to have the poor old Vicarage without a mistress.
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|
This is great news, indeed. Jane, you have never seen
|
|
Mr. Elton!--no wonder that you have such a curiosity to see him."
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Jane's curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly
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|
to occupy her.
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"No--I have never seen Mr. Elton," she replied, starting on this appeal;
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"is he--is he a tall man?"
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"Who shall answer that question?" cried Emma. "My father would
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|
say `yes,' Mr. Knightley `no;' and Miss Bates and I that he is
|
|
just the happy medium. When you have been here a little longer,
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|
Miss Fairfax, you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard
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|
of perfection in Highbury, both in person and mind."
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"Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best
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young man--But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday
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he was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,--I dare say,
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an excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother--
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wanting her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better,
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for my mother is a little deaf, you know--it is not much, but she
|
|
does not hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a
|
|
little deaf. He fancied bathing might be good for it--the warm bath--
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|
but she says it did him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell,
|
|
you know, is quite our angel. And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming
|
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young man, quite worthy of him. It is such a happiness when good
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|
people get together--and they always do. Now, here will be Mr. Elton
|
|
and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles, such very good people;
|
|
and the Perrys--I suppose there never was a happier or a better couple
|
|
than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir," turning to Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
"I think there are few places with such society as Highbury.
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|
I always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.--My dear sir,
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if there is one thing my mother loves better than another, it is pork--
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a roast loin of pork--"
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"As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been
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|
acquainted with her," said Emma, "nothing I suppose can be known.
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|
One feels that it cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been
|
|
gone only four weeks."
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|
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|
Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings,
|
|
Emma said,
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|
"You are silent, Miss Fairfax--but I hope you mean to take
|
|
an interest in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing
|
|
so much of late on these subjects, who must have been so deep
|
|
in the business on Miss Campbell's account--we shall not excuse
|
|
your being indifferent about Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins."
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|
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"When I have seen Mr. Elton," replied Jane, " I dare say I
|
|
shall be interested--but I believe it requires that with me.
|
|
And as it is some months since Miss Campbell married, the impression
|
|
may be a little worn off."
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|
|
|
"Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss Woodhouse,"
|
|
said Miss Bates, "four weeks yesterday.--A Miss Hawkins!--Well, I had
|
|
always rather fancied it would be some young lady hereabouts;
|
|
not that I ever--Mrs. Cole once whispered to me--but I immediately said,
|
|
`No, Mr. Elton is a most worthy young man--but'--In short, I do
|
|
not think I am particularly quick at those sort of discoveries.
|
|
I do not pretend to it. What is before me, I see. At the same time,
|
|
nobody could wonder if Mr. Elton should have aspired--Miss Woodhouse
|
|
lets me chatter on, so good-humouredly. She knows I would not
|
|
offend for the world. How does Miss Smith do? She seems quite
|
|
recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs. John Knightley lately?
|
|
Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you know I always fancy
|
|
Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in person--tall, and with
|
|
that sort of look--and not very talkative."
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|
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|
"Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all."
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|
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|
"Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand.
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|
One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say,
|
|
is not, strictly speaking, handsome?"
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|
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|
"Handsome! Oh! no--far from it--certainly plain. I told you he
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|
was plain."
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|
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|
"My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain,
|
|
and that you yourself--"
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|
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|
"Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard,
|
|
I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed
|
|
the general opinion, when I called him plain."
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|
|
|
"Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away.
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|
The weather does not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy.
|
|
You are too obliging, my dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must
|
|
take leave. This has been a most agreeable piece of news indeed.
|
|
I shall just go round by Mrs. Cole's; but I shall not stop three minutes:
|
|
and, Jane, you had better go home directly--I would not have you
|
|
out in a shower!--We think she is the better for Highbury already.
|
|
Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard,
|
|
for I really do not think she cares for any thing but boiled pork:
|
|
when we dress the leg it will be another thing. Good morning to you,
|
|
my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming too. Well, that is
|
|
so very!--I am sure if Jane is tired, you will be so kind as to
|
|
give her your arm.--Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!--Good morning
|
|
to you."
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|
|
|
Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him
|
|
while he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry--
|
|
and to marry strangers too--and the other half she could give
|
|
to her own view of the subject. It was to herself an amusing
|
|
and a very welcome piece of news, as proving that Mr. Elton
|
|
could not have suffered long; but she was sorry for Harriet:
|
|
Harriet must feel it--and all that she could hope was, by giving
|
|
the first information herself, to save her from hearing it abruptly
|
|
from others. It was now about the time that she was likely to call.
|
|
If she were to meet Miss Bates in her way!--and upon its beginning
|
|
to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that the weather would be
|
|
detaining her at Mrs. Goddard's, and that the intelligence would
|
|
undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
|
|
|
|
The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes,
|
|
when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which
|
|
hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the
|
|
"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!" which instantly
|
|
burst forth, had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation.
|
|
As the blow was given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater
|
|
kindness than in listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly
|
|
through what she had to tell. "She had set out from Mrs. Goddard's
|
|
half an hour ago--she had been afraid it would rain--she had been
|
|
afraid it would pour down every moment--but she thought she might
|
|
get to Hartfield first--she had hurried on as fast as possible;
|
|
but then, as she was passing by the house where a young woman
|
|
was making up a gown for her, she thought she would just step
|
|
in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem to stay
|
|
half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain,
|
|
and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast
|
|
as she could, and took shelter at Ford's."--Ford's was the principal
|
|
woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher's shop united;
|
|
the shop first in size and fashion in the place.--"And so,
|
|
there she had set, without an idea of any thing in the world,
|
|
full ten minutes, perhaps--when, all of a sudden, who should come in--
|
|
to be sure it was so very odd!--but they always dealt at Ford's--
|
|
who should come in, but Elizabeth Martin and her brother!--
|
|
Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I thought I should have fainted.
|
|
I did not know what to do. I was sitting near the door--Elizabeth saw
|
|
me directly; but he did not; he was busy with the umbrella.
|
|
I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly, and took
|
|
no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the shop;
|
|
and I kept sitting near the door!--Oh! dear; I was so miserable!
|
|
I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away
|
|
you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere
|
|
in the world but there.--Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse--well, at last,
|
|
I fancy, he looked round and saw me; for instead of going
|
|
on with her buyings, they began whispering to one another.
|
|
I am sure they were talking of me; and I could not help thinking
|
|
that he was persuading her to speak to me--(do you think he was,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse?)--for presently she came forward--came quite up
|
|
to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to shake hands,
|
|
if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she used;
|
|
I could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to try to be
|
|
very friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time;
|
|
but I know no more what I said--I was in such a tremble!--I remember
|
|
she said she was sorry we never met now; which I thought almost
|
|
too kind! Dear, Miss Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable!
|
|
By that time, it was beginning to hold up, and I was determined
|
|
that nothing should stop me from getting away--and then--only think!--
|
|
I found he was coming up towards me too--slowly you know, and as
|
|
if he did not quite know what to do; and so he came and spoke,
|
|
and I answered--and I stood for a minute, feeling dreadfully,
|
|
you know, one can't tell how; and then I took courage, and said it
|
|
did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got
|
|
three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say,
|
|
if I was going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round
|
|
by Mr. Cole's stables, for I should find the near way quite floated
|
|
by this rain. Oh! dear, I thought it would have been the death of me!
|
|
So I said, I was very much obliged to him: you know I could
|
|
not do less; and then he went back to Elizabeth, and I came round
|
|
by the stables--I believe I did--but I hardly knew where I was,
|
|
or any thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I would rather done
|
|
any thing than have it happen: and yet, you know, there was a sort
|
|
of satisfaction in seeing him behave so pleasantly and so kindly.
|
|
And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do talk to me and make
|
|
me comfortable again."
|
|
|
|
Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in
|
|
her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly
|
|
comfortable herself. The young man's conduct, and his sister's,
|
|
seemed the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them.
|
|
As Harriet described it, there had been an interesting mixture
|
|
of wounded affection and genuine delicacy in their behaviour.
|
|
But she had believed them to be well-meaning, worthy people before;
|
|
and what difference did this make in the evils of the connexion?
|
|
It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of course, he must be sorry
|
|
to lose her--they must be all sorry. Ambition, as well as love,
|
|
had probably been mortified. They might all have hoped to rise
|
|
by Harriet's acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of
|
|
Harriet's description?--So easily pleased--so little discerning;--
|
|
what signified her praise?
|
|
|
|
She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable,
|
|
by considering all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite
|
|
unworthy of being dwelt on,
|
|
|
|
"It might be distressing, for the moment," said she; "but you seem
|
|
to have behaved extremely well; and it is over--and may never--
|
|
can never, as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need
|
|
not think about it."
|
|
|
|
Harriet said, "very true," and she "would not think about it;"
|
|
but still she talked of it--still she could talk of nothing else;
|
|
and Emma, at last, in order to put the Martins out of her head,
|
|
was obliged to hurry on the news, which she had meant to give
|
|
with so much tender caution; hardly knowing herself whether
|
|
to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only amused, at such a state
|
|
of mind in poor Harriet--such a conclusion of Mr. Elton's importance
|
|
with her!
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton's rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not
|
|
feel the first intelligence as she might have done the day before,
|
|
or an hour before, its interest soon increased; and before their
|
|
first conversation was over, she had talked herself into all the
|
|
sensations of curiosity, wonder and regret, pain and pleasure,
|
|
as to this fortunate Miss Hawkins, which could conduce to place
|
|
the Martins under proper subordination in her fancy.
|
|
|
|
Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting.
|
|
It had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining
|
|
any influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could
|
|
not get at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted
|
|
either the courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her
|
|
refusal of the brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard's;
|
|
and a twelvemonth might pass without their being thrown together again,
|
|
with any necessity, or even any power of speech.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
|
|
|
Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in
|
|
interesting situations, that a young person, who either marries
|
|
or dies, is sure of being kindly spoken of.
|
|
|
|
A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins's name was first
|
|
mentioned in Highbury, before she was, by some means or other,
|
|
discovered to have every recommendation of person and mind;
|
|
to be handsome, elegant, highly accomplished, and perfectly amiable:
|
|
and when Mr. Elton himself arrived to triumph in his happy prospects,
|
|
and circulate the fame of her merits, there was very little more
|
|
for him to do, than to tell her Christian name, and say whose
|
|
music she principally played.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected
|
|
and mortified--disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series
|
|
of what appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing
|
|
the right lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very
|
|
wrong one. He had gone away deeply offended--he came back engaged
|
|
to another--and to another as superior, of course, to the first,
|
|
as under such circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost.
|
|
He came back gay and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing
|
|
for Miss Woodhouse, and defying Miss Smith.
|
|
|
|
The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages
|
|
of perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent fortune,
|
|
of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of
|
|
some dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well;
|
|
he had not thrown himself away--he had gained a woman of 10,000 l.
|
|
or thereabouts; and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity--
|
|
the first hour of introduction had been so very soon followed by
|
|
distinguishing notice; the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole
|
|
of the rise and progress of the affair was so glorious--the steps
|
|
so quick, from the accidental rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green's,
|
|
and the party at Mrs. Brown's--smiles and blushes rising in importance--
|
|
with consciousness and agitation richly scattered--the lady
|
|
had been so easily impressed--so sweetly disposed--had in short,
|
|
to use a most intelligible phrase, been so very ready to have him,
|
|
that vanity and prudence were equally contented.
|
|
|
|
He had caught both substance and shadow--both fortune and affection,
|
|
and was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself
|
|
and his own concerns--expecting to be congratulated--ready to be
|
|
laughed at--and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing
|
|
all the young ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago,
|
|
he would have been more cautiously gallant.
|
|
|
|
The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves
|
|
to please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for;
|
|
and when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation,
|
|
which a certain glance of Mrs. Cole's did not seem to contradict,
|
|
that when he next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
|
|
|
|
During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just
|
|
enough to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her
|
|
the impression of his not being improved by the mixture of pique
|
|
and pretension, now spread over his air. She was, in fact,
|
|
beginning very much to wonder that she had ever thought him pleasing
|
|
at all; and his sight was so inseparably connected with some very
|
|
disagreeable feelings, that, except in a moral light, as a penance,
|
|
a lesson, a source of profitable humiliation to her own mind,
|
|
she would have been thankful to be assured of never seeing him again.
|
|
She wished him very well; but he gave her pain, and his welfare
|
|
twenty miles off would administer most satisfaction.
|
|
|
|
The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must certainly
|
|
be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be prevented--
|
|
many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A Mrs. Elton would be an excuse for
|
|
any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink without remark.
|
|
It would be almost beginning their life of civility again.
|
|
|
|
Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good
|
|
enough for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury--
|
|
handsome enough--to look plain, probably, by Harriet's side.
|
|
As to connexion, there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded,
|
|
that after all his own vaunted claims and disdain of Harriet,
|
|
he had done nothing. On that article, truth seemed attainable.
|
|
What she was, must be uncertain; but who she was, might be found out;
|
|
and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not appear that she was at
|
|
all Harriet's superior. She brought no name, no blood, no alliance.
|
|
Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters of a Bristol--
|
|
merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole of the
|
|
profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it was
|
|
not unfair to guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very
|
|
moderate also. Part of every winter she had been used to spend in Bath;
|
|
but Bristol was her home, the very heart of Bristol; for though
|
|
the father and mother had died some years ago, an uncle remained--
|
|
in the law line--nothing more distinctly honourable was hazarded
|
|
of him, than that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter
|
|
had lived. Emma guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney,
|
|
and too stupid to rise. And all the grandeur of the connexion
|
|
seemed dependent on the elder sister, who was very well married,
|
|
to a gentleman in a great way, near Bristol, who kept two carriages!
|
|
That was the wind-up of the history; that was the glory of
|
|
Miss Hawkins.
|
|
|
|
Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all!
|
|
She had talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be
|
|
talked out of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies
|
|
of Harriet's mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded
|
|
by another; he certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer;
|
|
even a Robert Martin would have been sufficient; but nothing else,
|
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she feared, would cure her. Harriet was one of those, who,
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having once begun, would be always in love. And now, poor girl!
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she was considerably worse from this reappearance of Mr. Elton.
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She was always having a glimpse of him somewhere or other. Emma saw
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him only once; but two or three times every day Harriet was sure
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just to meet with him, or just to miss him, just to hear his voice,
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or see his shoulder, just to have something occur to preserve him
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in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth of surprize and conjecture.
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She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about him; for, excepting when
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at Hartfield, she was always among those who saw no fault in Mr. Elton,
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and found nothing so interesting as the discussion of his concerns;
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and every report, therefore, every guess--all that had already
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occurred, all that might occur in the arrangement of his affairs,
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comprehending income, servants, and furniture, was continually
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in agitation around her. Her regard was receiving strength by
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invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept alive, and feelings
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irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss Hawkins's happiness,
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and continual observation of, how much he seemed attached!--
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his air as he walked by the house--the very sitting of his hat,
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being all in proof of how much he was in love!
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Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain
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to her friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of
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Harriet's mind, Emma would have been amused by its variations.
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Sometimes Mr. Elton predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each
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was occasionally useful as a check to the other. Mr. Elton's
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engagement had been the cure of the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin.
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The unhappiness produced by the knowledge of that engagement had been
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a little put aside by Elizabeth Martin's calling at Mrs. Goddard's
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a few days afterwards. Harriet had not been at home; but a note had
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been prepared and left for her, written in the very style to touch;
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a small mixture of reproach, with a great deal of kindness;
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and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had been much occupied
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by it, continually pondering over what could be done in return,
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and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr. Elton,
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in person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid,
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the Martins were forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off
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for Bath again, Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned,
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judged it best for her to return Elizabeth Martin's visit.
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How that visit was to be acknowledged--what would be necessary--
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and what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful
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consideration. Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters,
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when invited to come, would be ingratitude. It must not be:
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and yet the danger of a renewal of the acquaintance!--
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After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than Harriet's
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returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had understanding,
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should convince them that it was to be only a formal acquaintance.
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She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the Abbey Mill,
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while she drove a little farther, and call for her again so soon,
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as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous
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recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what
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degree of intimacy was chosen for the future.
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She could think of nothing better: and though there was something
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in it which her own heart could not approve--something of ingratitude,
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merely glossed over--it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?
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CHAPTER V
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Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her
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friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard's, her evil stars had led
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her to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to
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The Rev. Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath, was to be seen under the
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operation of being lifted into the butcher's cart, which was to
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convey it to where the coaches past; and every thing in this world,
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excepting that trunk and the direction, was consequently a blank.
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She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to
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be put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led
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between espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every
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thing which had given her so much pleasure the autumn before,
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was beginning to revive a little local agitation; and when they parted,
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Emma observed her to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity,
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which determined her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed
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quarter of an hour. She went on herself, to give that portion
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of time to an old servant who was married, and settled in Donwell.
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The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again;
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and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay,
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and unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily
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down the gravel walk--a Miss Martin just appearing at the door,
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and parting with her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
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Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account.
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She was feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her
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enough to understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it
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was creating. She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls.
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They had received her doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing
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beyond the merest commonplace had been talked almost all the time--
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till just at last, when Mrs. Martin's saying, all of a sudden,
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that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had brought on a more
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interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very room
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she had been measured last September, with her two friends.
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There were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the wainscot by
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the window. He had done it. They all seemed to remember the day,
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the hour, the party, the occasion--to feel the same consciousness,
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the same regrets--to be ready to return to the same good understanding;
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and they were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as Emma
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must suspect, as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,)
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when the carriage reappeared, and all was over. The style of
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the visit, and the shortness of it, were then felt to be decisive.
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Fourteen minutes to be given to those with whom she had thankfully
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|
passed six weeks not six months ago!--Emma could not but picture
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it all, and feel how justly they might resent, how naturally
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|
Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She would have given
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|
a great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had the Martins
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in a higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a little
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|
higher should have been enough: but as it was, how could she have
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done otherwise?--Impossible!--She could not repent. They must
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|
be separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the process--
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|
so much to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity
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|
of a little consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls
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to procure it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins.
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The refreshment of Randalls was absolutely necessary.
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It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard
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that neither "master nor mistress was at home;" they had both
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been out some time; the man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
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"This is too bad," cried Emma, as they turned away. "And now we
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shall just miss them; too provoking!--I do not know when I have been
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so disappointed." And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge
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her murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both--
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|
such being the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind.
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|
Presently the carriage stopt; she looked up; it was stopt
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|
by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were standing to speak to her.
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|
There was instant pleasure in the sight of them, and still greater
|
|
pleasure was conveyed in sound--for Mr. Weston immediately accosted
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|
her with,
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"How d'ye do?--how d'ye do?--We have been sitting with your father--
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|
glad to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow--I had a letter
|
|
this morning--we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty--
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|
he is at Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would
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|
be so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days;
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|
I was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going
|
|
to have just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather.
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|
We shall enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly
|
|
as we could wish."
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There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the
|
|
influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston's, confirmed as it all
|
|
was by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter,
|
|
but not less to the purpose. To know that she thought his coming
|
|
certain was enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did
|
|
she rejoice in their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation
|
|
of exhausted spirits. The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness
|
|
of what was coming; and in the rapidity of half a moment's thought,
|
|
she hoped Mr. Elton would now be talked of no more.
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Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe,
|
|
which allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at
|
|
his command, as well as the route and the method of his journey;
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|
and she listened, and smiled, and congratulated.
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|
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"I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield," said he, at the conclusion.
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Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech,
|
|
from his wife.
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"We had better move on, Mr. Weston," said she, "we are detaining
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|
the girls."
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"Well, well, I am ready;"--and turning again to Emma, "but you must
|
|
not be expecting such a very fine young man; you have only had my
|
|
account you know; I dare say he is really nothing extraordinary:"--
|
|
though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were speaking a very
|
|
different conviction.
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|
|
|
Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer
|
|
in a manner that appropriated nothing.
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|
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|
"Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o'clock,"
|
|
was Mrs. Weston's parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety,
|
|
and meant only for her.
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|
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|
"Four o'clock!--depend upon it he will be here by three," was Mr. Weston's
|
|
quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting.
|
|
Emma's spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore
|
|
a different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish
|
|
as before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at
|
|
least must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet,
|
|
she saw something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.
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|
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|
"Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?"--
|
|
was a question, however, which did not augur much.
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|
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|
But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once,
|
|
and Emma was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come
|
|
in time.
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|
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|
The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston's
|
|
faithful pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve
|
|
o'clock, that she was to think of her at four.
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|
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|
"My dear, dear anxious friend,"--said she, in mental soliloquy,
|
|
while walking downstairs from her own room, "always overcareful
|
|
for every body's comfort but your own; I see you now in all your
|
|
little fidgets, going again and again into his room, to be sure
|
|
that all is right." The clock struck twelve as she passed through
|
|
the hall. "'Tis twelve; I shall not forget to think of you four
|
|
hours hence; and by this time to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later,
|
|
I may be thinking of the possibility of their all calling here.
|
|
I am sure they will bring him soon."
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|
|
|
She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with
|
|
her father--Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only
|
|
a few minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation
|
|
of Frank's being a day before his time, and her father was yet
|
|
in the midst of his very civil welcome and congratulations, when
|
|
she appeared, to have her share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
|
|
|
|
The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest,
|
|
was actually before her--he was presented to her, and she did
|
|
not think too much had been said in his praise; he was a very good
|
|
looking young man; height, air, address, all were unexceptionable,
|
|
and his countenance had a great deal of the spirit and liveliness
|
|
of his father's; he looked quick and sensible. She felt immediately
|
|
that she should like him; and there was a well-bred ease of manner,
|
|
and a readiness to talk, which convinced her that he came intending
|
|
to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted they soon must be.
|
|
|
|
He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased
|
|
with the eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan,
|
|
and travel earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half
|
|
a day.
|
|
|
|
"I told you yesterday," cried Mr. Weston with exultation, "I told
|
|
you all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered
|
|
what I used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey;
|
|
one cannot help getting on faster than one has planned; and the
|
|
pleasure of coming in upon one's friends before the look-out begins,
|
|
is worth a great deal more than any little exertion it needs."
|
|
|
|
"It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it," said the young man,
|
|
"though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far;
|
|
but in coming home I felt I might do any thing."
|
|
|
|
The word home made his father look on him with fresh complacency.
|
|
Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable;
|
|
the conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much
|
|
pleased with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house,
|
|
would hardly allow it even to be very small, admired the situation,
|
|
the walk to Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more,
|
|
and professed himself to have always felt the sort of interest
|
|
in the country which none but one's own country gives, and the
|
|
greatest curiosity to visit it. That he should never have been
|
|
able to indulge so amiable a feeling before, passed suspiciously
|
|
through Emma's brain; but still, if it were a falsehood, it was a
|
|
pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner had no air of study
|
|
or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as if in a state of no
|
|
common enjoyment.
|
|
|
|
Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening acquaintance.
|
|
On his side were the inquiries,--"Was she a horsewoman?--Pleasant rides?--
|
|
Pleasant walks?--Had they a large neighbourhood?--Highbury, perhaps,
|
|
afforded society enough?--There were several very pretty houses
|
|
in and about it.--Balls--had they balls?--Was it a musical society?"
|
|
|
|
But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance
|
|
proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity,
|
|
while their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing
|
|
his mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise,
|
|
so much warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she
|
|
secured to his father, and her very kind reception of himself,
|
|
as was an additional proof of his knowing how to please--
|
|
and of his certainly thinking it worth while to try to please her.
|
|
He did not advance a word of praise beyond what she knew to be
|
|
thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but, undoubtedly he could know
|
|
very little of the matter. He understood what would be welcome;
|
|
he could be sure of little else. "His father's marriage," he said,
|
|
"had been the wisest measure, every friend must rejoice in it;
|
|
and the family from whom he had received such a blessing must
|
|
be ever considered as having conferred the highest obligation
|
|
on him."
|
|
|
|
He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor's merits,
|
|
without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it
|
|
was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse's
|
|
character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor's. And at last, as if resolved
|
|
to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its object, he
|
|
wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of her person.
|
|
|
|
"Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for," said he;
|
|
"but I confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected
|
|
more than a very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age;
|
|
I did not know that I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston."
|
|
|
|
"You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,"
|
|
said Emma; "were you to guess her to be eighteen, I should listen
|
|
with pleasure; but she would be ready to quarrel with you for using
|
|
such words. Don't let her imagine that you have spoken of her as
|
|
a pretty young woman."
|
|
|
|
"I hope I should know better," he replied; "no, depend upon it,
|
|
(with a gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should
|
|
understand whom I might praise without any danger of being thought
|
|
extravagant in my terms."
|
|
|
|
Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected
|
|
from their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession
|
|
of her mind, had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were
|
|
to be considered as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance.
|
|
She must see more of him to understand his ways; at present she
|
|
only felt they were agreeable.
|
|
|
|
She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about.
|
|
His quick eye she detected again and again glancing towards them
|
|
with a happy expression; and even, when he might have determined not
|
|
to look, she was confident that he was often listening.
|
|
|
|
Her own father's perfect exemption from any thought of the kind,
|
|
the entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration
|
|
or suspicion, was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he
|
|
was not farther from approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.--
|
|
Though always objecting to every marriage that was arranged,
|
|
he never suffered beforehand from the apprehension of any;
|
|
it seemed as if he could not think so ill of any two persons'
|
|
understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it were
|
|
proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness.
|
|
He could now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise,
|
|
without a glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest,
|
|
give way to all his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous
|
|
inquiries after Mr. Frank Churchill's accommodation on his journey,
|
|
through the sad evils of sleeping two nights on the road, and express
|
|
very genuine unmixed anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped
|
|
catching cold--which, however, he could not allow him to feel quite
|
|
assured of himself till after another night.
|
|
|
|
A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.--"He must be going.
|
|
He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands
|
|
for Mrs. Weston at Ford's, but he need not hurry any body else."
|
|
His son, too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also,
|
|
saying,
|
|
|
|
"As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the
|
|
opportunity of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other,
|
|
and therefore may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being
|
|
acquainted with a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady
|
|
residing in or near Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax.
|
|
I shall have no difficulty, I suppose, in finding the house;
|
|
though Fairfax, I believe, is not the proper name--I should rather
|
|
say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any family of that name?"
|
|
|
|
"To be sure we do," cried his father; "Mrs. Bates--we passed her house--
|
|
I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted
|
|
with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine
|
|
girl she is. Call upon her, by all means."
|
|
|
|
"There is no necessity for my calling this morning," said the
|
|
young man; "another day would do as well; but there was that degree
|
|
of acquaintance at Weymouth which--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done
|
|
cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank;
|
|
any want of attention to her here should be carefully avoided.
|
|
You saw her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body
|
|
she mixed with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother,
|
|
who has barely enough to live on. If you do not call early it
|
|
will be a slight."
|
|
|
|
The son looked convinced.
|
|
|
|
"I have heard her speak of the acquaintance," said Emma; "she is
|
|
a very elegant young woman."
|
|
|
|
He agreed to it, but with so quiet a "Yes," as inclined her almost
|
|
to doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct
|
|
sort of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could
|
|
be thought only ordinarily gifted with it.
|
|
|
|
"If you were never particularly struck by her manners before,"
|
|
said she, "I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage;
|
|
see her and hear her--no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all,
|
|
for she has an aunt who never holds her tongue."
|
|
|
|
"You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?"
|
|
said Mr. Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation;
|
|
"then give me leave to assure you that you will find her a very
|
|
agreeable young lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama
|
|
and aunt, very worthy people; I have known them all my life.
|
|
They will be extremely glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my
|
|
servants shall go with you to shew you the way."
|
|
|
|
"My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me."
|
|
|
|
"But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown,
|
|
quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many houses;
|
|
you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk,
|
|
unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you
|
|
where you had best cross the street."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could,
|
|
and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, "My good friend,
|
|
this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he
|
|
sees it, and as to Mrs. Bates's, he may get there from the Crown
|
|
in a hop, step, and jump."
|
|
|
|
They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one,
|
|
and a graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave.
|
|
Emma remained very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance,
|
|
and could now engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of
|
|
the day, with full confidence in their comfort.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER VI
|
|
|
|
The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with
|
|
Mrs. Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially.
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He had been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home,
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till her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse
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their walk, immediately fixed on Highbury.--"He did not doubt there
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being very pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him,
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he should always chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful,
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happy-looking Highbury, would be his constant attraction."--
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Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood for Hartfield; and she trusted to
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its bearing the same construction with him. They walked thither directly.
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Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in
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for half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome,
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knew nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize
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to her, therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together,
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arm in arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially
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to see him in company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom
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her opinion of him was to depend. If he were deficient there,
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nothing should make amends for it. But on seeing them together,
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she became perfectly satisfied. It was not merely in fine words
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or hyperbolical compliment that he paid his duty; nothing could be
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more proper or pleasing than his whole manner to her--nothing could
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more agreeably denote his wish of considering her as a friend and
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securing her affection. And there was time enough for Emma to form a
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reasonable judgment, as their visit included all the rest of the morning.
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They were all three walking about together for an hour or two--
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first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards in Highbury.
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He was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield sufficiently
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for Mr. Woodhouse's ear; and when their going farther was resolved on,
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confessed his wish to be made acquainted with the whole village,
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and found matter of commendation and interest much oftener than Emma
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could have supposed.
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Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings.
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He begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long,
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and which had been the home of his father's father; and on recollecting
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that an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest
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of her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though
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|
in some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit,
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they shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general,
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which must be very like a merit to those he was with.
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Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn,
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it could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily
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absenting himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making
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a parade of insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly
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had not done him justice.
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Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house,
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though the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of
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post-horses were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood
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|
than from any run on the road; and his companions had not expected
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to be detained by any interest excited there; but in passing it they
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gave the history of the large room visibly added; it had been built
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many years ago for a ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been
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in a particularly populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used
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|
as such;--but such brilliant days had long passed away, and now the
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highest purpose for which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist
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club established among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place.
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He was immediately interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him;
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and instead of passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two
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superior sashed windows which were open, to look in and contemplate
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its capabilities, and lament that its original purpose should
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|
have ceased. He saw no fault in the room, he would acknowledge
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none which they suggested. No, it was long enough, broad enough,
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handsome enough. It would hold the very number for comfort.
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|
They ought to have balls there at least every fortnight through
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the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived the former good
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old days of the room?--She who could do any thing in Highbury!
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The want of proper families in the place, and the conviction
|
|
that none beyond the place and its immediate environs could be
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tempted to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied.
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|
He could not be persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw
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around him, could not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting;
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and even when particulars were given and families described, he was
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still unwilling to admit that the inconvenience of such a mixture
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|
would be any thing, or that there would be the smallest difficulty
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in every body's returning into their proper place the next morning.
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He argued like a young man very much bent on dancing; and Emma
|
|
was rather surprized to see the constitution of the Weston prevail
|
|
so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills. He seemed to have
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|
all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social inclinations
|
|
of his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of Enscombe.
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|
Of pride, indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his indifference
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|
to a confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of mind.
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|
He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap.
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|
It was but an effusion of lively spirits.
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|
At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown;
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|
and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged,
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|
Emma recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him
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|
if he had paid it.
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"Yes, oh! yes"--he replied; "I was just going to mention it.
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A very successful visit:--I saw all the three ladies; and felt very
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|
much obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt
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|
had taken me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me.
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|
As it was, I was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit.
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|
Ten minutes would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that
|
|
was proper; and I had told my father I should certainly be at home
|
|
before him--but there was no getting away, no pause; and, to my
|
|
utter astonishment, I found, when he (finding me nowhere else)
|
|
joined me there at last, that I had been actually sitting with them
|
|
very nearly three-quarters of an hour. The good lady had not given me
|
|
the possibility of escape before."
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|
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"And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?"
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"Ill, very ill--that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look ill.
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|
But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it?
|
|
Ladies can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally
|
|
so pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.--
|
|
A most deplorable want of complexion."
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|
|
|
Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss
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|
Fairfax's complexion. "It was certainly never brilliant, but she
|
|
would not allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was
|
|
a softness and delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance
|
|
to the character of her face." He listened with all due deference;
|
|
acknowledged that he had heard many people say the same--but yet he
|
|
must confess, that to him nothing could make amends for the want
|
|
of the fine glow of health. Where features were indifferent,
|
|
a fine complexion gave beauty to them all; and where they were good,
|
|
the effect was--fortunately he need not attempt to describe what the
|
|
effect was.
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|
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|
"Well," said Emma, "there is no disputing about taste.--At least
|
|
you admire her except her complexion."
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|
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|
He shook his head and laughed.--"I cannot separate Miss Fairfax
|
|
and her complexion."
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|
|
|
"Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same society?"
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|
|
|
At this moment they were approaching Ford's, and he hastily exclaimed,
|
|
"Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day
|
|
of their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself,
|
|
he says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford's.
|
|
If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove
|
|
myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury.
|
|
I must buy something at Ford's. It will be taking out my freedom.--
|
|
I dare say they sell gloves."
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|
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|
"Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism.
|
|
You will be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came,
|
|
because you were Mr. Weston's son--but lay out half a guinea at
|
|
Ford's, and your popularity will stand upon your own virtues."
|
|
|
|
They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of "Men's Beavers"
|
|
and "York Tan" were bringing down and displaying on the counter,
|
|
he said--"But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking
|
|
to me, you were saying something at the very moment of this burst
|
|
of my amor patriae. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost
|
|
stretch of public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any
|
|
happiness in private life."
|
|
|
|
"I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax
|
|
and her party at Weymouth."
|
|
|
|
"And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a
|
|
very unfair one. It is always the lady's right to decide on the degree
|
|
of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.--
|
|
I shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow."
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself.
|
|
But her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed,
|
|
she is so very reserved, so very unwilling to give the least
|
|
information about any body, that I really think you may say what you
|
|
like of your acquaintance with her."
|
|
|
|
"May I, indeed?--Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me
|
|
so well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells
|
|
a little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.
|
|
Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,
|
|
warm-hearted woman. I like them all."
|
|
|
|
"You know Miss Fairfax's situation in life, I conclude; what she
|
|
is destined to be?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--(rather hesitatingly)--I believe I do."
|
|
|
|
"You get upon delicate subjects, Emma," said Mrs. Weston smiling;
|
|
"remember that I am here.--Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows
|
|
what to say when you speak of Miss Fairfax's situation in life.
|
|
I will move a little farther off."
|
|
|
|
"I certainly do forget to think of her," said Emma, "as having ever
|
|
been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend."
|
|
|
|
He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.
|
|
|
|
When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again,
|
|
"Did you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?"
|
|
said Frank Churchill.
|
|
|
|
"Ever hear her!" repeated Emma. "You forget how much she belongs
|
|
to Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we
|
|
both began. She plays charmingly."
|
|
|
|
"You think so, do you?--I wanted the opinion of some one who
|
|
could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is,
|
|
with considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.--
|
|
I am excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill
|
|
or right of judging of any body's performance.--I have been used
|
|
to hear her's admired; and I remember one proof of her being
|
|
thought to play well:--a man, a very musical man, and in love
|
|
with another woman--engaged to her--on the point of marriage--
|
|
would yet never ask that other woman to sit down to the instrument,
|
|
if the lady in question could sit down instead--never seemed
|
|
to like to hear one if he could hear the other. That, I thought,
|
|
in a man of known musical talent, was some proof."
|
|
|
|
"Proof indeed!" said Emma, highly amused.--"Mr. Dixon is very musical,
|
|
is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you,
|
|
than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought
|
|
it a very strong proof."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly--very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal
|
|
stronger than, if I had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all
|
|
agreeable to me. I could not excuse a man's having more music
|
|
than love--more ear than eye--a more acute sensibility to fine
|
|
sounds than to my feelings. How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?"
|
|
|
|
"It was her very particular friend, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Poor comfort!" said Emma, laughing. "One would rather have a stranger
|
|
preferred than one's very particular friend--with a stranger it might
|
|
not recur again--but the misery of having a very particular friend
|
|
always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!--
|
|
Poor Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland."
|
|
|
|
"You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell;
|
|
but she really did not seem to feel it."
|
|
|
|
"So much the better--or so much the worse:--I do not know which.
|
|
But be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her--quickness of friendship,
|
|
or dulness of feeling--there was one person, I think, who must have
|
|
felt it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper
|
|
and dangerous distinction."
|
|
|
|
"As to that--I do not--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax's
|
|
sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no
|
|
human being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play
|
|
whenever she was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses."
|
|
|
|
"There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all--"
|
|
he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, "however, it
|
|
is impossible for me to say on what terms they really were--
|
|
how it might all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there
|
|
was smoothness outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from
|
|
a child, must be a better judge of her character, and of how she
|
|
is likely to conduct herself in critical situations, than I can be."
|
|
|
|
"I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children
|
|
and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should
|
|
be intimate,--that we should have taken to each other whenever
|
|
she visited her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it
|
|
has happened; a little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side
|
|
which was prone to take disgust towards a girl so idolized
|
|
and so cried up as she always was, by her aunt and grandmother,
|
|
and all their set. And then, her reserve--I never could attach
|
|
myself to any one so completely reserved."
|
|
|
|
"It is a most repulsive quality, indeed," said he. "Oftentimes
|
|
very convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety
|
|
in reserve, but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person."
|
|
|
|
"Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction
|
|
may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend,
|
|
or an agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take
|
|
the trouble of conquering any body's reserve to procure one.
|
|
Intimacy between Miss Fairfax and me is quite out of the question.
|
|
I have no reason to think ill of her--not the least--except that
|
|
such extreme and perpetual cautiousness of word and manner,
|
|
such a dread of giving a distinct idea about any body, is apt
|
|
to suggest suspicions of there being something to conceal."
|
|
|
|
He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long,
|
|
and thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him,
|
|
that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting.
|
|
He was not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the
|
|
world in some of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune,
|
|
therefore better than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate--
|
|
his feelings warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner
|
|
of considering Mr. Elton's house, which, as well as the church,
|
|
he would go and look at, and would not join them in finding much
|
|
fault with. No, he could not believe it a bad house; not such a house
|
|
as a man was to be pitied for having. If it were to be shared with
|
|
the woman he loved, he could not think any man to be pitied for having
|
|
that house. There must be ample room in it for every real comfort.
|
|
The man must be a blockhead who wanted more.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking about.
|
|
Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking how many
|
|
advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he could
|
|
be no judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one.
|
|
But Emma, in her own mind, determined that he did know what he
|
|
was talking about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination
|
|
to settle early in life, and to marry, from worthy motives.
|
|
He might not be aware of the inroads on domestic peace to be
|
|
occasioned by no housekeeper's room, or a bad butler's pantry,
|
|
but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe could not make
|
|
him happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would willingly
|
|
give up much of wealth to be allowed an early establishment.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER VII
|
|
|
|
Emma's very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken
|
|
the following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London,
|
|
merely to have his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him
|
|
at breakfast, and he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to
|
|
return to dinner, but with no more important view that appeared than
|
|
having his hair cut. There was certainly no harm in his travelling
|
|
sixteen miles twice over on such an errand; but there was an air
|
|
of foppery and nonsense in it which she could not approve. It did
|
|
not accord with the rationality of plan, the moderation in expense,
|
|
or even the unselfish warmth of heart, which she had believed herself
|
|
to discern in him yesterday. Vanity, extravagance, love of change,
|
|
restlessness of temper, which must be doing something, good or bad;
|
|
heedlessness as to the pleasure of his father and Mrs. Weston,
|
|
indifferent as to how his conduct might appear in general; he became
|
|
liable to all these charges. His father only called him a coxcomb,
|
|
and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs. Weston did not like it,
|
|
was clear enough, by her passing it over as quickly as possible,
|
|
and making no other comment than that "all young people would have
|
|
their little whims."
|
|
|
|
With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit
|
|
hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston
|
|
was very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he
|
|
made himself--how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether.
|
|
He appeared to have a very open temper--certainly a very cheerful
|
|
and lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions,
|
|
a great deal decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard,
|
|
was fond of talking of him--said he would be the best man in the
|
|
world if he were left to himself; and though there was no being
|
|
attached to the aunt, he acknowledged her kindness with gratitude,
|
|
and seemed to mean always to speak of her with respect.
|
|
This was all very promising; and, but for such an unfortunate fancy
|
|
for having his hair cut, there was nothing to denote him unworthy
|
|
of the distinguished honour which her imagination had given him;
|
|
the honour, if not of being really in love with her, of being
|
|
at least very near it, and saved only by her own indifference--
|
|
(for still her resolution held of never marrying)--the honour, in short,
|
|
of being marked out for her by all their joint acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must
|
|
have some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired
|
|
her extremely--thought her very beautiful and very charming;
|
|
and with so much to be said for him altogether, she found she must
|
|
not judge him harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, "all young people
|
|
would have their little whims."
|
|
|
|
There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so
|
|
leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes
|
|
of Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances
|
|
were made for the little excesses of such a handsome young man--
|
|
one who smiled so often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit
|
|
among them not to be softened, from its power of censure, by bows
|
|
or smiles--Mr. Knightley. The circumstance was told him at Hartfield;
|
|
for the moment, he was silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately
|
|
afterwards say to himself, over a newspaper he held in his hand,
|
|
"Hum! just the trifling, silly fellow I took him for." She had
|
|
half a mind to resent; but an instant's observation convinced
|
|
her that it was really said only to relieve his own feelings,
|
|
and not meant to provoke; and therefore she let it pass.
|
|
|
|
Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings,
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Weston's visit this morning was in another respect
|
|
particularly opportune. Something occurred while they were
|
|
at Hartfield, to make Emma want their advice; and, which was
|
|
still more lucky, she wanted exactly the advice they gave.
|
|
|
|
This was the occurrence:--The Coles had been settled some years
|
|
in Highbury, and were very good sort of people--friendly, liberal,
|
|
and unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin,
|
|
in trade, and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into
|
|
the country, they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly,
|
|
keeping little company, and that little unexpensively; but the last
|
|
year or two had brought them a considerable increase of means--
|
|
the house in town had yielded greater profits, and fortune in general
|
|
had smiled on them. With their wealth, their views increased;
|
|
their want of a larger house, their inclination for more company.
|
|
They added to their house, to their number of servants,
|
|
to their expenses of every sort; and by this time were, in fortune
|
|
and style of living, second only to the family at Hartfield.
|
|
Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared every body
|
|
for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly among
|
|
the single men, had already taken place. The regular and best
|
|
families Emma could hardly suppose they would presume to invite--
|
|
neither Donwell, nor Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should
|
|
tempt her to go, if they did; and she regretted that her father's
|
|
known habits would be giving her refusal less meaning than she
|
|
could wish. The Coles were very respectable in their way, but they
|
|
ought to be taught that it was not for them to arrange the terms
|
|
on which the superior families would visit them. This lesson,
|
|
she very much feared, they would receive only from herself;
|
|
she had little hope of Mr. Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.
|
|
|
|
But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many
|
|
weeks before it appeared, that when the insult came at last,
|
|
it found her very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls
|
|
had received their invitation, and none had come for her father
|
|
and herself; and Mrs. Weston's accounting for it with "I suppose
|
|
they will not take the liberty with you; they know you do not
|
|
dine out," was not quite sufficient. She felt that she should
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like to have had the power of refusal; and afterwards, as the idea
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of the party to be assembled there, consisting precisely of those
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whose society was dearest to her, occurred again and again,
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she did not know that she might not have been tempted to accept.
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Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the Bateses. They had
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been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury the day before,
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and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her absence.
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Might not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of his.
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The bare possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her spirits;
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and her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the omission
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to be intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.
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It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were
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at Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her
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first remark, on reading it, was that "of course it must be declined,"
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she so very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do,
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that their advice for her going was most prompt and successful.
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She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely
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without inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves
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so properly--there was so much real attention in the manner of it--
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so much consideration for her father. "They would have solicited the
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honour earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen
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from London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught
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of air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the
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honour of his company. "Upon the whole, she was very persuadable;
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and it being briefly settled among themselves how it might be
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done without neglecting his comfort--how certainly Mrs. Goddard,
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if not Mrs. Bates, might be depended on for bearing him company--
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Mr. Woodhouse was to be talked into an acquiescence of his daughter's
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going out to dinner on a day now near at hand, and spending
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the whole evening away from him. As for his going, Emma did
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not wish him to think it possible, the hours would be too late,
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and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well resigned.
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"I am not fond of dinner-visiting," said he--"I never was.
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No more is Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry
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Mr. and Mrs. Cole should have done it. I think it would be
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much better if they would come in one afternoon next summer,
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and take their tea with us--take us in their afternoon walk;
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which they might do, as our hours are so reasonable, and yet get home
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without being out in the damp of the evening. The dews of a summer
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evening are what I would not expose any body to. However, as they
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are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine with them, and as you
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will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to take care of her,
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I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be what it ought,
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neither damp, nor cold, nor windy." Then turning to Mrs. Weston,
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with a look of gentle reproach--"Ah! Miss Taylor, if you had
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not married, you would have staid at home with me."
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"Well, sir," cried Mr. Weston, "as I took Miss Taylor away,
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it is incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will
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step to Mrs. Goddard in a moment, if you wish it."
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But the idea of any thing to be done in a moment, was increasing,
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|
not lessening, Mr. Woodhouse's agitation. The ladies knew better
|
|
how to allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing
|
|
deliberately arranged.
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|
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|
With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough
|
|
for talking as usual. "He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard.
|
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He had a great regard for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line,
|
|
and invite her. James could take the note. But first of all,
|
|
there must be an answer written to Mrs. Cole."
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|
|
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"You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will
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|
say that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must
|
|
decline their obliging invitation; beginning with my compliments,
|
|
of course. But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you
|
|
what is to be done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage
|
|
will be wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him.
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|
We have never been there above once since the new approach was made;
|
|
but still I have no doubt that James will take you very safely.
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|
And when you get there, you must tell him at what time you would
|
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have him come for you again; and you had better name an early hour.
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|
You will not like staying late. You will get very tired when tea
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|
is over."
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"But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?"
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"Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be
|
|
a great many people talking at once. You will not like the noise."
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|
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"But, my dear sir," cried Mr. Weston, "if Emma comes away early,
|
|
it will be breaking up the party."
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|
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|
"And no great harm if it does," said Mr. Woodhouse. "The sooner
|
|
every party breaks up, the better."
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|
|
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"But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles.
|
|
Emma's going away directly after tea might be giving offence.
|
|
They are good-natured people, and think little of their own claims;
|
|
but still they must feel that any body's hurrying away is no
|
|
great compliment; and Miss Woodhouse's doing it would be more thought
|
|
of than any other person's in the room. You would not wish to disappoint
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|
and mortify the Coles, I am sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people
|
|
as ever lived, and who have been your neighbours these ten years."
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|
|
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"No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged
|
|
to you for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving
|
|
them any pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells
|
|
me that Mr. Cole never touches malt liquor. You would not think
|
|
it to look at him, but he is bilious--Mr. Cole is very bilious.
|
|
No, I would not be the means of giving them any pain. My dear Emma,
|
|
we must consider this. I am sure, rather than run the risk of hurting
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you would stay a little longer than you might wish.
|
|
You will not regard being tired. You will be perfectly safe,
|
|
you know, among your friends."
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|
|
|
"Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have
|
|
no scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account.
|
|
I am only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid
|
|
of your not being exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard.
|
|
She loves piquet, you know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid
|
|
you will be sitting up by yourself, instead of going to bed at your
|
|
usual time--and the idea of that would entirely destroy my comfort.
|
|
You must promise me not to sit up."
