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633 lines
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1838
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LIGEIA
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by Edgar Allan Poe
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LIGEIA
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LIGEIA
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And the will therein lieth, which dieth not. Who knoweth the
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mysteries of the will, with its vigor? For God is but a great will
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pervading all things by nature of its intentness. Man doth not yield
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himself to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the
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weakness of his feeble will.
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Joseph Glanvill.
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I CANNOT, for my soul, remember how, when, or even precisely
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where, I first became acquainted with the lady Ligeia. Long years have
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since elapsed, and my memory is feeble through much suffering. Or,
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perhaps, I cannot now bring these points to mind, because, in truth,
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the character of my beloved, her rare learning, her singular yet
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placid cast of beauty, and the thrilling and enthralling eloquence
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of her low musical language, made their way into my heart by paces
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so steadily and stealthily progressive that they have been unnoticed
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and unknown. Yet I believe that I met her first and most frequently in
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some large, old, decaying city near the Rhine. Of her family --I
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have surely heard her speak. That it is of a remotely ancient date
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cannot be doubted. Ligeia! Ligeia! in studies of a nature more than
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all else adapted to deaden impressions of the outward world, it is
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by that sweet word alone --by Ligeia --that I bring before mine eyes
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in fancy the image of her who is no more. And now, while I write, a
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recollection flashes upon me that I have never known the paternal name
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of her who was my friend and my betrothed, and who became the
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partner of my studies, and finally the wife of my bosom. Was it a
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playful charge on the part of my Ligeia? or was it a test of my
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strength of affection, that I should institute no inquiries upon
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this point? or was it rather a caprice of my own --a wildly romantic
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offering on the shrine of the most passionate devotion? I but
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indistinctly recall the fact itself --what wonder that I have
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utterly forgotten the circumstances which originated or attended it?
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And, indeed, if ever she, the wan and the misty-winged Ashtophet of
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idolatrous Egypt, presided, as they tell, over marriages ill-omened,
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then most surely she presided over mine.
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There is one dear topic, however, on which my memory falls me not.
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It is the person of Ligeia. In stature she was tall, somewhat slender,
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and, in her latter days, even emaciated. I would in vain attempt to
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portray the majesty, the quiet ease, of her demeanor, or the
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incomprehensible lightness and elasticity of her footfall. She came
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and departed as a shadow. I was never made aware of her entrance
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into my closed study save by the dear music of her low sweet voice, as
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she placed her marble hand upon my shoulder. In beauty of face no
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maiden ever equalled her. It was the radiance of an opium-dream --an
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airy and spirit-lifting vision more wildly divine than the
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phantasies which hovered vision about the slumbering souls of the
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daughters of Delos. Yet her features were not of that regular mould
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which we have been falsely taught to worship in the classical labors
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of the heathen. "There is no exquisite beauty," says Bacon, Lord
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Verulam, speaking truly of all the forms and genera of beauty, without
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some strangeness in the proportion." Yet, although I saw that the
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features of Ligeia were not of a classic regularity --although I
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perceived that her loveliness was indeed "exquisite," and felt that
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there was much of "strangeness" pervading it, yet I have tried in vain
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to detect the irregularity and to trace home my own perception of "the
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strange." I examined the contour of the lofty and pale forehead --it
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was faultless --how cold indeed that word when applied to a majesty so
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divine! --the skin rivalling the purest ivory, the commanding extent
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and repose, the gentle prominence of the regions above the temples;
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and then the raven-black, the glossy, the luxuriant and
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naturally-curling tresses, setting forth the full force of the Homeric
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epithet, "hyacinthine!" I looked at the delicate outlines of the
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nose --and nowhere but in the graceful medallions of the Hebrews had I
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beheld a similar perfection. There were the same luxurious
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smoothness of surface, the same scarcely perceptible tendency to the
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aquiline, the same harmoniously curved nostrils speaking the free
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spirit. I regarded the sweet mouth. Here was indeed the triumph of all
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things heavenly --the magnificent turn of the short upper lip --the
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soft, voluptuous slumber of the under --the dimples which sported, and
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the color which spoke --the teeth glancing back, with a brilliancy
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almost startling, every ray of the holy light which fell upon them
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in her serene and placid, yet most exultingly radiant of all smiles. I
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scrutinized the formation of the chin --and here, too, I found the
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gentleness of breadth, the softness and the majesty, the fullness
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and the spirituality, of the Greek --the contour which the god
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Apollo revealed but in a dream, to Cleomenes, the son of the Athenian.
