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"The Chimes",
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by Charles Dickens.
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[obi/Charles.Dickens/chimes.txt]
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THE CHIMES
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FIRST QUARTER
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There are not many people -- and as it is desirable
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that a story-teller and a story-reader should establish
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a mutual understanding as soon as possible, I beg it
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to be noticed that I confine this observation neither to
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young people nor to little people, but extend it to all
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conditions of people: little and big, young and old:
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yet growing up, or already growing down again -- there
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are not, I say, many people who would care to sleep
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in a church. I don't mean at sermon-time in warm
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weather (when the thing has actually been done, once
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or twice), but in the night, and alone. A great multi-
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tude of persons will be violently astonished, I know,
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by this position, in the broad bold Day. But it
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applies to Night. It must be argued by night, and I
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will undertake to maintain it successfully on any
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gusty winter's night appointed for the purpose, with
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any one opponent chosen from the rest, who will meet
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me singly in an old church-yard, before an old church-
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door; and will previously empower me to lock him in,
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if needful to his satisfaction, until morning.
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For the night-wind has a dismal trick of wander-
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ing round and round a building of that sort, and
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moaning as it goes; and of trying, with its unseen
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hand, the windows and the doors; and seeking out
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some crevices by which to enter. And when it has
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got in; as one not finding what it seeks, whatever that
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may be, it wails and howls to issue forth again: and
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not content with stalking through the aisles, and glid-
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ing round and round the pillars, and tempting the
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deep organ, soars up to the roof, and strives to rend
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the rafters: then flings itself despairingly upon the
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stones below, and passes, muttering, into the vaults.
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Anon, it comes up stealthily, and creeps along the
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walls, seeming to read, in whispers, the Inscriptions
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sacred to the Dead. At some of these, it breaks out
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shrilly, as with laughter; and at others, moans and
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cries as if it were lamenting. It has a ghostly sound
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too, lingering within the altar; where it seems to
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chaunt, in its wild way, of Wrong and Murder done,
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and false Gods worshipped, in defiance of the Tables
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of the Law, which look so fair and smooth, but are so
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flawed and broken. Ugh! Heaven preserve us, sit-
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ting snugly round the fire! It has an awful voice,
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that wind at Midnight, singing in a churchl
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But, high up in the steeple! There the foul blast
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roars and whistles! High up in the steeple, where it
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is free to come and go through many an airy arch
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and loophole, and to twist and twine itself about
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the giddy stair, and twirl the groaning weathercock,
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and make the very tower shake and shiver! High up
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in the steeple, where the belfry is, and iron rails are
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ragged with rust, and sheets of lead and copper
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shrivelled by the changing weather, crackle and heave
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beneath the unaccustomed tread; and birds stuff
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shabby nests into corners of old oaken joists and
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beams; and dust grows old and grey; and speckled
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spiders, indolent and fat with long security, swing
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idly to and fro in the vibration of the bells, and never
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loose their hold upon their thread-spun castles in the
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air, or climb up sailor-like in quick alarm, or drop
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upon the ground and ply a score of nimble legs to
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save one life! High up in the steeple of an old church
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far above the light and murmur of the town and far
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below the flying clouds that shadow it, is the wild and
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dreary place at night: and high up in the steeple of
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an old church, dwelt the Chimes I tell of.
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They were old Chimes, trust me. Centuries ago,
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these Bells had been baptized by bishops: so many
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centuries ago, that the register of their baptism was
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lost long, long before the memory of man, and no one
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knew their names. They had had their Godfathers
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and Godmothers, these Bells (for my own part, by
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the way, I would rather incur the responsibility of
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being Godfather to a Bell than a Boy), and had their
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silver mugs no doubt, besides. But Time had mowed
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down their sponsors, and Henry the Eighth had
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melted down their mugs; and they now hung, name-
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less and mugless, in the church-tower.
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Not speechless, though. Far from it. They had
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clear, loud, lusty, sounding voices, had these Bells;
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and far and wide they might be heard upon the wind.
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Much too sturdy Chimes were they, to be dependent
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on the pleasure of the wind, moreover; for fighting
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gallantly against it when it took an adverse whim,
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they would pour their cheerful notes into a listening
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ear right royally; and bent on being heard, on stormy
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nights, by some poor mother watching a sick child,
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or some lone wife whose husband was at sea, they had
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been sometimes known to beat a blustering Nor'-
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Wester, aye, 'all to fits,' as Toby Veck said; -- for
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though they chose to call him Trotty Veck, his name
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was Toby, and nobody could make it anything else
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either (except Tobias) without a special act of parlia-
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ment; he having been as lawfully christened in his
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day as the Bells had been in theirs, though with not
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quite so much of solemnity or public rejoicing.
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For my part, I confess myself of Toby Veck's
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belief, for I am sure he had opportunities enough of
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forming a correct one. And whatever Tobv Veck
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said, I say. And I take my stand by Toby Veck,
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although he did stand all day long (and weary work it
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was) just outside the church-door. In fact he was a
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ticket-porter, Toby Veck, and waited there for jobs.
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And a breezy, goose-skinned, blue-nosed red-eyed,
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stony-toed, tooth-chattering place it was, to wait in,
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in the winter-time, as Toby Veck well knew. The
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wind came tearing round the corner -- especially the
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east wind -- as if it had sallied forth, express, from
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the confines of the earth, to have a blow at Toby.
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And oftentimes it seemed to come upon him sooner
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than it had expected, for bouncing round the corner,
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and passing Toby, it would suddenly wheel round
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again, as if it cried 'Why, here he is!' Incontinently
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his little white apron would be caught up over his
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head like a naughty boy's garments, and his feeble
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little cane would be seen to wrestle and struggle un-
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availingly in his hand, and his legs would undergo
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tremendous agitation, and Toby himself all aslant,
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and facing now in this direction, now in that, would
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be so banged and buffeted, and touzled, and worried,
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and hustled, and lifted off his feet, as to render it a
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state of things but one degree removed from a posi-
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tive miracle, that he wasn't carried up bodily into the
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air as a colony of frogs or snails or other very port-
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able creatures sometimes are, and rained down again,
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to the great astonishment of the natives, on some
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strange corner of the world where ticket-porters are
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unknown.
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But, windy weather, in spite of its using him so
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roughly, was, after all, a sort of holiday for Toby.
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That's the fact. He didn't seem to wait so long for
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sixpence in the wind, as at other times; the having
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to fight with that boisterous element took off his
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attention, and quite freshened him up when he was
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getting hungry and low-spirited. A hard frost too,
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or a fall of snow, was an Event; and it seemcd to do
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him good, somehow or other -- it would have been hard
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to say in what respect though, Toby! So wind and
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frost and snow, and perhaps a good stiff storm of
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hail, were Toby Veck's red-letter days.
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Wet weather was the worst; the cold damp, clammy
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wet, that wrapped him up like a moist great-coat --
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the only kind of great-coat Toby owned, or could
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have added to his comfort by dispensing with. Wet
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days, when the rain came slowly, thickly, obstinately
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down; when the streets's throat, like his own, was
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choked with mist; when smoking umbrellas passed
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and re-passed, spinning round and round like so many
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teetotums, as they knocked against each other on the
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crowded footway, throwing off a little whirlpool of
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uncomfortable sprinklings; when gutters brawled and
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waterspouts were full and noisy; when the wet from
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the projecting stones and ledges of the church fell
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drip, drip, drip, on Toby, making the wisp of straw on
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which he stood mere mud in no time; those were the
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days that tried him. Then indeed, you might see
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Toby looking anxiously out from his shelter in an
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angle of the church wall -- such a meagre shelter that
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in summer time it never cast a shadow thicker than a
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good-sized walking-stick upon the sunny pavement --
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with a disconsolate and lengthened face. But coming
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out, a minute afterwards, to warm himself by exercise,
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and trotting up and down some dozen times, he would
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brighten even then, and go back more brightly to his
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niche.
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They called him Trotty from his pace, which
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meant speed if it didn't make it. He could have
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Walked faster perhaps; most likely; but rob him of
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his trot, and Toby would have taken to his bed and
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died. It bespattered him with mud in dirty weather;
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it cost him a world of trouble; he could have walked
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with infinitely greater ease; but that was one reason
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for his clinging to it so tenaciously. A weak, small,
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spare old man, he was a very Hercules, this Toby, in
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his good intentions. He loved to earn his money.
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He delighted to believe -- Toby was very poor, and
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couldn't well afford to part with a delight -- that he
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was worth his salt. With a shilling or an eighteen-
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penny message or small parcel in hand, his courage,
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always hig, rose higher. As he trotted on, he
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would call out to fast Postmen ahead of him, to get
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out of the way; devoutly believing that in the natural
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course of things he must inevitably overtake and run
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them down; and he had perfect faith -- not often
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tested -- in his being able to carry anything that man
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could lift.
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Thus, even when he came out of his nook to warm
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himself on a wet day, Toby trotted. Making, with
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his leaky shoes, a crooked line of slushy footprints in
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the mire; and blowing on his chilly hands and rubbing
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them against each other, poorly defended from the
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searching cold by threadbare mufflers of grey
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worsted, with a private apartment only for the
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thumb, and a common room or tap for the rest of
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the fingers; Toby, with his knees bent and his cane
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beneath his arm, still trotted. Falling out into the
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road to look up at the belfry when the Chimes re-
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sounded, Toby trotted still.
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He made this last excursion several times a day,
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for they were company to him; and when he heard
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their voices, he had an interest in glancing at their
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lodging-place, and thinking how they were moved, and
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what hammers beat upon them. Perhaps he was the
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more curious about these Bells, because there were
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points of resemblance between themselves and him
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They hung there, in all weathers, with the wind and
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rain driving in upon them; facing only the outsides
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of all those houses; never getting any nearer to the
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blazing fires that gleamed and shone upon the win-
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dows, or came puffing out of the chimney tops; and
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incapable of participation in any of the good things
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that were constantly being handed, through the street
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doors and the area railings, to prodigious cooks.
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Faces came and went at many windows: sometimes
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pretty faces, youthful faces, pleasant faces: some-
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times the reverse: but Toby knew no more (though
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he often speculated on these trifles, standing idle in
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the streets) whence they came, or where they went, or
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whether, when the lips moved, one kind word was said
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of him in all the year, than did the Chimes themselves.
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Toby was not a casuist -- that he knew of, at least --
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and I don't mean to say that when he began to take
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to the Bells, and to knit up his first rough acquaint-
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ance with them into something of a closer and more
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delicate woof, he passed through these considerations
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one by one, or held any formal review or great field-
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day in his thoughts. But what I mean to say, and
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do say is, that as the functions of Toby's body, his
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digestive organs for example, did of their own cun-
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ning, and by a great many operations of which he
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was altogether ignorant, and the knowledge of which
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would have astonished him very much, arrive at a cer-
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tain end; so his mental faculties, without his privity
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or concurrence, set all these wheels and springs in
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motion, with a thousand others, when they worked to
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bring about his liking for the Bells.
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And though I had said his love, I would not have
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recalled the word, though it would scarcely have ex-
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pressed his complicated feeling. For, being but a
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simple man, he invested them with a strange and
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solemn character. They were so mysterious, often
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heard and never seen; so high up, so far off, so full of
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such a deep strong melody, that he regarded them
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with a species of awe; and sometimes when he looked
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up at the dark arched windows in the tower, he half
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expected to be beckoned to by something which was
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not a Bell, and yet was what he had heard so often
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sounding in the Chimes. For all this. Toby scouted
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with indignation a certain flying rumour that the
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Chimes were haunted, as implying the possibility of
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their being connected with any Evil thing. In short,
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they were very often in his ears, and very often in his
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thoughts, but always in his good opinion; and he
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very often got such a crick in his neck by staring with
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his mouth wide open, at the steeple where they hung,
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that he was fain to take an extra trot or two, after-
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wards, to cure it.
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The very thing he was in the act of doing one cold
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day, when the last drowsy sound of Twelve o'clock,
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just struck, was humming like a melodious monster
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of a Bee, and not by any means a busy bee, all
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through the steeple!
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'Dinner-time, eh!' said Toby, trotting up and down
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before the church. 'Ah!'
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Toby's nose was very red, and his eyelids were very
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red, and he winked very much, and his shoulders were
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very near his ears, and his legs were very stiff, and
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altogether he was evidently a long way upon the
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frosty side of cool.
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'Dinner-time, eh!' repeated Toby, using his right-
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hand muffler like an infantine boxing-glove, and
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punishing his chest for being cold. 'Ah-h-h-hl'
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He took a silent trot, after that, for a minute or
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two.
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'There's nothing,' said Toby, breaking forth
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afresh -- but here he stopped short in his trot, and with
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a face of great interest and some alarm, felt his nose
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carefully all the way up. It was but a little way
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(not being much of a nose) and he had soon finished.
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'I thought it was gone,' said Toby, trotting off
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again. 'It's all right, however. I am sure I
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couldn't blame it if it was to go. It has precious
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hard service of it in the bitter weather, and precious
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little to look forward to; for I don't take snuff my-
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self. It's a good deal tried, poor creetur, at the best
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of times; for when it does get hold of a pleasant whiff
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or so (which an't too often), it's generally from
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somebody else's dinner, a-coming home from the
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baker's.'
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The reflection reminded him of that other reflec-
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tion, which he had left unfinished
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'There's nothing,' said Toby, 'more regular in its
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coming round than dinner-time, and nothing less
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regular in its coming round than dinner. That's the
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great difference between 'em. It's took me a long
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time to find it out. I wonder whether it would be
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worth any gentleman's while now, to buy that obser-
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wation for the Papers; or the Parliament!'
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Toby was only joking, for he gravely shook his
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head in self-depreciation.
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'Why! Lord!' said Toby. 'The Papers is full of
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obserwations as it is; and so's the Parliament.
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Here's last week's paper, now'; taking a very dirty
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one from his pocket, and holding it from him at arm's
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length; 'full of obserwations! Full of obserwations!
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I like to know the news as well as any man,' said
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Toby, slowly; folding it a little smaller, and putting
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it in his pocket again; 'but it almost goes against the
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grain with me to read a paper now. It frightens me
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almost. I don't know what we poor people are com-
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ing to. Lord send we may be coming to something
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better in the New Year nigh upon us!'
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'Why, father, father!' said a pleasant voice, hard
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by.
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But Toby, not hearing it, continued to trot back-
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wards and forwards; musing as he went, and talking
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to himself.
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'It seems as if we can't go right, or do right, or be
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righted,' said Toby. 'I hadn't much schooling, my-
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self, when I was young; and I can't make out whether
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we have any business on the face of the earth, or not.
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Sometimes I think we must have -- a little; and some-
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times I think we must be intruding. I get so puzzled
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sometimes that I am not even able to make up my
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mind whether there is any good at all in us, or whether
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we are born bad. We seem to be dreadful things;
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we seem to give a deal of trouble; we are always being
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complained of and guarded against. One way or
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other, we fill the papers. Talk of a New Year!'
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said Toby, mournfully. 'I can bear up as well as
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another man at most times; better than a good many,
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for I am as strong as a lion, and all men an't; but
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supposing it should really be that we have no right
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to a New Year -- supposing we really are intruding --'
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'Why, father, father!' said the pleasant voice again.
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Toby heard it this time; started; stopped; and
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shortening his sight, which had been directed a long
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way off as seeking for enlightenment in the very
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heart of the approaching year, found himself face
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to face with his own child, and looking close into
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her eyes.
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Bright eyes they were. Eyes that would bear a
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world of looking in, before their depth was fathomed.
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Dark eyes, that reflected back the eyes which searched
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them; not flashingly, or at the owner's will, but with
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a clear, calm, honest, patient radiance, claiming kin-
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dred with that light which Heaven called into being
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Eyes that were beautiful and true, and beaming with
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Hope. With Hope so young and fresh; with Hope
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so buoyant, vigorous, and bright, despite the twenty
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years of work and poverty on which they had looked
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that they became a voice to Trotty Veck, and said.
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'I think we have some business here -- a littlel'
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Trotty kissed the lips belonging to the eyes, and
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squeezed the blooming face between his hands.
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'Why, Pet,' said Trotty. 'What's to do? I
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didn't expect you to-day, Meg.'
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'Neither did I expect to come, father,' cried the
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girl, nodding her head and smiling as she spoke.
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'But here I am! And not alone; not alone!'
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'Why you don't mean to say,' observed Trotty,
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looking curiously at a covered basket which she car-
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ried in her hand, 'that you --'
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'Smell it, father dear,' said Meg. 'Only smell it!'
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Trotty was going to lift up the cover at once, in a
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great hurry, when she gaily interposed her hand.
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'No, no, no,' said Meg, with the glee of a child.
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'Lengthen it out a little. Let me just lift up the
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corner; just the lit-tle ti-ny cor-ner, vou know,' said
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Meg, suiting the action to the word with the utmost
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gentleness, and speaking very softly, as if she were
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afraid of being overheard by something inside the
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basket; 'there. Now. What's that?'
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Toby took the shortest possible sniff at the edge of
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the basket, and cried out in a rapture:
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'Why, it's hot!'
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'It's burning hot!' cried Meg. 'Ha, ha, ha! It's
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scalding hot!'
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'Ha, ha, ha!' roared Toby, with a sort of kick.
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'It's scalding hot.'
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'But what is it, father?' said Meg. 'Come. You
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haven't guessed what it is. And you must guess
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what it is. I can't think of taking it out, till you
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guess what it is. Don't be in such a hurry! Wait a
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minute! A little bit more of the cover. Now guess!'
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Meg was in a perfect fright lest he should guess
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right too soon; shrinking away, as she held the basket
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towards him; curling up her pretty shoulders; stop-
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ping her ear with her hand, as if by so doing she
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could keep the right word out of Toby's lips; and
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laughing softly the whole time.
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Meanwhile Toby, putting a hand on each knee,
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bent down his nose to the basket, and took a long
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inspiration at the lid; the grin upon his withered face
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|
expanding in the process, as if he were inhaling
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laughing gas.
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'Ah! It's very nice,' said Toby. 'It an't -- I
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suppose it an't Polonies?'
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'No, no, no!' cried Meg, delighted. 'Nothing like
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Polonies!'
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'No,' said Toby, after another sniff. 'It's -- it's
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mellower than Polonies. It's very nice. It improves
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every moment. It's too decided for Trotters. An't,
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|
it?'
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Meg was in an ecstasy. He could not have gone
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wider of the mark than Trotters -- except Polonies.
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'Liver?' said Toby, communing with himself. 'No.
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There's a mildness about it that don't answer to liver.
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Pettitoes? No. It an't faint enough for pettitoes.
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It wants the stringiness of Cock's heads. And I
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know it an't sausages. I'll tell you what it is. It's
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chitterlings!'
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'No, it an't!' cried Meg, in a burst of delight. 'No,
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it an't!'
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'Why, what am I a-thinking of!' said Toby, sud-
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|
denly recovering a position as near the perpendicular
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as it was possible for him to assume. 'I shall forget
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my own name next. It's tripe!'
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Tripe it was; and Meg, in high joy, protested he
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should say, in half a minute more, it was the best
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tripe ever stewed.
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'And so,' said Meg, busying herself exultingly
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|
with the basket, 'I'll lay the cloth at once, father, for
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I have brought the tripe in a basin, and tied the basin
|
|
up in a pocket-handkerchief; and if I like to be proud
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|
for once, and spread that for a cloth, and call it a
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|
cloth, there's no law to prevent me; is there, father?'
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|
'Not that I know of, my dear,' said Toby. 'But
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they're always a-bringing up some new law or other.'
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|
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'And according to what I was reading you in the
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|
paper the other day, father; what the Judge said, you
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know; we poor people are supposed to know them all
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|
Ha, ha! What a mistale! My goodness me, how
|
|
clever they think us!'
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'Yes, my dear,' cried Trotty; 'and they'd be very
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|
fond of any one of us that did know 'em all. He'd
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|
grow fat upon the work he'd get, that man, and be
|
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popular with the gentle-folks in his neighbourhood.
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|
Very much so!'
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|
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|
'He'd eat his dinner with an appetite, whoever he
|
|
was, if it smelt like this,' said Meg, cheerfully
|
|
'Make haste, for there's a hot potato besides. and half
|
|
a pint of fresh-drawn beer in a bottle. Where will
|
|
you dine, father? On the Post, or on the Steps?
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|
Dear, dear, how grand we are. Two places to choose
|
|
from!'
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|
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|
'The steps to-day, my Pct,' said Trotty. 'Steps in
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|
dry weather. Post in wet. There's a greater con-
|
|
veniency in the steps at all times, because of the sit-
|
|
ting down; but they're rheumatic in the damp.
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|
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|
'Then here,' said Meg, clapping her hands, after a
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|
moment's bustle; 'here it is, all ready! And beautiful
|
|
it looks! Come, father. Come!'
|
|
|
|
Since his discovery of the contents of the basket,
|
|
Trotty had been standing looking at her -- and had
|
|
been speaking too -- in an abstracted manner, which
|
|
showed that though she was the object of his thoughts
|
|
and eyes, to the exclusion even of tripe, he neither saw
|
|
nor thought about her as she was at that moment, but
|
|
had before him some imaginary rough sketch or
|
|
drama of her future life. Roused, now, by her cheer-
|
|
ful summons, he shook off a melancholy shake of the
|
|
head which was just coming upon him, and trotted to
|
|
her side. As she was stooping to sit down, the Chimes
|
|
rang.
|
|
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|
'Amen!' said Trotty, pulling off his hat and look-
|
|
ing up towards them.
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|
|
|
'Amen to the Bells, father?' cried Meg.
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|
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|
'They broke in like a grace, my dear,' said Trotty,
|
|
taking his seat. 'They'd say a good one, I am sure,
|
|
if they could. Many's the kind thing they say to
|
|
me.'
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|
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|
'The Bells do, father!' laughed Meg, as she set the
|
|
basin, and a knife and fork before him. 'Well!'