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|
|
|
He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that,
|
|
if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly;
|
|
if hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid
|
|
should sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see
|
|
that every thing were safe in the house, as usual.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER VIII
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|
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Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father's
|
|
dinner waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston
|
|
was too anxious for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
to betray any imperfection which could be concealed.
|
|
|
|
He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with
|
|
a very good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed
|
|
of what he had done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer,
|
|
to conceal any confusion of face; no reason to wish the money unspent,
|
|
to improve his spirits. He was quite as undaunted and as lively
|
|
as ever; and, after seeing him, Emma thus moralised to herself:--
|
|
|
|
"I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things
|
|
do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an
|
|
impudent way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not
|
|
always folly.--It depends upon the character of those who handle it.
|
|
Mr. Knightley, he is not a trifling, silly young man. If he were,
|
|
he would have done this differently. He would either have gloried
|
|
in the achievement, or been ashamed of it. There would have been
|
|
either the ostentation of a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too
|
|
weak to defend its own vanities.--No, I am perfectly sure that he
|
|
is not trifling or silly."
|
|
|
|
With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again,
|
|
and for a longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners,
|
|
and by inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself;
|
|
of guessing how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness
|
|
into her air; and of fancying what the observations of all those
|
|
might be, who were now seeing them together for the first time.
|
|
|
|
She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at
|
|
Mr. Cole's; and without being able to forget that among the failings
|
|
of Mr. Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed
|
|
her more than his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.
|
|
|
|
Her father's comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as
|
|
Mrs. Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty,
|
|
before she left the house, was to pay her respects to them as
|
|
they sat together after dinner; and while her father was fondly
|
|
noticing the beauty of her dress, to make the two ladies all
|
|
the amends in her power, by helping them to large slices of cake
|
|
and full glasses of wine, for whatever unwilling self-denial his
|
|
care of their constitution might have obliged them to practise
|
|
during the meal.--She had provided a plentiful dinner for them;
|
|
she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat it.
|
|
|
|
She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole's door; and was pleased
|
|
to see that it was Mr. Knightley's; for Mr. Knightley keeping
|
|
no horses, having little spare money and a great deal of health,
|
|
activity, and independence, was too apt, in Emma's opinion, to get
|
|
about as he could, and not use his carriage so often as became
|
|
the owner of Donwell Abbey. She had an opportunity now of speaking
|
|
her approbation while warm from her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.
|
|
|
|
"This is coming as you should do," said she; "like a gentleman.--
|
|
I am quite glad to see you."
|
|
|
|
He thanked her, observing, "How lucky that we should arrive at the same
|
|
moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether
|
|
you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.--
|
|
You might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner."
|
|
|
|
"Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of
|
|
consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know
|
|
to be beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say,
|
|
but with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern;
|
|
I always observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances.
|
|
Now you have nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being
|
|
supposed ashamed. You are not striving to look taller than any
|
|
body else. Now I shall really be very happy to walk into the same
|
|
room with you."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsensical girl!" was his reply, but not at all in anger.
|
|
|
|
Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party
|
|
as with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect
|
|
which could not but please, and given all the consequence she could
|
|
wish for. When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love,
|
|
the strongest of admiration were for her, from both husband and wife;
|
|
the son approached her with a cheerful eagerness which marked
|
|
her as his peculiar object, and at dinner she found him seated
|
|
by her--and, as she firmly believed, not without some dexterity
|
|
on his side.
|
|
|
|
The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper
|
|
unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of
|
|
naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox's family,
|
|
the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come
|
|
in the evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith;
|
|
but already, at dinner, they were too numerous for any subject
|
|
of conversation to be general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton
|
|
were talked over, Emma could fairly surrender all her attention to
|
|
the pleasantness of her neighbour. The first remote sound to which
|
|
she felt herself obliged to attend, was the name of Jane Fairfax.
|
|
Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating something of her that was expected to be
|
|
very interesting. She listened, and found it well worth listening to.
|
|
That very dear part of Emma, her fancy, received an amusing supply.
|
|
Mrs. Cole was telling that she had been calling on Miss Bates,
|
|
and as soon as she entered the room had been struck by the sight
|
|
of a pianoforte--a very elegant looking instrument--not a grand,
|
|
but a large-sized square pianoforte; and the substance of the story,
|
|
the end of all the dialogue which ensued of surprize, and inquiry,
|
|
and congratulations on her side, and explanations on Miss Bates's, was,
|
|
that this pianoforte had arrived from Broadwood's the day before,
|
|
to the great astonishment of both aunt and niece--entirely unexpected;
|
|
that at first, by Miss Bates's account, Jane herself was quite at
|
|
a loss, quite bewildered to think who could possibly have ordered it--
|
|
but now, they were both perfectly satisfied that it could be from only
|
|
one quarter;--of course it must be from Colonel Campbell.
|
|
|
|
"One can suppose nothing else," added Mrs. Cole, "and I was only
|
|
surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane,
|
|
it seems, had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said
|
|
about it. She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their
|
|
silence as any reason for their not meaning to make the present.
|
|
They might chuse to surprize her."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the
|
|
subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell,
|
|
and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there
|
|
were enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way,
|
|
and still listen to Mrs. Cole.
|
|
|
|
"I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given
|
|
me more satisfaction!--It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax,
|
|
who plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument.
|
|
It seemed quite a shame, especially considering how many houses
|
|
there are where fine instruments are absolutely thrown away.
|
|
This is like giving ourselves a slap, to be sure! and it was
|
|
but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole, I really was ashamed
|
|
to look at our new grand pianoforte in the drawing-room, while I
|
|
do not know one note from another, and our little girls, who are
|
|
but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of it;
|
|
and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not
|
|
any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest
|
|
old spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.--I was saying this
|
|
to Mr. Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he
|
|
is so particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging
|
|
himself in the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might
|
|
be so obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can;
|
|
and that really is the reason why the instrument was bought--
|
|
or else I am sure we ought to be ashamed of it.--We are in great
|
|
hopes that Miss Woodhouse may be prevailed with to try it this evening."
|
|
|
|
Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing
|
|
more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole's,
|
|
turned to Frank Churchill.
|
|
|
|
"Why do you smile?" said she.
|
|
|
|
"Nay, why do you?"
|
|
|
|
"Me!--I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell's being
|
|
so rich and so liberal.--It is a handsome present."
|
|
|
|
"Very."
|
|
|
|
"I rather wonder that it was never made before."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before."
|
|
|
|
"Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument--
|
|
which must now be shut up in London, untouched by any body."
|
|
|
|
"That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large
|
|
for Mrs. Bates's house."
|
|
|
|
"You may say what you chuse--but your countenance testifies
|
|
that your thoughts on this subject are very much like mine."
|
|
|
|
"I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for
|
|
acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall probably
|
|
suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not see what
|
|
there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person, who can be?"
|
|
|
|
"What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?"
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon.
|
|
She must know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument
|
|
would be; and perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize,
|
|
is more like a young woman's scheme than an elderly man's. It
|
|
is Mrs. Dixon, I dare say. I told you that your suspicions would
|
|
guide mine."
|
|
|
|
"If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend Mr. Dixon
|
|
in them."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Dixon.--Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must
|
|
be the joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the
|
|
other day, you know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I
|
|
had entertained before.--I do not mean to reflect upon the good
|
|
intentions of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help
|
|
suspecting either that, after making his proposals to her friend,
|
|
he had the misfortune to fall in love with her, or that he became
|
|
conscious of a little attachment on her side. One might guess
|
|
twenty things without guessing exactly the right; but I am sure
|
|
there must be a particular cause for her chusing to come to Highbury
|
|
instead of going with the Campbells to Ireland. Here, she must be
|
|
leading a life of privation and penance; there it would have been
|
|
all enjoyment. As to the pretence of trying her native air, I look
|
|
upon that as a mere excuse.--In the summer it might have passed;
|
|
but what can any body's native air do for them in the months
|
|
of January, February, and March? Good fires and carriages would
|
|
be much more to the purpose in most cases of delicate health, and I
|
|
dare say in her's. I do not require you to adopt all my suspicions,
|
|
though you make so noble a profession of doing it, but I honestly
|
|
tell you what they are."
|
|
|
|
"And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability.
|
|
Mr. Dixon's preference of her music to her friend's, I can answer
|
|
for being very decided."
|
|
|
|
"And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?--
|
|
A water party; and by some accident she was falling overboard.
|
|
He caught her."
|
|
|
|
"He did. I was there--one of the party."
|
|
|
|
"Were you really?--Well!--But you observed nothing of course,
|
|
for it seems to be a new idea to you.--If I had been there, I think
|
|
I should have made some discoveries."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact,
|
|
that Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon
|
|
caught her.--It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent
|
|
shock and alarm was very great and much more durable--indeed I
|
|
believe it was half an hour before any of us were comfortable again--
|
|
yet that was too general a sensation for any thing of peculiar
|
|
anxiety to be observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you
|
|
might not have made discoveries."
|
|
|
|
The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share
|
|
in the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses,
|
|
and obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when
|
|
the table was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed
|
|
exactly right, and occupation and ease were generally restored,
|
|
Emma said,
|
|
|
|
"The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know
|
|
a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it,
|
|
we shall soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon."
|
|
|
|
"And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we
|
|
must conclude it to come from the Campbells."
|
|
|
|
"No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it
|
|
is not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first.
|
|
She would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them.
|
|
I may not have convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced
|
|
myself that Mr. Dixon is a principal in the business."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings
|
|
carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I
|
|
supposed you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw
|
|
it only as paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing
|
|
in the world. But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more
|
|
probable that it should be the tribute of warm female friendship.
|
|
And now I can see it in no other light than as an offering of love."
|
|
|
|
There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction
|
|
seemed real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more,
|
|
other subjects took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away;
|
|
the dessert succeeded, the children came in, and were talked
|
|
to and admired amid the usual rate of conversation; a few clever
|
|
things said, a few downright silly, but by much the larger proportion
|
|
neither the one nor the other--nothing worse than everyday remarks,
|
|
dull repetitions, old news, and heavy jokes.
|
|
|
|
The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other ladies,
|
|
in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree of her
|
|
own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her dignity
|
|
and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and the
|
|
artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light, cheerful,
|
|
unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many alleviations
|
|
of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed affection.
|
|
There she sat--and who would have guessed how many tears she had
|
|
been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself
|
|
and seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty,
|
|
and say nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour.
|
|
Jane Fairfax did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she
|
|
might have been glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad
|
|
to have purchased the mortification of having loved--yes, of having
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loved even Mr. Elton in vain--by the surrender of all the dangerous
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pleasure of knowing herself beloved by the husband of her friend.
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In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her.
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She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much
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in the secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity
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or interest fair, and therefore purposely kept at a distance;
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but by the others, the subject was almost immediately introduced,
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and she saw the blush of consciousness with which congratulations
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were received, the blush of guilt which accompanied the name of "my
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excellent friend Colonel Campbell."
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Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested
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by the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her
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perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask
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and to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious
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of that wish of saying as little about it as possible, which she
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plainly read in the fair heroine's countenance.
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They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first of the
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early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the handsomest;
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and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates and
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her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle,
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where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her,
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would not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must
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be thinking. She was his object, and every body must perceive it.
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She introduced him to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient
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moments afterwards, heard what each thought of the other. "He had
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never seen so lovely a face, and was delighted with her naivete."
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And she, "Only to be sure it was paying him too great a compliment,
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but she did think there were some looks a little like Mr. Elton."
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Emma restrained her indignation, and only turned from her in silence.
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Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first
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glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech.
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He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room--
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hated sitting long--was always the first to move when he could--
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that his father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left
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very busy over parish business--that as long as he had staid,
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however, it had been pleasant enough, as he had found them in general
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a set of gentlemanlike, sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of
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Highbury altogether--thought it so abundant in agreeable families--
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that Emma began to feel she had been used to despise the place
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rather too much. She questioned him as to the society in Yorkshire--
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the extent of the neighbourhood about Enscombe, and the sort;
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and could make out from his answers that, as far as Enscombe
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was concerned, there was very little going on, that their visitings
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were among a range of great families, none very near; and that even
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when days were fixed, and invitations accepted, it was an even
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chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health and spirits for going;
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that they made a point of visiting no fresh person; and that,
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though he had his separate engagements, it was not without difficulty,
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without considerable address at times, that he could get away,
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or introduce an acquaintance for a night.
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She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury,
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taken at its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more
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retirement at home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was
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very evident. He did not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself,
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that he had persuaded his aunt where his uncle could do nothing,
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and on her laughing and noticing it, he owned that he believed (excepting
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one or two points) he could with time persuade her to any thing.
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One of those points on which his influence failed, he then mentioned.
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He had wanted very much to go abroad--had been very eager indeed
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to be allowed to travel--but she would not hear of it. This had
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happened the year before. Now, he said, he was beginning to have
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no longer the same wish.
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The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed
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to be good behaviour to his father.
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"I have made a most wretched discovery," said he, after a short pause.--
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"I have been here a week to-morrow--half my time. I never knew
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days fly so fast. A week to-morrow!--And I have hardly begun to
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enjoy myself. But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!--
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I hate the recollection."
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"Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day,
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out of so few, in having your hair cut."
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"No," said he, smiling, "that is no subject of regret at all.
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I have no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself
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fit to be seen."
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The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself
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obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole.
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When Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored
|
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as before, she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room
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at Miss Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.
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"What is the matter?" said she.
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He started. "Thank you for rousing me," he replied. "I believe
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I have been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair
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in so odd a way--so very odd a way--that I cannot keep my eyes
|
|
from her. I never saw any thing so outree!--Those curls!--This must
|
|
be a fancy of her own. I see nobody else looking like her!--
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I must go and ask her whether it is an Irish fashion. Shall I?--
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|
Yes, I will--I declare I will--and you shall see how she takes it;--
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whether she colours."
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He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss
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Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady,
|
|
as he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly
|
|
in front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.
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Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.
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"This is the luxury of a large party," said she:--"one can get
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near every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing
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|
to talk to you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans,
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|
just like yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh.
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|
Do you know how Miss Bates and her niece came here?"
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"How?--They were invited, were not they?"
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"Oh! yes--but how they were conveyed hither?--the manner of their coming?"
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"They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?"
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"Very true.--Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad
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it would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night,
|
|
and cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I
|
|
never saw her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she
|
|
was heated, and would therefore be particularly liable to take cold.
|
|
Poor girl! I could not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston
|
|
came into the room, and I could get at him, I spoke to him about
|
|
the carriage. You may guess how readily he came into my wishes;
|
|
and having his approbation, I made my way directly to Miss Bates,
|
|
to assure her that the carriage would be at her service before it took
|
|
us home; for I thought it would be making her comfortable at once.
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|
Good soul! she was as grateful as possible, you may be sure.
|
|
`Nobody was ever so fortunate as herself!'--but with many,
|
|
many thanks--`there was no occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley's
|
|
carriage had brought, and was to take them home again.' I was
|
|
quite surprized;--very glad, I am sure; but really quite surprized.
|
|
Such a very kind attention--and so thoughtful an attention!--
|
|
the sort of thing that so few men would think of. And, in short,
|
|
from knowing his usual ways, I am very much inclined to think
|
|
that it was for their accommodation the carriage was used at all.
|
|
I do suspect he would not have had a pair of horses for himself,
|
|
and that it was only as an excuse for assisting them."
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|
"Very likely," said Emma--"nothing more likely. I know no man
|
|
more likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing--to do any
|
|
thing really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent.
|
|
He is not a gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this,
|
|
considering Jane Fairfax's ill-health, would appear a case
|
|
of humanity to him;--and for an act of unostentatious kindness,
|
|
there is nobody whom I would fix on more than on Mr. Knightley.
|
|
I know he had horses to-day--for we arrived together; and I laughed at
|
|
him about it, but he said not a word that could betray."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Mrs. Weston, smiling, "you give him credit for
|
|
more simple, disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do;
|
|
for while Miss Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head,
|
|
and I have never been able to get it out again. The more I think
|
|
of it, the more probable it appears. In short, I have made a match
|
|
between Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax. See the consequence
|
|
of keeping you company!--What do you say to it?"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!" exclaimed Emma. "Dear Mrs. Weston,
|
|
how could you think of such a thing?--Mr. Knightley!--Mr. Knightley
|
|
must not marry!--You would not have little Henry cut out from Donwell?--
|
|
Oh! no, no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all consent to
|
|
Mr. Knightley's marrying; and I am sure it is not at all likely.
|
|
I am amazed that you should think of such a thing."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it.
|
|
I do not want the match--I do not want to injure dear little Henry--
|
|
but the idea has been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley
|
|
really wished to marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry's
|
|
account, a boy of six years old, who knows nothing of the matter?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.--
|
|
Mr. Knightley marry!--No, I have never had such an idea, and I
|
|
cannot adopt it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!"
|
|
|
|
"Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you
|
|
very well know."
|
|
|
|
"But the imprudence of such a match!"
|
|
|
|
"I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability."
|
|
|
|
"I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation
|
|
than what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you,
|
|
would be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great
|
|
regard for the Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax--
|
|
and is always glad to shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston,
|
|
do not take to match-making. You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress
|
|
of the Abbey!--Oh! no, no;--every feeling revolts. For his own sake,
|
|
I would not have him do so mad a thing."
|
|
|
|
"Imprudent, if you please--but not mad. Excepting inequality of fortune,
|
|
and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing unsuitable."
|
|
|
|
"But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the
|
|
least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?--
|
|
He is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep,
|
|
and his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely
|
|
fond of his brother's children. He has no occasion to marry,
|
|
either to fill up his time or his heart."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really
|
|
loves Jane Fairfax--"
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way
|
|
of love, I am sure he does not. He would do any good to her,
|
|
or her family; but--"
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Mrs. Weston, laughing, "perhaps the greatest good he
|
|
could do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home."
|
|
|
|
"If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself;
|
|
a very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have
|
|
Miss Bates belonging to him?--To have her haunting the Abbey,
|
|
and thanking him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?--
|
|
`So very kind and obliging!--But he always had been such a very
|
|
kind neighbour!' And then fly off, through half a sentence,
|
|
to her mother's old petticoat. `Not that it was such a very old
|
|
petticoat either--for still it would last a great while--and, indeed,
|
|
she must thankfully say that their petticoats were all very strong.'"
|
|
|
|
"For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against
|
|
my conscience. And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would
|
|
be much disturbed by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him.
|
|
She might talk on; and if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would
|
|
only talk louder, and drown her voice. But the question is not,
|
|
whether it would be a bad connexion for him, but whether he wishes it;
|
|
and I think he does. I have heard him speak, and so must you,
|
|
so very highly of Jane Fairfax! The interest he takes in her--
|
|
his anxiety about her health--his concern that she should have no
|
|
happier prospect! I have heard him express himself so warmly on
|
|
those points!--Such an admirer of her performance on the pianoforte,
|
|
and of her voice! I have heard him say that he could listen to her
|
|
for ever. Oh! and I had almost forgotten one idea that occurred
|
|
to me--this pianoforte that has been sent here by somebody--
|
|
though we have all been so well satisfied to consider it a present
|
|
from the Campbells, may it not be from Mr. Knightley? I cannot
|
|
help suspecting him. I think he is just the person to do it,
|
|
even without being in love."
|
|
|
|
"Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love.
|
|
But I do not think it is at all a likely thing for him to do.
|
|
Mr. Knightley does nothing mysteriously."
|
|
|
|
"I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly;
|
|
oftener than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common
|
|
course of things, occur to him."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have
|
|
told her so."
|
|
|
|
"There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very
|
|
strong notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly
|
|
silent when Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner."
|
|
|
|
"You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have
|
|
many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment--
|
|
I believe nothing of the pianoforte--and proof only shall convince
|
|
me that Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax."
|
|
|
|
They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather
|
|
gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was
|
|
the most used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room
|
|
shewed them that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;--
|
|
and at the same moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse
|
|
would do them the honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom,
|
|
in the eagerness of her conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been
|
|
seeing nothing, except that he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax,
|
|
followed Mr. Cole, to add his very pressing entreaties; and as,
|
|
in every respect, it suited Emma best to lead, she gave a very
|
|
proper compliance.
|
|
|
|
She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt
|
|
more than she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste
|
|
nor spirit in the little things which are generally acceptable,
|
|
and could accompany her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song
|
|
took her agreeably by surprize--a second, slightly but correctly
|
|
taken by Frank Churchill. Her pardon was duly begged at the close
|
|
of the song, and every thing usual followed. He was accused
|
|
of having a delightful voice, and a perfect knowledge of music;
|
|
which was properly denied; and that he knew nothing of the matter,
|
|
and had no voice at all, roundly asserted. They sang together
|
|
once more; and Emma would then resign her place to Miss Fairfax,
|
|
whose performance, both vocal and instrumental, she never could
|
|
attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely superior to her own.
|
|
|
|
With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the
|
|
numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again.
|
|
They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth.
|
|
But the sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew
|
|
away half Emma's mind; and she fell into a train of thinking
|
|
on the subject of Mrs. Weston's suspicions, to which the sweet
|
|
sounds of the united voices gave only momentary interruptions.
|
|
Her objections to Mr. Knightley's marrying did not in the least subside.
|
|
She could see nothing but evil in it. It would be a great
|
|
disappointment to Mr. John Knightley; consequently to Isabella.
|
|
A real injury to the children--a most mortifying change,
|
|
and material loss to them all;--a very great deduction from her
|
|
father's daily comfort--and, as to herself, she could not at all
|
|
endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs. Knightley
|
|
for them all to give way to!--No--Mr. Knightley must never marry.
|
|
Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
|
|
|
|
Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her.
|
|
They talked at first only of the performance. His admiration
|
|
was certainly very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston,
|
|
it would not have struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however,
|
|
she began to speak of his kindness in conveying the aunt and niece;
|
|
and though his answer was in the spirit of cutting the matter short,
|
|
she believed it to indicate only his disinclination to dwell on any
|
|
kindness of his own.
|
|
|
|
"I often feel concern," said she, "that I dare not make our carriage
|
|
more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish;
|
|
but you know how impossible my father would deem it that James
|
|
should put-to for such a purpose."
|
|
|
|
"Quite out of the question, quite out of the question," he replied;--
|
|
"but you must often wish it, I am sure." And he smiled with such
|
|
seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another step.
|
|
|
|
"This present from the Campbells," said she--"this pianoforte
|
|
is very kindly given."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," he replied, and without the smallest apparent embarrassment.--
|
|
"But they would have done better had they given her notice of it.
|
|
Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not enhanced, and the
|
|
inconvenience is often considerable. I should have expected better
|
|
judgment in Colonel Campbell."
|
|
|
|
From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley
|
|
had had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he
|
|
were entirely free from peculiar attachment--whether there
|
|
were no actual preference--remained a little longer doubtful.
|
|
Towards the end of Jane's second song, her voice grew thick.
|
|
|
|
"That will do," said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud--
|
|
"you have sung quite enough for one evening--now be quiet."
|
|
|
|
Another song, however, was soon begged for. "One more;--they would
|
|
not fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for
|
|
one more." And Frank Churchill was heard to say, "I think you could
|
|
manage this without effort; the first part is so very trifling.
|
|
The strength of the song falls on the second."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley grew angry.
|
|
|
|
"That fellow," said he, indignantly, "thinks of nothing but shewing
|
|
off his own voice. This must not be." And touching Miss Bates,
|
|
who at that moment passed near--"Miss Bates, are you mad, to let
|
|
your niece sing herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere.
|
|
They have no mercy on her."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even
|
|
to be grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all
|
|
farther singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening,
|
|
for Miss Woodhouse and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers;
|
|
but soon (within five minutes) the proposal of dancing--
|
|
originating nobody exactly knew where--was so effectually promoted
|
|
by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, that every thing was rapidly clearing away,
|
|
to give proper space. Mrs. Weston, capital in her country-dances,
|
|
was seated, and beginning an irresistible waltz; and Frank Churchill,
|
|
coming up with most becoming gallantry to Emma, had secured her hand,
|
|
and led her up to the top.
|
|
|
|
While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off,
|
|
Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on her
|
|
voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr. Knightley.
|
|
This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he were to be
|
|
very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur something.
|
|
There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to Mrs. Cole--
|
|
he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody else,
|
|
and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.
|
|
|
|
Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe;
|
|
and she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment.
|
|
Not more than five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the
|
|
suddenness of it made it very delightful, and she found herself well
|
|
matched in a partner. They were a couple worth looking at.
|
|
|
|
Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed.
|
|
It was growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home,
|
|
on her mother's account. After some attempts, therefore, to be
|
|
permitted to begin again, they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston,
|
|
look sorrowful, and have done.
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps it is as well," said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma
|
|
to her carriage. "I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid
|
|
dancing would not have agreed with me, after your's."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER IX
|
|
|
|
Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles.
|
|
The visit afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day;
|
|
and all that she might be supposed to have lost on the side
|
|
of dignified seclusion, must be amply repaid in the splendour
|
|
of popularity. She must have delighted the Coles--worthy people,
|
|
who deserved to be made happy!--And left a name behind her that would
|
|
not soon die away.
|
|
|
|
Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were
|
|
two points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether
|
|
she had not transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying
|
|
her suspicions of Jane Fairfax's feelings to Frank Churchill.
|
|
It was hardly right; but it had been so strong an idea, that it
|
|
would escape her, and his submission to all that she told,
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was a compliment to her penetration, which made it difficult
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for her to be quite certain that she ought to have held her tongue.
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The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax;
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and there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally
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regret the inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did
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most heartily grieve over the idleness of her childhood--and sat
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down and practised vigorously an hour and a half.
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She was then interrupted by Harriet's coming in; and if Harriet's
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praise could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.
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"Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!"
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"Don't class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like
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her's, than a lamp is like sunshine."
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"Oh! dear--I think you play the best of the two. I think you play
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quite as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you.
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Every body last night said how well you played."
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"Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference.
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The truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised,
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but Jane Fairfax's is much beyond it."
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"Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does,
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or that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out.
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Mr. Cole said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked
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a great deal about your taste, and that he valued taste much more
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than execution."
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"Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet."
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"Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had
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any taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.--
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There is no understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play
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so very well, you know, it is no more than she is obliged to do,
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because she will have to teach. The Coxes were wondering last night
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whether she would get into any great family. How did you think the
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Coxes looked?"
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"Just as they always do--very vulgar."
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"They told me something," said Harriet rather hesitatingly;"
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but it is nothing of any consequence."
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Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful
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of its producing Mr. Elton.
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"They told me---that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday."
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"Oh!"
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"He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him
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to stay to dinner."
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"Oh!"
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"They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox.
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I do not know what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I
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should go and stay there again next summer."
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"She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox
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should be."
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"She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat
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by her at dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would
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be very glad to marry him."
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"Very likely.--I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar
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girls in Highbury."
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Harriet had business at Ford's.--Emma thought it most prudent to go
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with her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible,
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and in her present state, would be dangerous.
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Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always
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very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins
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and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.--Much could
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not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;--
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Mr. Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at
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the office-door, Mr. Cole's carriage-horses returning from exercise,
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or a stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest
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objects she could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on
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the butcher with his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from
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shop with her full basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone,
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and a string of dawdling children round the baker's little bow-window
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eyeing the gingerbread, she knew she had no reason to complain,
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and was amused enough; quite enough still to stand at the door.
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A mind lively and at ease, can do with seeing nothing, and can see
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nothing that does not answer.
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She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged;
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two persons appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were
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walking into Highbury;--to Hartfield of course. They were stopping,
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however, in the first place at Mrs. Bates's; whose house was
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a little nearer Randalls than Ford's; and had all but knocked,
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when Emma caught their eye.--Immediately they crossed the road
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and came forward to her; and the agreeableness of yesterday's
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engagement seemed to give fresh pleasure to the present meeting.
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Mrs. Weston informed her that she was going to call on the Bateses,
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in order to hear the new instrument.
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"For my companion tells me," said she, "that I absolutely promised
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Miss Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was
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not aware of it myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day,
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but as he says I did, I am going now."
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"And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope,"
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said Frank Churchill, "to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield--
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if you are going home."
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Mrs. Weston was disappointed.
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"I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased."
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"Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps--I may be equally
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in the way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me.
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My aunt always sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget
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her to death; and Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say
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the same. What am I to do?"
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"I am here on no business of my own," said Emma; "I am only waiting
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|
for my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we
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|
shall go home. But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear
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the instrument."
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"Well--if you advise it.--But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell
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|
should have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove
|
|
to have an indifferent tone--what shall I say? I shall be no
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|
support to Mrs. Weston. She might do very well by herself.
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|
A disagreeable truth would be palatable through her lips, but I
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|
am the wretchedest being in the world at a civil falsehood."
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"I do not believe any such thing," replied Emma.--"I am persuaded
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|
that you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary;
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|
but there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent.
|
|
Quite otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax's opinion
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|
last night."
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"Do come with me," said Mrs. Weston, "if it be not very disagreeable
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|
to you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards.
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|
We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me.
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|
It will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you
|
|
meant it."
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He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him,
|
|
returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates's door. Emma watched them in,
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|
and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,--trying, with all
|
|
the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain
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|
muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon,
|
|
be it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern.
|
|
At last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.
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"Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard's, ma'am?" asked Mrs. Ford.--
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|
"Yes--no--yes, to Mrs. Goddard's. Only my pattern gown is
|
|
at Hartfield. No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please.
|
|
But then, Mrs. Goddard will want to see it.--And I could take the
|
|
pattern gown home any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly--
|
|
so it had better go to Hartfield--at least the ribbon. You could
|
|
make it into two parcels, Mrs. Ford, could not you?"
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|
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|
"It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble
|
|
of two parcels."
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"No more it is."
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"No trouble in the world, ma'am," said the obliging Mrs. Ford.
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"Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one.
|
|
Then, if you please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard's--
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|
I do not know--No, I think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well
|
|
have it sent to Hartfield, and take it home with me at night.
|
|
What do you advise?"
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|
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|
"That you do not give another half-second to the subject.
|
|
To Hartfield, if you please, Mrs. Ford."
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|
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|
"Aye, that will be much best," said Harriet, quite satisfied,
|
|
"I should not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard's."
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|
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|
Voices approached the shop--or rather one voice and two ladies:
|
|
Mrs. Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.
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|
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|
"My dear Miss Woodhouse," said the latter, "I am just run across to
|
|
entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while,
|
|
and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith.
|
|
How do you do, Miss Smith?--Very well I thank you.--And I begged
|
|
Mrs. Weston to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding."
|
|
|
|
"I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are--"
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|
|
|
"Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well;
|
|
and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad
|
|
to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.--
|
|
Oh! then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will
|
|
allow me just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother
|
|
will be so very happy to see her--and now we are such a nice party,
|
|
she cannot refuse.--`Aye, pray do,' said Mr. Frank Churchill,
|
|
`Miss Woodhouse's opinion of the instrument will be worth having.'--
|
|
But, said I, I shall be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go
|
|
with me.--`Oh,' said he, `wait half a minute, till I have finished
|
|
my job;'--For, would you believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is,
|
|
in the most obliging manner in the world, fastening in the rivet of my
|
|
mother's spectacles.--The rivet came out, you know, this morning.--
|
|
So very obliging!--For my mother had no use of her spectacles--
|
|
could not put them on. And, by the bye, every body ought to have
|
|
two pair of spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said so.
|
|
I meant to take them over to John Saunders the first thing I did,
|
|
but something or other hindered me all the morning; first one thing,
|
|
then another, there is no saying what, you know. At one time Patty came
|
|
to say she thought the kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I,
|
|
Patty do not come with your bad news to me. Here is the rivet
|
|
of your mistress's spectacles out. Then the baked apples came home,
|
|
Mrs. Wallis sent them by her boy; they are extremely civil and
|
|
obliging to us, the Wallises, always--I have heard some people
|
|
say that Mrs. Wallis can be uncivil and give a very rude answer,
|
|
but we have never known any thing but the greatest attention
|
|
from them. And it cannot be for the value of our custom now,
|
|
for what is our consumption of bread, you know? Only three of us.--
|
|
besides dear Jane at present--and she really eats nothing--makes such
|
|
a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened if you saw it.
|
|
I dare not let my mother know how little she eats--so I say one
|
|
thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the
|
|
middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes
|
|
so well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome,
|
|
for I took the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry;
|
|
I happened to meet him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before--
|
|
I have so often heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple.
|
|
I believe it is the only way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the
|
|
fruit thoroughly wholesome. We have apple-dumplings, however,
|
|
very often. Patty makes an excellent apple-dumpling. Well,
|
|
Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and these ladies will
|
|
oblige us."
|
|
|
|
Emma would be "very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.," and they
|
|
did at last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss
|
|
Bates than,
|
|
|
|
"How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see
|
|
you before. I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons
|
|
from town. Jane came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye,
|
|
the gloves do very well--only a little too large about the wrist;
|
|
but Jane is taking them in."
|
|
|
|
"What was I talking of?" said she, beginning again when they were
|
|
all in the street.
|
|
|
|
Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.
|
|
|
|
"I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.--Oh! my
|
|
mother's spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill!
|
|
`Oh!' said he, `I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job
|
|
of this kind excessively.'--Which you know shewed him to be so
|
|
very. . . . Indeed I must say that, much as I had heard of him
|
|
before and much as I had expected, he very far exceeds any
|
|
thing. . . . I do congratulate you, Mrs. Weston, most warmly.
|
|
He seems every thing the fondest parent could. . . . `Oh!' said he,
|
|
`I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of that sort excessively.'
|
|
I never shall forget his manner. And when I brought out the baked
|
|
apples from the closet, and hoped our friends would be so very
|
|
obliging as to take some, `Oh!' said he directly, `there is nothing
|
|
in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the finest-looking
|
|
home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.' That, you know, was so
|
|
very. . . . And I am sure, by his manner, it was no compliment.
|
|
Indeed they are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them
|
|
full justice--only we do not have them baked more than twice,
|
|
and Mr. Woodhouse made us promise to have them done three times--
|
|
but Miss Woodhouse will be so good as not to mention it. The apples
|
|
themselves are the very finest sort for baking, beyond a doubt;
|
|
all from Donwell--some of Mr. Knightley's most liberal supply.
|
|
He sends us a sack every year; and certainly there never was such
|
|
a keeping apple anywhere as one of his trees--I believe there
|
|
is two of them. My mother says the orchard was always famous
|
|
in her younger days. But I was really quite shocked the other day--
|
|
for Mr. Knightley called one morning, and Jane was eating these apples,
|
|
and we talked about them and said how much she enjoyed them,
|
|
and he asked whether we were not got to the end of our stock.
|
|
`I am sure you must be,' said he, `and I will send you
|
|
another supply; for I have a great many more than I can ever use.
|
|
William Larkins let me keep a larger quantity than usual this year.
|
|
I will send you some more, before they get good for nothing.'
|
|
So I begged he would not--for really as to ours being gone, I could
|
|
not absolutely say that we had a great many left--it was but half
|
|
a dozen indeed; but they should be all kept for Jane; and I could
|
|
not at all bear that he should be sending us more, so liberal as he
|
|
had been already; and Jane said the same. And when he was gone,
|
|
she almost quarrelled with me--No, I should not say quarrelled,
|
|
for we never had a quarrel in our lives; but she was quite distressed
|
|
that I had owned the apples were so nearly gone; she wished I had
|
|
made him believe we had a great many left. Oh, said I, my dear,
|
|
I did say as much as I could. However, the very same evening
|
|
William Larkins came over with a large basket of apples, the same
|
|
sort of apples, a bushel at least, and I was very much obliged,
|
|
and went down and spoke to William Larkins and said every thing,
|
|
as you may suppose. William Larkins is such an old acquaintance!
|
|
I am always glad to see him. But, however, I found afterwards
|
|
from Patty, that William said it was all the apples of that sort
|
|
his master had; he had brought them all--and now his master had not
|
|
one left to bake or boil. William did not seem to mind it himself,
|
|
he was so pleased to think his master had sold so many; for William,
|
|
you know, thinks more of his master's profit than any thing;
|
|
but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their being
|
|
all sent away. She could not bear that her master should not be
|
|
able to have another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this,
|
|
but bid her not mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us
|
|
about it, for Mrs. Hodges would be cross sometimes, and as long as
|
|
so many sacks were sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder.
|
|
And so Patty told me, and I was excessively shocked indeed!
|
|
I would not have Mr. Knightley know any thing about it for
|
|
the world! He would be so very. . . . I wanted to keep it from
|
|
Jane's knowledge; but, unluckily, I had mentioned it before I was
|
|
aware."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors
|
|
walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to,
|
|
pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.
|
|
|
|
"Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning.
|
|
Pray take care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase--
|
|
rather darker and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith,
|
|
pray take care. Miss Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you
|
|
hit your foot. Miss Smith, the step at the turning."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER X
|
|
|
|
The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered,
|
|
was tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment,
|
|
slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table
|
|
near her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax,
|
|
standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.
|
|
|
|
Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most
|
|
happy countenance on seeing Emma again.
|
|
|
|
"This is a pleasure," said he, in rather a low voice, "coming at
|
|
least ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me
|
|
trying to be useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed."
|
|
|
|
"What!" said Mrs. Weston, "have not you finished it yet? you would
|
|
not earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate."
|
|
|
|
"I have not been working uninterruptedly," he replied, "I have been
|
|
assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily,
|
|
it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe.
|
|
You see we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind
|
|
of you to be persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be
|
|
hurrying home."
|
|
|
|
He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently
|
|
employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying
|
|
to make her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was
|
|
quite ready to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not
|
|
immediately ready, Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her nerves;
|
|
she had not yet possessed the instrument long enough to touch it
|
|
without emotion; she must reason herself into the power of performance;
|
|
and Emma could not but pity such feelings, whatever their origin,
|
|
and could not but resolve never to expose them to her neighbour again.
|
|
|
|
At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given,
|
|
the powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to.
|
|
Mrs. Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again;
|
|
Emma joined her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every
|
|
proper discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the
|
|
highest promise.
|
|
|
|
"Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ," said Frank Churchill,
|
|
with a smile at Emma, "the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good
|
|
deal of Colonel Campbell's taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the
|
|
upper notes I am sure is exactly what he and all that party would
|
|
particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave
|
|
his friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself.
|
|
Do not you think so?"
|
|
|
|
Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston
|
|
had been speaking to her at the same moment.
|
|
|
|
"It is not fair," said Emma, in a whisper; "mine was a random guess.
|
|
Do not distress her."
|
|
|
|
He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little
|
|
doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,
|
|
|
|
"How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure
|
|
on this occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you,
|
|
and wonder which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument's
|
|
coming to hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business
|
|
to be going forward just at this time?--Do you imagine it to be
|
|
the consequence of an immediate commission from him, or that he may
|
|
have sent only a general direction, an order indefinite as to time,
|
|
to depend upon contingencies and conveniences?"
|
|
|
|
He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,
|
|
|
|
"Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell," said she, in a voice
|
|
of forced calmness, "I can imagine nothing with any confidence.
|
|
It must be all conjecture."
|
|
|
|
"Conjecture--aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes
|
|
one conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall
|
|
make this rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
when hard at work, if one talks at all;--your real workmen,
|
|
I suppose, hold their tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get
|
|
hold of a word--Miss Fairfax said something about conjecturing.
|
|
There, it is done. I have the pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,)
|
|
of restoring your spectacles, healed for the present."
|
|
|
|
He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape
|
|
a little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged
|
|
Miss Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.
|
|
|
|
"If you are very kind," said he, "it will be one of the waltzes
|
|
we danced last night;--let me live them over again. You did not
|
|
enjoy them as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe
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you were glad we danced no longer; but I would have given worlds--
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all the worlds one ever has to give--for another half-hour."
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She played.
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"What felicity it is to hear a tune again which has made one happy!--
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If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth."
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She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played
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something else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte,
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and turning to Emma, said,
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"Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?--Cramer.--
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And here are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter,
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one might expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful
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of Colonel Campbell, was not it?--He knew Miss Fairfax could have
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no music here. I honour that part of the attention particularly;
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it shews it to have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily
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done; nothing incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it."
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Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused;
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and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught
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the remains of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush
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of consciousness, there had been a smile of secret delight,
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she had less scruple in the amusement, and much less compunction
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with respect to her.--This amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax
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was apparently cherishing very reprehensible feelings.
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He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.--
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Emma took the opportunity of whispering,
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"You speak too plain. She must understand you."
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"I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not
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in the least ashamed of my meaning."
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"But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up
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the idea."
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"I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me.
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I have now a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her.
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If she does wrong, she ought to feel it."
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"She is not entirely without it, I think."
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"I do not see much sign of it. She is playing Robin Adair
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at this moment--his favourite."
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Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window,
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descried Mr. Knightley on horse-back not far off.
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"Mr. Knightley I declare!--I must speak to him if possible,
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just to thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give
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you all cold; but I can go into my mother's room you know. I dare
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say he will come in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful
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to have you all meet so!--Our little room so honoured!"
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She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening
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the casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley's attention,
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and every syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard
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by the others, as if it had passed within the same apartment.
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"How d' ye do?--how d'ye do?--Very well, I thank you. So obliged
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to you for the carriage last night. We were just in time;
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my mother just ready for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will
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find some friends here."
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So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard
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in his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,
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"How is your niece, Miss Bates?--I want to inquire after you all,
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but particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?--I hope she
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caught no cold last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss
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Fairfax is."
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And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he
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would hear her in any thing else. The listeners were amused;
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and Mrs. Weston gave Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma
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still shook her head in steady scepticism.
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"So obliged to you!--so very much obliged to you for the carriage,"
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resumed Miss Bates.
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He cut her short with,
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"I am going to Kingston. Can I do anything for you?"
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"Oh! dear, Kingston--are you?--Mrs. Cole was saying the other day
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she wanted something from Kingston."
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"Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for you?"
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"No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?--
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Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the
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new pianoforte. Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in."
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"Well," said he, in a deliberating manner, "for five minutes, perhaps."
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"And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!--Quite delightful;
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so many friends!"
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"No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes.
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I must get on to Kingston as fast as I can."
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"Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you."
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"No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day,
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and hear the pianoforte."
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"Well, I am so sorry!--Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party
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last night; how extremely pleasant.--Did you ever see such dancing?--
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Was not it delightful?--Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill;
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I never saw any thing equal to it."
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"Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose
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Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing
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that passes. And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss
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Fairfax should not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances
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very well; and Mrs. Weston is the very best country-dance player,
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without exception, in England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude,
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they will say something pretty loud about you and me in return;
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but I cannot stay to hear it."
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"Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence--
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so shocked!--Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!"
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"What is the matter now?"
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"To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had
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a great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked!
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Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here.
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You should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off.
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He never can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now,
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and it would have been a pity not to have mentioned. . . . Well,
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(returning to the room,) I have not been able to succeed.
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Mr. Knightley cannot stop. He is going to Kingston. He asked me
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if he could do any thing. . . ."
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"Yes," said Jane, "we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing."
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"Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door
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was open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud.
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You must have heard every thing to be sure. `Can I do any thing
|
|
for you at Kingston?' said he; so I just mentioned. . . . Oh!
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|
Miss Woodhouse, must you be going?--You seem but just come--so very
|
|
obliging of you."
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Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already
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|
lasted long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was
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|
perceived to be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking
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leave also, could allow themselves only to walk with the two young
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ladies to Hartfield gates, before they set off for Randalls.
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CHAPTER XI
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It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have
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been known of young people passing many, many months successively,
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without being at any ball of any description, and no material injury
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|
accrue either to body or mind;--but when a beginning is made--
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|
when the felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly,
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|
felt--it must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.
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Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again;
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|
and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded
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|
to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young
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|
people in schemes on the subject. Frank's was the first idea;
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|
and his the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best
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|
judge of the difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation
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|
and appearance. But still she had inclination enough for shewing
|
|
people again how delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss
|
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Woodhouse danced--for doing that in which she need not blush to compare
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|
herself with Jane Fairfax--and even for simple dancing itself,
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|
without any of the wicked aids of vanity--to assist him first
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|
in pacing out the room they were in to see what it could be made
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|
to hold--and then in taking the dimensions of the other parlour,
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|
in the hope of discovering, in spite of all that Mr. Weston could
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|
say of their exactly equal size, that it was a little the largest.
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His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole's
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|
should be finished there--that the same party should be collected,
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|
and the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence.
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Mr. Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment,
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|
and Mrs. Weston most willingly undertook to play as long as they
|
|
could wish to dance; and the interesting employment had followed,
|
|
of reckoning up exactly who there would be, and portioning out the
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|
indispensable division of space to every couple.
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|
"You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two
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|
Miss Coxes five," had been repeated many times over. "And there
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|
will be the two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself,
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|
besides Mr. Knightley. Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure.
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|
You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss
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|
Coxes five; and for five couple there will be plenty of room."
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But soon it came to be on one side,
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"But will there be good room for five couple?--I really do not think
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there will."
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On another,
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"And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth
|
|
while to stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks
|
|
seriously about it. It will not do to invite five couple.
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|
It can be allowable only as the thought of the moment."
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|
|
|
Somebody said that Miss Gilbert was expected at her brother's,
|
|
and must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed
|
|
Mrs. Gilbert would have danced the other evening, if she had
|
|
been asked. A word was put in for a second young Cox; and at last,
|
|
Mr. Weston naming one family of cousins who must be included,
|
|
and another of very old acquaintance who could not be left out,
|
|
it became a certainty that the five couple would be at least ten,
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|
and a very interesting speculation in what possible manner they
|
|
could be disposed of.
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|
|
|
The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other.
|
|
"Might not they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?"
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|
It seemed the best scheme; and yet it was not so good but that
|
|
many of them wanted a better. Emma said it would be awkward;
|
|
Mrs. Weston was in distress about the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
opposed it earnestly, on the score of health. It made him so
|
|
very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be persevered in.
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|
|
|
"Oh! no," said he; "it would be the extreme of imprudence.
|
|
I could not bear it for Emma!--Emma is not strong. She would
|
|
catch a dreadful cold. So would poor little Harriet.
|
|
So you would all. Mrs. Weston, you would be quite laid up;
|
|
do not let them talk of such a wild thing. Pray do not let them
|
|
talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is very thoughtless.
|
|
Do not tell his father, but that young man is not quite the thing.
|
|
He has been opening the doors very often this evening, and keeping
|
|
them open very inconsiderately. He does not think of the draught.
|
|
I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is not quite
|
|
the thing!"
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|
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|
Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance
|
|
of it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door
|
|
was now closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme
|
|
of dancing only in the room they were in resorted to again;
|
|
and with such good-will on Frank Churchill's part, that the space
|
|
which a quarter of an hour before had been deemed barely sufficient
|
|
for five couple, was now endeavoured to be made out quite enough
|
|
for ten.
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|
|
|
"We were too magnificent," said he. "We allowed unnecessary room.
|
|
Ten couple may stand here very well."
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|
|
|
Emma demurred. "It would be a crowd--a sad crowd; and what could
|
|
be worse than dancing without space to turn in?"
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|
|
|
"Very true," he gravely replied; "it was very bad." But still he
|
|
went on measuring, and still he ended with,
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|
"I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple."
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|
|
|
"No, no," said she, "you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful
|
|
to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure
|
|
than to be dancing in a crowd--and a crowd in a little room!"
|
|
|
|
"There is no denying it," he replied. "I agree with you exactly.
|
|
A crowd in a little room--Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving
|
|
pictures in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!--Still, however,
|
|
having proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up.
|
|
It would be a disappointment to my father--and altogether--I do
|
|
not know that--I am rather of opinion that ten couple might stand
|
|
here very well."
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|
|
|
Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little
|
|
self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure
|
|
of dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave
|
|
the rest. Had she intended ever to marry him, it might have been
|
|
worth while to pause and consider, and try to understand the value
|
|
of his preference, and the character of his temper; but for
|
|
all the purposes of their acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.
|
|
|
|
Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered
|
|
the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance
|
|
of the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.
|
|
|
|
"Well, Miss Woodhouse," he almost immediately began, "your inclination
|
|
for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the
|
|
terrors of my father's little rooms. I bring a new proposal
|
|
on the subject:--a thought of my father's, which waits only your
|
|
approbation to be acted upon. May I hope for the honour of your
|
|
hand for the two first dances of this little projected ball,
|
|
to be given, not at Randalls, but at the Crown Inn?"
|
|
|
|
"The Crown!"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you cannot,
|
|
my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there.
|
|
Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less grateful
|
|
welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston sees
|
|
no objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we
|
|
all feel. Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of
|
|
the Randalls rooms, would have been insufferable!--Dreadful!--I felt
|
|
how right you were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing
|
|
any thing to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?--You consent--
|
|
I hope you consent?"
|
|
|
|
"It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and
|
|
Mrs. Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can
|
|
answer for myself, shall be most happy--It seems the only improvement
|
|
that could be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?"
|
|
|
|
She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully
|
|
comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations
|
|
were necessary to make it acceptable.
|
|
|
|
"No; he thought it very far from an improvement--a very bad plan--
|
|
much worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp
|
|
and dangerous; never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited.
|
|
If they must dance, they had better dance at Randalls. He had never
|
|
been in the room at the Crown in his life--did not know the people
|
|
who kept it by sight.--Oh! no--a very bad plan. They would catch
|
|
worse colds at the Crown than anywhere."
|
|
|
|
"I was going to observe, sir," said Frank Churchill,
|
|
"that one of the great recommendations of this change would
|
|
be the very little danger of any body's catching cold--
|
|
so much less danger at the Crown than at Randalls! Mr. Perry
|
|
might have reason to regret the alteration, but nobody else could."
|
|
|
|
"Sir," said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, "you are very much
|
|
mistaken if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character.
|
|
Mr. Perry is extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I
|
|
do not understand how the room at the Crown can be safer for you
|
|
than your father's house."
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|
|
|
"From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have
|
|
no occasion to open the windows at all--not once the whole evening;
|
|
and it is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold
|
|
air upon heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief."
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|
|
|
"Open the windows!--but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think
|
|
of opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent!
|
|
I never heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!--I am sure,
|
|
neither your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was)
|
|
would suffer it."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! sir--but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind
|
|
a window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected.
|
|
I have often known it done myself."
|
|
|
|
"Have you indeed, sir?--Bless me! I never could have supposed it.
|
|
But I live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear.
|
|
However, this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come
|
|
to talk it over--but these sort of things require a good deal
|
|
of consideration. One cannot resolve upon them in a hurry.
|
|
If Mr. and Mrs. Weston will be so obliging as to call here one morning,
|
|
we may talk it over, and see what can be done."
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|
|
|
"But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited--"
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|
|
|
"Oh!" interrupted Emma, "there will be plenty of time for talking
|
|
every thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived
|
|
to be at the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses.
|
|
They will be so near their own stable."
|
|
|
|
"So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James
|
|
ever complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can.
|
|
If I could be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired--but is
|
|
Mrs. Stokes to be trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her,
|
|
even by sight."
|
|
|
|
"I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will
|
|
be under Mrs. Weston's care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct
|
|
the whole."
|
|
|
|
"There, papa!--Now you must be satisfied--Our own dear Mrs. Weston,
|
|
who is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said,
|
|
so many years ago, when I had the measles? `If Miss Taylor undertakes
|
|
to wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.' How often
|
|
have I heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!"
|
|
|
|
"Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it.
|
|
Poor little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is,
|
|
you would have been very bad, but for Perry's great attention.
|
|
He came four times a day for a week. He said, from the first,
|
|
it was a very good sort--which was our great comfort; but the measles
|
|
are a dreadful complaint. I hope whenever poor Isabella's little ones
|
|
have the measles, she will send for Perry."
|
|
|
|
"My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment,"
|
|
said Frank Churchill, "examining the capabilities of the house.
|
|
I left them there and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion,
|
|
and hoping you might be persuaded to join them and give your advice
|
|
on the spot. I was desired to say so from both. It would be the
|
|
greatest pleasure to them, if you could allow me to attend you there.
|
|
They can do nothing satisfactorily without you."
|
|
|
|
Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father,
|
|
engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young
|
|
people set off together without delay for the Crown. There were
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation,
|
|
very busy and very happy in their different way; she, in some
|
|
little distress; and he, finding every thing perfect.
|
|
|
|
"Emma," said she, "this paper is worse than I expected.
|
|
Look! in places you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot
|
|
is more yellow and forlorn than any thing I could have imagined."
|
|
|
|
"My dear, you are too particular," said her husband. "What does
|
|
all that signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight.
|
|
It will be as clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any
|
|
thing of it on our club-nights."
|
|
|
|
The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, "Men never
|
|
know when things are dirty or not;" and the gentlemen perhaps
|
|
thought each to himself, "Women will have their little nonsenses
|
|
and needless cares."
|
|
|
|
One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain.
|
|
It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom's being built,
|
|
suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining,
|
|
was the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would
|
|
be wanted as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted
|
|
unnecessary by their four selves, still was it not too small for
|
|
any comfortable supper? Another room of much better size might be
|
|
secured for the purpose; but it was at the other end of the house,
|
|
and a long awkward passage must be gone through to get at it.
|
|
This made a difficulty. Mrs. Weston was afraid of draughts
|
|
for the young people in that passage; and neither Emma nor the
|
|
gentlemen could tolerate the prospect of being miserably crowded
|
|
at supper.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches,
|
|
&c., set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a
|
|
wretched suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper,
|
|
was pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women;
|
|
and Mrs. Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another
|
|
line of expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,
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"I do not think it is so very small. We shall not be many,
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you know."
