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TALE OF A BORED HOUSEWIFE
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It was a cool gray, November afternoon. I was walking
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down the quiet, suburban street I lived on, on the way to
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Gloria's house. It was fairly windy, a gust whipped up and I
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had to reach down to hold my skirt. I suppose my modesty
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wasn't really in jeopardy but the skirt was considerably
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shorter than what I was accustomed to wearing.
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Gloria had asked me to assist her with a party she was
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throwing for Dave's boss. He had just started a new job she
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really wanted to impress him. Part of his new
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responsibilities included entertaining customers. She was
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going to hire several college girls to serve food and drinks
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but she suggested that maybe I would want to help and in
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return she would forget the $65.00 I had borrowed earlier
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that month. I readily agreed, the party sounded like fun.
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Gloria thought about renting maids uniforms for us but
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decided against it, she then asked us to all wear matching
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skirts and blouses.
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She had called me earlier in the week and told me that
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mine was almost ready, I had gone over to her place to try
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the skirt on. I was uncomfortable with how short it was but
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she laughed it off, reminding me that I was about 20 years
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behind the times. I didn't want to appear too prudish, I
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didn't know any of these people and wouldn't be the only
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one dressed like this, besides it was no worse than what many
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other women were wearing these days; so I agreed to wear it.
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I had to admit the outfit didn't look too bad on me, a red
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and black checked skirt, white blouse, red scarf, black high
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heels and suntan panty hose. It may have looked all right
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but it wasn't designed to protect me from the November gusts
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I shivered and hurried along the sidewalk.
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Gloria met me at the door, she laughed and asked me if it
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was going to snow. We stood on the porch and discussed the
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overcast weather for a moment, until she noticed me
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shivering. We stepped inside to begin preparations for the
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evening. Gloria was busy on the phone so I did most of the
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straightening up, setting up the buffet, etc. About 5:00, a
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pretty young girl came to the door wearing the same outfit I
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was in. We introduced each other; Paula was to help me
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serve. She seemed nice, pert, maybe a little impertinent but
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friendly enough and I had to admit in that outfit with her
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figure, she looked smashing. She told me she was a 19 year
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old student at a nearby JC. I said goodbye to Pete and
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Chris, Gloria's kids, 16 and 14 respectively. They were
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going to their own party that night, so they wouldn't be
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disturbed by ours. They were actually the reason for my
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friendship with Gloria; Chris was my daughter Karen's best
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friend. And Pete was Karen's boyfriend. He had always
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scared me, I thought he might be too "mature" for her, but
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what could I do?
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Gloria came down about 7:30. Dave had just gotten home
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and the guests had just started arriving. Mostly couples,
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mid twenties to early forties, they were quite well dressed.
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There were about 25 people in all, including Paula and I. I
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was introduced to most of the guests and was flattered by the
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interest all took in me although a little uncomfortable. The
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women were less friendly, maybe even condescending. It seems
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that Gloria had mentioned something about me to most of them.
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I was involved in putting away the guests' coats and serving
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drinks. At one point I walked by the kitchen and heard
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Gloria on the phone. Something caught my attention and I
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froze, listening to the conversation......"36 years old,
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married, 3 kids, 5'6", 120lbs, green eyes, brown hair, has no
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idea what's going on. This bitch has never even thought
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about anyone other than her husband."
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At that the party on the other end must have said
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something, for Gloria was silent. I was dumbfounded, she
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couldn't be talking about me??
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About this time she looked up and noticed me standing
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there. She looked startled but recovered well, "what are you
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doing? Dammit Joan this is personal I'd appreciate it
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if"........I turned and went back into the living room; the
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incident seemed strange but I really didn't think it was
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important, I could confront her later. I didn't think she
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really had been talking about me.
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I went into the living room, it was quite large, with a
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fireplace in the center. They had used furniture to divide
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it into two "rooms"; a family room and a more formal living
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room. I went to the buffet table set up in the ajoining
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dining room and started helping Paula serve. Occasionally
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one of us would carry around a tray of drinks. I began to
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feel slightly uncomfortable, out of place. There was an air
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of excitement in the room but whenever I got near enough to a
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group to hear or join in the conversation it seemed to die;
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sudden pauses, pregnant silences etc. This happened several
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times and I was wondering what was going on. Paula seemed to
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fit right in though. When she brought around a tray I saw
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her laughing with the main group. One of the men put his
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arm around in a manner that suggested they had not just met.
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Several of them including Paula looked over in my direction
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as if appraising me, then Paula returned and offered to
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relieve me for a while. This went on until about 9:30.
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Dave came over and took my arm, "there's someone I want
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you to meet". He introduced me to Craig, his boss, and Phil,
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Gloria's brother. Both men seemed seriously interested in my
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life, my family, job etc. and were really probing me for
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details. This seemed strange too but a welcome relief from
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the alienation I had been feeling up to this point. I took a
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glass of wine and began to loosen up.
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About half an hour later Gloria gathered all the guests
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back into the living room, saying "it's time folks".
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Everyone seemed quite excited at this and I wondered, "what
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in the world".........I was on my 2nd glass of wine, (I never
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drink), and slightly lightheaded. Phil gently took it out of
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my hands, took my arm firmly and guided me to the living
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room. The chairs and couches had been rearranged in a semi
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circle in front of the fireplace. In the center a long low
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coffee table had been placed. The guests were seated or
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standing around the table. Phil guided me to the front, I
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was confused but held his arm. Gloria stood in front of the
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table facing everyone.
