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The south pole..........[312] 677-7140
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A drug story
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this file is an excerpt from the book "the beyond within: the lsd story" by
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sidney cohen.
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The following narrative report is from a young man who came into the lab-
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oratory, was checked over, and in due time was given lsd. He was just one of a
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series of subjects, nothing extraordinary about him. His reason for
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volunteering to take the drug? he was a psychology student, had heard about
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the visual effects, and thought it would be interesting to see what they were
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like.
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This is part of a letter written the same evening:
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my dearest darling ruth:
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the strangest thing happened on the way to me this day. I met myself and
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found that i'm really not me after all. Or perhaps i should say that i have
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found out what it is like to exist. For that's all there was left that
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instant, at that instant when feeling, thinking, being, all were caught up into
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one ebbing unity; a unity which was me, but not me, too. A me-not-me which
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stood there nakedly and pointed back at itself in a sorrowful joy, and asked
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"why?" that's all, just "why?" but then the "why" didn't matter and it just
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was! i have now the strangest feeling that i'm so alone and yet so crowded.
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Have you ever felt like all that existed was you, and that suddenly the reason
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for your "youness" was knocked out from underneath you?
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. . . I have just come back from seeing the world for the first time. A
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little over two hours ago by watch time i went out to eat dinner, and i'll be
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damned if life isn't beautiful. I sat in the restaurant just en- joying
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living. Everything seemed so clear and beautiful. It was like looking at the
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world for the very first time and thinking to yourself, how beautiful, how sen-
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suous!! the people in the rest- aurant must really have thought me queer. I
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watched the ice in the ice water, the water on the counter top, the reflection
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of the ceiling in the water, i watched the wait- resses, the busboys, and above
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all else, i watched the cheese melt on top of my hamburger. Have you ever
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watched the foam on a glass of beer? what a world of delight can exist in such
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a common thing. I looked at the people sitting around, all grumpy and grouchy,
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and felt sorry for them. Can't they see how beautiful life is? . . . I re-
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member looking down the street and thinking to myself how many lights there are
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in the city and nobody to look at them.
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. . . I think that i'm going to quit typing now and lie down, i think my
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back is very sore. So, darling, i hope you didn't mind too much sharing this
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little bit of time with me, and maybe getting a glimse of what i have been
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through, felt, become, what all, in this last twelve hours. Undoubtedly we'll
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have many chances to sit down and laugh about it in the future. I hope there
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is a future for us, but i hope we don't laugh to much, but then, i hope we
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don't cry. Like i said, "a funny thing happened". . .
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