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And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps
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through the passage, was calling out,
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"You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear.
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It is a mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from
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the stairs."
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"I wish," said Mrs. Weston, "one could know which arrangement our
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guests in general would like best. To do what would be most generally
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pleasing must be our object--if one could but tell what that would be."
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"Yes, very true," cried Frank, "very true. You want your neighbours'
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opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the
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chief of them--the Coles, for instance. They are not far off.
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Shall I call upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.--
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And I do not know whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand
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the inclinations of the rest of the people as any body. I think
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we do want a larger council. Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates
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to join us?"
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"Well--if you please," said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, "if you
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think she will be of any use."
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"You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates," said Emma.
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"She will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing.
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She will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in
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consulting Miss Bates."
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"But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond
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of hearing Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family,
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you know."
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Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed,
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gave it his decided approbation.
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"Aye, do, Frank.--Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter
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at once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know
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a properer person for shewing us how to do away difficulties.
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Fetch Miss Bates. We are growing a little too nice. She is
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a standing lesson of how to be happy. But fetch them both.
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Invite them both."
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"Both sir! Can the old lady?" . . .
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"The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you
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a great blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece."
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"Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect.
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Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both."
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And away he ran.
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Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving aunt,
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and her elegant niece,--Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered
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woman and a good wife, had examined the passage again,
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and found the evils of it much less than she had supposed before--
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indeed very trifling; and here ended the difficulties of decision.
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All the rest, in speculation at least, was perfectly smooth.
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All the minor arrangements of table and chair, lights and music,
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tea and supper, made themselves; or were left as mere trifles
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to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and Mrs. Stokes.--
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Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had already written
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to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his fortnight,
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which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance it was
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to be.
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Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must.
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As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much
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safer character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once
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general and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please;
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and for another half-hour they were all walking to and fro,
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between the different rooms, some suggesting, some attending,
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and all in happy enjoyment of the future. The party did not break
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up without Emma's being positively secured for the two first dances
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by the hero of the evening, nor without her overhearing Mr. Weston
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whisper to his wife, "He has asked her, my dear. That's right.
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I knew he would!"
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CHAPTER XII
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One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball
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completely satisfactory to Emma--its being fixed for a day within
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the granted term of Frank Churchill's stay in Surry; for, in spite
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of Mr. Weston's confidence, she could not think it so very impossible
|
|
that the Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain
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a day beyond his fortnight. But this was not judged feasible.
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The preparations must take their time, nothing could be properly
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|
ready till the third week were entered on, and for a few days they
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must be planning, proceeding and hoping in uncertainty--at the risk--
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in her opinion, the great risk, of its being all in vain.
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Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word.
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|
His wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was
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|
not opposed. All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one
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|
solicitude generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain
|
|
of her ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley's
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|
provoking indifference about it. Either because he did not
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|
dance himself, or because the plan had been formed without his
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|
being consulted, he seemed resolved that it should not interest him,
|
|
determined against its exciting any present curiosity, or affording
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him any future amusement. To her voluntary communications Emma
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|
could get no more approving reply, than,
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"Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this
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trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing
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|
to say against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.--
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|
Oh! yes, I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep
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|
as much awake as I can; but I would rather be at home, looking over
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William Larkins's week's account; much rather, I confess.--
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|
Pleasure in seeing dancing!--not I, indeed--I never look at it--
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|
I do not know who does.--Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue,
|
|
must be its own reward. Those who are standing by are usually
|
|
thinking of something very different."
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This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry.
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|
It was not in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was
|
|
so indifferent, or so indignant; he was not guided by her feelings
|
|
in reprobating the ball, for she enjoyed the thought of it
|
|
to an extraordinary degree. It made her animated--open hearted--
|
|
she voluntarily said;--
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|
|
|
"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball.
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|
What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own,
|
|
with very great pleasure."
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|
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|
It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have
|
|
preferred the society of William Larkins. No!--she was more and more
|
|
convinced that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise.
|
|
There was a great deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment
|
|
on his side--but no love.
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|
Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley.
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|
Two days of joyful security were immediately followed by the
|
|
over-throw of every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill
|
|
to urge his nephew's instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell--
|
|
far too unwell to do without him; she had been in a very suffering
|
|
state (so said her husband) when writing to her nephew two days before,
|
|
though from her usual unwillingness to give pain, and constant
|
|
habit of never thinking of herself, she had not mentioned it;
|
|
but now she was too ill to trifle, and must entreat him to set off
|
|
for Enscombe without delay.
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|
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|
The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note
|
|
from Mrs. Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable.
|
|
He must be gone within a few hours, though without feeling any real
|
|
alarm for his aunt, to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses;
|
|
they never occurred but for her own convenience.
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|
Mrs. Weston added, "that he could only allow himself time to
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|
hurry to Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few
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|
friends there whom he could suppose to feel any interest in him;
|
|
and that he might be expected at Hartfield very soon."
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|
This wretched note was the finale of Emma's breakfast. When once
|
|
it had been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament
|
|
and exclaim. The loss of the ball--the loss of the young man--
|
|
and all that the young man might be feeling!--It was too wretched!--
|
|
Such a delightful evening as it would have been!--Every body so happy!
|
|
and she and her partner the happiest!--"I said it would be so,"
|
|
was the only consolation.
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|
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|
Her father's feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally
|
|
of Mrs. Churchill's illness, and wanted to know how she was treated;
|
|
and as for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed;
|
|
but they would all be safer at home.
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|
|
|
Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared;
|
|
but if this reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful
|
|
look and total want of spirits when he did come might redeem him.
|
|
He felt the going away almost too much to speak of it. His dejection
|
|
was most evident. He sat really lost in thought for the first
|
|
few minutes; and when rousing himself, it was only to say,
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|
|
|
"Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst."
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|
|
|
"But you will come again," said Emma. "This will not be your only
|
|
visit to Randalls."
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|
|
|
"Ah!--(shaking his head)--the uncertainty of when I may be able
|
|
to return!--I shall try for it with a zeal!--It will be the object
|
|
of all my thoughts and cares!--and if my uncle and aunt go to town
|
|
this spring--but I am afraid--they did not stir last spring--
|
|
I am afraid it is a custom gone for ever."
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|
|
|
"Our poor ball must be quite given up."
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|
|
|
"Ah! that ball!--why did we wait for any thing?--why not seize the
|
|
pleasure at once?--How often is happiness destroyed by preparation,
|
|
foolish preparation!--You told us it would be so.--Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
why are you always so right?"
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|
|
|
"Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would
|
|
much rather have been merry than wise."
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|
|
|
"If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father
|
|
depends on it. Do not forget your engagement."
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|
|
|
Emma looked graciously.
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|
|
|
"Such a fortnight as it has been!" he continued; "every day more
|
|
precious and more delightful than the day before!--every day making
|
|
me less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain
|
|
at Highbury!"
|
|
|
|
"As you do us such ample justice now," said Emma, laughing, "I will
|
|
venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first?
|
|
Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do.
|
|
I am sure you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been
|
|
so long in coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury."
|
|
|
|
He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment,
|
|
Emma was convinced that it had been so.
|
|
|
|
"And you must be off this very morning?"
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|
|
|
"Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together,
|
|
and I must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment
|
|
will bring him."
|
|
|
|
"Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and
|
|
Miss Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates's powerful, argumentative mind
|
|
might have strengthened yours."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I have called there; passing the door, I thought it better.
|
|
It was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was
|
|
detained by Miss Bates's being absent. She was out; and I felt it
|
|
impossible not to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may,
|
|
that one must laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight.
|
|
It was better to pay my visit, then"--
|
|
|
|
He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.
|
|
|
|
"In short," said he, "perhaps, Miss Woodhouse--I think you can
|
|
hardly be quite without suspicion"--
|
|
|
|
He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly
|
|
knew what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something
|
|
absolutely serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself
|
|
to speak, therefore, in the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,
|
|
|
|
"You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit, then"--
|
|
|
|
He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting
|
|
on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner.
|
|
She heard him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had
|
|
cause to sigh. He could not believe her to be encouraging him.
|
|
A few awkward moments passed, and he sat down again; and in a more
|
|
determined manner said,
|
|
|
|
"It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be
|
|
given to Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm"--
|
|
|
|
He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.--
|
|
He was more in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say
|
|
how it might have ended, if his father had not made his appearance?
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made
|
|
him composed.
|
|
|
|
A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial.
|
|
Mr. Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as
|
|
incapable of procrastinating any evil that was inevitable,
|
|
as of foreseeing any that was doubtful, said, "It was time to go;"
|
|
and the young man, though he might and did sigh, could not but agree,
|
|
to take leave.
|
|
|
|
"I shall hear about you all," said he; that is my chief consolation.
|
|
I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have
|
|
engaged Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as
|
|
to promise it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one
|
|
is really interested in the absent!--she will tell me every thing.
|
|
In her letters I shall be at dear Highbury again."
|
|
|
|
A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest "Good-bye,"
|
|
closed the speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill.
|
|
Short had been the notice--short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma
|
|
felt so sorry to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little
|
|
society from his absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry,
|
|
and feeling it too much.
|
|
|
|
It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day
|
|
since his arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given
|
|
great spirit to the last two weeks--indescribable spirit; the idea,
|
|
the expectation of seeing him which every morning had brought,
|
|
the assurance of his attentions, his liveliness, his manners!
|
|
It had been a very happy fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking
|
|
from it into the common course of Hartfield days. To complete every
|
|
other recommendation, he had almost told her that he loved her.
|
|
What strength, or what constancy of affection he might be subject to,
|
|
was another point; but at present she could not doubt his having
|
|
a decidedly warm admiration, a conscious preference of herself;
|
|
and this persuasion, joined to all the rest, made her think that
|
|
she must be a little in love with him, in spite of every previous
|
|
determination against it.
|
|
|
|
"I certainly must," said she. "This sensation of listlessness,
|
|
weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ myself,
|
|
this feeling of every thing's being dull and insipid about the house!--
|
|
I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the world if I
|
|
were not--for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is always
|
|
good to others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball,
|
|
if not for Frank Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy.
|
|
He may spend the evening with his dear William Larkins now if he likes."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could
|
|
not say that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look
|
|
would have contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily,
|
|
that he was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with
|
|
considerable kindness added,
|
|
|
|
"You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really
|
|
out of luck; you are very much out of luck!"
|
|
|
|
It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her
|
|
honest regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet,
|
|
her composure was odious. She had been particularly unwell, however,
|
|
suffering from headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare,
|
|
that had the ball taken place, she did not think Jane could have
|
|
attended it; and it was charity to impute some of her unbecoming
|
|
indifference to the languor of ill-health.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XIII
|
|
|
|
Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas
|
|
only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good deal;
|
|
and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing Frank
|
|
Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever
|
|
in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him,
|
|
and quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was,
|
|
how were his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance
|
|
of his coming to Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand,
|
|
she could not admit herself to be unhappy, nor, after the
|
|
first morning, to be less disposed for employment than usual;
|
|
she was still busy and cheerful; and, pleasing as he was, she could
|
|
yet imagine him to have faults; and farther, though thinking of him
|
|
so much, and, as she sat drawing or working, forming a thousand
|
|
amusing schemes for the progress and close of their attachment,
|
|
fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing elegant letters;
|
|
the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his side was that she
|
|
refused him. Their affection was always to subside into friendship.
|
|
Every thing tender and charming was to mark their parting;
|
|
but still they were to part. When she became sensible of this,
|
|
it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite
|
|
of her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father,
|
|
never to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more
|
|
of a struggle than she could foresee in her own feelings.
|
|
|
|
"I do not find myself making any use of the word sacrifice," said she.--
|
|
"In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives,
|
|
is there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he
|
|
is not really necessary to my happiness. So much the better.
|
|
I certainly will not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am
|
|
quite enough in love. I should be sorry to be more."
|
|
|
|
Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.
|
|
|
|
"He is undoubtedly very much in love--every thing denotes it--very much
|
|
in love indeed!--and when he comes again, if his affection continue,
|
|
I must be on my guard not to encourage it.--It would be most
|
|
inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up.
|
|
Not that I imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto.
|
|
No, if he had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would
|
|
not have been so wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged,
|
|
his looks and language at parting would have been different.--
|
|
Still, however, I must be on my guard. This is in the supposition
|
|
of his attachment continuing what it now is; but I do not know that I
|
|
expect it will; I do not look upon him to be quite the sort of man--
|
|
I do not altogether build upon his steadiness or constancy.--
|
|
His feelings are warm, but I can imagine them rather changeable.--
|
|
Every consideration of the subject, in short, makes me thankful
|
|
that my happiness is not more deeply involved.--I shall do very well
|
|
again after a little while--and then, it will be a good thing over;
|
|
for they say every body is in love once in their lives, and I shall
|
|
have been let off easily."
|
|
|
|
When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it;
|
|
and she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made
|
|
her at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she
|
|
had undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter,
|
|
giving the particulars of his journey and of his feelings,
|
|
expressing all the affection, gratitude, and respect which was
|
|
natural and honourable, and describing every thing exterior and local
|
|
that could be supposed attractive, with spirit and precision.
|
|
No suspicious flourishes now of apology or concern; it was the
|
|
language of real feeling towards Mrs. Weston; and the transition
|
|
from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast between the places in some
|
|
of the first blessings of social life was just enough touched on
|
|
to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much more might have been
|
|
said but for the restraints of propriety.--The charm of her own
|
|
name was not wanting. Miss Woodhouse appeared more than once,
|
|
and never without a something of pleasing connexion, either a
|
|
compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had said;
|
|
and in the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it
|
|
was by any such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern
|
|
the effect of her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment
|
|
perhaps of all conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant
|
|
corner were these words--"I had not a spare moment on Tuesday,
|
|
as you know, for Miss Woodhouse's beautiful little friend. Pray make
|
|
my excuses and adieus to her." This, Emma could not doubt, was all
|
|
for herself. Harriet was remembered only from being her friend.
|
|
His information and prospects as to Enscombe were neither worse nor
|
|
better than had been anticipated; Mrs. Churchill was recovering,
|
|
and he dared not yet, even in his own imagination, fix a time for
|
|
coming to Randalls again.
|
|
|
|
Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the
|
|
material part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up
|
|
and returned to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth,
|
|
that she could still do without the writer, and that he must learn
|
|
to do without her. Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution
|
|
of refusal only grew more interesting by the addition of a scheme for
|
|
his subsequent consolation and happiness. His recollection of Harriet,
|
|
and the words which clothed it, the "beautiful little friend,"
|
|
suggested to her the idea of Harriet's succeeding her in his affections.
|
|
Was it impossible?--No.--Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his
|
|
inferior in understanding; but he had been very much struck with
|
|
the loveliness of her face and the warm simplicity of her manner;
|
|
and all the probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in
|
|
her favour.--For Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.
|
|
|
|
"I must not dwell upon it," said she.--"I must not think of it.
|
|
I know the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger
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things have happened; and when we cease to care for each other
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as we do now, it will be the means of confirming us in that sort
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of true disinterested friendship which I can already look forward
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to with pleasure."
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It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet's behalf,
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though it might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil
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in that quarter was at hand. As Frank Churchill's arrival had
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succeeded Mr. Elton's engagement in the conversation of Highbury,
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as the latest interest had entirely borne down the first, so now
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upon Frank Churchill's disappearance, Mr. Elton's concerns were
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assuming the most irresistible form.--His wedding-day was named.
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He would soon be among them again; Mr. Elton and his bride.
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There was hardly time to talk over the first letter from Enscombe
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before "Mr. Elton and his bride" was in every body's mouth,
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and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma grew sick at the sound.
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She had had three weeks of happy exemption from Mr. Elton;
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and Harriet's mind, she had been willing to hope, had been lately
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gaining strength. With Mr. Weston's ball in view at least,
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there had been a great deal of insensibility to other things;
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but it was now too evident that she had not attained such a state
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of composure as could stand against the actual approach--new carriage,
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bell-ringing, and all.
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Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the
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reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma
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could give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her,
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that Harriet had a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience;
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but it was heavy work to be for ever convincing without producing
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any effect, for ever agreed to, without being able to make their opinions
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the same. Harriet listened submissively, and said "it was very true--
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it was just as Miss Woodhouse described--it was not worth while to
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think about them--and she would not think about them any longer"
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but no change of subject could avail, and the next half-hour
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saw her as anxious and restless about the Eltons as before.
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At last Emma attacked her on another ground.
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"Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about
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Mr. Elton's marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can
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make me. You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I
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fell into. It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it,
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I assure you.--Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you--
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and it will be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine
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me in danger of forgetting it."
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Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words
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of eager exclamation. Emma continued,
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"I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less,
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talk less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather,
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I would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important
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than my comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration
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of what is your duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour
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to avoid the suspicions of others, to save your health and credit,
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and restore your tranquillity. These are the motives which I
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have been pressing on you. They are very important--and sorry
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I am that you cannot feel them sufficiently to act upon them.
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My being saved from pain is a very secondary consideration. I want
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you to save yourself from greater pain. Perhaps I may sometimes
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have felt that Harriet would not forget what was due--or rather
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what would be kind by me."
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This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest.
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The idea of wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse,
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whom she really loved extremely, made her wretched for a while,
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and when the violence of grief was comforted away, still remained
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powerful enough to prompt to what was right and support her in it
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very tolerably.
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"You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life--
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Want gratitude to you!--Nobody is equal to you!--I care for nobody
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as I do for you!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!"
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Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look
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and manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet
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so well, nor valued her affection so highly before.
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"There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart," said she
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afterwards to herself. "There is nothing to be compared to it.
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Warmth and tenderness of heart, with an affectionate, open manner,
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will beat all the clearness of head in the world, for attraction,
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I am sure it will. It is tenderness of heart which makes my dear
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father so generally beloved--which gives Isabella all her popularity.--
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I have it not--but I know how to prize and respect it.--Harriet is
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my superior in all the charm and all the felicity it gives.
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Dear Harriet!--I would not change you for the clearest-headed,
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longest-sighted, best-judging female breathing. Oh! the coldness
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of a Jane Fairfax!--Harriet is worth a hundred such--And for a wife--
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a sensible man's wife--it is invaluable. I mention no names;
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but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!"
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CHAPTER XIV
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Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might
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be interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew,
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and it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid,
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to settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty,
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or not pretty at all.
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Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety,
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to make her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects;
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and she made a point of Harriet's going with her, that the worst of
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the business might be gone through as soon as possible.
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She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room
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to which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago,
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to lace up her boot, without recollecting. A thousand vexatious
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thoughts would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders;
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and it was not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be
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recollecting too; but she behaved very well, and was only rather
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pale and silent. The visit was of course short; and there was so
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much embarrassment and occupation of mind to shorten it, that Emma
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would not allow herself entirely to form an opinion of the lady,
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and on no account to give one, beyond the nothing-meaning terms
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of being "elegantly dressed, and very pleasing."
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She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find fault,
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but she suspected that there was no elegance;--ease, but not elegance.--
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She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a bride,
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there was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face
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not unpretty; but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner,
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were elegant. Emma thought at least it would turn out so.
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As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear--but no, she would
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not permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners.
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It was an awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits,
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and a man had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it.
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The woman was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes,
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and the privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own
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good sense to depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly
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unlucky poor Mr. Elton was in being in the same room at once with
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the woman he had just married, the woman he had wanted to marry,
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and the woman whom he had been expected to marry, she must allow him
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to have the right to look as little wise, and to be as much affectedly,
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and as little really easy as could be.
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"Well, Miss Woodhouse," said Harriet, when they had quitted
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the house, and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin;
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"Well, Miss Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?--
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Is not she very charming?"
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There was a little hesitation in Emma's answer.
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"Oh! yes--very--a very pleasing young woman."
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"I think her beautiful, quite beautiful."
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"Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown."
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"I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love."
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"Oh! no--there is nothing to surprize one at all.--A pretty fortune;
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and she came in his way."
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"I dare say," returned Harriet, sighing again, "I dare say she
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was very much attached to him."
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"Perhaps she might; but it is not every man's fate to marry the
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woman who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home,
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and thought this the best offer she was likely to have."
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"Yes," said Harriet earnestly, "and well she might, nobody could ever
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have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now,
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Miss Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again.
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He is just as superior as ever;--but being married, you know,
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it is quite a different thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need
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not be afraid; I can sit and admire him now without any great misery.
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To know that he has not thrown himself away, is such a comfort!--
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She does seem a charming young woman, just what he deserves.
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Happy creature! He called her `Augusta.' How delightful!"
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When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then
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see more and judge better. From Harriet's happening not to be
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at Hartfield, and her father's being present to engage Mr. Elton,
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she had a quarter of an hour of the lady's conversation to herself,
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|
and could composedly attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite
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|
convinced her that Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well
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satisfied with herself, and thinking much of her own importance;
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that she meant to shine and be very superior, but with manners which
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|
had been formed in a bad school, pert and familiar; that all her
|
|
notions were drawn from one set of people, and one style of living;
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|
that if not foolish she was ignorant, and that her society would
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certainly do Mr. Elton no good.
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Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined herself,
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she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss Hawkins,
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it might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been the best
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of her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride
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of the alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride
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|
of him.
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The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, "My brother
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Mr. Suckling's seat;"--a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove.
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The grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the
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house was modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably
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|
impressed by the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she
|
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could see or imagine. "Very like Maple Grove indeed!--She was quite
|
|
struck by the likeness!--That room was the very shape and size
|
|
of the morning-room at Maple Grove; her sister's favourite room."--
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Mr. Elton was appealed to.--"Was not it astonishingly like?--
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She could really almost fancy herself at Maple Grove."
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"And the staircase--You know, as I came in, I observed how very like
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the staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house.
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I really could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse,
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it is very delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so
|
|
extremely partial to as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy
|
|
months there! (with a little sigh of sentiment). A charming place,
|
|
undoubtedly. Every body who sees it is struck by its beauty;
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|
but to me, it has been quite a home. Whenever you are transplanted,
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like me, Miss Woodhouse, you will understand how very delightful it
|
|
is to meet with any thing at all like what one has left behind.
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I always say this is quite one of the evils of matrimony."
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Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient
|
|
for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.
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"So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house--
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|
the grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly
|
|
like. The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here,
|
|
and stand very much in the same way--just across the lawn;
|
|
and I had a glimpse of a fine large tree, with a bench round it,
|
|
which put me so exactly in mind! My brother and sister will be
|
|
enchanted with this place. People who have extensive grounds
|
|
themselves are always pleased with any thing in the same style."
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Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea
|
|
that people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little
|
|
for the extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth
|
|
while to attack an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said
|
|
in reply,
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"When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think
|
|
you have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties."
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"Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England,
|
|
you know. Surry is the garden of England."
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"Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction.
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|
Many counties, I believe, are called the garden of England,
|
|
as well as Surry."
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"No, I fancy not," replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile."
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|
I never heard any county but Surry called so."
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Emma was silenced.
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"My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring,
|
|
or summer at farthest," continued Mrs. Elton; "and that will be
|
|
our time for exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore
|
|
a great deal, I dare say. They will have their barouche-landau,
|
|
of course, which holds four perfectly; and therefore, without saying
|
|
any thing of our carriage, we should be able to explore the different
|
|
beauties extremely well. They would hardly come in their chaise,
|
|
I think, at that season of the year. Indeed, when the time draws on,
|
|
I shall decidedly recommend their bringing the barouche-landau;
|
|
it will be so very much preferable. When people come into a beautiful
|
|
country of this sort, you know, Miss Woodhouse, one naturally wishes
|
|
them to see as much as possible; and Mr. Suckling is extremely fond
|
|
of exploring. We explored to King's-Weston twice last summer,
|
|
in that way, most delightfully, just after their first having the
|
|
barouche-landau. You have many parties of that kind here, I suppose,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, every summer?"
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|
|
"No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very
|
|
striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of;
|
|
and we are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed
|
|
to stay at home than engage in schemes of pleasure."
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|
|
|
"Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort.
|
|
Nobody can be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite
|
|
a proverb for it at Maple Grove. Many a time has Selina said,
|
|
when she has been going to Bristol, `I really cannot get this girl
|
|
to move from the house. I absolutely must go in by myself, though I
|
|
hate being stuck up in the barouche-landau without a companion;
|
|
but Augusta, I believe, with her own good-will, would never stir
|
|
beyond the park paling.' Many a time has she said so; and yet I
|
|
am no advocate for entire seclusion. I think, on the contrary,
|
|
when people shut themselves up entirely from society, it is a very
|
|
bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to mix in the world in
|
|
a proper degree, without living in it either too much or too little.
|
|
I perfectly understand your situation, however, Miss Woodhouse--
|
|
(looking towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father's state of health must
|
|
be a great drawback. Why does not he try Bath?--Indeed he should.
|
|
Let me recommend Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt of its doing
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse good."
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|
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"My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving
|
|
any benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown
|
|
to you, does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be
|
|
useful now."
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|
|
"Ah! that's a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
where the waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief
|
|
they give. In my Bath life, I have seen such instances of it!
|
|
And it is so cheerful a place, that it could not fail of being of
|
|
use to Mr. Woodhouse's spirits, which, I understand, are sometimes
|
|
much depressed. And as to its recommendations to you, I fancy I
|
|
need not take much pains to dwell on them. The advantages of Bath
|
|
to the young are pretty generally understood. It would be a charming
|
|
introduction for you, who have lived so secluded a life; and I could
|
|
immediately secure you some of the best society in the place.
|
|
A line from me would bring you a little host of acquaintance; and my
|
|
particular friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I have always resided
|
|
with when in Bath, would be most happy to shew you any attentions,
|
|
and would be the very person for you to go into public with."
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|
|
It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite.
|
|
The idea of her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called
|
|
an introduction--of her going into public under the auspices
|
|
of a friend of Mrs. Elton's--probably some vulgar, dashing widow,
|
|
who, with the help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!--
|
|
The dignity of Miss Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!
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|
|
She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could
|
|
have given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; "but their going
|
|
to Bath was quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly
|
|
convinced that the place might suit her better than her father."
|
|
And then, to prevent farther outrage and indignation, changed the
|
|
subject directly.
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|
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"I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these occasions,
|
|
a lady's character generally precedes her; and Highbury has long
|
|
known that you are a superior performer."
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"Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea.
|
|
A superior performer!--very far from it, I assure you.
|
|
Consider from how partial a quarter your information came.
|
|
I am doatingly fond of music--passionately fond;--and my friends
|
|
say I am not entirely devoid of taste; but as to any thing else,
|
|
upon my honour my performance is mediocre to the last degree.
|
|
You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play delightfully. I assure you
|
|
it has been the greatest satisfaction, comfort, and delight to me,
|
|
to hear what a musical society I am got into. I absolutely cannot
|
|
do without music. It is a necessary of life to me; and having always
|
|
been used to a very musical society, both at Maple Grove and in Bath,
|
|
it would have been a most serious sacrifice. I honestly said as much
|
|
to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future home, and expressing
|
|
his fears lest the retirement of it should be disagreeable;
|
|
and the inferiority of the house too--knowing what I had been
|
|
accustomed to--of course he was not wholly without apprehension.
|
|
When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that the
|
|
world I could give up--parties, balls, plays--for I had no fear
|
|
of retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself,
|
|
the world was not necessary to me. I could do very well without it.
|
|
To those who had no resources it was a different thing; but my
|
|
resources made me quite independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms
|
|
than I had been used to, I really could not give it a thought.
|
|
I hoped I was perfectly equal to any sacrifice of that description.
|
|
Certainly I had been accustomed to every luxury at Maple Grove; but I
|
|
did assure him that two carriages were not necessary to my happiness,
|
|
nor were spacious apartments. `But,' said I, `to be quite honest,
|
|
I do not think I can live without something of a musical society.
|
|
I condition for nothing else; but without music, life would be a blank
|
|
to me.'"
|
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|
|
"We cannot suppose," said Emma, smiling, "that Mr. Elton would hesitate
|
|
to assure you of there being a very musical society in Highbury;
|
|
and I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than
|
|
may be pardoned, in consideration of the motive."
|
|
|
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"No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted
|
|
to find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet
|
|
little concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I
|
|
must establish a musical club, and have regular weekly meetings
|
|
at your house, or ours. Will not it be a good plan? If we
|
|
exert ourselves, I think we shall not be long in want of allies.
|
|
Something of that nature would be particularly desirable for me,
|
|
as an inducement to keep me in practice; for married women, you know--
|
|
there is a sad story against them, in general. They are but too apt
|
|
to give up music."
|
|
|
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"But you, who are so extremely fond of it--there can
|
|
be no danger, surely?"
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|
|
"I should hope not; but really when I look around among my acquaintance,
|
|
I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music--never touches
|
|
the instrument--though she played sweetly. And the same may be said
|
|
of Mrs. Jeffereys--Clara Partridge, that was--and of the two Milmans,
|
|
now Mrs. Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can enumerate.
|
|
Upon my word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used to be
|
|
quite angry with Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend
|
|
that a married woman has many things to call her attention.
|
|
I believe I was half an hour this morning shut up with my housekeeper."
|
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|
|
"But every thing of that kind," said Emma, "will soon
|
|
be in so regular a train--"
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Mrs. Elton, laughing, "we shall see."
|
|
|
|
Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music,
|
|
had nothing more to say; and, after a moment's pause, Mrs. Elton
|
|
chose another subject.
|
|
|
|
"We have been calling at Randalls," said she, "and found them
|
|
both at home; and very pleasant people they seem to be.
|
|
I like them extremely. Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature--
|
|
quite a first-rate favourite with me already, I assure you.
|
|
And she appears so truly good--there is something so motherly
|
|
and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon one directly.
|
|
She was your governess, I think?"
|
|
|
|
Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton
|
|
hardly waited for the affirmative before she went on.
|
|
|
|
"Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her
|
|
so very lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman."
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Weston's manners," said Emma, "were always particularly good.
|
|
Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest
|
|
model for any young woman."
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"And who do you think came in while we were there?"
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Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance--
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and how could she possibly guess?
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"Knightley!" continued Mrs. Elton; "Knightley himself!--Was not
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it lucky?--for, not being within when he called the other day,
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I had never seen him before; and of course, as so particular a
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friend of Mr. E.'s, I had a great curiosity. `My friend Knightley'
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had been so often mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him;
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and I must do my caro sposo the justice to say that he need not
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be ashamed of his friend. Knightley is quite the gentleman.
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I like him very much. Decidedly, I think, a very gentleman-like man."
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Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma
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could breathe.
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"Insufferable woman!" was her immediate exclamation. "Worse than I
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had supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!--I could not
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have believed it. Knightley!--never seen him in her life before,
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and call him Knightley!--and discover that he is a gentleman!
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A little upstart, vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her caro sposo,
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and her resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and
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underbred finery. Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is
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a gentleman! I doubt whether he will return the compliment,
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and discover her to be a lady. I could not have believed it!
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And to propose that she and I should unite to form a musical club!
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One would fancy we were bosom friends! And Mrs. Weston!--
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Astonished that the person who had brought me up should be
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a gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal.
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Much beyond my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison.
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Oh! what would Frank Churchill say to her, if he were here?
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How angry and how diverted he would be! Ah! there I am--
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thinking of him directly. Always the first person to be thought of!
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How I catch myself out! Frank Churchill comes as regularly into
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my mind!"--
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All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time
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her father had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons'
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departure, and was ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable
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of attending.
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"Well, my dear," he deliberately began, "considering we never saw
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her before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say
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she was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick.
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A little quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear.
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But I believe I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks
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like you and poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging,
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pretty-behaved young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife.
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Though I think he had better not have married. I made the best
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excuses I could for not having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton
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on this happy occasion; I said that I hoped I should in the course
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of the summer. But I ought to have gone before. Not to wait upon
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a bride is very remiss. Ah! it shews what a sad invalid I am!
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But I do not like the corner into Vicarage Lane."
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"I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you."
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"Yes: but a young lady--a bride--I ought to have paid my respects
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to her if possible. It was being very deficient."
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"But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore
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why should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a bride?
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It ought to be no recommendation to you. It is encouraging people
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to marry if you make so much of them."
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"No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would
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always wish to pay every proper attention to a lady--and a bride,
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especially, is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to her.
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A bride, you know, my dear, is always the first in company,
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let the others be who they may."
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"Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know
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what is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your
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sanction to such vanity-baits for poor young ladies."
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"My dear, you do not understand me. This is a
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matter of mere common politeness and good-breeding,
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and has nothing to do with any encouragement to people to marry."
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Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not
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understand her. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton's offences,
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and long, very long, did they occupy her.
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CHAPTER XV
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Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill
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opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct.
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Such as Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview,
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such she appeared whenever they met again,--self-important, presuming,
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familiar, ignorant, and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a
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|
little accomplishment, but so little judgment that she thought herself
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coming with superior knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve
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a country neighbourhood; and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held
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such a place in society as Mrs. Elton's consequence only could surpass.
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There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently
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from his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud.
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He had the air of congratulating himself on having brought such
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a woman to Highbury, as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal;
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and the greater part of her new acquaintance, disposed to commend,
|
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or not in the habit of judging, following the lead of Miss Bates's
|
|
good-will, or taking it for granted that the bride must be as clever
|
|
and as agreeable as she professed herself, were very well satisfied;
|
|
so that Mrs. Elton's praise passed from one mouth to another as it
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|
ought to do, unimpeded by Miss Woodhouse, who readily continued her
|
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first contribution and talked with a good grace of her being "very
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pleasant and very elegantly dressed."
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In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared
|
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at first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.--Offended, probably,
|
|
by the little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with,
|
|
she drew back in her turn and gradually became much more cold
|
|
and distant; and though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will
|
|
which produced it was necessarily increasing Emma's dislike.
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|
Her manners, too--and Mr. Elton's, were unpleasant towards Harriet.
|
|
They were sneering and negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work
|
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Harriet's cure; but the sensations which could prompt such behaviour
|
|
sunk them both very much.--It was not to be doubted that poor
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Harriet's attachment had been an offering to conjugal unreserve,
|
|
and her own share in the story, under a colouring the least favourable
|
|
to her and the most soothing to him, had in all likelihood been
|
|
given also. She was, of course, the object of their joint dislike.--
|
|
When they had nothing else to say, it must be always easy to begin
|
|
abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity which they dared not shew
|
|
in open disrespect to her, found a broader vent in contemptuous
|
|
treatment of Harriet.
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|
Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first.
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|
Not merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be
|
|
supposed to recommend the other, but from the very first; and she
|
|
was not satisfied with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration--
|
|
but without solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting
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|
to assist and befriend her.--Before Emma had forfeited her confidence,
|
|
and about the third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton's
|
|
knight-errantry on the subject.--
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"Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.--I quite
|
|
rave about Jane Fairfax.--A sweet, interesting creature. So mild
|
|
and ladylike--and with such talents!--I assure you I think she
|
|
has very extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she
|
|
plays extremely well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly
|
|
on that point. Oh! she is absolutely charming! You will laugh at
|
|
my warmth--but, upon my word, I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.--
|
|
And her situation is so calculated to affect one!--Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
we must exert ourselves and endeavour to do something for her.
|
|
We must bring her forward. Such talent as hers must not be suffered
|
|
to remain unknown.--I dare say you have heard those charming lines of
|
|
the poet,
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`Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
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|
`And waste its fragrance on the desert air.'
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We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax."
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"I cannot think there is any danger of it," was Emma's calm answer--
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|
"and when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax's situation
|
|
and understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell,
|
|
I have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown."
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|
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"Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement,
|
|
such obscurity, so thrown away.--Whatever advantages she may have
|
|
enjoyed with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think
|
|
she feels it. I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent.
|
|
One can see that she feels the want of encouragement. I like her
|
|
the better for it. I must confess it is a recommendation to me.
|
|
I am a great advocate for timidity--and I am sure one does
|
|
not often meet with it.--But in those who are at all inferior,
|
|
it is extremely prepossessing. Oh! I assure you, Jane Fairfax
|
|
is a very delightful character, and interests me more than I
|
|
can express."
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|
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"You appear to feel a great deal--but I am not aware how you or any
|
|
of Miss Fairfax's acquaintance here, any of those who have known
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|
her longer than yourself, can shew her any other attention than"--
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|
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|
"My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare
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|
to act. You and I need not be afraid. If we set the example,
|
|
many will follow it as far as they can; though all have not
|
|
our situations. We have carriages to fetch and convey her home,
|
|
and we live in a style which could not make the addition of
|
|
Jane Fairfax, at any time, the least inconvenient.--I should be
|
|
extremely displeased if Wright were to send us up such a dinner,
|
|
as could make me regret having asked more than Jane Fairfax
|
|
to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of thing. It is
|
|
not likely that I should, considering what I have been used to.
|
|
My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite the
|
|
other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense.
|
|
Maple Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be--
|
|
for we do not at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling,
|
|
in income.--However, my resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.--
|
|
I shall certainly have her very often at my house, shall introduce
|
|
her wherever I can, shall have musical parties to draw out her talents,
|
|
and shall be constantly on the watch for an eligible situation.
|
|
My acquaintance is so very extensive, that I have little doubt
|
|
of hearing of something to suit her shortly.--I shall introduce her,
|
|
of course, very particularly to my brother and sister when they come
|
|
to us. I am sure they will like her extremely; and when she gets
|
|
a little acquainted with them, her fears will completely wear off,
|
|
for there really is nothing in the manners of either but what is
|
|
highly conciliating.--I shall have her very often indeed while they
|
|
are with me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a seat for her in
|
|
the barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties."
|
|
|
|
"Poor Jane Fairfax!"--thought Emma.--"You have not deserved this.
|
|
You may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a
|
|
punishment beyond what you can have merited!--The kindness and protection
|
|
of Mrs. Elton!--`Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.' Heavens! Let me
|
|
not suppose that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!--
|
|
But upon my honour, there seems no limits to the licentiousness
|
|
of that woman's tongue!"
|
|
|
|
Emma had not to listen to such paradings again--to any so exclusively
|
|
addressed to herself--so disgustingly decorated with a "dear Miss
|
|
Woodhouse." The change on Mrs. Elton's side soon afterwards appeared,
|
|
and she was left in peace--neither forced to be the very particular
|
|
friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton's guidance, the very
|
|
active patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a
|
|
general way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.
|
|
|
|
She looked on with some amusement.--Miss Bates's gratitude for
|
|
Mrs. Elton's attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless
|
|
simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies--
|
|
the most amiable, affable, delightful woman--just as accomplished
|
|
and condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered.
|
|
Emma's only surprize was that Jane Fairfax should accept
|
|
those attentions and tolerate Mrs. Elton as she seemed to do.
|
|
She heard of her walking with the Eltons, sitting with the Eltons,
|
|
spending a day with the Eltons! This was astonishing!--She could not
|
|
have believed it possible that the taste or the pride of Miss Fairfax
|
|
could endure such society and friendship as the Vicarage had to offer.
|
|
|
|
"She is a riddle, quite a riddle!" said she.--"To chuse to remain
|
|
here month after month, under privations of every sort! And now
|
|
to chuse the mortification of Mrs. Elton's notice and the penury
|
|
of her conversation, rather than return to the superior companions
|
|
who have always loved her with such real, generous affection."
|
|
|
|
Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells
|
|
were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells
|
|
had promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer,
|
|
and fresh invitations had arrived for her to join them there.
|
|
According to Miss Bates--it all came from her--Mrs. Dixon had
|
|
written most pressingly. Would Jane but go, means were to be found,
|
|
servants sent, friends contrived--no travelling difficulty allowed
|
|
to exist; but still she had declined it!
|
|
|
|
"She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing
|
|
this invitation," was Emma's conclusion. "She must be under some
|
|
sort of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself.
|
|
There is great fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.--
|
|
She is not to be with the Dixons. The decree is issued by somebody.
|
|
But why must she consent to be with the Eltons?--Here is quite a
|
|
separate puzzle."
|
|
|
|
Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject,
|
|
before the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston
|
|
ventured this apology for Jane.
|
|
|
|
"We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage,
|
|
my dear Emma--but it is better than being always at home.
|
|
Her aunt is a good creature, but, as a constant companion,
|
|
must be very tiresome. We must consider what Miss Fairfax quits,
|
|
before we condemn her taste for what she goes to."
|
|
|
|
"You are right, Mrs. Weston," said Mr. Knightley warmly, "Miss Fairfax
|
|
is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton.
|
|
Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have
|
|
chosen her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives
|
|
attentions from Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her."
|
|
|
|
Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance;
|
|
and she was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush,
|
|
she presently replied,
|
|
|
|
"Such attentions as Mrs. Elton's, I should have imagined,
|
|
would rather disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton's
|
|
invitations I should have imagined any thing but inviting."
|
|
|
|
"I should not wonder," said Mrs. Weston, "if Miss Fairfax were to have
|
|
been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt's eagerness
|
|
in accepting Mrs. Elton's civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may
|
|
very likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater
|
|
appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated,
|
|
in spite of the very natural wish of a little change."
|
|
|
|
Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few
|
|
minutes silence, he said,
|
|
|
|
"Another thing must be taken into consideration too--Mrs. Elton
|
|
does not talk to Miss Fairfax as she speaks of her. We all know
|
|
the difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest
|
|
spoken amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond
|
|
common civility in our personal intercourse with each other--
|
|
a something more early implanted. We cannot give any body the
|
|
disagreeable hints that we may have been very full of the hour before.
|
|
We feel things differently. And besides the operation of this,
|
|
as a general principle, you may be sure that Miss Fairfax awes
|
|
Mrs. Elton by her superiority both of mind and manner; and that,
|
|
face to face, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the respect which she
|
|
has a claim to. Such a woman as Jane Fairfax probably never fell
|
|
in Mrs. Elton's way before--and no degree of vanity can prevent
|
|
her acknowledging her own comparative littleness in action, if not
|
|
in consciousness."
|
|
|
|
"I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax," said Emma.
|
|
Little Henry was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy
|
|
made her irresolute what else to say.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," he replied, "any body may know how highly I think of her."
|
|
|
|
"And yet," said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look,
|
|
but soon stopping--it was better, however, to know the worst at once--
|
|
she hurried on--"And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself
|
|
how highly it is. The extent of your admiration may take you by
|
|
surprize some day or other."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick
|
|
leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together,
|
|
or some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,
|
|
|
|
"Oh! are you there?--But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole
|
|
gave me a hint of it six weeks ago."
|
|
|
|
He stopped.--Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did
|
|
not herself know what to think. In a moment he went on--
|
|
|
|
"That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax,
|
|
I dare say, would not have me if I were to ask her--and I am very
|
|
sure I shall never ask her."
|
|
|
|
Emma returned her friend's pressure with interest; and was pleased
|
|
enough to exclaim,
|
|
|
|
"You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you."
|
|
|
|
He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful--and in a manner
|
|
which shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,
|
|
|
|
"So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?"
|
|
|
|
"No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making,
|
|
for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said
|
|
just now, meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course,
|
|
without any idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not
|
|
the smallest wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body.
|
|
You would not come in and sit with us in this comfortable way,
|
|
if you were married."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was,
|
|
"No, Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will
|
|
ever take me by surprize.--I never had a thought of her in that way,
|
|
I assure you." And soon afterwards, "Jane Fairfax is a very charming
|
|
young woman--but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault.
|
|
She has not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife."
|
|
|
|
Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault.
|
|
"Well," said she, "and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken;
|
|
he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser
|
|
or wittier than his neighbours."
|
|
|
|
"In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser
|
|
and wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles--
|
|
what she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them,
|
|
deep enough in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley--what can
|
|
she do for Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane
|
|
Fairfax accepts her civilities and consents to be with her.
|
|
Mrs. Weston, your argument weighs most with me. I can much more
|
|
readily enter into the temptation of getting away from Miss Bates,
|
|
than I can believe in the triumph of Miss Fairfax's mind over
|
|
Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton's acknowledging herself
|
|
the inferior in thought, word, or deed; or in her being under any
|
|
restraint beyond her own scanty rule of good-breeding. I cannot
|
|
imagine that she will not be continually insulting her visitor
|
|
with praise, encouragement, and offers of service; that she will not be
|
|
continually detailing her magnificent intentions, from the procuring
|
|
her a permanent situation to the including her in those delightful
|
|
exploring parties which are to take place in the barouche-landau."
|
|
|
|
"Jane Fairfax has feeling," said Mr. Knightley--"I do not
|
|
accuse her of want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect,
|
|
are strong--and her temper excellent in its power of forbearance,
|
|
patience, self-controul; but it wants openness. She is reserved,
|
|
more reserved, I think, than she used to be--And I love an
|
|
open temper. No--till Cole alluded to my supposed attachment,
|
|
it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax and conversed with
|
|
her, with admiration and pleasure always--but with no thought beyond."
|
|
|
|
"Well, Mrs. Weston," said Emma triumphantly when he left them,
|
|
"what do you say now to Mr. Knightley's marrying Jane Fairfax?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied
|
|
by the idea of not being in love with her, that I should not wonder
|
|
if it were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XVI
|
|
|
|
Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton,
|
|
was disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and
|
|
evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations
|
|
flowed in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending
|
|
they were never to have a disengaged day.
|
|
|
|
"I see how it is," said she. "I see what a life I am to lead
|
|
among you. Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated.
|
|
We really seem quite the fashion. If this is living in the country,
|
|
it is nothing very formidable. From Monday next to Saturday,
|
|
I assure you we have not a disengaged day!--A woman with fewer
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resources than I have, need not have been at a loss."
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No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties
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perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste
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for dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two
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drawing rooms, at the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being
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no ice in the Highbury card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry,
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Mrs. Goddard and others, were a good deal behind-hand in knowledge
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of the world, but she would soon shew them how every thing ought
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to be arranged. In the course of the spring she must return their
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civilities by one very superior party--in which her card-tables
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should be set out with their separate candles and unbroken packs
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in the true style--and more waiters engaged for the evening
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than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round
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the refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.
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Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner
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at Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others,
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or she should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable
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of pitiful resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had
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talked about it for ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness,
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and only made the usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom
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of the table himself, with the usual regular difficulty of deciding
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who should do it for him.
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The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the Eltons,
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it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of course--
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and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet must
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be asked to make the eighth:--but this invitation was not given
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with equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly
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pleased by Harriet's begging to be allowed to decline it.
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"She would rather not be in his company more than she could help.
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She was not yet quite able to see him and his charming happy
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wife together, without feeling uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse
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would not be displeased, she would rather stay at home."
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It was precisely what Emma would have wished, had she deemed it
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possible enough for wishing. She was delighted with the fortitude
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of her little friend--for fortitude she knew it was in her to give
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up being in company and stay at home; and she could now invite the
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very person whom she really wanted to make the eighth, Jane Fairfax.--
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Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley,
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she was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax than she had
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often been.--Mr. Knightley's words dwelt with her. He had said
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that Jane Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody
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else paid her.
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"This is very true," said she, "at least as far as relates to me,
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which was all that was meant--and it is very shameful.--Of the same age--
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and always knowing her--I ought to have been more her friend.--
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She will never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I
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will shew her greater attention than I have done."
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Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all happy.--
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The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet over.
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A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little
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Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of
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some weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them,
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and staying one whole day at Hartfield--which one day would be
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the very day of this party.--His professional engagements did
|
|
not allow of his being put off, but both father and daughter were
|
|
disturbed by its happening so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight
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|
persons at dinner together as the utmost that his nerves could bear--
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and here would be a ninth--and Emma apprehended that it would
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|
be a ninth very much out of humour at not being able to come even
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to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without falling in with a dinner-party.
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She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself,
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|
by representing that though he certainly would make them nine,
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yet he always said so little, that the increase of noise would be
|
|
very immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself,
|
|
to have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed
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to her instead of his brother.
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|
The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma.
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|
John Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town
|
|
and must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them
|
|
in the evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite
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|
at ease; and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys
|
|
and the philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate,
|
|
removed the chief of even Emma's vexation.
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|
The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John Knightley
|
|
seemed early to devote himself to the business of being agreeable.
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|
Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they waited
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|
for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton, as elegant
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|
as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in silence--
|
|
wanting only to observe enough for Isabella's information--but Miss
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|
Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could
|
|
talk to her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning
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|
from a walk with his little boys, when it had been just beginning
|
|
to rain. It was natural to have some civil hopes on the subject,
|
|
and he said,
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"I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I
|
|
am sure you must have been wet.--We scarcely got home in time.
|
|
I hope you turned directly."
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|
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"I went only to the post-office," said she, "and reached home
|
|
before the rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch
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|
the letters when I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something
|
|
to get me out. A walk before breakfast does me good."
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|
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|
"Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine."
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|
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"No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out."
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Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,
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|
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"That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six
|
|
yards from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you;
|
|
and Henry and John had seen more drops than they could count long before.
|
|
The post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives.
|
|
When you have lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are
|
|
never worth going through the rain for."
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|
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|
There was a little blush, and then this answer,
|
|
|
|
"I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of
|
|
every dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply
|
|
growing older should make me indifferent about letters."
|
|
|
|
"Indifferent! Oh! no--I never conceived you could become indifferent.
|
|
Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very
|
|
positive curse."
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|
|
|
"You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters
|
|
of friendship."
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|
|
|
"I have often thought them the worst of the two," replied he coolly.
|
|
"Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly
|
|
ever does."
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|
|
|
"Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well--
|
|
I am very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as
|
|
any body. I can easily believe that letters are very little to you,
|
|
much less than to me, but it is not your being ten years older than
|
|
myself which makes the difference, it is not age, but situation.
|
|
You have every body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably,
|
|
never shall again; and therefore till I have outlived all my affections,
|
|
a post-office, I think, must always have power to draw me out,
|
|
in worse weather than to-day."
|
|
|
|
"When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of years,"
|
|
said John Knightley, "I meant to imply the change of situation
|
|
which time usually brings. I consider one as including the other.
|
|
Time will generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within
|
|
the daily circle--but that is not the change I had in view for you.
|
|
As an old friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten
|
|
years hence you may have as many concentrated objects as I have."