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|
|
|
'Seem to, my Pet,' said Trotty, falling to with
|
|
great vigour. 'And where's the difference? If I
|
|
hear 'em, what does it matter whether they speak it
|
|
or not? Why bless you, my dear,' said Toby, point-
|
|
ing at the tower with his fork, and becoming more
|
|
animated under the influence of dinner, 'how often
|
|
have I heard them bells say "Toby Veck, Toby Veck,
|
|
keep a good heart, Toby! Toby Veck, Toby Veck,
|
|
keep a good heart, Toby!" A million times? More!'
|
|
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|
'Well, I never!' cried Meg.
|
|
|
|
She had, though -- over and over again. For it was
|
|
Toby's constant topic.
|
|
|
|
'When things is very bad,' said Trotty; 'very bad
|
|
indeed, I mean; almost at the worst; then it's "Toby
|
|
Veck, Toby Veck, job coming soon, Toby! Toby
|
|
Veck, Toby Veck, job coming soon, Toby! That
|
|
way.'
|
|
|
|
'And it comes -- at last, father,' said Meg, with a
|
|
touch of sadness in her pleasant voice.
|
|
|
|
'Always,' answered the unconscious Toby. 'Never
|
|
fails.'
|
|
|
|
While this discourse was holding, Trotty made no
|
|
pause in his attack upon the savoury meat before
|
|
him, but cut and ate, and cut and drank, and cut and
|
|
chewed, and dodged about, from tripe to hot potato,
|
|
and from hot potato back again to tripe, with an
|
|
unctuous and unflagging relish. But happening now
|
|
to look all round the street -- in case anybody should
|
|
be beckoning from any door or window, for a porter --
|
|
his eyes, in coming back again, encountered Meg; sit-
|
|
ting opposite to him, with her arms folded: and
|
|
only busy in watching his progress with a smile of
|
|
bappiness.
|
|
|
|
'Why, Lord forgive me!' said Trotty, dropping his
|
|
knife and fork. 'My dove! Meg! Why didn't you
|
|
tell me what a beast I was?'
|
|
|
|
'Father?'
|
|
|
|
'Sitting here,' said Trotty, in penitent explanation,
|
|
'cramming, and stuffing, and gorging myself; and
|
|
you before me there, never so much as breaking your
|
|
precious fast, not wanting to, when --'
|
|
|
|
'But I have broken it, father,' interposed his
|
|
daughter, laughing, 'all to bits. I have had my
|
|
dinner.'
|
|
|
|
'Nonsense,' said Trotty. 'Two dinners in one day!
|
|
It an't possible! You might as well tell me that two
|
|
New Year's days will come together, or that I have
|
|
had a gold head all my life, and never changed it.'
|
|
|
|
'I have had my dinner, father, for all that,' said
|
|
Meg, coming nearer to him. 'And if you'll go on
|
|
with yours, I'll tell you how and where; and how
|
|
your dinner came to be bought; and -- and something
|
|
else besides.'
|
|
|
|
Toby still appeared incredulous I but she looked
|
|
into his face with her clear eyes, and laying her hand
|
|
upon his shoulder, motioned him to go on while the
|
|
meat was hot. So Trotty took up his knife and fork
|
|
again, and went to work. But much more slowly
|
|
than before, and shaking his head, as if he were not
|
|
at all pleased with himself.
|
|
|
|
'I had my dinner, father,' said Meg, after a little
|
|
hesitation, 'with -- with Richard. His dinner-time
|
|
was early; and as he brought his dinner with him
|
|
when he came to see me, we -- we had it together,
|
|
father.'
|
|
|
|
Trotty took a little beer, and smacked his lips.
|
|
Then he said 'Oh!' -- because she waited.
|
|
|
|
'And Richard says, father --' Meg resumed.
|
|
Then stopped.
|
|
|
|
'What does Richard say, Meg?' asked Toby.
|
|
|
|
'Richard says, father --' another stoppage.
|
|
|
|
'Richard's a long time saying it,' said Toby.
|
|
|
|
'He says then, father,' Meg continued, lifting up
|
|
her eyes at last, and speaking in a tremble, but quite
|
|
plainly; 'another year is nearly gone, and where is
|
|
the use of waiting on from year to year, when it is
|
|
so unlikely we shall ever be better off than we are
|
|
now? He says we are poor now, father, and we shall
|
|
be poor then, but we are young now, and years will
|
|
make us old before we know it. He says that if we
|
|
wait: people in our condition: until we see our way
|
|
quite clearly, the way will be a narrow one indeed --
|
|
the common way. the Grave, father.'
|
|
|
|
A bolder man than Trotty Veck must needs have
|
|
drawn upon his boldness largely, to deny it. Trotty
|
|
held his peace.
|
|
|
|
'And how hard, father, to grow old, and die, and
|
|
think we might have cheered and helped each other!
|
|
How hard in all our lives to love each other; and to
|
|
grieve, apart, to see each other working, changing,
|
|
growing old and grey. Even if I got the better of
|
|
it, and forgot him (which I never could), oh father
|
|
dear, how hard to have a heart so full as mine is now
|
|
and live to have it slowly drained out every drop
|
|
without the recollection of one happy moment of a
|
|
womans life, to stay behind and comfort me, and
|
|
make me better!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty sat quite still. Meg dried her eyes, and
|
|
said more gaily: that is to say, with here a laugh,
|
|
and there a sob, and here a laugh and sob together:
|
|
|
|
'So Richard says, father; as his work was yesterday
|
|
made certain for some time to come, and as I love
|
|
him, and have loved him full three years -- ah! longer
|
|
than that, if he knew it! -- will I marry him on New
|
|
Year's Day; the best and happiest day, he says, in
|
|
the whole year, and one that is almost sure to bring
|
|
good fortune with it. It's a short notice, father
|
|
-- isn't it? -- but I haven't my fortune to be settled
|
|
or my wedding dresses to be made, like the great
|
|
ladies, father, have I? And he said so much, and
|
|
said it in his way; so strong and earnest, and all
|
|
the time so kind and gentle; that I said I'd come
|
|
and talk to you, father. And as they paid the money
|
|
for that work of mine this morning (unexpectedly,
|
|
I am sure!) and as you have fared very poorly for
|
|
a whole week, and as I couldn't help wishing there
|
|
should be something to make this day a sort of
|
|
holiday to you as well as a dear and happy day to
|
|
me, father, I made a little treat and brought it to
|
|
surprise you.'
|
|
|
|
'And see how he leaves it cooling on the step!'
|
|
said another voice.
|
|
|
|
It was the voice of this same Richard. who had
|
|
come upon them unobserved, and stood before the
|
|
father and daughter; looking down upon them with
|
|
a face as glowing as the iron on which his stout
|
|
sledge-hammer daily rung. A handsome, well-made
|
|
powerful youngster he was; with eyes that sparkled
|
|
like the red-hot droppings from a furnace fire; black
|
|
hair that curled about his swarthy temples rarely;
|
|
and a smile -- a smile that bore out Meg's eulogium
|
|
on his style of Conversation.
|
|
|
|
'See how he leaves it cooling on the step!' said
|
|
Richard. 'Meg don't know what he likes. Not she!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty, all action and enthusiasm, immediately
|
|
reached up his hand to Richard, and was going to
|
|
address him in a great hurry, when the house-door
|
|
opened without any warning, and a footman very
|
|
nearly put his foot into the tripe.
|
|
|
|
'Out of the vays here, will you! You must always
|
|
go and be a-settin' on our steps, must you! You
|
|
can't go and give a turn to none of the neighbours
|
|
never can't you! Will you clear the road, or won't
|
|
you?'
|
|
|
|
Strictly speaking, the last question was irrelevant,
|
|
as they had already done it.
|
|
|
|
'What's the matter, what's the matter!' said the
|
|
gentleman for whom the door was opened; coming
|
|
out of the house at that kind of light-heavy pace
|
|
-- that peculiar compromise between a walk and a
|
|
jog-trot -- with which a gentleman upon the smooth
|
|
down-hill of life, wearing creaking boots, a watch-
|
|
chain, and clean linen, may come out of his house:
|
|
not only without any abatement of his dignity, but
|
|
with an expression of having important and wealthy
|
|
engagements elsewhere. 'What's the matter! What's
|
|
the matter!'
|
|
|
|
'You're always a-being begged, and prayed, upon
|
|
your bended knees you are,' said the footman with
|
|
great emphasis to Trotty Veck, 'to let our door-steps
|
|
be. Why don't you let 'em be? CAN'T you let 'em
|
|
be?'
|
|
|
|
'There! That'll do, that'll do!' said the gentle-
|
|
man. 'Halloa there! Porter!' beckoning with his
|
|
head to Trotty Veck. 'Come here. What's that?
|
|
Your dinner?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir,' said Trotty, leaving it behind him in
|
|
a corner.
|
|
|
|
'Don't leave it there,' exclaimed the gentleman.
|
|
'Bring it here, bring it here. So! This is your
|
|
dinner, is it?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir,' repeated Trotty, looking with a fixed
|
|
eye and a watery mouth, at the piece of tripe he
|
|
had reserved for a last delicious tit-bit; which the
|
|
gentleman was now turning over and over on the
|
|
end of the fork.
|
|
|
|
Two other gentlemen had come out with him.
|
|
One was a low-spirited gentleman of middle age,
|
|
of a meagre habit, and a disconsolate face who kept
|
|
his hands continually in the pockets of his scanty
|
|
pepper-and-salt trousers; very large and dog's-eared
|
|
from that custom; and was not particularly well
|
|
brushed or washed. The other, a full-sized, sleek,
|
|
well-conditioned gentleman, in a blue coat with bright
|
|
buttons, and a white cravat. This gentleman had
|
|
a very red face, as if an undue proportion of the
|
|
blood in his body were squeezed up into his head;
|
|
which perhaps accounted for his having also the ap-
|
|
pearance of being rather cold about the heart.
|
|
|
|
He who had Toby's meat upon the fork, called
|
|
to the first one by the name of Filer; and they both
|
|
drew near together. Mr. Filer being exceedingly
|
|
short-sighted, was obliged to go so close to the rem-
|
|
nant of Toby's dinner before he could make out what
|
|
it was, that Toby's heart leaped up into his mouth.
|
|
But Mr. Filer didn't eat it.
|
|
|
|
'This is a description of animal food, Alderman,'
|
|
said Filer, making little punches in it, with a pencil-
|
|
case, 'commonly known to the labouring population
|
|
of this country, by the name of tripe.'
|
|
|
|
The Alderman laughed, and winked; for he was
|
|
a merry fellow, Alderman Cute. Oh, and a sly
|
|
fellow too! A knowing fellow. Up to everything.
|
|
Not to be imposed upon. Deep in the people's
|
|
hearts! He knew them, Cute did. I believe you!
|
|
|
|
'But who eats tripe?' said Mr. Filer, looking round.
|
|
'Tripe is without an exception the least economical,
|
|
and the most wasteful article of consumption that
|
|
the markets of this country can by possibility pro-
|
|
duce. The loss upon a pound of tripe has been found
|
|
to be, in the boiling, seven-eights of a fifth more
|
|
than the loss upon a pound of any other animal sub-
|
|
stance whatever. Tripe is more expensive, properly
|
|
understood, than the hothouse pineapple. Taking
|
|
into account the number of animals slaughtered yearly
|
|
within the bills of mortality alone; and forming a
|
|
low estimate of the quantity of tripe which the car-
|
|
casses of those animals, reasonably well butchered,
|
|
would yield; I find that the waste on that amount of
|
|
tripe, if boiled, would victual a garrison of five hun-
|
|
dred men for five months of thirty-one days each,
|
|
and a February over. The Waste, the Waste!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty stood aghast, and his legs shook under him.
|
|
He seemed to have starved a garrison of five hundred
|
|
men with his own hand.
|
|
|
|
'Who eats tripe?' said Mr. Filer, warmly. 'Who
|
|
eats tripe?'
|
|
|
|
Trotty made a miserable bow.
|
|
|
|
'You do, do you?' said Mr. Filer. 'Then I'll tell
|
|
you something. You snatch your tripe, my friend,
|
|
out of the mouths of widows and orphans.'
|
|
|
|
'I hope not, sir,' said Trotty, faintly. 'I'd sooner
|
|
die of want!'
|
|
|
|
'Divide the amount of tripe before mentioned,
|
|
Alderman,' said Mr. Filer, 'by the estimated number
|
|
of existing widows and orphans, and the result will
|
|
be one pennyweight of tripe to each. Not a grain
|
|
is left for that man. Consequently, he's a robber.'
|
|
|
|
Trotty was so shocked, that it gave him no concern
|
|
to see the Alderman finish the tripe himself. It was
|
|
a relief to get rid of it, anyhow.
|
|
|
|
'And what do you say?' asked the Alderman
|
|
jocosely, of the red-faced gentleman in the blue coat.
|
|
'You have heard friend Filer. What do you say?'
|
|
|
|
'What's it possible to say?' returned the gentle-
|
|
man. 'What is to be said? Who can take any in-
|
|
terest in a fellow like this,' meaning Trotty; 'in such
|
|
degenerate times as these? Look at him! What an
|
|
object! The good old times, the grand old times,
|
|
the great old times! Those were the times for a
|
|
bold peasantry, and all that sort of thing. Those
|
|
were the times for every sort of thing, in fact. There's
|
|
nothing now-a-days. Ah!' sighed the red-faced gen-
|
|
tleman. 'The good old times, the good old timesl'
|
|
|
|
The gentleman didn't specify what particular times
|
|
he alluded to; nor did he say whether he objected
|
|
to the present times; from a distinterested conscious-
|
|
ness that they had done nothing very remarkable in
|
|
producing himself.
|
|
|
|
'The good old times, the good old times,' repeated
|
|
the gentleman. 'What times they were! They were
|
|
the only times. It's no use talking about any other
|
|
times, or discussing what the people are in these times
|
|
You don't call these, times, do you? I don't. Look
|
|
into Strutt's Costumes, and see what a Porter used
|
|
to be, in any of the good old English reigns.'
|
|
|
|
'He hadn't, in his very best circumstances, a shirt
|
|
to his back, or a stocking to his foot; and there was
|
|
scarcely a vegetable in all England for him to put
|
|
into his mouth,' said Mr. Filer. 'I can prove it,
|
|
by tables.'
|
|
|
|
But still the red-faced gentleman extolled the good
|
|
old times, the grand old times, the great old times.
|
|
No matter what anybody else said, he still went
|
|
turning round and round in one set form of words
|
|
concerning them; as a poor squirrel turns and turns
|
|
in its revolving cage; touching the mechanism, and
|
|
trick of which, it has probably quite as distinct per-
|
|
ceptions, as ever this red-faced gentleman had of his
|
|
deceased Millennium.
|
|
|
|
It is possible that poor Trotty's faith in these very
|
|
vague Old Times was not entirely destroyed, for he
|
|
felt vague enough, at that moment. One thing, how-
|
|
ever, was plain to him, in the midst of his distress;
|
|
to wit, that however these gentlemen might differ in
|
|
details, his misgivings of that morning, and of many
|
|
other mornings, were well founded. 'No, no. We
|
|
can't go right or do right,' thought Trotty in despair.
|
|
'There is no good in us. We are born bad!'
|
|
|
|
But Trotty had a father's heart within him; which
|
|
had somehow got into his breast in spite of this de-
|
|
cree; and he could not bear that Meg, in the blush of
|
|
her brief joy, should have her fortune read by these
|
|
wise gentlemen. 'God help her,' thought poor Trotty.
|
|
'She will know it soon enough.'
|
|
|
|
He anxiously signed, therefore, to the young smith,
|
|
to take her away. But he was so busy, talking to
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her softly at a little distance, that he only became
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conscious of this desire, simultaneously with Alder-
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man Cute. Now, the Alderman had not yet had his
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say, but he was a philosopher, too -- practical, though!
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Oh, very practical -- and, as he had no idea of losing
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any portion of his audience, he cried 'Stop!'
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'Now, you know,' said the Alderman, addressing
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his two friends, with a self-complacent smile upon
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his face which was habitual to him, 'I am a plain
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|
man, and a practical man; and I go to work in a
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|
plain practical way. That's my way. There is not
|
|
the least mystery or difficulty in dealing with this
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|
sort of people if you only understand 'em, and can
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|
talk to 'em in their own manner. Now, you Porter!
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|
Don't you ever tell me, or anybody else, my friend,
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|
that vou haven't always enough to eat, and of the
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|
best: because I know better. I have tasted your
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|
tripe, you know, and you can't "chaff" me. You
|
|
understand what "chaff" means, eh? That's the
|
|
right word, isn't it? Ha, ha, ha! Lord bless you,'
|
|
said the Alderman, turning to his friends again, 'it's
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the easiest thing on earth to deal with this sort of
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|
people, if you understand 'em.'
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|
Famous man for the common people, Alderman
|
|
Cute! Never out of temper with them! Easy, af-
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|
fable, joking, knowing gentleman!
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'You see, my friend,' pursued the Alderman,
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|
'there's a great deal of nonsense talked about Want
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|
-- "hard up", you know; that's the phrase, isn't it?
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ha! ha! ha! and I intend to Put It Down. There's
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|
a certain amount of cant in vogue about Starvation,
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|
and I mean to Put It Down. That's all! Lord
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|
bless you', said the Alderman, turning to his friends
|
|
again, you may Put Down anything among this sort
|
|
of people, if you only know the way to set about it.'
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Trotty took Meg's hand and drew it through his
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|
arm. He didn't seem to know what he was doing
|
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though.
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|
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|
'Your daughter, eh?' said the Alderman, chucking
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|
her familiarly under the chin.
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|
Always affable with the working classes, Alderman
|
|
Cute! Knew what pleased them! Not a bit of
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|
pride.
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|
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|
'Where's her mother?' asked the worthy gentle-
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|
man.
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'Dead,' said Toby. 'Her mother got up linen; and
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was called to Heaven when She was born.'
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'Not to get up linen there, I suppose,' remarked
|
|
the Alderman pleasantly.
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|
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|
Toby might or might not have been able to sep-
|
|
arate his wife in Heaven from her old pursuits. But
|
|
query: If Mrs. Alderman Cute had gone to Heaven,
|
|
would Mr. Alderman Cute have pictured her as hold-
|
|
ing any state or station there?
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|
|
|
'And you're making love to her, are you?' said
|
|
Cute to the young smith.
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|
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|
'Yes,' returned Richard quickly, for he was nettled
|
|
by the question. 'And we are going to be married
|
|
on New Year's Day.'
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|
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|
'What do you mean!' cried Filer sharply. 'Mar-
|
|
ried!'
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|
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|
'Why, yes, we're thinking of it, Master,' said
|
|
Richard. 'We're rather in a hurry, you see, in case
|
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it should be Put Down first.'
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'Ah!' cried Filer, with a groan. 'Put that down
|
|
indeed, Alderman, and you'll do something. Mar-
|
|
ried! Married!! The ignorance of the first prin-
|
|
ciples of political economy on the part of these people;
|
|
their improvidence; their wickedness; is, by Heavens
|
|
enough to -- Now look at that couple, will you!'
|
|
|
|
Well? They were worth looking at. And mar-
|
|
riage seemed as reasonable and fair a deed as they
|
|
need have in contemplation.
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|
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|
'A man may live to be as old as Methuselah,' sald
|
|
Mr. Filer, 'and may labour all his life for the benefit
|
|
of such people as those; and may heap up facts on
|
|
figures, facts on figures, facts on figures, mountains
|
|
high and dry; and he can no more hope to persuade
|
|
'em that they have no right or business to be mar-
|
|
ried, than he can hope to persuade 'em that they
|
|
have no earthly right or business to be born. And
|
|
that we know they haven't. We reduced it to a
|
|
mathematical certainty long ago!
|
|
|
|
Alderman Cute was mightily diverted, and laid his
|
|
right forefinger on the side of his nose, as much as
|
|
to say to both his friends, 'Observe me, will you!
|
|
Keep yohur eye on the practical man!' -- and called
|
|
Meg to him.
|
|
|
|
'Come here, my girl!' said Alderman Cute.
|
|
|
|
The young blood of her lover had been mount-
|
|
ing, wrathfully, within the last few minutes; and he
|
|
was indisposed to let her come. But, setting a con-
|
|
straint upon himself, he came forward with a stride
|
|
as Meg approached, and stood beside her. Trotty
|
|
kept her hand within his arm still, but looked from
|
|
face to face as wildly as a sleeper in a dream.
|
|
|
|
'Now, I'm going to give you a word or two of
|
|
good advice, my girl,' said the Alderman, in his nice
|
|
easy way. 'It's my place to give advice, you know,
|
|
because I'm a Justice. You know I'm a Justice,
|
|
don't you?'
|
|
|
|
Meg timidly said, 'Yes.' But everybody knew
|
|
Alderman Cute was a Justice! Oh dear, so active
|
|
a Justice always! Who such a mote of brightness
|
|
in the public eye, as Cute!
|
|
|
|
'You are going to be married, you say,' pursued
|
|
the Alderman. 'Very unbecoming and indelicate in
|
|
one of your sex! But never mind that. After you
|
|
are married, you'll quarrel with your husband and
|
|
come to be a distressed wife. You may think not-
|
|
but you will, because I tell you so. Now, I give
|
|
you fair warning, that I have made up my mind to
|
|
Put distressed wives Down. So, don't be brought be-
|
|
fore me. You'll have children -- boys. Those boys
|
|
will grow up bad, of course, and run wild in the
|
|
streets, without shoes and stockings. Mind my young
|
|
friend! I'll convict 'em summarily, every one, for I
|
|
am determined to Put boys without shoes and stock-
|
|
ings, Down. Perhaps your husband will die young
|
|
(most likely) and leave you with a baby. Then
|
|
you'll be turned out of doors, and wander up and
|
|
down the streets. Now, don't wander near me, my
|
|
dear, for I am resolved to Put all wandering mothers
|
|
Down. All young mothers, of all sorts and kinds,
|
|
it's my determination to Put Down. Don't think to
|
|
plead illness as an excuse with me; or babies as an
|
|
excuse with me; for all sick persons and young chil-
|
|
dren (I hope you know the church-service, but I'm
|
|
afraid not) I am determined to Put Down. And if
|
|
you attempt, desperately, and ungratefullv. and im-
|
|
piously, and fraudulently attempt, to drown yourself,
|
|
or hang yourself, I'll have no pity for you, for I have
|
|
made up my mind to Put all suicide Down! If there
|
|
is one thing,' said the Alderman, with his self-satisfied
|
|
smile, 'on which I can be said to have made up my
|
|
mind more than on another, it is to Put suicide Down.
|
|
So don't try it on. That's the phrase, isn't it? Ha,
|
|
ha! now we understand each other.'
|
|
|
|
Toby knew not whether to be agonised or glad, to
|
|
see that Meg had turned a deadly white, and dropped
|
|
her lover's hand.
|
|
|
|
'And as for you, you dull dog,' said the Alderman,
|
|
turning with even increased cheerfulness and urbanity
|
|
to the young smith, 'what are you thinking of being
|
|
married for? What do you want to be married for,
|
|
you silly fellow? If I was a fine, young, strapping
|
|
chap like you, I should be ashamed of being milksop
|
|
enough to pin myself to a woman's apron-strings!
|
|
Why, she'll be an old woman before you're a middle-
|
|
aged man! And a pretty figure you'll cut then, with
|
|
a draggle-tailed wife and a crowd of squalling chil-
|
|
dren crying after you wherever you go!'
|
|
|
|
0, he knew how to banter the common people,
|
|
Alderman Cute!
|
|
|
|
'There! Go along with you,' said the Alderman,
|
|
'and repent. Don't make such a fool of yourself as
|
|
to get married on New Year's Day. You'll think
|
|
very differently of it, long before next New Year's
|
|
Day; a trim young fellow like you, with all the girls
|
|
looking after you. There! Go along with you!'
|
|
|
|
They went along. Not arm in arm, or hand in
|
|
hand, or interchanging bright glances; but, she in
|
|
tears; he gloomy and down-looking. Were these the
|
|
hearts that had so lately made old Toby's leap up
|
|
from its faintness? No, no. The Alderman (a bless-
|
|
ing on his head!) had Put them Down.
