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Anarchy: a journal of desire armed. #36, Spring 1993
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anticopyright - Anarchy may be reprinted at will for
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non-profit purposes, except in the case of individual
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copyrighted contributions.
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The Fall of Communism,
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the Society of the Spectacle
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and Prostitution
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By Peter S. Barker
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``Considered in its own terms, the spectacle is the affirmation
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of appearance and affirmation of all human life, namely social
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life, as mere appearance. But the critique which reaches the truth
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of the spectacle exposes it as the visible negation of life, as a
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negation of life which has become visible.'' -Guy Debord, Society
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of the Spectacle
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January, 1992:
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The Devil's Dictionary defines the state of being free as one in
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which the price is concealed. For millions of Russians who woke on
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New Year's morning of 1992 to discover the price of even the most
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basic foodstuffs had tripled or quadrupled under the market system,
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the hidden costs of socialist freedom, the freedom of the workers
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to direct their own economy, were revealed in the concrete reality
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of bread and cheese. Socialist freedom had been based on a lie
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which had forced party bureaucrats to dress up as workers and play
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the role of the proletariat directing a socialist revolution. With
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the advent of capitalism, the old freedoms were momentarily exposed
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as a massive theatrical performance.
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A Russian widow interviewed by CNN reporters remarked that nothing
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had changed. If she had formerly waited in line for days to buy a
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piece of sausage from the bare shelves of the state<74>run butcher
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shop, she would now wait at home until she had saved enough to buy
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the same piece of sausage from a privately-owned shop. The queues
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are gone and it is necessity - instead of bureaucratic
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indifference - that keeps her waiting. But the reality of waiting
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to be fed remains. She misses the conversations she had with her
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neighbors while standing in line.
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As presented by the western media, the Russian trauma took on the
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character of a giant morality play or a modernized version of
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Israelite historiography. The Russians had strayed to alien gods,
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to Lenin and Stalin, and were suffering the wrath of Yahweh for
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their apostasy. The mighty are fallen. The offices of the KGB are
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ransacked by common citizens seeking the truth. Tearful mothers
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wait in line for milk they can no longer afford and cry out against
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the men who had their way with them and left them destitute with
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hungry mouths to feed. The unemployed march on the streets
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demanding bread.
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To make these momentous events more accessible to the dull-witted
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capitalist masses, the complexities of social change in Russia were
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given a Manichean cast. Seth, the god of socialism, is cast down by
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Amon-Ra, the god of capitalism. After an eclipse of eighty-five
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years Ra's light shines again on the Russian Republic. During the
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subsequent victory parade, the atrocities of the former regime are
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paraded across the television screens of all nations.
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The voice of the Russian widow is lost among the hoots and
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whistles of western news commentators. The anomaly of her waiting
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to be fed, regardless of the political system that holds sway in
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Russia, inspires no analysis.
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``The attitude which it demands in principle is passive acceptance
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which in fact it already obtained by its manner of appearing
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without reply, by its monopoly of appearance.'' -Guy Debord
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February, 1992:
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In the month following, I rode to work on the streetcar watching
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out the window at the Sherbourne stop as scruffy men trooped out of
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the Salvation Army hostel each morning to line up at a temporary
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employment agency in the hope of receiving work and cash at the end
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of the day. Around the corner, both sexes wait in front of a church
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offering free food and clothing. Their resemblance to the queues
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for food in the Russian Republic is only superficial, I am told.
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But it is near enough to leave me with the vague sense of d<>j<EFBFBD> vu
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experienced while watching an old movie forgotten some twenty years
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after the original viewing. The scenes are familiar, but I can't
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remember how the story ends.
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I am not disturbed by the content of the CNN report, but by my
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readiness to accept the image of reality it presents and exclude
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the evidence of my own senses. The knowledge that the CNN report is
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being watched by thousands of other North Americans implies some
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sort of consensus on its version of events. Was anyone but myself
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bothered by the report? No one I knew raised a challenge to the
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interpretations of CNN commentators. All the news sounded as if it
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had been written by the same committee of ten. In the light of the
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apparent consensus, my qualms about curiosities like the comments
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of the Russian widow or the queues for food and work in Canada must
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have been private, matters of merely personal opinion, having no
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bearing on the objectivity of CNN's reporting.