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And then I peered into the large eves of Ligeia.
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For eyes we have no models in the remotely antique. It might have
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been, too, that in these eves of my beloved lay the secret to which
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Lord Verulam alludes. They were, I must believe, far larger than the
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ordinary eyes of our own race. They were even fuller than the
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fullest of the gazelle eyes of the tribe of the valley of Nourjahad.
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Yet it was only at intervals --in moments of intense excitement --that
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this peculiarity became more than slightly noticeable in Ligeia. And
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at such moments was her beauty --in my heated fancy thus it appeared
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perhaps --the beauty of beings either above or apart from the earth
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--the beauty of the fabulous Houri of the Turk. The hue of the orbs
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was the most brilliant of black, and, far over them, hung jetty lashes
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of great length. The brows, slightly irregular in outline, had the
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same tint. The "strangeness," however, which I found in the eyes,
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was of a nature distinct from the formation, or the color, or the
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brilliancy of the features, and must, after all, be referred to the
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expression. Ah, word of no meaning! behind whose vast latitude of mere
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sound we intrench our ignorance of so much of the spiritual. The
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expression of the eyes of Ligeia! How for long hours have I pondered
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upon it! How have I, through the whole of a midsummer night, struggled
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to fathom it! What was it --that something more profound than the well
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of Democritus --which lay far within the pupils of my beloved? What
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was it? I was possessed with a passion to discover. Those eyes!
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those large, those shining, those divine orbs! they became to me
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twin stars of Leda, and I to them devoutest of astrologers.
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There is no point, among the many incomprehensible anomalies of
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the science of mind, more thrillingly exciting than the fact
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--never, I believe, noticed in the schools --that, in our endeavors to
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recall to memory something long forgotten, we often find ourselves
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upon the very verge of remembrance, without being able, in the end, to
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remember. And thus how frequently, in my intense scrutiny of
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Ligeia's eyes, have I felt approaching the full knowledge of their
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expression --felt it approaching --yet not quite be mine --and so at
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length entirely depart! And (strange, oh strangest mystery of all!)
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I found, in the commonest objects of the universe, a circle of
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analogies to theat expression. I mean to say that, subsequently to the
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period when Ligeia's beauty passed into my spirit, there dwelling as
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in a shrine, I derived, from many existences in the material world,
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a sentiment such as I felt always aroused within me by her large and
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luminous orbs. Yet not the more could I define that sentiment, or
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analyze, or even steadily view it. I recognized it, let me repeat,
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sometimes in the survey of a rapidly-growing vine --in the
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contemplation of a moth, a butterfly, a chrysalis, a stream of running
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water. I have felt it in the ocean; in the falling of a meteor. I have
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felt it in the glances of unusually aged people. And there are one
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or two stars in heaven --(one especially, a star of the sixth
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magnitude, double and changeable, to be found near the large star in
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Lyra) in a telescopic scrutiny of which I have been made aware of
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the feeling. I have been filled with it by certain sounds from
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stringed instruments, and not unfrequently by passages from books.
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Among innumerable other instances, I well remember something in a
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volume of Joseph Glanvill, which (perhaps merely from its quaintness
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--who shall say?) never failed to inspire me with the sentiment;
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--"And the will therein lieth, which dieth not. Who knoweth the
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mysteries of the will, with its vigor? For God is but a great will
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pervading all things by nature of its intentness. Man doth not yield
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him to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the
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weakness of his feeble will."