|
|
|
|
'As you happen to be here,' said the Alderman to
|
|
Toby, 'you shall carry a letter for me. Can you be
|
|
quick? You're an old man.'
|
|
|
|
Toby, who had been looking after Meg, quite
|
|
stupidly, made shift to murmur out that he was very
|
|
quick, and very strong.
|
|
|
|
'How old are you?' inquired the Alderman.
|
|
|
|
'I'm over sixty, sir,' said Toby.
|
|
|
|
'O! This man's a great deal past the average,
|
|
you know,' cried Mr. Filer, breaking in as if his
|
|
patience would bear some trying, but this really was
|
|
carrying matters a little too far.
|
|
|
|
'I feel I'm intruding, sir,' said Toby. 'I -- I mis-
|
|
doubted it this morning. Oh dear me!'
|
|
|
|
The Alderman cut him short by giving him the
|
|
letter from his pocket. Toby would have got a
|
|
shilling too; but Mr. Filer clearly showing that in
|
|
that case he would rob a certain given number of
|
|
persons of ninepence-halfpenny a-piece, he only got
|
|
sixpence; and thought himself very well off to get
|
|
that.
|
|
|
|
Then the Alderman gave an arm to each of his
|
|
friends, and walked off in high feather; but, he im-
|
|
mediately came hurrying back alone, as if he had
|
|
forgotten something
|
|
|
|
'Porter!' said the Alderman.
|
|
|
|
'Sir!' said Toby.
|
|
|
|
'Take care of that daughter of yours. She's much
|
|
too handsome.'
|
|
|
|
'Even her good looks are stolen from somebody or
|
|
other I suppose,' thought Toby, looking at the six-
|
|
pence in his hand, and thinking of the tripe. 'She's
|
|
been and robbed five hundred ladies of a bloom a-
|
|
piece, I shouldn't wonder. It's very dreadful!'
|
|
|
|
'She's much too handsome, my man,' repeated the
|
|
Alderman. 'The chances are, that she'll come to no
|
|
good, I clearly see. Observe what I say. Take care
|
|
of her!' With which, he hurried off again.
|
|
|
|
'Wrong every way. Wrong every way!' said
|
|
Trotty, clasping his hands. 'Born bad. No business
|
|
here!'
|
|
|
|
The Chimes came clashing in upon him as he said
|
|
the words. Full, loud, and sounding -- but with no
|
|
encouragement. No, not a drop.
|
|
|
|
'The tune's changed,' cried the old man, as he
|
|
listened. 'There's not a word of all that fancy in
|
|
it. Why should there be? I have no business with
|
|
the New Year nor with the old one neither. Let
|
|
me die!'
|
|
|
|
Still the Bells, pealing forth their changes, made
|
|
the very air spin. Put 'em down, Put 'em down!
|
|
Good old Times, Good old Times! Facts and Fig-
|
|
ures, Facts and Figures! Put 'em down, Put 'em
|
|
down. If they said anything they said this, until
|
|
the brain of Toby reeled.
|
|
|
|
He pressed his bewildered head between his hands,
|
|
as if to keep it from splitting asunder. A well-timed
|
|
action, as it happened; for finding the letter in one
|
|
of them, and being by that means reminded of his
|
|
charge, he fell, mechanically, into his usual trot, and
|
|
trotted off.
|
|
|
|
THE SECOND QUARTER
|
|
|
|
The letter Toby had received from Alderman Cute,
|
|
was addressed to a great man in the great district
|
|
of the town. The greatest district of the town. It
|
|
must have been the greatest district of the town,
|
|
because it was commonly called "the world" by its
|
|
inhabitants.
|
|
|
|
The letter positively seemed heavier in Toby's
|
|
hand, than another letter. Not because the Alderman
|
|
had sealed it with a very large coat of arms and
|
|
no end of wax, but because of the weighty name on
|
|
the superscription, and the ponderous amount of gold
|
|
and silver with which it was associated.
|
|
|
|
'How different from us!' thought Toby, in all sim-
|
|
plicity and earnestness, as he looked at the direction.
|
|
'Divide the lively turtles in the bills of mortality, by
|
|
the number of gentlefolks able to buy 'em; and whose
|
|
share does he take but his own! As to snatching
|
|
tripe from anybody's mouth -- he'd scorn it!'
|
|
|
|
With the involuntary homage due to such an ex-
|
|
alted character, Toby interposed a corner of his
|
|
apron between the letter and his fingers
|
|
|
|
'His children,' said Trotty, and a mist rose before
|
|
his eyes; 'his daughters -- Gentlemen may win their
|
|
hearts and marry them; they may be happy wives
|
|
and mothers; they may be handsome like my dar-
|
|
ling M -- e --'
|
|
|
|
He couldn't finish the name. The final letter
|
|
swelled in his throat, to the size of the whole
|
|
alphabet.
|
|
|
|
'Never mind,' thought Trotty. 'I know what I
|
|
mean. That's more than enough for me.' And with
|
|
this consolatory rumination, trotted on.
|
|
|
|
It was a hard frost, that day. The air was bracing,
|
|
crisp, and clear. The wintry sun, though powerless
|
|
for warmth, looked brightly down upon the ice it
|
|
was too weak to melt, and set a radiant glory there.
|
|
At other times, Trotty might have learned a poor
|
|
man's lesson from the wintry sun; but he was past
|
|
that, now.
|
|
|
|
The Year was Old, that day. The patient Year
|
|
had lived through the reproaches and misuses of its
|
|
slanderers, and faithfully performed its work. Spring,
|
|
summer, autumn, winter. It had laboured through
|
|
the destined round, and now laid down its weary
|
|
head to die. Shut out from hope, high impulse, active
|
|
happiness, itself, but active messenger of many joys
|
|
to others, it made appeal in its decline to have its
|
|
toiling days and patient hours remembered, and to die
|
|
in peace. Trotty might have read a poor man's alle-
|
|
gory in the fading year; but he was past that, now.
|
|
|
|
And only he? Or has the like appeal been ever
|
|
made, by seventy years at once upon an English
|
|
labourer's head, and made in vain!
|
|
|
|
The streets were full of motion, and the shops were
|
|
decked out gaily. The New Year, like an Infant
|
|
Heir to the whole world, was waited for, with wel-
|
|
comes, presents, and rejoicings. There were books
|
|
and toys for the New Year, glittering trinkets for the
|
|
New Year, dresses for the New Year, schemes of
|
|
fortune for the New Year; new inventions to beguile
|
|
it. Its life was parcelled out in almanacks and pocket-
|
|
books; the coming of its moons, and stars, and tides,
|
|
was known beforehand to the moment; all the work-
|
|
ings of its seasons in their days and nights, were
|
|
calculated with as much precision as Mr. Filer could
|
|
work sums in men and women.
|
|
|
|
The New Year, the New Year. Everywhere the
|
|
New Year! The Old Year was already looked upon
|
|
as dead; and its effects were selling cheap, like some
|
|
drowned mariner's aboard ship. Its patterns were
|
|
Last Year's, and going at a sacrifice, before its breath
|
|
was gone. Its treasures were mere dirt, beside the
|
|
riches of its unborn successor!
|
|
|
|
Trotty had no portion, to his thinking, in the New
|
|
Year or the Old.
|
|
|
|
'Put 'em down, Put 'em down! Facts and Fig-
|
|
ures, Facts and Figures! Good old Times, Good
|
|
old Times! Put 'em down, Put 'em down!' -- his trot
|
|
went to that measure, and would fit itself to noth-
|
|
ing else.
|
|
|
|
But, even that one, melancholy as it was, brought
|
|
him, in due time, to the end of his journey. To
|
|
the mansion of Sir Joseph Bowley, Member of
|
|
Parliament.
|
|
|
|
The door was opened by a Porter. Such a Porter!
|
|
Not of Toby's order. Quite another thing. His place
|
|
was the ticket though; not Toby's.
|
|
|
|
This Porter underwent some hard panting before
|
|
he could speak; having breathed himself by coming
|
|
incautiously out of his chair, without first taking
|
|
time to think about it and compose his mind. When
|
|
he had found his voice -- which it took him a long
|
|
time to do, for it was a long way off, and hidden
|
|
under a load of meat -- he said in a fat whisper,
|
|
|
|
'Who's it from?'
|
|
|
|
Toby told him.
|
|
|
|
'You're to take it in, yourself,' said the Porter
|
|
pointing to a room at the end of a long passage
|
|
opening from the hall. 'Everything goes straight
|
|
in, on this day of the year. You're not a bit too
|
|
soon: for, the carriage is at the door now, and they
|
|
have only come to town for a couple of hours, a'
|
|
purpose.'
|
|
|
|
Toby wiped his feet (which were quite dry already)
|
|
with great care, and took the way pointed out to
|
|
him; observing as he went that it was an awfully
|
|
grand house, but hushed and covered up, as if the
|
|
family were in the country. Knocking at the room-
|
|
door, he was told to enter from within; and doing
|
|
so found himself in a spacious library, where, at a
|
|
table strewn with files and papers, were a stately lady
|
|
in a bonnet; and a not very stately gentleman in
|
|
black who wrote from her dictation; while another,
|
|
and an older, and a much statelier gentleman, whose
|
|
hat and cane were on the table, walked up and down,
|
|
with one hand in his breast, and looked complacently
|
|
from time to time at his own picture -- a full length;
|
|
a very full length -- hanging over the fireplace.
|
|
|
|
'What is this?' said the last-named gentleman.
|
|
'Mr. Fish, will you have the goodness to attend?'
|
|
|
|
Mr. Fish begged pardon, and taking the letter from
|
|
Toby, handed it, with great respect.
|
|
|
|
'From Alderman Cute, Sir Joseph.'
|
|
|
|
'Is this all? Have you nothing else, Porter?' in-
|
|
quired Sir Joseph.
|
|
|
|
Toby replied in the negative.
|
|
|
|
'You have no bill or demand upon me -- my namo
|
|
is Bowley, Sir Joseph Bowley -- of any kind from
|
|
anybody, have you?' said Sir Joseph. 'If you have,
|
|
present it. There is a cheque-book by the side of
|
|
Mr. Fish. I allow nothing to be carried into the
|
|
New Year. Every description of account is settled
|
|
in this house at the close of the old one. So that
|
|
if death was to -- to --'
|
|
|
|
'To cut,' suggested Mr. Fish.
|
|
|
|
'To sever, sir,' returned Sir Joseph, with great asper-
|
|
ity, 'the cord of existence -- my affairs would be found,
|
|
I hope, in a state of preparation.'
|
|
|
|
'My dear Sir Joseph!' said the lady, who was greatly
|
|
younger than the gentleman. 'How shocking!'
|
|
|
|
'My lady Bowley,' returned Sir Joseph, flounder-
|
|
ing now and then, as in the great depth of his obser-
|
|
vations, 'at this season of the year we should think
|
|
of -- of -- ourselves. We should look into our -- our
|
|
accounts. We should feel that every return of so
|
|
eventful a period in human transactions, involves a
|
|
matter of deep moment between a man and his --
|
|
and his banker.'
|
|
|
|
Sir Joseph delivered these words as if he felt the
|
|
full morality of what he was saying; and desired that
|
|
even Trotty should have an opportunity of being
|
|
improved by such discourse. Possibly he had this
|
|
end before him in still forbearing to break the seal
|
|
of the letter, and in telling Trotty to wait where he
|
|
was, a minute.
|
|
|
|
'You were desiring Mr. Fish to say, my lady --'
|
|
observed Sir Joseph.
|
|
|
|
'Mr. Fish has said that, I believe,' returned his
|
|
lady, glancing at the letter. 'But, upon my word,
|
|
Sir Joseph, I don't think I can let it go after all.
|
|
It is so very dear.'
|
|
|
|
'What is dear!' inquired Sir Joseph.
|
|
|
|
'That Charity, my love. They only allow two
|
|
votes for a subscription of five pounds. Really
|
|
monstrous!'
|
|
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|
'My lady Bowley,' returned Sir Joseph, 'you sur-
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prise me. Is the luxury of feeling in proportion to
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the number of votes; or is it, to a rightly constituted
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mind, in proportion to the number of applicants, and
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the wholesome state of mind to which their canvas-
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sing reduces them? Is there no excitement of the
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purest kind in having two votes to dispose of among
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fifty people?'
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'Not to me, I acknowledge,' replied the lady. 'It
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bores one. Besides, one can't oblige one's acquaint-
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ance. But you are the Poor Man's Friend, you know,
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Sir Joseph. You think otherwise.'
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'I am the Poor Man's Friend,' observed Sir Joseph,
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glancing at the poor man present. 'As such I may
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be taunted. As such I have been taunted. But I
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|
ask no other title.'
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'Bless him for a noble gentleman!' thought Trotty.
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'I don't agree with Cute here, for instance,' said
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Sir Joseph, holding out the letter. 'I don't agree
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with the Filer party. I don't agree with any party.
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My friend the Poor Man, has no business with any-
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|
thing of that sort, and nothing of that sort has any
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|
business with him. My friend the Poor Man, in my
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|
district, is my business. No man or body of men
|
|
has any right to interfere between my friend and
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|
me. That is the ground I take. I assume a -- a
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|
paternal character towards my friend. I say, "My
|
|
good fellow, I will treat you paternally." '
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Toby listened with great gravity, and began to
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|
feel more comfortable.
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'Your only business, my good fellow,' pursued Sir
|
|
Joseph, looking abstractedly at Toby; 'your only
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|
business in life is with me. You needn't trouble
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|
yourself to think about anything. I will think for
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|
you; I know what is good for you; I am your per-
|
|
petual parent. Such is the dispensation of an all-wise
|
|
Providence! Now, the design of your creation is --
|
|
not that you should swill, and guzzle, and associate
|
|
your enjoyments, brutally, with food'; Toby thought
|
|
remorsefully of the tripe; 'but that you should feel
|
|
the Dignity of Labour. Go forth erect into the cheer-
|
|
ful morning air, and -- stop there. Live hard and tem-
|
|
perately, be respectful, exercise your self-denial, bring
|
|
up your family on next to nothing, pay your rent as
|
|
regularly as the clock strikes, be punctual in your
|
|
dealings (I set you a good example; you will find
|
|
Mr. Fish, my confidential secretary, with a cash-box
|
|
before him at all times); and you may trust me to
|
|
be your Friend and Father.'
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|
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|
'Nice children, indeed, Sir Joseph!' said the lady,
|
|
with a shudder. 'Rheumatisms, and fevers, and
|
|
crooked legs, and asthmas, and all kinds of horrors!'
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|
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|
'My lady,' returned Sir Joseph, with solemnity,
|
|
'not the less am I the Poor Man's Friend and Father.
|
|
Not the less shall he receive encouragement at my
|
|
hands. Every quarter-day he will be put in com-
|
|
munication with Mr. Fish. Every New Year's Day,
|
|
myself and friends will drink his health. Once every
|
|
year, myself and friends will address him with the
|
|
deepest feeling. Once in his life, he may even per-
|
|
haps receive; in public, in the presence of the gentry;
|
|
a Trifle from a Friend. And when, upheld no more
|
|
by these stimulants, and the Dignity of Labour, he
|
|
sinks into his comfortable grave, then my lady' --
|
|
here Sir Joseph blew his nose -- 'I will be a Friend
|
|
and a Father -- on the same terms -- to his children.'
|
|
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|
Toby was greatly moved.
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|
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|
'O! You have a thankful family, Sir Joseph!'
|
|
cried his wife
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|
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|
'My lady,' said Sir Joseph, quite majestically, 'In-
|
|
gratitude is known to be the sin of that class. I
|
|
expect no other return.'
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|
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|
'Ah! Born bad!' thought Toby. 'Nothing melts us.'
|
|
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|
'What man can do, I do,' pursued Sir Joseph. 'I
|
|
do my duty as the Poor Man's Friend and Father;
|
|
and I endeavour to educate his mind, by inculcating
|
|
on all occasions the one great moral lesson which
|
|
that class requires. That is, entire Dependence on
|
|
myself. They have no business whatever with -- with
|
|
themselves. If wicked and designing persons tell
|
|
them otherwise, and they become impatient and dis-
|
|
contented, and are guilty of insubordinate conduct
|
|
and black-hearted ingratitude; which is undoubtedly
|
|
the case; I am their Friend and Father still. It is
|
|
so Ordained. It is in the nature of things.'
|
|
|
|
With that great sentiment, he opened the Alder-
|
|
man's letter; and read it.
|
|
|
|
'Very polite and attentive, I am sure!' exclaimed
|
|
Sir Joseph. 'My lady, the Alderman is so obliging
|
|
as to remind me that he has had "the distinguished
|
|
honour" -- he is very good -- of meeting me at the
|
|
house of our mutual friend Deedles, the banker; and
|
|
he does me the favour to inquire whether it will be
|
|
agreeable to me to have Will Fern put down.'
|
|
|
|
'Most agreeable!' replied my Lady Bowley. 'The
|
|
worst man among them! He has been committing
|
|
a robbery, I hope?'
|
|
|
|
'Why no,' said Sir Joseph, referring to the letter.
|
|
'Not quite. Very near. Not quite. He came up
|
|
to London, it seems, to look for employment (try-
|
|
ing to better himself -- that's his story), and being
|
|
found at night asleep in a shed, was taken into cus-
|
|
tody, and carried next morning before the Alderman.
|
|
The Alderman observes (very properly) that he is
|
|
determined to put this sort of thing down; and that
|
|
if it will be agreeable to me to have Will Fern put
|
|
down, he will be happy to begin with him.'
|
|
|
|
'Let him be made an example of, by all means,
|
|
returned the lady. 'Last winter, when I introduced
|
|
pinking and eyelet-holing among the men and boys
|
|
in the village, as a nice evening employment, and
|
|
had the lines,
|
|
|
|
O let us love our occupations,
|
|
|
|
Bless the squire and his relations,
|
|
|
|
Live upon our daily rations,
|
|
|
|
And always know our proper stations,
|
|
|
|
set to music on the new system, for them to sing
|
|
the while; this very Fern -- I see him now -- touched
|
|
that hat of his, and said, "I humbly ask your pardon,
|
|
my lady, but an't I something different from a great
|
|
girl?" I expected it, of course; who can expect any-
|
|
thing but insolence and ingratitude from that class
|
|
of people! That is not to the purpose, however. Sir
|
|
Joseph! Make an example of him!'
|
|
|
|
'Hem!' coughed Sir Joseph. 'Mr. Fish, if you'll
|
|
have the goodness to attend --'
|
|
|
|
Mr. Fish immediately seized his pen, and wrote
|
|
from Sir Joseph's dictation.
|
|
|
|
'Private. My dear Sir. I am very much indebted
|
|
to you for your courtesy in the matter of the man
|
|
William Fern, of whom, I regret to add, I can say
|
|
nothing favourable. I have uniformly considered
|
|
myself in the light of his Friend and Father, but have
|
|
been repaid (a common case I grieve to say) with
|
|
ingratitude, and constant opposition to my plans.
|
|
He is a turbulent and rebellious spirit. His character
|
|
will not bear investigation. Nothing will persuade
|
|
him to be happy when he might. Under these cir-
|
|
cumstances, it appears to me, I own, that when he
|
|
comes before you again (as you informed me he prom-
|
|
ised to do to-morrow, pending your inquiries, and
|
|
I think he may be so far relied upon), his commital
|
|
for some short term as a Vagabond, would be a
|
|
service to society, and would be a salutary example
|
|
in a country where -- for the sake of those who are,
|
|
through good and evil report, the Friends and Fathers
|
|
of the Poor, as well as with a view to that, generally
|
|
speaking misguided class themselves -- examples are
|
|
greatly needed. And I am,' and so forth.
|
|
|
|
'It appears,' remarked Sir Joseph when he had
|
|
signed this letter, and Mr. Fish was sealing it, 'as if
|
|
this were Ordained: really. At the close of the year,
|
|
I wind up my account and strike my balance, even
|
|
with William Fern!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty, who had long ago relapsed, and was very
|
|
low-spirited, stepped forward with a rueful face to
|
|
take the letter.
|
|
|
|
'With my compliments and thanks,' said Sir
|
|
Joseph. 'Stop!'
|
|
|
|
'Stop!' echoed Mr. Fish
|
|
|
|
'You have heard, perhaps,' said Sir Joseph, oracu-
|
|
larly, 'certain remarks into which I have been led
|
|
respecting the solemn period of time at which we have
|
|
arrived, and the duty imposed upon us of settling
|
|
our affairs, and being prepared. You have observed
|
|
that I don't shelter myself behind my superior stand-
|
|
ing in society, but that Mr. Fishi -- that gentleman--
|
|
has a cheque-book at his elbow, and is in fact here,
|
|
to enable me to turn over a perfectly new leaf. and
|
|
enter on the epoch before us with a clean account.
|
|
Now, my friend, can you lay your hand upon your
|
|
heart, and say, that you also have made praparations
|
|
for a New Year?'
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid, sir,' stammered Trotty, looking meekly
|
|
at him, 'that I am a -- a -- little behind-hand with
|
|
the world.'
|
|
|
|
'Behind-hand with the world!' repeated Sir Joseph
|
|
Bowley, in a tone of terrible distinctness.