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The sense of d<>j<EFBFBD> vu persists, though, colored by Marshall
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McLuhan's observation that freedom of speech, in a society where
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the means of access to public opinion is in the hands of the few,
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is a fool's freedom. It is the freedom to say whatever you like
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within the confines of your own home but, in the public realm, it
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amounts to no more than ``the freedom to put up and shut up.'' The
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individual who relies upon his experience for knowledge about the
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world knows that the odds are against him. Without thought or
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analysis, he resigns himself unconsciously. Even the revelation of
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deliberate campaigns of disinformation, such as that perpetrated by
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the military during the Gulf War, does not alter his confidence in
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the basic objectivity of the media. Hadn't the media honestly
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reported that the truths they had been repeating throughout the war
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had turned out, on closer examination, to be a pack of lies?
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Lacking the means to compare reality and fiction, substance and
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myth, true and false, the viewer has no choice but to accept an
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occasional falsification as the price of freedom from the responsi-
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bility of finding out for himself.
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Where the spectator's personal experience provides no point of
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comparison against which the validity of televised news can be
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measured, the distinction between public information and public
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entertainment vanishes like a coin in the hands of a conjurer. News
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of the far-away and exotic, unlikely to affect any but the few,
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is as significant as coverage of local events having a direct
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bearing upon the life of each citizen. Clowns, geeks, dwarves,
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bearded ladies, strongmen and other sideshow marvels flicker
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across the screen while the machinations of entrepreneurial
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bureaucrats enlarging their domains or the card tricks of
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financial wizards flensing a company of assets needed for a plant
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expansion go unreported. Throughout, the public assumes the
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character, in the words of McLuhan, ``of a kept woman whose role
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is expected to be one of submission and luxurious passivity.''
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The recasting of public information as sideshow diversion is so
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complete in the end that the selection of items for the network
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news is made by the entertainment director. On a night when a
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made-for-TV movie about child abuse is being aired, the number of
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reports of child abuse shown on the evening news triples. The
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blurring of the line between fiction and reality befuddles the
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more stupid politicians. The Vice-President accuses television
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character Murphy Brown of contributing to the Los Angeles riots.
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Meanwhile, the program's heroine issues fictional news reports
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about an imaginary Vice-President of the United States named Dan
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Quayle. No dissenting voice, no merely private experience,
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disturbs the spectacle of public debate long enough to initiate
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a critical review of intelligence from the front.
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``The spectacle, grasped in its totality, is both the result and
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the project of the existing mode of production. It is not a
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supplement to the real world, and additional decoration. It is the
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heart of the unrealism of the real society.'' -Guy Debord
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April, 1992:
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The condition of chronic spectatorship develops when social
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reality is accepted as a given rather than as the end result of
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the efforts of particular social actors. Television viewers take
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it as a given that `news' will not be information relevant to
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their immediate lives - oblivious to the censorship imposed by
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elite control of the media. Singles take their isolation from
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meaningful human relationships for granted - unaware of their
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power to change the situation. In both cases, the impulse towards
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action is redirected, by the ostensible inflexibility of the
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social world, into the realm of the imagination.
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The feature which most differentiates the contemporary society
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of the spectacle from human societies of the past is the margin-
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alization of man the creator, and his idealization, God the
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Creator, in the social drama. His place at center stage is usurped
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by the narcissistic spectator, while God is withdrawn from the
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play entirely and sits in the wings trying to pare his fingernails
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out of existence.