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|
|
|
It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant
|
|
"thank you" seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip,
|
|
a tear in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh.
|
|
Her attention was now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being,
|
|
according to his custom on such occasions, making the circle of
|
|
his guests, and paying his particular compliments to the ladies,
|
|
was ending with her--and with all his mildest urbanity, said,
|
|
|
|
"I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this
|
|
morning in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.--
|
|
Young ladies are delicate plants. They should take care of their
|
|
health and their complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind
|
|
solicitude about me."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.--
|
|
I hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some
|
|
of my very old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a
|
|
better neighbour. You do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure.
|
|
My daughter and I are both highly sensible of your goodness,
|
|
and have the greatest satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield."
|
|
|
|
The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel
|
|
that he had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.
|
|
|
|
By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton,
|
|
and her remonstrances now opened upon Jane.
|
|
|
|
"My dear Jane, what is this I hear?--Going to the post-office
|
|
in the rain!--This must not be, I assure you.--You sad girl,
|
|
how could you do such a thing?--It is a sign I was not there
|
|
to take care of you."
|
|
|
|
Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! do not tell me. You really are a very sad girl, and do not
|
|
know how to take care of yourself.--To the post-office indeed!
|
|
Mrs. Weston, did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively
|
|
exert our authority."
|
|
|
|
"My advice," said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, "I certainly
|
|
do feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.--
|
|
Liable as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought
|
|
to be particularly careful, especially at this time of year.
|
|
The spring I always think requires more than common care.
|
|
Better wait an hour or two, or even half a day for your letters,
|
|
than run the risk of bringing on your cough again. Now do not you
|
|
feel that you had? Yes, I am sure you are much too reasonable.
|
|
You look as if you would not do such a thing again."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! she shall not do such a thing again," eagerly rejoined
|
|
Mrs. Elton. "We will not allow her to do such a thing again:"--
|
|
and nodding significantly--"there must be some arrangement made,
|
|
there must indeed. I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches
|
|
our letters every morning (one of our men, I forget his name)
|
|
shall inquire for yours too and bring them to you. That will obviate
|
|
all difficulties you know; and from us I really think, my dear Jane,
|
|
you can have no scruple to accept such an accommodation."
|
|
|
|
"You are extremely kind," said Jane; "but I cannot give up my
|
|
early walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can,
|
|
I must walk somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon
|
|
my word, I have scarcely ever had a bad morning before."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined,
|
|
that is (laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine
|
|
any thing without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know,
|
|
Mrs. Weston, you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves.
|
|
But I do flatter myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely
|
|
worn out. If I meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore,
|
|
consider that point as settled."
|
|
|
|
"Excuse me," said Jane earnestly, "I cannot by any means consent
|
|
to such an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant.
|
|
If the errand were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it
|
|
always is when I am not here, by my grandmama's."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!--And it is a kindness
|
|
to employ our men."
|
|
|
|
Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead
|
|
of answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.
|
|
|
|
"The post-office is a wonderful establishment!" said she.--
|
|
"The regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it
|
|
has to do, and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!"
|
|
|
|
"It is certainly very well regulated."
|
|
|
|
"So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom
|
|
that a letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing
|
|
about the kingdom, is even carried wrong--and not one in a million,
|
|
I suppose, actually lost! And when one considers the variety
|
|
of hands, and of bad hands too, that are to be deciphered,
|
|
it increases the wonder."
|
|
|
|
"The clerks grow expert from habit.--They must begin with some
|
|
quickness of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you
|
|
want any farther explanation," continued he, smiling, "they are
|
|
paid for it. That is the key to a great deal of capacity.
|
|
The public pays and must be served well."
|
|
|
|
The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual
|
|
observations made.
|
|
|
|
"I have heard it asserted," said John Knightley, "that the same
|
|
sort of handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the
|
|
same master teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason,
|
|
I should imagine the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females,
|
|
for boys have very little teaching after an early age, and scramble
|
|
into any hand they can get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write
|
|
very much alike. I have not always known their writing apart."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said his brother hesitatingly, "there is a likeness.
|
|
I know what you mean--but Emma's hand is the strongest."
|
|
|
|
"Isabella and Emma both write beautifully," said Mr. Woodhouse;
|
|
"and always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston"--with half a sigh
|
|
and half a smile at her.
|
|
|
|
"I never saw any gentleman's handwriting"--Emma began, looking also
|
|
at Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was
|
|
attending to some one else--and the pause gave her time to reflect,
|
|
"Now, how am I going to introduce him?--Am I unequal to speaking
|
|
his name at once before all these people? Is it necessary
|
|
for me to use any roundabout phrase?--Your Yorkshire friend--
|
|
your correspondent in Yorkshire;--that would be the way, I suppose,
|
|
if I were very bad.--No, I can pronounce his name without the
|
|
smallest distress. I certainly get better and better.--Now for it."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again--"Mr. Frank Churchill
|
|
writes one of the best gentleman's hands I ever saw."
|
|
|
|
"I do not admire it," said Mr. Knightley. "It is too small--
|
|
wants strength. It is like a woman's writing."
|
|
|
|
This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him
|
|
against the base aspersion. "No, it by no means wanted strength--
|
|
it was not a large hand, but very clear and certainly strong.
|
|
Had not Mrs. Weston any letter about her to produce?" No, she had
|
|
heard from him very lately, but having answered the letter, had put
|
|
it away.
|
|
|
|
"If we were in the other room," said Emma, "if I had my writing-desk,
|
|
I am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.--
|
|
Do not you remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you
|
|
one day?"
|
|
|
|
"He chose to say he was employed"--
|
|
|
|
"Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner
|
|
to convince Mr. Knightley."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,"
|
|
said Mr. Knightley dryly, "writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
he will, of course, put forth his best."
|
|
|
|
Dinner was on table.--Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to,
|
|
was ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request
|
|
to be allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying--
|
|
|
|
"Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way."
|
|
|
|
Jane's solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma.
|
|
She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know
|
|
whether the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected
|
|
that it had; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered
|
|
but in full expectation of hearing from some one very dear,
|
|
and that it had not been in vain. She thought there was an air
|
|
of greater happiness than usual--a glow both of complexion and spirits.
|
|
|
|
She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition
|
|
and the expense of the Irish mails;--it was at her tongue's end--
|
|
but she abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word
|
|
that should hurt Jane Fairfax's feelings; and they followed
|
|
the other ladies out of the room, arm in arm, with an appearance
|
|
of good-will highly becoming to the beauty and grace of each.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XVII
|
|
|
|
When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found
|
|
it hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;--
|
|
with so much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton
|
|
engross Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were
|
|
obliged to be almost always either talking together or silent together.
|
|
Mrs. Elton left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a
|
|
little time, she soon began again; and though much that passed
|
|
between them was in a half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton's side,
|
|
there was no avoiding a knowledge of their principal subjects:
|
|
The post-office--catching cold--fetching letters--and friendship,
|
|
were long under discussion; and to them succeeded one, which must
|
|
be at least equally unpleasant to Jane--inquiries whether she had
|
|
yet heard of any situation likely to suit her, and professions of
|
|
Mrs. Elton's meditated activity.
|
|
|
|
"Here is April come!" said she, "I get quite anxious about you.
|
|
June will soon be here."
|
|
|
|
"But I have never fixed on June or any other month--merely looked
|
|
forward to the summer in general."
|
|
|
|
"But have you really heard of nothing?"
|
|
|
|
"I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware
|
|
of the difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing."
|
|
|
|
"I not aware!" said Jane, shaking her head; "dear Mrs. Elton,
|
|
who can have thought of it as I have done?"
|
|
|
|
"But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not
|
|
know how many candidates there always are for the first situations.
|
|
I saw a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove.
|
|
A cousin of Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity
|
|
of applications; every body was anxious to be in her family,
|
|
for she moves in the first circle. Wax-candles in the schoolroom!
|
|
You may imagine how desirable! Of all houses in the kingdom
|
|
Mrs. Bragge's is the one I would most wish to see you in."
|
|
|
|
"Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer,"
|
|
said Jane. "I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will
|
|
want it;--afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself.
|
|
But I would not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries
|
|
at present."
|
|
|
|
"Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving
|
|
me trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can
|
|
hardly be more interested about you than I am. I shall write
|
|
to Mrs. Partridge in a day or two, and shall give her a strict
|
|
charge to be on the look-out for any thing eligible."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject
|
|
to her; till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving
|
|
any body trouble."
|
|
|
|
"But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April,
|
|
and June, or say even July, is very near, with such business
|
|
to accomplish before us. Your inexperience really amuses me!
|
|
A situation such as you deserve, and your friends would require for you,
|
|
is no everyday occurrence, is not obtained at a moment's notice;
|
|
indeed, indeed, we must begin inquiring directly."
|
|
|
|
"Excuse me, ma'am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no
|
|
inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends.
|
|
When I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid
|
|
of being long unemployed. There are places in town, offices,
|
|
where inquiry would soon produce something--Offices for the sale--
|
|
not quite of human flesh--but of human intellect."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling
|
|
at the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather
|
|
a friend to the abolition."
|
|
|
|
"I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade," replied Jane;
|
|
"governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view;
|
|
widely different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on;
|
|
but as to the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where
|
|
it lies. But I only mean to say that there are advertising offices,
|
|
and that by applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon
|
|
meeting with something that would do."
|
|
|
|
"Something that would do!" repeated Mrs. Elton. "Aye, that may
|
|
suit your humble ideas of yourself;--I know what a modest creature
|
|
you are; but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up
|
|
with any thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation,
|
|
in a family not moving in a certain circle, or able to command
|
|
the elegancies of life."
|
|
|
|
"You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent;
|
|
it would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications,
|
|
I think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison.
|
|
A gentleman's family is all that I should condition for."
|
|
|
|
"I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I
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shall be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will
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be quite on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right
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to move in the first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would
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entitle you to name your own terms, have as many rooms as you like,
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and mix in the family as much as you chose;--that is--I do not know--
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if you knew the harp, you might do all that, I am very sure;
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but you sing as well as play;--yes, I really believe you might,
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even without the harp, stipulate for what you chose;--and you must
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and shall be delightfully, honourably and comfortably settled before
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the Campbells or I have any rest."
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"You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort
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of such a situation together," said Jane, "they are pretty sure
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to be equal; however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing
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to be attempted at present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you,
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Mrs. Elton, I am obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am
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quite serious in wishing nothing to be done till the summer.
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For two or three months longer I shall remain where I am, and as
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I am."
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"And I am quite serious too, I assure you," replied Mrs. Elton gaily,
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"in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends
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to watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us."
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In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing
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till Mr. Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change
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of object, and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
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"Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!--Only think of his
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gallantry in coming away before the other men!--what a dear creature
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he is;--I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint,
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old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease;
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modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse,
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I wish you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure
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you I began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous.
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I fancy I am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown.
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How do you like it?--Selina's choice--handsome, I think, but I
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do not know whether it is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest
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dislike to the idea of being over-trimmed--quite a horror of finery.
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I must put on a few ornaments now, because it is expected of me.
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A bride, you know, must appear like a bride, but my natural taste
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is all for simplicity; a simple style of dress is so infinitely
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preferable to finery. But I am quite in the minority, I believe;
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few people seem to value simplicity of dress,--show and finery
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are every thing. I have some notion of putting such a trimming
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as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will
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look well?"
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The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room
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when Mr. Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned
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to a late dinner, and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over.
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He had been too much expected by the best judges, for surprize--
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but there was great joy. Mr. Woodhouse was almost as glad to see
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him now, as he would have been sorry to see him before. John Knightley
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only was in mute astonishment.--That a man who might have spent
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his evening quietly at home after a day of business in London,
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should set off again, and walk half a mile to another man's house,
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for the sake of being in mixed company till bed-time, of finishing
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his day in the efforts of civility and the noise of numbers,
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was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A man who had been in motion
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since eight o'clock in the morning, and might now have been still,
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who had been long talking, and might have been silent, who had been
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in more than one crowd, and might have been alone!--Such a man,
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to quit the tranquillity and independence of his own fireside,
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and on the evening of a cold sleety April day rush out again into
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the world!--Could he by a touch of his finger have instantly taken
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back his wife, there would have been a motive; but his coming would
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probably prolong rather than break up the party. John Knightley
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looked at him with amazement, then shrugged his shoulders, and said,
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"I could not have believed it even of him."
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Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation
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he was exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all
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the right of being principal talker, which a day spent anywhere
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from home confers, was making himself agreeable among the rest;
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and having satisfied the inquiries of his wife as to his dinner,
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convincing her that none of all her careful directions to the servants
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had been forgotten, and spread abroad what public news he had heard,
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was proceeding to a family communication, which, though principally
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|
addressed to Mrs. Weston, he had not the smallest doubt of being
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highly interesting to every body in the room. He gave her a letter,
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it was from Frank, and to herself; he had met with it in his way,
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and had taken the liberty of opening it.
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"Read it, read it," said he, "it will give you pleasure;
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only a few lines--will not take you long; read it to Emma."
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The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling
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and talking to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued,
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but very audible to every body.
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"Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do
|
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you say to it?--I always told you he would be here again soon,
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did not I?--Anne, my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would
|
|
not believe me?--In town next week, you see--at the latest, I dare say;
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|
for she is as impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is
|
|
to be done; most likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday.
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|
As to her illness, all nothing of course. But it is an excellent
|
|
thing to have Frank among us again, so near as town. They will stay
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a good while when they do come, and he will be half his time with us.
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This is precisely what I wanted. Well, pretty good news, is not it?
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Have you finished it? Has Emma read it all? Put it up, put it up;
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we will have a good talk about it some other time, but it will not
|
|
do now. I shall only just mention the circumstance to the others in a
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common way."
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Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion.
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Her looks and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy,
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she knew she was happy, and knew she ought to be happy.
|
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Her congratulations were warm and open; but Emma could not speak
|
|
so fluently. She was a little occupied in weighing her own feelings,
|
|
and trying to understand the degree of her agitation, which she
|
|
rather thought was considerable.
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Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative
|
|
to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say,
|
|
and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial
|
|
communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.
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It was well that he took every body's joy for granted, or he
|
|
might not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley
|
|
particularly delighted. They were the first entitled,
|
|
after Mrs. Weston and Emma, to be made happy;--from them he would
|
|
have proceeded to Miss Fairfax, but she was so deep in conversation
|
|
with John Knightley, that it would have been too positive
|
|
an interruption; and finding himself close to Mrs. Elton, and
|
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her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the subject with her.
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CHAPTER XVIII
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"I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,"
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said Mr. Weston.
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Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended
|
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her by such a hope, smiled most graciously.
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"You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume," he continued--
|
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"and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my name."
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"Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance.
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I am sure Mr. Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we
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|
shall both have great pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage."
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"You are very obliging.--Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.--
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He is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it
|
|
in a letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning,
|
|
and seeing my son's hand, presumed to open it--though it was not directed
|
|
to me--it was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent,
|
|
I assure you. I hardly ever get a letter."
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|
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"And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr. Weston--
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|
(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.--A most dangerous
|
|
precedent indeed!--I beg you will not let your neighbours follow
|
|
your example.--Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect,
|
|
we married women must begin to exert ourselves!--Oh! Mr. Weston,
|
|
I could not have believed it of you!"
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|
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"Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself,
|
|
Mrs. Elton.--This letter tells us--it is a short letter--written in
|
|
a hurry, merely to give us notice--it tells us that they are all
|
|
coming up to town directly, on Mrs. Churchill's account--she has
|
|
not been well the whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her--
|
|
so they are all to move southward without loss of time."
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|
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"Indeed!--from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?"
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|
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"Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London.
|
|
a considerable journey."
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|
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"Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther
|
|
than from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston,
|
|
to people of large fortune?--You would be amazed to hear how my brother,
|
|
Mr. Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me--
|
|
but twice in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again
|
|
with four horses."
|
|
|
|
"The evil of the distance from Enscombe," said Mr. Weston, "is, that
|
|
Mrs. Churchill, as we understand, has not been able to leave the
|
|
sofa for a week together. In Frank's last letter she complained,
|
|
he said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having
|
|
both his arm and his uncle's! This, you know, speaks a great degree
|
|
of weakness--but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she
|
|
means to sleep only two nights on the road.--So Frank writes word.
|
|
Certainly, delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions,
|
|
Mrs. Elton. You must grant me that."
|
|
|
|
"No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I Always take the part
|
|
of my own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice--You will find me
|
|
a formidable antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women--
|
|
and I assure you, if you knew how Selina feels with respect
|
|
to sleeping at an inn, you would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill's
|
|
making incredible exertions to avoid it. Selina says it is quite
|
|
horror to her--and I believe I have caught a little of her nicety.
|
|
She always travels with her own sheets; an excellent precaution.
|
|
Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?"
|
|
|
|
"Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other
|
|
fine lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady
|
|
in the land for"--
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,
|
|
|
|
"Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady,
|
|
I assure you. Do not run away with such an idea."
|
|
|
|
"Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is
|
|
as thorough a fine lady as any body ever beheld."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly.
|
|
It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister
|
|
was not a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence
|
|
of it;--and she was considering in what way she had best retract,
|
|
when Mr. Weston went on.
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|
|
|
"Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect--
|
|
but this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank,
|
|
and therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of
|
|
health now; but that indeed, by her own account, she has always been.
|
|
I would not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much
|
|
faith in Mrs. Churchill's illness."
|
|
|
|
"If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?--To Bath,
|
|
or to Clifton?" "She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too
|
|
cold for her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe.
|
|
She has now been a longer time stationary there, than she ever
|
|
was before, and she begins to want change. It is a retired place.
|
|
A fine place, but very retired."
|
|
|
|
"Aye--like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired from
|
|
the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round it!
|
|
You seem shut out from every thing--in the most complete retirement.--
|
|
And Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits like Selina
|
|
to enjoy that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not have
|
|
resources enough in herself to be qualified for a country life.
|
|
I always say a woman cannot have too many resources--and I feel
|
|
very thankful that I have so many myself as to be quite independent
|
|
of society."
|
|
|
|
"Frank was here in February for a fortnight."
|
|
|
|
"So I remember to have heard. He will find an addition to the
|
|
society of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume
|
|
to call myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard
|
|
of there being such a creature in the world."
|
|
|
|
This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by,
|
|
and Mr. Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,
|
|
|
|
"My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a
|
|
thing possible. Not heard of you!--I believe Mrs. Weston's
|
|
letters lately have been full of very little else than Mrs. Elton."
|
|
|
|
He had done his duty and could return to his son.
|
|
|
|
"When Frank left us," continued he, "it was quite uncertain when we
|
|
might see him again, which makes this day's news doubly welcome.
|
|
It has been completely unexpected. That is, I always had a strong
|
|
persuasion he would be here again soon, I was sure something
|
|
favourable would turn up--but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston
|
|
were both dreadfully desponding. `How could he contrive to come?
|
|
And how could it be supposed that his uncle and aunt would spare
|
|
him again?' and so forth--I always felt that something would happen
|
|
in our favour; and so it has, you see. I have observed, Mrs. Elton,
|
|
in the course of my life, that if things are going untowardly one month,
|
|
they are sure to mend the next."
|
|
|
|
"Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used
|
|
to say to a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship,
|
|
when, because things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all
|
|
the rapidity which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair,
|
|
and exclaim that he was sure at this rate it would be May before
|
|
Hymen's saffron robe would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have
|
|
been at to dispel those gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views!
|
|
The carriage--we had disappointments about the carriage;--one morning,
|
|
I remember, he came to me quite in despair."
|
|
|
|
She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly
|
|
seized the opportunity of going on.
|
|
|
|
"You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill
|
|
is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place
|
|
than Enscombe--in short, to spend in London; so that we have the
|
|
agreeable prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring--
|
|
precisely the season of the year which one should have chosen
|
|
for it: days almost at the longest; weather genial and pleasant,
|
|
always inviting one out, and never too hot for exercise. When he
|
|
was here before, we made the best of it; but there was a good deal
|
|
of wet, damp, cheerless weather; there always is in February, you know,
|
|
and we could not do half that we intended. Now will be the time.
|
|
This will be complete enjoyment; and I do not know, Mrs. Elton,
|
|
whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the sort of constant
|
|
expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or to-morrow,
|
|
and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than having
|
|
him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the
|
|
state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you
|
|
will be pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy.
|
|
He is generally thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy.
|
|
Mrs. Weston's partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose,
|
|
most gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him."
|
|
|
|
"And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my
|
|
opinion will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much
|
|
in praise of Mr. Frank Churchill.--At the same time it is fair
|
|
to observe, that I am one of those who always judge for themselves,
|
|
and are by no means implicitly guided by others. I give you notice
|
|
that as I find your son, so I shall judge of him.--I am no flatterer."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Weston was musing.
|
|
|
|
"I hope," said he presently, "I have not been severe upon poor
|
|
Mrs. Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice;
|
|
but there are some traits in her character which make it difficult
|
|
for me to speak of her with the forbearance I could wish.
|
|
You cannot be ignorant, Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family,
|
|
nor of the treatment I have met with; and, between ourselves,
|
|
the whole blame of it is to be laid to her. She was the instigator.
|
|
Frank's mother would never have been slighted as she was but for her.
|
|
Mr. Churchill has pride; but his pride is nothing to his wife's:
|
|
his is a quiet, indolent, gentlemanlike sort of pride that would
|
|
harm nobody, and only make himself a little helpless and tiresome;
|
|
but her pride is arrogance and insolence! And what inclines one less
|
|
to bear, she has no fair pretence of family or blood. She was nobody
|
|
when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman; but ever
|
|
since her being turned into a Churchill she has out-Churchill'd them
|
|
all in high and mighty claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is
|
|
an upstart."
|
|
|
|
"Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite
|
|
a horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust
|
|
to people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood
|
|
who are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs
|
|
they give themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me
|
|
think of them directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately
|
|
settled there, and encumbered with many low connexions, but giving
|
|
themselves immense airs, and expecting to be on a footing with the old
|
|
established families. A year and a half is the very utmost that they can
|
|
have lived at West Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows.
|
|
They came from Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much,
|
|
you know, Mr. Weston. One has not great hopes from Birmingham.
|
|
I always say there is something direful in the sound: but nothing
|
|
more is positively known of the Tupmans, though a good many things
|
|
I assure you are suspected; and yet by their manners they evidently
|
|
think themselves equal even to my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens
|
|
to be one of their nearest neighbours. It is infinitely too bad.
|
|
Mr. Suckling, who has been eleven years a resident at Maple Grove,
|
|
and whose father had it before him--I believe, at least--I am
|
|
almost sure that old Mr. Suckling had completed the purchase before
|
|
his death."
|
|
|
|
They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston,
|
|
having said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of
|
|
walking away.
|
|
|
|
After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers,
|
|
and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed
|
|
little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice,
|
|
which nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself
|
|
in a worry of spirits which would have made her prefer being silent.
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother.
|
|
He was to leave them early the next day; and he soon began with--
|
|
|
|
"Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about
|
|
the boys; but you have your sister's letter, and every thing is
|
|
down at full length there we may be sure. My charge would be much
|
|
more concise than her's, and probably not much in the same spirit;
|
|
all that I have to recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them,
|
|
and do not physic them."
|
|
|
|
"I rather hope to satisfy you both," said Emma, "for I shall do all
|
|
in my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella;
|
|
and happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic."
|
|
|
|
"And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again."
|
|
|
|
"That is very likely. You think so, do not you?"
|
|
|
|
"I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father--
|
|
or even may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements
|
|
continue to increase as much as they have done lately."
|
|
|
|
"Increase!"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made
|
|
a great difference in your way of life."
|
|
|
|
"Difference! No indeed I am not."
|
|
|
|
"There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company
|
|
than you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come
|
|
down for only one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!--
|
|
When did it happen before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood
|
|
is increasing, and you mix more with it. A little while ago,
|
|
every letter to Isabella brought an account of fresh gaieties;
|
|
dinners at Mr. Cole's, or balls at the Crown. The difference
|
|
which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in your goings-on, is very great."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said his brother quickly, "it is Randalls that does it all."
|
|
|
|
"Very well--and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less
|
|
influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma,
|
|
that Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are,
|
|
I only beg you to send them home."
|
|
|
|
"No," cried Mr. Knightley, "that need not be the consequence.
|
|
Let them be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure."
|
|
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"Upon my word," exclaimed Emma, "you amuse me! I should like to know
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how many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being
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of the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure
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to attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine--
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what have they been? Dining once with the Coles--and having a ball
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talked of, which never took place. I can understand you--(nodding at
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Mr. John Knightley)--your good fortune in meeting with so many of
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your friends at once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed.
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But you, (turning to Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom
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I am ever two hours from Hartfield, why you should foresee such a
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series of dissipation for me, I cannot imagine. And as to my dear
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little boys, I must say, that if Aunt Emma has not time for them,
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I do not think they would fare much better with Uncle Knightley,
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who is absent from home about five hours where she is absent one--
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and who, when he is at home, is either reading to himself or settling
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his accounts."
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Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded
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without difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton's beginning to talk to him.
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VOLUME III
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CHAPTER I
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A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the
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nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill.
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She was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at
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all apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment
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had really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;--
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but if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love
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of the two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment
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which he had taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation
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of two months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils
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before her:--caution for him and for herself would be necessary.
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She did not mean to have her own affections entangled again,
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and it would be incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
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She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration.
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That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present acquaintance!
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and yet, she could not help rather anticipating something decisive.
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She felt as if the spring would not pass without bringing a crisis,
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an event, a something to alter her present composed and tranquil state.
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It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had foreseen,
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before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank Churchill's
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feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so soon as had
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been imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards. He rode
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down for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he came
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from Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise all
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her quick observation, and speedily determine how he was influenced,
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and how she must act. They met with the utmost friendliness.
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There could be no doubt of his great pleasure in seeing her.
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But she had an almost instant doubt of his caring for her as he
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had done, of his feeling the same tenderness in the same degree.
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She watched him well. It was a clear thing he was less in love than he
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had been. Absence, with the conviction probably of her indifference,
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had produced this very natural and very desirable effect.
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He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed
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delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories:
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and he was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that
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she read his comparative difference. He was not calm; his spirits
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were evidently fluttered; there was restlessness about him.
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Lively as he was, it seemed a liveliness that did not satisfy himself;
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but what decided her belief on the subject, was his staying only a
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quarter of an hour, and hurrying away to make other calls in Highbury.
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"He had seen a group of old acquaintance in the street as he passed--
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he had not stopped, he would not stop for more than a word--but he
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had the vanity to think they would be disappointed if he did not call,
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and much as he wished to stay longer at Hartfield, he must hurry off."
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She had no doubt as to his being less in love--but neither his
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agitated spirits, nor his hurrying away, seemed like a perfect cure;
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and she was rather inclined to think it implied a dread of her
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returning power, and a discreet resolution of not trusting himself
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with her long.
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This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days.
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He was often hoping, intending to come--but was always prevented.
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His aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account
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at Randall's. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come,
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it was to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill's removal to London had
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been of no service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder.
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That she was really ill was very certain; he had declared himself
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convinced of it, at Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could
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not doubt, when he looked back, that she was in a weaker state
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of health than she had been half a year ago. He did not believe it
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to proceed from any thing that care and medicine might not remove,
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or at least that she might not have many years of existence before her;
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but he could not be prevailed on, by all his father's doubts, to say
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that her complaints were merely imaginary, or that she was as strong
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as ever.
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It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could
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not endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation
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and suffering; and by the ten days' end, her nephew's letter to
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Randalls communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove
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immediately to Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended
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to the medical skill of an eminent person there, and had otherwise
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a fancy for the place. A ready-furnished house in a favourite
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spot was engaged, and much benefit expected from the change.
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Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement,
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and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two
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months before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends--
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for the house was taken for May and June. She was told that now
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he wrote with the greatest confidence of being often with them,
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almost as often as he could even wish.
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Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was
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considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered.
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She hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.
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Mr. Weston's own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted.
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It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would
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be really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles
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to a young man?--An hour's ride. He would be always coming over.
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The difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough
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to make the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing
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him never. Sixteen miles--nay, eighteen--it must be full eighteen
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to Manchester-street--was a serious obstacle. Were he ever able
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to get away, the day would be spent in coming and returning.
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There was no comfort in having him in London; he might as well be
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at Enscombe; but Richmond was the very distance for easy intercourse.
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Better than nearer!
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One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this removal,--
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the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before, but it had
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been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now, however,
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it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and very soon
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after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines from Frank,
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to say that his aunt felt already much better for the change,
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and that he had no doubt of being able to join them for twenty-four
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hours at any given time, induced them to name as early a day as possible.
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Mr. Weston's ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows
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stood between the young people of Highbury and happiness.
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Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil
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to him. May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates
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was engaged to spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice,
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and he sanguinely hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear
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little John would have any thing the matter with them, while dear
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Emma were gone.
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CHAPTER II
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No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached,
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the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching,
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Frank Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls
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before dinner, and every thing was safe.
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No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma.
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The room at the Crown was to witness it;--but it would be better
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than a common meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very
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earnest in his entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible
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after themselves, for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the
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propriety and comfort of the rooms before any other persons came,
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that she could not refuse him, and must therefore spend some quiet
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|
interval in the young man's company. She was to convey Harriet,
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and they drove to the Crown in good time, the Randalls party just
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sufficiently before them.
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Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though
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he did not say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have
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a delightful evening. They all walked about together, to see
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that every thing was as it should be; and within a few minutes
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|
were joined by the contents of another carriage, which Emma
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could not hear the sound of at first, without great surprize.
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"So unreasonably early!" she was going to exclaim; but she presently
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found that it was a family of old friends, who were coming, like herself,
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by particular desire, to help Mr. Weston's judgment; and they were
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so very closely followed by another carriage of cousins, who had been
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entreated to come early with the same distinguishing earnestness,
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|
on the same errand, that it seemed as if half the company might
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soon be collected together for the purpose of preparatory inspection.
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Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which
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Mr. Weston depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and
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intimate of a man who had so many intimates and confidantes,
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|
was not the very first distinction in the scale of vanity.
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She liked his open manners, but a little less of open-heartedness
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would have made him a higher character.--General benevolence,
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but not general friendship, made a man what he ought to be.--
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She could fancy such a man. The whole party walked about,
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|
and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing else to do,
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|
formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe in their
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various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though May,
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|
a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.
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Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston's fault that the number
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of privy councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped
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|
at Mrs. Bates's door to offer the use of their carriage,
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|
but the aunt and niece were to be brought by the Eltons.
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Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness,
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which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going
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to the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,--
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impatient to begin, or afraid of being always near her.
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Mrs. Elton was spoken of. "I think she must be here soon," said he.
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"I have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much
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|
of her. It cannot be long, I think, before she comes."
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A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately;
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but coming back, said,
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"I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen
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either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward."
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Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties passed.
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"But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!" said Mr. Weston, looking about.
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"We thought you were to bring them."
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The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now.
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Emma longed to know what Frank's first opinion of Mrs. Elton
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|
might be; how he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress,
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and her smiles of graciousness. He was immediately qualifying
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|
himself to form an opinion, by giving her very proper attention,
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|
after the introduction had passed.
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In a few minutes the carriage returned.--Somebody talked of rain.--
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"I will see that there are umbrellas, sir," said Frank to his father:
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"Miss Bates must not be forgotten:" and away he went. Mr. Weston
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|
was following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her
|
|
opinion of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young
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|
man himself, though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out
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|
of hearing.
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"A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told
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|
you I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am
|
|
extremely pleased with him.--You may believe me. I never compliment.
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I think him a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely
|
|
what I like and approve--so truly the gentleman, without the least
|
|
conceit or puppyism. You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies--
|
|
quite a horror of them. They were never tolerated at Maple Grove.
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|
Neither Mr. Suckling nor me had ever any patience with them; and we
|
|
used sometimes to say very cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost
|
|
to a fault, bore with them much better."
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While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston's attention was chained;
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|
but when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were
|
|
ladies just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must
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|
hurry away.
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Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. "I have no doubt of its being
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|
our carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are
|
|
so extremely expeditious!--I believe we drive faster than any body.--
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|
What a pleasure it is to send one's carriage for a friend!--
|
|
I understand you were so kind as to offer, but another time it
|
|
will be quite unnecessary. You may be very sure I shall always
|
|
take care of them."
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Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen,
|
|
walked into the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much
|
|
her duty as Mrs. Weston's to receive them. Her gestures and
|
|
movements might be understood by any one who looked on like Emma;
|
|
but her words, every body's words, were soon lost under the
|
|
incessant flow of Miss Bates, who came in talking, and had not
|
|
finished her speech under many minutes after her being admitted
|
|
into the circle at the fire. As the door opened she was heard,
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"So very obliging of you!--No rain at all. Nothing to signify.
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|
I do not care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares--
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|
Well!--(as soon as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant
|
|
indeed!--This is admirable!--Excellently contrived, upon my word.
|
|
Nothing wanting. Could not have imagined it.--So well lighted up!--
|
|
Jane, Jane, look!--did you ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston,
|
|
you must really have had Aladdin's lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes
|
|
would not know her own room again. I saw her as I came in;
|
|
she was standing in the entrance. `Oh! Mrs. Stokes,' said I--
|
|
but I had not time for more." She was now met by Mrs. Weston.--
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|
"Very well, I thank you, ma'am. I hope you are quite well.
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|
Very happy to hear it. So afraid you might have a headach!--
|
|
seeing you pass by so often, and knowing how much trouble you must have.
|
|
Delighted to hear it indeed. Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, so obliged
|
|
to you for the carriage!--excellent time. Jane and I quite ready.
|
|
Did not keep the horses a moment. Most comfortable carriage.--
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|
Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you, Mrs. Weston, on that score.
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|
Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note, or we should have been.--
|
|
But two such offers in one day!--Never were such neighbours.
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|
I said to my mother, `Upon my word, ma'am--.' Thank you, my mother
|
|
is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse's. I made her take
|
|
her shawl--for the evenings are not warm--her large new shawl--
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|
Mrs. Dixon's wedding-present.--So kind of her to think of my mother!
|
|
Bought at Weymouth, you know--Mr. Dixon's choice. There were
|
|
three others, Jane says, which they hesitated about some time.
|
|
Colonel Campbell rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane,
|
|
are you sure you did not wet your feet?--It was but a drop or two,
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|
but I am so afraid:--but Mr. Frank Churchill was so extremely--
|
|
and there was a mat to step upon--I shall never forget his
|
|
extreme politeness.--Oh! Mr. Frank Churchill, I must tell you
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|
my mother's spectacles have never been in fault since; the rivet
|
|
never came out again. My mother often talks of your good-nature.
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|
Does not she, Jane?--Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank Churchill?--
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|
Ah! here's Miss Woodhouse.--Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do you do?--
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|
Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite in fairy-land!--
|
|
Such a transformation!--Must not compliment, I know (eyeing Emma
|
|
most complacently)--that would be rude--but upon my word, Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
you do look--how do you like Jane's hair?--You are a judge.--
|
|
She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her hair!--
|
|
No hairdresser from London I think could.--Ah! Dr. Hughes I declare--
|
|
and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for
|
|
a moment.--How do you do? How do you do?--Very well, I thank you.
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|
This is delightful, is not it?--Where's dear Mr. Richard?--
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|
Oh! there he is. Don't disturb him. Much better employed talking
|
|
to the young ladies. How do you do, Mr. Richard?--I saw you the
|
|
other day as you rode through the town--Mrs. Otway, I protest!--
|
|
and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway and Miss Caroline.--Such a host
|
|
of friends!--and Mr. George and Mr. Arthur!--How do you do? How do
|
|
you all do?--Quite well, I am much obliged to you. Never better.--
|
|
Don't I hear another carriage?--Who can this be?--very likely the
|
|
worthy Coles.--Upon my word, this is charming to be standing about
|
|
among such friends! And such a noble fire!--I am quite roasted.
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|
No coffee, I thank you, for me--never take coffee.--A little tea
|
|
if you please, sir, by and bye,--no hurry--Oh! here it comes.
|
|
Every thing so good!"
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|
|
Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss
|
|
Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the
|
|
discourse of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little
|
|
way behind her.--He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too,
|
|
she could not determine. After a good many compliments to Jane
|
|
on her dress and look, compliments very quietly and properly taken,
|
|
Mrs. Elton was evidently wanting to be complimented herself--
|
|
and it was, "How do you like my gown?--How do you like my trimming?--
|
|
How has Wright done my hair?"--with many other relative questions,
|
|
all answered with patient politeness. Mrs. Elton then said,
|
|
"Nobody can think less of dress in general than I do--but upon such
|
|
an occasion as this, when every body's eyes are so much upon me,
|
|
and in compliment to the Westons--who I have no doubt are giving
|
|
this ball chiefly to do me honour--I would not wish to be inferior
|
|
to others. And I see very few pearls in the room except mine.--
|
|
So Frank Churchill is a capital dancer, I understand.--We shall see
|
|
if our styles suit.--A fine young man certainly is Frank Churchill.
|
|
I like him very well."
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|
|
|
At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could
|
|
not but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want
|
|
to hear more;--and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while,
|
|
till another suspension brought Mrs. Elton's tones again distinctly
|
|
forward.--Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
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|
|
|
"Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?--
|
|
I was this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be
|
|
impatient for tidings of us."
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|
|
|
"Jane!"--repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and displeasure.--
|
|
"That is easy--but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it, I suppose."
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|
"How do you like Mrs. Elton?" said Emma in a whisper.
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|
|
|
"Not at all."
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|
|
|
"You are ungrateful."
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|
|
|
"Ungrateful!--What do you mean?" Then changing from a frown to
|
|
a smile--"No, do not tell me--I do not want to know what you mean.--
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|
Where is my father?--When are we to begin dancing?"
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|
|
|
Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour.
|
|
He walked off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity,
|
|
which must be laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston
|
|
that Mrs. Elton must be asked to begin the ball; that she would
|
|
expect it; which interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma
|
|
that distinction.--Emma heard the sad truth with fortitude.
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|
|
|
"And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?" said Mr. Weston.
|
|
"She will think Frank ought to ask her."
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|
|
|
Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise;
|
|
and boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most
|
|
perfect approbation of--and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was
|
|
wanting him to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business
|
|
was to help to persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.--
|
|
Mr. Weston and Mrs. Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss
|
|
Woodhouse followed. Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton,
|
|
though she had always considered the ball as peculiarly for her.
|
|
It was almost enough to make her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had
|
|
undoubtedly the advantage, at this time, in vanity completely gratified;
|
|
for though she had intended to begin with Frank Churchill, she could
|
|
not lose by the change. Mr. Weston might be his son's superior.--
|
|
In spite of this little rub, however, Emma was smiling with enjoyment,
|
|
delighted to see the respectable length of the set as it was forming,
|
|
and to feel that she had so many hours of unusual festivity before her.--
|
|
She was more disturbed by Mr. Knightley's not dancing than by any
|
|
thing else.--There he was, among the standers-by, where he ought not
|
|
to be; he ought to be dancing,--not classing himself with the husbands,
|
|
and fathers, and whist-players, who were pretending to feel an interest
|
|
in the dance till their rubbers were made up,--so young as he looked!--
|
|
He could not have appeared to greater advantage perhaps anywhere,
|
|
than where he had placed himself. His tall, firm, upright figure,
|
|
among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of the elderly men,
|
|
was such as Emma felt must draw every body's eyes; and, excepting her
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own partner, there was not one among the whole row of young men
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who could be compared with him.--He moved a few steps nearer,
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and those few steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike
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a manner, with what natural grace, he must have danced, would he
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but take the trouble.--Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him
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to smile; but in general he was looking grave. She wished he could
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love a ballroom better, and could like Frank Churchill better.--
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He seemed often observing her. She must not flatter herself that he
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thought of her dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour,
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she did not feel afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between
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her and her partner. They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends,
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than lovers. That Frank Churchill thought less of her than he had done,
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was indubitable.
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The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant
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attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body
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seemed happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball,
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which is seldom bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be,
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was repeatedly given in the very beginning of the existence of this.
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Of very important, very recordable events, it was not more productive
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than such meetings usually are. There was one, however, which Emma
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thought something of.--The two last dances before supper were begun,
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and Harriet had no partner;--the only young lady sitting down;--
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and so equal had been hitherto the number of dancers, that how there
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could be any one disengaged was the wonder!--But Emma's wonder
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lessened soon afterwards, on seeing Mr. Elton sauntering about.
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He would not ask Harriet to dance if it were possible to be avoided:
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she was sure he would not--and she was expecting him every moment to
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escape into the card-room.
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Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room
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where the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about
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in front of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution
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of maintaining it. He did not omit being sometimes directly
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before Miss Smith, or speaking to those who were close to her.--
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Emma saw it. She was not yet dancing; she was working her way
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up from the bottom, and had therefore leisure to look around,
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and by only turning her head a little she saw it all. When she was
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half-way up the set, the whole group were exactly behind her, and she
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would no longer allow her eyes to watch; but Mr. Elton was so near,
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that she heard every syllable of a dialogue which just then took
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place between him and Mrs. Weston; and she perceived that his wife,
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who was standing immediately above her, was not only listening also,
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but even encouraging him by significant glances.--The kind-hearted,
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gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and say, "Do not
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you dance, Mr. Elton?" to which his prompt reply was, "Most readily,
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Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me."
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"Me!--oh! no--I would get you a better partner than myself.
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I am no dancer."
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"If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance," said he, "I shall have great pleasure,
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I am sure--for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old married man,
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and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very great
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pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs. Gilbert."
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"Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady
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disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing--Miss Smith."
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"Miss Smith!--oh!--I had not observed.--You are extremely obliging--
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and if I were not an old married man.--But my dancing days are over,
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Mrs. Weston. You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most happy
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to do, at your command--but my dancing days are over."
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Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what
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surprize and mortification she must be returning to her seat.
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This was Mr. Elton! the amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.--
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She looked round for a moment; he had joined Mr. Knightley at a
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little distance, and was arranging himself for settled conversation,
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while smiles of high glee passed between him and his wife.
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She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared
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her face might be as hot.
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In another moment a happier sight caught her;--Mr. Knightley
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leading Harriet to the set!--Never had she been more surprized,
|
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seldom more delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure
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and gratitude, both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be
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thanking him; and though too distant for speech, her countenance
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|
said much, as soon as she could catch his eye again.
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His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it,
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extremely good; and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky,
|
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if it had not been for the cruel state of things before, and for
|
|
the very complete enjoyment and very high sense of the distinction
|
|
which her happy features announced. It was not thrown away on her,
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she bounded higher than ever, flew farther down the middle,
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|
and was in a continual course of smiles.
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Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted)
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very foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife,
|
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though growing very like her;--she spoke some of her feelings,
|
|
by observing audibly to her partner,
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|
|
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"Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!--Very goodnatured,
|
|
I declare."
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Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be
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|
heard from that moment, without interruption, till her being
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|
seated at table and taking up her spoon.
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|
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|
"Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?--Here is your tippet.
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|
Mrs. Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid
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|
there will be draughts in the passage, though every thing has
|
|
been done--One door nailed up--Quantities of matting--My dear Jane,
|
|
indeed you must. Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging!
|
|
How well you put it on!--so gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!--
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|
Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I said I should, to help grandmama
|
|
to bed, and got back again, and nobody missed me.--I set off without
|
|
saying a word, just as I told you. Grandmama was quite well,
|
|
had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a vast deal of chat,
|
|
and backgammon.--Tea was made downstairs, biscuits and baked apples
|
|
and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some of her throws:
|
|
and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were amused,
|
|
and who were your partners. `Oh!' said I, `I shall not forestall Jane;
|
|
I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love to tell you
|
|
all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton,
|
|
I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.'
|
|
My dear sir, you are too obliging.--Is there nobody you would
|
|
not rather?--I am not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word,
|
|
Jane on one arm, and me on the other!--Stop, stop, let us stand
|
|
a little back, Mrs. Elton is going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant
|
|
she looks!--Beautiful lace!--Now we all follow in her train.
|
|
Quite the queen of the evening!--Well, here we are at the passage.
|
|
Two steps, Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no, there is
|
|
but one. Well, I was persuaded there were two. How very odd!
|
|
I was convinced there were two, and there is but one. I never saw any
|
|
thing equal to the comfort and style--Candles everywhere.--I was telling
|
|
you of your grandmama, Jane,--There was a little disappointment.--
|
|
The baked apples and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know;
|
|
but there was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus
|
|
brought in at first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the
|
|
asparagus quite boiled enough, sent it all out again. Now there
|
|
is nothing grandmama loves better than sweetbread and asparagus--
|
|
so she was rather disappointed, but we agreed we would not speak of it
|
|
to any body, for fear of its getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
who would be so very much concerned!--Well, this is brilliant!
|
|
I am all amazement! could not have supposed any thing!--Such
|
|
elegance and profusion!--I have seen nothing like it since--
|
|
Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit? Anywhere, so that
|
|
Jane is not in a draught. Where I sit is of no consequence.
|
|
Oh! do you recommend this side?--Well, I am sure, Mr. Churchill--
|
|
only it seems too good--but just as you please. What you direct
|
|
in this house cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever
|
|
recollect half the dishes for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me!
|
|
I should not be helped so soon, but it smells most excellent, and I
|
|
cannot help beginning."
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|
|
|
Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till
|
|
after supper; but, when they were all in the ballroom again,
|
|
her eyes invited him irresistibly to come to her and be thanked.
|
|
He was warm in his reprobation of Mr. Elton's conduct; it had been
|
|
unpardonable rudeness; and Mrs. Elton's looks also received the due
|
|
share of censure.
|
|
|
|
"They aimed at wounding more than Harriet," said he. "Emma, why
|
|
is it that they are your enemies?"
|
|
|
|
He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving
|
|
no answer, added, "She ought not to be angry with you, I suspect,
|
|
whatever he may be.--To that surmise, you say nothing, of course;
|
|
but confess, Emma, that you did want him to marry Harriet."
|
|
|
|
"I did," replied Emma, "and they cannot forgive me."
|
|
|
|
He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it,
|
|
and he only said,
|
|
|
|
"I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections."
|
|
|
|
"Can you trust me with such flatterers?--Does my vain spirit ever
|
|
tell me I am wrong?"
|
|
|
|
"Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.--If one leads
|
|
you wrong, I am sure the other tells you of it."
|
|
|
|
"I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton.
|
|
There is a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I
|
|
did not: and I was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet.
|
|
It was through a series of strange blunders!"
|
|
|
|
"And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the justice
|
|
to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has chosen for
|
|
himself.--Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which Mrs. Elton
|
|
is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless girl--
|
|
infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such
|
|
a woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I expected."
|
|
|
|
Emma was extremely gratified.--They were interrupted by the bustle
|
|
of Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.
|
|
|
|
"Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all doing?--
|
|
Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is lazy!
|
|
Every body is asleep!"
|
|
|
|
"I am ready," said Emma, "whenever I am wanted."
|
|
|
|
"Whom are you going to dance with?" asked Mr. Knightley.
|
|
|
|
She hesitated a moment, and then replied, "With you, if you will
|
|
ask me."
|
|
|
|
"Will you?" said he, offering his hand.
|
|
|
|
"Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we
|
|
are not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper."
|
|
|
|
"Brother and sister! no, indeed."