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"This is something I have been looking forward to for a
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while. Joan has been interested in Indian rights for some
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time. She doesn't know it but tonight she is going to help
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collect money for the cause". There was a general outbreak of
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laughter at that. I decided that I would prefer to be
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standing in the back and started to move but found my arms
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suddenly grabbed. I froze. "Bring her up here", Gloria
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commanded. Paula and Jan (a friend of mine from Garden Club)
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each took one arm and pulled me up on the coffee table, I
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resisted but not too hard, not knowing what was coming. I
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was turned so that I faced the group, my arms still held, and
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my hair wrapped around Paula's hand, she forced my head so I
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had to face the group.
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Gloria smiled at me and told me to relax, "this won't be
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too bad we're just going to auction off some clothing". The
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room erupted with laughter. I was numb, too shocked to
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scream. Gloria stood next to the table "what do I hear for
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her scarf?"; some one offered $1.00, another $2.00, the
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bidding went up to $5.00. At that time Gloria accepted the
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bid, and reached for me, ripping the scarf from around my
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neck. I screamed, a hand was clamped around my face. The
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scarf was forced into my mouth filling it completely and with
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my arms held I couldn't get it out. People started to sit
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down, they all appeared to know what was going to happen.
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"Next up, her blouse". There was some cursory bidding,
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Gloria backed up close to the table, I saw the opportunity
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and tried to kick her. That was a mistake. Phil and Craig
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grabbed both legs. They each took hold of an ankle. In
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addition they rubbed their hands up and down my thighs and up
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under my skirt, much to the amusement of the other guests. I
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was sobbing in my humiliation but there was no escape.
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After a little more bidding my blouse was removed. Phil
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won the bidding and took it off himself. They bent me over a
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little so that his face was level with mine. He reached out
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and ripped my blouse down the front, he jerked my arms out, I
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tried to cover up but Jan twisted my arm until I gagged. I
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relaxed and they straightened me back up. I was held there,
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up on the table with just my bra on. I went blank for a
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moment, the only other man who had ever seen me like this was
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Tom......... I never in my worst dreams imagined this could
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ever happen. Paula fingered a gold chain I was wearing. It
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had a diamond pendant. Tom had given it to me for our 12th
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wedding anniversary. It was sold for $5.00. It was ripped
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off my neck, the chain breaking at the clasp, and ripping my
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neck. Gloria told Paula to hold up my ring finger so my
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wedding band could be examined, "she won't be needing that
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tonight". It went for a few dollars. I was still kind of in
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shock, I was sobbing but was still unbelieving. These things
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really don't happen. Again Gloria stepped up. She reached
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out and snapped the strap on my bra. "What do I hear for
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this fine Maiden Form Brassiere?".... The other guests all
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laughed at her sarcasm, they talked among themselves but most
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of the attention was riveted on me. The bidding went on. My
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bra was sold for $20.00. Gloria didn't make any move to
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remove it though, I was shaking like a leaf, what next?
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"Whoever correctly guesses what size this item of clothing is
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shall have the privilege of removing it, however an incorrect
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guess costs $5.00". She reached back and looked at the tag
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and laughed, "not bad, who's your plastic surgeon?". I was
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turned and poked by several guys "so they could have a
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fightin' chance of guessing right". Several people tried
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guessing, on the third guess Steve's wife Marie said 36D, and
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Gloria smiled...."we have a winner". Marie "graciously
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allowed" Steve to remove the bra. He took his time. He
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poked, rubbed and fondled me to the delight of the crowd for
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about five minutes. I had lost control by then, sobbing
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hysterically. Finally He removed it, and his hands.
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I had noticed earlier that several people had brought
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camera's with them, now it appeared that everyone had. I was
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turned and twisted to pose for these people, my hair
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practically ripped out of my head to force me to look into
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the cameras. Paula reached down, still holding one arm and
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ripped my skirt up to my waist, flashbulbs popped. They
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didn't bother with the formality of auctioning my skirt, it
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disappeared in a frenzy. I passed out.
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When I awoke I was spreadeagled on my back on the coffee
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table, feet tied, each to a leg, arms held back over my head
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by Paula and Jan, and was surrounded by the guests, Gloria
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was slapping my face. When I opened my eyes she smiled
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"she's ready now" Craig was standing at my feet. His wife
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ritualistically unbuttoned his trousers and pulled them down.
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She caressed his penis but it was throbbing, he didn't need
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much help. When he entered me it was rough. I screamed into
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the gag and everyone broke into hysterical laughter. Craig
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even stopped and smiled, but not for long. He had
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intercourse with me more roughly than I ever imagined
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possible. Each stroke seemed to burn itself into my insides.
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I looked up once into his eyes and saw a terrible fury there.
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When he was done He pulled out and stood up, He moved to the
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head of the table and stood over me his penis dripping into
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my face. He put one foot on the table next to my face and
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motioned Paula and Jan to pose on either side of him like a
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champion race car driver being congratulated after a victory
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while his wife took several snapshots. They also each put a
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leg up on the table, their nyloned legs flanking him as
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Marion took the shots. I tried to cover up, Jan grabbed an
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arm and I was jerked back into a helpless position. After
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Craig, the other men began taking turns on me. They blanked
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into one another I was only semi-aware when one was done and
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another started.
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Again I blacked out. I was thinking about Tom and Karen
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my 14 year old, (and Pete's girlfriend). I imagined myself
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with them on the beach during our last vacation. I was warm
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and comfortable. In my dream I was warm and comfortable, I
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thought I saw my son coming towards me with a cold coke. He
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threatened to pour it on me.