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid, sir,' faltered Trotty, 'that there's
|
|
a matter of ten or twelve shillings owing to Mrs.
|
|
Chickenstalker.'
|
|
|
|
'To Mrs. Chickenstalker!' repeated Sir Joseph, in
|
|
the same tone as before.
|
|
|
|
'A shop, sir,' exclaimed Toby, 'in the general line.
|
|
Also a -- a little money on account of rent. A very
|
|
little, sir. It oughtn't to be owing, I know, but we
|
|
have been hard put to it, indeed!'
|
|
|
|
Sir Joseph looked at his lady, and at Mr. Fish,
|
|
and at Trotty, one after another, twice all round.
|
|
He then made a despondent gesture with both hands
|
|
at once, as if he gave the thing up altogether.
|
|
|
|
'How a man, even among this improvident and
|
|
impracticable race; an old man; a man grown grey;
|
|
can look a New Year in the face, with his affairs in
|
|
this condition; how he can lie down on his bed at
|
|
night, and get up again in the morning, and -- There!'
|
|
he said, turning his back on Trotty. 'Take the letter.
|
|
Take the letter!'
|
|
|
|
'I heartily wish it was otherwise, sir,' said Trotty,
|
|
anxious to excuse himself. 'We have been tried very
|
|
hard.'
|
|
|
|
Sir Joseph still repeating 'Take the letter, take
|
|
the letter!' and Mr. Fish not only saying the same
|
|
thing, but giving additional force to the request by
|
|
motioning the bearer to the door, he had nothing for
|
|
it but to make his bow and leave the house. And
|
|
in the street, poor Trotty pulled his worn old hat
|
|
down on his head, to hide the grief he felt at getting
|
|
no hold on the New Year, anywhere.
|
|
|
|
He didn't even lift his hat to look up at the Bell
|
|
tower when he came to the old church on his return.
|
|
He halted there a moment, from habit: and knew
|
|
that it was growing dark, and that the steeple rose
|
|
above him, indistinct and faint, in the murky air. He
|
|
knew, too, that the Chimes would ring immediately;
|
|
and that they sounded to his fancy, at such a time,
|
|
like voices in the clouds. But he only made the
|
|
more haste to deliver the Alderman's letter, and get
|
|
out of the way before they began; for he dreaded
|
|
to hear them tagging 'Friends and Fathers, Friends
|
|
and Fathers,' to the burden they had rung out last.
|
|
|
|
Toby discharged himself of his commission, there-
|
|
fore, with all possible speed, and set off trotting home-
|
|
ward. But what with his pace, which was at best an
|
|
awkward one, in the street; and what with his hat,
|
|
which didn't improve it; he trotted against somebody
|
|
in less than no time, and was sent staggering out
|
|
into the road.
|
|
|
|
'I beg your pardon, I'm sure!' said Trotty, pulling
|
|
up his hat in great confusion, and between the hat
|
|
and the torn lining, fixing his head into a kind of
|
|
bee-hive. 'I hope I haven't hurt you.'
|
|
|
|
As to hurting anybody, Toby was not such an
|
|
absolute Samson, but that he was much more likely
|
|
to be hurt himself: and indeed, he had flown out
|
|
into the road, like a shuttlecock. He had such an
|
|
opinion of his own strength, however, that he was in
|
|
real concern for the other party: and said again,
|
|
|
|
'I hope I haven't hurt you?'
|
|
|
|
The man against whom he had run; a sun-
|
|
browned, sinewy, country-looking man, with grizzled
|
|
hair, and a rough chin; stared at him for a moment,
|
|
as if he suspected him to be in jest. But, satisfied
|
|
of his good faith, he answered:
|
|
|
|
'No friend. You have not hurt me.'
|
|
|
|
'Nor the child, I hope?' said Trotty.
|
|
|
|
'Nor the child,' returned the man. 'I thank you
|
|
kindly.'
|
|
|
|
As he said so, he glanced at a little girl he carried
|
|
in his arms, asleep: and shading her face with the
|
|
long end of the poor handkerchief he wore about his
|
|
throat, went slowly on.
|
|
|
|
The tone in which he said 'I thank you kindly,'
|
|
penetrated Trotty's heart. He was so jaded and
|
|
foot-sore, and so soiled with travel, and looked about
|
|
him so forlorn and strange, that it was a comfort to
|
|
him to be able to thank any one: no matter for how
|
|
little. Toby stood gazing after him as he plodded
|
|
wearily away, with the child's arm clinging round his
|
|
neck.
|
|
|
|
At the figure in the worn shoes -- now the very
|
|
shade and ghost of shoes -- rough leather leggings,
|
|
common frock, and broad slouched hat, Trotty stood
|
|
gazing, blind to the whole street. And at the child's
|
|
arm, clinging round its neck.
|
|
|
|
Before he merged into the darkness the traveller
|
|
stopped; and looking round, and seeing Trotty stand-
|
|
ing there yet, seemed undecided whether to return or
|
|
go on. After doing first the one and then the other,
|
|
he came back, and Trotty went half way to meet him.
|
|
|
|
'You can tell me, perhaps,' said the man with a
|
|
faint smile, 'and if you can I am sure you will, and
|
|
I'd rather ask you than another -- where Alderman
|
|
Cute lives.'
|
|
|
|
'Close at hand,' replied Toby. 'I'll show you his
|
|
house with pleasure.'
|
|
|
|
'I was to have gone to him elsewhere to-morrow,'
|
|
said the man, accompanying Toby, 'but I'm uneasy
|
|
under suspicion, and want to clear myself, and to be
|
|
free to go and seek my bread -- I don't know where.
|
|
So, maybe he'll forgive my going to his house tonight.'
|
|
|
|
'It's impossible,' cried Toby with a start, 'that your
|
|
name's Fern!'
|
|
|
|
'Eh!' cried the other, turning on him in aston-
|
|
ishment.
|
|
|
|
'Fern! Will Fern!' said Trotty.
|
|
|
|
'Why then,' cried Trotty, seizing him by the arm,
|
|
and looking cautiously round, 'for Heaven's sake
|
|
don't go to him! Don't go to him! He'll put you
|
|
down as sure as ever you were born. Here! come up
|
|
this alley, and I'll tell you what I mean. Don't
|
|
go to him.'
|
|
|
|
His new acquaintance looked as if he thought him
|
|
mad; but he bore him company nevertheless. When
|
|
they were shrouded from observation, Trotty told him
|
|
what he knew, and what character he had received,
|
|
and all about it.
|
|
|
|
The subject of his history listened to it with a
|
|
calmness that surprised him. He did not contradict
|
|
or interrupt it, once. He nodded his head now and
|
|
then -- more in corroboration of an old and worn-out
|
|
story, it appeared, than in refutation of it; and once
|
|
or twice threw back his hat, and passed his freckled
|
|
hand over a brow, where every furrow he had
|
|
ploughed seemed to have set its image in little. But
|
|
he did no more.
|
|
|
|
'It's true enough in the main,' he said, 'master, I
|
|
could sift grain from husk here and there, but let it be
|
|
as 'tis. What odds? I have gone against his plans;
|
|
to my misfortun'. I can't help it; I should do the
|
|
like to-morrow. As to character, them gentlefolks
|
|
will search and search, and pry and pry, and have it
|
|
as free from spot or speck in us, afore they'll help
|
|
us to a dry good word! -- Well! I hope they don't lose
|
|
good opinion as easy as we do, or their lives is strict
|
|
indeed, and hardly worth the keeping. For myself,
|
|
master, I never took with that hand' -- holding it be-
|
|
fore him -- 'what wasn't my own; and never held it
|
|
back from work, however hard, or poorly paid. Who-
|
|
ever can deny it, let him chop it off! But when work
|
|
won't maintain me like a human creetur; when my
|
|
living is so bad, that I am Hungry, out of doors and
|
|
in; when I see a whole working life begin that way,
|
|
go on that way, and end that way, without a chance
|
|
or change; then I say to the gentlefolks "Keep away
|
|
from me! Let my cottage be. My doors is dark
|
|
enough without your darkening of 'em more. Don't
|
|
look for me to come up into the Park to help the show
|
|
when there's a Birthday, or a fine Speechmaking, or
|
|
what not. Act your Plays and Games without me,
|
|
and be welcome to 'em, and enjoy 'em. We've nowt
|
|
to do with one another. I'm best let alone!" '
|
|
|
|
Seeing that the child in his arms had opened her
|
|
eyes, and was looking about her in wonder, he checked
|
|
himself to say a word or two of foolish prattle in
|
|
her ear, and stand her on the ground beside him.
|
|
Then slowly winding one of her long tresses round
|
|
and round his rough forefinger like a ring, while she
|
|
hung about his dusty leg, he said to Trotty:
|
|
|
|
'I'm not a cross-grained man by natur', I believe;
|
|
and easy satisfied, I'm sure. I bear no ill-will against
|
|
none of 'em. I only want to live like one of the
|
|
Almighty's creeturs. I can't -- I don't -- and so there's
|
|
a pit dug between me, and them that can and do.
|
|
There's others like me. You might tell 'em off by
|
|
hundreds and by thousands, sooner than by ones.'
|
|
|
|
Trotty knew he spoke the Truth in this, and shook
|
|
his head to signify as much.
|
|
|
|
'I've got a bad name this way,' said Fern; 'and
|
|
I'm not likely, I'm afeared, to get a better. 'Tan't
|
|
lawful to be out of sorts, and I AM out of sorts,
|
|
though God knows I'd sooner bear a cheerful spirit if
|
|
I could. Well! I don't know as this Alderman could
|
|
hurt me much by sending me to gaol; but without a
|
|
friend to speak a word for me, he might do it; and
|
|
you see --!' pointing downward with his finger, at the
|
|
child.
|
|
|
|
'She has a beautiful face,' said Trotty.
|
|
|
|
'Why yes!' replied the other in a low voice, as he
|
|
gently turned it up with both his hands towards his
|
|
own, and looked upon it steadfastly. 'I've thought
|
|
so, many times. I've thought so, when my hearth was
|
|
very cold, and cupboard very bare. I thought so t'
|
|
other night, when we were taken like two thieves.
|
|
But they -- they shouldn't try the little face too often,
|
|
should they, Lilian? That's hardly fair upon a man!'
|
|
|
|
He sunk his voice so low, and gazed upon her with
|
|
an air so stern and strange, that Toby, to divert the
|
|
current of his thoughts, inquired if his wife were
|
|
living.
|
|
|
|
'I never had one,' he returned, shaking his head.
|
|
'She's my brother's child: a orphan. Nine year old,
|
|
though you'd hardly think it; but she's tired and
|
|
worn out now. They'd have taken care on her, the
|
|
Union -- eight-and-twenty mile away from where we
|
|
live -- between four walls (as they took care of my old
|
|
father when he couldn't work no more, though he
|
|
didn't trouble 'em long); but I took her instead, and
|
|
she's lived with me ever since. Her mother had a
|
|
friend once, in London here. We are trying to find
|
|
her, and to find work too; but it's a large place.
|
|
Never mind. More room for us to walk about in
|
|
Lilly!'
|
|
|
|
Meeting the child's eyes with a smile which melted
|
|
Toby more than tears, he shook him by the hand.
|
|
|
|
'I don't so much as know your name,' he said, 'but
|
|
I've opened my heart free to you, for I'm thankful
|
|
to you; with good reason. I'll take your advice, and ,
|
|
keep clear of this --'
|
|
|
|
'Justice,' suggested Toby.
|
|
|
|
'Ah!' he said. 'If that's the name they give him.
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This Justice. And to-morrow will try whether there's
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better fortun' to be met with, somewheres near Lon-
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don. Good-night. A Happy New Year!'
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'Stay!' cried Trotty, catching at his hand, as he
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|
relaxed his grip. 'Stay! The New Year never can be
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happy to me, if we part like this. The New Year
|
|
never can be happy to me, if I see the child and you,
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go wandering away, you don't know where, without
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a shelter for your heads. Come home with me! I'm
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a poor man, living in a poor place; but I can give
|
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you lodging for one night and never miss it. Come
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home with me! Here! I'll take her!' cried Trotty,
|
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lifting un the child. 'A pretty one! I'd carry twenty
|
|
times her weight, and never know I'd got it. Tell
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|
me if I go too quick for you. I'm very fast. I always
|
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was!' Trotty said this, taking about six of his
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trotting paces to one stride of his fatigued companion,
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and with his thin legs quivering again, beneath the
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|
load he bore.
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'Why, she's as light,' said Trotty, trotting in his
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|
speech as well as in his gait; for he couldn't bear to be
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thanked. and dreaded a moment's pause; 'as light as
|
|
a feather. Lighter than a Peacock's feather -- a great.
|
|
deal lighter. Here we are, and here we go! Round
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this first turning to the right, Uncle Will, and past
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the pump, and sharp off up the passage to the left,
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|
right opposite the public-house. Here we are and
|
|
here we go! Cross over, Uncle Will, and mind the
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|
kidney pieman at the corner! Here we are and here
|
|
we go! Down the Mews here, Uncle Will, and stop
|
|
at the black door, with "T. Veck, Ticket Porter"
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|
wrote upon a board; and here we are and here we go,
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and here we are indeed, my precious Meg, surprising
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|
you!'
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|
With which words Trotty, in a breathless state, set
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the child down before his daughter in the middle of
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the floor. The little visitor looked once at Meg; and
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doubting nothing in that face, but trusting every-
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|
thing she saw there; ran into her arms.
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|
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'Here we are and here we go!' cried Trotty, run-
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|
ning round the room, and choking audibly. 'Here,
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|
Uncle Will, here's a fire you know! Why don't you
|
|
come to the fire? Oh here we are and here we go!
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|
Meg, my precious darling, where's the kettle? Here
|
|
it is and here it goes, and it'll bile in no time! '
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|
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|
Trotty really had picked up the kettle somewhere
|
|
or other in the course of his wild career, and now put
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it on the fire; while Meg, seating the child in a warm
|
|
corner, knelt down on the ground before her, and
|
|
pulled off her shoes, and dried her wet feet on a cloth.
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|
Ay, and she laughed at Trotty too -- so pleasantly, so
|
|
cheerfully, that Trotty could have blessed her where
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she kneeled; for he had seen that, when they entered,
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|
she was sitting by the fire in tears.
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|
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|
'Why, father!' said Meg. 'You're crazy to-night,
|
|
I think. I don't know what the Bells would say to
|
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that. Poor little feet. How cold they are!'
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|
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|
'Oh, they're warmer now!' exclaimed the child.
|
|
'They're quite warm now!'
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|
'No, no, no,' said Meg. 'We haven't rubbed 'em
|
|
half enough. We're so busy. So busy! And when
|
|
they're done, we'll brush out the damp hair; and
|
|
when that's done, we'll bring some colour to the poor
|
|
pale face with fresh water; and when that's done,
|
|
we'll be so gay, and brisk, and happy!'
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|
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|
The child, in a burst of sobbing, clasped her round
|
|
the neck; caressed her fair cheek with its hand; and
|
|
said, 'Oh Meg! oh dear Meg!'
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|
|
|
Toby's blessing could have done no more. Who
|
|
could do more!
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|
|
|
'Why, father!' cried Meg, after a pause.
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|
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|
'Here I am and here I go, my dear!' said Trotty.
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|
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|
'Good Gracious me!' cried Meg. 'He's crazy! He's
|
|
put the dear child's bonnet on the kettle, and hung
|
|
the lid behind the door!'
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|
|
|
'I didn't go for to do it, my love,' said Trotty,
|
|
hastily repairing this mistake. 'Meg, my dear?'
|
|
|
|
Meg looked towards him and saw that he had elab-
|
|
orately stationed himself behind the chair of their
|
|
male visitor, where with many mysterious gestures he
|
|
was holding up the sixpence he had earned.
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|
|
|
'I see, my dear,' said Trotty, 'as I was coming in,
|
|
half an ounce of tea lying somewhere on the stairs;
|
|
and I'm pretty sure there was a bit of bacon too. As
|
|
I don't remember where it was exactly, I'll go myself
|
|
and try to find 'em.'
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|
|
|
With this inscrutable artifice, Toby withdrew to
|
|
purchase the viands he had spoken of, for ready
|
|
money, at Mrs. Chickenstalker's; and presently came
|
|
back, pretending he had not been able to find them, at
|
|
first, in the dark.
|
|
|
|
'But here they are at last,' said Trotty, setting out
|
|
the tea things, 'all correct! I was pretty sure it was
|
|
tea, and a rasher. So it is, Meg, my pet, if you'll
|
|
just make the tea, while your unworthy father toasts
|
|
the bacon, we shall be ready, immediate. It's a curi-
|
|
ous circumstance,' said Trotty, proceeding in his
|
|
cookery, with the assistance of the toasting-fork,
|
|
'curious, but well known to my friends, that I never
|
|
care, myself, for rashers, nor for tea. I like to see
|
|
other people enjoy 'em,' said Trotty, speaking very
|
|
loud, to impress the fact upon his guest, 'but to me, as
|
|
food, they're disagreeable.'
|
|
|
|
Yet Trotty sniffed the savour of the hissing bacon
|
|
-- ah! -- as if he liked it; and when he poured the boil-
|
|
ing water in the tea-pot, looked lovingly down into
|
|
the depths of that snug cauldron, and suffered the
|
|
fragrant steam to curl about his nose, and wreathe his
|
|
head and face in a thick cloud. However, for all
|
|
this, he neither ate nor drank, except at the very be-
|
|
ginning, a mere morsel for form's sake, which he ap-
|
|
peared to eat with infinite relish, but declared was
|
|
perfectly uninteresting to him.
|
|
|
|
No. Trotty's occupation was, to see Will Fern
|
|
and Lilian eat and drink; and so was Meg's. And
|
|
never did spectators at a city dinner or court banquet
|
|
find such high delight in seeing others feast: although
|
|
it were a monarch or a pope: as those two did, in look-
|
|
ing on that night. Meg smiled at Trotty, Trotty
|
|
laughed at Meg. Meg shook her head, and made be-
|
|
lieve to clap her hands, applauding Trotty; Trotty
|
|
conveyed, in dumb-show, unintelligible narratives of
|
|
how and when and where he had found their visitors,
|
|
to Meg; and they were happy. Very happy.
|
|
|
|
'Although,' thought Trotty, sorrowfully, as he
|
|
watched Meg's face; 'that match is broken off, I see!'
|
|
|
|
'Now, I'll tell you what,' said Trotty after tea.
|
|
'The little one, she sleeps with Meg, I know.'
|
|
|
|
'With good Meg!' cried the child, caressing her.
|
|
'With Meg.'
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|
|
|
'That's right,' said Trotty. 'And I shouldn't won-
|
|
der if she kiss Meg's father, won't she? I'm Meg's
|
|
father.'
|
|
|
|
Mightily delighted Troty was, when the child went
|
|
timidly towards him and having kissed him, fell back
|
|
upon Meg again.
|
|
|
|
'She's as sensible as Solomon,' said Trotty. 'Here
|
|
we come and here we -- no, we don't -- I don't mean
|
|
that -- I -- what was I saying, Meg, my precious?'
|
|
|
|
Meg looked towards their guest, who leaned upon
|
|
her chair, and with his face turned from her, fondled
|
|
the child's head, half hidden in her lap.
|
|
|
|
'To be sure,' said Toby. 'To be sure! I don't
|
|
know what I'm rambling on about, to-night. My
|
|
wits are wool-gathering, I think. Will Fern, you
|
|
come along with me. You're tired to death, and
|
|
broken down for want of rest. You come along with
|
|
me.'
|
|
|
|
The man still played with the child's curls, still
|
|
leaned upon Meg's chair, still turned away his face.
|
|
He didn't speak, but in his rough coarse fingers,
|
|
clenching and expanding in the fair hair of the child,
|
|
there was an eloquence that said enough.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, yes,' said Trotty, answering unconsciously
|
|
what he saw expressed in his daughter's face. 'Take
|
|
her with you, Meg. Get her to bed. There! Now,
|
|
Will. I'll show vou where you lie. It's not much of
|
|
a place: only a loft; but, having a loft, I always say,
|
|
is one of the great conveniences of living in a mews;
|
|
and till this coach-house and stable gets a better let,
|
|
we live here cheap. There's plenty of sweet hay up
|
|
there, belonging to a neighbour; and it's as clean as
|
|
hands, and Meg, can make it. Cheer up! Don't
|
|
give way. A new heart for a New Year, always!'
|
|
|
|
The hand released from the child's hair, had fallen,
|
|
trembling, into Trotty's hand. So Trotty, talking
|
|
without intermission, led him out as tenderly and
|
|
easily as if he had been a child himself.
|
|
|
|
Returning before Meg, he listened for an instant
|
|
at the door of her little chamber; an adjoining room.
|
|
The child was murmuring a simple Prayer before
|
|
lying down to sleep; and when she had remembered
|
|
Meg's name, 'Dearly, Dearly' -- so her words ran --
|
|
Trotty heard her stop and ask for his.
|
|
|
|
It was some short time before the foolish little old
|
|
fellow could compose himself to mend the fire, and
|
|
draw his chair to the warm hearth. But, when he had
|
|
done so, and had trimmed the light, he took his news-
|
|
paper from his pocket, and began to read. Carelessly
|
|
at first, and skimming up and down the columns; but
|
|
with an earnest and a sad attention, very soon.
|
|
|
|
For this same dreaded paper re-directed Trotty's
|
|
thoughts into the channel they had taken all that
|
|
day, and which the days' events had so marked out
|
|
and shaped. His interest in the two wanderers had
|
|
set him on another course of thinking, and a happier
|
|
one, for the time; but being alone again, and reading
|
|
of the crimes and violences of the people, he relapsed
|
|
into his former train.
|
|
|
|
In this mood, he came to an account (and it was
|
|
not the first he had ever read) of a woman who had
|
|
laid her desperate hands not only on her own life but
|
|
on that of her young child. A crime so terrible, and
|
|
so revolting; to his soul, dilated with the love of Meg,
|
|
that he let the journal drop, and fell back in his chair,
|
|
appalled!
|
|
|
|
'Unnatural and cruel!' Toby cried. 'Unnatural and
|
|
cruel! None but people who were bad at heart, born
|
|
bad, who had no business on the earth, could do
|
|
such deeds. It's too true, all I've heard to-day; too
|
|
just, too full of proof. We're Bad!'
|
|
|
|
The Chimes took up the words so suddenly -- burst
|
|
out so loud, and clear, and sonorous -- that the Bells
|
|
seemed to strike him in his chair.
|
|
|
|
And what was that they said?
|
|
|
|
'Toby Veck, Toby Veck, waiting for you Toby!
|
|
Toby Veck, Toby Veck, waiting for you Toby! Come
|
|
and see us, come and see us, Drag him to us, drag him
|
|
to us, Haunt and hunt him, haunt and hunt him,
|
|
Break his slumbers, break his slumbers! Toby Veck
|
|
Toby Veck, door open wide Toby, Toby Veck Toby
|
|
Veck, door open wide Toby --' then fiercely back to
|
|
their impetuous strain again, and ringing in the very
|
|
bricks and plaster on the walls.
|
|
|
|
Toby listened. Fancy, fancy! His remorse for
|
|
having run away from them that afternoon! No, no.
|
|
Nothing of the kind. Again, again, and yet a dozen
|
|
times again. 'Haunt and hunt him, haunt and hunt
|
|
him, Drag him to us, drag him to us!' Deafening the
|
|
whole town!
|
|
|
|
'Meg,' said Trotty softly: tapping at her door.
|
|
'Do you hear anything?'
|
|
|
|
'I hear the Bells, father. Surely they're very loud
|
|
to-night.'
|
|
|
|
'Is she asleep?' said Toby, making an excuse for
|
|
peeping in.
|
|
|
|
'So peacefully and happily! I can't leave her yet
|
|
though, father. Look how she holds my hand!'
|
|
|
|
'Meg,' whispered Trotty. 'Listen to the Bellsl'
|
|
|
|
She listened, with her face towards him all the
|
|
time. But it underwent no change. She didn't under-
|
|
stand them.
|
|
|
|
Trotty withdrew, resumed his seat by the fire, and
|
|
once more listened by himself. He remained here a
|
|
little time.
|
|
|
|
It was impossible to bear it; their energy was
|
|
dreadful.
|
|
|
|
'If the tower-door is really open,' said Toby, hastily
|
|
laying aside his apron, but never thinking of his hat,
|
|
'what's to hinder me from going up into the steeple
|
|
and satisfying myself? If it's shut, I don't want
|
|
any other satisfaction. That's enough.'
|
|
|
|
He was pretty certain as he slipped out quietly into
|
|
the street that he should find it shut and locked, for
|
|
he knew the door well, and had so rarely seen it open,
|
|
that he couldn't reckon above three times in all. It
|
|
was a low arched portaI, outside the church, in a dark
|
|
nook behind a column; and had such great iron
|
|
hinges, and such a monstrous lock, that there way
|
|
much more hinge and lock than door.