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|
|
|
CHAPTER III
|
|
|
|
This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable
|
|
pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball,
|
|
which she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.--She was
|
|
extremely glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting
|
|
the Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so
|
|
much alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour,
|
|
was peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for
|
|
a few minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been
|
|
the occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked
|
|
forward to another happy result--the cure of Harriet's infatuation.--
|
|
From Harriet's manner of speaking of the circumstance before they
|
|
quitted the ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes
|
|
were suddenly opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton
|
|
was not the superior creature she had believed him. The fever
|
|
was over, and Emma could harbour little fear of the pulse being
|
|
quickened again by injurious courtesy. She depended on the evil
|
|
feelings of the Eltons for supplying all the discipline of pointed
|
|
neglect that could be farther requisite.--Harriet rational,
|
|
Frank Churchill not too much in love, and Mr. Knightley not
|
|
wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer must be before her!
|
|
|
|
She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told
|
|
her that he could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping
|
|
at Hartfield, as he was to be at home by the middle of the day.
|
|
She did not regret it.
|
|
|
|
Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them all
|
|
to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened up
|
|
for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their grandpapa,
|
|
when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons entered
|
|
whom she had never less expected to see together--Frank Churchill,
|
|
with Harriet leaning on his arm--actually Harriet!--A moment
|
|
sufficed to convince her that something extraordinary had happened.
|
|
Harriet looked white and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.--
|
|
The iron gates and the front-door were not twenty yards asunder;--
|
|
they were all three soon in the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking
|
|
into a chair fainted away.
|
|
|
|
A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered,
|
|
and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting,
|
|
but the suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma
|
|
acquainted with the whole.
|
|
|
|
Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at
|
|
Mrs. Goddard's, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together,
|
|
and taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public
|
|
enough for safety, had led them into alarm.--About half a mile
|
|
beyond Highbury, making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms
|
|
on each side, it became for a considerable stretch very retired;
|
|
and when the young ladies had advanced some way into it,
|
|
they had suddenly perceived at a small distance before them,
|
|
on a broader patch of greensward by the side, a party of gipsies.
|
|
A child on the watch, came towards them to beg; and Miss Bickerton,
|
|
excessively frightened, gave a great scream, and calling on Harriet
|
|
to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a slight hedge at the top,
|
|
and made the best of her way by a short cut back to Highbury.
|
|
But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered very much
|
|
from cramp after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the bank
|
|
brought on such a return of it as made her absolutely powerless--
|
|
and in this state, and exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged
|
|
to remain.
|
|
|
|
How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been
|
|
more courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack
|
|
could not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a
|
|
dozen children, headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous,
|
|
and impertinent in look, though not absolutely in word.--More and
|
|
more frightened, she immediately promised them money, and taking out
|
|
her purse, gave them a shilling, and begged them not to want more,
|
|
or to use her ill.--She was then able to walk, though but slowly,
|
|
and was moving away--but her terror and her purse were too tempting,
|
|
and she was followed, or rather surrounded, by the whole gang,
|
|
demanding more.
|
|
|
|
In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling
|
|
and conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate
|
|
chance his leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him
|
|
to her assistance at this critical moment. The pleasantness
|
|
of the morning had induced him to walk forward, and leave his
|
|
horses to meet him by another road, a mile or two beyond Highbury--
|
|
and happening to have borrowed a pair of scissors the night before
|
|
of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to restore them, he had
|
|
been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a few minutes:
|
|
he was therefore later than he had intended; and being on foot,
|
|
was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them.
|
|
The terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet
|
|
was then their own portion. He had left them completely frightened;
|
|
and Harriet eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak,
|
|
had just strength enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits
|
|
were quite overcome. It was his idea to bring her to Hartfield:
|
|
he had thought of no other place.
|
|
|
|
This was the amount of the whole story,--of his communication and
|
|
of Harriet's as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.--
|
|
He dared not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays
|
|
left him not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give
|
|
assurance of her safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there
|
|
being such a set of people in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley,
|
|
he set off, with all the grateful blessings that she could utter
|
|
for her friend and herself.
|
|
|
|
Such an adventure as this,--a fine young man and a lovely young
|
|
woman thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting
|
|
certain ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain.
|
|
So Emma thought, at least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian,
|
|
could even a mathematician have seen what she did, have witnessed their
|
|
appearance together, and heard their history of it, without feeling
|
|
that circumstances had been at work to make them peculiarly interesting
|
|
to each other?--How much more must an imaginist, like herself,
|
|
be on fire with speculation and foresight!--especially with such
|
|
a groundwork of anticipation as her mind had already made.
|
|
|
|
It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever
|
|
occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory;
|
|
no rencontre, no alarm of the kind;--and now it had happened
|
|
to the very person, and at the very hour, when the other very
|
|
person was chancing to pass by to rescue her!--It certainly
|
|
was very extraordinary!--And knowing, as she did, the favourable
|
|
state of mind of each at this period, it struck her the more.
|
|
He was wishing to get the better of his attachment to herself,
|
|
she just recovering from her mania for Mr. Elton. It seemed as if
|
|
every thing united to promise the most interesting consequences.
|
|
It was not possible that the occurrence should not be strongly
|
|
recommending each to the other.
|
|
|
|
In the few minutes' conversation which she had yet had with him,
|
|
while Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror,
|
|
her naivete, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a
|
|
sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet's
|
|
own account had been given, he had expressed his indignation
|
|
at the abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms.
|
|
Every thing was to take its natural course, however, neither impelled
|
|
nor assisted. She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint.
|
|
No, she had had enough of interference. There could be no harm
|
|
in a scheme, a mere passive scheme. It was no more than a wish.
|
|
Beyond it she would on no account proceed.
|
|
|
|
Emma's first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge
|
|
of what had passed,--aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion:
|
|
but she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half
|
|
an hour it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event
|
|
to engage those who talk most, the young and the low; and all
|
|
the youth and servants in the place were soon in the happiness of
|
|
frightful news. The last night's ball seemed lost in the gipsies.
|
|
Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat, and, as Emma had foreseen,
|
|
would scarcely be satisfied without their promising never to go
|
|
beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort to him that many
|
|
inquiries after himself and Miss Woodhouse (for his neighbours
|
|
knew that he loved to be inquired after), as well as Miss Smith,
|
|
were coming in during the rest of the day; and he had the pleasure
|
|
of returning for answer, that they were all very indifferent--
|
|
which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly well,
|
|
and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with.
|
|
She had an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such
|
|
a man, for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not
|
|
invent illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.
|
|
|
|
The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took
|
|
themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have
|
|
walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole
|
|
history dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma
|
|
and her nephews:--in her imagination it maintained its ground,
|
|
and Henry and John were still asking every day for the story of
|
|
Harriet and the gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right
|
|
if she varied in the slightest particular from the original recital.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
|
|
|
A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came
|
|
one morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after
|
|
sitting down and hesitating, thus began:
|
|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse--if you are at leisure--I have something that I
|
|
should like to tell you--a sort of confession to make--and then,
|
|
you know, it will be over."
|
|
|
|
Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak.
|
|
There was a seriousness in Harriet's manner which prepared her,
|
|
quite as much as her words, for something more than ordinary.
|
|
|
|
"It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish," she continued,
|
|
"to have no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily
|
|
quite an altered creature in one respect, it is very fit that you
|
|
should have the satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say
|
|
more than is necessary--I am too much ashamed of having given way
|
|
as I have done, and I dare say you understand me."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said Emma, "I hope I do."
|
|
|
|
"How I could so long a time be fancying myself! . . ."
|
|
cried Harriet, warmly. "It seems like madness! I can see nothing
|
|
at all extraordinary in him now.--I do not care whether I meet
|
|
him or not--except that of the two I had rather not see him--
|
|
and indeed I would go any distance round to avoid him--but I do
|
|
not envy his wife in the least; I neither admire her nor envy her,
|
|
as I have done: she is very charming, I dare say, and all that,
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but I think her very ill-tempered and disagreeable--I shall never forget
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her look the other night!--However, I assure you, Miss Woodhouse,
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I wish her no evil.--No, let them be ever so happy together,
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it will not give me another moment's pang: and to convince you
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that I have been speaking truth, I am now going to destroy--what I
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ought to have destroyed long ago--what I ought never to have kept--
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I know that very well (blushing as she spoke).--However, now I
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will destroy it all--and it is my particular wish to do it
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in your presence, that you may see how rational I am grown.
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Cannot you guess what this parcel holds?" said she, with a conscious look.
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"Not the least in the world.--Did he ever give you any thing?"
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"No--I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have
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valued very much."
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She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words Most
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precious treasures on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited.
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Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience.
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Within abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box,
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which Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton;
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but, excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.
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"Now," said Harriet, "you must recollect."
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"No, indeed I do not."
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"Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget
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what passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very
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last times we ever met in it!--It was but a very few days before I
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had my sore throat--just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came--
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I think the very evening.--Do not you remember his cutting his finger
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with your new penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?--
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But, as you had none about you, and knew I had, you desired
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me to supply him; and so I took mine out and cut him a piece;
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but it was a great deal too large, and he cut it smaller, and kept
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playing some time with what was left, before he gave it back to me.
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And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help making a treasure of it--
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so I put it by never to be used, and looked at it now and then
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as a great treat."
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"My dearest Harriet!" cried Emma, putting her hand before her face,
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and jumping up, "you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear.
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Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving
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this relic--I knew nothing of that till this moment--but the cutting
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the finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none
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about me!--Oh! my sins, my sins!--And I had plenty all the while in
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my pocket!--One of my senseless tricks!--I deserve to be under a
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continual blush all the rest of my life.--Well--(sitting down again)--
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go on--what else?"
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"And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never
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suspected it, you did it so naturally."
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"And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!"
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said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided
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between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself,
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"Lord bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton
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a piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about!
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I never was equal to this."
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"Here," resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, "here is
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something still more valuable, I mean that has been more valuable,
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because this is what did really once belong to him, which the
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court-plaister never did."
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Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end
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of an old pencil,--the part without any lead.
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"This was really his," said Harriet.--"Do not you remember
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one morning?--no, I dare say you do not. But one morning--I forget
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exactly the day--but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before
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that evening, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book;
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it was about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him
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something about brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down;
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but when he took out his pencil, there was so little lead that he
|
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soon cut it all away, and it would not do, so you lent him another,
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and this was left upon the table as good for nothing. But I kept
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my eye on it; and, as soon as I dared, caught it up, and never
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parted with it again from that moment."
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"I do remember it," cried Emma; "I perfectly remember it.--
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Talking about spruce-beer.--Oh! yes--Mr. Knightley and I both saying we
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liked it, and Mr. Elton's seeming resolved to learn to like it too.
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|
I perfectly remember it.--Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here,
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was not he? I have an idea he was standing just here."
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"Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.--It is very odd,
|
|
but I cannot recollect.--Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember,
|
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much about where I am now."--
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"Well, go on."
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"Oh! that's all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say--
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except that I am now going to throw them both behind the fire,
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and I wish you to see me do it."
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"My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness
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in treasuring up these things?"
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"Yes, simpleton as I was!--but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish
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|
I could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong
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of me, you know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married.
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|
I knew it was--but had not resolution enough to part with them."
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"But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?--I have
|
|
not a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister
|
|
might be useful."
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"I shall be happier to burn it," replied Harriet. "It has
|
|
a disagreeable look to me. I must get rid of every thing.--
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|
There it goes, and there is an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton."
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"And when," thought Emma, "will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?"
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She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was
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|
already made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had
|
|
told no fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet's.--About a
|
|
fortnight after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation,
|
|
and quite undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment,
|
|
which made the information she received more valuable.
|
|
She merely said, in the course of some trivial chat, "Well, Harriet,
|
|
whenever you marry I would advise you to do so and so"--and thought
|
|
no more of it, till after a minute's silence she heard Harriet
|
|
say in a very serious tone, "I shall never marry."
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Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a
|
|
moment's debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,
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"Never marry!--This is a new resolution."
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"It is one that I shall never change, however."
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|
After another short hesitation, "I hope it does not proceed from--
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|
I hope it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?"
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|
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"Mr. Elton indeed!" cried Harriet indignantly.--"Oh! no"--and Emma
|
|
could just catch the words, "so superior to Mr. Elton!"
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|
|
|
She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed
|
|
no farther?--should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?--
|
|
Perhaps Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did;
|
|
or perhaps if she were totally silent, it might only drive
|
|
Harriet into asking her to hear too much; and against any thing
|
|
like such an unreserve as had been, such an open and frequent
|
|
discussion of hopes and chances, she was perfectly resolved.--
|
|
She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at once,
|
|
all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always best.
|
|
She had previously determined how far she would proceed,
|
|
on any application of the sort; and it would be safer for both,
|
|
to have the judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.--
|
|
She was decided, and thus spoke--
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"Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning.
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|
Your resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying,
|
|
results from an idea that the person whom you might prefer,
|
|
would be too greatly your superior in situation to think of you.
|
|
Is not it so?"
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|
|
|
"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose--
|
|
Indeed I am not so mad.--But it is a pleasure to me to admire him
|
|
at a distance--and to think of his infinite superiority to all
|
|
the rest of the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration,
|
|
which are so proper, in me especially."
|
|
|
|
"I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered
|
|
you was enough to warm your heart."
|
|
|
|
"Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!--
|
|
The very recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time--
|
|
when I saw him coming--his noble look--and my wretchedness before.
|
|
Such a change! In one moment such a change! From perfect misery
|
|
to perfect happiness!"
|
|
|
|
"It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.--
|
|
Yes, honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.--
|
|
But that it will be a fortunate preference is more that I can promise.
|
|
I do not advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any
|
|
means engage for its being returned. Consider what you are about.
|
|
Perhaps it will be wisest in you to check your feelings while you can:
|
|
at any rate do not let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded
|
|
of his liking you. Be observant of him. Let his behaviour be the
|
|
guide of your sensations. I give you this caution now, because I
|
|
shall never speak to you again on the subject. I am determined
|
|
against all interference. Henceforward I know nothing of the matter.
|
|
Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very wrong before;
|
|
we will be cautious now.--He is your superior, no doubt, and there
|
|
do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature;
|
|
but yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have
|
|
been matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself.
|
|
I would not have you too sanguine; though, however it may end,
|
|
be assured your raising your thoughts to him, is a mark of good taste
|
|
which I shall always know how to value."
|
|
|
|
Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude.
|
|
Emma was very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing
|
|
for her friend. Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind--
|
|
and it must be saving her from the danger of degradation.
|
|
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|
CHAPTER V
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|
|
In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened
|
|
upon Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change.
|
|
The Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings,
|
|
and of the use to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax
|
|
was still at her grandmother's; and as the return of the Campbells
|
|
from Ireland was again delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer,
|
|
fixed for it, she was likely to remain there full two months longer,
|
|
provided at least she were able to defeat Mrs. Elton's activity
|
|
in her service, and save herself from being hurried into a delightful
|
|
situation against her will.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had certainly
|
|
taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing to dislike
|
|
him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his
|
|
pursuit of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable.
|
|
Every thing declared it; his own attentions, his father's hints,
|
|
his mother-in-law's guarded silence; it was all in unison;
|
|
words, conduct, discretion, and indiscretion, told the same story.
|
|
But while so many were devoting him to Emma, and Emma herself making him
|
|
over to Harriet, Mr. Knightley began to suspect him of some inclination
|
|
to trifle with Jane Fairfax. He could not understand it; but there
|
|
were symptoms of intelligence between them--he thought so at least--
|
|
symptoms of admiration on his side, which, having once observed,
|
|
he could not persuade himself to think entirely void of meaning,
|
|
however he might wish to escape any of Emma's errors of imagination.
|
|
She was not present when the suspicion first arose. He was dining
|
|
with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons'; and he had
|
|
seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which,
|
|
from the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place.
|
|
When he was again in their company, he could not help remembering
|
|
what he had seen; nor could he avoid observations which, unless it
|
|
were like Cowper and his fire at twilight,
|
|
|
|
"Myself creating what I saw,"
|
|
|
|
brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something
|
|
of private liking, of private understanding even, between Frank
|
|
Churchill and Jane.
|
|
|
|
He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did,
|
|
to spend his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going
|
|
to walk; he joined them; and, on returning, they fell in with a
|
|
larger party, who, like themselves, judged it wisest to take their
|
|
exercise early, as the weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston
|
|
and their son, Miss Bates and her niece, who had accidentally met.
|
|
They all united; and, on reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it
|
|
was exactly the sort of visiting that would be welcome to her father,
|
|
pressed them all to go in and drink tea with him. The Randalls
|
|
party agreed to it immediately; and after a pretty long speech
|
|
from Miss Bates, which few persons listened to, she also found it
|
|
possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse's most obliging invitation.
|
|
|
|
As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on horseback.
|
|
The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
|
|
|
|
"By the bye," said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently,
|
|
"what became of Mr. Perry's plan of setting up his carriage?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, "I did not know that he
|
|
ever had any such plan."
|
|
|
|
"Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago."
|
|
|
|
"Me! impossible!"
|
|
|
|
"Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as
|
|
what was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody,
|
|
and was extremely happy about it. It was owing to her persuasion,
|
|
as she thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal
|
|
of harm. You must remember it now?"
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment."
|
|
|
|
"Never! really, never!--Bless me! how could it be?--Then I must
|
|
have dreamt it--but I was completely persuaded--Miss Smith,
|
|
you walk as if you were tired. You will not be sorry to find
|
|
yourself at home."
|
|
|
|
"What is this?--What is this?" cried Mr. Weston, "about Perry
|
|
and a carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank?
|
|
I am glad he can afford it. You had it from himself, had you?"
|
|
|
|
"No, sir," replied his son, laughing, "I seem to have had it
|
|
from nobody.--Very odd!--I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston's
|
|
having mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago,
|
|
with all these particulars--but as she declares she never heard
|
|
a syllable of it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am
|
|
a great dreamer. I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away--
|
|
and when I have gone through my particular friends, then I begin
|
|
dreaming of Mr. and Mrs. Perry."
|
|
|
|
"It is odd though," observed his father, "that you should have had such
|
|
a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you
|
|
should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry's setting up his carriage!
|
|
and his wife's persuading him to it, out of care for his health--
|
|
just what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other;
|
|
only a little premature. What an air of probability sometimes
|
|
runs through a dream! And at others, what a heap of absurdities
|
|
it is! Well, Frank, your dream certainly shews that Highbury is in
|
|
your thoughts when you are absent. Emma, you are a great dreamer,
|
|
I think?"
|
|
|
|
Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests
|
|
to prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach
|
|
of Mr. Weston's hint.
|
|
|
|
"Why, to own the truth," cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain
|
|
to be heard the last two minutes, "if I must speak on this subject,
|
|
there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have--I do not
|
|
mean to say that he did not dream it--I am sure I have sometimes
|
|
the oddest dreams in the world--but if I am questioned about it,
|
|
I must acknowledge that there was such an idea last spring;
|
|
for Mrs. Perry herself mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles
|
|
knew of it as well as ourselves--but it was quite a secret,
|
|
known to nobody else, and only thought of about three days.
|
|
Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he should have a carriage, and came
|
|
to my mother in great spirits one morning because she thought she
|
|
had prevailed. Jane, don't you remember grandmama's telling us
|
|
of it when we got home? I forget where we had been walking to--
|
|
very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was to Randalls.
|
|
Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my mother--indeed I do
|
|
not know who is not--and she had mentioned it to her in confidence;
|
|
she had no objection to her telling us, of course, but it was not
|
|
to go beyond: and, from that day to this, I never mentioned it
|
|
to a soul that I know of. At the same time, I will not positively
|
|
answer for my having never dropt a hint, because I know I do
|
|
sometimes pop out a thing before I am aware. I am a talker,
|
|
you know; I am rather a talker; and now and then I have let a thing
|
|
escape me which I should not. I am not like Jane; I wish I were.
|
|
I will answer for it she never betrayed the least thing in the world.
|
|
Where is she?--Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember Mrs. Perry's coming.--
|
|
Extraordinary dream, indeed!"
|
|
|
|
They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley's eyes had preceded
|
|
Miss Bates's in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill's face,
|
|
where he thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away,
|
|
he had involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind,
|
|
and too busy with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two
|
|
other gentlemen waited at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley
|
|
suspected in Frank Churchill the determination of catching her eye--
|
|
he seemed watching her intently--in vain, however, if it were so--
|
|
Jane passed between them into the hall, and looked at neither.
|
|
|
|
There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must
|
|
be borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round
|
|
the large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield,
|
|
and which none but Emma could have had power to place there and
|
|
persuade her father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke,
|
|
on which two of his daily meals had, for forty years been crowded.
|
|
Tea passed pleasantly, and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse," said Frank Churchill, after examining a table
|
|
behind him, which he could reach as he sat, "have your nephews taken
|
|
away their alphabets--their box of letters? It used to stand here.
|
|
Where is it? This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought
|
|
to be treated rather as winter than summer. We had great amusement
|
|
with those letters one morning. I want to puzzle you again."
|
|
|
|
Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table
|
|
was quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much
|
|
disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming
|
|
words for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled.
|
|
The quietness of the game made it particularly eligible for
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse, who had often been distressed by the more animated sort,
|
|
which Mr. Weston had occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily
|
|
occupied in lamenting, with tender melancholy, over the departure
|
|
of the "poor little boys," or in fondly pointing out, as he took
|
|
up any stray letter near him, how beautifully Emma had written it.
|
|
|
|
Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave
|
|
a slight glance round the table, and applied herself to it.
|
|
Frank was next to Emma, Jane opposite to them--and Mr. Knightley
|
|
so placed as to see them all; and it was his object to see as much
|
|
as he could, with as little apparent observation. The word
|
|
was discovered, and with a faint smile pushed away. If meant
|
|
to be immediately mixed with the others, and buried from sight,
|
|
she should have looked on the table instead of looking just across,
|
|
for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after every fresh word,
|
|
and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell to work.
|
|
She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help.
|
|
The word was blunder; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it,
|
|
there was a blush on Jane's cheek which gave it a meaning not
|
|
otherwise ostensible. Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream;
|
|
but how it could all be, was beyond his comprehension.
|
|
How the delicacy, the discretion of his favourite could have been
|
|
so lain asleep! He feared there must be some decided involvement.
|
|
Disingenuousness and double dealing seemed to meet him at every turn.
|
|
These letters were but the vehicle for gallantry and trick.
|
|
It was a child's play, chosen to conceal a deeper game on Frank
|
|
Churchill's part.
|
|
|
|
With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great
|
|
alarm and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions.
|
|
He saw a short word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look
|
|
sly and demure. He saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found
|
|
it highly entertaining, though it was something which she judged it
|
|
proper to appear to censure; for she said, "Nonsense! for shame!"
|
|
He heard Frank Churchill next say, with a glance towards Jane,
|
|
"I will give it to her--shall I?"--and as clearly heard Emma
|
|
opposing it with eager laughing warmth. "No, no, you must not;
|
|
you shall not, indeed."
|
|
|
|
It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love
|
|
without feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance,
|
|
directly handed over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular
|
|
degree of sedate civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley's
|
|
excessive curiosity to know what this word might be, made him seize
|
|
every possible moment for darting his eye towards it, and it was
|
|
not long before he saw it to be Dixon. Jane Fairfax's perception
|
|
seemed to accompany his; her comprehension was certainly more equal
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to the covert meaning, the superior intelligence, of those five letters
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so arranged. She was evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing
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herself watched, blushed more deeply than he had ever perceived her,
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and saying only, "I did not know that proper names were allowed,"
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pushed away the letters with even an angry spirit, and looked
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resolved to be engaged by no other word that could be offered.
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Her face was averted from those who had made the attack, and turned
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towards her aunt.
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"Aye, very true, my dear," cried the latter, though Jane had not
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spoken a word--"I was just going to say the same thing. It is time
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for us to be going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama
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will be looking for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging.
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We really must wish you good night."
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Jane's alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt
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had preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit
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the table; but so many were also moving, that she could not get away;
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and Mr. Knightley thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously
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pushed towards her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined.
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She was afterwards looking for her shawl--Frank Churchill was
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looking also--it was growing dusk, and the room was in confusion;
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and how they parted, Mr. Knightley could not tell.
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He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full
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of what he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist
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his observations, he must--yes, he certainly must, as a friend--
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an anxious friend--give Emma some hint, ask her some question.
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He could not see her in a situation of such danger, without trying to
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preserve her. It was his duty.
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"Pray, Emma," said he, "may I ask in what lay the great amusement,
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the poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax?
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I saw the word, and am curious to know how it could be so very
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entertaining to the one, and so very distressing to the other."
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Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the
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true explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed,
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she was really ashamed of having ever imparted them.
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"Oh!" she cried in evident embarrassment, "it all meant nothing;
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a mere joke among ourselves."
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"The joke," he replied gravely, "seemed confined to you
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and Mr. Churchill."
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He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would
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rather busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little
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while in doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference--
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fruitless interference. Emma's confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy,
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seemed to declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak.
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He owed it to her, to risk any thing that might be involved in
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an unwelcome interference, rather than her welfare; to encounter
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any thing, rather than the remembrance of neglect in such a cause.
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"My dear Emma," said he at last, with earnest kindness, "do you
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think you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between
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the gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?"
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"Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.--
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Why do you make a doubt of it?"
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"Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her,
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or that she admired him?"
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"Never, never!" she cried with a most open eagerness--"Never, for
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the twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me.
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And how could it possibly come into your head?"
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"I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between them--
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certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be public."
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"Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you
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can vouchsafe to let your imagination wander--but it will not do--
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very sorry to check you in your first essay--but indeed it will
|
|
not do. There is no admiration between them, I do assure you;
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and the appearances which have caught you, have arisen from some
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peculiar circumstances--feelings rather of a totally different nature--
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it is impossible exactly to explain:--there is a good deal of
|
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nonsense in it--but the part which is capable of being communicated,
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which is sense, is, that they are as far from any attachment or
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admiration for one another, as any two beings in the world can be.
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That is, I presume it to be so on her side, and I can answer for its
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being so on his. I will answer for the gentleman's indifference."
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She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction
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|
which silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would
|
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have prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars
|
|
of his suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows
|
|
of a circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did
|
|
not meet hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings
|
|
were too much irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated
|
|
into an absolute fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse's tender
|
|
habits required almost every evening throughout the year, he soon
|
|
afterwards took a hasty leave, and walked home to the coolness
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and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
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CHAPTER VI
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After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and
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Mrs. Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification
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of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn.
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|
No such importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores
|
|
at present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again
|
|
restricted to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings'
|
|
coming had been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill,
|
|
whose health seemed every day to supply a different report,
|
|
and the situation of Mrs. Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped
|
|
might eventually be as much increased by the arrival of a child,
|
|
as that of all her neighbours was by the approach of it.
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Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great
|
|
deal of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations
|
|
must all wait, and every projected party be still only talked of.
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|
So she thought at first;--but a little consideration convinced
|
|
her that every thing need not be put off. Why should not they
|
|
explore to Box Hill though the Sucklings did not come? They could
|
|
go there again with them in the autumn. It was settled that they
|
|
should go to Box Hill. That there was to be such a party had been
|
|
long generally known: it had even given the idea of another.
|
|
Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wished to see what every body
|
|
found so well worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed
|
|
to chuse some fine morning and drive thither. Two or three more
|
|
of the chosen only were to be admitted to join them, and it was to
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|
be done in a quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely superior
|
|
to the bustle and preparation, the regular eating and drinking,
|
|
and picnic parade of the Eltons and the Sucklings.
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|
This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could
|
|
not but feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing
|
|
from Mr. Weston that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her
|
|
brother and sister had failed her, that the two parties should unite,
|
|
and go together; and that as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded
|
|
to it, so it was to be, if she had no objection. Now, as her
|
|
objection was nothing but her very great dislike of Mrs. Elton,
|
|
of which Mr. Weston must already be perfectly aware, it was not worth
|
|
bringing forward again:--it could not be done without a reproof
|
|
to him, which would be giving pain to his wife; and she found
|
|
herself therefore obliged to consent to an arrangement which she
|
|
would have done a great deal to avoid; an arrangement which would
|
|
probably expose her even to the degradation of being said to be of
|
|
Mrs. Elton's party! Every feeling was offended; and the forbearance
|
|
of her outward submission left a heavy arrear due of secret severity
|
|
in her reflections on the unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston's temper.
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|
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|
"I am glad you approve of what I have done," said he very comfortably.
|
|
"But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing
|
|
without numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party
|
|
secures its own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all.
|
|
One could not leave her out."
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|
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|
Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.
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|
|
|
It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton
|
|
was growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston
|
|
as to pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw
|
|
every thing into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be
|
|
only a few days, before the horse were useable; but no preparations
|
|
could be ventured on, and it was all melancholy stagnation.
|
|
Mrs. Elton's resources were inadequate to such an attack.
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|
|
|
"Is not this most vexations, Knightley?" she cried.--"And such weather
|
|
for exploring!--These delays and disappointments are quite odious.
|
|
What are we to do?--The year will wear away at this rate,
|
|
and nothing done. Before this time last year I assure you we had
|
|
had a delightful exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston."
|
|
|
|
"You had better explore to Donwell," replied Mr. Knightley.
|
|
"That may be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries.
|
|
They are ripening fast."
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|
|
|
If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so,
|
|
for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the "Oh! I should
|
|
like it of all things," was not plainer in words than manner.
|
|
Donwell was famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for
|
|
the invitation: but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have
|
|
been enough to tempt the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere.
|
|
She promised him again and again to come--much oftener than
|
|
he doubted--and was extremely gratified by such a proof of intimacy,
|
|
such a distinguishing compliment as she chose to consider it.
|
|
|
|
"You may depend upon me," said she. "I certainly will come.
|
|
Name your day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring
|
|
Jane Fairfax?"
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|
|
|
"I cannot name a day," said he, "till I have spoken to some others
|
|
whom I would wish to meet you."
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|
|
|
"Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.--I am
|
|
Lady Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends
|
|
with me."
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|
|
|
"I hope you will bring Elton," said he: "but I will not trouble
|
|
you to give any other invitations."
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|
|
|
"Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider--you need not be afraid
|
|
of delegating power to me. I am no young lady on her preferment.
|
|
Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is my party.
|
|
Leave it all to me. I will invite your guests."
|
|
|
|
"No,"--he calmly replied,--"there is but one married woman in the world
|
|
whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell,
|
|
and that one is--"
|
|
|
|
"--Mrs. Weston, I suppose," interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.
|
|
|
|
"No--Mrs. Knightley;--and till she is in being, I will manage
|
|
such matters myself."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! you are an odd creature!" she cried, satisfied to have no
|
|
one preferred to herself.--"You are a humourist, and may say what
|
|
you like. Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me--
|
|
Jane and her aunt.--The rest I leave to you. I have no objections
|
|
at all to meeting the Hartfield family. Don't scruple. I know
|
|
you are attached to them."
|
|
|
|
"You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call
|
|
on Miss Bates in my way home."
|
|
|
|
"That's quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:--but as you like.
|
|
It is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing.
|
|
I shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets
|
|
hanging on my arm. Here,--probably this basket with pink ribbon.
|
|
Nothing can be more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another.
|
|
There is to be no form or parade--a sort of gipsy party. We are
|
|
to walk about your gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves,
|
|
and sit under trees;--and whatever else you may like to provide,
|
|
it is to be all out of doors--a table spread in the shade, you know.
|
|
Every thing as natural and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?"
|
|
|
|
"Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have
|
|
the table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity
|
|
of gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think
|
|
is best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating
|
|
strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house."
|
|
|
|
"Well--as you please; only don't have a great set out. And, by the bye,
|
|
can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?--
|
|
Pray be sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges,
|
|
or to inspect anything--"
|
|
|
|
"I have not the least wish for it, I thank you."
|
|
|
|
"Well--but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper
|
|
is extremely clever."
|
|
|
|
"I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever,
|
|
and would spurn any body's assistance."
|
|
|
|
"I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come
|
|
on donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me--and my caro sposo walking by.
|
|
I really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country
|
|
life I conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have
|
|
ever so many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut
|
|
up at home;--and very long walks, you know--in summer there is dust,
|
|
and in winter there is dirt."
|
|
|
|
"You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury.
|
|
Donwell Lane is never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on
|
|
a donkey, however, if you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole's.
|
|
I would wish every thing to be as much to your taste as possible."
|
|
|
|
"That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend.
|
|
Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the
|
|
warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.--
|
|
Yes, believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention
|
|
to me in the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing
|
|
to please me."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade.
|
|
He wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party;
|
|
and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors
|
|
to eat would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not,
|
|
under the specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two
|
|
spent at Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.
|
|
|
|
He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid
|
|
him for his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been
|
|
at Donwell for two years. "Some very fine morning, he, and Emma,
|
|
and Harriet, could go very well; and he could sit still with
|
|
Mrs. Weston, while the dear girls walked about the gardens.
|
|
He did not suppose they could be damp now, in the middle of
|
|
the day. He should like to see the old house again exceedingly,
|
|
and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, and any other
|
|
of his neighbours.--He could not see any objection at all to his,
|
|
and Emma's, and Harriet's going there some very fine morning.
|
|
He thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite them--
|
|
very kind and sensible--much cleverer than dining out.--He was not
|
|
fond of dining out."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body's most ready concurrence.
|
|
The invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if,
|
|
like Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular
|
|
compliment to themselves.--Emma and Harriet professed very high
|
|
expectations of pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked,
|
|
promised to get Frank over to join them, if possible; a proof
|
|
of approbation and gratitude which could have been dispensed with.--
|
|
Mr. Knightley was then obliged to say that he should be glad
|
|
to see him; and Mr. Weston engaged to lose no time in writing,
|
|
and spare no arguments to induce him to come.
|
|
|
|
In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party
|
|
to Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell
|
|
was settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,--the weather
|
|
appearing exactly right.
|
|
|
|
Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
was safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down,
|
|
to partake of this al-fresco party; and in one of the most
|
|
comfortable rooms in the Abbey, especially prepared for him by a
|
|
fire all the morning, he was happily placed, quite at his ease,
|
|
ready to talk with pleasure of what had been achieved, and advise
|
|
every body to come and sit down, and not to heat themselves.--
|
|
Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on purpose to be tired,
|
|
and sit all the time with him, remained, when all the others
|
|
were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and sympathiser.
|
|
|
|
It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she
|
|
was satisfied of her father's comfort, she was glad to leave him,
|
|
and look around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with
|
|
more particular observation, more exact understanding of a house
|
|
and grounds which must ever be so interesting to her and all her family.
|
|
|
|
She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance
|
|
with the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant,
|
|
as she viewed the respectable size and style of the building,
|
|
its suitable, becoming, characteristic situation, low and sheltered--
|
|
its ample gardens stretching down to meadows washed by a stream,
|
|
of which the Abbey, with all the old neglect of prospect,
|
|
had scarcely a sight--and its abundance of timber in rows and avenues,
|
|
which neither fashion nor extravagance had rooted up.--The house
|
|
was larger than Hartfield, and totally unlike it, covering a good
|
|
deal of ground, rambling and irregular, with many comfortable,
|
|
and one or two handsome rooms.--It was just what it ought to be,
|
|
and it looked what it was--and Emma felt an increasing respect
|
|
for it, as the residence of a family of such true gentility,
|
|
untainted in blood and understanding.--Some faults of temper John
|
|
Knightley had; but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably.
|
|
She had given them neither men, nor names, nor places, that could
|
|
raise a blush. These were pleasant feelings, and she walked about
|
|
and indulged them till it was necessary to do as the others did,
|
|
and collect round the strawberry-beds.--The whole party were assembled,
|
|
excepting Frank Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond;
|
|
and Mrs. Elton, in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet
|
|
and her basket, was very ready to lead the way in gathering,
|
|
accepting, or talking--strawberries, and only strawberries,
|
|
could now be thought or spoken of.--"The best fruit in England--
|
|
every body's favourite--always wholesome.--These the finest beds
|
|
and finest sorts.--Delightful to gather for one's self--the only way
|
|
of really enjoying them.--Morning decidedly the best time--never tired--
|
|
every sort good--hautboy infinitely superior--no comparison--
|
|
the others hardly eatable--hautboys very scarce--Chili preferred--
|
|
white wood finest flavour of all--price of strawberries in London--
|
|
abundance about Bristol--Maple Grove--cultivation--beds when to
|
|
be renewed--gardeners thinking exactly different--no general rule--
|
|
gardeners never to be put out of their way--delicious fruit--
|
|
only too rich to be eaten much of--inferior to cherries--
|
|
currants more refreshing--only objection to gathering strawberries
|
|
the stooping--glaring sun--tired to death--could bear it no longer--
|
|
must go and sit in the shade."
|
|
|
|
Such, for half an hour, was the conversation--interrupted only
|
|
once by Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her
|
|
son-in-law, to inquire if he were come--and she was a little uneasy.--
|
|
She had some fears of his horse.
|
|
|
|
Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged
|
|
to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.--
|
|
A situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton
|
|
had received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures.
|
|
It was not with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge,
|
|
but in felicity and splendour it fell short only of them: it was
|
|
with a cousin of Mrs. Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling,
|
|
a lady known at Maple Grove. Delightful, charming, superior,
|
|
first circles, spheres, lines, ranks, every thing--and Mrs. Elton
|
|
was wild to have the offer closed with immediately.--On her side,
|
|
all was warmth, energy, and triumph--and she positively refused
|
|
to take her friend's negative, though Miss Fairfax continued
|
|
to assure her that she would not at present engage in any thing,
|
|
repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge before.--
|
|
Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an acquiescence
|
|
by the morrow's post.--How Jane could bear it at all, was astonishing
|
|
to Emma.--She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly--and at last,
|
|
with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a removal.--
|
|
"Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them the gardens--
|
|
all the gardens?--She wished to see the whole extent."--The pertinacity
|
|
of her friend seemed more than she could bear.
|
|
|
|
It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a scattered,
|
|
dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly
|
|
followed one another to the delicious shade of a broad short
|
|
avenue of limes, which stretching beyond the garden at an equal
|
|
distance from the river, seemed the finish of the pleasure grounds.--
|
|
It led to nothing; nothing but a view at the end over a low stone
|
|
wall with high pillars, which seemed intended, in their erection,
|
|
to give the appearance of an approach to the house, which never had
|
|
been there. Disputable, however, as might be the taste of such
|
|
a termination, it was in itself a charming walk, and the view
|
|
which closed it extremely pretty.--The considerable slope, at nearly
|
|
the foot of which the Abbey stood, gradually acquired a steeper
|
|
form beyond its grounds; and at half a mile distant was a bank
|
|
of considerable abruptness and grandeur, well clothed with wood;--
|
|
and at the bottom of this bank, favourably placed and sheltered,
|
|
rose the Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the river
|
|
making a close and handsome curve around it.
|
|
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It was a sweet view--sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure,
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English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright,
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without being oppressive.
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In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled;
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and towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley
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and Harriet distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way.
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Mr. Knightley and Harriet!--It was an odd tete-a-tete; but she was
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glad to see it.--There had been a time when he would have scorned
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her as a companion, and turned from her with little ceremony.
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Now they seemed in pleasant conversation. There had been a time
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also when Emma would have been sorry to see Harriet in a spot
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so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now she feared it not.
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It might be safely viewed with all its appendages of prosperity
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and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading flocks, orchard in blossom,
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and light column of smoke ascending.--She joined them at the wall,
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and found them more engaged in talking than in looking around.
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He was giving Harriet information as to modes of agriculture, etc.
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and Emma received a smile which seemed to say, "These are my
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own concerns. I have a right to talk on such subjects, without being
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suspected of introducing Robert Martin."--She did not suspect him.
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It was too old a story.--Robert Martin had probably ceased to think
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of Harriet.--They took a few turns together along the walk.--The shade
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was most refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest part of
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the day.
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The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;--
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and they were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did
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not come. Mrs. Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would
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not own himself uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could
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not be cured of wishing that he would part with his black mare.
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He had expressed himself as to coming, with more than common certainty.
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"His aunt was so much better, that he had not a doubt of getting
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over to them."--Mrs. Churchill's state, however, as many were ready
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to remind her, was liable to such sudden variation as might disappoint
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her nephew in the most reasonable dependence--and Mrs. Weston
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was at last persuaded to believe, or to say, that it must be
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by some attack of Mrs. Churchill that he was prevented coming.--
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Emma looked at Harriet while the point was under consideration;
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she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.
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The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more
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to see what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds;
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perhaps get as far as the clover, which was to be begun cutting
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on the morrow, or, at any rate, have the pleasure of being hot,
|
|
and growing cool again.--Mr. Woodhouse, who had already taken
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his little round in the highest part of the gardens, where no
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damps from the river were imagined even by him, stirred no more;
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|
and his daughter resolved to remain with him, that Mrs. Weston
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|
might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise and variety
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|
which her spirits seemed to need.
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|
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Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse's
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entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos,
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corals, shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets,
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|
had been prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning;
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|
and the kindness had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been
|
|
exceedingly well amused. Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him,
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|
and now he would shew them all to Emma;--fortunate in having no other
|
|
resemblance to a child, than in a total want of taste for what he saw,
|
|
for he was slow, constant, and methodical.--Before this second looking
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|
over was begun, however, Emma walked into the hall for the sake
|
|
of a few moments' free observation of the entrance and ground-plot
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|
of the house--and was hardly there, when Jane Fairfax appeared,
|
|
coming quickly in from the garden, and with a look of escape.--
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|
Little expecting to meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there was a start
|
|
at first; but Miss Woodhouse was the very person she was in quest of.
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|
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"Will you be so kind," said she, "when I am missed, as to say
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that I am gone home?--I am going this moment.--My aunt is not aware
|
|
how late it is, nor how long we have been absent--but I am sure we
|
|
shall be wanted, and I am determined to go directly.--I have said
|
|
nothing about it to any body. It would only be giving trouble
|
|
and distress. Some are gone to the ponds, and some to the lime walk.
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|
Till they all come in I shall not be missed; and when they do,
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|
will you have the goodness to say that I am gone?"
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|
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"Certainly, if you wish it;--but you are not going to walk
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to Highbury alone?"
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"Yes--what should hurt me?--I walk fast. I shall be at home
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|
in twenty minutes."
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"But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone.
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|
Let my father's servant go with you.--Let me order the carriage.
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|
It can be round in five minutes."
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|
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|
"Thank you, thank you--but on no account.--I would rather walk.--
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|
And for me to be afraid of walking alone!--I, who may so soon have
|
|
to guard others!"
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|
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|
She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied,
|
|
"That can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now.
|
|
I must order the carriage. The heat even would be danger.--You are
|
|
fatigued already."
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|
|
|
"I am,"--she answered--"I am fatigued; but it is not the sort
|
|
of fatigue--quick walking will refresh me.--Miss Woodhouse, we all
|
|
know at times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess,
|
|
are exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let
|
|
me have my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary."
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|
|
|
Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering
|
|
into her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately,
|
|
and watched her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting
|
|
look was grateful--and her parting words, "Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
the comfort of being sometimes alone!"--seemed to burst from
|
|
an overcharged heart, and to describe somewhat of the continual
|
|
endurance to be practised by her, even towards some of those who
|
|
loved her best.
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|
|
|
"Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!" said Emma, as she turned back
|
|
into the hall again. "I do pity you. And the more sensibility
|
|
you betray of their just horrors, the more I shall like you."
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|
|
|
Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only
|
|
accomplished some views of St. Mark's Place, Venice, when Frank
|
|
Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him,
|
|
she had forgotten to think of him--but she was very glad to see him.
|
|
Mrs. Weston would be at ease. The black mare was blameless;
|
|
they were right who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause.
|
|
He had been detained by a temporary increase of illness in her;
|
|
a nervous seizure, which had lasted some hours--and he had quite given
|
|
up every thought of coming, till very late;--and had he known how hot
|
|
a ride he should have, and how late, with all his hurry, he must be,
|
|
he believed he should not have come at all. The heat was excessive;
|
|
he had never suffered any thing like it--almost wished he had staid
|
|
at home--nothing killed him like heat--he could bear any degree of cold,
|
|
etc., but heat was intolerable--and he sat down, at the greatest
|
|
possible distance from the slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse's fire,
|
|
looking very deplorable.
|
|
|
|
"You will soon be cooler, if you sit still," said Emma.
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|
|
|
"As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very
|
|
ill be spared--but such a point had been made of my coming!
|
|
You will all be going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up.
|
|
I met one as I came--Madness in such weather!--absolute madness!"
|
|
|
|
Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill's
|
|
state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being
|
|
out of humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot.
|
|
Such might be his constitution; and as she knew that eating
|
|
and drinking were often the cure of such incidental complaints,
|
|
she recommended his taking some refreshment; he would find abundance
|
|
of every thing in the dining-room--and she humanely pointed out
|
|
the door.
|
|
|
|
"No--he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make
|
|
him hotter." In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour;
|
|
and muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned
|
|
all her attention to her father, saying in secret--
|
|
|
|
"I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a
|
|
man who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet's sweet
|
|
easy temper will not mind it."
|
|
|
|
He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came
|
|
back all the better--grown quite cool--and, with good manners,
|
|
like himself--able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest
|
|
in their employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he
|
|
should be so late. He was not in his best spirits, but seemed
|
|
trying to improve them; and, at last, made himself talk nonsense
|
|
very agreeably. They were looking over views in Swisserland.
|
|
|
|
"As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad," said he.
|
|
"I shall never be easy till I have seen some of these places.
|
|
You will have my sketches, some time or other, to look at--or my tour
|
|
to read--or my poem. I shall do something to expose myself."
|
|
|
|
"That may be--but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will
|
|
never go to Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow
|
|
you to leave England."
|
|
|
|
"They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed
|
|
for her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad.
|
|
I assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning,
|
|
that I shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired
|
|
of doing nothing. I want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
whatever your penetrating eyes may fancy--I am sick of England--
|
|
and would leave it to-morrow, if I could."
|
|
|
|
"You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent
|
|
a few hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?"
|
|
|
|
"I sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken.
|
|
I do not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am
|
|
thwarted in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all
|
|
a fortunate person."
|
|
|
|
"You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came.
|
|
Go and eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well.
|
|
Another slice of cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water,
|
|
will make you nearly on a par with the rest of us."
|
|
|
|
"No--I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure."
|
|
|
|
"We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;--you will join us.
|
|
It is not Swisserland, but it will be something for a young
|
|
man so much in want of a change. You will stay, and go with us?"
|
|
|
|
"No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening."
|
|
|
|
"But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning."
|
|
|
|
"No--It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross."
|
|
|
|
"Then pray stay at Richmond."
|
|
|
|
"But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think
|
|
of you all there without me."
|
|
|
|
"These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself.
|
|
Chuse your own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more."
|
|
|
|
The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected.
|
|
With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill;
|
|
others took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress
|
|
and disturbance on Miss Fairfax's disappearance being explained.
|
|
That it was time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with
|
|
a short final arrangement for the next day's scheme, they parted.
|
|
Frank Churchill's little inclination to exclude himself increased
|
|
so much, that his last words to Emma were,
|
|
|
|
"Well;--if you wish me to stay and join the party, I will."
|
|
|
|
She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from
|
|
Richmond was to take him back before the following evening.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER VII
|
|
|
|
They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward
|
|
circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality,
|
|
were in favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole,
|
|
officiating safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every
|
|
body was in good time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates
|
|
and her niece, with the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback.
|
|
Mrs. Weston remained with Mr. Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting
|
|
but to be happy when they got there. Seven miles were travelled
|
|
in expectation of enjoyment, and every body had a burst of admiration
|
|
on first arriving; but in the general amount of the day there
|
|
was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits, a want of union,
|
|
which could not be got over. They separated too much into parties.
|
|
The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of Miss
|
|
Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill.
|
|
And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed
|
|
at first an accidental division, but it never materially varied.
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness to mix,
|
|
and be as agreeable as they could; but during the two whole hours
|
|
that were spent on the hill, there seemed a principle of separation,
|
|
between the other parties, too strong for any fine prospects, or any
|
|
cold collation, or any cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
|
|
|
|
At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank
|
|
Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing--
|
|
looked without seeing--admired without intelligence--listened without
|
|
knowing what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that
|
|
Harriet should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.
|
|
|
|
When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better,
|
|
for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first object.
|
|
Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to her.
|
|
To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he
|
|
cared for--and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered,
|
|
was gay and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement,
|
|
the admission to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first
|
|
and most animating period of their acquaintance; but which now,
|
|
in her own estimation, meant nothing, though in the judgment of most
|
|
people looking on it must have had such an appearance as no English
|
|
word but flirtation could very well describe. "Mr. Frank Churchill
|
|
and Miss Woodhouse flirted together excessively." They were laying
|
|
themselves open to that very phrase--and to having it sent off
|
|
in a letter to Maple Grove by one lady, to Ireland by another.
|
|
Not that Emma was gay and thoughtless from any real felicity;
|
|
it was rather because she felt less happy than she had expected.
|
|
She laughed because she was disappointed; and though she liked him
|
|
for his attentions, and thought them all, whether in friendship,
|
|
admiration, or playfulness, extremely judicious, they were not winning
|
|
back her heart. She still intended him for her friend.
|
|
|
|
"How much I am obliged to you," said he, "for telling me to come to-day!--
|
|
If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all the
|
|
happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about,
|
|
except that you were too late for the best strawberries.
|
|
I was a kinder friend than you deserved. But you were humble.
|
|
You begged hard to be commanded to come."
|
|
|
|
"Don't say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me."
|
|
|
|
"It is hotter to-day."
|
|
|
|
"Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day."
|
|
|
|
"You are comfortable because you are under command."
|
|
|
|
"Your command?--Yes."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had,
|
|
somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your
|
|
own management; but to-day you are got back again--and as I cannot
|
|
be always with you, it is best to believe your temper under your
|
|
own command rather than mine."
|
|
|
|
"It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without
|
|
a motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can
|
|
be always with me. You are always with me."
|
|
|
|
"Dating from three o'clock yesterday. My perpetual influence
|
|
could not begin earlier, or you would not have been so much
|
|
out of humour before."
|
|
|
|
"Three o'clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen
|
|
you first in February."
|
|
|
|
"Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)--
|
|
nobody speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be
|
|
talking nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people."
|
|
|
|
"I say nothing of which I am ashamed," replied he, with lively impudence.
|
|
"I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill hear me if
|
|
they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side, and Dorking
|
|
on the other. I saw you first in February." And then whispering--
|
|
"Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do to rouse them?
|
|
Any nonsense will serve. They shall talk. Ladies and gentlemen,
|
|
I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is, presides)
|
|
to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking of?"
|
|
|
|
Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great deal;
|
|
Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse's presiding;
|
|
Mr. Knightley's answer was the most distinct.
|
|
|
|
"Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are
|
|
all thinking of?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no, no"--cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could--
|
|
"Upon no account in the world. It is the very last thing I
|
|
would stand the brunt of just now. Let me hear any thing rather
|
|
than what you are all thinking of. I will not say quite all.
|
|
There are one or two, perhaps, (glancing at Mr. Weston and Harriet,)
|
|
whose thoughts I might not be afraid of knowing."
|
|
|
|
"It is a sort of thing," cried Mrs. Elton emphatically,
|
|
"which I should not have thought myself privileged to
|
|
inquire into. Though, perhaps, as the Chaperon of the party--
|
|
I never was in any circle--exploring parties--young ladies--married women--"
|
|
|
|
Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured,
|
|
in reply,
|
|
|
|
"Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed--quite unheard of--
|
|
but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke.
|
|
Every body knows what is due to you."
|
|
|
|
"It will not do," whispered Frank to Emma; "they are most
|
|
of them affronted. I will attack them with more address.
|
|
Ladies and gentlemen--I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she
|
|
waives her right of knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of,
|
|
and only requires something very entertaining from each of you,
|
|
in a general way. Here are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she
|
|
is pleased to say, am very entertaining already,) and she only
|
|
demands from each of you either one thing very clever, be it prose
|
|
or verse, original or repeated--or two things moderately clever--
|
|
or three things very dull indeed, and she engages to laugh heartily
|
|
at them all."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! very well," exclaimed Miss Bates, "then I need not be uneasy.
|
|
`Three things very dull indeed.' That will just do for me, you know.
|
|
I shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open
|
|
my mouth, shan't I? (looking round with the most good-humoured
|
|
dependence on every body's assent)--Do not you all think I shall?"
|
|
|
|
Emma could not resist.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! ma'am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me--but you
|
|
will be limited as to number--only three at once."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not
|
|
immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could
|
|
not anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!--well--to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to
|
|
Mr. Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make
|
|
myself very disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing
|
|
to an old friend."
|
|
|
|
"I like your plan," cried Mr. Weston. "Agreed, agreed. I will do
|
|
my best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?"
|
|
|
|
"Low, I am afraid, sir, very low," answered his son;--"but we shall
|
|
be indulgent--especially to any one who leads the way."
|
|
|
|
"No, no," said Emma, "it will not reckon low. A conundrum of
|
|
Mr. Weston's shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir,
|
|
pray let me hear it."
|
|
|
|
"I doubt its being very clever myself," said Mr. Weston.
|
|
"It is too much a matter of fact, but here it is.--What two letters
|
|
of the alphabet are there, that express perfection?"
|
|
|
|
"What two letters!--express perfection! I am sure I do not know."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will
|
|
never guess.--I will tell you.--M. and A.--Em-ma.--Do you understand?"
|
|
|
|
Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very
|
|
indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh
|
|
at and enjoy in it--and so did Frank and Harriet.--It did not seem
|
|
to touch the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid
|
|
about it, and Mr. Knightley gravely said,
|
|
|
|
"This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston
|
|
has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every
|
|
body else. Perfection should not have come quite so soon."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused," said Mrs. Elton;
|
|
"I really cannot attempt--I am not at all fond of the sort of thing.
|
|
I had an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not
|
|
at all pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!--
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You know who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things
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are very well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire;
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but quite out of place, in my opinion, when one is exploring
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about the country in summer. Miss Woodhouse must excuse me.
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I am not one of those who have witty things at every body's service.
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I do not pretend to be a wit. I have a great deal of vivacity
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in my own way, but I really must be allowed to judge when to speak
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and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if you please, Mr. Churchill.