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Length of years, and subsequent reflection, have enabled me to
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trace, indeed, some remote connection between this passage in the
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English moralist and a portion of the character of Ligeia. An
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intensity in thought, action, or speech, was possibly, in her, a
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result, or at least an index, of that gigantic volition which,
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during our long intercourse, failed to give other and more immediate
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evidence of its existence. Of all the women whom I have ever known,
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she, the outwardly calm, the ever-placid Ligeia, was the most
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violently a prey to the tumultuous vultures of stern passion. And of
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such passion I could form no estimate, save by the miraculous
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expansion of those eyes which at once so delighted and appalled me
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--by the almost magical melody, modulation, distinctness and placidity
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of her very low voice --and by the fierce energy (rendered doubly
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effective by contrast with her manner of utterance) of the wild
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words which she habitually uttered.
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I have spoken of the learning of Ligeia: it was immense --such as
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I have never known in woman. In the classical tongues was she deeply
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proficient, and as far as my own acquaintance extended in regard to
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the modern dialects of Europe, I have never known her at fault. Indeed
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upon any theme of the most admired, because simply the most abstruse
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of the boasted erudition of the academy, have I ever found Ligeia at
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fault? How singularly --how thrillingly, this one point in the
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nature of my wife has forced itself, at this late period only, upon my
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attention! I said her knowledge was such as I have never known in
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woman --but where breathes the man who has traversed, and
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successfully, all the wide areas of moral, physical, and
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mathematical science? I saw not then what I now clearly perceive, that
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the acquisitions of Ligeia were gigantic, were astounding; yet I was
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sufficiently aware of her infinite supremacy to resign myself, with
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a child-like confidence, to her guidance through the chaotic world
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of metaphysical investigation at which I was most busily occupied
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during the earlier years of our marriage. With how vast a triumph
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--with how vivid a delight --with how much of all that is ethereal
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in hope --did I feel, as she bent over me in studies but little sought
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--but less known --that delicious vista by slow degrees expanding
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before me, down whose long, gorgeous, and all untrodden path, I
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might at length pass onward to the goal of a wisdom too divinely
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precious not to be forbidden!
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How poignant, then, must have been the grief with which, after
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some years, I beheld my well-grounded expectations take wings to
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themselves and fly away! Without Ligeia I was but as a child groping
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benighted. Her presence, her readings alone, rendered vividly luminous
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the many mysteries of the transcendentalism in which we were immersed.
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Wanting the radiant lustre of her eyes, letters, lambent and golden,
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grew duller than Saturnian lead. And now those eyes shone less and
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less frequently upon the pages over which I pored. Ligeia grew ill.
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The wild eyes blazed with a too --too glorious effulgence; the pale
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fingers became of the transparent waxen hue of the grave, and the blue
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veins upon the lofty forehead swelled and sank impetuously with the
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tides of the gentle emotion. I saw that she must die --and I struggled
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desperately in spirit with the grim Azrael. And the struggles of the
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passionate wife were, to my astonishment, even more energetic than
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my own. There had been much in her stern nature to impress me with the
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belief that, to her, death would have come without its terrors;
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--but not so. Words are impotent to convey any just idea of the
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fierceness of resistance with which she wrestled with the Shadow. I
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groaned in anguish at the pitiable spectacle. would have soothed --I
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would have reasoned; but, in the intensity of her wild desire for
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life, --for life --but for life --solace and reason were the uttermost
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folly. Yet not until the last instance, amid the most convulsive
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writhings of her fierce spirit, was shaken the external placidity of
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her demeanor. Her voice grew more gentle --grew more low --yet I would
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not wish to dwell upon the wild meaning of the quietly uttered
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words. My brain reeled as I hearkened entranced, to a melody more than
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mortal --to assumptions and aspirations which mortality had never
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before known.