|
|
|
|
But what was his astonishment when, coming bare
|
|
headed to the church; and putting his hand into this
|
|
dark nook, with a certain misgiving that it might be
|
|
unexpectedly seized, and a shivering propensity to
|
|
draw it back again; he found that the door, which
|
|
opened outwards, actually stood ajar!
|
|
|
|
He thought, on the first surprise, of going back;
|
|
or of getting a light, or a companion; but his courage
|
|
aided him immediately, and he determined to ascend
|
|
alone.
|
|
|
|
'What have I to fear?' said Trotty. 'It's a church!
|
|
Besides, the ringers may be there, and have forgotten
|
|
to shut the door.'
|
|
|
|
So he went in, feeling his way as he went, like a
|
|
blind man; for it was very dark. And very quiet,
|
|
for the Chimes were silent.
|
|
|
|
The dust from the street had blown into the recess;
|
|
and lying there, heaped up, made it so soft and velvet-
|
|
like to the foot, that there was sometifing startling,
|
|
even in that. The narrow stair was so close to the
|
|
door, too, that he stumbled at the very first; and
|
|
shutting the door upon himself, by striking it with his
|
|
foot, and causing it to rebound back heavily, he
|
|
couldn't open it again.
|
|
|
|
This was another reason, however, for going on.
|
|
Trotty groped his way, and went on. Up, up, up, and
|
|
round, and round; and up, up, up; higher, higher,
|
|
higher up!
|
|
|
|
It was a disagreeable staircase for that groping
|
|
work; so low and narrow, that his gropig hand was
|
|
always touching something; and it often felt so like
|
|
a man or ghostly figure standing up erect and making
|
|
room for him to pass without discovery, that he would
|
|
rub the smooth wall upward searching for its face,
|
|
and downward searching for its feet, while a chill
|
|
tingling crept all over him. Twice or thrice, a door
|
|
or niche broke the monotonous surface; and then it
|
|
seemed a gap as wide as the whole church; and he felt
|
|
on the brink of an abyss, and going to tumble head-
|
|
long down, until he found the wall again.
|
|
|
|
Still up, up, up; and round and round, and up, up,
|
|
up; higher, higher, higher up!
|
|
|
|
At length, the dull and stifling atmosphere began
|
|
to freshen: presently to feel quite windy; presently it
|
|
blew so strong, that he could hardly keep his legs.
|
|
But, he got to an arched window in the toewr, breast
|
|
high, and holding tight, looked down upon the house-
|
|
tops, on the smoking chimneys, on the blurr and
|
|
blotch of lights (towards the place where Meg was
|
|
wondering where he was and calling to him perhaps),
|
|
all kneaded up, together in a leaven of mist and
|
|
darkness.
|
|
|
|
This was the belfry, where the ringers came. He
|
|
had caught hold of one of the frayed ropes which
|
|
hung down through apertures in the oaken roof. At
|
|
first he started, thinking it was hair; then trembled
|
|
at the very thought of waking the deep Bell. The
|
|
Bells themselves were higher. Higher, Trotty, in his
|
|
fascination, or in working out the spell upon him,
|
|
groped his way. By ladders now, and toilsomely,
|
|
for it was steep, and not too certain holding for the
|
|
feet.
|
|
|
|
Up, up, up; and climb and clamber; up, up, up;
|
|
higher, higher, higher up!
|
|
|
|
Until, ascending through the floor, and pausing
|
|
with his head just raised above its beams, he came
|
|
among the Bells. It was barely possible to make out
|
|
their great shapes in the gloom; but there they were.
|
|
Shadowy, and dark, and dumb.
|
|
|
|
A heavy sense of dread and loneliness fell instantly
|
|
upon him, as he climbed into this airy nest of stone
|
|
and metal. His head went round and round. He
|
|
listened, and then raised a wild 'Holloa!'
|
|
|
|
Holloa! was mournfully protracted by the echoes.
|
|
Giddy, confused, and out of breath, and frightened,
|
|
Toby looked about him vacantly, and sunk down in
|
|
a swoon.
|
|
|
|
THIRD QUARTER
|
|
|
|
Black are the brooding clouds and troubled the deep
|
|
waters, when the Sea of Thought, first heaving from
|
|
a calm, gives up its Dead. Monsters uncouth and
|
|
wild, arise in premature, imperfect resurrection, the
|
|
several parts and shapes of different things are joined
|
|
and mixed by chance; and when, and how, and by
|
|
what wonderful degrees, each separates from each,
|
|
and every sense and object of the mind resumes its
|
|
usual form and lives again, no man -- though every
|
|
man is every day the casket of this type of the Great
|
|
Mystery -- can tell.
|
|
|
|
So, when and how the darkness of the night-black
|
|
steeple changed to shining light; when and how the
|
|
solitary tower was peopled with a myriad figures;
|
|
when and how the whispered 'Haunt and hunt him,'
|
|
breathing monotonously through his sleep or swoon,
|
|
became a voice exclaiming in the waking ears of
|
|
Trotty, 'Break his slumbers'; when and how he ceased
|
|
to have a sluggish and confused idea that such things
|
|
were, companioning a host of others that were not;
|
|
there are no dates or means to tell. But, awake and
|
|
standing on his feet upon the boards where he had
|
|
lately lain, he saw this Goblin Sight.
|
|
|
|
He saw the tower, whither his charmed footsteps
|
|
had brought him, swarming with dwarf phantoms,
|
|
spirits, elfin creatures of the Bells. He saw them
|
|
leaping, flying, dropping, pouring from the Bells
|
|
wlthout a pause. He saw them, round him on the
|
|
ground; above him, in the air, clambering from him,
|
|
by the ropes below; looking down upon him, from the
|
|
massive iron-girded beams; peeping in upon him,
|
|
through the chinks and loopholes in the walls, spread-
|
|
ing away and away from him in enlarging clrcles, as
|
|
the water ripples give way to a huge stone that sud-
|
|
denly comes plashing in among them. He saw them,
|
|
of all aspects and all shapes. He saw them ugly,
|
|
handsome, crippled, exquisitely formed. He saw them
|
|
young, he saw them old, he saw them kind, he saw
|
|
them cruel, he saw them merry, he saw them grim;
|
|
he saw them dance, and heard them sing; he saw them
|
|
tear their hair, and heard them howl. He saw the air
|
|
thick with them. He saw them come and go, inces-
|
|
santly. He saw them riding downward, soaring up-
|
|
ward, sailing off afar, perching near at hand, all rest-
|
|
less and all violently active. Stone, and brick, and
|
|
slate, and tile, became transparent to him as to them.
|
|
He saw them in the houses, busy at the sleepers' beds.
|
|
He saw them soothing people in their dreams; he saw
|
|
them beating them with knotted whips; he saw them
|
|
yelling in their ears; he saw them playing softest
|
|
music on their pillows; he saw them cheering some
|
|
with the songs of birds and the perfume of flowers;
|
|
he saw them flashing awful faces on the troubled rest
|
|
of others, from enchanted mirrors which they carried
|
|
in their hands.
|
|
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|
He saw these creatures, not only among sleeping
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men but waking also, active in pursuits irreconcilable
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with one another, and possessing or assuming natures
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the most opposite. He saw one buckling on innu-
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merable wings to increase his speed; another loading
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himself with chains and weights, to retard his. He
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saw some putting the hands of clocks forward, some
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putting the hands of clocks backward, some endeav-
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ouring to stop the clock entirely. He saw them rep-
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resenting, here a marriage ceremony, there a funeral;
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in this chamber an election, in that a ball; he saw,
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everywhere, restless and untiring motion.
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Bewildered by the host of shifting and extraor-
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dinary figures, as well as by the uproar of the Bells,
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which all this while were ringing, Trotty clung to a
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wooden pillar for support, and turned his white face
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here and there, in mute and stunned astonishment.
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As he gazed, the Chimes stopped. Instantaneous
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change! The whole swarm fainted! their forms col-
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lapsed, their speed deserted them; they sought to fly
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but in the act of falling died and melted into air. No
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fresh supply succeeded them. One straggler leaped
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down pretty briskly from the surface of the Great
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Bell, and alighted on his feet, but he was dead and
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gone before he could turn round. Some few of the
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late company who had gambolled in the tower, re-
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mained there, spinning over and over a little longer;
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but these became at every turn more faint, and few,
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and feeble, and soon went the way of the rest. The
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last of all was one small hunchback, who had got into
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an echoing corner, where he twirled and twirled, and
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floated by himself a long time; showing such perse-
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|
verance, that at last he dwindled to a leg and even to
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a foot, before he finally returned; but he vanished in
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the end, and then the tower was silent.
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Then and not before, did Trotty see in every Bell
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a bearded figure of the bulk and stature of the Bell --
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incomprehensibly, a figure and the Bell itself. Gi-
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|
gantic, grave, and darkly watchful of him, as he stood
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rooted to the ground.
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Mysterious and awful figures! Resting on nothing;
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poised in the night air of the tower, with their draped
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and hooded heads merged in the dim roof; motionless
|
|
and shadowy. Shadowy and dark, although he saw
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them by some light belonging to themselves -- none
|
|
else was there -- each with its muffled hand upon its
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goblin mouth.
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He could not plunge down wildly through the open-
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|
ing in the floor; for all power of motion had deserted
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|
him. Otherwise he would have done so -- aye, would
|
|
have thrown himself, headforemost, from the steeple-
|
|
top, rather than have seen them watching him with
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|
eyes that would have waked and watched although
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|
the pupils had been taken out.
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|
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|
Again, again, the dread and terror of the lonely
|
|
place, and of the wild and fearful night that reigned
|
|
there, touched him like a spectral hand. His dlstance
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|
from all help; the long, dark, winding, ghost-be-
|
|
leaguered way that lay between him and the earth on
|
|
which men lived; his being high, high, high, up there,
|
|
where it had made him dizzy to see the birds fly in
|
|
the day; cut off from all good people, who at such an
|
|
hour were safe at home and sleeping in their beds;
|
|
all this struck coldly through him, not as a reflection
|
|
but a bodily sensation. Meantime his eyes and
|
|
thoughts and fears, were fixed upon the watchful
|
|
figures; which, rendered unlike any figures of this
|
|
world by the deep gloom and shade enwrapping and
|
|
enfolding them, as well as by their looks and forms
|
|
and supernatural hovering above the floor, were never-
|
|
theless as plainly to be seen as were the stalwart
|
|
oaken frames, cross-pieces, bars and beams, set up
|
|
there to support the Bells. These hemmed them in
|
|
a very forest of hewn timber; from the entanglements,
|
|
intricacies, and depths of which, as from among the
|
|
boughs of a dead wood blighted for their phantom
|
|
use, they kept their darksome and unwinking watch.
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|
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|
A blast of air -- how cold and shrill! -- came moan-
|
|
ing through the tower. As it died away, the Great
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|
Bell, or the Goblin of the Great Bell, spoke.
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|
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|
'What visitor is this?' it said. The voice was low
|
|
and deep, and Trotty fancied that it sounded in the
|
|
other figures as well.
|
|
|
|
'I thought my name was called by the Chimes!'
|
|
said Trotty, raising his hands in an attitude of sup-
|
|
plication. 'I hardly know why I am here, or how I
|
|
came. I have listened to the Chimes these many
|
|
years. Thev have cheered me often.'
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|
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|
'And you have thanked them?' said the Bell.
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|
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|
'A thousand times!' cried Trotty.
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'How?'
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'I am a poor man,' faltered Trotty, 'and could only
|
|
thank them in words.'
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|
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|
'And always so?' inquired the Goblin of the Bell.
|
|
'Have you never done us wrong in words?'
|
|
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|
'No!' cried Trotty eagerly.
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|
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|
'Never done us foul, and false, and wicked wrong,
|
|
in words?' pursued the Goblin of the Bell.
|
|
|
|
Trotty was about to answer, 'Never!' But he
|
|
stopped, and was confused.
|
|
|
|
'The voice of Time,' said the Phantom, 'cries to
|
|
man, Advance! Time is for his advancement and
|
|
improvement; for his greater worth, his greater hap-
|
|
piness, his better life; his progress onward to that
|
|
goal within its knowledge and its view, and set there,
|
|
in the period when Time and He began. Ages of
|
|
darkness, wickedness, and violence, have come and
|
|
gone -- millions uncountable, have suffered, lived, and
|
|
died -- to point the way before him. Who seeks to
|
|
turn him back, or stay him on his course, arrests a
|
|
mighty engine which will strike the meddler dead;
|
|
and be the fiercer and the wilder, ever, for its mo-
|
|
mentary check!'
|
|
|
|
'I never did so to my knowledge, sir,' said Trotty.
|
|
'It was quite by accident if I did. I wouldn't go to
|
|
do it, I'm sure.'
|
|
|
|
'Who puts into the mouth of Time, or of its serv-
|
|
ants,' said the Goblin of the Bell, 'a cry of lamenta-
|
|
tion for days which have had their trial and their fail-
|
|
ure, and have left deep traces of it which the blind
|
|
may see -- a cry that only serves the present time, by
|
|
showing men how much it needs their help when any
|
|
ears can listen to regrets for such a past, who does
|
|
this, does a wrong. And you have done that wrong,
|
|
to us, the Chimes.'
|
|
|
|
Trotty's first excess of fear was gone. But he had
|
|
felt tenderly and gratefully towards the Bells, as you
|
|
have seen; and when he heard himself arraigned as
|
|
one who had offended them so weightily, his heart
|
|
was touched with penitence and grief.
|
|
|
|
'If you knew,' said Trotty, clasping his hands ear-
|
|
nestly -- 'or perhaps you do know -- if you know how
|
|
often you have kept me company; how often you have
|
|
cheered me up when I've been low; how you were
|
|
quite the plaything of my little daughter Meg (al-
|
|
most the only one she ever had) when first her mother
|
|
died, and she and me were left alone; you won't bear
|
|
malice for a hasty word!'
|
|
|
|
'Who hears in us, the Chimes, one note bespeaking
|
|
disregard, or stern regard, of any hope, or joy, or
|
|
pain, or sorrow, of the many-sorrowed throng; who
|
|
hears us make response to any creed that gauges
|
|
human passions and affections, as it gauges the
|
|
amount of miserable food on which humanity may
|
|
pine and wither; does us wrong. That wrong you
|
|
have done us!' said the Bell.
|
|
|
|
'I have!' said Trotty. 'Oh forgive me!'
|
|
|
|
'Who hears us echo the dull vermin of the earth:
|
|
the Putters Down of crushed and broken natures,
|
|
formed to be raised up higher than such maggots of
|
|
the time can crawl or can conceive,' pursued the Gob-
|
|
lin of the Bell; 'who does so, does us wrong. And you
|
|
have done us wrong!'
|
|
|
|
'Not meaning it,' said Trotty. 'In my ignorance,
|
|
not meaning it!'
|
|
|
|
'Lastly, and most of all,' pursued the Bell. 'Who
|
|
turns his back upon the fallen and disfigured of his
|
|
kind; abandons them as vile; and does not trace and
|
|
track with pitying eyes the unfenced precipice by
|
|
which they fell from good -- grasping in their fall
|
|
some tufts and shreds of that lost soil, and clinging
|
|
to them still when bruised and dying in the gulf
|
|
below; does wrong to Heaven and man, to time and
|
|
to eternity. And you have done that wrong!'
|
|
|
|
'Spare me,' cried Trotty, falling on his knees; 'for
|
|
Mercy's sake!'
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' said the Shadow
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' cried the other Shadows
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' said a clear and childlike voice, which
|
|
Trotty thought he recognised as having heard before
|
|
|
|
The organ sounded faintly in the church below.
|
|
Swelling by degrees, the melody ascended to the roof
|
|
and filled the choir and nave. Expanding more and
|
|
more, it rose up, up; up, up; higher, higher, higher
|
|
up; awakening agitated hearts within the burly piles
|
|
of oak, the hollow bells, the iron-bound doors, the
|
|
stairs of solid stone; until the tower walls were in-
|
|
sufficient to contain it, and it soared into the sky
|
|
|
|
No wonder that, an old man's breast could not con-
|
|
tain a sound so vast and mighty. It broke from that
|
|
weak prison in a rush of tears; and Trotty put his
|
|
hands before his face
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' said the Shadow.
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' said the other Shadows
|
|
|
|
'Listen!' said the child's voice.
|
|
|
|
A solemn strain of blended voices, rose into the
|
|
tower.
|
|
|
|
It was a very low and mournful strain -- a Dirge --
|
|
and as he listened, Trotty heard his child among the
|
|
singers.
|
|
|
|
'She is dead!' exclaimed the old man. 'Meg is
|
|
dead! Her spirit calls to me. I hear it!'
|
|
|
|
'The Spirit of your child bewails the dead, and
|
|
mingles with the dead -- dead hopes, dead fancies
|
|
dead imaginings of youth,' returned the Bell, 'but she
|
|
is living. Learn from her life, a living truth. Learn
|
|
from the creature dearest to your heart, how bad the
|
|
bad are born. See every bud and leaf plucked one
|
|
by one from off the rarest stem, and know how bare
|
|
and wretched it may be. Follow her! To despera-
|
|
tion!'
|
|
|
|
Each of the shadowy figures stretched its right arm
|
|
forth, and pointed downward.
|
|
|
|
'The Spirit of the Chimes is your companion, said
|
|
the figure. 'Go! It staads behind you!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty turned, and saw -- the child! The child Will
|
|
Fern had carried in the street; the child whom Meg
|
|
had watched, but now, asleep!
|
|
|
|
'I carried her myself, to-night,' said Trotty. 'In
|
|
these arms!'
|
|
|
|
'Show him what he calls himself,' said the dark
|
|
figures, one and all.
|
|
|
|
The tower opened at his feet. He looked down,
|
|
and beheld his own form , lying at the bottom, on the
|
|
outside: crushed and motionless.
|
|
|
|
'No more a living man!' cried Trotty. 'Dead!'
|
|
|
|
'Dead!' said the figures all together.
|
|
|
|
'Gracious Heaven! And the New Year --'
|
|
|
|
'Past,' said the figures.
|
|
|
|
'What!' he cried, shuddering. "I missed my way,
|
|
and coming on the outside of this tower in the dark,
|
|
fell down -- a year ago?'
|
|
|
|
'Nine years ago!' replied the figures.
|
|
|
|
As they gave the answer, they recalled their out-
|
|
stretched hands; and where their figures had been,
|
|
there the Bells were.
|
|
|
|
And they rung; their time being come again. And
|
|
once again, vast multitudes of phantoms sprung into
|
|
existence; once again, were incoherently engaged, as
|
|
they had been before; once again, faded on the stop-
|
|
ping of the Chimes; and dwindled into nothing.
|
|
|
|
'What are these?' he asked his guide. 'If I am not
|
|
mad, what are these?'
|
|
|
|
'Spirits of the Bells. Their sound upon the air,'
|
|
returned the child. 'They take such shapes and oc-
|
|
cupations as the hopes and thoughts of mortals, and
|
|
the recollections they have stored up, give them.'
|
|
|
|
'And you,' said Trotty wildly. 'What are you?'
|
|
|
|
'Hush, hush!' returned the child. 'Look here!'
|
|
|
|
In a poor, mean room: working at the same kind
|
|
of embroidery which he had often seen before
|
|
her; Meg, his own dear daughter, was presented to
|
|
his view. He made no effort to imprint his kisses on
|
|
her face; he did not strive to clasp her to his loving
|
|
heart; he knew that such endearments were, for him,
|
|
no more. But, he held his trembling breath, and
|
|
brushed away the blinding tears, that he might look
|
|
upon her; that he might only see her.
|
|
|
|
Ah! Changed. Changed. The light of the clear
|
|
eye, how dimmed. The bloom, how faded from the
|
|
cheek. Beautiful she was, as she had ever been, but
|
|
Hope, Hope, Hope, oh where was the fresh Hope
|
|
that had spoken to him like a voice!
|
|
|
|
She looked up from her work, at a companion. Fol-
|
|
lowing her eyes, the old man started back.
|
|
|
|
In the woman grown, he recognised her at a glance.
|
|
In the long silken hair, he saw the self-same curls;
|
|
around the lips, the child's expression lingering still.
|
|
See! In the eyes, now turned inquiringly on Meg,
|
|
there shone the very look that scanned those features
|
|
when he brought her home!
|
|
|
|
Then what was this, beside him!
|
|
|
|
Looking with awe into its face, he saw a something
|
|
reigning there: a lofty something, undefined and in-
|
|
distinct, which made it hardly more than a remem-
|
|
brance of that child -- as yonder figure might be -- yet
|
|
it was the same: the same: and wore the dress.
|
|
|
|
Hark. They were speaking!
|
|
|
|
'Meg,' said Lilian, hesitating. 'How often you raise
|
|
your head from your work to look at me!' .
|
|
|
|
'Are my looks so altered, that they frighten you?'
|
|
asked Meg.
|
|
|
|
'Nay, dear! But you smile at that, yourself! Why
|
|
not smile, when you look at me, Meg?'
|
|
|
|
'I do so. Do I not?' she answered: smiling on her.
|
|
|
|
'Now you do,' said Lilian, 'but not usually. When
|
|
you think I'm busy, and don't see you, you look so
|
|
anxious and so doubtful, that I hardly like to raise
|
|
my eyes. There is little cause for smiling in this
|
|
hard and toilsome life, but you were once so cheerful.'
|
|
|
|
'Am I not now!' cried Meg, speaking in a tone of
|
|
strange alarm, and rising to embrace her. 'Do I
|
|
make our weary life more weary to you, Lilian!'
|
|
|
|
'You have been the only thing that made it life,'
|
|
said Lilian, fervently kissing her; 'sometimes the only
|
|
thing that made me care to live so, Meg. Such work,
|
|
such work! So many hours, so many days, so many
|
|
long, long nights of hopeless, cheerless, never-ending
|
|
work -- not to heap up riches, not to live grandly or
|
|
gaily, not to live upon enough, however coarse; but to
|
|
earn bare bread: to scrape together just enough to
|
|
toil upon, and want upon, and keep alive in us the
|
|
consciousness of our hard fate! Oh Meg, Meg!' she
|
|
raised her voice and twined her arms about her as she
|
|
spoke, like one in pain. 'How can the cruel world go
|
|
round, and bear to look upon such lives!'
|
|
|
|
'Lilly!' said Meg, soothing her, and putting back
|
|
her hair from her wet face. 'Why Lilly! You!
|
|
So pretty and so young!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh Meg!' she interrupted, holding her at arm's-
|
|
length, and looking in her face imploringly. 'The
|
|
worst of all, the worst of all! Strike me old, Meg!
|
|
Wither me, and shrivel me, and free me from the
|
|
dreadful thoughts that tempt me in my youth!'
|
|
|
|
Trotty turned to look upon his guide. But, the
|
|
Spirit of the child had taken flight. Was gone.
|
|
Neither did he himself remain in the same place;
|
|
for, Sir Joseph Bowley, Friend and Father of the
|
|
Poor, held a great festivity at Bowley Hall, in hon-
|
|
our of the natal day of Lady Bowley. And as Lady
|
|
Bowley had been born on New Year's Day (which
|
|
the local newspapers considered an especial pointing
|
|
of the finger of Providence to number One. as Lady
|
|
Bowley's destined figure in Creation). it was on a
|
|
New Year's Day that this festivity took place.