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Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself. We have nothing clever to say--
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not one of us.
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"Yes, yes, pray pass me," added her husband, with a sort of
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sneering consciousness; "I have nothing to say that can entertain
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Miss Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man--
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quite good for nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?"
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"With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long
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on one spot. Come, Jane, take my other arm."
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Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off.
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"Happy couple!" said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out
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of hearing:--"How well they suit one another!--Very lucky--marrying as
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they did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!--They only
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knew each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly lucky!--
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for as to any real knowledge of a person's disposition that Bath,
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or any public place, can give--it is all nothing; there can be
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no knowledge. It is only by seeing women in their own homes,
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among their own set, just as they always are, that you can form
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any just judgment. Short of that, it is all guess and luck--
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and will generally be ill-luck. How many a man has committed himself
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on a short acquaintance, and rued it all the rest of his life!"
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Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her
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own confederates, spoke now.
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"Such things do occur, undoubtedly."--She was stopped by a cough.
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Frank Churchill turned towards her to listen.
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"You were speaking," said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.
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"I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate circumstances
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do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot imagine them
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to be very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may arise--
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but there is generally time to recover from it afterwards. I would
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be understood to mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute characters,
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(whose happiness must be always at the mercy of chance,)
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who will suffer an unfortunate acquaintance to be an inconvenience,
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an oppression for ever."
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He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon
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afterwards said, in a lively tone,
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"Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever
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I marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you?
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(turning to Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?--I am sure I
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should like any body fixed on by you. You provide for the family,
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you know, (with a smile at his father). Find some body for me.
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I am in no hurry. Adopt her, educate her."
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"And make her like myself."
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"By all means, if you can."
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"Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming wife."
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"She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing else.
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I shall go abroad for a couple of years--and when I return,
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I shall come to you for my wife. Remember."
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Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch every
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favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature described?
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Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that he wished.
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|
He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment;
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who could say? Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.
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"Now, ma'am," said Jane to her aunt, "shall we join Mrs. Elton?"
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"If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready.
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I was ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well.
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|
We shall soon overtake her. There she is--no, that's somebody else.
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|
That's one of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.--
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|
Well, I declare--"
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They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley.
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Mr. Weston, his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young
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|
man's spirits now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew
|
|
tired at last of flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather
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|
walking quietly about with any of the others, or sitting almost alone,
|
|
and quite unattended to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful
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|
views beneath her. The appearance of the servants looking out
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|
for them to give notice of the carriages was a joyful sight;
|
|
and even the bustle of collecting and preparing to depart,
|
|
and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to have her carriage first,
|
|
were gladly endured, in the prospect of the quiet drive home which was
|
|
to close the very questionable enjoyments of this day of pleasure.
|
|
Such another scheme, composed of so many ill-assorted people,
|
|
she hoped never to be betrayed into again.
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|
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|
While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side.
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|
He looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,
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"Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do:
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|
a privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still
|
|
use it. I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance.
|
|
How could you be so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so
|
|
insolent in your wit to a woman of her character, age, and situation?--
|
|
Emma, I had not thought it possible."
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|
|
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Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.
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"Nay, how could I help saying what I did?--Nobody could have helped it.
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|
It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me."
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|
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|
"I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked
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|
of it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it--
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|
with what candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her
|
|
honouring your forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions,
|
|
as she was for ever receiving from yourself and your father,
|
|
when her society must be so irksome."
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|
|
|
"Oh!" cried Emma, "I know there is not a better creature in the world:
|
|
but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are
|
|
most unfortunately blended in her."
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|
|
|
"They are blended," said he, "I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous,
|
|
I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous
|
|
over the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every
|
|
harmless absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you
|
|
for any liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation--
|
|
but, Emma, consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor;
|
|
she has sunk from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live
|
|
to old age, must probably sink more. Her situation should secure
|
|
your compassion. It was badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known
|
|
from an infant, whom she had seen grow up from a period when her
|
|
notice was an honour, to have you now, in thoughtless spirits,
|
|
and the pride of the moment, laugh at her, humble her--and before
|
|
her niece, too--and before others, many of whom (certainly some,)
|
|
would be entirely guided by your treatment of her.--This is not
|
|
pleasant to you, Emma--and it is very far from pleasant to me;
|
|
but I must, I will,--I will tell you truths while I can;
|
|
satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful counsel,
|
|
and trusting that you will some time or other do me greater justice
|
|
than you can do now."
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|
|
|
While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage;
|
|
it was ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in.
|
|
He had misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted,
|
|
and her tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger
|
|
against herself, mortification, and deep concern. She had not
|
|
been able to speak; and, on entering the carriage, sunk back
|
|
for a moment overcome--then reproaching herself for having taken
|
|
no leave, making no acknowledgment, parting in apparent sullenness,
|
|
she looked out with voice and hand eager to shew a difference;
|
|
but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses were
|
|
in motion. She continued to look back, but in vain; and soon,
|
|
with what appeared unusual speed, they were half way down the hill,
|
|
and every thing left far behind. She was vexed beyond what could
|
|
have been expressed--almost beyond what she could conceal.
|
|
Never had she felt so agitated, mortified, grieved, at any circumstance
|
|
in her life. She was most forcibly struck. The truth of this
|
|
representation there was no denying. She felt it at her heart.
|
|
How could she have been so brutal, so cruel to Miss Bates! How could
|
|
she have exposed herself to such ill opinion in any one she valued!
|
|
And how suffer him to leave her without saying one word of gratitude,
|
|
of concurrence, of common kindness!
|
|
|
|
Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed
|
|
but to feel it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it
|
|
was not necessary to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not
|
|
in spirits herself, fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma
|
|
felt the tears running down her cheeks almost all the way home,
|
|
without being at any trouble to check them, extraordinary as they were.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER VIII
|
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|
|
The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma's thoughts all
|
|
the evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party,
|
|
she could not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different
|
|
ways, might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it
|
|
was a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational
|
|
satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection,
|
|
than any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with
|
|
her father, was felicity to it. There, indeed, lay real pleasure,
|
|
for there she was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four
|
|
to his comfort; and feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree
|
|
of his fond affection and confiding esteem, she could not, in her
|
|
general conduct, be open to any severe reproach. As a daughter,
|
|
she hoped she was not without a heart. She hoped no one could
|
|
have said to her, "How could you be so unfeeling to your father?--
|
|
I must, I will tell you truths while I can." Miss Bates should
|
|
never again--no, never! If attention, in future, could do away
|
|
the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She had been often remiss,
|
|
her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in thought
|
|
than fact; scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more.
|
|
In the warmth of true contrition, she would call upon her the
|
|
very next morning, and it should be the beginning, on her side,
|
|
of a regular, equal, kindly intercourse.
|
|
|
|
She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early,
|
|
that nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought,
|
|
that she might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might
|
|
come in while she were paying her visit. She had no objection.
|
|
She would not be ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly
|
|
and truly hers. Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she
|
|
saw him not.
|
|
|
|
"The ladies were all at home." She had never rejoiced at the sound
|
|
before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs,
|
|
with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation,
|
|
or of deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.
|
|
|
|
There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking.
|
|
She heard Miss Bates's voice, something was to be done in a hurry;
|
|
the maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased
|
|
to wait a moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and
|
|
niece seemed both escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had
|
|
a distinct glimpse of, looking extremely ill; and, before the door
|
|
had shut them out, she heard Miss Bates saying, "Well, my dear,
|
|
I shall say you are laid down upon the bed, and I am sure you are
|
|
ill enough."
|
|
|
|
Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she
|
|
did not quite understand what was going on.
|
|
|
|
"I am afraid Jane is not very well," said she, "but I do not know;
|
|
they tell me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone.
|
|
I am very little able--Have you a chair, ma'am? Do you sit where
|
|
you like? I am sure she will be here presently."
|
|
|
|
Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment's fear of Miss
|
|
Bates keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came--"Very happy
|
|
and obliged"--but Emma's conscience told her that there was not the
|
|
same cheerful volubility as before--less ease of look and manner.
|
|
A very friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead
|
|
the way to a return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!--I suppose you have heard--
|
|
and are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy,
|
|
indeed, in me--(twinkling away a tear or two)--but it will be
|
|
very trying for us to part with her, after having had her so long,
|
|
and she has a dreadful headach just now, writing all the morning:--
|
|
such long letters, you know, to be written to Colonel Campbell,
|
|
and Mrs. Dixon. `My dear,' said I, `you will blind yourself'--
|
|
for tears were in her eyes perpetually. One cannot wonder,
|
|
one cannot wonder. It is a great change; and though she is
|
|
amazingly fortunate--such a situation, I suppose, as no young woman
|
|
before ever met with on first going out--do not think us ungrateful,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good fortune--(again dispersing
|
|
her tears)--but, poor dear soul! if you were to see what a headache
|
|
she has. When one is in great pain, you know one cannot feel
|
|
any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as possible.
|
|
To look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy she
|
|
is to have secured such a situation. You will excuse her not
|
|
coming to you--she is not able--she is gone into her own room--
|
|
I want her to lie down upon the bed. `My dear,' said I, `I shall
|
|
say you are laid down upon the bed:' but, however, she is not;
|
|
she is walking about the room. But, now that she has written
|
|
her letters, she says she shall soon be well. She will be extremely
|
|
sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your kindness will
|
|
excuse her. You were kept waiting at the door--I was quite ashamed--
|
|
but somehow there was a little bustle--for it so happened that we
|
|
had not heard the knock, and till you were on the stairs, we did
|
|
not know any body was coming. `It is only Mrs. Cole,' said I,
|
|
`depend upon it. Nobody else would come so early.' `Well,' said she,
|
|
`it must be borne some time or other, and it may as well be now.'
|
|
But then Patty came in, and said it was you. `Oh!' said I,
|
|
`it is Miss Woodhouse: I am sure you will like to see her.'--
|
|
`I can see nobody,' said she; and up she got, and would go away;
|
|
and that was what made us keep you waiting--and extremely sorry
|
|
and ashamed we were. `If you must go, my dear,' said I, `you must,
|
|
and I will say you are laid down upon the bed.'"
|
|
|
|
Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing
|
|
kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted
|
|
as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing
|
|
but pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle
|
|
sensations of the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very
|
|
naturally resolve on seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend,
|
|
when she might not bear to see herself. She spoke as she felt,
|
|
with earnest regret and solicitude--sincerely wishing that the
|
|
circumstances which she collected from Miss Bates to be now actually
|
|
determined on, might be as much for Miss Fairfax's advantage
|
|
and comfort as possible. "It must be a severe trial to them all.
|
|
She had understood it was to be delayed till Colonel Campbell's return."
|
|
|
|
"So very kind! " replied Miss Bates. "But you are always kind."
|
|
|
|
There was no bearing such an "always;" and to break through her
|
|
dreadful gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of--
|
|
|
|
"Where--may I ask?--is Miss Fairfax going?"
|
|
|
|
"To a Mrs. Smallridge--charming woman--most superior--to have
|
|
the charge of her three little girls--delightful children.
|
|
Impossible that any situation could be more replete with comfort;
|
|
if we except, perhaps, Mrs. Suckling's own family, and Mrs. Bragge's;
|
|
but Mrs. Smallridge is intimate with both, and in the very
|
|
same neighbourhood:--lives only four miles from Maple Grove.
|
|
Jane will be only four miles from Maple Grove."
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes--"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend.
|
|
She would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, `No;' for
|
|
when Jane first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday,
|
|
the very morning we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it,
|
|
she was quite decided against accepting the offer, and for the
|
|
reasons you mention; exactly as you say, she had made up her mind
|
|
to close with nothing till Colonel Campbell's return, and nothing
|
|
should induce her to enter into any engagement at present--and so she
|
|
told Mrs. Elton over and over again--and I am sure I had no more
|
|
idea that she would change her mind!--but that good Mrs. Elton,
|
|
whose judgment never fails her, saw farther than I did. It is not
|
|
every body that would have stood out in such a kind way as she did,
|
|
and refuse to take Jane's answer; but she positively declared she
|
|
would not write any such denial yesterday, as Jane wished her;
|
|
she would wait--and, sure enough, yesterday evening it was all
|
|
settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had not
|
|
the least idea!--Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once,
|
|
that upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge's situation,
|
|
she had come to the resolution of accepting it.--I did not know a word
|
|
of it till it was all settled."
|
|
|
|
"You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so,
|
|
upon the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley.
|
|
`You must all spend your evening with us,' said she--`I positively must
|
|
have you all come.'"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?"
|
|
|
|
"No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I
|
|
thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let
|
|
him off, he did not;--but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there,
|
|
and a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body
|
|
seemed rather fagged after the morning's party. Even pleasure,
|
|
you know, is fatiguing--and I cannot say that any of them seemed
|
|
very much to have enjoyed it. However, I shall always think it
|
|
a very pleasant party, and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends
|
|
who included me in it."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been
|
|
making up her mind the whole day?"
|
|
|
|
"I dare say she had."
|
|
|
|
"Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all
|
|
her friends--but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation
|
|
that is possible--I mean, as to the character and manners of the family."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing
|
|
in the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings
|
|
and Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment,
|
|
so liberal and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton's acquaintance.
|
|
Mrs. Smallridge, a most delightful woman!--A style of living almost
|
|
equal to Maple Grove--and as to the children, except the little
|
|
Sucklings and little Bragges, there are not such elegant sweet
|
|
children anywhere. Jane will be treated with such regard and kindness!--
|
|
It will be nothing but pleasure, a life of pleasure.--And her salary!--
|
|
I really cannot venture to name her salary to you, Miss Woodhouse.
|
|
Even you, used as you are to great sums, would hardly believe that
|
|
so much could be given to a young person like Jane."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! madam," cried Emma, "if other children are at all like what I
|
|
remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount
|
|
of what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions,
|
|
dearly earned."
|
|
|
|
"You are so noble in your ideas!"
|
|
|
|
"And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?"
|
|
|
|
"Very soon, very soon, indeed; that's the worst of it.
|
|
Within a fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor
|
|
mother does not know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of
|
|
her thoughts, and say, Come ma'am, do not let us think about it any more."
|
|
|
|
"Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel
|
|
and Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself
|
|
before their return?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such
|
|
a situation as she cannot feel herself justified in declining.
|
|
I was so astonished when she first told me what she had been saying
|
|
to Mrs. Elton, and when Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating
|
|
me upon it! It was before tea--stay--no, it could not be before tea,
|
|
because we were just going to cards--and yet it was before tea,
|
|
because I remember thinking--Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it;
|
|
something happened before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called
|
|
out of the room before tea, old John Abdy's son wanted to speak
|
|
with him. Poor old John, I have a great regard for him; he was clerk
|
|
to my poor father twenty-seven years; and now, poor old man, he is
|
|
bed-ridden, and very poorly with the rheumatic gout in his joints--
|
|
I must go and see him to-day; and so will Jane, I am sure, if she
|
|
gets out at all. And poor John's son came to talk to Mr. Elton
|
|
about relief from the parish; he is very well to do himself,
|
|
you know, being head man at the Crown, ostler, and every thing
|
|
of that sort, but still he cannot keep his father without some help;
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and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us what John ostler
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had been telling him, and then it came out about the chaise having
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been sent to Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond.
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That was what happened before tea. It was after tea that Jane spoke
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to Mrs. Elton."
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Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly
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new this circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it
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possible that she could be ignorant of any of the particulars
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of Mr. Frank Churchill's going, she proceeded to give them all,
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it was of no consequence.
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What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the
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accumulation of the ostler's own knowledge, and the knowledge
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of the servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over
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from Richmond soon after the return of the party from Box Hill--
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which messenger, however, had been no more than was expected;
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and that Mr. Churchill had sent his nephew a few lines, containing,
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upon the whole, a tolerable account of Mrs. Churchill, and only
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wishing him not to delay coming back beyond the next morning early;
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but that Mr. Frank Churchill having resolved to go home directly,
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without waiting at all, and his horse seeming to have got a cold,
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Tom had been sent off immediately for the Crown chaise, and the
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ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy going a good pace,
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and driving very steady.
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There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest,
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and it caught Emma's attention only as it united with the subject
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which already engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill's
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importance in the world, and Jane Fairfax's, struck her; one was
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every thing, the other nothing--and she sat musing on the difference
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of woman's destiny, and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed,
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till roused by Miss Bates's saying,
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"Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to become
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of that?--Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just now.--
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`You must go,' said she. `You and I must part. You will have no
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business here.--Let it stay, however,' said she; `give it houseroom
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till Colonel Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him;
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he will settle for me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.'--
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And to this day, I do believe, she knows not whether it was his
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present or his daughter's."
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Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance
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of all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing,
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that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been
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long enough; and, with a repetition of every thing that she could
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venture to say of the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.
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CHAPTER IX
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Emma's pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted;
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but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her.
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Mr. Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were
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sitting with her father.--Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a
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manner decidedly graver than usual, said,
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"I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare,
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and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London,
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to spend a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to
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send or say, besides the `love,' which nobody carries?"
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"Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?"
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"Yes--rather--I have been thinking of it some little time."
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Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself.
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Time, however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be
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friends again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going--
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her father began his inquiries.
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"Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?--And how did you
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find my worthy old friend and her daughter?--I dare say they must
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have been very much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been
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to call on Mrs. and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before.
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She is always so attentive to them!"
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Emma's colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a smile,
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and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr. Knightley.--
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It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in her favour,
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as if his eyes received the truth from her's, and all that had
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passed of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.--
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He looked at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified--
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and in another moment still more so, by a little movement of
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more than common friendliness on his part.--He took her hand;--
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whether she had not herself made the first motion, she could not say--
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she might, perhaps, have rather offered it--but he took her hand,
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pressed it, and certainly was on the point of carrying it to his lips--
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when, from some fancy or other, he suddenly let it go.--Why he should feel
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such a scruple, why he should change his mind when it was all but done,
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she could not perceive.--He would have judged better, she thought,
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if he had not stopped.--The intention, however, was indubitable;
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and whether it was that his manners had in general so little gallantry,
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or however else it happened, but she thought nothing became him more.--
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It was with him, of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.--
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She could not but recall the attempt with great satisfaction.
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It spoke such perfect amity.--He left them immediately afterwards--
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gone in a moment. He always moved with the alertness of a mind which
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could neither be undecided nor dilatory, but now he seemed more sudden
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than usual in his disappearance.
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Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished
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she had left her ten minutes earlier;--it would have been a great
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pleasure to talk over Jane Fairfax's situation with Mr. Knightley.--
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Neither would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square,
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for she knew how much his visit would be enjoyed--but it might have
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happened at a better time--and to have had longer notice of it,
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would have been pleasanter.--They parted thorough friends, however;
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she could not be deceived as to the meaning of his countenance,
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and his unfinished gallantry;--it was all done to assure her that she
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had fully recovered his good opinion.--He had been sitting with them
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half an hour, she found. It was a pity that she had not come
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back earlier!
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In the hope of diverting her father's thoughts from the disagreeableness
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of Mr. Knightley's going to London; and going so suddenly;
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and going on horseback, which she knew would be all very bad;
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Emma communicated her news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence
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|
on the effect was justified; it supplied a very useful check,--
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interested, without disturbing him. He had long made up his mind to Jane
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Fairfax's going out as governess, and could talk of it cheerfully,
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but Mr. Knightley's going to London had been an unexpected blow.
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"I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so
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comfortably settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable,
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and I dare say her acquaintance are just what they ought
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to be. I hope it is a dry situation, and that her health
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will be taken good care of. It ought to be a first object,
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as I am sure poor Miss Taylor's always was with me. You know,
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my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor
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was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect,
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and not be induced to go away after it has been her home so long."
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The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every
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|
thing else into the background. An express arrived at Randalls
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to announce the death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew
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had had no particular reason to hasten back on her account,
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she had not lived above six-and-thirty hours after his return.
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A sudden seizure of a different nature from any thing foreboded
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|
by her general state, had carried her off after a short struggle.
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The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.
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It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a
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degree of gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed,
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solicitude for the surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time,
|
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curiosity to know where she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us,
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that when lovely woman stoops to folly, she has nothing to do
|
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but to die; and when she stoops to be disagreeable, it is equally
|
|
to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame. Mrs. Churchill,
|
|
after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was now spoken of
|
|
with compassionate allowances. In one point she was fully justified.
|
|
She had never been admitted before to be seriously ill. The event
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|
acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the selfishness
|
|
of imaginary complaints.
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|
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"Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal:
|
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more than any body had ever supposed--and continual pain would try
|
|
the temper. It was a sad event--a great shock--with all her faults,
|
|
what would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill's loss
|
|
would be dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it."--
|
|
Even Mr. Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said,
|
|
"Ah! poor woman, who would have thought it!" and resolved, that his
|
|
mourning should be as handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing
|
|
and moralising over her broad hems with a commiseration and good sense,
|
|
true and steady. How it would affect Frank was among the earliest
|
|
thoughts of both. It was also a very early speculation with Emma.
|
|
The character of Mrs. Churchill, the grief of her husband--her mind
|
|
glanced over them both with awe and compassion--and then rested
|
|
with lightened feelings on how Frank might be affected by the event,
|
|
how benefited, how freed. She saw in a moment all the possible good.
|
|
Now, an attachment to Harriet Smith would have nothing to encounter.
|
|
Mr. Churchill, independent of his wife, was feared by nobody;
|
|
an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded into any thing by his nephew.
|
|
All that remained to be wished was, that the nephew should form
|
|
the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the cause, Emma could feel
|
|
no certainty of its being already formed.
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|
|
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Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great self-command.
|
|
What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed nothing. Emma was
|
|
gratified, to observe such a proof in her of strengthened character,
|
|
and refrained from any allusion that might endanger its maintenance.
|
|
They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill's death with mutual forbearance.
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|
|
|
Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating
|
|
all that was immediately important of their state and plans.
|
|
Mr. Churchill was better than could be expected; and their
|
|
first removal, on the departure of the funeral for Yorkshire,
|
|
was to be to the house of a very old friend in Windsor, to whom
|
|
Mr. Churchill had been promising a visit the last ten years.
|
|
At present, there was nothing to be done for Harriet; good wishes
|
|
for the future were all that could yet be possible on Emma's side.
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|
|
|
It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax,
|
|
whose prospects were closing, while Harriet's opened, and whose
|
|
engagements now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished
|
|
to shew her kindness--and with Emma it was grown into a first wish.
|
|
She had scarcely a stronger regret than for her past coldness;
|
|
and the person, whom she had been so many months neglecting, was now
|
|
the very one on whom she would have lavished every distinction of
|
|
regard or sympathy. She wanted to be of use to her; wanted to shew
|
|
a value for her society, and testify respect and consideration.
|
|
She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day at Hartfield.
|
|
A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused, and by
|
|
a verbal message. "Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;"
|
|
and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning,
|
|
it appeared that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited,
|
|
though against her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering
|
|
under severe headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made
|
|
him doubt the possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge's at the
|
|
time proposed. Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged--
|
|
appetite quite gone--and though there were no absolutely
|
|
alarming symptoms, nothing touching the pulmonary complaint,
|
|
which was the standing apprehension of the family, Mr. Perry was
|
|
uneasy about her. He thought she had undertaken more than she
|
|
was equal to, and that she felt it so herself, though she would
|
|
not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her present home,
|
|
he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous disorder:--
|
|
confined always to one room;--he could have wished it otherwise--
|
|
and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must acknowledge
|
|
to be not the best companion for an invalid of that description.
|
|
Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were, in fact,
|
|
only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived more
|
|
evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern;
|
|
grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover
|
|
some way of being useful. To take her--be it only an hour
|
|
or two--from her aunt, to give her change of air and scene,
|
|
and quiet rational conversation, even for an hour or two,
|
|
might do her good; and the following morning she wrote again to say,
|
|
in the most feeling language she could command, that she would
|
|
call for her in the carriage at any hour that Jane would name--
|
|
mentioning that she had Mr. Perry's decided opinion, in favour
|
|
of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only in this
|
|
short note:
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|
|
|
"Miss Fairfax's compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal
|
|
to any exercise."
|
|
|
|
Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it
|
|
was impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality
|
|
shewed indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she
|
|
might best counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted.
|
|
In spite of the answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove
|
|
to Mrs. Bates's, in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her--
|
|
but it would not do;--Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude,
|
|
and agreeing with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of
|
|
the greatest service--and every thing that message could do was tried--
|
|
but all in vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success;
|
|
Jane was quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out
|
|
seemed to make her worse.--Emma wished she could have seen her,
|
|
and tried her own powers; but, almost before she could hint the wish,
|
|
Miss Bates made it appear that she had promised her niece on
|
|
no account to let Miss Woodhouse in. "Indeed, the truth was,
|
|
that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any body--any body at all--
|
|
Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied--and Mrs. Cole had made
|
|
such a point--and Mrs. Perry had said so much--but, except them,
|
|
Jane would really see nobody."
|
|
|
|
Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys,
|
|
and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere;
|
|
neither could she feel any right of preference herself--
|
|
she submitted, therefore, and only questioned Miss Bates farther
|
|
as to her niece's appetite and diet, which she longed to be able
|
|
to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates was very unhappy,
|
|
and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any thing:--
|
|
Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing they could
|
|
command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was distasteful.
|
|
|
|
Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an
|
|
examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality
|
|
was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note.
|
|
In half an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks
|
|
from Miss Bates, but "dear Jane would not be satisfied without its
|
|
being sent back; it was a thing she could not take--and, moreover,
|
|
she insisted on her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing."
|
|
|
|
When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering
|
|
about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon
|
|
of the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal
|
|
to any exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in
|
|
the carriage, she could have no doubt--putting every thing together--
|
|
that Jane was resolved to receive no kindness from her. She was sorry,
|
|
very sorry. Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed
|
|
but the more pitiable from this sort of irritation of spirits,
|
|
inconsistency of action, and inequality of powers; and it mortified
|
|
her that she was given so little credit for proper feeling, or esteemed
|
|
so little worthy as a friend: but she had the consolation of knowing
|
|
that her intentions were good, and of being able to say to herself,
|
|
that could Mr. Knightley have been privy to all her attempts
|
|
of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen into her heart,
|
|
he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to reprove.
|
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|
|
CHAPTER X
|
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|
|
One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill's decease,
|
|
Emma was called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who "could not stay
|
|
five minutes, and wanted particularly to speak with her."--
|
|
He met her at the parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did,
|
|
in the natural key of his voice, sunk it immediately, to say,
|
|
unheard by her father,
|
|
|
|
"Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?--Do, if it
|
|
be possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you."
|
|
|
|
"Is she unwell?"
|
|
|
|
"No, no, not at all--only a little agitated. She would have
|
|
ordered the carriage, and come to you, but she must see you alone,
|
|
and that you know--(nodding towards her father)--Humph!--Can you come?"
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|
|
"Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to
|
|
refuse what you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?--
|
|
Is she really not ill?"
|
|
|
|
"Depend upon me--but ask no more questions. You will know it
|
|
all in time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!"
|
|
|
|
To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma.
|
|
Something really important seemed announced by his looks;
|
|
but, as her friend was well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy,
|
|
and settling it with her father, that she would take her walk now,
|
|
she and Mr. Weston were soon out of the house together and on
|
|
their way at a quick pace for Randalls.
|
|
|
|
"Now,"--said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--
|
|
"now Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened."
|
|
|
|
"No, no,"--he gravely replied.--"Don't ask me. I promised my wife
|
|
to leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can.
|
|
Do not be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon."
|
|
|
|
"Break it to me," cried Emma, standing still with terror.--
|
|
"Good God!--Mr. Weston, tell me at once.--Something has happened
|
|
in Brunswick Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell
|
|
me this moment what it is."
|
|
|
|
"No, indeed you are mistaken."--
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|
|
|
"Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.--Consider how many of my dearest
|
|
friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?--
|
|
I charge you by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment."
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word, Emma."--
|
|
|
|
"Your word!--why not your honour!--why not say upon your honour,
|
|
that it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!--What can
|
|
be to be broke to me, that does not relate to one of that family?"
|
|
|
|
"Upon my honour," said he very seriously, "it does not. It is not
|
|
in the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name
|
|
of Knightley."
|
|
|
|
Emma's courage returned, and she walked on.
|
|
|
|
"I was wrong," he continued, "in talking of its being broke to you.
|
|
I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern you--
|
|
it concerns only myself,--that is, we hope.--Humph!--In short,
|
|
my dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it.
|
|
I don't say that it is not a disagreeable business--but things might
|
|
be much worse.--If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls."
|
|
|
|
Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort.
|
|
She asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy,
|
|
and that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some
|
|
money concern--something just come to light, of a disagreeable
|
|
nature in the circumstances of the family,--something which the late
|
|
event at Richmond had brought forward. Her fancy was very active.
|
|
Half a dozen natural children, perhaps--and poor Frank cut off!--
|
|
This, though very undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her.
|
|
It inspired little more than an animating curiosity.
|
|
|
|
"Who is that gentleman on horseback?" said she, as they proceeded--
|
|
speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret, than with
|
|
any other view.
|
|
|
|
"I do not know.--One of the Otways.--Not Frank;--it is not Frank,
|
|
I assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor
|
|
by this time."
|
|
|
|
"Has your son been with you, then?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes--did not you know?--Well, well, never mind."
|
|
|
|
For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more
|
|
guarded and demure,
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did."
|
|
|
|
They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--"Well, my dear,"
|
|
said he, as they entered the room--"I have brought her, and now
|
|
I hope you will soon be better. I shall leave you together.
|
|
There is no use in delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me."--
|
|
And Emma distinctly heard him add, in a lower tone, before he
|
|
quitted the room,--"I have been as good as my word. She has not the
|
|
least idea."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation,
|
|
that Emma's uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone,
|
|
she eagerly said,
|
|
|
|
"What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature,
|
|
I find, has occurred;--do let me know directly what it is.
|
|
I have been walking all this way in complete suspense. We both
|
|
abhor suspense. Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you
|
|
good to speak of your distress, whatever it may be."
|
|
|
|
"Have you indeed no idea?" said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice.
|
|
"Cannot you, my dear Emma--cannot you form a guess as to what you
|
|
are to hear?"
|
|
|
|
"So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess."
|
|
|
|
"You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;"
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(resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.)
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"He has been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand.
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It is impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his
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father on a subject,--to announce an attachment--"
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She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then
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of Harriet.
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"More than an attachment, indeed," resumed Mrs. Weston; "an engagement--
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a positive engagement.--What will you say, Emma--what will any
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body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax
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are engaged;--nay, that they have been long engaged!"
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Emma even jumped with surprize;--and, horror-struck, exclaimed,
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"Jane Fairfax!--Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?"
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"You may well be amazed," returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes,
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and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover--
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"You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn
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engagement between them ever since October--formed at Weymouth,
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and kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it
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but themselves--neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.--
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It is so wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact,
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it is yet almost incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.--
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I thought I knew him."
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Emma scarcely heard what was said.--Her mind was divided between
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two ideas--her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax;
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and poor Harriet;--and for some time she could only exclaim,
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and require confirmation, repeated confirmation.
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"Well," said she at last, trying to recover herself; "this is a
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circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I
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can at all comprehend it. What!--engaged to her all the winter--
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before either of them came to Highbury?"
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"Engaged since October,--secretly engaged.--It has hurt me,
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Emma, very much. It has hurt his father equally. Some part
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of his conduct we cannot excuse."
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Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, "I will not pretend
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not to understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power,
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be assured that no such effect has followed his attentions to me,
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as you are apprehensive of."
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Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma's countenance
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was as steady as her words.
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"That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my
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present perfect indifference," she continued, "I will farther tell you,
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that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance,
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when I did like him, when I was very much disposed to be
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attached to him--nay, was attached--and how it came to cease,
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is perhaps the wonder. Fortunately, however, it did cease.
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I have really for some time past, for at least these three months,
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cared nothing about him. You may believe me, Mrs. Weston.
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This is the simple truth."
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Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could
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find utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done
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her more good than any thing else in the world could do.
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"Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself," said she.
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"On this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you
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might be attached to each other--and we were persuaded that it was so.--
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Imagine what we have been feeling on your account."
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"I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of
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grateful wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit him,
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Mrs. Weston; and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame.
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What right had he to come among us with affection and faith engaged,
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and with manners so very disengaged? What right had he to endeavour
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to please, as he certainly did--to distinguish any one young woman with
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persevering attention, as he certainly did--while he really belonged
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to another?--How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?--
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How could he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?--
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very wrong, very wrong indeed."
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"From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--"
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"And how could she bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness!
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to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman,
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before her face, and not resent it.--That is a degree of placidity,
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which I can neither comprehend nor respect."
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"There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said
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so expressly. He had not time to enter into much explanation.
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He was here only a quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation
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which did not allow the full use even of the time he could stay--
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|
but that there had been misunderstandings he decidedly said.
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The present crisis, indeed, seemed to be brought on by them;
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and those misunderstandings might very possibly arise from the
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impropriety of his conduct."
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"Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston--it is too calm a censure.
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Much, much beyond impropriety!--It has sunk him, I cannot say how
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it has sunk him in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!--
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None of that upright integrity, that strict adherence to truth
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and principle, that disdain of trick and littleness, which a man
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|
should display in every transaction of his life."
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"Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been
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wrong in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer
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for his having many, very many, good qualities; and--"
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"Good God!" cried Emma, not attending to her.--"Mrs. Smallridge, too!
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Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he
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|
mean by such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself--
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|
to suffer her even to think of such a measure!"
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|
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|
"He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully
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|
acquit him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated
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to him--or at least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.--
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|
Till yesterday, I know he said he was in the dark as to her plans.
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They burst on him, I do not know how, but by some letter or message--
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|
and it was the discovery of what she was doing, of this very project
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|
of hers, which determined him to come forward at once, own it
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|
all to his uncle, throw himself on his kindness, and, in short,
|
|
put an end to the miserable state of concealment that had been
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|
carrying on so long."
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Emma began to listen better.
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"I am to hear from him soon," continued Mrs. Weston. "He told me
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at parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which
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|
seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now.
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|
Let us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations.
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|
It may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are
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|
not to be understood. Don't let us be severe, don't let us be in
|
|
a hurry to condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him;
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|
and now that I am satisfied on one point, the one material point,
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|
I am sincerely anxious for its all turning out well, and ready
|
|
to hope that it may. They must both have suffered a great deal
|
|
under such a system of secresy and concealment."
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|
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"His sufferings," replied Emma dryly, "do not appear to have done
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|
him much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?"
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|
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|
"Most favourably for his nephew--gave his consent with scarcely
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|
a difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done
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|
in that family! While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there
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|
could not have been a hope, a chance, a possibility;--but scarcely
|
|
are her remains at rest in the family vault, than her husband is
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|
persuaded to act exactly opposite to what she would have required.
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|
What a blessing it is, when undue influence does not survive the grave!--
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|
He gave his consent with very little persuasion."
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"Ah!" thought Emma, "he would have done as much for Harriet."
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|
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|
"This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light
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|
this morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates's, I fancy,
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|
some time--and then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get
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|
back to his uncle, to whom he is just now more necessary than ever,
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|
that, as I tell you, he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.--
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|
He was very much agitated--very much, indeed--to a degree that made
|
|
him appear quite a different creature from any thing I had ever seen
|
|
him before.--In addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of
|
|
finding her so very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of--
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|
and there was every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal."
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|
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|
"And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on
|
|
with such perfect secresy?--The Campbells, the Dixons, did none
|
|
of them know of the engagement?"
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|
|
|
Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.
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|
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|
"None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no
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|
being in the world but their two selves."
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|
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|
"Well," said Emma, "I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled
|
|
to the idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always
|
|
think it a very abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been
|
|
but a system of hypocrisy and deceit,--espionage, and treachery?--
|
|
To come among us with professions of openness and simplicity;
|
|
and such a league in secret to judge us all!--Here have we been,
|
|
the whole winter and spring, completely duped, fancying ourselves
|
|
all on an equal footing of truth and honour, with two people in the
|
|
midst of us who may have been carrying round, comparing and sitting
|
|
in judgment on sentiments and words that were never meant for both
|
|
to hear.--They must take the consequence, if they have heard each
|
|
other spoken of in a way not perfectly agreeable!"
|
|
|
|
"I am quite easy on that head," replied Mrs. Weston. "I am
|
|
very sure that I never said any thing of either to the other,
|
|
which both might not have heard."
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|
|
|
"You are in luck.--Your only blunder was confined to my ear,
|
|
when you imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady."
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|
|
|
"True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss
|
|
Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her;
|
|
and as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe."
|
|
|
|
At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the window,
|
|
evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited
|
|
him in; and, while he was coming round, added, "Now, dearest Emma,
|
|
let me intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his
|
|
heart at ease, and incline him to be satisfied with the match.
|
|
Let us make the best of it--and, indeed, almost every thing may
|
|
be fairly said in her favour. It is not a connexion to gratify;
|
|
but if Mr. Churchill does not feel that, why should we? and it
|
|
may be a very fortunate circumstance for him, for Frank, I mean,
|
|
that he should have attached himself to a girl of such steadiness
|
|
of character and good judgment as I have always given her credit for--
|
|
and still am disposed to give her credit for, in spite of this
|
|
one great deviation from the strict rule of right. And how much
|
|
may be said in her situation for even that error!"
|
|
|
|
"Much, indeed!" cried Emma feelingly. "If a woman can ever
|
|
be excused for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation
|
|
like Jane Fairfax's.--Of such, one may almost say, that `the
|
|
world is not their's, nor the world's law.'"
|
|
|
|
She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance,
|
|
exclaiming,
|
|
|
|
"A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word!
|
|
This was a device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity,
|
|
and exercise my talent of guessing. But you really frightened me.
|
|
I thought you had lost half your property, at least. And here,
|
|
instead of its being a matter of condolence, it turns out to be one
|
|
of congratulation.--I congratulate you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart,
|
|
on the prospect of having one of the most lovely and accomplished
|
|
young women in England for your daughter."
|
|
|
|
A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was
|
|
as right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits
|
|
was immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness:
|
|
he shook her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered
|
|
on the subject in a manner to prove, that he now only wanted
|
|
time and persuasion to think the engagement no very bad thing.
|
|
His companions suggested only what could palliate imprudence,
|
|
or smooth objections; and by the time they had talked it all
|
|
over together, and he had talked it all over again with Emma,
|
|
in their walk back to Hartfield, he was become perfectly reconciled,
|
|
and not far from thinking it the very best thing that Frank could
|
|
possibly have done.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XI
|
|
|
|
"Harriet, poor Harriet!"--Those were the words; in them lay the
|
|
tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted
|
|
the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved
|
|
very ill by herself--very ill in many ways,--but it was not so much
|
|
his behaviour as her own, which made her so angry with him.
|
|
It was the scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet's account,
|
|
that gave the deepest hue to his offence.--Poor Harriet! to be a second
|
|
time the dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley
|
|
had spoken prophetically, when he once said, "Emma, you have been
|
|
no friend to Harriet Smith."--She was afraid she had done her nothing
|
|
but disservice.--It was true that she had not to charge herself,
|
|
in this instance as in the former, with being the sole and original
|
|
author of the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might
|
|
otherwise never have entered Harriet's imagination; for Harriet
|
|
had acknowledged her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill
|
|
before she had ever given her a hint on the subject; but she felt
|
|
completely guilty of having encouraged what she might have repressed.
|
|
She might have prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments.
|
|
Her influence would have been enough. And now she was very conscious
|
|
that she ought to have prevented them.--She felt that she had been
|
|
risking her friend's happiness on most insufficient grounds.
|
|
Common sense would have directed her to tell Harriet, that she
|
|
must not allow herself to think of him, and that there were five
|
|
hundred chances to one against his ever caring for her.--"But, with
|
|
common sense," she added, "I am afraid I have had little to do."
|
|
|
|
She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been
|
|
angry with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.--
|
|
As for Jane Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings
|
|
from any present solicitude on her account. Harriet would
|
|
be anxiety enough; she need no longer be unhappy about Jane,
|
|
whose troubles and whose ill-health having, of course, the same origin,
|
|
must be equally under cure.--Her days of insignificance and evil
|
|
were over.--She would soon be well, and happy, and prosperous.--
|
|
Emma could now imagine why her own attentions had been slighted.
|
|
This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No doubt it had been
|
|
from jealousy.--In Jane's eyes she had been a rival; and well might
|
|
any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be repulsed.
|
|
An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack,
|
|
and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison.
|
|
She understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself
|
|
from the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged
|
|
that Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond
|
|
her desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge!
|
|
There was little sympathy to be spared for any body else.
|
|
Emma was sadly fearful that this second disappointment would be
|
|
more severe than the first. Considering the very superior claims
|
|
of the object, it ought; and judging by its apparently stronger effect
|
|
on Harriet's mind, producing reserve and self-command, it would.--
|
|
She must communicate the painful truth, however, and as soon
|
|
as possible. An injunction of secresy had been among Mr. Weston's
|
|
parting words. "For the present, the whole affair was to be
|
|
completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point of it,
|
|
as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost;
|
|
and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum."--
|
|
Emma had promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her
|
|
superior duty.
|
|
|
|
In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost ridiculous,
|
|
that she should have the very same distressing and delicate office to
|
|
perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through by herself.
|
|
The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to her,
|
|
she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat
|
|
quick on hearing Harriet's footstep and voice; so, she supposed,
|
|
had poor Mrs. Weston felt when she was approaching Randalls.
|
|
Could the event of the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!--
|
|
But of that, unfortunately, there could be no chance.
|
|
|
|
"Well, Miss Woodhouse!" cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room--
|
|
"is not this the oddest news that ever was?"
|
|
|
|
"What news do you mean?" replied Emma, unable to guess, by look
|
|
or voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.
|
|
|
|
"About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange?
|
|
Oh!--you need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has
|
|
told me himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be
|
|
a great secret; and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning
|
|
it to any body but you, but he said you knew it."
|
|
|
|
"What did Mr. Weston tell you?"--said Emma, still perplexed.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank
|
|
Churchill are to be married, and that they have been privately
|
|
engaged to one another this long while. How very odd!"
|
|
|
|
It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet's behaviour was so extremely odd,
|
|
that Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared
|
|
absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation,
|
|
or disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked
|
|
at her, quite unable to speak.
|
|
|
|
"Had you any idea," cried Harriet, "of his being in love
|
|
with her?--You, perhaps, might.--You (blushing as she spoke)
|
|
who can see into every body's heart; but nobody else--"
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word," said Emma, "I begin to doubt my having any such talent.
|
|
Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached
|
|
to another woman at the very time that I was--tacitly, if not openly--
|
|
encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?--I never had
|
|
the slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank
|
|
Churchill's having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be
|
|
very sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly."
|
|
|
|
"Me!" cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. "Why should you
|
|
caution me?--You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill."
|
|
|
|
"I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject,"
|
|
replied Emma, smiling; "but you do not mean to deny that there
|
|
was a time--and not very distant either--when you gave me reason
|
|
to understand that you did care about him?"
|
|
|
|
"Him!--never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake me?"
|
|
turning away distressed.
|
|
|
|
"Harriet!" cried Emma, after a moment's pause--"What do you mean?--
|
|
Good Heaven! what do you mean?--Mistake you!--Am I to suppose then?--"
|
|
|
|
She could not speak another word.--Her voice was lost; and she
|
|
sat down, waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.
|
|
|
|
Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned
|
|
from her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak,
|
|
it was in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma's.
|
|
|
|
"I should not have thought it possible," she began, "that you
|
|
could have misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him--
|
|
but considering how infinitely superior he is to every body else,
|
|
I should not have thought it possible that I could be supposed
|
|
to mean any other person. Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not
|
|
know who would ever look at him in the company of the other.
|
|
I hope I have a better taste than to think of Mr. Frank Churchill,
|
|
who is like nobody by his side. And that you should have been
|
|
so mistaken, is amazing!--I am sure, but for believing that you
|
|
entirely approved and meant to encourage me in my attachment,
|
|
I should have considered it at first too great a presumption almost,
|
|
to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not told me
|
|
that more wonderful things had happened; that there had been
|
|
matches of greater disparity (those were your very words);--
|
|
I should not have dared to give way to--I should not have thought
|
|
it possible--But if you, who had been always acquainted with him--"
|
|
|
|
"Harriet!" cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely--"Let us
|
|
understand each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake.
|
|
Are you speaking of--Mr. Knightley?"
|
|
|
|
"To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else--
|
|
and so I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear
|
|
as possible."
|
|
|
|
"Not quite," returned Emma, with forced calmness, "for all that
|
|
you then said, appeared to me to relate to a different person.
|
|
I could almost assert that you had named Mr. Frank Churchill.
|
|
I am sure the service Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you,
|
|
in protecting you from the gipsies, was spoken of."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!"
|
|
|
|
"My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I
|
|
said on the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at
|
|
your attachment; that considering the service he had rendered you,
|
|
it was extremely natural:--and you agreed to it, expressing yourself
|
|
very warmly as to your sense of that service, and mentioning
|
|
even what your sensations had been in seeing him come forward
|
|
to your rescue.--The impression of it is strong on my memory."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, dear," cried Harriet, "now I recollect what you mean; but I
|
|
was thinking of something very different at the time. It was not
|
|
the gipsies--it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with
|
|
some elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance--
|
|
of Mr. Knightley's coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton
|
|
would not stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in
|
|
the room. That was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence
|
|
and generosity; that was the service which made me begin to feel
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how superior he was to every other being upon earth."
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"Good God!" cried Emma, "this has been a most unfortunate--
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most deplorable mistake!--What is to be done?"
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"You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me?
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At least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been,
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if the other had been the person; and now--it is possible--"
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She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.
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"I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse," she resumed, "that you should feel
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a great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body.
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You must think one five hundred million times more above me than
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the other. But I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing--that if--
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strange as it may appear--. But you know they were your own words,
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that more wonderful things had happened, matches of greater disparity
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had taken place than between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore,
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it seems as if such a thing even as this, may have occurred before--
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and if I should be so fortunate, beyond expression, as to--
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if Mr. Knightley should really--if he does not mind the disparity,
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I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you will not set yourself against it,
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and try to put difficulties in the way. But you are too good for that,
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I am sure."
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Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round
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to look at her in consternation, and hastily said,
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"Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley's returning your affection?"
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"Yes," replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully--"I must say
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that I have."
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Emma's eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating,
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in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient
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for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers,
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once opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched--
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she admitted--she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it
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so much worse that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley,
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than with Frank Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased
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by Harriet's having some hope of a return? It darted through her,
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with the speed of an arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one
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but herself!
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Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the
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same few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had
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never blessed her before. How improperly had she been acting
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by Harriet! How inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational,
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how unfeeling had been her conduct! What blindness, what madness,
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had led her on! It struck her with dreadful force, and she
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was ready to give it every bad name in the world. Some portion
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of respect for herself, however, in spite of all these demerits--
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some concern for her own appearance, and a strong sense of justice
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by Harriet--(there would be no need of compassion to the girl
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who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley--but justice required
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that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,)
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gave Emma the resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness,
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with even apparent kindness.--For her own advantage indeed, it was fit
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that the utmost extent of Harriet's hopes should be enquired into;
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and Harriet had done nothing to forfeit the regard and interest
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which had been so voluntarily formed and maintained--or to deserve
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to be slighted by the person, whose counsels had never led her right.--
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Rousing from reflection, therefore, and subduing her emotion,
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she turned to Harriet again, and, in a more inviting accent, renewed
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the conversation; for as to the subject which had first introduced it,
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the wonderful story of Jane Fairfax, that was quite sunk and lost.--
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Neither of them thought but of Mr. Knightley and themselves.
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Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad
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to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge,
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and such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation,
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to give the history of her hopes with great, though trembling
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delight.--Emma's tremblings as she asked, and as she listened,
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were better concealed than Harriet's, but they were not less.
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Her voice was not unsteady; but her mind was in all the perturbation
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that such a development of self, such a burst of threatening evil,
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such a confusion of sudden and perplexing emotions, must create.--
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She listened with much inward suffering, but with great outward
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patience, to Harriet's detail.--Methodical, or well arranged,
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or very well delivered, it could not be expected to be;
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but it contained, when separated from all the feebleness and
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tautology of the narration, a substance to sink her spirit--
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especially with the corroborating circumstances, which her own memory
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brought in favour of Mr. Knightley's most improved opinion of Harriet.
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Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since
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those two decisive dances.--Emma knew that he had, on that occasion,
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found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening,
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or at least from the time of Miss Woodhouse's encouraging her
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to think of him, Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking
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to her much more than he had been used to do, and of his having
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indeed quite a different manner towards her; a manner of kindness
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and sweetness!--Latterly she had been more and more aware of it.
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When they had been all walking together, he had so often come and walked
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by her, and talked so very delightfully!--He seemed to want to be
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acquainted with her. Emma knew it to have been very much the case.
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She had often observed the change, to almost the same extent.--
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Harriet repeated expressions of approbation and praise from him--
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and Emma felt them to be in the closest agreement with what she had
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known of his opinion of Harriet. He praised her for being without
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art or affectation, for having simple, honest, generous, feelings.--
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She knew that he saw such recommendations in Harriet; he had dwelt
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on them to her more than once.--Much that lived in Harriet's memory,
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many little particulars of the notice she had received from him, a look,
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a speech, a removal from one chair to another, a compliment implied,
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a preference inferred, had been unnoticed, because unsuspected,
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|
by Emma. Circumstances that might swell to half an hour's relation,
|
|
and contained multiplied proofs to her who had seen them, had passed
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|
undiscerned by her who now heard them; but the two latest occurrences
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|
to be mentioned, the two of strongest promise to Harriet, were not
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|
without some degree of witness from Emma herself.--The first,
|
|
was his walking with her apart from the others, in the lime-walk
|
|
at Donwell, where they had been walking some time before Emma came,
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|
and he had taken pains (as she was convinced) to draw her from
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the rest to himself--and at first, he had talked to her in a more
|
|
particular way than he had ever done before, in a very particular
|
|
way indeed!--(Harriet could not recall it without a blush.) He seemed
|
|
to be almost asking her, whether her affections were engaged.--
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|
But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared likely to join them,
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he changed the subject, and began talking about farming:--
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|
The second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half an hour
|
|
before Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of his
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|
being at Hartfield--though, when he first came in, he had said
|
|
that he could not stay five minutes--and his having told her,
|
|
during their conversation, that though he must go to London,
|
|
it was very much against his inclination that he left home at all,
|
|
which was much more (as Emma felt) than he had acknowledged to her.
|
|
The superior degree of confidence towards Harriet, which this one
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|
article marked, gave her severe pain.