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That she loved me I should not have doubted; and I might have been
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easily aware that, in a bosom such as hers, love would have reigned no
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ordinary passion. But in death only, was I fully impressed with the
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strength of her affection. For long hours, detaining my hand, would
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she pour out before me the overflowing of a heart whose more than
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passionate devotion amounted to idolatry. How had I deserved to be
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so blessed by such confessions? --how had I deserved to be so cursed
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with the removal of my beloved in the hour of her making them, But
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upon this subject I cannot bear to dilate. Let me say only, that in
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Ligeia's more than womanly abandonment to a love, alas! all unmerited,
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all unworthily bestowed, I at length recognized the principle of her
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longing with so wildly earnest a desire for the life which was now
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fleeing so rapidly away. It is this wild longing --it is this eager
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vehemence of desire for life --but for life --that I have no power
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to portray --no utterance capable of expressing.
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At high noon of the night in which she departed, beckoning me,
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peremptorily, to her side, she bade me repeat certain verses
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composed by herself not many days before. I obeyed her. --They were
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these:
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Lo! 'tis a gala night
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Within the lonesome latter years!
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An angel throng, bewinged, bedight
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In veils, and drowned in tears,
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Sit in a theatre, to see
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A play of hopes and fears,
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While the orchestra breathes fitfully
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The music of the spheres.
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Mimes, in the form of God on high,
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Mutter and mumble low,
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And hither and thither fly --
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Mere puppets they, who come and go
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At bidding of vast formless things
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That shift the scenery to and fro,
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Flapping from out their Condor wings
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Invisible Wo!
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That motley drama! --oh, be sure
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It shall not be forgot!
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With its Phantom chased forever more,
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By a crowd that seize it not,
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Through a circle that ever returneth in
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To the self-same spot,
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And much of Madness and more of Sin
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And Horror the soul of the plot.
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But see, amid the mimic rout,
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A crawling shape intrude!
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A blood-red thing that writhes from out
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The scenic solitude!
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It writhes! --it writhes! --with mortal pangs
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The mimes become its food,
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And the seraphs sob at vermin fangs
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In human gore imbued.
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Out --out are the lights --out all!
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And over each quivering form,
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The curtain, a funeral pall,
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Comes down with the rush of a storm,
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And the angels, all pallid and wan,
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Uprising, unveiling, affirm
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That the play is the tragedy, "Man,"
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And its hero the Conqueror Worm.
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"O God!" half shrieked Ligeia, leaping to her feet and extending her
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arms aloft with a spasmodic movement, as I made an end of these
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lines --"O God! O Divine Father! --shall these things be undeviatingly
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so? --shall this Conqueror be not once conquered? Are we not part
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and parcel in Thee? Who --who knoweth the mysteries of the will with
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its vigor? Man doth not yield him to the angels, nor unto death
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utterly, save only through the weakness of his feeble will."
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And now, as if exhausted with emotion, she suffered her white arms
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to fall, and returned solemnly to her bed of death. And as she
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breathed her last sighs, there came mingled with them a low murmur
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from her lips. I bent to them my ear and distinguished, again, the
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concluding words of the passage in Glanvill --"Man doth not yield
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him to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the
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weakness of his feeble will."
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She died; --and I, crushed into the very dust with sorrow, could
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no longer endure the lonely desolation of my dwelling in the dim and
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decaying city by the Rhine. I had no lack of what the world calls
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wealth. Ligeia had brought me far more, very far more than
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ordinarily falls to the lot of mortals. After a few months, therefore,
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of weary and aimless wandering, I purchased, and put in some repair,
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an abbey, which I shall not name, in one of the wildest and least
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frequented portions of fair England. The gloomy and dreary grandeur of
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the building, the almost savage aspect of the domain, the many
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melancholy and time-honored memories connected with both, had much
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in unison with the feelings of utter abandonment which had driven me
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into that remote and unsocial region of the country. Yet although
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the external abbey, with its verdant decay hanging about it,
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suffered but little alteration, I gave way, with a child-like
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perversity, and perchance with a faint hope of alleviating my sorrows,
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to a display of more than regal magnificence within. --For such
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follies, even in childhood, I had imbibed a taste and now they came
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back to me as if in the dotage of grief. Alas, I feel how much even of
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incipient madness might have been discovered in the gorgeous and
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fantastic draperies, in the solemn carvings of Egypt, in the wild
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cornices and furniture, in the Bedlam patterns of the carpets of
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tufted gold! I had become a bounden slave in the trammels of opium,
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and my labors and my orders had taken a coloring from my dreams. But
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these absurdities must not pause to detail. Let me speak only of
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that one chamber, ever accursed, whither in a moment of mental
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alienation, I led from the altar as my bride --as the successor of the
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unforgotten Ligeia --the fair-haired and blue-eyed Lady Rowena
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Trevanion, of Tremaine.