|
|
|
|
Bowley Hall was full of visitors. The red-faced
|
|
gentleman was there, Mr. Filer was there, the great
|
|
Alderman Cute was there -- Alderman Cute had a
|
|
sympathetic feeling with grat people, and had con-
|
|
siderably improved his acquaintance with Sir Joseph
|
|
Bowley on the strength of his attentive letter: indeed
|
|
had become quite a friend of the family since then --
|
|
and many guests were there. Trotty's ghost was
|
|
there, wandering about, poor phantom, drearily; and
|
|
looking for its guide.
|
|
|
|
There was to be a great dinner in the Great Hall.
|
|
At which Sir Joseph Bowley, in his celebrated char-
|
|
acter of Friend and Father, of the Poor, was to make
|
|
his great speech. Certain plum-puddings were to be
|
|
eaten by his Friends and Children in another Hall
|
|
first; and, at a given signal, Friends and Children
|
|
flocking in among their Friends and Fathers, were to
|
|
form a family assemblage, with not one manly eye
|
|
therein unmoistened by emotion.
|
|
|
|
But, there was more than this to happen. Even
|
|
more than this. Sir Joseph Bowley, Baronet and
|
|
Member of Parliament, was to play a match at skittles
|
|
-- real skittles -- with his tenants!
|
|
|
|
'Which quite reminds me,' said Alderman Cute,
|
|
'of the days of old King Hal, stout King Hal, bluff
|
|
King Hal. Ah. Fine character!'
|
|
|
|
'Very,' said Mr. Filer, dryly. 'For marrying women
|
|
and murdering 'em. Considerably more than the av-
|
|
erage number of wives by the bye.'
|
|
|
|
'You'll marry the beautiful ladies, and not murder
|
|
'em, eh?' said Alderman Cute to the heir of Bowley,
|
|
aged twelve. 'Sweet boy! We shall have this little
|
|
gentleman in Parliament now,' said the Alderman,
|
|
holding him by the shoulders, and looking as re-
|
|
flective as he could, 'before we know where we are.
|
|
We shall hear of his successes at the poll; his speeches
|
|
in the House; his overtures from Governments; his
|
|
brilliant achievements of all kinds; ah! we shall make
|
|
our little orations about him in the Common Council,
|
|
I'll be bound; before we have time to look about us!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, the difference of shoes and stockings!' Trotty
|
|
thought. But his heart yearned towards the child,
|
|
for the love of those same shoeless and stockingless
|
|
boys, predestined (by the Alderman) to turn out bad,
|
|
who might have been the children of poor Meg.
|
|
|
|
'Richard,' moaned Trotty, roaming among the com-
|
|
pany, to and fro; 'where is he? I can't find Richard!
|
|
Where is Richard?'
|
|
|
|
Not likely to be there, if still alive! But Trotty's
|
|
grief and solitude confused him; and he still went
|
|
wandering among the gallant company, looking for
|
|
his guide, and saying, 'Where is Richard? Show me
|
|
Richard!'
|
|
|
|
He was wandering thus, when he encountered Mr.
|
|
Fish, the confidential Secretary: in great agitation.
|
|
|
|
'Bless my heart and soul!~ cried Mr. Fish. 'Where's
|
|
Alderman Cute? Has anybody seen the Alderman?'
|
|
|
|
Seen the Alderman? Oh dear! Who could ever
|
|
help seeing the Alderman? He was so considerate,
|
|
so affable, he bore so much in mind the natural desires
|
|
of folks to see him, that if he had a fault, it was the
|
|
being constantly On View. And wherever the great
|
|
people were, there, to be sure, attracted by the kindred
|
|
sympathy between great souls, was Cute.
|
|
|
|
Several voices cried that he was in the circle round
|
|
Sir Joseph. Mr. Fish made way there; found him;
|
|
and took him secretly into a window near at hand.
|
|
Trotty joined them. Not of his own accord. He
|
|
felt that his steps were led in that direction.
|
|
|
|
'My dear Alderman Cute,' said Mr. Fish. 'A little
|
|
more this way. The most dreadful circumstance has
|
|
occurred. I have this moment received the intelli-
|
|
gence. I think it will be best not to acquaint Sir
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Joseph with it till the day is over. You understand
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Sir Joseph, and will give me your opinion. The most
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frightful and deplorable event!'
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'Fish!' returned the Alderman. 'Fish! My good
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fellow what is the matter? Nothing revolutionary,
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I hope! No -- no attempted interference with the
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magistrates?'
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'Deedles, the banker,' gasped the Secretary.
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'Deedles Brothers -- who was to have been here to-
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day -- high in office in the Goldsmiths' Company --'
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'Not stopped!' exclaimed the Alderman. 'It can't
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be!'
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'Shot himself!'
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'Good God!'
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'Put a double-barrelled pistol to his mouth, in his
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own counting-house,' said Mr. Fish, 'and blew his
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brains out. No motive. Princely circumstances!'
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'Circumstances!' exclaimed the Alderman. 'A man
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of noble fortune. One of the most respectable of
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men. Suicide, Mr. Fish! By his own hand!'
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'This very morning,' returned Mr. Fish.
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'Oh the brain, the brain!' exclaimed the pious Alder-
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man, lifting up his hands. 'Oh the nerves, the nerves;
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the mysteries of this machine called Man! Oh the
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little that unhinges it: poor creatures that we are!
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Perhaps a dinner, Mr. Fish. Perhaps the conduct
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of his son, who, I have heard, ran very wild, and was
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in the habit of drawing bills upon him without the
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|
least authority! A most respectable man. One of
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the most respectable men I ever knew! A lamentable
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instance, Mr. Fish. A public calamity! I shall make
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a point of wearing the deepest mourning. A most
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|
respectable man! But there is One above. We must
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submit, Mr. Fish. We must submit!'
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What, Alderman! No word of Putting Down?
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Remember, Justice, your high moral boast and pride.
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Come, Alderman! Balance those scales. Throw me
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into this, the empty one, no dinner, and Nature's
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founts in some poor woman, dried by starving misery
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and rendered obdurate to claims for which her off-
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spring has authority in holy mother Eve. Weigh me
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the two, you Daniel, going to judgement, when your
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|
day shall come! Weigh them, in the eyes of suffering
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|
thousands, audience (not unmindful) of the grim
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farce you play. Or supposing that you strayed from
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|
your five wits -- it's not so far to go, but that it might
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|
be -- and laid hands upon that throat of yours, warn-
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|
ing your fellows (if you have a fellow) how they
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croak their comfortable wickedness to raving heads
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and stricken hearts. What then?
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The words rose up in Trotty's breast, as if they had
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been spoken by some other voice within him. Alder-
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man Cute pledged himself to Mr. Fish that he would
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|
assist him in breaking the melancholy catastrophe to
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Sir Joseph when the day was over. Then, before
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they parted, wringing Mr. Fish's hand in bitterness
|
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of soul, he said, 'The most respectable of men!' And
|
|
added that he hardly knew (not even he), why such
|
|
afflictions were allowed on earth.
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'It's almost enough to make one think, if one didn't
|
|
know better,' said Alderman Cute, 'that at times some
|
|
motion of a capsizing nature was going on in things,
|
|
which affected the general economy of the social fab-
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|
ric. Deedles Brothers!'
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The skittle-playing came off which immense suc-
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|
cess. Sir Joseph knocked the pins about quite skil-
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|
fully; Master Bowley took an innings at a shorter
|
|
distance also; and everybody said that now, when a
|
|
Baronet and the Son of a Baronet played at skittles,
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|
the country was coming round again, as fast as it
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could come.
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At its proper time, the Banquet was served up.
|
|
Trotty involuntarily repaired to the Hall with the
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|
rest, for he felt himself conducted thither by some
|
|
stronger impulse than his own free will. The sight
|
|
was gay in the extreme; the ladies were very hand-
|
|
some; the visitors delighted, cheerful, and good-tem-
|
|
pered. When the lower doors were opened, and the
|
|
people flockcd in, in their rustic dresses, the beauty
|
|
of the spectacle was at its height; but Trotty only
|
|
murmured more and more, 'Where is Richard! He
|
|
should help and comfort her! I can't see Richard!'
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|
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|
There had been some speeches made; and Lady
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|
Bowley's health had been proposed; and Sir Joseph
|
|
Bowley had returned thanks, and had made his great
|
|
speech, showing by various pieces of evidence that he
|
|
was the born Friend and Father, and so forth; and
|
|
had given as a Toast, his Friends and Children, and
|
|
the Dignity of Labour; when a slight disturbance at
|
|
the bottom of the Hall attracted Toby's notice. After
|
|
some confusion, noise, and opposition, one man broke
|
|
through the rest, and stood forward by himself.
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|
|
|
Not Richard. No. But one whom he had thought
|
|
of, and had looked for, many times. In a scantier
|
|
supply of light, he might have doubted the identity
|
|
of that worn man, so old, and grey, and bent; but
|
|
with a blaze of lamps upon his gnarled and knotted
|
|
head, he knew Will Fern as soon as he stepped forth.
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|
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|
'What is this!' exclaimed Sir Joseph, rising. 'Who
|
|
gave this man admittance? This is a criminal from
|
|
prison! Mr. Fish, sir, will you have the goodness --'
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|
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|
'A minute!' said Will Fern. 'A minute! My
|
|
Lady, you was born on this day along with a New
|
|
Year. Get me a minute's leave to speak.'
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|
|
|
She made some intercession for him. Sir Joseph
|
|
took his seat again, with native dignity.
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|
|
|
The ragged visitor -- for he was miserably dressed
|
|
-- looked round upon the company, and made his
|
|
homage to them with a humble bow
|
|
|
|
'Gentlefolks!' he said. 'You've drunk the Labourer.
|
|
Look at me!'
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|
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|
'Just come from jail,' said Mr. Fish.
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|
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|
'Just come from jail,' said Will. 'And neither for
|
|
the first time, nor the second, nor the third, nor yet
|
|
the fourth.'
|
|
|
|
Mr. Filer was heard to remark testily, that four
|
|
times was over the average; and he ought to be
|
|
ashamed of himself.
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|
|
|
'Gentlefolks!' repeated Will Fern. 'Look at me!
|
|
You see I'm at the worst. Beyond all hurt or harm;
|
|
beyond your help; for the time when your kind words
|
|
or kind actions could have done ME good,' he struck
|
|
his hand upon his breast, and shook his head, 'is gone,
|
|
with the scent of last year's beans or clover on the
|
|
air. Let me say a word for these,' pointing to the
|
|
labouring people in the Hall; 'and when you're met
|
|
together, hear the real Truth spoke out for once.'
|
|
|
|
'There's not a man here,' said the host, 'who would
|
|
have him for a spokesman.'
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|
|
|
'Like enough, Sir Joseph. I believe it. Not the
|
|
less true, perhaps, is what I say. Perhaps that's a
|
|
proof on it. Gentlefolks, I've lived many a year in
|
|
this place. You may see the cottage from the sunk
|
|
fence over yonder. I've seen the ladies draw it in
|
|
their books, a hundred times. It looks well in a
|
|
picter, I've heerd say; but there an't weather in pic-
|
|
ters, and maybe 'tis fitter for that, than for a place
|
|
to live in. Well! I lived there. How hard -- how bitter
|
|
hard, I lived there, I won't say. Any day in the year,
|
|
and every day, you can judge for your own selves.'
|
|
|
|
He spoke as he had spoken on the night when
|
|
Trotty found him in the street. His voice was deeper
|
|
and more husky, and had a trembling in it now and
|
|
then; but he never raised it passionately, and seldom
|
|
lifted it above the firm stern level of the homely
|
|
facts he stated.
|
|
|
|
' 'Tis harder than you think for, gentlefolks, to
|
|
grow up decent, commonly decent, in such a place.
|
|
That I growed up a man and not a brute, says some-
|
|
thing for me -- as I was then. As I am now, there's
|
|
nothing can be said for me or done for me. I'm
|
|
past it.'
|
|
|
|
'I am glad this man has entered,' observed Sir
|
|
Joseph, looking round serenely. 'Don't disturb him.
|
|
It appears to be Ordained. He is an example: a
|
|
living example. I hope and trust. and confidently
|
|
expect, that it will not be lost upon my Friends here.'
|
|
|
|
'I dragged on,' said Fern, after a moment's silence,
|
|
'somehow. Neither me nor any other man knows
|
|
how; but so heavy, that I couldn't put a cheerful face
|
|
upon it, or make believe that I was anything but what
|
|
I was. Now, gentlemen -- you gentlemen that sits at
|
|
Sessions -- when you see a man with discontent writ
|
|
on his face, you says to one another, "He's suspicious.
|
|
I has my doubts," says you, "about Will Fern
|
|
Watch that fellow!" I don't say, gentlemen, it an't
|
|
quite nat'ral, but I say 'tis so; and from that hour,
|
|
whatever Will Fern does, or lets alone -- all one -- it
|
|
goes against him.'
|
|
|
|
Alderman Cute stuck his thumbs in his waistcoat-
|
|
pockets, and leaning back in his chair, and smiling
|
|
winked at a neighbouring chandelier. As much as
|
|
to say, 'Of course! I told you so. The common cry!
|
|
Lord bless you, we are up to all this sort of thing --
|
|
myself and human nature.'
|
|
|
|
'Now, gentlemen,' said Will Fern, holding out his
|
|
hands, and flushing for an instant in his haggard face,
|
|
'see how your laws are made to trap and hunt us
|
|
when we're brought to this. I tries to live elsewhere.
|
|
And I'm a vagabond. To jail with him! I comes
|
|
back here. I goes a-nutting in your woods, and breaks
|
|
-- who don't? -- a limber branch or two. To jail with
|
|
him! One of your keepers sees me in the broad day,
|
|
near my own patch of garden, with a gun. To jail
|
|
with him! I has a nat'ral angry word with that man,
|
|
when I'm free again! To jail with him! I cuts a
|
|
stick. To jail with him! I eats a rotten apple or a
|
|
turnip. To jail with him! It's twenty mile away;
|
|
and coming back I begs a trifle on the road. To jail
|
|
with him! At last, the constable, the keeper -- any-
|
|
body -- finds me anywhere, a-doing anything. To jail
|
|
with him, for he's a vagrant, and a jail-bird known;
|
|
and the jail's the only home he's got.'
|
|
|
|
The Alderman nodded sagaciously, as who should
|
|
say, 'A very good home too!'
|
|
|
|
'Do I say this to serve MY cause!' cried Fcrn.
|
|
'Who can give me back my liberty, who can give me
|
|
back my good name, who can give me back my in-
|
|
nocent niece? Not all the Lords and Ladies in wide
|
|
England. But gentlemen, gentlemen, dealing with
|
|
other men like me, begin at the right end. Give us,
|
|
in mercy, better homes when we're a-lying in our
|
|
cradles; give us better food when we're a-working for
|
|
our lives; give us kinder laws to bring us back where
|
|
we're a-going wrong; and don't set Jail, Jail, Jail,
|
|
afore us, everywhere we turn. There an't a con-
|
|
descension you can show the Labourer then, that he
|
|
won't take, as ready and as grateful as a man can
|
|
be; for, he has a patient, peaceful, willing heart. But
|
|
you must put his rightful spirit in him first; for,
|
|
whether he's a wreck and ruin such as me, or is like
|
|
one of them that stand here now, his spirit is divided
|
|
from you at this time. Bring it back, gentlefolks,
|
|
bring it back! Bring it back, afore the day comes
|
|
when even his Bible changes in his altered mind, and
|
|
the words seem to him to read, as they have some-
|
|
times read in my own eyes -- in Jail: "Whither thou
|
|
goest, I can Not go; where thou lodgest, I do Not
|
|
lodge; thy people are Not my people; Nor thy God
|
|
my God!" '
|
|
|
|
A sudden stir and agitation took place in the Hall.
|
|
Trotty though at first, that several had risen to eject
|
|
the man; and hence this change in its appearance.
|
|
But, another moment showed him that the room and
|
|
all the company had vanished from his sight, and
|
|
that his daughter was again before him, seated at her
|
|
work. But in a poorer, meaner garret than before;
|
|
and with no Lilian by her side.
|
|
|
|
The frame at which she had worked, was put away
|
|
upon a shelf and covered up. The chair in which
|
|
she had sat, was turned against the wall. A history
|
|
was Written in these little things, and in Meg's grief-
|
|
worn face. Oh! who could fail to read it!
|
|
|
|
Meg strained her eyes upon her work until it was
|
|
too dark to see the threads; and when the night closed
|
|
in, she lighted her feeble candle and worked on. Still
|
|
her old father was invisible about her; looking down
|
|
upon her; loving her -- how dearly loving her! -- and
|
|
talking to her in a tender voice about the old times,
|
|
and the Bells. Though he knew, poor Trotty, though
|
|
he knew she could not hear him.
|
|
|
|
A great part of the evening had worn away, when
|
|
a knock came at her door. She opened it. A man
|
|
was on the threshold. A slouching, moody, drunken
|
|
sloven, wasted by intemperance and vice, and with his
|
|
matted hair and unshorn beard in wild disorder; but,
|
|
with some traces on him, too, of having been a man
|
|
of good proportion and good features in his youth.
|
|
|
|
He stopped until he had her leave to enter; and
|
|
she, retiring a pace or two from the open door, silently
|
|
and sorrowfully looked upon him. Trotty had his
|
|
wish. He saw Richard.
|
|
|
|
'May I come in, Margaret?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes! Come in. Come in!'
|
|
|
|
It was well that Trotty knew him before he spoke;
|
|
for with any doubt remaining on his mind, the harsh
|
|
discordant voice would have persuaded him that it
|
|
was not Richard but some other man.
|
|
|
|
There were but two chairs in the room. She gave
|
|
him hers, and stood at some short distance from him,
|
|
waiting to hear what he had to say.
|
|
|
|
He sat, however, staring vacantly at the floor; with
|
|
a lustreless and stupid smile. A spectacle of such
|
|
deep degradation, of such abject hopelessness, of such
|
|
a miserable downfall, that she put her hands before
|
|
her face and turned away, lest he should see how
|
|
much it moved her. .
|
|
|
|
Roused by the rustling of her dress, or some such
|
|
trifling sound, he lifted his head, and began to speak
|
|
as if there had been no pause since he entered.
|
|
|
|
'Still at work, Margaret? You work late.'
|
|
|
|
'I generally do.'
|
|
|
|
'And early?'
|
|
|
|
'And early.'
|
|
|
|
'So she said. She said you never tired; or never
|
|
owned that you tired. Not all the time you lived
|
|
together. Not even when you fainted, between work
|
|
and fasting. But I told you that, the last time I
|
|
came.'
|
|
|
|
'You did,' she answered. 'And I implored you to
|
|
tell me nothing more; and you made me a solemn
|
|
promise, Richard, that you never would.'
|
|
|
|
'A solemn promise,' he repeated, with a drivelling
|
|
laugh and vacant stare. 'A solemn promise. To be
|
|
sure. A solemn promise!' Awakening, as it were,
|
|
after a time; in the same manner as before; he said
|
|
with sudden animation:
|
|
|
|
'How can I help it, Margaret? What am I to do?
|
|
She has been to me again!'
|
|
|
|
'Again!' cried Meg, clasping her hands. '0, does
|
|
she think of me so often! Has she been again!'
|
|
|
|
'Twenty times again,' said Richard. 'Margaret, she
|
|
haunts me. She comes behind me in the street, and
|
|
thrusts it in my hand. I hear her foot upon the ashes
|
|
when I'm at my work (ha, ha! that an't often), and
|
|
before I can turn my head, her voice is in my ear,
|
|
saying, "Richard, don't look round. For Heaven's
|
|
love, give her this!" She brings it where I live; she
|
|
ends it in letters; she taps at the window and lays
|
|
it on the sill. What can I do? Look at it!'
|
|
|
|
He held out in his hand a little purse, and chinked
|
|
the money it enclosed.
|
|
|
|
'Hide it,' said Meg. 'Hide it! When she comes
|
|
again, tell her, Richard, that I love her in my soul.
|
|
That I never lie down to sleep, but I bless her, and
|
|
pray for her. That, in my solitary work, I never
|
|
cease to have her in my thoughts. That she is with
|
|
me, night and day. That if I died to-morrow, I
|
|
would remember her with my last breath. But, that
|
|
I cannot look upon it!'
|
|
|
|
He slowly recalled his hand, and crushing the purse
|
|
together, said with a kind of drowsy thoughtfulness:
|
|
|
|
'I told her so. I told her so, as plain as words
|
|
could speak. I've taken this gift back and left it at
|
|
her door, a dozen times since then. But when she
|
|
came at last, and stood before me, face to face, what
|
|
could I do?'
|
|
|
|
'You saw her!' exclaimed Meg. 'You saw her!
|
|
O Lilian, my sweet girl! 0, Lilian, Lilian!'
|
|
|
|
'I saw her,' he went on to say, not answering, but
|
|
engaged in the same slow pursuit of his own thoughts.
|
|
'There she stood: trembling! "How does she look,
|
|
Richard? Does she ever speak of me? Is she
|
|
thinner? My old place at the table: what's in my old
|
|
place? And the frame she taught me our old work
|
|
on -- has she burnt it, Richard!" There she was. I
|
|
heard her say it.'
|
|
|
|
Meg checked her sobs, and with the tears stream-
|
|
ing from her eyes, bent over him to listen. Not to
|
|
lose a breath.
|
|
|
|
With his arms resting on his knees; and stooping
|
|
forward in his chair, as if what he said were written
|
|
on the ground in some half legible character, which it
|
|
was his occupation to decipher and connect; he went
|
|
on.
|
|
|
|
' "Richard, I have fallen very low; and you may
|
|
guess how much I have suffered in having this sent
|
|
back, when I can bear to bring it in my hand to you.
|
|
But you loved her once, even in my memory, dearly.
|
|
Others stepped in between you; fears, and jealousies,
|
|
and doubts, and vanities, estranged you from her;
|
|
but you did love her, even in my memory!" I suppose
|
|
I did,' he said, interrupting himself for a moment.
|
|
'I did! That's neither here nor there. "O Richard,
|
|
if you ever did: if you have any memory for what is
|
|
gone and lost, take it to her once more. Once more!
|
|
Tell her how I laid my head upon your shoulder,
|
|
where her own head might have lain, and was so
|
|
humble to you, Richard. Tell her that you looked into
|
|
my face, and saw the beauty which she used to praise,
|
|
all gone: all gone: and in its place, a poor, wan,
|
|
hollow cheek, that she would weep to see. Tell her
|
|
everything, and take it back and she will not refuse
|
|
again. She will not have the heart!
|
|
|
|
So he sat musing, and repeating the last words,
|
|
until he woke again, and rose.
|
|
|
|
'You won't take it, Margaret?'
|
|
|
|
She shook her head, and motioned an entreaty to
|
|
him to leave her.
|
|
|
|
'Good-night, Margaret.'
|
|
|
|
'Good-night!'
|
|
|
|
He turned to look upon her; struck by her sorrow,
|
|
and perhaps by the pity for himself which trembled
|
|
in her voice. It was a quick and rapid action; and
|
|
for the moment some flash of his old bearing kindled
|
|
in his form. In the next he went as he had come.
|
|
Nor did this glimmer of a quenched fire seem to light
|
|
him to a quicker sense oi his debasement.
|
|
|
|
In any mood, in any grief, in any torture of the
|
|
mind or body, Meg's work must be done. She sat
|
|
down to her task, and plied it. Night, midnight.
|
|
Still she worked.
|
|
|
|
She had a meagre fire, the night being very cold;
|
|
and rose at intervals to mend it. The Chimes rang
|
|
half-past twelve while she was thus engaged; and
|
|
when they ceased she heard a gentle knocking at the
|
|
door. Before she could so much as wonder who was
|
|
there, at that unusual hour, it opened.
|
|
|
|
O Youth and Beauty, happy as ye should be, look
|
|
at this. O Youth and Beauty, blest and blessing all
|
|
within your reach, and working out the ends of your
|
|
Beneficent Creator, look at this!
|
|
|
|
She saw the entering figure; screamed its name;
|
|
cried 'Lilian!'
|
|
|
|
It was swift, and fell upon its knees before her:
|
|
clinging to her dress.
|
|
|
|
'Up, dear! Up! Lilian! My own dearest!'
|
|
|
|
'Never more, Meg; never more! Here! Here!
|
|
Close to you, holding to you, feeling your dear breath
|
|
upon my face'
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|
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|
'Sweet Lilian! Darling Lilian! Child of my heart
|
|
-- no mother's love can be more tender -- lay your
|
|
head upon my breast!'