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|
On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did,
|
|
after a little reflection, venture the following question.
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|
"Might he not?--Is not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought,
|
|
into the state of your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin--
|
|
he might have Mr. Martin's interest in view? But Harriet rejected
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|
the suspicion with spirit.
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|
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"Mr. Martin! No indeed!--There was not a hint of Mr. Martin.
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|
I hope I know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be
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|
suspected of it."
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|
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When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear
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|
Miss Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.
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"I never should have presumed to think of it at first," said she,
|
|
"but for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let
|
|
his behaviour be the rule of mine--and so I have. But now I seem
|
|
to feel that I may deserve him; and that if he does chuse me,
|
|
it will not be any thing so very wonderful."
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|
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|
The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter
|
|
feelings, made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma's side,
|
|
to enable her to say on reply,
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|
|
|
"Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is
|
|
the last man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman
|
|
the idea of his feeling for her more than he really does."
|
|
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|
Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so satisfactory;
|
|
and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which at
|
|
that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her
|
|
father's footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was
|
|
too much agitated to encounter him. "She could not compose herself--
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse would be alarmed--she had better go;"--with most ready
|
|
encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through
|
|
another door--and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous
|
|
burst of Emma's feelings: "Oh God! that I had never seen her!"
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|
The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough
|
|
for her thoughts.--She was bewildered amidst the confusion
|
|
of all that had rushed on her within the last few hours.
|
|
Every moment had brought a fresh surprize; and every surprize
|
|
must be matter of humiliation to her.--How to understand it all!
|
|
How to understand the deceptions she had been thus practising
|
|
on herself, and living under!--The blunders, the blindness of her
|
|
own head and heart!--she sat still, she walked about, she tried her
|
|
own room, she tried the shrubbery--in every place, every posture,
|
|
she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she had been imposed
|
|
on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had been imposing
|
|
on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she was wretched,
|
|
and should probably find this day but the beginning of wretchedness.
|
|
|
|
To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the
|
|
first endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her
|
|
father's claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary
|
|
absence of mind.
|
|
|
|
How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling
|
|
declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence begun?--
|
|
When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which Frank
|
|
Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?--She looked back;
|
|
she compared the two--compared them, as they had always stood in
|
|
her estimation, from the time of the latter's becoming known to her--
|
|
and as they must at any time have been compared by her, had it--
|
|
oh! had it, by any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute
|
|
the comparison.--She saw that there never had been a time when she
|
|
did not consider Mr. Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when
|
|
his regard for her had not been infinitely the most dear. She saw,
|
|
that in persuading herself, in fancying, in acting to the contrary,
|
|
she had been entirely under a delusion, totally ignorant of her
|
|
own heart--and, in short, that she had never really cared for Frank
|
|
Churchill at all!
|
|
|
|
This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection.
|
|
This was the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry,
|
|
which she reached; and without being long in reaching it.--
|
|
She was most sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation
|
|
but the one revealed to her--her affection for Mr. Knightley.--
|
|
Every other part of her mind was disgusting.
|
|
|
|
With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every
|
|
body's feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange every
|
|
body's destiny. She was proved to have been universally mistaken;
|
|
and she had not quite done nothing--for she had done mischief.
|
|
She had brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too much feared,
|
|
on Mr. Knightley.--Were this most unequal of all connexions to
|
|
take place, on her must rest all the reproach of having given it
|
|
a beginning; for his attachment, she must believe to be produced only
|
|
by a consciousness of Harriet's;--and even were this not the case,
|
|
he would never have known Harriet at all but for her folly.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--It was a union to distance every
|
|
wonder of the kind.--The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane
|
|
Fairfax became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison,
|
|
exciting no surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing
|
|
to be said or thought.--Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--Such an
|
|
elevation on her side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible
|
|
to Emma to think how it must sink him in the general opinion,
|
|
to foresee the smiles, the sneers, the merriment it would prompt at
|
|
his expense; the mortification and disdain of his brother, the thousand
|
|
inconveniences to himself.--Could it be?--No; it was impossible.
|
|
And yet it was far, very far, from impossible.--Was it a new
|
|
circumstance for a man of first-rate abilities to be captivated by
|
|
very inferior powers? Was it new for one, perhaps too busy to seek,
|
|
to be the prize of a girl who would seek him?--Was it new for any
|
|
thing in this world to be unequal, inconsistent, incongruous--or for
|
|
chance and circumstance (as second causes) to direct the human fate?
|
|
|
|
Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where
|
|
she ought, and where he had told her she ought!--Had she not,
|
|
with a folly which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying
|
|
the unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy
|
|
and respectable in the line of life to which she ought to belong--
|
|
all would have been safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.
|
|
|
|
How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise
|
|
her thoughts to Mr. Knightley!--How she could dare to fancy
|
|
herself the chosen of such a man till actually assured of it!--
|
|
But Harriet was less humble, had fewer scruples than formerly.--
|
|
Her inferiority, whether of mind or situation, seemed little felt.--
|
|
She had seemed more sensible of Mr. Elton's being to stoop
|
|
in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr. Knightley's.--
|
|
Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at pains to give
|
|
Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?--Who but herself
|
|
had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible,
|
|
and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?--
|
|
If Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XII
|
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|
|
Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known
|
|
how much of her happiness depended on being first with Mr. Knightley,
|
|
first in interest and affection.--Satisfied that it was so,
|
|
and feeling it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection;
|
|
and only in the dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly
|
|
important it had been.--Long, very long, she felt she had been first;
|
|
for, having no female connexions of his own, there had been
|
|
only Isabella whose claims could be compared with hers, and she
|
|
had always known exactly how far he loved and esteemed Isabella.
|
|
She had herself been first with him for many years past.
|
|
She had not deserved it; she had often been negligent or perverse,
|
|
slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing him, insensible of
|
|
half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he would not
|
|
acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own--but still,
|
|
from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind,
|
|
he had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour
|
|
to improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no
|
|
other creature had at all shared. In spite of all her faults,
|
|
she knew she was dear to him; might she not say, very dear?--
|
|
When the suggestions of hope, however, which must follow here,
|
|
presented themselves, she could not presume to indulge them.
|
|
Harriet Smith might think herself not unworthy of being peculiarly,
|
|
exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley. She could not.
|
|
She could not flatter herself with any idea of blindness in his attachment
|
|
to her. She had received a very recent proof of its impartiality.--
|
|
How shocked had he been by her behaviour to Miss Bates! How directly,
|
|
how strongly had he expressed himself to her on the subject!--Not too
|
|
strongly for the offence--but far, far too strongly to issue from
|
|
any feeling softer than upright justice and clear-sighted goodwill.--
|
|
She had no hope, nothing to deserve the name of hope, that he could
|
|
have that sort of affection for herself which was now in question;
|
|
but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at times much stronger,)
|
|
that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be overrating his
|
|
regard for her.--Wish it she must, for his sake--be the consequence
|
|
nothing to herself, but his remaining single all his life.
|
|
Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all,
|
|
she believed she should be perfectly satisfied.--Let him but continue
|
|
the same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley
|
|
to all the world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their
|
|
precious intercourse of friendship and confidence, and her peace
|
|
would be fully secured.--Marriage, in fact, would not do for her.
|
|
It would be incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with
|
|
what she felt for him. Nothing should separate her from her father.
|
|
She would not marry, even if she were asked by Mr. Knightley.
|
|
|
|
It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed;
|
|
and she hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at
|
|
least be able to ascertain what the chances for it were.--She should
|
|
see them henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly
|
|
as she had hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching,
|
|
she did not know how to admit that she could be blinded here.--
|
|
He was expected back every day. The power of observation would be
|
|
soon given--frightfully soon it appeared when her thoughts were in
|
|
one course. In the meanwhile, she resolved against seeing Harriet.--
|
|
It would do neither of them good, it would do the subject no good,
|
|
to be talking of it farther.--She was resolved not to be convinced,
|
|
as long as she could doubt, and yet had no authority for opposing
|
|
Harriet's confidence. To talk would be only to irritate.--She wrote
|
|
to her, therefore, kindly, but decisively, to beg that she would not,
|
|
at present, come to Hartfield; acknowledging it to be her conviction,
|
|
that all farther confidential discussion of one topic had better
|
|
be avoided; and hoping, that if a few days were allowed to pass before
|
|
they met again, except in the company of others--she objected only
|
|
to a tete-a-tete--they might be able to act as if they had forgotten
|
|
the conversation of yesterday.--Harriet submitted, and approved,
|
|
and was grateful.
|
|
|
|
This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma's
|
|
thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them,
|
|
sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours--Mrs. Weston, who had
|
|
been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her
|
|
way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself,
|
|
to relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates's, and gone through his
|
|
share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having
|
|
then induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned
|
|
with much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction,
|
|
than a quarter of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates's parlour, with all
|
|
the encumbrance of awkward feelings, could have afforded.
|
|
|
|
A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while
|
|
her friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit
|
|
in a good deal of agitation herself; and in the first place had
|
|
wished not to go at all at present, to be allowed merely to write
|
|
to Miss Fairfax instead, and to defer this ceremonious call till
|
|
a little time had passed, and Mr. Churchill could be reconciled
|
|
to the engagement's becoming known; as, considering every thing,
|
|
she thought such a visit could not be paid without leading to reports:--
|
|
but Mr. Weston had thought differently; he was extremely anxious
|
|
to shew his approbation to Miss Fairfax and her family, and did not
|
|
conceive that any suspicion could be excited by it; or if it were,
|
|
that it would be of any consequence; for "such things," he observed,
|
|
"always got about." Emma smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston had
|
|
very good reason for saying so. They had gone, in short--and very
|
|
great had been the evident distress and confusion of the lady.
|
|
She had hardly been able to speak a word, and every look and action
|
|
had shewn how deeply she was suffering from consciousness. The quiet,
|
|
heart-felt satisfaction of the old lady, and the rapturous delight
|
|
of her daughter--who proved even too joyous to talk as usual,
|
|
had been a gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene. They were
|
|
both so truly respectable in their happiness, so disinterested
|
|
in every sensation; thought so much of Jane; so much of every body,
|
|
and so little of themselves, that every kindly feeling was at work
|
|
for them. Miss Fairfax's recent illness had offered a fair plea
|
|
for Mrs. Weston to invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and
|
|
declined at first, but, on being pressed had yielded; and, in the
|
|
course of their drive, Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement,
|
|
overcome so much of her embarrassment, as to bring her to converse
|
|
on the important subject. Apologies for her seemingly ungracious
|
|
silence in their first reception, and the warmest expressions of the
|
|
gratitude she was always feeling towards herself and Mr. Weston,
|
|
must necessarily open the cause; but when these effusions were put by,
|
|
they had talked a good deal of the present and of the future state
|
|
of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was convinced that such conversation
|
|
must be the greatest relief to her companion, pent up within her own
|
|
mind as every thing had so long been, and was very much pleased
|
|
with all that she had said on the subject.
|
|
|
|
"On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment
|
|
of so many months," continued Mrs. Weston, "she was energetic.
|
|
This was one of her expressions. `I will not say, that since I
|
|
entered into the engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I
|
|
can say, that I have never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:'--
|
|
and the quivering lip, Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation
|
|
that I felt at my heart."
|
|
|
|
"Poor girl!" said Emma. "She thinks herself wrong, then, for having
|
|
consented to a private engagement?"
|
|
|
|
"Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed
|
|
to blame herself. `The consequence,' said she, `has been a state
|
|
of perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the
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punishment that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct.
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Pain is no expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting
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contrary to all my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every
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thing has taken, and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my
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conscience tells me ought not to be.' `Do not imagine, madam,'
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she continued, `that I was taught wrong. Do not let any reflection
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fall on the principles or the care of the friends who brought
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me up. The error has been all my own; and I do assure you that,
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with all the excuse that present circumstances may appear to give,
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I shall yet dread making the story known to Colonel Campbell.'"
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"Poor girl!" said Emma again. "She loves him then excessively,
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I suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could
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be led to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered
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her judgment."
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"Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him."
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"I am afraid," returned Emma, sighing, "that I must often have
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contributed to make her unhappy."
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"On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she
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probably had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding
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to the misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before.
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One natural consequence of the evil she had involved herself in,"
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she said, "was that of making her unreasonable. The consciousness
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of having done amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes,
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and made her captious and irritable to a degree that must have been--
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that had been--hard for him to bear. `I did not make the allowances,'
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said she, `which I ought to have done, for his temper and spirits--
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his delightful spirits, and that gaiety, that playfulness
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of disposition, which, under any other circumstances, would, I am sure,
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have been as constantly bewitching to me, as they were at first.'
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She then began to speak of you, and of the great kindness you
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had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush which shewed me
|
|
how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had an opportunity,
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to thank you--I could not thank you too much--for every wish and
|
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every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had never
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received any proper acknowledgment from herself."
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"If I did not know her to be happy now," said Emma, seriously,
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"which, in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous
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conscience, she must be, I could not bear these thanks;--for, oh!
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Mrs. Weston, if there were an account drawn up of the evil
|
|
and the good I have done Miss Fairfax!--Well (checking herself,
|
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and trying to be more lively), this is all to be forgotten.
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You are very kind to bring me these interesting particulars.
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They shew her to the greatest advantage. I am sure she is very good--
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I hope she will be very happy. It is fit that the fortune
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should be on his side, for I think the merit will be all on hers."
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Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston.
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She thought well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more,
|
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she loved him very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest.
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She talked with a great deal of reason, and at least equal affection--
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|
but she had too much to urge for Emma's attention; it was soon gone
|
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to Brunswick Square or to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen;
|
|
and when Mrs. Weston ended with, "We have not yet had the letter
|
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we are so anxious for, you know, but I hope it will soon come,"
|
|
she was obliged to pause before she answered, and at last obliged
|
|
to answer at random, before she could at all recollect what letter it
|
|
was which they were so anxious for.
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"Are you well, my Emma?" was Mrs. Weston's parting question.
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"Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me
|
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intelligence of the letter as soon as possible."
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Mrs. Weston's communications furnished Emma with more food for
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unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion,
|
|
and her sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly
|
|
regretted not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed
|
|
for the envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure,
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|
the cause. Had she followed Mr. Knightley's known wishes, in paying
|
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that attention to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she
|
|
tried to know her better; had she done her part towards intimacy;
|
|
had she endeavoured to find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith;
|
|
she must, in all probability, have been spared from every pain
|
|
which pressed on her now.--Birth, abilities, and education,
|
|
had been equally marking one as an associate for her, to be received
|
|
with gratitude; and the other--what was she?--Supposing even that
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they had never become intimate friends; that she had never been
|
|
admitted into Miss Fairfax's confidence on this important matter--
|
|
which was most probable--still, in knowing her as she ought,
|
|
and as she might, she must have been preserved from the abominable
|
|
suspicions of an improper attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had
|
|
not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured herself, but had so
|
|
unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly feared had been made
|
|
a subject of material distress to the delicacy of Jane's feelings,
|
|
by the levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill's. Of all the sources
|
|
of evil surrounding the former, since her coming to Highbury,
|
|
she was persuaded that she must herself have been the worst.
|
|
She must have been a perpetual enemy. They never could have been
|
|
all three together, without her having stabbed Jane Fairfax's peace
|
|
in a thousand instances; and on Box Hill, perhaps, it had been
|
|
the agony of a mind that would bear no more.
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|
|
|
The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield.
|
|
The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in,
|
|
and nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the
|
|
wind was despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made
|
|
such cruel sights the longer visible.
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|
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|
The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably
|
|
comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter's side,
|
|
and by exertions which had never cost her half so much before.
|
|
It reminded her of their first forlorn tete-a-tete, on the evening
|
|
of Mrs. Weston's wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked
|
|
in then, soon after tea, and dissipated every melancholy fancy.
|
|
Alas! such delightful proofs of Hartfield's attraction, as those
|
|
sort of visits conveyed, might shortly be over. The picture which
|
|
she had then drawn of the privations of the approaching winter,
|
|
had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them, no pleasures
|
|
had been lost.--But her present forebodings she feared would
|
|
experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her now,
|
|
was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled--
|
|
that might not be even partially brightened. If all took place
|
|
that might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must
|
|
be comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the
|
|
spirits only of ruined happiness.
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|
|
|
The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer
|
|
than herself; and Mrs. Weston's heart and time would be occupied
|
|
by it. They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure,
|
|
her husband also.--Frank Churchill would return among them no more;
|
|
and Miss Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease
|
|
to belong to Highbury. They would be married, and settled either
|
|
at or near Enscombe. All that were good would be withdrawn; and if
|
|
to these losses, the loss of Donwell were to be added, what would
|
|
remain of cheerful or of rational society within their reach?
|
|
Mr. Knightley to be no longer coming there for his evening comfort!--
|
|
No longer walking in at all hours, as if ever willing to change
|
|
his own home for their's!--How was it to be endured? And if he were
|
|
to be lost to them for Harriet's sake; if he were to be thought
|
|
of hereafter, as finding in Harriet's society all that he wanted;
|
|
if Harriet were to be the chosen, the first, the dearest, the friend,
|
|
the wife to whom he looked for all the best blessings of existence;
|
|
what could be increasing Emma's wretchedness but the reflection never far
|
|
distant from her mind, that it had been all her own work?
|
|
|
|
When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain
|
|
from a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room
|
|
for a few seconds--and the only source whence any thing like consolation
|
|
or composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own
|
|
better conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and
|
|
gaiety might be the following and every future winter of her life
|
|
to the past, it would yet find her more rational, more acquainted
|
|
with herself, and leave her less to regret when it were gone.
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|
|
CHAPTER XIII
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The weather continued much the same all the following morning;
|
|
and the same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to
|
|
reign at Hartfield--but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind
|
|
changed into a softer quarter; the clouds were carried off;
|
|
the sun appeared; it was summer again. With all the eagerness
|
|
which such a transition gives, Emma resolved to be out of doors
|
|
as soon as possible. Never had the exquisite sight, smell,
|
|
sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and brilliant after a storm,
|
|
been more attractive to her. She longed for the serenity they might
|
|
gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry's coming in soon after dinner,
|
|
with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time ill
|
|
hurrying into the shrubbery.--There, with spirits freshened,
|
|
and thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she
|
|
saw Mr. Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming
|
|
towards her.--It was the first intimation of his being returned
|
|
from London. She had been thinking of him the moment before,
|
|
as unquestionably sixteen miles distant.--There was time only for
|
|
the quickest arrangement of mind. She must be collected and calm.
|
|
In half a minute they were together. The "How d'ye do's" were quiet
|
|
and constrained on each side. She asked after their mutual friends;
|
|
they were all well.--When had he left them?--Only that morning.
|
|
He must have had a wet ride.--Yes.--He meant to walk with her,
|
|
she found. "He had just looked into the dining-room, and as he
|
|
was not wanted there, preferred being out of doors."--She thought
|
|
he neither looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the first possible
|
|
cause for it, suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps been
|
|
communicating his plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner
|
|
in which they had been received.
|
|
|
|
They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often
|
|
looking at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it
|
|
suited her to give. And this belief produced another dread.
|
|
Perhaps he wanted to speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet;
|
|
he might be watching for encouragement to begin.--She did not,
|
|
could not, feel equal to lead the way to any such subject.
|
|
He must do it all himself. Yet she could not bear this silence.
|
|
With him it was most unnatural. She considered--resolved--and, trying
|
|
to smile, began--
|
|
|
|
"You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather
|
|
surprize you."
|
|
|
|
"Have I?" said he quietly, and looking at her; "of what nature?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! the best nature in the world--a wedding."
|
|
|
|
After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more,
|
|
he replied,
|
|
|
|
"If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard
|
|
that already."
|
|
|
|
"How is it possible?" cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks
|
|
towards him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he
|
|
might have called at Mrs. Goddard's in his way.
|
|
|
|
"I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning,
|
|
and at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened."
|
|
|
|
Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little
|
|
more composure,
|
|
|
|
"You probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have
|
|
had your suspicions.--I have not forgotten that you once tried to give
|
|
me a caution.--I wish I had attended to it--but--(with a sinking
|
|
voice and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness."
|
|
|
|
For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious
|
|
of having excited any particular interest, till she found her arm
|
|
drawn within his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him
|
|
thus saying, in a tone of great sensibility, speaking low,
|
|
|
|
"Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.--Your own
|
|
excellent sense--your exertions for your father's sake--I know
|
|
you will not allow yourself--." Her arm was pressed again,
|
|
as he added, in a more broken and subdued accent, "The feelings
|
|
of the warmest friendship--Indignation--Abominable scoundrel!"--
|
|
And in a louder, steadier tone, he concluded with, "He will soon
|
|
be gone. They will soon be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for her.
|
|
She deserves a better fate."
|
|
|
|
Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the
|
|
flutter of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,
|
|
|
|
"You are very kind--but you are mistaken--and I must set you right.--
|
|
I am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what
|
|
was going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always
|
|
be ashamed of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many
|
|
things which may well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I
|
|
have no other reason to regret that I was not in the secret earlier."
|
|
|
|
"Emma!" cried he, looking eagerly at her, "are you, indeed?"--
|
|
but checking himself--"No, no, I understand you--forgive me--I am
|
|
pleased that you can say even so much.--He is no object of regret,
|
|
indeed! and it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes
|
|
the acknowledgment of more than your reason.--Fortunate that your
|
|
affections were not farther entangled!--I could never, I confess,
|
|
from your manners, assure myself as to the degree of what you felt--
|
|
I could only be certain that there was a preference--and a preference
|
|
which I never believed him to deserve.--He is a disgrace to the name
|
|
of man.--And is he to be rewarded with that sweet young woman?--
|
|
Jane, Jane, you will be a miserable creature."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley," said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused--
|
|
"I am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in
|
|
your error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression,
|
|
I have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have
|
|
been at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might
|
|
be natural for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.--
|
|
But I never have."
|
|
|
|
He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he
|
|
would not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled
|
|
to his clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower
|
|
herself in his opinion. She went on, however.
|
|
|
|
"I have very little to say for my own conduct.--I was tempted
|
|
by his attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.--
|
|
An old story, probably--a common case--and no more than has happened
|
|
to hundreds of my sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable
|
|
in one who sets up as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances
|
|
assisted the temptation. He was the son of Mr. Weston--he was
|
|
continually here--I always found him very pleasant--and, in short,
|
|
for (with a sigh) let me swell out the causes ever so ingeniously,
|
|
they all centre in this at last--my vanity was flattered, and I
|
|
allowed his attentions. Latterly, however--for some time, indeed--
|
|
I have had no idea of their meaning any thing.--I thought them
|
|
a habit, a trick, nothing that called for seriousness on my side.
|
|
He has imposed on me, but he has not injured me. I have never been
|
|
attached to him. And now I can tolerably comprehend his behaviour.
|
|
He never wished to attach me. It was merely a blind to conceal
|
|
his real situation with another.--It was his object to blind
|
|
all about him; and no one, I am sure, could be more effectually
|
|
blinded than myself--except that I was not blinded--that it was my
|
|
good fortune--that, in short, I was somehow or other safe from him."
|
|
|
|
She had hoped for an answer here--for a few words to say that her
|
|
conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far
|
|
as she could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably
|
|
in his usual tone, he said,
|
|
|
|
"I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.--I can suppose,
|
|
however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with
|
|
him has been but trifling.--And even if I have not underrated
|
|
him hitherto, he may yet turn out well.--With such a woman he has
|
|
a chance.--I have no motive for wishing him ill--and for her sake,
|
|
whose happiness will be involved in his good character and conduct,
|
|
I shall certainly wish him well."
|
|
|
|
"I have no doubt of their being happy together," said Emma;
|
|
"I believe them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached."
|
|
|
|
"He is a most fortunate man!" returned Mr. Knightley, with energy.
|
|
"So early in life--at three-and-twenty--a period when, if a man
|
|
chuses a wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty
|
|
to have drawn such a prize! What years of felicity that man,
|
|
in all human calculation, has before him!--Assured of the love of
|
|
such a woman--the disinterested love, for Jane Fairfax's character
|
|
vouches for her disinterestedness; every thing in his favour,--
|
|
equality of situation--I mean, as far as regards society, and all the
|
|
habits and manners that are important; equality in every point but one--
|
|
and that one, since the purity of her heart is not to be doubted,
|
|
such as must increase his felicity, for it will be his to bestow the
|
|
only advantages she wants.--A man would always wish to give a woman
|
|
a better home than the one he takes her from; and he who can do it,
|
|
where there is no doubt of her regard, must, I think, be the happiest
|
|
of mortals.--Frank Churchill is, indeed, the favourite of fortune.
|
|
Every thing turns out for his good.--He meets with a young woman
|
|
at a watering-place, gains her affection, cannot even weary her
|
|
by negligent treatment--and had he and all his family sought round
|
|
the world for a perfect wife for him, they could not have found
|
|
her superior.--His aunt is in the way.--His aunt dies.--He has
|
|
only to speak.--His friends are eager to promote his happiness.--
|
|
He had used every body ill--and they are all delighted to forgive him.--
|
|
He is a fortunate man indeed!"
|
|
|
|
"You speak as if you envied him."
|
|
|
|
"And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy."
|
|
|
|
Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence
|
|
of Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject,
|
|
if possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something
|
|
totally different--the children in Brunswick Square; and she
|
|
only waited for breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her,
|
|
by saying,
|
|
|
|
"You will not ask me what is the point of envy.--You are determined,
|
|
I see, to have no curiosity.--You are wise--but I cannot be wise.
|
|
Emma, I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it
|
|
unsaid the next moment."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! then, don't speak it, don't speak it," she eagerly cried.
|
|
"Take a little time, consider, do not commit yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you," said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not
|
|
another syllable followed.
|
|
|
|
Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in her--
|
|
perhaps to consult her;--cost her what it would, she would listen.
|
|
She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it;
|
|
she might give just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him
|
|
his own independence, relieve him from that state of indecision,
|
|
which must be more intolerable than any alternative to such a mind
|
|
as his.--They had reached the house.
|
|
|
|
"You are going in, I suppose?" said he.
|
|
|
|
"No,"--replied Emma--quite confirmed by the depressed manner
|
|
in which he still spoke--"I should like to take another turn.
|
|
Mr. Perry is not gone." And, after proceeding a few steps, she added--
|
|
"I stopped you ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid,
|
|
gave you pain.--But if you have any wish to speak openly to me
|
|
as a friend, or to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have
|
|
in contemplation--as a friend, indeed, you may command me.--I will
|
|
hear whatever you like. I will tell you exactly what I think."
|
|
|
|
"As a friend!"--repeated Mr. Knightley.--"Emma, that I fear is
|
|
a word--No, I have no wish--Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?--
|
|
I have gone too far already for concealment.--Emma, I accept your offer--
|
|
Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to you
|
|
as a friend.--Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?"
|
|
|
|
He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression
|
|
of his eyes overpowered her.
|
|
|
|
"My dearest Emma," said he, "for dearest you will always be,
|
|
whatever the event of this hour's conversation, my dearest,
|
|
most beloved Emma--tell me at once. Say `No,' if it is to be said."--
|
|
She could really say nothing.--"You are silent," he cried,
|
|
with great animation; "absolutely silent! at present I ask no more."
|
|
|
|
Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment.
|
|
The dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps
|
|
the most prominent feeling.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot make speeches, Emma:" he soon resumed; and in a tone
|
|
of such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was
|
|
tolerably convincing.--"If I loved you less, I might be able
|
|
to talk about it more. But you know what I am.--You hear nothing
|
|
but truth from me.--I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you
|
|
have borne it as no other woman in England would have borne it.--
|
|
Bear with the truths I would tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as
|
|
you have borne with them. The manner, perhaps, may have as little
|
|
to recommend them. God knows, I have been a very indifferent lover.--
|
|
But you understand me.--Yes, you see, you understand my feelings--
|
|
and will return them if you can. At present, I ask only to hear,
|
|
once to hear your voice."
|
|
|
|
While he spoke, Emma's mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful
|
|
velocity of thought, had been able--and yet without losing a word--
|
|
to catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that
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Harriet's hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion,
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as complete a delusion as any of her own--that Harriet was nothing;
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that she was every thing herself; that what she had been saying
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relative to Harriet had been all taken as the language of her
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own feelings; and that her agitation, her doubts, her reluctance,
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her discouragement, had been all received as discouragement
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from herself.--And not only was there time for these convictions,
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with all their glow of attendant happiness; there was time also to
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rejoice that Harriet's secret had not escaped her, and to resolve
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that it need not, and should not.--It was all the service she could
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now render her poor friend; for as to any of that heroism of sentiment
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which might have prompted her to entreat him to transfer his affection
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from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the most worthy of the two--
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or even the more simple sublimity of resolving to refuse him
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at once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive, because he
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could not marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for Harriet,
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with pain and with contrition; but no flight of generosity run mad,
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opposing all that could be probable or reasonable, entered her brain.
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She had led her friend astray, and it would be a reproach to
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her for ever; but her judgment was as strong as her feelings,
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and as strong as it had ever been before, in reprobating any such
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alliance for him, as most unequal and degrading. Her way was clear,
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though not quite smooth.--She spoke then, on being so entreated.--
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What did she say?--Just what she ought, of course. A lady always does.--
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She said enough to shew there need not be despair--and to invite him
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to say more himself. He had despaired at one period; he had received
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such an injunction to caution and silence, as for the time crushed
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every hope;--she had begun by refusing to hear him.--The change had
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perhaps been somewhat sudden;--her proposal of taking another turn,
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her renewing the conversation which she had just put an end to,
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might be a little extraordinary!--She felt its inconsistency;
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but Mr. Knightley was so obliging as to put up with it, and seek no
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farther explanation.
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Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure;
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seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised,
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or a little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct
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is mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.--
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Mr. Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than
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she possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
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He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence.
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He had followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it.
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He had come, in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill's
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engagement, with no selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring,
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|
if she allowed him an opening, to soothe or to counsel her.--The rest
|
|
had been the work of the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard,
|
|
on his feelings. The delightful assurance of her total indifference
|
|
towards Frank Churchill, of her having a heart completely disengaged
|
|
from him, had given birth to the hope, that, in time, he might gain
|
|
her affection himself;--but it had been no present hope--he had only,
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|
in the momentary conquest of eagerness over judgment, aspired to be
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|
told that she did not forbid his attempt to attach her.--The superior
|
|
hopes which gradually opened were so much the more enchanting.--
|
|
The affection, which he had been asking to be allowed to create,
|
|
if he could, was already his!--Within half an hour, he had passed
|
|
from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to something so like
|
|
perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.
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|
|
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Her change was equal.--This one half-hour had given to each the
|
|
same precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each
|
|
the same degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.--On his side,
|
|
there had been a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival,
|
|
or even the expectation, of Frank Churchill.--He had been in love
|
|
with Emma, and jealous of Frank Churchill, from about the same period,
|
|
one sentiment having probably enlightened him as to the other.
|
|
It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill that had taken him from
|
|
the country.--The Box Hill party had decided him on going away.
|
|
He would save himself from witnessing again such permitted,
|
|
encouraged attentions.--He had gone to learn to be indifferent.--
|
|
But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much domestic
|
|
happiness in his brother's house; woman wore too amiable a form in it;
|
|
Isabella was too much like Emma--differing only in those striking
|
|
inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before him,
|
|
for much to have been done, even had his time been longer.--He had
|
|
stayed on, however, vigorously, day after day--till this very morning's
|
|
post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax.--Then, with the
|
|
gladness which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel,
|
|
having never believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma,
|
|
was there so much fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her,
|
|
that he could stay no longer. He had ridden home through the rain;
|
|
and had walked up directly after dinner, to see how this sweetest
|
|
and best of all creatures, faultless in spite of all her faults,
|
|
bore the discovery.
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|
|
|
He had found her agitated and low.--Frank Churchill was a villain.--
|
|
He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill's
|
|
character was not desperate.--She was his own Emma, by hand and word,
|
|
when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought
|
|
of Frank Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort
|
|
of fellow.
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CHAPTER XIV
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What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house
|
|
from what she had brought out!--she had then been only daring to hope
|
|
for a little respite of suffering;--she was now in an exquisite
|
|
flutter of happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed
|
|
must still be greater when the flutter should have passed away.
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|
|
|
They sat down to tea--the same party round the same table--
|
|
how often it had been collected!--and how often had her eyes fallen
|
|
on the same shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful
|
|
effect of the western sun!--But never in such a state of spirits,
|
|
never in any thing like it; and it was with difficulty that she could
|
|
summon enough of her usual self to be the attentive lady of the house,
|
|
or even the attentive daughter.
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|
|
|
Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him
|
|
in the breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so
|
|
anxiously hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.--Could he
|
|
have seen the heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs;
|
|
but without the most distant imagination of the impending evil,
|
|
without the slightest perception of any thing extraordinary in
|
|
the looks or ways of either, he repeated to them very comfortably
|
|
all the articles of news he had received from Mr. Perry, and talked
|
|
on with much self-contentment, totally unsuspicious of what they
|
|
could have told him in return.
|
|
|
|
As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma's fever continued;
|
|
but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised
|
|
and subdued--and in the course of the sleepless night, which was
|
|
the tax for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious
|
|
points to consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness
|
|
must have some alloy. Her father--and Harriet. She could not be
|
|
alone without feeling the full weight of their separate claims;
|
|
and how to guard the comfort of both to the utmost, was the question.
|
|
With respect to her father, it was a question soon answered.
|
|
She hardly knew yet what Mr. Knightley would ask; but a very short
|
|
parley with her own heart produced the most solemn resolution
|
|
of never quitting her father.--She even wept over the idea of it,
|
|
as a sin of thought. While he lived, it must be only an engagement;
|
|
but she flattered herself, that if divested of the danger of
|
|
drawing her away, it might become an increase of comfort to him.--
|
|
How to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult decision;--
|
|
how to spare her from any unnecessary pain; how to make
|
|
her any possible atonement; how to appear least her enemy?--
|
|
On these subjects, her perplexity and distress were very great--
|
|
and her mind had to pass again and again through every bitter
|
|
reproach and sorrowful regret that had ever surrounded it.--
|
|
She could only resolve at last, that she would still avoid a
|
|
meeting with her, and communicate all that need be told by letter;
|
|
that it would be inexpressibly desirable to have her removed just
|
|
now for a time from Highbury, and--indulging in one scheme more--
|
|
nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get an invitation
|
|
for her to Brunswick Square.--Isabella had been pleased with Harriet;
|
|
and a few weeks spent in London must give her some amusement.--
|
|
She did not think it in Harriet's nature to escape being benefited
|
|
by novelty and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the children.--
|
|
At any rate, it would be a proof of attention and kindness in herself,
|
|
from whom every thing was due; a separation for the present; an averting
|
|
of the evil day, when they must all be together again.
|
|
|
|
She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment
|
|
which left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley,
|
|
in walking up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon;
|
|
and half an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again
|
|
with him, literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate
|
|
her in a proper share of the happiness of the evening before.
|
|
|
|
He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have
|
|
the slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter
|
|
was brought her from Randalls--a very thick letter;--she guessed
|
|
what it must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.--
|
|
She was now in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted
|
|
no explanations, she wanted only to have her thoughts to herself--
|
|
and as for understanding any thing he wrote, she was sure she was
|
|
incapable of it.--It must be waded through, however. She opened
|
|
the packet; it was too surely so;--a note from Mrs. Weston to herself,
|
|
ushered in the letter from Frank to Mrs. Weston.
|
|
|
|
"I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding
|
|
to you the enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will
|
|
do it, and have scarcely a doubt of its happy effect.--I think
|
|
we shall never materially disagree about the writer again;
|
|
but I will not delay you by a long preface.--We are quite well.--
|
|
This letter has been the cure of all the little nervousness I have
|
|
been feeling lately.--I did not quite like your looks on Tuesday,
|
|
but it was an ungenial morning; and though you will never own being
|
|
affected by weather, I think every body feels a north-east wind.--
|
|
I felt for your dear father very much in the storm of Tuesday
|
|
afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of hearing
|
|
last night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.
|
|
"Yours ever,
|
|
"A. W."
|
|
|
|
[To Mrs. Weston.]
|
|
WINDSOR-JULY.
|
|
MY DEAR MADAM,
|
|
|
|
"If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be expected;
|
|
but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and indulgence.--
|
|
You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of even
|
|
all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.--
|
|
But I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent.
|
|
My courage rises while I write. It is very difficult for the
|
|
prosperous to be humble. I have already met with such success
|
|
in two applications for pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking
|
|
myself too sure of yours, and of those among your friends who have
|
|
had any ground of offence.--You must all endeavour to comprehend
|
|
the exact nature of my situation when I first arrived at Randalls;
|
|
you must consider me as having a secret which was to be kept
|
|
at all hazards. This was the fact. My right to place myself
|
|
in a situation requiring such concealment, is another question.
|
|
I shall not discuss it here. For my temptation to think it a right,
|
|
I refer every caviller to a brick house, sashed windows below,
|
|
and casements above, in Highbury. I dared not address her openly;
|
|
my difficulties in the then state of Enscombe must be too well
|
|
known to require definition; and I was fortunate enough to prevail,
|
|
before we parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most upright female
|
|
mind in the creation to stoop in charity to a secret engagement.--
|
|
Had she refused, I should have gone mad.--But you will be ready to say,
|
|
what was your hope in doing this?--What did you look forward to?--
|
|
To any thing, every thing--to time, chance, circumstance, slow effects,
|
|
sudden bursts, perseverance and weariness, health and sickness.
|
|
Every possibility of good was before me, and the first of blessings
|
|
secured, in obtaining her promises of faith and correspondence.
|
|
If you need farther explanation, I have the honour, my dear madam,
|
|
of being your husband's son, and the advantage of inheriting
|
|
a disposition to hope for good, which no inheritance of houses
|
|
or lands can ever equal the value of.--See me, then, under these
|
|
circumstances, arriving on my first visit to Randalls;--and here I
|
|
am conscious of wrong, for that visit might have been sooner paid.
|
|
You will look back and see that I did not come till Miss Fairfax
|
|
was in Highbury; and as you were the person slighted, you will
|
|
forgive me instantly; but I must work on my father's compassion,
|
|
by reminding him, that so long as I absented myself from his house,
|
|
so long I lost the blessing of knowing you. My behaviour,
|
|
during the very happy fortnight which I spent with you, did not,
|
|
I hope, lay me open to reprehension, excepting on one point.
|
|
And now I come to the principal, the only important part of my
|
|
conduct while belonging to you, which excites my own anxiety,
|
|
or requires very solicitous explanation. With the greatest respect,
|
|
and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss Woodhouse; my father
|
|
perhaps will think I ought to add, with the deepest humiliation.--
|
|
A few words which dropped from him yesterday spoke his opinion,
|
|
and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.--My behaviour
|
|
to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.--
|
|
In order to assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led
|
|
on to make more than an allowable use of the sort of intimacy
|
|
into which we were immediately thrown.--I cannot deny that Miss
|
|
Woodhouse was my ostensible object--but I am sure you will believe
|
|
the declaration, that had I not been convinced of her indifference,
|
|
I would not have been induced by any selfish views to go on.--
|
|
Amiable and delightful as Miss Woodhouse is, she never gave me
|
|
the idea of a young woman likely to be attached; and that she was
|
|
perfectly free from any tendency to being attached to me, was as much
|
|
my conviction as my wish.--She received my attentions with an easy,
|
|
friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which exactly suited me.
|
|
We seemed to understand each other. From our relative situation,
|
|
those attentions were her due, and were felt to be so.--Whether Miss
|
|
Woodhouse began really to understand me before the expiration of
|
|
that fortnight, I cannot say;--when I called to take leave of her,
|
|
I remember that I was within a moment of confessing the truth,
|
|
and I then fancied she was not without suspicion; but I have no
|
|
doubt of her having since detected me, at least in some degree.--
|
|
She may not have surmised the whole, but her quickness must
|
|
have penetrated a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find,
|
|
whenever the subject becomes freed from its present restraints,
|
|
that it did not take her wholly by surprize. She frequently gave
|
|
me hints of it. I remember her telling me at the ball, that I
|
|
owed Mrs. Elton gratitude for her attentions to Miss Fairfax.--
|
|
I hope this history of my conduct towards her will be admitted
|
|
by you and my father as great extenuation of what you saw amiss.
|
|
While you considered me as having sinned against Emma Woodhouse,
|
|
I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and procure
|
|
for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes of that
|
|
said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly affection,
|
|
as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as myself.--
|
|
Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight, you have
|
|
now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was to get
|
|
my body thither as often as might be, and with the least suspicion.
|
|
If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right account.--
|
|
Of the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only necessary to say,
|
|
that its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss F--, who would
|
|
never have allowed me to send it, had any choice been given her.--
|
|
The delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement,
|
|
my dear madam, is much beyond my power of doing justice to.
|
|
You will soon, I earnestly hope, know her thoroughly yourself.--
|
|
No description can describe her. She must tell you herself what she is--
|
|
yet not by word, for never was there a human creature who would
|
|
so designedly suppress her own merit.--Since I began this letter,
|
|
which will be longer than I foresaw, I have heard from her.--
|
|
She gives a good account of her own health; but as she never complains,
|
|
I dare not depend. I want to have your opinion of her looks.
|
|
I know you will soon call on her; she is living in dread of the visit.
|
|
Perhaps it is paid already. Let me hear from you without delay;
|
|
I am impatient for a thousand particulars. Remember how few
|
|
minutes I was at Randalls, and in how bewildered, how mad a state:
|
|
and I am not much better yet; still insane either from happiness
|
|
or misery. When I think of the kindness and favour I have met with,
|
|
of her excellence and patience, and my uncle's generosity, I am mad
|
|
with joy: but when I recollect all the uneasiness I occasioned her,
|
|
and how little I deserve to be forgiven, I am mad with anger.
|
|
If I could but see her again!--But I must not propose it yet.
|
|
My uncle has been too good for me to encroach.--I must still add
|
|
to this long letter. You have not heard all that you ought to hear.
|
|
I could not give any connected detail yesterday; but the suddenness,
|
|
and, in one light, the unseasonableness with which the affair burst out,
|
|
needs explanation; for though the event of the 26th ult., as you
|
|
will conclude, immediately opened to me the happiest prospects,
|
|
I should not have presumed on such early measures, but from the
|
|
very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to lose.
|
|
I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she would have
|
|
felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and refinement.--
|
|
But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered into with
|
|
that woman--Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off abruptly,
|
|
to recollect and compose myself.--I have been walking over the country,
|
|
and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of my letter
|
|
what it ought to be.--It is, in fact, a most mortifying retrospect
|
|
for me. I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that my manners
|
|
to Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly blameable.
|
|
She disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.--My plea of
|
|
concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.--She was displeased;
|
|
I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand occasions,
|
|
unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even cold.
|
|
But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and subdued
|
|
my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have
|
|
escaped the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.--We quarrelled.--
|
|
Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?--There every little
|
|
dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late;
|
|
I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her,
|
|
but she would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me,
|
|
which I then thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing
|
|
in it but a very natural and consistent degree of discretion.
|
|
While I, to blind the world to our engagement, was behaving one
|
|
hour with objectionable particularity to another woman, was she
|
|
to be consenting the next to a proposal which might have made
|
|
every previous caution useless?--Had we been met walking together
|
|
between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must have been suspected.--
|
|
I was mad enough, however, to resent.--I doubted her affection.
|
|
I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when, provoked by
|
|
such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect of her,
|
|
and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been
|
|
impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her
|
|
resentment in a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.--
|
|
In short, my dear madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side,
|
|
abominable on mine; and I returned the same evening to Richmond,
|
|
though I might have staid with you till the next morning,
|
|
merely because I would be as angry with her as possible. Even then,
|
|
I was not such a fool as not to mean to be reconciled in time;
|
|
but I was the injured person, injured by her coldness, and I went
|
|
away determined that she should make the first advances.--I shall
|
|
always congratulate myself that you were not of the Box Hill party.
|
|
Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly suppose you would
|
|
ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon her appears
|
|
in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she found I
|
|
was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of that
|
|
officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her,
|
|
by the bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred.
|
|
I must not quarrel with a spirit of forbearance which has been
|
|
so richly extended towards myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly
|
|
protest against the share of it which that woman has known.--
|
|
"Jane," indeed!--You will observe that I have not yet indulged myself
|
|
in calling her by that name, even to you. Think, then, what I must
|
|
have endured in hearing it bandied between the Eltons with all
|
|
the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the insolence of
|
|
imaginary superiority. Have patience with me, I shall soon have done.--
|
|
She closed with this offer, resolving to break with me entirely,
|
|
and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet again.--
|
|
She felt the engagement to be a source of repentance and misery
|
|
to each: she dissolved it.--This letter reached me on the very
|
|
morning of my poor aunt's death. I answered it within an hour;
|
|
but from the confusion of my mind, and the multiplicity of business
|
|
falling on me at once, my answer, instead of being sent with all
|
|
the many other letters of that day, was locked up in my writing-desk;
|
|
and I, trusting that I had written enough, though but a few lines,
|
|
to satisfy her, remained without any uneasiness.--I was rather
|
|
disappointed that I did not hear from her again speedily;
|
|
but I made excuses for her, and was too busy, and--may I add?--
|
|
too cheerful in my views to be captious.--We removed to Windsor;
|
|
and two days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my own letters
|
|
all returned!--and a few lines at the same time by the post,
|
|
stating her extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply
|
|
to her last; and adding, that as silence on such a point could
|
|
not be misconstrued, and as it must be equally desirable to both
|
|
to have every subordinate arrangement concluded as soon as possible,
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she now sent me, by a safe conveyance, all my letters, and requested,
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that if I could not directly command hers, so as to send them
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to Highbury within a week, I would forward them after that period
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to her at--: in short, the full direction to Mr. Smallridge's,
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near Bristol, stared me in the face. I knew the name, the place,
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I knew all about it, and instantly saw what she had been doing.
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It was perfectly accordant with that resolution of character
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which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained,
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as to any such design in her former letter, was equally descriptive
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of its anxious delicacy. For the world would not she have seemed
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to threaten me.--Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I had actually
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detected my own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the post.--
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What was to be done?--One thing only.--I must speak to my uncle.
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Without his sanction I could not hope to be listened to again.--
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I spoke; circumstances were in my favour; the late event had softened
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away his pride, and he was, earlier than I could have anticipated,
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wholly reconciled and complying; and could say at last, poor man!
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with a deep sigh, that he wished I might find as much happiness
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in the marriage state as he had done.--I felt that it would be
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of a different sort.--Are you disposed to pity me for what I must
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have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my suspense while
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all was at stake?--No; do not pity me till I reached Highbury,
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and saw how ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her wan,
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sick looks.--I reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my
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knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance
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of finding her alone.--I was not disappointed; and at last I was
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not disappointed either in the object of my journey. A great deal
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of very reasonable, very just displeasure I had to persuade away.
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But it is done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever,
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and no moment's uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my
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dear madam, I will release you; but I could not conclude before.
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A thousand and a thousand thanks for all the kindness you have
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ever shewn me, and ten thousand for the attentions your heart
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will dictate towards her.--If you think me in a way to be happier
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than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.--Miss W. calls me
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the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.--In one respect,
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my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe
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myself,
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Your obliged and affectionate Son,
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F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
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CHAPTER XV
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This letter must make its way to Emma's feelings. She was obliged,
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in spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do
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it all the justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she
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came to her own name, it was irresistible; every line relating
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to herself was interesting, and almost every line agreeable;
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and when this charm ceased, the subject could still maintain itself,
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by the natural return of her former regard for the writer, and the
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very strong attraction which any picture of love must have for her at
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that moment. She never stopt till she had gone through the whole;
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and though it was impossible not to feel that he had been wrong,
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yet he had been less wrong than she had supposed--and he had suffered,
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and was very sorry--and he was so grateful to Mrs. Weston,
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and so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself,
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that there was no being severe; and could he have entered the room,
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she must have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.
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She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again,
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she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston's wishing
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it to be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley,
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had seen so much to blame in his conduct.
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"I shall be very glad to look it over," said he; "but it seems long.
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I will take it home with me at night."
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But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening,
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and she must return it by him.
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"I would rather be talking to you," he replied; "but as it seems
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a matter of justice, it shall be done."
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He began--stopping, however, almost directly to say, "Had I been offered
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the sight of one of this gentleman's letters to his mother-in-law a few
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months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with such indifference."
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He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then,
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with a smile, observed, "Humph! a fine complimentary opening:
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But it is his way. One man's style must not be the rule of another's.
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We will not be severe."
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"It will be natural for me," he added shortly afterwards, "to speak my
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opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you.
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It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it--"
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"Not at all. I should wish it."
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Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.
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"He trifles here," said he, "as to the temptation. He knows
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he is wrong, and has nothing rational to urge.--Bad.--He ought
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not to have formed the engagement.--`His father's disposition:'--
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he is unjust, however, to his father. Mr. Weston's sanguine
|
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temper was a blessing on all his upright and honourable exertions;
|
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but Mr. Weston earned every present comfort before he endeavoured
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to gain it.--Very true; he did not come till Miss Fairfax was here."
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"And I have not forgotten," said Emma, "how sure you were that he
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might have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely--
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|
but you were perfectly right."
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"I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:--but yet, I think--
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had you not been in the case--I should still have distrusted him."
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When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole
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of it aloud--all that related to her, with a smile; a look;
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a shake of the head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation;
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or merely of love, as the subject required; concluding, however,
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|
seriously, and, after steady reflection, thus--
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"Very bad--though it might have been worse.--Playing a most
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|
dangerous game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.--
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No judge of his own manners by you.--Always deceived in fact by his
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own wishes, and regardless of little besides his own convenience.--
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|
Fancying you to have fathomed his secret. Natural enough!--
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|
his own mind full of intrigue, that he should suspect it
|
|
in others.--Mystery; Finesse--how they pervert the understanding!
|
|
My Emma, does not every thing serve to prove more and more the
|
|
beauty of truth and sincerity in all our dealings with each other?"
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Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet's account,
|
|
which she could not give any sincere explanation of.
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"You had better go on," said she.
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He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, "the pianoforte!
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Ah! That was the act of a very, very young man, one too young
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to consider whether the inconvenience of it might not very much
|
|
exceed the pleasure. A boyish scheme, indeed!--I cannot
|
|
comprehend a man's wishing to give a woman any proof of affection
|
|
which he knows she would rather dispense with; and he did
|
|
know that she would have prevented the instrument's coming if she could."
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After this, he made some progress without any pause.