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I awoke with a start to look up into Steve's face as he
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rubbed a cold bottle of beer against my crotch. Things were
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quieter, the lights had been turned off in this end of the
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room, there were several candles lit. I was no longer gagged
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nor held down. Steve helped untie my ankles and his wife
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Marie gently guided me to a couch. I noticed that most of
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the guests were gone, there were several couples sitting at
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the other end of the room talking with Gloria and Dave but
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they paid us no attention. Marie helped me gather my shoes,
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panty hose, bra and what was left of my blouse. My panties
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were nowhere to be found. I put on my panty hose and with
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Marie's help my shoes and skirt. Steve was still holding my
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blouse and bra. Gloria noticed something and walked down to
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our end of the room. "Steve let me help you with that stuff,
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It's not fit for Joan to wear anymore so let's just chuck
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it". With that Steve frowned but handed her the clothing and
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she tossed it into the fireplace where it disappearred in a
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temporary resurgence of the dying fire.
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Marie and Steve both looked a little sympathetic, they
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sat on the couch on either side of me. They were both quite
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gentle, and after the last hours I clung to that. The room
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was warm but I was still shaking uncontrollably. Steve held
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me to stop my shaking. For the first time I could remember I
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stopped sobbing. I didn't resist when Steve cupped one
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breast. He was gentle and I felt a little safer being held.
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Marie spoke up. "I saved your wedding ring for you, want it
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back? Of course, .... listen though Steve has a fantasy
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about this, would you be willing to help him live it? It's a
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lot easier than what you've already been through tonight". I
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nodded agreement silently. I knew I had no choice and I was
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more comfortable here than I would have been if Gloria
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noticed me again. And they were so kind, I wanted to
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preserve that desparately.
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Steve reached for my hand and held it while Marie slipped
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the ring on my ring finger. Steve unzipped his pants and
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motioned for me to pull his member out. I hesitated but when
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Marie started to move I reached for it. I took it out, It
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was hard almost immediately. Marie guided me to the floor in
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front of Steve where I knelt. She pushed my Face down into
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his crotch and I understood I was to take it in my mouth. I
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gagged but did it. After a few moments she pulled my head
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back and told me that if I wanted to I could just use my hand
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but I would have to let him come in my face. Dumbly I
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cooperated. I was in a kind of shock. Everytime I tried to
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use my right hand she stopped me, I was to only use my left.
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When he came he spurted in my face and on my hand which went
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up to protect my eyes. He came a lot, it was warm and felt
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smooth against my skin.
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Flashbulbs popped. I looked left and there were Paula
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and Gloria both recording this moment for posterity. Me
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topless, on my knees, Steve's cock in my face and cum
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dripping off my face and hand (later I was to learn that it
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was dripping off my ring, that was the object of the
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exercise). When Steve finished cumming, Marie wiped his cock
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off with my other hand and replaced it in his pants. They
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both got up as if I wasn't even there and joined the other
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group. I heard a long burst of hysterical laughter. Gloria
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spoke up as they left. "Get on your feet and bring us some
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wine, and see if anyone wants any dessert." I complied, it
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didn't seem like there was anything else to do at the time.
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It was about 2:00 AM by then. I served dessert and a
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little wine to the remaining guests. I was directed to again
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remove my skirt and kneel on the floor under the lamp where
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they could all see me, until I was needed. I complied. I
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tried not to look into anyones' eyes, I was sobbing again but
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afraid of making too much noise. At one point Gloria got up
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and threw my skirt into the fire, she also grabbed the arm
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that I was using to cover my breasts and jerked away. "Don't
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you dare cover up". After that they mostly ignored me in the
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conversation but would occasionally give me a look of disgust
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to insure I was aware of my condition.
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For awhile I knelt there, leaning back fully exposing my
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breasts to avoid Gloria's wrath. I was thinking back through
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my entire relationship with Gloria and Dave. I had never
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seen anything remotely comparing to their treatment of me
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tonight. I had felt that Gloria was occasionally
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unnecessarily snippish with me, even rude, but she had always
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seemed to be a fairly reliable friend. I had confided in her
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about marital problems etc. and she in me. Her cruelty
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shocked me as did her blatant enjoyment of my subjugation. I
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thought about Jan. She had always been a good friend. She
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was what men call a doll, small, excellent figure, pretty
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face, dark complexion, attracted men like flies but seemed to
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ignore them.
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Tonight she was acting extremely provocative, enjoying
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egging the men on, and directing their energies towards me.
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She also enjoyed my subjugation. I never even imagined that
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she could act like this.
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About 3:30 Paula got up to leave and Gloria told me to
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help her with her coat. Standing there in the hallway Paula
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smiled and cruelly told me that "I have really enjoyed the
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evening, haven't you?" She laughed and told me that she had
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made a deal with Gloria, and I was the deal. I would be
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hearing from her later in the week, and if I valued my family
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I would cooperate. She pulled my necklace out of her pocket
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and told me she would get it fixed. Maybe I could borrow it
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sometime....with that she stepped out the door and I was left
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alone in the hallway. Dave came out and guided me to the
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basement, he pointed to a pile of blankets and said Gloria
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would be down in the morning. I heard that door shut and the
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lock click into place. Alone in the dark, I sobbed myself
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through the night but didn't sleep. I relived the experience
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countless times. Was it real? Why? Why? Why? How could I
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face the people I knew. How could I face Gloria and Dave,
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and the others I knew I might see again?
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About 12 hours later The door opened and the bright light
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caused me to squint in pain. Gloria came down carrying some
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clothing which she dumped at my feet. "Get up!! Joan I'm
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not going to waste time with unnecessary threats. Suffice to
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say that I have affidavits from everyone who was here last
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night that you got drunk and made a fool of yourself. You
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made passes at every man and when they were done you were
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begging for more. I have pictures that would ruin your
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marriage for ever. And finally if you don't want me to
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include Karen in our next Soiree, you will do as you are
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told. I do require you to sign two papers and then I am
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going to let you go. I know you won't be stupid enough to
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fight this but just in case."