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|
|
|
'Never more, Meg. Never more! When I first
|
|
looked into your face, you knelt before me. On my
|
|
knees before you, let me die. Let it be here!'
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|
|
|
'You have come back. My Treasure! We will
|
|
live together, work together, hope together, die to-
|
|
gether!'
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|
|
|
'Ah! Kiss my lips, Meg; fold your arms about
|
|
me; press me to your bosom; look kindly on me; but
|
|
don't raise me. Let it be here. Let me see the last
|
|
of your dear face upon my knees!'
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|
|
|
O Youth and Beauty, happy as ye should be, look
|
|
at this! O Youth and Beauty, working out the ends
|
|
of your Beneficent Creator, look at this!
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|
|
|
'Forgive me, Meg! So dear, so dear! Forgivo me!
|
|
I know you do, I see you do, but say so, Meg!'
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|
|
|
She said so, with her lips on Lilian's cheek. And
|
|
with her arms twined round -- she knew it now -- a
|
|
broken heart.
|
|
|
|
'His blessing on you, dearest love. Kiss me once
|
|
more! He suffered her to sit beside His feet, and
|
|
dry them with her hair. O Meg, what Mercy and
|
|
Compassion!'
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|
|
|
As she died, the Spirit of the child returning, inno-
|
|
cent and radiant, touched the old man with its hand,
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|
and beckoned him away.
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|
FOURTH QUARTER
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|
Some new remembrance of the ghostly figures in the
|
|
Bell; some faint impression of the ringing of the
|
|
Chimes; some giddy consciousness of having seen
|
|
the swarm of phantoms reproduced and reproduced
|
|
until the recollection of them lost itself in the con-
|
|
fusion of their numbers; some hurried knowledge,
|
|
how conveyed to him he knew not, that more years
|
|
had passed; and Trotty, with the Spirit of the child
|
|
attending him, stood looking on at mortal company.
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|
|
|
Fat company, rosy-cheeked company, comfortable
|
|
company. They were but two, but they were red
|
|
enough for ten. They sat before a bright fire, with
|
|
a small low table between them; and unless the fra-
|
|
grance of hot tea and muffins lingered longer in that
|
|
room than in most others, the table had seen service
|
|
very lately. But all the cups and saucers being clean,
|
|
and in their proper places in the corner-cupboard; and
|
|
the brass toasting-fork hanging in its usual nook and
|
|
spreading its four idle fingers out as if it wanted to
|
|
be measured for a glove; there remained no other
|
|
visible tokens of the meal just finished, than such as
|
|
purred and washed their whiskers in the person of
|
|
the basking cat, and glistened in the gracious, not to
|
|
say the greasy, faces of her patrons.
|
|
|
|
This cosy couple (married, evidently) had made a
|
|
fair division of the fire between them, and sat looking
|
|
at the glowing sparks that dropped into the grate;
|
|
now nodding off into a doze; now waking up again
|
|
when some hot fragment, larger than the rest, came
|
|
rattling down, as if the fire were coming with it.
|
|
|
|
It was in no danger of sudden extinction, however;
|
|
for it gleamed not only in the little room, and on the
|
|
panes of window-glass in the door, and on the cur-
|
|
tain half drawn across them, but in the little shop
|
|
beyond. A little shop, quite crammed and choked
|
|
with the abundance of its stock; a perfectly voracious
|
|
little shop, with a maw as accommodating and full aa
|
|
any shark's. Cheese, butter, firewood, soap, pickles
|
|
matches, bacon, table-beer, peg-tops, sweetmeats
|
|
boys' kites, bird-seed, cold ham, birch brooms, hearth_
|
|
stones, salt, vinegar, blacking, red-herrings, station-
|
|
ery, lard, mushroom-ketchup, staylaces, loaves of
|
|
bread, shuttlecocks, eggs, and slate pencil; everything
|
|
was fish that came to the net of this greedy little
|
|
shop, and all articles were in its net. How many
|
|
other kinds of petty merchandise were there, it would
|
|
be difficult to say; but balls of packthread, ropes of
|
|
onions, pounds of candles, cabbage-nets, and brushes,
|
|
hung in bunches from the ceiling, like extraordinary
|
|
fruit; while various odd canisters emitting aromatic
|
|
smells, established the veracity of the inscription over
|
|
the outer door, which informed the public that the
|
|
keeper of this little shop was a licensed dealer in
|
|
tea, coffee, tobacco, pepper, and snuff.
|
|
|
|
Glancing at such of these articles as were visible
|
|
in the shining of the blaze, and the less cheerful
|
|
radiance of two smoky lamps which burnt but dimly
|
|
in the shop itself, as though its plethora sat heavy on
|
|
their lungs; and glancing, then, at one of the two
|
|
faces by the parlour-fire; Trotty had small difficulty
|
|
in recognising in the stout old lady, Mrs. Chicken-
|
|
stalker: always inclined to corpulency, even in the
|
|
days when he had known her as established in the
|
|
general line, and having a small balance against him
|
|
in her books.
|
|
|
|
The features of her companion were less easy to
|
|
him. The great broad chin, with creases in it large
|
|
enough to hide a finger in; the astonished eyes, that -
|
|
seemed to expostulate with themselves for sinking
|
|
deeper and deeper into the yielding fat of the soft
|
|
face; the nose afflicted with that disordered action of
|
|
its functions which is generally termed The Snuffles;
|
|
the short thick throat and labouring chest, with other
|
|
beauties of the like description; though calculated to
|
|
impress the memory, Trotty could at first allot to
|
|
nobody he had ever known: and yet he had some
|
|
recollection of them too. At length, in Mrs. Chicken-
|
|
stalker's partner in the general line, and in the crooked
|
|
and eccentric line of life, he recognised the former
|
|
porter of Sir Joseph Bowley; an apoplectic innocent,
|
|
who had connected himself in Trotty's mind with
|
|
Mrs. Chickenstalker years ago, by giving him admis-
|
|
sion to the mansion where he had confessed his obli-
|
|
gations to that lady, and drawn on his unlucky head
|
|
such grave reproach.
|
|
|
|
Trotty had little interest in a change like this, after
|
|
the changes he had seen; but association is very
|
|
strong sometimes; and he looked involuntarily be-
|
|
hind the parlour-door, where the accounts of credit
|
|
customers were usually kept in chalk. There was no
|
|
record of his name. Some names were there, but they
|
|
were strange to him, and infinitely fewer than of old;
|
|
from which he argued that the porter was an advo-
|
|
cate of ready money transactions, and on coming into
|
|
the business had looked pretty sharp after the Chick-
|
|
enstalker defaulters.
|
|
|
|
So desolate was Trotty, and so mournful for the
|
|
youth and promise of his blighted child, that it was
|
|
a sorrow to him, even to have no place in Mrs.
|
|
Chickenstalker's ledger.
|
|
|
|
'What sort of a night is it, Anne?' inquired the
|
|
former porter of Sir Joseph Bowley, stretching out
|
|
his legs before the fire, and rubbing as much of them
|
|
as his short arms could reach; with an air that added,
|
|
'Here I am if it's bad, and I don't want to go out
|
|
if it's good.'
|
|
|
|
'Blowing and sleeting hard,' returned his wife; 'and
|
|
threatening snow. Dark. And very cold.'
|
|
|
|
'I'm glad to think we had muffins,' said the former
|
|
porter, in the tone of one who had set his conscience
|
|
at rest. 'It's a sort of night that's meant for muf-
|
|
fins. Likewise crumpets. Also Sally Lunns.'
|
|
|
|
The former porter mentioned each successive kind
|
|
of eatable, as if he were musingly summing up his
|
|
good actions. After which he rubbed his fat legs as
|
|
before, and jerking them at the knees to get the fire
|
|
upon the yet unroasted parts, laughed as if some-
|
|
body had tickled him.
|
|
|
|
'You're in spirits, Tugby, my dear,' observed his
|
|
wife.
|
|
|
|
The firm was Tugby, late Chickenstalker.
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Tugby. 'No. Not particular. I'm a
|
|
little elewated. The muffins came so pat!'
|
|
|
|
With that he chuckled until he was black in the
|
|
face; and had so much ado to become any other
|
|
colour, that his fat legs took the strangest excursions
|
|
into the air. Nor were they reduced to anything like
|
|
decorum until Mrs. Tugby had thumped him vio-
|
|
lently on the back, and shaken him as if he were
|
|
a great bottle.
|
|
|
|
'Good gracious, goodness, lord-a-mercy bless and
|
|
save the man!' cried Mrs. Tugby, in great terror.
|
|
'What's he doing?'
|
|
|
|
Mr. Tugby wiped his eyes, and faintly repeated,
|
|
that he found himself a little elewated.
|
|
|
|
'Then don't be so again, that's a dear good soul,'
|
|
said Mrs. Tugby, 'if you don't want to frighten me
|
|
to death, with your struggling and fighting!'
|
|
|
|
Mr. Tugby said he wouldn't; but his whole exist-
|
|
ence was a fight, in which, if any judgment might be
|
|
founded on the constantly-increasing shortness of his
|
|
breath, and the deepening purple of his face, he was
|
|
always getting the worst of it.
|
|
|
|
'So it's blowing, and sleeting, and threatening
|
|
snow; and it's dark, and very cold, is it, my dear?
|
|
said Mr. Tugby, looking at the fire, and reverting
|
|
to the cream and marrow of his temporary elevation.
|
|
|
|
'Hard weather indeed,' returned his wife, shaking
|
|
her head.
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye! Years,' said Mr. Tugby, 'are like Chris-
|
|
tians in that respect. Some of 'em die hard; some
|
|
of 'em die easy. This one hasn't many days to run,
|
|
and is making a fight for it. I like him all the better.
|
|
There's a customer, my love!'
|
|
|
|
Attentive to the rattling door, Mrs. Tugby had
|
|
already risen.
|
|
|
|
'Now then!' said that lady, passing out into the
|
|
little shop. 'What's wanted? Oh! I beg your pardon,
|
|
sir, I'm sure. I didn't think it was you.'
|
|
|
|
She made this apology to a gentleman in black,
|
|
who with his wristbands tucked up, and his hat
|
|
cocked loungingly on one side, and his hands in his
|
|
pockets, sat down astride on the table-beer barrel,
|
|
and nodded in return.
|
|
|
|
'This is a bad business upstairs, Mrs. Tugby,' said
|
|
the gentleman. 'The man can't live.'
|
|
|
|
'Not the back-attic can't!' cried Tugby, coming
|
|
out into the shop to join the conference.
|
|
|
|
'The back-attic, Mr. Tugby,' said the gentleman,
|
|
'is coming downstairs fast, and will be below the
|
|
basement very soon.'
|
|
|
|
Looking by turns at Tugby and his wife, he
|
|
sounded the barrel with his knuckles for the depth
|
|
of beer, and having found it, played a tune upon
|
|
the empty part.
|
|
|
|
'The back-attic, Mr. Tugby,' said the gentleman:
|
|
Tugby having stood in silent consternation for some
|
|
time: 'is Going.'
|
|
|
|
'Then,' said Tugby, turning to his wife, 'he must
|
|
Go, you know, before he's Gone.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't think you can move him,' said the gentle-
|
|
man, shaking his head. 'I wouldn't take the respon-
|
|
sibility of saying it could be done, myself. You had
|
|
better leave him where he is. He can't live long.'
|
|
|
|
'It's the only subject,' said Tugby, bringing the
|
|
butter-scale down upon the counter with a crash, by
|
|
weighing his fist on it, 'that we've ever had a word
|
|
upon; she and me; and look what it comes to! He's
|
|
going to die here, after all. Going to die upon the
|
|
premises. Going to die in our house!'
|
|
|
|
'And where should he have died, Tugby?' cried
|
|
his wife.
|
|
|
|
'In the workhouse,' he returned. 'What are work-
|
|
houses made for?'
|
|
|
|
'Not for that,' said Mrs. Tugby, with great energy.
|
|
'Not for that! Neither did I marry you for that,
|
|
Don't think it, Tugby. I won't have it. I won't.
|
|
allow it. I'd be separated first, and never see your
|
|
face again. When my widow's name stood over that
|
|
door, as it did for many years: this house being
|
|
known as Mrs. Chickenstalker's far and wide, and
|
|
never known but to its honest credit and its good
|
|
report: when my widow's name stood over that door,
|
|
Tugby, I knew him as a handsome, steady, manly,
|
|
independent youth; I knew her as the sweetest-look-
|
|
ing, sweetest-tempered girl, eyes ever saw; I knew
|
|
her father (poor old creetur, he fell down from the
|
|
steeple walking in his sleep, and killed himself), for
|
|
the simplest, hardest-working, childest-hearted man,
|
|
that ever drew the breath of life; and when I turn
|
|
them out of house and home, may angels turn me out
|
|
of Heaven. As they would! And serve me rightl'
|
|
|
|
Her old face, which had been a plump and dimpled
|
|
one before the changes which had come to pass,
|
|
seemed to shine out of her as she said these words;
|
|
and when she dried her eyes, and shook her head and
|
|
her handkerchief at Tugby, with an expression of
|
|
firmness which it was quite clear was not to be easily
|
|
resisted, Trotty said 'Bless her! Bless her!'
|
|
|
|
Then he listened, with a panting heart, for what
|
|
should follow. Knowing nothing yet, but that they
|
|
spoke of Meg.
|
|
|
|
If Tugby had been a little elevated in the parlour,
|
|
he more than balanced that account by being not a
|
|
little depressed in the shop, where he now stood star-
|
|
ing at his wife, without attempting a reply; secretly
|
|
conveying, however -- either in a fit of abstraction or
|
|
as a precautionary measure -- all the money from the
|
|
till into his own pockets, as he looked at her.
|
|
|
|
The gentleman upon the table-beer cask, who ap-
|
|
peared to be some authorised medical attendant upon
|
|
the poor, was far too well accustomed, evidently, to
|
|
little differences of opinion between man and wife,
|
|
to interpose any remark in this instance. He sat
|
|
softly whistling, and turning little drops of beer out
|
|
of the tap upon the ground, until there was a perfect
|
|
calm: when he raised his head, and said to Mrs.
|
|
Tugby, late Chickenstalker:
|
|
|
|
'There's something interesting about the woman,
|
|
even now. How did she come to marry him?'
|
|
|
|
'Why that,' said Mrs. Tugby, taking a seat near
|
|
him, 'is not the least cruel part of her story, sir. You
|
|
see they kept company, she and Richard, many years
|
|
ago. When they were a young and beautiful couple,
|
|
everything was settled, and they were to have been
|
|
married on a New Year's Day. But, somehow, Rich-
|
|
ard got it into his head, through what the gentlemen
|
|
told him, that he might do better, and that he'd soon
|
|
repent it, and that she wasn't good enough for him,
|
|
and that a young man of spirit had no business to
|
|
be married. And the gentlemen frightened her, and
|
|
made her melancholy, and timid of his deserting her,
|
|
and of her children coming to the gallows, and of
|
|
its being wicked to be man and wife, and a good deal
|
|
more of it. And in short, they lingered and lingered,
|
|
and their trust in one another was broken, and so
|
|
at last was the match. But the fault was his. She
|
|
would have married him, sir, joyfully. I've seen her
|
|
heart swell, many times afterwards, when he passed
|
|
her in a proud and careless way; and never did a
|
|
woman grieve more truly for a man, that she for
|
|
Richard when he first went wrong.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh! he went wrong, did he?' said the gentleman
|
|
pulling out the vent-peg of the table-beer, and trying
|
|
to peep down into the barrel through the hole.
|
|
|
|
'Well, sir, I don't know that he rightly understood
|
|
himself, you see. I think his mind was troubled by
|
|
their having broke with one another; and that but
|
|
for being ashamed before the gentlemen, and perhaps
|
|
for being uncertain too, how she might take it, he'd
|
|
have gone through any suffering or trial to have had
|
|
Meg's promise and Meg's hand again. That's my
|
|
belief. He never said so; more's the pity! He took
|
|
to drinking, idling, bad companions: all the fine re-
|
|
sources that were to be so much better for him than
|
|
the Home he might have had. He lost his looks, his
|
|
character, his health, his strength, his friends, his
|
|
work: everything!'
|
|
|
|
'He didn't lose everything, Mrs. Tugby,' returned
|
|
the gentleman, 'because he gained a wife; and I want
|
|
to know how he gained her.'
|
|
|
|
'I'm coming to it, sir, in a moment. This went
|
|
on for years and years; he sinking lower and lower;
|
|
she enduring, poor thing, miseries enough to wear
|
|
her life away. At last, he was so cast down, and
|
|
cast out, that no one would employ or notice him; and
|
|
doors were shut upon him, go where he would. Ap-
|
|
plying from place to place, and door to door; and
|
|
coming for the hundredth time to one gentleman who
|
|
had often and often tried him (he was a good work-
|
|
man to the very end); that gentleman, who knew his
|
|
history, said, "I believe you are incorrigible; there is
|
|
only one person in the world who has a chance of re-
|
|
claiming you; ask me to trust you no more, until she
|
|
tries to do it." Something like that, in his anger
|
|
and vexation.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah!' said the gentleman. 'Well?'
|
|
|
|
'Well, sir, he went to her, and kneeled to her; said
|
|
it was so: said it ever had been so; and made a
|
|
prayer to her to save him.'
|
|
|
|
'And she? -- Don't distress yourself, Mrs. Tugby.'
|
|
|
|
'She came to me that night to ask me about living
|
|
here. "What he was once to me," she said, "is buried
|
|
in a grave, side by side, with what I was to him. But
|
|
I have thought of this; and I will make the trial in
|
|
the hope of saving him; for the love of the light-
|
|
hearted girl (you remember her) who was to have
|
|
been married on a New Year's Day; and for the
|
|
love of her Richard." And she said he had come to
|
|
her from Lilian, and Lilian had trusted to him, and
|
|
she never could forget that. So they were married;
|
|
and when they came home here, and I saw them, I
|
|
hoped that such prophecies as parted them when they
|
|
were young, may not often fulfil themselves as they
|
|
did in this case, or I wouldn't be the makers of them
|
|
for a Mine of Gold.'
|
|
|
|
The gentleman got off the cask, and stretched him-
|
|
self, observing:
|
|
|
|
'I suppose he used her ill, as soon as they were
|
|
married?'
|
|
|
|
'I don't think he ever did that,' said Mrs. Tugby,
|
|
shaking her head, and wiping her eyes. 'He went
|
|
on better for a short time; but, his habits were too
|
|
old and strong to be got rid of; he soon fell back a
|
|
little; and was falling fast back, when his illness
|
|
came so strong upon him. I think he has always
|
|
felt for her. I am sure he has. I have seen him, in
|
|
his crying fits and tremblings, try to kiss her hand;
|
|
and I have heard him call her "Meg," and say it
|
|
was her nineteenth birthday. There he has been
|
|
lying, now, these weeks and months. Between him
|
|
and her baby, she had not been able to do her own
|
|
work; and by not being able to be regular, she has
|
|
lost it, even if she could have done it. How they
|
|
have lived. I hardly know!'
|
|
|
|
'I know,' muttered Mr. Tugby; looking at the till,
|
|
and round the shop, and at his wife; and rolling
|
|
his head with immense intelligence. 'Like Fighting
|
|
Cocks!'
|
|
|
|
He was interrupted by a cry -- a sound of lamenta-
|
|
tion -- from the upper story of the house. The gentle-
|
|
man moved hurriedly to the door.
|
|
|
|
'My friend,' he said, looking back, 'you needn't
|
|
discuss whether he shall be removed or not. He has
|
|
spared you that trouble, I believe.'
|
|
|
|
Saying so, he ran upstairs, followed by Mrs. Tugby;
|
|
while Mr. Tugby panted and grumbled after them
|
|
at leisure: being rendered more than commonly short-
|
|
winded by the weight of the till, in which there had
|
|
been an inconvenient quantity of copper. Trotty
|
|
with the child beside him, floated up the staircase
|
|
like mere air.
|
|
|
|
'Follow her! Follow her! Follow her! ' He heard
|
|
the ghostly voices in the Bells repeat their words
|
|
as he ascended. 'Learn it, from the creature dearest
|
|
to your heart!'
|
|
|
|
It was over. It was over. And this was she, her
|
|
fathers pride and joy! This haggard, wretched
|
|
woman, weeping by the bed, if it deserved that name,
|
|
and pressing to her breast, and hanging down her
|
|
head upon, an infant. Who can tell how spare,
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how sickly, and how poor an infant! Who can tell
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how dear!
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'Thank God!' cried Trotty, holding up his folded
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hands. '0, God be thanked! She loves her child!'
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The gentleman, not otherwise hard-hearted or in-
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different to such scenes, than that he saw them every
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day, and knew that they were figures of no moment
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in the Filer sums -- mere scratches in the working of
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these calculations -- laid his hand upon the heart that
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|
beat no more, and listened for the breath, and said,
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'His pain is over. It's better as it is!' Mrs. Tugby
|
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tried to comfort her with kindness. Mr. Tugby tried
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philosophy.
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'Come, come!' he said, with his hands in his pockets,
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You mustn't give way, you know. That won't do.
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You must fight up. What would have become of me
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if I had given way when I was porter, and we had as
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many as six runaway carriage-doubles at our door
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in one night! But, I fell back upon my strength
|
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of mind, and didn't open it!'
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|
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Again Trotty heard the voices, saying, 'Follow
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her!' He turned towards his guide, and saw it rising
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from him, passing through the air. 'Follow her!' it
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|
said. And vanished.