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There is no individual portion of the architecture and decoration of
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that bridal chamber which is not now visibly before me. Where were the
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souls of the haughty family of the bride, when, through thirst of
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gold, they permitted to pass the threshold of an apartment so
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bedecked, a maiden and a daughter so beloved? I have said that I
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minutely remember the details of the chamber --yet I am sadly
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forgetful on topics of deep moment --and here there was no system,
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no keeping, in the fantastic display, to take hold upon the memory.
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The room lay in a high turret of the castellated abbey, was pentagonal
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in shape, and of capacious size. Occupying the whole southern face
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of the pentagon was the sole window --an immense sheet of unbroken
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glass from Venice --a single pane, and tinted of a leaden hue, so that
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the rays of either the sun or moon, passing through it, fell with a
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ghastly lustre on the objects within. Over the upper portion of this
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huge window, extended the trellice-work of an aged vine, which
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clambered up the massy walls of the turret. The ceiling, of
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gloomy-looking oak, was excessively lofty, vaulted, and elaborately
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fretted with the wildest and most grotesque specimens of a
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semi-Gothic, semi-Druidical device. From out the most central recess
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of this melancholy vaulting, depended, by a single chain of gold
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with long links, a huge censer of the same metal, Saracenic in
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pattern, and with many perforations so contrived that there writhed in
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and out of them, as if endued with a serpent vitality, a continual
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succession of parti-colored fires.
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Some few ottomans and golden candelabra, of Eastern figure, were
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in various stations about --and there was the couch, too --bridal
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couch --of an Indian model, and low, and sculptured of solid ebony,
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with a pall-like canopy above. In each of the angles of the chamber
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stood on end a gigantic sarcophagus of black granite, from the tombs
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of the kings over against Luxor, with their aged lids full of
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immemorial sculpture. But in the draping of the apartment lay, alas!
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the chief phantasy of all. The lofty walls, gigantic in height
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--even unproportionably so --were hung from summit to foot, in vast
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folds, with a heavy and massive-looking tapestry --tapestry of a
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material which was found alike as a carpet on the floor, as a covering
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for the ottomans and the ebony bed, as a canopy for the bed, and as
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the gorgeous volutes of the curtains which partially shaded the
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window. The material was the richest cloth of gold. It was spotted all
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over, at irregular intervals, with arabesque figures, about a foot
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in diameter, and wrought upon the cloth in patterns of the most
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jetty black. But these figures partook of the true character of the
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arabesque only when regarded from a single point of view. By a
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contrivance now common, and indeed traceable to a very remote period
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of antiquity, they were made changeable in aspect. To one entering the
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room, they bore the appearance of simple monstrosities; but upon a
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farther advance, this appearance gradually departed; and step by step,
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as the visitor moved his station in the chamber, he saw himself
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surrounded by an endless succession of the ghastly forms which
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belong to the superstition of the Norman, or arise in the guilty
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slumbers of the monk. The phantasmagoric effect was vastly
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heightened by the artificial introduction of a strong continual
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current of wind behind the draperies --giving a hideous and uneasy
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animation to the whole.
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In halls such as these --in a bridal chamber such as this --I
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passed, with the Lady of Tremaine, the unhallowed hours of the first
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month of our marriage --passed them with but little disquietude.