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I looked at the papers. One said something to the effect
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that I had agreed to "sell my body" for $65.00. I agreed to
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serve as the entertainment at an "adult" party with the
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understanding that providing sexual favors would be part of
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the deal. She had me write my age, name, and measurements on
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the form in my own handwriting. She also had me write that I
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would gladly perform fellatio and have intercourse with
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whosoever desired at this party. And that I understood that
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although such an agreement was illegal it would suffice to
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prove the voluntariness of any sexual activety. I managed to
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maintain my composure and although I shook, I wrote what she
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wanted. After I had written what she had originally ordered,
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she smiled and said let's improve this, "write that you are
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married and you know Tom your husband would die if he knew
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what you had done, so you asked your husband to leave you
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alone for the weekend." Finally she had me write a note to
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Tom on the back of the contract. "Tom I decided to see what
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the rest of the world was like. I enjoyed what the 11 guys
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at that party did to me. Ask Gloria for some snapshots." I
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complied. Gloria told me she was sure that she would never
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have to use this paper.
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The other form was a model release which covered the
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entire night. It specifically mentioned that the photos were
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nude, I had posed voluntarily and that I assigned to Gloria
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the rights to do what she desired with them including
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publication. The total helplessness of the situation got to
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me. I broke into tears. "Joan if you don't sign this in
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about 3 seconds you will lose the chance and I will have to
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protect myself in a less genteel fashion". I wasn't sure
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what she meant but decided that I had nothing to lose by
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signing the forms. I did and she left. Strangely she looked
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at me with almost friendliness in her eyes and said gently,
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"Joan things have changed, but you're going to be all right.
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If you continue to do what you're told, we will take care of
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you." As she climbed the stairs out of the basement she left
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the basement door open and opened the back door of her home.
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I was looking directly outside.
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I stepped out of the light and dressed. She had chosen
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the clothes to humiliate me. There was no bra or panties,
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the sweater was her daughters, and about 3 sizes too small.
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The shoes were mine, the pantyhose mine (it had been washed)
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but the skirt was again Chris'. In addition to being too
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tight it was so short I was afraid to walk, if I took too
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long a step I felt I would be exposing myself to the world.
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But I did put it on and stepped out the door to freedom.
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Walking down the street to my home I reflected on the
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evening. And Gloria's cryptic final remarks, she couldn't
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think she could do this to me again? I looked down at what I
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was wearing and realized that she might be able to do what
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she wanted. That was a chilling thought. I knew I could
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never go to the police. There was a real possibility that
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even if they believed my story, that Gloria could indeed ruin
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my life and my families'. I passed by a moving van, people
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|
were just moving into the home. Three guys stood on the
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|
steps. I heard a loud whistle, and another. Realizing they
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were for me I smiled involuntarily but stepped up my pace.
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I felt embarrassed but flattered. I looked up into the
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November sky. It was the deepest blue and the brightest
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sunlight that I had seen in a long time................
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I had spent the rest of that weekend in a daze. Saturday
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|
afternoon when I got home, I immediately took off the clothes
|
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Gloria had sent me away in, and threw them into the garbage
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in the garage. I tried to sleep. Although I had not slept
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in a day and a half, I was still to upset. I wandered around
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the house, but couldn't seem to sit down. About 6:30 I ran
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some water for a bath. As I lay there I began to relax.
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|
When I moved I realized how sore I was. I think it was than
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|
that the shock wore off and the full import of what had
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|
happened hit me. I had been raped, not just raped but gang-
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|
raped. Not by strangers in some alley, but by friends, and
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|
neighbors, less than two blocks from my home. Not knowing
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|
where to turn, or what to do I moved from the tub to my bed
|
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|
and eventually drifted off to sleep.
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|
When I woke up Sunday I was still in kind of a funk. It
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|
was a cold clear day and I forced myself to clean up around
|
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|
the house, etc. in preparation for my families return from
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|
Tom's parents. I thought about friday night. That was the
|
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|
first time I had had sex with anyone other than my husband.
|
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|
I was ashamed to admit it but the worst part was the
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|
humiliation. The sex with the men had been degrading but
|
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|
.............. When Tom and the kids got there I tried to
|
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|
act cheerful and welcome them back. Karen immediately stated
|
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|
that she was going to run over to see Pete. I lost control.
|
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|
I yelled at her, told her that she was not going anywhere.
|
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|
Everyone stared at me, Karen looked shocked but said nothing.
|
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|
Tom took me aside and asked me if I was allright. I said
|
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|
yes, there was nothing wrong. He went over to Karen and told
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|
her to wait until after dinner to leave. While she was gone
|
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|
I was scared silly. What would she find out over there? I
|
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|
did not know at the time if Pete or Chris knew what had
|
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|
happened to me, it was so crazy I did not know what to think.
|
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|
The next few days went slowly. Tom repeatedly asked me
|
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|
what was wrong but I could not tell him. He could never
|
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|
understand. I know I was acting strangely but could not help
|
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|
myself. We tried to make love several times. Each time Tom
|
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|
would try to approach me I kept thinking about that Friday
|
||
|
night. The one time we did make love I remember comparing
|
||
|
his lovemaking to Craig's brutal intercourse. I didn't enjoy
|
||
|
Tom that night at all. It was so cold so dispassionate, I
|
||
|
think Tom finally got the message. 10 days later, about 7:00
|
||
|
one night I came down stairs and heard people talking in the
|
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|
living room. "What happened last weekend, she hasn't been
|
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|
the same since?" There was an edge on Tom's voice when he
|
||
|
spoke. "She seemed all right Friday night when she left".