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The drama being enacted for the spectators gives the illusion
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that the events of the drama have a life of their own. The autono-
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mous economy expands and contracts, inflates and deflates, moves
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form manufacture to services and back again, out of all control
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of the workers, consumers and investors whose decisions it
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represents. The autonomous political process sees voters select
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one political party after another which, once in power, make the
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same speeches about restraint and the need to stimulate investment
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as their predecessors. All attempts of the electorate, every four
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or eight years, to veto the process by switching to another party,
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fail. The endless game of musical chairs played by the candidates
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is shown on television year after year, while on the streets of
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the nation, nothing changes.
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As the spectacle invades the lives of all citizens in a democ-
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racy, it melts their former rights and freedoms into air and
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brings them face-to-face with their real powerlessness in relation
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to their own kind. Freedom of speech and freedom of information
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are made meaningless by the citizen's lack of access to the public
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and by the absence of information relevant to the public's needs.
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Freedom of choice in the marketplace is spurious when the consumer
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is manipulated by advertising and limited to choosing between
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fifty different brands of breakfast cereals, but not between the
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production of breakfast cereal and the creation of housing for the
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homeless. Freedom of association cannot be exercised in an
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intellectual climate dominated by an ideology that discourages
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anything but the individual pursuit of gain, an economy that
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disrupts freely-associating communities and a morality that
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provides no illustration of the principles which, at other times
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in history, bound individuals together. The decline of unionism in
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those industries, like the Post Office, where management has
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deliberately moved the factory away from the neighborhoods and the
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drinking establishments in which their workers congregate, is one
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of countless examples of the calculated demolition of freely-
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associating groups occurring throughout society.
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A corollary to the undermining of individual freedoms is the
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concentration of all power in the hands of those who alone claim
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the right to wear the costume of the common citizen and play the
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role of the people directing a free society. As Alexis de Tocque-
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ville predicted, unrestrained individualism and passion for
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equality has led to an administrative despotism of those who
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govern on the strength of real or imagined political or economic
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mandates. Whether appointed to their posts to carry out the will
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of the people, or raised to them by the economic vote of consumers
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in a free market, the professional administrators of state and
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corporate bureaucracy have taken charge of all significant social
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activity.
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Market researchers and advertising executives manage consumer
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demand and public opinion, human relations specialists direct the
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lives of workers on and off the worksite, social welfare agencies
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negotiate rights and duties within the family, the state allocates
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jobs according to quotas set by interest groups, and urban
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planners and developers turn public thoroughfares into shopping
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malls the better to control - through floor layout and security
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regulations - the movements of the public in public places.
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When his own powers have been alienated and are represented back
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to him as belonging to an autonomous spectacle, the individual has
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no choice, if he is to retain his dignity, but to resign himself
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and slip into interior monologue and fantasy. The tendency of
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individual citizens to assert their desire for respect exclusively
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in the realm of the imagination has made public image the main
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commodity produced by the autonomous economy. Lifestyle
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advertising has replaced usefulness, as a determinant of a
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product's value, with signification. The value of a pair of jeans
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or a bottle of shampoo is measured, on a ratio of ten-to-one, by
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the designer label, or the elaborate packaging, over the product's
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applicability to the task of covering the buyer's ass or washing
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his hair. The preference for a million-dollar home or a Porsche
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has little to do with anything but a desperate desire to possess
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the respect normally accorded to images alone. Under these
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conditions, the real consumer of products, or political policies,
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is a consumer of images and illusion rather than one whose needs
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are met by the goods being delivered.
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In the society of the spectacle, daily life takes on the
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character of an immense operatic performance. The audience takes
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part by singing from a script in a foreign language none of them
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understands. They are ignorant of the purpose of the performance
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and have lost the directions that would have told them how to
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return to the real world. They wander the stage aimlessly,
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overhearing snatches of the arias sung by other characters in the
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play. They exchange scripts only to find that the story line of
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each character is much the same. A choir of workers with hammers
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keeps the economic tempo of the performance going, while prima
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donnas dressed in business suits or the polka-dot pants of
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politicians shriek the lyric line over the heads of other singers.
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All voices unite in a chorus of pathos and inevitability.