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That my wife dreaded the fierce moodiness of my temper --that she
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shunned me and loved me but little --I could not help perceiving;
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but it gave me rather pleasure than otherwise. I loathed her with a
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hatred belonging more to demon than to man. My memory flew back,
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(oh, with what intensity of regret!) to Ligeia, the beloved, the
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august, the beautiful, the entombed. I revelled in recollections of
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her purity, of her wisdom, of her lofty, her ethereal nature, of her
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passionate, her idolatrous love. Now, then, did my spirit fully and
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freely burn with more than all the fires of her own. In the excitement
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of my opium dreams (for I was habitually fettered in the shackles of
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the drug) I would call aloud upon her name, during the silence of
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the night, or among the sheltered recesses of the glens by day, as if,
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through the wild eagerness, the solemn passion, the consuming ardor of
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my longing for the departed, I could restore her to the pathway she
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had abandoned --ah, could it be forever? --upon the earth.
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About the commencement of the second month of the marriage, the Lady
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Rowena was attacked with sudden illness, from which her recovery was
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slow. The fever which consumed her rendered her nights uneasy; and
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in her perturbed state of half-slumber, she spoke of sounds, and of
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motions, in and about the chamber of the turret, which I concluded had
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no origin save in the distemper of her fancy, or perhaps in the
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phantasmagoric influences of the chamber itself. She became at
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length convalescent --finally well. Yet but a brief period elapsed,
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ere a second more violent disorder again threw her upon a bed of
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suffering; and from this attack her frame, at all times feeble,
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never altogether recovered. Her illnesses were, after this epoch, of
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alarming character, and of more alarming recurrence, defying alike the
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knowledge and the great exertions of her physicians. With the increase
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of the chronic disease which had thus, apparently, taken too sure hold
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upon her constitution to be eradicated by human means, I could not
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fall to observe a similar increase in the nervous irritation of her
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temperament, and in her excitability by trivial causes of fear. She
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spoke again, and now more frequently and pertinaciously, of the sounds
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--of the slight sounds --and of the unusual motions among the
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tapestries, to which she had formerly alluded.
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One night, near the closing in of September, she pressed this
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distressing subject with more than usual emphasis upon my attention.
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She had just awakened from an unquiet slumber, and I had been
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watching, with feelings half of anxiety, half of vague terror, the
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workings of her emaciated countenance. I sat by the side of her
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ebony bed, upon one of the ottomans of India. She partly arose, and
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spoke, in an earnest low whisper, of sounds which she then heard,
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but which I could not hear --of motions which she then saw, but
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which I could not perceive. The wind was rushing hurriedly behind
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the tapestries, and I wished to show her (what, let me confess it, I
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could not all believe) that those almost inarticulate breathings,
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and those very gentle variations of the figures upon the wall, were
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but the natural effects of that customary rushing of the wind. But a
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deadly pallor, overspreading her face, had proved to me that my
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exertions to reassure her would be fruitless. She appeared to be
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fainting, and no attendants were within call. I remembered where was
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deposited a decanter of light wine which had been ordered by her
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physicians, and hastened across the chamber to procure it. But, as I
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stepped beneath the light of the censer, two circumstances of a
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startling nature attracted my attention. I had felt that some palpable
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although invisible object had passed lightly by my person; and I saw
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that there lay upon the golden carpet, in the very middle of the
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rich lustre thrown from the censer, a shadow --a faint, indefinite
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shadow of angelic aspect --such as might be fancied for the shadow
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of a shade. But I was wild with the excitement of an immoderate dose
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of opium, and heeded these things but little, nor spoke of them to
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Rowena. Having found the wine, I recrossed the chamber, and poured out
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a gobletful, which I held to the lips of the fainting lady. She had
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now partially recovered, however, and took the vessel herself, while I
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sank upon an ottoman near me, with my eyes fastened upon her person.
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It was then that I became distinctly aware of a gentle footfall upon
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the carpet, and near the couch; and in a second thereafter, as
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Rowena was in the act of raising the wine to her lips, I saw, or may
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have dreamed that I saw, fall within the goblet, as if from some
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invisible spring in the atmosphere of the room, three or four large
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drops of a brilliant and ruby colored fluid. If this I saw --not so
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Rowena. She swallowed the wine unhesitatingly, and I forbore to
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speak to her of a circumstance which must, after all, I considered,
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have been but the suggestion of a vivid imagination, rendered morbidly
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active by the terror of the lady, by the opium, and by the hour.