|
||
|
That was Dave speaking, Gloria spoke up. "Steve and Marie
|
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|
Daniels left with her, they were going to drop her off since
|
||
|
it was pretty late. I talked to Marie last week and she
|
||
|
didn't mention anything". "Why don't we all get together
|
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|
Saturday? Maybe she's just depressed and a little get
|
||
|
together will cheer her up." Tom agreed that that might be a
|
||
|
good idea. Gloria mentioned that she would try and invite a
|
||
|
few other people and would talk to Tom later in the week to
|
||
|
set it up. I realized that if someone saw me standing here
|
||
|
they would notice that I had been eavesdropping. I went on
|
||
|
down into the living room. Gloria and Dave were there with
|
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|
Tom. Gloria smiled warmly and mentioned that since she
|
||
|
hadn't heard from me in a while they thought they would stop
|
||
|
by. I mumbled hello, and sat next to Tom. We sat and talked
|
||
|
for about 45 minutes. Everything seemed so, so...normal.
|
||
|
After they left I wondered if that night had really happened.
|
||
|
I wanted to forget and they acted as if nothing had changed.
|
||
|
I tried to talk Tom out of going but he was adament.
|
||
|
Saturday morning came and I saw that I had no choice. I
|
||
|
pretended to be sick, and that was not far from the truth but
|
||
|
the kids were eager to leave and Tom seemed intent on
|
||
|
dragging me there. I put on some jeans and a blouse and
|
||
|
we left to walk over there. As we walked down the street I
|
||
|
took stock of my family. Tom was 36, a fairly successful
|
||
|
attorney and his practice was just beginning to come into its
|
||
|
own. After some hard years it looked like he was in the
|
||
|
process of becoming one of the most prominent local
|
||
|
attorneys. He was 5'10", 175 lbs and stayed in great shape.
|
||
|
I was extremely proud of him. When I married him I had
|
||
|
misgivings. He was a wonderful person, extremely dependable
|
||
|
and I knew he could take care of me but he was a little to
|
||
|
staid, to damn dependable. I realized as I looked at him
|
||
|
that I had made the right choice. I cared for him deeply
|
||
|
and he was a wonderful husband and father. I looked at Karen
|
||
|
my 14 year old. She was a sophmore in high school, well
|
||
|
behaved and normally easy to handle. Many of my friends
|
||
|
envied me because Karen and I seemed to have so few problems.
|
||
|
Her figure had been developing faster than I wanted to see
|
||
|
though, I worried about her. She went out with Pete,
|
||
|
Gloria's 16 year old and I felt that he was to wild for her.
|
||
|
Scott my 12 year old was skinny as a beanpole, a little
|
||
|
awkward but he was moving out of the awkward stage and I was
|
||
|
quite proud of him. Linda our youngest was 11, she was a
|
||
|
little monster, I loved her dearly though, she was my
|
||
|
favorite. Tom accused me of spoiling her. All in all I was
|
||
|
extremely proud of my family.
|
||
|
I looked up and saw that we had almost reached Gloria's
|
||
|
house. I was a little nervous but Tom had told me that we
|
||
|
could leave after a little if I still didn't feel better. If
|
||
|
he only knew!!! Dave met us at the door. Behind him stood
|
||
|
Mona who had been Karen and Scott's 5th grade teacher. I
|
||
|
heard voices in the living room and I saw Phil, Gloria's
|
||
|
brother and a young women I didn't know. While Dave
|
||
|
introduced me to Phil and his date (Denise) Mona took Tom off
|
||
|
to the side and they appeared to be engaged in an earnest
|
||
|
discussion. The kids disappeared upstairs. I realized that
|
||
|
I was the only woman not wearing a skirt or a dress. Gloria
|
||
|
came out of the kitchen, welcomed us and asked if Mona or
|
||
|
I could give her a hand in the kitchen for a moment. Mona
|
||
|
grabbed my hand and almost dragged me into the kitchen. Once
|
||
|
there she placed her hand over my mouth while Gloria picked
|
||
|
up a cup of some bright red sauce and splashed it on my white
|
||
|
blouse. Gloria spoke loudly, "I'm terribly sorry". She went
|
||
|
on for a moment while Mona relaxed her grip but kept a hand
|
||
|
on my arm and quietly said. "Co-operate with me Joan and
|
||
|
today will be fairly easy for you." Before I could answer
|
||
|
Mona pulled me out of the kitchen, I tried to look
|
||
|
embarrassed, not scared. I knew somehow that that was how
|
||
|
they wanted me to act while Gloria announced how clumsy she
|
||
|
was. Mona offered to take me home to change clothes, while
|
||
|
Gloria continued to act sympathetic and apologize. The show
|
||
|
was clearly for Tom's benefit. I understood from the
|
||
|
pressure of Mona's fingers that I was to accept her offer. I
|
||
|
did.
|
||
|
She drove me the 2 blocks to my home silently. I asked
|
||
|
her what was going on, for a moment I was outraged but when
|
||
|
she offered to take me back and allow Gloria to tell Tom what
|
||
|
I had really done 2 weeks earlier I became a little scared
|
||
|
(terrified) and went along with her. She pulled up into my
|
||
|
driveway, I got out and begain walking towards the back door.
|
||
|
She stopped me. "When you enter a home alone you will use
|
||
|
the back door, when you are with someone else, you will
|
||
|
ensure that they at least use the front".
|
||
|
I looked at her to ask what in the world but thought
|
||
|
better of it. She went up the stairs and straight into my
|
||
|
bedroom. I watched her as she went through my closet. She
|
||
|
was tall about 5'8", blonde hair, blue eyes, single and about
|
||
|
31 or 32 years old. She had a good body and as I remembered
|
||
|
she had always liked to flaunt it. She was wearing a long
|
||
|
black skirt, but it was slit to mid thigh. I had seen when
|
||
|
we had walked into Gloria's home that Tom had noticed her. I
|
||
|
had felt a tinge of jealousy.