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The occasional phrase heard in the cacophony of voices hints at
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the sense of unreality being felt by all the actors. A traveller
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at the Holiday Inn remarks, ``This is the life, eh?'' - more in
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doubt than as an expression of enjoyment. The survivors of a plane
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crash are interviewed on television telling how ``it was just like
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in the movies.'' They know no other reference point to bring home
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the reality of their personal tragedy but that provided by a
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Hollywood film. For a moment, private life is revealed to be more
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unreal than the life described in fiction. Somewhere, the audience
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knows, hidden in the orchestra pit, or disguised as one of the
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performers, lies the evil director who dreamt up this melodrama,
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but to find him is more difficult than ridding the Beirut streets
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of terrorists or the American Senate of adulterers. The crowd
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accuses first one person and then another, and still the
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performance continues as before, its tempo unabated.
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``The spectacle does not realize philosophy, it philosophizes
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reality. The concrete life of everyone has been degraded into a
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speculative universe.''
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-Guy Debord
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May, 1992:
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During the summer, I put the news on the back burner. My immediate
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concern was for Cheryl, a streetkid who had returned home after
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an absence of four months. Since she was fourteen, Cheryl had been
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using my apartment, off and on, as a safe haven from pimps and
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others to whom she owes money.
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I dread her visits because of the demands she puts upon me. She
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ties up the telephone, rarely picks up after herself and has
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friends over at inconvenient hours. On her side of the fence, I
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know, she would not be putting up with the constant nagging unless
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the alternatives, offered by the Children's Aid Society or by her
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pimps, were worse. Most adults with whom she has contact do not
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tolerate her independence. She has made it fairly clear, though,
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by repeatedly running from her mother or from the group homes in
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which the C.A.S. regularly places her, that she values her
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freedom. If she is to be influenced by an adult at all, it will
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have to be by example and through the strengthening of her ability
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to make rational choices of her own. She sees no point in obeying
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rules simply because they are there.
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We talk about her future. She would like to have her own
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apartment and be able to travel. She has been promised these
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things often enough by pimps who know more than her about travel
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agencies, shuttle buses and allied subjects and who are old enough
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to sign the leases. I point out that many people would be willing
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to help her if she would only save her money long enough to pay
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the rent at the end of the month. When I relate her failure to
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save her own money to the fact she is leaving herself open to
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manipulation by those doing the saving for her, she remembers
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there is a program on television she wants to watch and cuts the
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conversation short. To have survived on the street for years, she
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had to be self-sufficient and tough and this reminder of her
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dependent status tells her she is not tough enough. I'm glad she
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is embarrassed, though, and wants to avoid the topic of her
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boyfriends. In the past, she would simply have denied giving money
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to anyone, or reasserted her illusion that these men really do
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love her and mean to keep their promises. The frankness means I
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have gained her respect.
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She has quite a few bad habits: She is slovenly. She runs up the
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telephone bill. She refuses to look for work or go to school. She
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parties at after-hours clubs until six in the morning with hooker
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friends. She borrows money without returning it and ruins my
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sweaters or trades them with her girlfriends for other clothes.
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Her male friends steal things from my home.
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I am not paid to be a social worker and do not consider myself
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terribly good at it. I suffer the aggravation of neighbors angry
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at the noise, visits form the police and being met by strangers
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when I come to the door - to say nothing of financial losses. My
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friends think my actions are self-destructive or lunatic. They
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worry about my `self-esteem'. Co-workers suspect me of sleeping
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with the girl.
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My neighbors, on the other hand, are more forgiving. The practice
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of deferring immediate gain in order to achieve a higher quality
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of community life comes more naturally. They ignore prices and
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patronize local merchants, frequently personal friends, over the
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chain stores downtown because the local merchants contribute to
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their children's sports teams. They habitually pick up litter
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found lying on the ground in local parks. They know the names of
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their children's classmates and their parents. They take an
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interest in local gossip and read the local weekly to find out
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what acquaintances met at the bar are doing. They adhere to an
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unspoken code of behavior, and idea, that holds the community
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together but ostracizes those who consistently break it. Helping
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out streetkids, even when it brings a dubious, and potentially
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`criminal', element into their neighborhood, does not violate the
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code.