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Yet I cannot conceal it from my own perception that, immediately
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subsequent to the fall of the ruby-drops, a rapid change for the worse
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took place in the disorder of my wife; so that, on the third
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subsequent night, the hands of her menials prepared her for the
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tomb, and on the fourth, I sat alone, with her shrouded body, in
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that fantastic chamber which had received her as my bride. --Wild
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visions, opium-engendered, flitted, shadow-like, before me. I gazed
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with unquiet eye upon the sarcophagi in the angles of the room, upon
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the varying figures of the drapery, and upon the writhing of the
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parti-colored fires in the censer overhead. My eyes then fell, as I
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called to mind the circumstances of a former night, to the spot
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beneath the glare of the censer where I had seen the faint traces of
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the shadow. It was there, however, no longer; and breathing with
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greater freedom, I turned my glances to the pallid and rigid figure
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upon the bed. Then rushed upon me a thousand memories of Ligeia
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--and then came back upon my heart, with the turbulent violence of a
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flood, the whole of that unutterable wo with which I had regarded
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her thus enshrouded. The night waned; and still, with a bosom full
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of bitter thoughts of the one only and supremely beloved, I remained
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gazing upon the body of Rowena.
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It might have been midnight, or perhaps earlier, or later, for I had
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taken no note of time, when a sob, low, gentle, but very distinct,
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startled me from my revery. --I felt that it came from the bed of
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ebony --the bed of death. I listened in an agony of superstitious
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terror --but there was no repetition of the sound. I strained my
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vision to detect any motion in the corpse --but there was not the
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slightest perceptible. Yet I could not have been deceived. I had heard
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the noise, however faint, and my soul was awakened within me. I
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resolutely and perseveringly kept my attention riveted upon the
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body. Many minutes elapsed before any circumstance occurred tending to
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throw light upon the mystery. At length it became evident that a
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slight, a very feeble, and barely noticeable tinge of color had
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flushed up within the cheeks, and along the sunken small veins of
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the eyelids. Through a species of unutterable horror and awe, for
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which the language of mortality has no sufficiently energetic
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expression, I felt my heart cease to beat, my limbs grow rigid where I
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sat. Yet a sense of duty finally operated to restore my
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self-possession. I could no longer doubt that we had been
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precipitate in our preparations --that Rowena still lived. It was
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necessary that some immediate exertion be made; yet turret was
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altogether apart from the portion of the abbey tenanted by the
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|
servants --there were none within call --I had no means of summoning
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them to my aid without leaving the room for many minutes --and this
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|
I could not venture to do. I therefore struggled alone in my endeavors
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|
to call back the spirit ill hovering. In a short period it was
|
|
certain, however, that a relapse had taken place; the color
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|
disappeared from both eyelid and cheek, leaving a wanness even more
|
|
than that of marble; the lips became doubly shrivelled and pinched
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|
up in the ghastly expression of death; a repulsive clamminess and
|
|
coldness overspread rapidly the surface of the body; and all the usual
|
|
rigorous illness immediately supervened. I fell back with a shudder
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|
upon the couch from which I had been so startlingly aroused, and again
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|
gave myself up to passionate waking visions of Ligeia.
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An hour thus elapsed when (could it be possible?) I was a second
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|
time aware of some vague sound issuing from the region of the bed. I
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listened --in extremity of horror. The sound came again --it was a
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sigh. Rushing to the corpse, I saw --distinctly saw --a tremor upon
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the lips. In a minute afterward they relaxed, disclosing a bright line
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|
of the pearly teeth. Amazement now struggled in my bosom with the
|
|
profound awe which had hitherto reigned there alone. I felt that my
|
|
vision grew dim, that my reason wandered; and it was only by a violent
|
|
effort that I at length succeeded in nerving myself to the task
|
|
which duty thus once more had pointed out. There was now a partial
|
|
glow upon the forehead and upon the cheek and throat; a perceptible
|
|
warmth pervaded the whole frame; there was even a slight pulsation
|
|
at the heart. The lady lived; and with redoubled ardor I betook myself
|
|
to the task of restoration. I chafed and bathed the temples and the
|
|
hands, and used every exertion which experience, and no little.
|
|
medical reading, could suggest. But in vain. Suddenly, the color fled,
|
|
the pulsation ceased, the lips resumed the expression of the dead,
|
|
and, in an instant afterward, the whole body took upon itself the
|
|
icy chilliness, the livid hue, the intense rigidity, the sunken
|
|
outline, and all the loathsome peculiarities of that which has been,
|
|
for many days, a tenant of the tomb.