|
||
|
After going through my closet for a moment she turned to
|
||
|
me and told me to get out all my skirts, pumps or heels, tan
|
||
|
or flesh covered panty hose, and sweaters. She would choose
|
||
|
what I was to wear. I complied with her demand. As I bent
|
||
|
down to get out my shoes I bumped into her. She grabbed my
|
||
|
hair and slapped my twice across the face. She didn't hit me
|
||
|
hard but I was shocked. Tears rolled down my face. "Hurry
|
||
|
up, if we don't get back in a few minutes Gloria will be
|
||
|
getting out the picture album she created for you last week
|
||
|
and showing Tom and your kids what a good show you put on."
|
||
|
After I had lain everything out she picked out 2 pair of
|
||
|
shoes, plain black pumps and plain white ones, several pair
|
||
|
of panty hose and a sweater. She made me try on several
|
||
|
skirts. Finally she made me put on the black pumps, panty
|
||
|
hose, a knee length black skirt and a red turtle neck. She
|
||
|
put several skirts, the white pumps and some panty hose into
|
||
|
a shopping bag. As she turned to go almost as an
|
||
|
afterthought she told me to show her what kind of sweaters
|
||
|
Karen had. She picked out a sweater that I had given Karen
|
||
|
for her birthday, a beautiful white angora sweater. She
|
||
|
placed that in her shopping bag and we left.
|
||
|
When we got back they were all sitting down to dinner.
|
||
|
Gloria sat Tom down at one table and Mona quickly grabbed the
|
||
|
empty seat to his right. I felt Phil's hand guide me to a
|
||
|
seat at the other table. I looked over at Tom, he smiled at
|
||
|
me and started to say something. Right about then Mona
|
||
|
placed her hand on his arm and he turned to talk to her. I
|
||
|
sat down between Phil and Denise. I wasn't very hungry. I
|
||
|
picked at my food. Phil tried to make small talk and so did
|
||
|
Denise. About halfway through the dinner I felt Phil's hand
|
||
|
on my leg. He started at the knee and slid his hand between
|
||
|
my skirt and leg. While smiling at my daughter and asking
|
||
|
her about a party she had gone to with Pete he fondled my
|
||
|
thigh up to my panties. We both acted as if nothing was
|
||
|
happening. Denise looked at him and in a very sotto voice,
|
||
|
told him to "leave her alone,......for now" they both laughed
|
||
|
at that and after that they pretty much ignored me.
|
||
|
After dinner Gloria grabbed me and guided me into the
|
||
|
kitchen. I could hear Tom talking to Phil and Mona just
|
||
|
outside the door. She told me that Dave had something to
|
||
|
show me. He came up from the basement and motioned for me to
|
||
|
follow him down. I went down behind him, upstairs I could
|
||
|
hear the voices of the others. He took me to the corner
|
||
|
where I had spent the night 2 weeks earlier. There was a
|
||
|
blanket covering one wall. He removed it, underneath there
|
||
|
were dozens of pictures. They were all of me, in the various
|
||
|
stages of undress that I had been forced to parade around in
|
||
|
that night. In the center there was a large color photo of
|
||
|
me, topless, on my knees, with my left hand around an erect
|
||
|
penis, no more than 3 inches from my face. Cum was dripping
|
||
|
off my face and hand. My wedding ring could be clearly seen
|
||
|
underneath. It looked as if I was smiling. Next to that one
|
||
|
there was a shot of me wearing panties, pantyhose, black
|
||
|
heels, and nothing else. I was kneeling in the living room
|
||
|
while 6 or 7 people sat on the couches ignoring me. "Joan if
|
||
|
you will cooperate today we won't show these pictures to Tom.
|
||
|
If at any time you cause any trouble though, he will get the
|
||
|
same tour that you received." Numbly I turned away. I
|
||
|
started to cry. "If he sees something is wrong, we will have
|
||
|
to assume you are not cooperating. I will leave you alone
|
||
|
here for a few moments but we will be expecting you
|
||
|
upstairs." He smiled at me, and reached down and raised my
|
||
|
skirt. He looked at my legs for a moment, as if to show me
|
||
|
that he had that power. He dropped my skirt and left the
|
||
|
basement without speaking again. After several minutes I
|
||
|
turned and walked up the stairs.
|
||
|
I numbly reached for the door handle, I was going to
|
||
|
just leave, nothing could be worse than staying. Gloria was
|
||
|
standing right outside the door. She smiled and told me that
|
||
|
she thought I might try and leave, but it would be easier if
|
||
|
I stayed. If I left she and Mona would have to show Tom what
|
||
|
a "slut he had married." After she and Mona finished talking
|
||
|
to Tom I could never go home again. If I continued to
|
||
|
cooperate I would only suffer momentary embarrassment. I was
|
||
|
repulsed at what she considered "momentary embarrassment" but
|
||
|
knew that I had no choice. We went inside. Most everyone
|
||
|
was in the living room. Tom was there with Mona. He looked
|
||
|
up at me. "How are you feeling?" "Better I lied". Gloria
|
||
|
told Tom that she wanted to show me her new crafts room. He
|
||
|
laughed and told me to have fun. Gloria guided me up the
|
||
|
stairs. We went up into what had been the attic. It had
|
||
|
been remodeled for her to use for her hobbies. (I was soon
|
||
|
to learn that I was a hobby). Once there Denise soon joined
|
||
|
us. Phil was right behind her. "Shall we get started?"
|
||
|
Gloria asked sarcastically. Phil grabbed my arms while
|
||
|
Gloria and Denise pulled my sweater off. As soon as my arms
|
||
|
slipped through the sleeves Phil grabbed them again. They
|
||
|
removed my skirt and slip and then, strangely, Gloria asked
|
||
|
Phil and Denise to leave the room."