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|
Frank Churchill's confession of having behaved shamefully
|
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was the first thing to call for more than a word in passing.
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"I perfectly agree with you, sir,"--was then his remark.
|
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"You did behave very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line."
|
|
And having gone through what immediately followed of the basis
|
|
of their disagreement, and his persisting to act in direct
|
|
opposition to Jane Fairfax's sense of right, he made a fuller pause
|
|
to say, "This is very bad.--He had induced her to place herself,
|
|
for his sake, in a situation of extreme difficulty and uneasiness,
|
|
and it should have been his first object to prevent her from
|
|
suffering unnecessarily.--She must have had much more to contend with,
|
|
in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He should have
|
|
respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such; but hers
|
|
were all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and remember
|
|
that she had done a wrong thing in consenting to the engagement,
|
|
to bear that she should have been in such a state of punishment."
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|
|
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Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party,
|
|
and grew uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper!
|
|
She was deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look.
|
|
It was all read, however, steadily, attentively, and without
|
|
the smallest remark; and, excepting one momentary glance at her,
|
|
instantly withdrawn, in the fear of giving pain--no remembrance
|
|
of Box Hill seemed to exist.
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|
|
|
"There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends,
|
|
the Eltons," was his next observation.--"His feelings are natural.--
|
|
What! actually resolve to break with him entirely!--She felt
|
|
the engagement to be a source of repentance and misery to each--
|
|
she dissolved it.--What a view this gives of her sense of
|
|
his behaviour!--Well, he must be a most extraordinary--"
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|
|
|
"Nay, nay, read on.--You will find how very much he suffers."
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|
|
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"I hope he does," replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the letter.
|
|
"`Smallridge!'--What does this mean? What is all this?"
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|
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"She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge's children--
|
|
a dear friend of Mrs. Elton's--a neighbour of Maple Grove; and,
|
|
by the bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?"
|
|
|
|
"Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read--not even
|
|
of Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done.
|
|
What a letter the man writes!"
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|
|
|
"I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him."
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|
|
|
"Well, there is feeling here.--He does seem to have suffered in finding
|
|
her ill.--Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of her.
|
|
`Dearer, much dearer than ever.' I hope he may long continue to feel
|
|
all the value of such a reconciliation.--He is a very liberal thanker,
|
|
with his thousands and tens of thousands.--`Happier than I deserve.'
|
|
Come, he knows himself there. `Miss Woodhouse calls me the child
|
|
of good fortune.'--Those were Miss Woodhouse's words, were they?--
|
|
And a fine ending--and there is the letter. The child of good fortune!
|
|
That was your name for him, was it?"
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|
|
|
"You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am;
|
|
but still you must, at least I hope you must, think the better
|
|
of him for it. I hope it does him some service with you."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of
|
|
inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his
|
|
opinion in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves:
|
|
but still as he is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax,
|
|
and will soon, it may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly
|
|
with her, I am very ready to believe his character will improve,
|
|
and acquire from hers the steadiness and delicacy of principle
|
|
that it wants. And now, let me talk to you of something else.
|
|
I have another person's interest at present so much at heart,
|
|
that I cannot think any longer about Frank Churchill. Ever since I
|
|
left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been hard at work on
|
|
one subject."
|
|
|
|
The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike English,
|
|
such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love with,
|
|
how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the
|
|
happiness of her father. Emma's answer was ready at the first word.
|
|
"While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be impossible
|
|
for her. She could never quit him." Part only of this answer,
|
|
however, was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her father,
|
|
Mr. Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the inadmissibility
|
|
of any other change, he could not agree to. He had been thinking
|
|
it over most deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped to induce
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse to remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to believe
|
|
it feasible, but his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not suffer
|
|
him to deceive himself long; and now he confessed his persuasion,
|
|
that such a transplantation would be a risk of her father's comfort,
|
|
perhaps even of his life, which must not be hazarded. Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
taken from Hartfield!--No, he felt that it ought not to be attempted.
|
|
But the plan which had arisen on the sacrifice of this, he trusted
|
|
his dearest Emma would not find in any respect objectionable;
|
|
it was, that he should be received at Hartfield; that so long as
|
|
her father's happiness in other words his life--required Hartfield
|
|
to continue her home, it should be his likewise.
|
|
|
|
Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own
|
|
passing thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it;
|
|
but such an alternative as this had not occurred to her.
|
|
She was sensible of all the affection it evinced. She felt that,
|
|
in quitting Donwell, he must be sacrificing a great deal of independence
|
|
of hours and habits; that in living constantly with her father,
|
|
and in no house of his own, there would be much, very much,
|
|
to be borne with. She promised to think of it, and advised him
|
|
to think of it more; but he was fully convinced, that no reflection
|
|
could alter his wishes or his opinion on the subject. He had
|
|
given it, he could assure her, very long and calm consideration;
|
|
he had been walking away from William Larkins the whole morning,
|
|
to have his thoughts to himself.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for," cried Emma. "I am
|
|
sure William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent
|
|
before you ask mine."
|
|
|
|
She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised, moreover,
|
|
to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good scheme.
|
|
|
|
It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view
|
|
in which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never
|
|
struck with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights
|
|
as heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded.
|
|
Think she must of the possible difference to the poor little boy;
|
|
and yet she only gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it,
|
|
and found amusement in detecting the real cause of that violent
|
|
dislike of Mr. Knightley's marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else,
|
|
which at the time she had wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of
|
|
the sister and the aunt.
|
|
|
|
This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at Hartfield--
|
|
the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became.
|
|
His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase,
|
|
their mutual good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion
|
|
for herself in the periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!--
|
|
Such a partner in all those duties and cares to which time must be
|
|
giving increase of melancholy!
|
|
|
|
She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every
|
|
blessing of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings
|
|
of her friend, who must now be even excluded from Hartfield.
|
|
The delightful family party which Emma was securing for herself,
|
|
poor Harriet must, in mere charitable caution, be kept at a
|
|
distance from. She would be a loser in every way. Emma could not
|
|
deplore her future absence as any deduction from her own enjoyment.
|
|
In such a party, Harriet would be rather a dead weight than otherwise;
|
|
but for the poor girl herself, it seemed a peculiarly cruel necessity
|
|
that was to be placing her in such a state of unmerited punishment.
|
|
|
|
In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is,
|
|
supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early.
|
|
Mr. Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;--
|
|
not like Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling,
|
|
so truly considerate for every body, would never deserve to be
|
|
less worshipped than now; and it really was too much to hope even
|
|
of Harriet, that she could be in love with more than three men
|
|
in one year.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XVI
|
|
|
|
It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous
|
|
as herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful
|
|
enough by letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!
|
|
|
|
Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed,
|
|
without reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied
|
|
there was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in
|
|
her style, which increased the desirableness of their being separate.--
|
|
It might be only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an
|
|
angel only could have been quite without resentment under such a stroke.
|
|
|
|
She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella's invitation;
|
|
and she was fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it,
|
|
without resorting to invention.--There was a tooth amiss.
|
|
Harriet really wished, and had wished some time, to consult a dentist.
|
|
Mrs. John Knightley was delighted to be of use; any thing of ill
|
|
health was a recommendation to her--and though not so fond of a
|
|
dentist as of a Mr. Wingfield, she was quite eager to have Harriet
|
|
under her care.--When it was thus settled on her sister's side,
|
|
Emma proposed it to her friend, and found her very persuadable.--
|
|
Harriet was to go; she was invited for at least a fortnight; she was
|
|
to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse's carriage.--It was all arranged,
|
|
it was all completed, and Harriet was safe in Brunswick Square.
|
|
|
|
Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley's visits; now she
|
|
could talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by
|
|
that sense of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful,
|
|
which had haunted her when remembering how disappointed a heart was
|
|
near her, how much might at that moment, and at a little distance,
|
|
be enduring by the feelings which she had led astray herself.
|
|
|
|
The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard's, or in London, made perhaps
|
|
an unreasonable difference in Emma's sensations; but she could not
|
|
think of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment,
|
|
which must be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.
|
|
|
|
She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place
|
|
in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication
|
|
before her, one which she only could be competent to make--
|
|
the confession of her engagement to her father; but she would
|
|
have nothing to do with it at present.--She had resolved to defer
|
|
the disclosure till Mrs. Weston were safe and well. No additional
|
|
agitation should be thrown at this period among those she loved--
|
|
and the evil should not act on herself by anticipation before the
|
|
appointed time.--A fortnight, at least, of leisure and peace of mind,
|
|
to crown every warmer, but more agitating, delight, should be hers.
|
|
|
|
She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half
|
|
an hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.--
|
|
She ought to go--and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of
|
|
their present situations increasing every other motive of goodwill.
|
|
It would be a secret satisfaction; but the consciousness of a
|
|
similarity of prospect would certainly add to the interest with
|
|
which she should attend to any thing Jane might communicate.
|
|
|
|
She went--she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had
|
|
not been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor
|
|
Jane had been in such distress as had filled her with compassion,
|
|
though all the worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.--
|
|
The fear of being still unwelcome, determined her, though assured
|
|
of their being at home, to wait in the passage, and send up her name.--
|
|
She heard Patty announcing it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor
|
|
Miss Bates had before made so happily intelligible.--No; she heard
|
|
nothing but the instant reply of, "Beg her to walk up;"--and a moment
|
|
afterwards she was met on the stairs by Jane herself, coming eagerly
|
|
forward, as if no other reception of her were felt sufficient.--
|
|
Emma had never seen her look so well, so lovely, so engaging.
|
|
There was consciousness, animation, and warmth; there was every
|
|
thing which her countenance or manner could ever have wanted.--
|
|
She came forward with an offered hand; and said, in a low, but very
|
|
feeling tone,
|
|
|
|
"This is most kind, indeed!--Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible
|
|
for me to express--I hope you will believe--Excuse me for being
|
|
so entirely without words."
|
|
|
|
Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words,
|
|
if the sound of Mrs. Elton's voice from the sitting-room had not
|
|
checked her, and made it expedient to compress all her friendly
|
|
and all her congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest
|
|
shake of the hand.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out,
|
|
which accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have
|
|
wished Mrs. Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience
|
|
with every body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness,
|
|
she hoped the rencontre would do them no harm.
|
|
|
|
She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton's thoughts,
|
|
and understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits;
|
|
it was being in Miss Fairfax's confidence, and fancying herself
|
|
acquainted with what was still a secret to other people.
|
|
Emma saw symptoms of it immediately in the expression of her face;
|
|
and while paying her own compliments to Mrs. Bates, and appearing
|
|
to attend to the good old lady's replies, she saw her with a sort
|
|
of anxious parade of mystery fold up a letter which she had apparently
|
|
been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax, and return it into the purple
|
|
and gold reticule by her side, saying, with significant nods,
|
|
|
|
"We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall
|
|
not want opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the
|
|
essential already. I only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits
|
|
our apology, and is not offended. You see how delightfully
|
|
she writes. Oh! she is a sweet creature! You would have doated
|
|
on her, had you gone.--But not a word more. Let us be discreet--
|
|
quite on our good behaviour.--Hush!--You remember those lines--
|
|
I forget the poem at this moment:
|
|
|
|
"For when a lady's in the case,
|
|
"You know all other things give place."
|
|
|
|
Now I say, my dear, in our case, for lady, read----mum! a word
|
|
to the wise.--I am in a fine flow of spirits, an't I? But I want
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to set your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.--My representation, you see,
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has quite appeased her."
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And again, on Emma's merely turning her head to look
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at Mrs. Bates's knitting, she added, in a half whisper,
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"I mentioned no names, you will observe.--Oh! no; cautious as
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a minister of state. I managed it extremely well."
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Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every
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possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony
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of the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed with,
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"Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is
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charmingly recovered?--Do not you think her cure does Perry the
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highest credit?--(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.)
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Upon my word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!--
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Oh! if you had seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!"--
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And when Mrs. Bates was saying something to Emma, whispered farther,
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"We do not say a word of any assistance that Perry might have;
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not a word of a certain young physician from Windsor.--Oh! no;
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Perry shall have all the credit."
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"I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,"
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she shortly afterwards began, "since the party to Box Hill.
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Very pleasant party. But yet I think there was something wanting.
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Things did not seem--that is, there seemed a little cloud upon
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the spirits of some.--So it appeared to me at least, but I might
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be mistaken. However, I think it answered so far as to tempt one
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to go again. What say you both to our collecting the same party,
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and exploring to Box Hill again, while the fine weather lasts?--
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It must be the same party, you know, quite the same party,
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not one exception."
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Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being diverted
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by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting, she supposed,
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|
from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say every thing.
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"Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.--It is impossible
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to say--Yes, indeed, I quite understand--dearest Jane's prospects--
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that is, I do not mean.--But she is charmingly recovered.--
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|
How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad.--Quite out of my power.--
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|
Such a happy little circle as you find us here.--Yes, indeed.--
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Charming young man!--that is--so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!--
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such attention to Jane!"--And from her great, her more than commonly
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thankful delight towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed
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that there had been a little show of resentment towards Jane,
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from the vicarage quarter, which was now graciously overcome.--
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|
After a few whispers, indeed, which placed it beyond a guess,
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Mrs. Elton, speaking louder, said,
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"Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long,
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|
that anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise;
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|
but, the truth is, that I am waiting for my lord and master.
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He promised to join me here, and pay his respects to you."
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"What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?--
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|
That will be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like
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morning visits, and Mr. Elton's time is so engaged."
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"Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.--He really is engaged from morning
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|
to night.--There is no end of people's coming to him, on some pretence
|
|
or other.--The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens,
|
|
are always wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing
|
|
without him.--`Upon my word, Mr. E.,' I often say, `rather you than I.--
|
|
I do not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument,
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if I had half so many applicants.'--Bad enough as it is, for I
|
|
absolutely neglect them both to an unpardonable degree.--I believe
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|
I have not played a bar this fortnight.--However, he is coming,
|
|
I assure you: yes, indeed, on purpose to wait on you all." And putting
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|
up her hand to screen her words from Emma--"A congratulatory visit,
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you know.--Oh! yes, quite indispensable."
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Miss Bates looked about her, so happily!--
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"He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself
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from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together
|
|
in deep consultation.--Mr. E. is Knightley's right hand."
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Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, "Is Mr. Elton
|
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gone on foot to Donwell?--He will have a hot walk."
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|
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|
"Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting.
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|
Weston and Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only
|
|
of those who lead.--I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing
|
|
their own way."
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|
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"Have not you mistaken the day?" said Emma. "I am almost certain
|
|
that the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.--Mr. Knightley
|
|
was at Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday."
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|
|
|
"Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day," was the abrupt answer,
|
|
which denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton's side.--
|
|
"I do believe," she continued, "this is the most troublesome parish
|
|
that ever was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove."
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"Your parish there was small," said Jane.
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"Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject
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|
talked of."
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"But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard
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you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge;
|
|
the only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children."
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|
|
|
"Ah! you clever creature, that's very true. What a thinking brain
|
|
you have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make,
|
|
if we could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity
|
|
would produce perfection.--Not that I presume to insinuate, however,
|
|
that some people may not think you perfection already.--But hush!--
|
|
not a word, if you please."
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|
|
|
It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words,
|
|
not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.
|
|
The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted,
|
|
was very evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some
|
|
of her sparkling vivacity.
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|
|
|
"Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an
|
|
encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!--
|
|
But you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with.
|
|
You knew I should not stir till my lord and master appeared.--
|
|
Here have I been sitting this hour, giving these young ladies
|
|
a sample of true conjugal obedience--for who can say, you know,
|
|
how soon it may be wanted?"
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.
|
|
His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent
|
|
object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering,
|
|
and the walk he had had for nothing.
|
|
|
|
"When I got to Donwell," said he, "Knightley could not be found.
|
|
Very odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning,
|
|
and the message he returned, that he should certainly be at home
|
|
till one."
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|
|
|
"Donwell!" cried his wife.--"My dear Mr. E., you have not been
|
|
to Donwell!--You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown."
|
|
|
|
"No, no, that's to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley
|
|
to-day on that very account.--Such a dreadful broiling morning!--
|
|
I went over the fields too--(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,)
|
|
which made it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home!
|
|
I assure you I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message
|
|
for me. The housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected.--
|
|
Very extraordinary!--And nobody knew at all which way he was gone.
|
|
Perhaps to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods.--
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!--Can you
|
|
explain it?"
|
|
|
|
Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary,
|
|
indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot imagine," said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife
|
|
ought to do,) "I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you,
|
|
of all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect
|
|
to be forgotten!--My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you,
|
|
I am sure he must.--Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;--
|
|
and his servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case:
|
|
and very likely to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all,
|
|
I have often observed, extremely awkward and remiss.--I am sure I
|
|
would not have such a creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard
|
|
for any consideration. And as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds
|
|
her very cheap indeed.--She promised Wright a receipt, and never
|
|
sent it."
|
|
|
|
"I met William Larkins," continued Mr. Elton, "as I got near
|
|
the house, and he told me I should not find his master at home,
|
|
but I did not believe him.--William seemed rather out of humour.
|
|
He did not know what was come to his master lately, he said, but he
|
|
could hardly ever get the speech of him. I have nothing to do with
|
|
William's wants, but it really is of very great importance that I
|
|
should see Knightley to-day; and it becomes a matter, therefore,
|
|
of very serious inconvenience that I should have had this hot walk
|
|
to no purpose."
|
|
|
|
Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly.
|
|
In all probability she was at this very time waited for there;
|
|
and Mr. Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression
|
|
towards Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
|
|
|
|
She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined
|
|
to attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs;
|
|
it gave her an opportunity which she immediately made use of,
|
|
to say,
|
|
|
|
"It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility.
|
|
Had you not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been
|
|
tempted to introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more
|
|
openly than might have been strictly correct.--I feel that I should
|
|
certainly have been impertinent."
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought
|
|
infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her
|
|
usual composure--"there would have been no danger. The danger
|
|
would have been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified
|
|
me more than by expressing an interest--. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
(speaking more collectedly,) with the consciousness which I
|
|
have of misconduct, very great misconduct, it is particularly
|
|
consoling to me to know that those of my friends, whose good
|
|
opinion is most worth preserving, are not disgusted to such a
|
|
degree as to--I have not time for half that I could wish to say.
|
|
I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for myself.
|
|
I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately--in short, if your
|
|
compassion does not stand my friend--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are," cried Emma warmly,
|
|
and taking her hand. "You owe me no apologies; and every body to
|
|
whom you might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied,
|
|
so delighted even--"
|
|
|
|
"You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.--
|
|
So cold and artificial!--I had always a part to act.--It was a life
|
|
of deceit!--I know that I must have disgusted you."
|
|
|
|
"Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.
|
|
Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be
|
|
done quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there.
|
|
I hope you have pleasant accounts from Windsor?"
|
|
|
|
"Very."
|
|
|
|
"And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you--
|
|
just as I begin to know you."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet.
|
|
I am here till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell."
|
|
|
|
"Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps," replied Emma,
|
|
smiling--"but, excuse me, it must be thought of."
|
|
|
|
The smile was returned as Jane answered,
|
|
|
|
"You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own
|
|
to you, (I am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living
|
|
with Mr. Churchill at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be
|
|
three months, at least, of deep mourning; but when they are over,
|
|
I imagine there will be nothing more to wait for."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, thank you.--This is just what I wanted to be assured of.--
|
|
Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and open!--
|
|
Good-bye, good-bye."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XVII
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Weston's friends were all made happy by her safety;
|
|
and if the satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased
|
|
to Emma, it was by knowing her to be the mother of a little girl.
|
|
She had been decided in wishing for a Miss Weston. She would
|
|
not acknowledge that it was with any view of making a match
|
|
for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella's sons; but she was
|
|
convinced that a daughter would suit both father and mother best.
|
|
It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew older--
|
|
and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence--to have
|
|
his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks
|
|
and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston--
|
|
no one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it
|
|
would be quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach,
|
|
should not have their powers in exercise again.
|
|
|
|
"She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me,"
|
|
she continued--"like La Baronne d'Almane on La Comtesse d'Ostalis,
|
|
in Madame de Genlis' Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see
|
|
her own little Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan."
|
|
|
|
"That is," replied Mr. Knightley, "she will indulge her even more
|
|
than she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all.
|
|
It will be the only difference."
|
|
|
|
"Poor child!" cried Emma; "at that rate, what will become of her?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing very bad.--The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable
|
|
in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing
|
|
all my bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma.
|
|
I, who am owing all my happiness to you, would not it be horrible
|
|
ingratitude in me to be severe on them?"
|
|
|
|
Emma laughed, and replied: "But I had the assistance of all
|
|
your endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people.
|
|
I doubt whether my own sense would have corrected me without it."
|
|
|
|
"Do you?--I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:--
|
|
Miss Taylor gave you principles. You must have done well.
|
|
My interference was quite as likely to do harm as good. It was
|
|
very natural for you to say, what right has he to lecture me?--
|
|
and I am afraid very natural for you to feel that it was done
|
|
in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did you any good.
|
|
The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the tenderest
|
|
affection to me. I could not think about you so much without doating
|
|
on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors,
|
|
have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least."
|
|
|
|
"I am sure you were of use to me," cried Emma. "I was very often
|
|
influenced rightly by you--oftener than I would own at the time.
|
|
I am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is
|
|
to be spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much
|
|
for her as you have done for me, except falling in love with her
|
|
when she is thirteen."
|
|
|
|
"How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one
|
|
of your saucy looks--`Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so;
|
|
papa says I may, or I have Miss Taylor's leave'--something which,
|
|
you knew, I did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving
|
|
you two bad feelings instead of one."
|
|
|
|
"What an amiable creature I was!--No wonder you should hold
|
|
my speeches in such affectionate remembrance."
|
|
|
|
"`Mr. Knightley.'--You always called me, `Mr. Knightley;' and,
|
|
from habit, it has not so very formal a sound.--And yet it is formal.
|
|
I want you to call me something else, but I do not know what."
|
|
|
|
"I remember once calling you `George,' in one of my amiable fits,
|
|
about ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you;
|
|
but, as you made no objection, I never did it again."
|
|
|
|
"And cannot you call me `George' now?"
|
|
|
|
"Impossible!--I never can call you any thing but `Mr. Knightley.'
|
|
I will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton,
|
|
by calling you Mr. K.--But I will promise," she added presently,
|
|
laughing and blushing--"I will promise to call you once by your
|
|
Christian name. I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess
|
|
where;--in the building in which N. takes M. for better, for worse."
|
|
|
|
Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one
|
|
important service which his better sense would have rendered her,
|
|
to the advice which would have saved her from the worst of all
|
|
her womanly follies--her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith;
|
|
but it was too tender a subject.--She could not enter on it.--
|
|
Harriet was very seldom mentioned between them. This, on his side,
|
|
might merely proceed from her not being thought of; but Emma
|
|
was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy, and a suspicion,
|
|
from some appearances, that their friendship were declining.
|
|
She was aware herself, that, parting under any other circumstances,
|
|
they certainly should have corresponded more, and that her
|
|
intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did,
|
|
on Isabella's letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain
|
|
of being obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little
|
|
inferior to the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
|
|
|
|
Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could
|
|
be expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits,
|
|
which appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to
|
|
be consulted; but, since that business had been over, she did not
|
|
appear to find Harriet different from what she had known her before.--
|
|
Isabella, to be sure, was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet
|
|
had not been equal to playing with the children, it would not have
|
|
escaped her. Emma's comforts and hopes were most agreeably carried on,
|
|
by Harriet's being to stay longer; her fortnight was likely to be
|
|
a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were to come down
|
|
in August, and she was invited to remain till they could bring her back.
|
|
|
|
"John does not even mention your friend," said Mr. Knightley.
|
|
"Here is his answer, if you like to see it."
|
|
|
|
It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage.
|
|
Emma accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive
|
|
to know what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing
|
|
that her friend was unmentioned.
|
|
|
|
"John enters like a brother into my happiness," continued Mr. Knightley,
|
|
"but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to have,
|
|
likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from
|
|
making flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather
|
|
cool in her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes."
|
|
|
|
"He writes like a sensible man," replied Emma, when she had read
|
|
the letter. "I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he
|
|
considers the good fortune of the engagement as all on my side,
|
|
but that he is not without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy
|
|
of your affection, as you think me already. Had he said any thing
|
|
to bear a different construction, I should not have believed him."
|
|
|
|
"My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means--"
|
|
|
|
"He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,"
|
|
interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile--"much less, perhaps,
|
|
than he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve
|
|
on the subject."
|
|
|
|
"Emma, my dear Emma--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" she cried with more thorough gaiety, "if you fancy your
|
|
brother does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in
|
|
the secret, and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much
|
|
farther from doing you justice. He will think all the happiness,
|
|
all the advantage, on your side of the question; all the merit
|
|
on mine. I wish I may not sink into `poor Emma' with him at once.--
|
|
His tender compassion towards oppressed worth can go no farther."
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" he cried, "I wish your father might be half as easily convinced
|
|
as John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give,
|
|
to be happy together. I am amused by one part of John's letter--
|
|
did you notice it?--where he says, that my information did not take
|
|
him wholly by surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing
|
|
something of the kind."
|
|
|
|
"If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having
|
|
some thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly
|
|
unprepared for that."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes--but I am amused that he should have seen so far into
|
|
my feelings. What has he been judging by?--I am not conscious
|
|
of any difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare
|
|
him at this time for my marrying any more than at another.--
|
|
But it was so, I suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I
|
|
was staying with them the other day. I believe I did not play
|
|
with the children quite so much as usual. I remember one evening
|
|
the poor boys saying, `Uncle seems always tired now.'"
|
|
|
|
The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other persons'
|
|
reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was sufficiently
|
|
recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse's visits, Emma having it in view
|
|
that her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause,
|
|
resolved first to announce it at home, and then at Randalls.--
|
|
But how to break it to her father at last!--She had bound herself
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to do it, in such an hour of Mr. Knightley's absence, or when it
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came to the point her heart would have failed her, and she must
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have put it off; but Mr. Knightley was to come at such a time,
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and follow up the beginning she was to make.--She was forced
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to speak, and to speak cheerfully too. She must not make it a more
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decided subject of misery to him, by a melancholy tone herself.
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She must not appear to think it a misfortune.--With all the spirits
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she could command, she prepared him first for something strange,
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and then, in a few words, said, that if his consent and approbation
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could be obtained--which, she trusted, would be attended with
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no difficulty, since it was a plan to promote the happiness of all--
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she and Mr. Knightley meant to marry; by which means Hartfield
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would receive the constant addition of that person's company
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whom she knew he loved, next to his daughters and Mrs. Weston,
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best in the world.
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Poor man!--it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried
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earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once,
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of having always said she would never marry, and assured that it
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would be a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of
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poor Isabella, and poor Miss Taylor.--But it would not do. Emma hung
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about him affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that
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he must not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages
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taking them from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change:
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but she was not going from Hartfield; she should be always there;
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she was introducing no change in their numbers or their comforts but
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for the better; and she was very sure that he would be a great deal
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the happier for having Mr. Knightley always at hand, when he were once
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got used to the idea.--Did he not love Mr. Knightley very much?--
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He would not deny that he did, she was sure.--Whom did he ever want
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to consult on business but Mr. Knightley?--Who was so useful to him,
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who so ready to write his letters, who so glad to assist him?--
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Who so cheerful, so attentive, so attached to him?--Would not he
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like to have him always on the spot?--Yes. That was all very true.
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Mr. Knightley could not be there too often; he should be glad to see
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him every day;--but they did see him every day as it was.--Why could
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not they go on as they had done?
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|
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Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome,
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the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.--
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To Emma's entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley's,
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whose fond praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome;
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and he was soon used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.--
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They had all the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters
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of the strongest approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready,
|
|
on the first meeting, to consider the subject in the most
|
|
serviceable light--first, as a settled, and, secondly, as a good one--
|
|
well aware of the nearly equal importance of the two recommendations
|
|
to Mr. Woodhouse's mind.--It was agreed upon, as what was to be;
|
|
and every body by whom he was used to be guided assuring him that
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it would be for his happiness; and having some feelings himself
|
|
which almost admitted it, he began to think that some time or other--
|
|
in another year or two, perhaps--it might not be so very bad
|
|
if the marriage did take place.
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|
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Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she
|
|
said to him in favour of the event.--She had been extremely surprized,
|
|
never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her;
|
|
but she saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had
|
|
no scruple in urging him to the utmost.--She had such a regard
|
|
for Mr. Knightley, as to think he deserved even her dearest Emma;
|
|
and it was in every respect so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable
|
|
a connexion, and in one respect, one point of the highest importance,
|
|
so peculiarly eligible, so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed
|
|
as if Emma could not safely have attached herself to any other creature,
|
|
and that she had herself been the stupidest of beings in not having
|
|
thought of it, and wished it long ago.--How very few of those men
|
|
in a rank of life to address Emma would have renounced their own
|
|
home for Hartfield! And who but Mr. Knightley could know and bear
|
|
with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such an arrangement desirable!--
|
|
The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr. Woodhouse had been always
|
|
felt in her husband's plans and her own, for a marriage between Frank
|
|
and Emma. How to settle the claims of Enscombe and Hartfield had
|
|
been a continual impediment--less acknowledged by Mr. Weston than
|
|
by herself--but even he had never been able to finish the subject
|
|
better than by saying--"Those matters will take care of themselves;
|
|
the young people will find a way." But here there was nothing to be
|
|
shifted off in a wild speculation on the future. It was all right,
|
|
all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any side worth the name.
|
|
It was a union of the highest promise of felicity in itself,
|
|
and without one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay it.
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|
|
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Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections
|
|
as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing
|
|
could increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would
|
|
soon have outgrown its first set of caps.
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|
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The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread;
|
|
and Mr. Weston had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes
|
|
were enough to familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.--
|
|
He saw the advantages of the match, and rejoiced in them with all
|
|
the constancy of his wife; but the wonder of it was very soon nothing;
|
|
and by the end of an hour he was not far from believing that he
|
|
had always foreseen it.
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|
|
|
"It is to be a secret, I conclude," said he. "These matters are
|
|
always a secret, till it is found out that every body knows them.
|
|
Only let me be told when I may speak out.--I wonder whether Jane has
|
|
any suspicion."
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|
|
|
He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on
|
|
that point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter,
|
|
his eldest daughter?--he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present,
|
|
it passed, of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton,
|
|
immediately afterwards. It was no more than the principals were
|
|
prepared for; they had calculated from the time of its being known
|
|
at Randalls, how soon it would be over Highbury; and were thinking
|
|
of themselves, as the evening wonder in many a family circle,
|
|
with great sagacity.
|
|
|
|
In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him,
|
|
and others might think her, the most in luck. One set might
|
|
recommend their all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield
|
|
for the John Knightleys; and another might predict disagreements
|
|
among their servants; but yet, upon the whole, there was no serious
|
|
objection raised, except in one habitation, the Vicarage.--There,
|
|
the surprize was not softened by any satisfaction. Mr. Elton
|
|
cared little about it, compared with his wife; he only hoped "the
|
|
young lady's pride would now be contented;" and supposed "she had
|
|
always meant to catch Knightley if she could;" and, on the point
|
|
of living at Hartfield, could daringly exclaim, "Rather he than I!"--
|
|
But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed indeed.--"Poor Knightley!
|
|
poor fellow!--sad business for him.--She was extremely concerned;
|
|
for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good qualities.--
|
|
How could he be so taken in?--Did not think him at all in love--
|
|
not in the least.--Poor Knightley!--There would be an end of all
|
|
pleasant intercourse with him.--How happy he had been to come and dine
|
|
with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.--
|
|
Poor fellow!--No more exploring parties to Donwell made for her.
|
|
Oh! no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on
|
|
every thing.--Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry
|
|
that she had abused the housekeeper the other day.--Shocking plan,
|
|
living together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple
|
|
Grove who had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end
|
|
of the first quarter.
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|
CHAPTER XVIII
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Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London
|
|
would be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking
|
|
of it one morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and
|
|
grieve her, when Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts
|
|
were put by. After the first chat of pleasure he was silent;
|
|
and then, in a graver tone, began with,
|
|
|
|
"I have something to tell you, Emma; some news."
|
|
|
|
"Good or bad?" said she, quickly, looking up in his face.
|
|
|
|
"I do not know which it ought to be called."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! good I am sure.--I see it in your countenance. You are trying
|
|
not to smile."
|
|
|
|
"I am afraid," said he, composing his features, "I am very much afraid,
|
|
my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! but why so?--I can hardly imagine that any thing which
|
|
pleases or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too."
|
|
|
|
"There is one subject," he replied, "I hope but one, on which
|
|
we do not think alike." He paused a moment, again smiling,
|
|
with his eyes fixed on her face. "Does nothing occur to you?--
|
|
Do not you recollect?--Harriet Smith."
|
|
|
|
Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something,
|
|
though she knew not what.
|
|
|
|
"Have you heard from her yourself this morning?" cried he.
|
|
"You have, I believe, and know the whole."
|
|
|
|
"No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me."
|
|
|
|
"You are prepared for the worst, I see--and very bad it is.
|
|
Harriet Smith marries Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared--
|
|
and her eyes, in eager gaze, said, "No, this is impossible!"
|
|
but her lips were closed.
|
|
|
|
"It is so, indeed," continued Mr. Knightley; "I have it from Robert
|
|
Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago."
|
|
|
|
She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.
|
|
|
|
"You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.--I wish our opinions were
|
|
the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make
|
|
one or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile,
|
|
we need not talk much on the subject."
|
|
|
|
"You mistake me, you quite mistake me," she replied, exerting herself.
|
|
"It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy,
|
|
but I cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!--You cannot mean
|
|
to say, that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot
|
|
mean that he has even proposed to her again--yet. You only mean,
|
|
that he intends it."
|
|
|
|
"I mean that he has done it," answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling
|
|
but determined decision, "and been accepted."
|
|
|
|
"Good God!" she cried.--"Well!"--Then having recourse to her workbasket,
|
|
in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the
|
|
exquisite feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she
|
|
must be expressing, she added, "Well, now tell me every thing;
|
|
make this intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me know it all.
|
|
I never was more surprized--but it does not make me unhappy,
|
|
I assure you.--How--how has it been possible?"
|
|
|
|
"It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago,
|
|
and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting
|
|
to send to John.--He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers,
|
|
and was asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley's.
|
|
They were going to take the two eldest boys to Astley's. The party
|
|
was to be our brother and sister, Henry, John--and Miss Smith.
|
|
My friend Robert could not resist. They called for him in their way;
|
|
were all extremely amused; and my brother asked him to dine with
|
|
them the next day--which he did--and in the course of that visit
|
|
(as I understand) he found an opportunity of speaking to Harriet;
|
|
and certainly did not speak in vain.--She made him, by her acceptance,
|
|
as happy even as he is deserving. He came down by yesterday's coach,
|
|
and was with me this morning immediately after breakfast, to report
|
|
his proceedings, first on my affairs, and then on his own.
|
|
This is all that I can relate of the how, where, and when.
|
|
Your friend Harriet will make a much longer history when you see her.--
|
|
She will give you all the minute particulars, which only woman's
|
|
language can make interesting.--In our communications we deal only
|
|
in the great.--However, I must say, that Robert Martin's heart seemed
|
|
for him, and to me, very overflowing; and that he did mention,
|
|
without its being much to the purpose, that on quitting their
|
|
box at Astley's, my brother took charge of Mrs. John Knightley
|
|
and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry;
|
|
and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith
|
|
rather uneasy."
|
|
|
|
He stopped.--Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak,
|
|
she was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree
|
|
of happiness. She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad.
|
|
Her silence disturbed him; and after observing her a little while,
|
|
he added,
|
|
|
|
"Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make
|
|
you unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected.
|
|
His situation is an evil--but you must consider it as what satisfies
|
|
your friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better
|
|
of him as you know him more. His good sense and good principles would
|
|
delight you.--As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your
|
|
friend in better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could,
|
|
which is saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.--You laugh at me
|
|
about William Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself
|
|
not to smile too broadly--she did--cheerfully answering,
|
|
|
|
"You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think
|
|
Harriet is doing extremely well. Her connexions may be worse than his.
|
|
In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they are.
|
|
I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize.
|
|
You cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly
|
|
unprepared I was!--for I had reason to believe her very lately more
|
|
determined against him, much more, than she was before."
|
|
|
|
"You ought to know your friend best," replied Mr. Knightley;
|
|
"but I should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl,
|
|
not likely to be very, very determined against any young man who told
|
|
her he loved her."
|
|
|
|
Emma could not help laughing as she answered, "Upon my word,
|
|
I believe you know her quite as well as I do.--But, Mr. Knightley,
|
|
are you perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright
|
|
accepted him. I could suppose she might in time--but can she already?--
|
|
Did not you misunderstand him?--You were both talking of other things;
|
|
of business, shows of cattle, or new drills--and might not you,
|
|
in the confusion of so many subjects, mistake him?--It was not
|
|
Harriet's hand that he was certain of--it was the dimensions of some
|
|
famous ox."
|
|
|
|
The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and
|
|
Robert Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma's feelings,
|
|
and so strong was the recollection of all that had so recently
|
|
passed on Harriet's side, so fresh the sound of those words,
|
|
spoken with such emphasis, "No, I hope I know better than to think
|
|
of Robert Martin," that she was really expecting the intelligence
|
|
to prove, in some measure, premature. It could not be otherwise.
|
|
|
|
"Do you dare say this?" cried Mr. Knightley. "Do you dare to suppose
|
|
me so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?--
|
|
What do you deserve?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put
|
|
up with any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain,
|
|
direct answer. Are you quite sure that you understand the terms
|
|
on which Mr. Martin and Harriet now are?"
|
|
|
|
"I am quite sure," he replied, speaking very distinctly, "that he
|
|
told me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity,
|
|
nothing doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you
|
|
a proof that it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he
|
|
was now to do. He knew of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he
|
|
could apply for information of her relations or friends. Could I
|
|
mention any thing more fit to be done, than to go to Mrs. Goddard?
|
|
I assured him that I could not. Then, he said, he would endeavour
|
|
to see her in the course of this day."
|
|
|
|
"I am perfectly satisfied," replied Emma, with the brightest smiles,
|
|
"and most sincerely wish them happy."
|
|
|
|
"You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before."
|
|
|
|
"I hope so--for at that time I was a fool."
|
|
|
|
"And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all
|
|
Harriet's good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake,
|
|
and for Robert Martin's sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe
|
|
as much in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her.
|
|
I have often talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that
|
|
I did. Sometimes, indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me
|
|
of pleading poor Martin's cause, which was never the case; but, from all
|
|
my observations, I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl,
|
|
with very good notions, very seriously good principles, and placing
|
|
her happiness in the affections and utility of domestic life.--
|
|
Much of this, I have no doubt, she may thank you for."
|
|
|
|
"Me!" cried Emma, shaking her head.--"Ah! poor Harriet!"
|
|
|
|
She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little
|
|
more praise than she deserved.
|
|
|
|
Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of
|
|
her father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind
|
|
was in a state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her
|
|
to be collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits;
|
|
and till she had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed
|
|
and reflected, she could be fit for nothing rational.
|
|
|
|
Her father's business was to announce James's being gone out to put
|
|
the horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls;
|
|
and she had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.
|
|
|
|
The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations
|
|
may be imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the
|
|
prospect of Harriet's welfare, she was really in danger of becoming
|
|
too happy for security.--What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to
|
|
grow more worthy of him, whose intentions and judgment had been
|
|
ever so superior to her own. Nothing, but that the lessons
|
|
of her past folly might teach her humility and circumspection in future.
|
|
|
|
Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her resolutions;
|
|
and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the very midst
|
|
of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of the doleful
|
|
disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart--such a Harriet!
|
|
|
|
Now there would be pleasure in her returning--Every thing would
|
|
be a pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
|
|
|
|
High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities,
|
|
was the reflection that all necessity of concealment from
|
|
Mr. Knightley would soon be over. The disguise, equivocation,
|
|
mystery, so hateful to her to practise, might soon be over.
|
|
She could now look forward to giving him that full and perfect
|
|
confidence which her disposition was most ready to welcome as a duty.
|
|
|
|
In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father;
|
|
not always listening, but always agreeing to what he said;
|
|
and, whether in speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable
|
|
persuasion of his being obliged to go to Randalls every day,
|
|
or poor Mrs. Weston would be disappointed.
|
|
|
|
They arrived.--Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:--
|
|
but hardly had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
received the thanks for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse
|
|
was caught through the blind, of two figures passing near the window.
|
|
|
|
"It is Frank and Miss Fairfax," said Mrs. Weston. "I was just
|
|
going to tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive
|
|
this morning. He stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been
|
|
persuaded to spend the day with us.--They are coming in, I hope."
|
|
|
|
In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad
|
|
to see him--but there was a degree of confusion--a number of
|
|
embarrassing recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling,
|
|
but with a consciousness which at first allowed little to be said;
|
|
and having all sat down again, there was for some time such a blank
|
|
in the circle, that Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged,
|
|
which she had long felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more,
|
|
and of seeing him with Jane, would yield its proportion of pleasure.
|
|
When Mr. Weston joined the party, however, and when the baby
|
|
was fetched, there was no longer a want of subject or animation--
|
|
or of courage and opportunity for Frank Churchill to draw near her
|
|
and say,
|
|
|
|
"I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving
|
|
message in one of Mrs. Weston's letters. I hope time has not made
|
|
you less willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you
|
|
then said."
|
|
|
|
"No, indeed," cried Emma, most happy to begin, "not in the least.
|
|
I am particularly glad to see and shake hands with you--and to give
|
|
you joy in person."
|
|
|
|
He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak
|
|
with serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.
|
|
|
|
"Is not she looking well?" said he, turning his eyes towards Jane.
|
|
"Better than she ever used to do?--You see how my father and
|
|
Mrs. Weston doat upon her."
|
|
|
|
But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes,
|
|
after mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named
|
|
the name of Dixon.--Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced
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in her hearing.
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"I can never think of it," she cried, "without extreme shame."
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"The shame," he answered, "is all mine, or ought to be. But is it
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possible that you had no suspicion?--I mean of late. Early, I know,
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you had none."
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"I never had the smallest, I assure you."
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"That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near--and I wish I had--
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it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong things,
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they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no service.--
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It would have been a much better transgression had I broken the bond
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of secrecy and told you every thing."
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"It is not now worth a regret," said Emma.
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"I have some hope," resumed he, "of my uncle's being persuaded
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to pay a visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her.
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When the Campbells are returned, we shall meet them in London,
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and continue there, I trust, till we may carry her northward.--But now,
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I am at such a distance from her--is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?--
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Till this morning, we have not once met since the day of reconciliation.
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Do not you pity me?"
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Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession
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of gay thought, he cried,
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"Ah! by the bye," then sinking his voice, and looking demure for
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the moment--"I hope Mr. Knightley is well?" He paused.--She coloured
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and laughed.--"I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember
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my wish in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.--
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I assure you that I have heard the news with the warmest interest
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and satisfaction.--He is a man whom I cannot presume to praise."
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Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style;
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but his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his
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own Jane, and his next words were,
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"Did you ever see such a skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!--
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and yet without being actually fair.--One cannot call her fair.
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It is a most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair--
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a most distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.--
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Just colour enough for beauty."
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"I have always admired her complexion," replied Emma, archly; "but do not
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I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so pale?--
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When we first began to talk of her.--Have you quite forgotten?"
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"Oh! no--what an impudent dog I was!--How could I dare--"
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But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could
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not help saying,
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"I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time,
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you had very great amusement in tricking us all.--I am sure you had.--
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I am sure it was a consolation to you."
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"Oh! no, no, no--how can you suspect me of such a thing?
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I was the most miserable wretch!"
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"Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it
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was a source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking
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us all in.--Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell
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you the truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself
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in the same situation. I think there is a little likeness between us."
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He bowed.
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"If not in our dispositions," she presently added, with a look of
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true sensibility, "there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny
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which bids fair to connect us with two characters so much superior
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to our own."
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"True, true," he answered, warmly. "No, not true on your side. You can
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have no superior, but most true on mine.--She is a complete angel.
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Look at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn
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of her throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.--
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You will be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously)
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that my uncle means to give her all my aunt's jewels. They are to be
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new set. I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head.
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Will not it be beautiful in her dark hair?"
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"Very beautiful, indeed," replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly,
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that he gratefully burst out,
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"How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such
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excellent looks!--I would not have missed this meeting for the world.
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I should certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come."
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The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an
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account of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before,
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from the infant's appearing not quite well. She believed she had
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been foolish, but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half
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a minute of sending for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed,
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but Mr. Weston had been almost as uneasy as herself.--In ten minutes,
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however, the child had been perfectly well again. This was
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her history; and particularly interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse,
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who commended her very much for thinking of sending for Perry,
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and only regretted that she had not done it. "She should always send
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for Perry, if the child appeared in the slightest degree disordered,
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were it only for a moment. She could not be too soon alarmed,
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nor send for Perry too often. It was a pity, perhaps, that he
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had not come last night; for, though the child seemed well now,
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very well considering, it would probably have been better if Perry
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had seen it."
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Frank Churchill caught the name.
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"Perry!" said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss
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Fairfax's eye. "My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying
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about Mr. Perry?--Has he been here this morning?--And how does
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he travel now?--Has he set up his carriage?"
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Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined
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in the laugh, it was evident from Jane's countenance that she
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too was really hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.
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"Such an extraordinary dream of mine!" he cried. "I can never think
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of it without laughing.--She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse.
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I see it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown.
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Look at her. Do not you see that, at this instant, the very passage
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of her own letter, which sent me the report, is passing under her eye--
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that the whole blunder is spread before her--that she can attend to
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nothing else, though pretending to listen to the others?"
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Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile
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partly remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious,
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low, yet steady voice,
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"How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!--
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They will sometimes obtrude--but how you can court them!"
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He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly;
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but Emma's feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on
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leaving Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men,
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she felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill,
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and really regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never
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been more sensible of Mr. Knightley's high superiority of character.
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The happiness of this most happy day, received its completion, in the
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animated contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.
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CHAPTER XIX
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If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet,
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a momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured
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of her attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept
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another man from unbiased inclination, it was not long that she
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had to suffer from the recurrence of any such uncertainty.
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A very few days brought the party from London, and she had no
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sooner an opportunity of being one hour alone with Harriet,
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than she became perfectly satisfied--unaccountable as it was!--
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that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley,
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and was now forming all her views of happiness.
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Harriet was a little distressed--did look a little foolish at first:
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but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly,
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and self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die
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away with the words, and leave her without a care for the past,
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and with the fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to
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her friend's approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of
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that nature, by meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.--
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Harriet was most happy to give every particular of the evening at
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Astley's, and the dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all
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with the utmost delight. But what did such particulars explain?--
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The fact was, as Emma could now acknowledge, that Harriet had
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always liked Robert Martin; and that his continuing to love her had
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been irresistible.--Beyond this, it must ever be unintelligible
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to Emma.
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The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her
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fresh reason for thinking so.--Harriet's parentage became known.
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She proved to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford
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her the comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent
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enough to have always wished for concealment.--Such was the blood
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of gentility which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!--
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It was likely to be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many
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a gentleman: but what a connexion had she been preparing for
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Mr. Knightley--or for the Churchills--or even for Mr. Elton!--
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The stain of illegitimacy, unbleached by nobility or wealth,
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would have been a stain indeed.
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No objection was raised on the father's side; the young man was
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treated liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became
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acquainted with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield,
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she fully acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth
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|
which could bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt
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of Harriet's happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him,
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and in the home he offered, there would be the hope of more,
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of security, stability, and improvement. She would be placed in the
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midst of those who loved her, and who had better sense than herself;
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retired enough for safety, and occupied enough for cheerfulness.
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She would be never led into temptation, nor left for it to find her out.
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She would be respectable and happy; and Emma admitted her to be
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the luckiest creature in the world, to have created so steady and
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persevering an affection in such a man;--or, if not quite the luckiest,
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to yield only to herself.
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Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins,
|
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was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.--
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The intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must
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|
change into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought
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|
to be, and must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual,
|
|
natural manner.
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Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw
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her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction,
|
|
as no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood
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|
before them, could impair.--Perhaps, indeed, at that time she
|
|
scarcely saw Mr. Elton, but as the clergyman whose blessing at the
|
|
altar might next fall on herself.--Robert Martin and Harriet Smith,
|
|
the latest couple engaged of the three, were the first to be married.
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Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the
|
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comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.--The Mr. Churchills
|
|
were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.
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The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared,
|
|
by Emma and Mr. Knightley.--They had determined that their marriage
|
|
ought to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield,
|
|
to allow them the fortnight's absence in a tour to the seaside,
|
|
which was the plan.--John and Isabella, and every other friend,
|
|
were agreed in approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse--how was Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
to be induced to consent?--he, who had never yet alluded to their
|
|
marriage but as a distant event.
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|
|
When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they
|
|
were almost hopeless.--A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.--
|
|
He began to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it--
|
|
a very promising step of the mind on its way to resignation.
|
|
Still, however, he was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise,
|
|
that his daughter's courage failed. She could not bear to see
|
|
him suffering, to know him fancying himself neglected; and though
|
|
her understanding almost acquiesced in the assurance of both the
|
|
Mr. Knightleys, that when once the event were over, his distress
|
|
would be soon over too, she hesitated--she could not proceed.
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|
|
In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden
|
|
illumination of Mr. Woodhouse's mind, or any wonderful change of his
|
|
nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another way.--
|
|
Mrs. Weston's poultry-house was robbed one night of all her turkeys--
|
|
evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in the
|
|
neighbourhood also suffered.--Pilfering was housebreaking to
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse's fears.--He was very uneasy; and but for the sense
|
|
of his son-in-law's protection, would have been under wretched alarm
|
|
every night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence
|
|
of mind of the Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence.
|
|
While either of them protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.--
|
|
But Mr. John Knightley must be in London again by the end of the
|
|
first week in November.
|
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|
|
The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary,
|
|
cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at
|
|
the moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day--and Mr. Elton was
|
|
called on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert
|
|
Martin, to join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
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|
|
|
The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties
|
|
have no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the
|
|
particulars detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby,
|
|
and very inferior to her own.--"Very little white satin, very few
|
|
lace veils; a most pitiful business!--Selina would stare when she
|
|
heard of it."--But, in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes,
|
|
the hopes, the confidence, the predictions of the small band
|
|
of true friends who witnessed the ceremony, were fully answered
|
|
in the perfect happiness of the union.
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FINIS
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