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ooooo ooooo .oooooo. oooooooooooo HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #745
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`888' `888' d8P' `Y8b `888' `8
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888 888 888 888 888 "To Steve"
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888ooooo888 888 888 888oooo8
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888 888 888 888 888 " by Phairgirl
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888 888 `88b d88' 888 o 7/22/99
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o888o o888o `Y8bood8P' o888ooooood8
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Dear Steve, my closest friend:
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If I didn't know you so well, I'd be really happy for you. I'd
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congratulate you on your seemingly happy relationship with Amanda, which
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seems to be doing you a lot of good. I'd be proud of your strong
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friendships with lots of new people that normally with whom you would have
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never associated. I'd be enthusiastic that you've finally come into your
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own, forgotten about your worthless ex-wife, and turned your life into a
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barrel of everyday fun.
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Unfortunately, I know you MUCH too well for that.
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I know you're one fucked up kid; we always recognize one of our own.
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Your past relationships with complete psychotic people still haunt you...
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still hurt you. But instead of dealing with your problems, you've turned to
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numbing your pain with illegal substances in mass amounts and forgetting
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about the real world.
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I'll be the first one to say that I'm no saint. I've done my share
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of spending my time dazed and confused and messed up quite nicely. But
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there are many differences between the two of us: my mental problems are
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under considerable control. I understand moderation, and only rarely visit
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the land of elated stupor, and only when I have no other responsibilities to
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fulfill. And, most of all, I face my problems head-on instead of pretending
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they don't exist.
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Steve, I know you have the same dreams that I do. You want to finish
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school just as badly as I do. You want to live and work with machines and
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intellectual challenge, as well as have a fair share of fun on the side. It
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can all happen for you; you are a very intelligent person and are full of
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goals for the future. And I, like many others close to you, would like to
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see it happen for you.
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There's one small problem, Steve... you've forgotten to take care of
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yourself. Your mental state is in disarray, and you know this. Spending
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all of your days high and partying, with no job, living at home, doing
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nothing to fulfill your aspirations is going to only drive you further into
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depression. I don't need to tell you that, because I know that you know
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this. You simply keep ignoring it, because all your party friends are right
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there, and partying is so much fun and so much better than feeling pain.
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Right?
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Maybe you should take the time to feel the pain, Steve. Let yourself
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take one last depressive dive. Scream. Cry. And then, get help, because
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it's obvious to me and everyone else around you that you need it. You can't
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keep ignoring it, because it will only destroy you.
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I can understand why you've been avoiding me these past few months.
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I have always been around for you when you were having problems, always been
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here when you needed me. I've never turned you down for anything. But, I'm
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sure every time you have to spend more than thirty seconds with me that you
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notice the sad looks I always seem to have for you, because I know you can
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be so much more than the life you're living.
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It really is time for you to face up to your life, Steve. I don't
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want to see this happen to you any longer. I'm starting back to school this
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fall, and I want you there with me. What's more important to you, getting
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high or having a life worth living?
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Please make the right choice. Don't do it for me or anyone else but
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yourself, but if you need an excuse, I'll be here.
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Love,
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Summer
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[ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #745 - WRITTEN BY: PHAIRGIRL - 7/22/99 ]
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