|
||
|
"Joan, don't talk, just and absorb what I have to say.
|
||
|
Go ahead, sit down on the bed. Obviously you realized
|
||
|
earlier that you have more to gain by going along with us
|
||
|
than by fighting. What I have in mind for you isn't too bad.
|
||
|
You are going to have to learn to cooperate. If you do,
|
||
|
your life will go on pretty much as it always has. If not,
|
||
|
well, I have some alternate plans. For the rest of today,
|
||
|
relax and try to have fun. I promise you will not be hurt."
|
||
|
I thought about what she had said. All through my life,
|
||
|
from high school, college, and marriage I had been a "good
|
||
|
girl", a "good wife" and generally had conformed to what a
|
||
|
"nice" girl should do. Tom had been my "first". I
|
||
|
fantasized about other men on occasion but had never so much
|
||
|
as expressed the thought. I always dressed modestly. The
|
||
|
night they raped me I was terrified, humiliated, degraded to
|
||
|
the point of being sick, but when I thought back about it, I
|
||
|
started to feel warm down around my vagina. I knew, and she
|
||
|
knew that I was going to cooperate. She knew how I felt,
|
||
|
degraded but excited.
|
||
|
Dave came in the room. Gloria commanded that I kneel on
|
||
|
the floor. I did. Phil and Denise came back in. Denise
|
||
|
picked up a tape measure and proceeded to take my
|
||
|
measurements. After she measured my bust I was allowed to
|
||
|
replace my bra. She recorded the measurements on a bulletin
|
||
|
board. I noticed that there were blanks there so the
|
||
|
succeeding measurements could be compared to the previous
|
||
|
ones. Dave looked down the stairs and into the hallway. He
|
||
|
reported that the coast was clear Gloria led me down stairs
|
||
|
to the bathroom. I was directed to step on the scale. We
|
||
|
started back into the attic but Gloria guided me to her
|
||
|
bedroom. She pushed my head down into what had been an old
|
||
|
heating grate, but was now slightly open into her living
|
||
|
room. I saw Tom and Mona on the couch, Mona had her hand on
|
||
|
his arm and it was obvious they were engrossed in
|
||
|
conversation. Her skirt had slipped partially off her thigh.
|
||
|
He was enjoying her company. It was also obvious that she
|
||
|
was offering him more than a platonic relationship. Before I
|
||
|
could react Gloria guided me back upstairs. I was directed
|
||
|
to kneel on the floor again while the others discussed my
|
||
|
body. I learned that they thought it was good, but that I
|
||
|
would be sent to the "Workout World" to improve it. During
|
||
|
the afternoon, I stayed there, not ignored but not harrassed
|
||
|
either. Phil wrote out an exercise schedule and told me
|
||
|
that I would be using it soon. Dave and Phil spent most of
|
||
|
the time downstairs.
|
||
|
I could hear the kids in another room but they stayed
|
||
|
well out of the way most of the afternoon. I was terrified
|
||
|
that one of them would come in and see me like this. Denise
|
||
|
mentioned something to Gloria about Tom coming up but Gloria
|
||
|
laughed and assured her that Mona was not going to let him
|
||
|
out of her sight.
|
||
|
Late in the afternoon Denise told me to dress and come
|
||
|
on downstairs. She took me into the bathroom and helped
|
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rearrange my make-up. When I came downstairs Tom had the
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kids in the living room and they were preparing to leave.
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Gloria asked me to stay. "Tom you don't mind if Joan stays
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awhile do you?" He said it was up to me. They both looked
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at me, but before I could speak Gloria spoke up, "great,
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it's settled, Joan promised me she would help me bake
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tonight". With that Tom told me not to stay too late,
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kissed me, and left with the kids.
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Gloria brought me into the living room. Mona brought
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out the bag of clothing she had taken from my home earlier.
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Dave and Phil seemed to be arranging some photographic
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lights and shades around the Christmas tree. Dave had
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several cameras two on tripods, and one with a strange
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looking lens that he was holding in his hand. As soon as
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they finished arranging things they looked at me,
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expectantly, "Well come on, step up here." I came forward
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and Dave "posed me" in front of the tree. "Turn slightly
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sideways, bend forward slightly, now with your right hand,
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grab a handful of skirt and raise it a little." "Damn it
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smile!" I was sobbing by now, Dave roughly wiped my face,
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and pushed me into the position he wanted. For several
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minutes we went on like this. Finally, Gloria who had been
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watching silently suggested theat we were going about this
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all wrong. "Strip her!!" she commanded, Denise and Mona
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proceeded to undress me. They weren't rough, they weren't
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gentle, they were just cold and efficient. After I was
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undressed Dave lay me down on the floor, on my side and
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photographed me in front of the tree. Then he moved me so
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that I was on my back, feet towards the camera, legs spread,
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and my left hand (wedding ring) covering my vagina. I was
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made to pose this way for a while.
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Eventually I was allowed to put on some clothing, and I
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was photographed for the next couple hours in various stages
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of dress and undress. I tried on all the pairs of panty
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hose Mona had brought, Dave and Phil selected the shades
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they liked. One skirt, my longest, had been slit to the
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waist, another had been hemmed up during the afternoon so
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that it was much too short. They tried every combination of
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clothing and pose imaginable. No blouse, then no skirt,
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change shoes, bra on, bra off, panty hose on, panty hose
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off, change skirts, remove skirt etc. I wasn't enjoying
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this at all but I wasn't as scared as I had been originally.
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I was still scared and maybe a little angry (although my
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fear overruled my anger) but it wasn't as hard to go along
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with them as it had been in the beginning. I realized what
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Gloria had done. By making me pose nude at first, I knew
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the worst was over and that things had to get better. It
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worked. Both Dave and Phil became quite solicitous, as long
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as I cooperated they were gentle.