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I shouldn't make too much of small deviations from the general
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rule, but I am encouraged that the community in which I live has
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begun to extricate itself from the society of the spectacle. The
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accessibility of the local paper and of gossip in neighborhood
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pubs gives each one of its members access to a larger public than
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that provided to those who rely on the established media for their
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information. A tendency to take into account factors other than
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price when shopping, such as benefits derived from keeping money
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in the community, has generated a somewhat independent local
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economy. With this support from their neighbors, local artists and
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artisans make a living producing unconventional goods. A
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cartoonist with a shop on the main street sketches greeting cards
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for residents, paints signs for local businesses, makes wall
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decorations and sells T-shirts in the local clothing outlets. In
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any other part of the city, he would have to get a `real' job.
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The critique that reaches the truth of the society of the
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spectacle aligns itself, with Sir Philip Sidney and John Milton,
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firmly on the side of man the artist. As artist, all his cre-
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ations, from his tools to his relations with his kind, are
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contrived. Man's unnaturalness arises from his ability to shape
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the world in which he lives, from a vision of what could be and
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should be, instead of surrendering to the natural would of
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instinct and necessity.
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The critique that reaches the heart of the spectacle rejects
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fatality and the utilitarian view of man, rejects expediency and
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economic efficiency, and reveals that no other power, but the
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willingness of people to blindly follow their instincts and let
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others make rational decisions for them, enslaves the citizenry of
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the modern state. Such a critique recognizes that the
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contemplation of images, illusions and ideologies alienates the
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individual from his own powers when these are separated from
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social action and human relationships. Nothing more is needed for
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the individual to win back his freedom than a willingness to stop
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trying to discover self-respect in images and objects and start
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undertaking the creative action which gives man his dignity.
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Failing to do so, the modern individual is nothing more than a
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sophisticated rat in the behavioralist's maze. Unable to fend for
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himself, reassured that he is free of the responsibility of making
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his own decisions, taught to squeak in unison with the others,
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``I'm an individual, yes I am,'' the trained rat is lead through
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the social mazes created by his own stupidity on the promise of
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a bit of cheese if he reaches his goal. In the light of his
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voluntary compliance with the maze-maker's specifications, there
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is little the social critic can say that will liberate him. Words
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are not enough.
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``To effectively destroy the society of the spectacle, what is
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needed is men putting a practical force into action.''
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-Guy Debord
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June-August, 1992:
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In total, Cheryl stayed with me for three more months, until her
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eighteenth birthday. During that time, she continued much as
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before, but took advantage of an offer by her mother of airfare
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for a visit to the east coast where the mother had moved. It was
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the first time in four years that she and her mother got along.
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In Toronto, a month later, she was working the streets again. She
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seemed more confident of herself than she had been in the past.
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Her boyfriends were different. For one thing, they were not the
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pimps with whom she usually went out. She had given up believing
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in their phoney promises.
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She asked me to save her money for her. Every night, at one or
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two in the morning, I would meet her downtown and take the night's
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earnings before her friends started pressuring her to buy them
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drinks or loan them money. I could tell from the amount of police
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surveillance I was attracting that I was coming perilously close
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to being mistaken for a pimp myself. By the end of the month, she
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had enough for her own apartment.
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Cheryl shares the apartment with a girlfriend from her school
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days. Because she is attractive and articulate, she found it
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fairly easy to get a job as a receptionist in the east end of the
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city. When I visit her, we talk about what she can do to free
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herself from dependence on her employer and the rut of a nine-to-
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five job. Her plan is to open a used furniture store to recycle
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the furniture her boyfriend keeps bringing home on trash nights.
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She may have to go back on the streets for a while to raise the
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capital. Stupidly, on hearing this, I offered to lend her as much
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as I could.
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I just know I'm going to lose my shirt on this deal.
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