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He hovered round her; sat down at her feet; looked
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up into her face for one trace of her old self; listened
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for one note of her old pleasant voice. He flitted
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round the child: so wan, so prematurely old, so
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dreadful in its gravity, so plaintive in its feeble,
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mournful, miserable wail. He almost worshipped it.
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|
He clung to it as her only safeguard; as the last
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unbroken link that bound her to endurance. He set
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his father's hope and trust on the frail baby; watched
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|
her every look upon it as she held it in her arms;
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|
and cried a thousand times, 'She loves it! God be
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thanked, she loves it!'
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|
He saw the woman tend her in the night; return
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to her when her grudging husband was asleep, and all
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|
was still; encourage her, shed tears with her, set
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nourishment before her. He saw the day come, and
|
|
the night again; the day, the night; the time go by;
|
|
the house of death relieved of death; the room left
|
|
to herself and to the child; he heard it moan and cry;
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|
he saw it harass her, and tire her out, and when she
|
|
slumbered in exhaustion, drag her back to conscious-
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|
ness, and hold her with its little hands upon the rack;
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|
but she was constant to it, gentle with it, patient
|
|
with it. Patient! Was its loving mother in her in-
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|
most heart and soul, and had its Being knitted up
|
|
with hers as when she carried it unborn.
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|
All this time she was in want: languishing away,
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|
in dire and pining want. With the baby in her arms
|
|
she wandered here and there, in quest of occupation;
|
|
and with its thin face lying in her lap, and looking up
|
|
in hers, did any work for any wretched sum; a day
|
|
and night of labour for as many farthings as there
|
|
were figures on the dial. If she had quarrelled with
|
|
it, if she had neglected it; if she had looked upon it
|
|
with a moment's hate; if, in the frenzy of an in-
|
|
stant, she had struck it! No. His comfort was, She
|
|
loved it always.
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|
She told no one of her extremity, and wandered
|
|
abroad in the day lest she should be questioned by
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|
her only friend: for any help she received from her
|
|
hands, occasioned fresh disputes between the good
|
|
woman and her husband; and it was new bitterness
|
|
to be the daily cause of strife and discord where
|
|
she owed so much.
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|
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|
She loved it still. She loved it more and more
|
|
But a change fell on the aspect of her love. One
|
|
night.
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She was singing faintly to it in its sleep, and walk-
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|
ing to and fro to hush it, when her door was softly
|
|
opened, and a man looked in.
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|
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|
'For the last time,' he said
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|
'William Fern!'
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|
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|
'For the last time.'
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|
|
|
He listened like a man pursued: and spoke in
|
|
whispers.
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|
|
'Margaret, my race is nearly run. I couldn't finish
|
|
it, without a parting word with you. Without one
|
|
grateful word.'
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|
|
|
'What have you done?' she asked: regarding him
|
|
with terror.
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|
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|
He looked at her, but gave no answer.
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|
|
|
After a short silence, he made a gesture with his
|
|
hand, as if he set her question by; as if he brushed
|
|
it aside; and said:
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|
|
'It's long ago, Margaret, now; but that night is
|
|
as fresh in my memory as ever 'twas. We little
|
|
thought then,' he added, looking round, 'that we
|
|
should ever meet like this. Your child, Margaret?
|
|
Let me have it in my arms. Let me hold your child.'
|
|
|
|
He put his hat upon the floor, and took it. And
|
|
he trembled as he took it, from head to foot.
|
|
|
|
'Is it a girl?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
He put his hand before its little face.
|
|
|
|
'See how weak I'm grown, Margaret, when I want
|
|
the courage to look at it! Let her be, a moment.
|
|
I won't hurt her. It's long ago, but -- What's her
|
|
name?'
|
|
|
|
'Margaret,' she answered, quickly.
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|
|
|
'I'm glad of that,' he said. 'I'm glad of that!'
|
|
|
|
He seemed to breathe more freely; and after paus-
|
|
ing for an instant, took away his hand, and looked
|
|
upon the infant's face. But covered it again,
|
|
immediatiely.
|
|
|
|
'Margaret!' he said; and gave her back the child.
|
|
'It's Lilian's.'
|
|
|
|
'Lilian's!'
|
|
|
|
'I held the same face in my arms when Lilian's
|
|
mother died and left her.'
|
|
|
|
'When Lilian's mother died and left her!' she re-
|
|
peated, wildly.
|
|
|
|
'How, shrill you speak! Why do you fix your eyes
|
|
upon me so? Margaret!'
|
|
|
|
She sunk down in a chair, and pressed the infant
|
|
to her breast, and wept over it. Sometimes, she re-
|
|
leased it from her embrace, to look anxiously in its
|
|
face: then strained it to her bosom again. At those
|
|
times, when she gazed upon it, then it was that some-
|
|
thing fierce and terrible began to mingle with her
|
|
love. Then it was that her old father quailed.
|
|
|
|
'Follow her! ' was sounded through the house.
|
|
'Learn it, from the creature dearest to your heart!'
|
|
|
|
'Margaret,' said Fern, bending over her, and kiss-
|
|
ing her upon the brow: 'I thank you for the last time.
|
|
Good-night. Good-bye! Put your hand in mine;
|
|
and tell me you'll forget me from this hour, and try
|
|
to think the end of me was here.'
|
|
|
|
'What have you done?' she asked again
|
|
|
|
'There'll be a Fire to-night,' he said, removing
|
|
from her. There'll be Fires this winter-time, to light
|
|
the dark nights, East, West, North, and South. When
|
|
you see the distant sky red, they'll be blazing. When
|
|
you see the distant sky red, think of me no more;
|
|
or, if you do, remember what a Hell was lighted
|
|
up inside of me, and think you see its flames reflected
|
|
in the clouds. Good-night. Good-bye!'
|
|
|
|
She called to him; but he was gone. She sat down
|
|
stupefied, until her infant roused her to a sense of
|
|
hunger, cold, and darkness. She paced the room with
|
|
it the livelong night, hushing it and soothing it. She
|
|
said at intervals, 'Like Lilian, when her mother died
|
|
and left her!' Why was her step so quick, her eye
|
|
so wild, her love so fierce and terrible, whenever she
|
|
repeated those words?
|
|
|
|
'But, it is Love,' said Trotty. 'It is Love. She'll
|
|
never cease to love it. My poor Meg!'
|
|
|
|
She dressed the child next morning with unusual
|
|
care -- ah, vain expenditure of care upon such squalid
|
|
robes! -- and once more tried to find some means of
|
|
life. It was the last day of the Old Year. She tried
|
|
till night, and never broke her fast. She tried in
|
|
vain.
|
|
|
|
She mingled with an abject crowd, who tarried in
|
|
the snow, until it pleased some officer appointed to
|
|
dispense the public charity (the lawful charity; not
|
|
that once preached upon a Mount), to call them in,
|
|
and question them, and say to this one, 'Go to such
|
|
a place,' to that one, 'Come next week'; to make a
|
|
football of another wretch, and pass him here and
|
|
there, from hand to hand, from house to house, until
|
|
he wearied and lay down to die; or started up and
|
|
robbed, and so became a higher sort of criminal,
|
|
whose claims allowed of no delay. Here, too, she
|
|
failed.
|
|
|
|
She loved her child, and wished to have it lying on
|
|
her breast. And that was quite enough.
|
|
|
|
It was night: a bleak, dark, cutting night: when,
|
|
pressing the child close to her for warmth, she arrived
|
|
outside the house she called her home. She was so
|
|
faint and giddy, that she saw no one standing in the
|
|
doorway until she was close upon it, and about to
|
|
enter. Then she recognised the master of the house,
|
|
who had so disposed himself -- with his person it was
|
|
not difficult -- as to fill up the whole entry.
|
|
|
|
'O!' he said softly. 'You have come back.
|
|
|
|
She looked at the child, and shook her head.
|
|
|
|
'Don't you think you have lived here long enough
|
|
without paying any rent? Don't you think that,
|
|
without any money, you've been a pretty constant
|
|
customer at this shop, now?' said Mr. Tugby.
|
|
|
|
She repeated the same mute appeal.
|
|
|
|
'Suppose you try and deal somewhere else, he sald.
|
|
'And suppose you provide yourself with another lodg-
|
|
ing. Come! Don't you think you could manage it?'
|
|
|
|
She said in a low voice, that it was very late.
|
|
To-morrow.
|
|
|
|
'Now I see what you want,' said Tugby; 'and what
|
|
you mean. You know there are two parties in this
|
|
house about you, and you delight in setting 'em by
|
|
the ears. I don't want any quarrels; I'm speaking
|
|
softly to avoid a quarrel; but if you dont go away,
|
|
I'll speak out loud, and you shall cause words high
|
|
enough to please you. But you shan't come in. That
|
|
I am determined.'
|
|
|
|
She put her hair back with her hand, and looked
|
|
in a sudden manner at the sky, and the dark lower-
|
|
ing distance.
|
|
|
|
'This is the last night of an Old Year, and I won't
|
|
carry ill-blood and quarrellings and disturbances into
|
|
a New One, to please you nor anybody else,' said
|
|
Tugby, who was quite a retail Friend and Father. .
|
|
'I wonder you an't ashamed of yourself, to carry such
|
|
practices into a New Year. If you haven't any busi-
|
|
ness in the world, but to be always giving way, and
|
|
always making disturbances between man and wife,
|
|
you'd be better out of it. Go along with you.'
|
|
|
|
'Follow ner! To desperation!'
|
|
|
|
Again the old man heard the voices. Looking up,
|
|
he saw the figures hovering in the air, and pointing
|
|
where she went, down the dark street.
|
|
|
|
'She loves it!' he exclaimed, in agonised entreaty
|
|
for her. 'Chimes! she loves it still!'
|
|
|
|
'Follow her!' The shadows swept upon the track
|
|
she had taken, like a cloud.
|
|
|
|
He joined in the pursuit; he kept close to her; he
|
|
looked into her face. He saw the same fierce and
|
|
terrible expression mingling with her love, and kin-
|
|
dling in her eyes. He heard her say, 'Like Lilian! To
|
|
be changed like Lilian!' and her speed redoubled.
|
|
|
|
0, for something to awaken her! For any sight,
|
|
or sound, or scent, to call up tender recollections in
|
|
a brain on fire! For any gentle image of the Past,
|
|
to rise before her!
|
|
|
|
'I was her father! I was her father!' cried the old
|
|
man, stretching out his hands to the dark shadows
|
|
flying on above. 'Have mercy on her, and on me!
|
|
Where does she go? Turn her back! I was her
|
|
father!'
|
|
|
|
But they only pointed to her, as she hurried on;
|
|
and said, 'To desperation! Learn it from the crea-
|
|
ture dearest to your heart!'
|
|
|
|
A hundred voices echoed it. The air was made of
|
|
breath expended in those words. He seemed to take
|
|
them in, at every gasp he drew. They were every-
|
|
where, and not to be escaped. And still she hurried
|
|
on; the same light in her eyes, the same words in her
|
|
mouth, 'Like Lilian! To be changed like Lilian!'
|
|
|
|
All at once she stopped.
|
|
|
|
'Now, turn her back!' exclaimed the old man, tear-
|
|
ing his white hair. 'My child! Meg! Turn her
|
|
back! Great Father, turn her back!'
|
|
|
|
In her own scanty shawl, she wrapped the baby
|
|
warm. With her fevered hands, she smoothed its
|
|
limbs, composed its face, arranged its mean attire.
|
|
In her wasted arms she folded it, as though she never
|
|
would resign it more. And with her dry lips, kissed
|
|
it in a final pang, and last long agony of Love.
|
|
|
|
Putting its tiny hand up to her neck, and holding
|
|
it there, within her dress, next to her distracted heart,
|
|
she set its sleeping face against her: closely, steadily,
|
|
against her: and sped onward to the River.
|
|
|
|
To the rolling River, swift and dim, where Winter
|
|
Night sat brooding like the last dark thoughts of
|
|
many who had sought a refuge there before her.
|
|
Where scattered lights upon the banks gleamed sul-
|
|
len, red, and dull, as torches that were burning there,
|
|
to show the way to Death. Where no abode of living
|
|
people casts its shadow, on the deep, impenetrable,
|
|
melancholy shade.
|
|
|
|
To the River! To that portal of Eternity, her
|
|
desperate footsteps tended with the swiftness of its
|
|
rapid waters running to the sea. He tried to touch
|
|
her as she passed him, going down to its dark level;
|
|
but, the wild distempered form, the fierce and terrible
|
|
love, the desperation that had left all human check
|
|
or hold behind, swept by him like the wind.
|
|
|
|
He followed her. She paused a moment on the
|
|
brink, before the dreadful plunge. He fell down on
|
|
his knees, and in a shriek addressed the figures in the
|
|
Bells now hovering above them.
|
|
|
|
'I have learnt it!' cried the old man. 'From the
|
|
creature dearest to my heart! 0, save her, save her!'
|
|
|
|
He could wind his fingers in her dress; could hold
|
|
it! As the words escaped his lips, he felt his sense
|
|
of touch return, and knew that he had detained her.
|
|
|
|
The figures looked down steadfastly upon him
|
|
|
|
'I have learnt it!' cried the old man. 'O, have
|
|
mercy on me in this hour, if, in my love for her, so
|
|
young and good, I slandered Nature in the breasts
|
|
of mothers rendered desperate! Pity my presump-
|
|
tion, wickedness, and ignorance, and save her.'
|
|
|
|
He felt his hold relaxing. They were silent still.
|
|
|
|
'Have mercy on her!' he exclaimed, 'as one in whom
|
|
this dreadful crime has sprung from Love perverted;
|
|
from the strongest, deepest Love we fallen creatures
|
|
know! Think what her misery must have been, when
|
|
such seed bears such fruit! Heaven meant her to be
|
|
good. There is no loving mother on the earth who
|
|
might not come to this, if such a life had gone before.
|
|
0, have mercy on my child, who, even at this pass
|
|
means mercy to her own, and dies herself, and perils
|
|
her immortal soul, to save it!'
|
|
|
|
She was in his arms. He held her now. His
|
|
strength was like a giant's.
|
|
|
|
'I see the Spirit of the Chimes among you!' cried
|
|
the old man, singling out the child, and speaking in
|
|
some inspiration, which their looks conveyed to him.
|
|
'I know that our inheritance is held in store for us by
|
|
Time. I know there is a sea of Time to rise one day,
|
|
before which all who wrong us or oppress us will be
|
|
swept away like leaves. I see it, on the flow! I
|
|
know that we must trust and hope, and neither doubt
|
|
ourselves, nor doubt the good in one another. I have
|
|
learnt it from the creature dearest to my heart. I
|
|
clasp her in my arms again. O Spirits, merciful and
|
|
good, I take your lesson to my breast along with her!
|
|
O Spirits, merciful and good, I am grateful!'
|
|
|
|
He might have said more; but, the Bells, the old
|
|
familiar Bells, his own dear, constant, steady friends,
|
|
the Chimes, began to ring the joy-peals for a New
|
|
Year: so lustily, so merrily, so harppily, so gaily, that
|
|
he leapt to his feet, and broke the spell that bound
|
|
him.
|
|
|
|
'And whatever you do, father,' said Meg, 'don't
|
|
eat tripe again, without asking some doctor whether
|
|
it's likely to agree with you; for how you have been
|
|
going on, Good gracious!'
|
|
|
|
She was working with her needle, at the little table
|
|
by the fire: dressing her simple gown with ribbons for
|
|
her wedding. So quietly happy, so blooming and
|
|
youthful, so full of beautiful promise, that he uttered
|
|
a great cry as if it were an Angel in his house; then
|
|
flew to clasp her in his arms.
|
|
|
|
But, he caught his feet in the newspaper, which
|
|
had fallen on the hearth; and somebody came rushing
|
|
in between them.
|
|
|
|
'No!' cried the voice of this same somebody; a
|
|
generous and jolly voice it was! 'Not even you.
|
|
Not even you. The first kiss of Meg in the New
|
|
Year is mine. Mine! I have been waiting outside
|
|
the house, this hour, to hear the Bells and claim it.
|
|
Meg, my precious prize, a happy year! A life of
|
|
happy years, my darling wife!'
|
|
|
|
And Richard smothered her with kisses.
|
|
|
|
You never in all your life saw anything like Trotty
|
|
after this. I don't care where you have lived or what
|
|
you have seen; you never in all your life saw any-
|
|
thing at all approaching him! He sat down in his
|
|
chair and beat his knees and cried; he sat down in
|
|
his chair and beat his knees and laughed; he sat down
|
|
in his chair and beat his knees and laughed and cried
|
|
together; he got out of his chair and hugged Meg;
|
|
he got out of his chair and hugged Richard; he got
|
|
out of his chair and hugged them both at once; he
|
|
kept running up to Meg, and squeezing her fresh face
|
|
between his hands and kissing it, going from her
|
|
backwards not to lose sight of it, and running up
|
|
again like a figure in a magic lantern; and whatever
|
|
he did, he was constantly sitting himself down in this
|
|
chair, and never stopping in it for one single moment;
|
|
being -- that's the truth -- beside himself with joy.
|
|
|
|
'And to-morrow's your your wedding-day, my pet!'
|
|
cried Trotty 'Your real, happy wedding-day!'
|
|
|
|
'To-day!' cried Richard, shaking hands with him
|
|
'To-day. The Chimes are ringing in the New Year.
|
|
Hear them!'
|
|
|
|
They WERE ringing! Bless their sturdy hearts
|
|
they WERE ringing! Great Bells as they were; melo-
|
|
dious, deep-mouthed, noble Bells; cast in no common
|
|
metal; made by no common founder; when had they
|
|
ever chimed like that before!
|
|
|
|
'But, to-day, my pet,' said Trotty. 'You and Rich-
|
|
ard had some words to-day.'
|
|
|
|
'Because he's such a bad fellow, father,' said Meg
|
|
An't you, Richard! Such a headstrong, violent
|
|
man! He'd have made no more of speaking his mind
|
|
to that great Alderman, and putting him down I
|
|
don t know where, than he would of --'
|
|
|
|
'-- Kissing Meg,' suggested Richard. Doing it too!
|
|
|
|
'No. Not a bit more,' said Meg. 'But I wouldn't
|
|
let him, father. Where would have been the use!'
|
|
|
|
'Richard my boy!' cried Trotty. 'You was turned
|
|
up Trumps originally; and Trumps you must be, till
|
|
you die! But, you were crying by the fire to-night
|
|
my pet, when I came home! Why did you cry by
|
|
the fire?'
|
|
|
|
'I was thinking of the years we've passed together
|
|
father. Only that. And thinking that you might
|
|
miss me, and be lonely.'
|
|
|
|
Trotty was backing off to that extraordinary chair
|
|
again, when the child who had been awakened by
|
|
the noise, came running in half-dressed.
|
|
|
|
'Why, here she is!' cried Trotty, actching her up.
|
|
'Here's little Lilian! Ha ha ha! Here we are and
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here we go! O here we are and here we go again!
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And here we are and here we go! and Uncle Will
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too!' Stopping in his trot to greet him heartily. 'O,
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Uncle Will, the vision that I've had to-nigilt, through
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lodging you! 0, Uncle Will, the obligations that
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you've laid me under, by your coming, my good
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friend!'
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Before Will Fern could make the least reply, a
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band of music burst into the room attended by a lot
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of neighbours, screaming 'A Happy New Year, Meg!'
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'A Happy Wedding!' 'Many of 'em!' and other frag-
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mentary good wishes of that sort. The Drum (who
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was a private friend of Trotty's) then stepped for-
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ward and said:
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'Trotty Veck, my boy! It's got about, that your
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daughter is going to be married to-morrow. There
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an't a soul that knows you that don't wish you well,
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or that knows her and don't wish her well. Or that
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knows you both, and don't wish you both all the hap-
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piness the New Year can bring. And here we are, to
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play it in and dance it in, accordingly.'
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Which was received with a general shout. The
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Drum was rather drunk, by the bye; but, never mind.
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'What a happiness it is, I'm sure,' said Trotty, 'to
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be so esteemed! How kind and neighbourly you are;
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It's all along of my dear daughter. She deserves it!'
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They were ready for a dance in half a second (Meg
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and Richard at the top); and the Drum was on the
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very brink of leathering away with all his power;
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when a combination of prodigious sounds was heard
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outside, and a good-humoured comely woman of some
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fifty years of age, or thereabouts, came running in,
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attended by a man bearing a stone pitcher of terrific
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size, and closely followed by the marrow-bones and
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cleavers, and the bells; not the Bells, but a portable
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collection on a frame.
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Trotty said, 'It's Mrs. Chickenstalker!' And sat
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down and beat his knees again.
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'Married, and not tell me, Meg!' cried the good
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woman 'Never! I couldn't rest on the last night
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of the Old Year without coming to wish you joy.
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I couldn't have done it, Meg. Not if I had been
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bedridden. So here I am; and as it s New Year's
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Eve, and the Eve of your wedding too, my dear
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I had a little flip made and brought it with me.'
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'Mrs. Chickenstalker's notion of a little flip, did
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honour to her character. The pitcher steamed and
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smoked and reeked like a volcano; and the man who
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had carried it, was faint.
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'Mrs. Tugby!' said Trotty, who had been going
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round and round her, in an ecstasy. -- 'I should say
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Chickenstalker -- Bless your heart and soul! A happy
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New Year, and many of 'em! Mrs. Tugby,' said
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Trotty when he had saluted her; -- 'I should say
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Chickenstalker -- This is William Fern and Lilian.'
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The worthy dame, to his surprise, turned very pale
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and very red.
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'Not Lilian Fern whose mother died in Dorset-
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shire!' said she.
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Her uncle answered 'Yes,' and meeting hastily
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they exchanged some hurried words together; of
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which the upshot was, that Mrs. Chickenstalker shook
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him by both hands; saluted Trotty on his cheek again
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of her own free will; and took the child to her capa-
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cious breast.
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'Will Fern!' said Trotty, pulling on his right-hand
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muffler; 'Not the friend you was hoping to find?'
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'Ay!' returned Will, putting a hand on each of
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Trotty's shoulders. 'And like to prove a'most as
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good a friend, if that can be, as one I found.'
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'O!' said Trotty. 'Please to play up there. Will
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you have the goodness!'
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To the music of the band, the bells, the marrow-
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bones and cleavers, all at once; and while the Chimes
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were yet in lusty operation out of doors, Trotty
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making Meg and Richard second couple, led off Mrs.
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Chickenstalker down the dance, and danced it in a
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step unknown before or since; founded on his own
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peculiar trot.
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Had Trotty dreamed? Or, are his joys and sor-
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rows, and the actors in them, but a dream; himself
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a dream; the teller of this tale a dreamer, waking
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but now? If it be so, O listener, dear to him in all
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his visions, try to bear in mind the stern realities
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from which these shadows come; and in your sphere --
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none is too wide, and none too limited for such an
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end -- endeavour to correct, improve, and soften them.
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So may the New Year be a happy one to you, happy
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to many more whose happiness depends on you! So
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may each year be happier than the last, and not the
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meanest of our brethren or sisterhood debarred their
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rightful share, in what our Great Creator formed
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them to enjoy.
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