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About 9:30 Dave told Gloria he was done. Mona piped up,
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"I have one more idea." I was directed to put on some
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suntan panty hose, my black heels, and my daughters White
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sweater, but no skirt. The sweater was quite long and
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actually partially covered my thighs. Gloria brought me to
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the kitchen, bent me over the sink and soaked the sweater
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with water. She brought me dripping into the living room.
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Mona had collected 3 hair dryers and they began heating the
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sweater to dry it, while I was still in it. It took about an
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hour. When they finished they repeated the process. Finally
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they did it again. This time before it was totally dry Mona
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suggested they try some shots. By now the sweater had
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shrunk. It was from fitting. It had stretched around my
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breasts and was tight on my stomach. It still covered a
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little thigh.
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Dave posed me in front of the tree again. This time he
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took several rolls of film of just this outfit. I knelt, I
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bent over, I was twisted, and even took one shot looking
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straight at the camera, hands underneath my chest as if I
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was offering my breasts. This shot took awhile to get right
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because they insisted I smile. It wasn't easy but Gloria's
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threats and the promise that they would keep it up until I
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got it right scared me into trying. The resultant grimace
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wasn't great but Dave said it would do. Finally Gloria
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suggested the men pose with me. I knelt in front of them,
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Dave unzipped his fly and placed my hand around his penis.
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I began to perform as he wished. When he was done he did
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not put his penis back into his pants, he stood next to we
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while I was forced to suck Phil. During this time Gloria
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took numerous shots. Finally they were done.
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I was told to kneel in the corner for a while. Mona
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asked me about the family photo that we had taken several
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|
weeks earlier. "Tom told me that you are going to send
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cards this year with that photo on them". I nodded
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agreement. Dave looked at Gloria and they both smiled.
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"Bring us some of them!" "When will you pick them up?" I
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replied that they should be ready on Monday. Gloria ordered
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me to bring them to her immediately after I got them. The
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phone rang, Dave answered it. "Everythings fine, she should
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|
be finished in a little. Joan, it's Tom." He handed me the
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phone and I took it. "He sounded a little irritated. It's
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well passed midnight hon, when will you be home? I didn't
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think you would stay this long, I wish you would have called,
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|
is everything all right?" As he was speaking Phil had
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reached over and was absentmindedly fondling my thigh.
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Denise tried to smother a giggle but failed. I told Tom I
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|
was all right and would be home soon. He sounded a little
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relieved, I told him not to wait up, He said he would try but
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in any case to wake him when I got in. I promised and we
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hung up. I asked Gloria if I could leave.
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|
She told me that they weren't done with me yet. She
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|
wanted to get a few more shots of me with my ring finger
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|
wrapped around Dave's penis. I was posed again, and again.
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|
Finally they were through. Gloria told me to dress, as I
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had been dressed when I arrived. I did but Mona stopped me
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|
when I started to put the skirt on. Gloria told me that I
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|
was through for the weekend but that I had better be back
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|
Monday at 1:30 with the family Christmas cards.
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|
"Do you hear me?" "Yes, I heard." "Than you better be
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|
here." Gloria took me into the kitchen where we were joined
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|
by Mona. "Joan, I have a few instructions for you; first
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|
you will no longer wear pantsuits or jeans, you will wear
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|
skirts and dresses ALWAYS, second you will no longer say no
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|
to a man, and third you will use the back door when you are
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|
at my home." Do you understand? I nodded. She sounded
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|
gentle so I asked her why.....Before The words were out of
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|
my mouth I was told to "Shut UP!!! In due time you will
|
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|
learn, for now, just cooperate and you will be allowed to
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|
continue your way of life. Mona got up to leave. I
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|
gathered my skirt in my hand, looked for my slip with no
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|
success, found my purse and headed for the door. "Wrong
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|
door bitch" with that Gloria pointed at the back door. I
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|
walked out and found Mona waiting out front. She motioned
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|
for me to get into her car. I did. She drove to my house,
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|
once in front I started to put my skirt on. She stopped me.
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|
"Get out of the car." "I'm not dressed." She reached over
|
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|
and pushed me out, I was to scared to fight. Once out of
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|
her car I stood there, she had stopped under a street light,
|
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|
and put my skirt on. I walked into the house.
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|
On the kitchen counter was a yellow manila envelope.
|
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|
Joan, read me, it said in large red letters. I opened it
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|
and gasped. It contained a blank diary, but also about
|
||
|
twenty pictures taken two weeks earlier. The photographs
|
||
|
formed a chronological record of my gang-rape. There was a
|
||
|
note. "Joan use this diary to record what happened to you
|
||
|
during the last two weeks. Be detailed, be specific, record
|
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|
everything about your feelings. Bring this with you when you
|
||
|
come over Monday. You may keep the snapshots. So far you
|
||
|
are the only one in your family who has seen them. If you
|
||
|
continue to cooperate, we may be able to keep it this way.
|
||
|
Sweet Dreams............. Gloria, Mona, and Denise."
|
||
|
I stuffed the photo's back into the manilla envelope and
|
||
|
shoved it into a cabinet full of junk that no one ever
|
||
|
looked into, and stumbled upstairs sobbing quietly. Tom was
|
||
|
sound asleep when I got there. For some reason I looked on
|
||
|
his dresser. There was one of his business cards with some
|
||
|
writing on it, I took it into the bathroom to read. It was
|
||
|
a women's handwriting, it had a phone number, and address,
|
||
|
and it was signed Mona...........Not knowing what could come
|
||
|
next, I crawled off to bed. I thought about the day, Tom's
|
||
|
possible relationship with Mona, and Gloria's final orders.
|
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|
I drifted off to sleep.
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