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And again I sunk into visions of Ligeia --and again, (what marvel
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|
that I shudder while I write,) again there reached my ears a low sob
|
|
from the region of the ebony bed. But why shall I minutely detail
|
|
the unspeakable horrors of that night? Why shall I pause to relate
|
|
how, time after time, until near the period of the gray dawn, this
|
|
hideous drama of revivification was repeated; how each terrific
|
|
relapse was only into a sterner and apparently more irredeemable
|
|
death; how each agony wore the aspect of a struggle with some
|
|
invisible foe; and how each struggle was succeeded by I know not
|
|
what of wild change in the personal appearance of the corpse? Let me
|
|
hurry to a conclusion.
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|
The greater part of the fearful night had worn away, and she who had
|
|
been dead, once again stirred --and now more vigorously than hitherto,
|
|
although arousing from a dissolution more appalling in its utter
|
|
hopelessness than any. I had long ceased to struggle or to move, and
|
|
remained sitting rigidly upon the ottoman, a helpless prey to a
|
|
whirl of violent emotions, of which extreme awe was perhaps the
|
|
least terrible, the least consuming. The corpse, I repeat, stirred,
|
|
and now more vigorously than before. The hues of life flushed up
|
|
with unwonted energy into the countenance --the limbs relaxed --and,
|
|
save that the eyelids were yet pressed heavily together, and that
|
|
the bandages and draperies of the grave still imparted their charnel
|
|
character to the figure, I might have dreamed that Rowena had indeed
|
|
shaken off, utterly, the fetters of Death. But if this idea was not,
|
|
even then, altogether adopted, I could at least doubt no longer, when,
|
|
arising from the bed, tottering, with feeble steps, with closed
|
|
eyes, and with the manner of one bewildered in a dream, the thing that
|
|
was enshrouded advanced boldly and palpably into the middle of the
|
|
apartment.
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|
|
|
I trembled not --I stirred not --for a crowd of unutterable
|
|
fancies connected with the air, the stature, the demeanor of the
|
|
figure, rushing hurriedly through my brain, had paralyzed --had
|
|
chilled me into stone. I stirred not --but gazed upon the
|
|
apparition. There was a mad disorder in my thoughts --a tumult
|
|
unappeasable. Could it, indeed, be the living Rowena who confronted
|
|
me? Could it indeed be Rowena at all --the fair-haired, the
|
|
blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion of Tremaine? Why, why should I doubt
|
|
it? The bandage lay heavily about the mouth --but then might it not be
|
|
the mouth of the breathing Lady of Tremaine? And the cheeks-there were
|
|
the roses as in her noon of life --yes, these might indeed be the fair
|
|
cheeks of the living Lady of Tremaine. And the chin, with its dimples,
|
|
as in health, might it not be hers? --but had she then grown taller
|
|
since her malady? What inexpressible madness seized me with that
|
|
thought? One bound, and I had reached her feet! Shrinking from my
|
|
touch, she let fall from her head, unloosened, the ghastly cerements
|
|
which had confined it, and there streamed forth, into the rushing
|
|
atmosphere of the chamber, huge masses of long and dishevelled hair;
|
|
it was blacker than the raven wings of the midnight! And now slowly
|
|
opened the eyes of the figure which stood before me. "Here then, at
|
|
least," I shrieked aloud, "can I never --can I never be mistaken
|
|
--these are the full, and the black, and the wild eyes --of my lost
|
|
love --of the lady --of the LADY LIGEIA."
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-THE END-
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