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The Old Swimmin' Hole
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My cousins and I, along with our teenaged uncle, sprawled
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with the dogs in the gritty shade of the porch, overcome by the
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crushing heatwave that had held our town in its grip for eight
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miserable days. The Good Humour Man and the public pool
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offered some relief, but only for those folks fortunate enough to
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have money. Gatlin wanted to go swimming, an impossible
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dream, since the pool cost 75 cents *apiece*. Buddy wanted
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to go to the airconditioned movie theater, slightly less
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impossible -- if we could scrounge up a dollar, one of us could
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buy a ticket and let the others in by way of the theater exit,
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which opened into a alley. But we had been caught sneaking in
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before and thrown out, and were warned that
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showing our faces at the Varsity theater would result in the
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manager immeadiately calling the police chief to arrest us and
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send us to a school for bad kids.
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Asking our parents for money was a laughable prospect. All of
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us got a small allowance for the chores we did, but once it was
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spent, that was that. To ask for more money would get you only
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a lecture about blowing hard-earned cash on junk. Besides, our
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folks didn't have the cash to spare. We were about one-half
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step up from what was called 'white trash'-- Junior's Daddy, our
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Granddaddy Jack, worked long hours as a mechanic, and my
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Pa was a slave to the local Refinery, along with about
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40% of the men over 18 in our community. Gatlin and Buddy's
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Pa, who was big brother to my Pa and Junior, was doing time,
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so money was tight. Being 11 , I understood this. But 10 year
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old Gatlin and 7 year old Buddy couldn't grasp this fact of life,
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and whined about wanting to go swimming. "Dammit, Junior, I
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know you got money! I seen you yesterday with five dollars!"
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Gatlin (who we called Sissy, although she was anything but)
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cried in frustration, punching our uncle a good one in the
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shoulder. "Ma gimme that money for groceries!" Junior
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retorted, shoving her away, "You best quit messin' with me,
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girl, or I'll beat your skinny ass!" Sissy responded to this as a
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challenge and shoved him back, saying, "You liar, Junior! You
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took that money outta the sugarbowl; I seen you do it! And if
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you don't take us swimmin', I'm gonna tell!! Then we'll see
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whose skinny ass gets beat!!"
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Junior was caught. Buddy and I looked at our leader accusingly
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-- he'd been holding out on us? No doubt he'd intended to
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spend the ill-gotten money himself, then like as not pin the
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blame on us when the theft was discovered. Junior knew he
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was licked-- if he didn't comply with us, somebody (probably
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my cousin Buddy, the biggest snitch in the state of Texas, a
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terrible character flaw that we had unable to beat out of him,
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despite repeated attempts) would squeal on him to his Mama,
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who would wear him out. Junior's Mama had a dim view of Sin,
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and her wrath was, like the Lord's, mighty to behold.
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"Okay, okay! You little brats, I'll *take* you swimmin', dammit!
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But ya'll keep your mouth shut about that money-- swear!"
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We made our solemn oath over Junior's knife, and sealed it by
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spitting in the dirt, as custom dictated. "Now you've swore,"
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Junior warned darkly, "and if you tell, you'll be a no-good snitch
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and a squealer; yore tongue'll rot and yore
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teeth'll fall out, and yore lips'll seal shut 'cause you broke your
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word. Plus, I'll beat the livin' shit out of yore sorry hides."
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Tough little bastards that they were, my cousins ran into the
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house unafraid, to get their swimming suits. Uncle Junior and I
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waited on the porch. I was skeptical about the whole thing, and
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rightly so. "I bet you don't even still have that money. I bet you
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and your friends spent it on beer and dirty magazines. How're
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you gonna get outta this one, big mouth? They'll tell."
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"No they won't," Junior said confidently, "I *said* I'd take 'em
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swimmin; I din't say we'd go t'the *pool*. It costs nothin' to go to
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the river, and plenty of people do it." Plenty of people, but not
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us. We had been warned time after time not to swim in the
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river; it was an unpredictable, muddy brown giant that
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crawled sluggish and shallow at some points and roared swift
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and terrible at others. Periodically it flooded its banks and
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deluged the neighboring ranchers' land with water; several kids
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had drowned in it, although none from our town or that we
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knew. Junior knew as well as I did that the
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river was off limits. We weren't even supposed to play around
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on its trecherously steep banks, but my adolescent uncle and
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his friends drank beer there and skinny dipped. I knew all of
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this, but I kept my mouth shut, because Junior was my hero,
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because I wanted to be big and tough and macho, and
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because only sissies and babies worried about things
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like getting in trouble or drowning. When I didn't protest, it must
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have raised me in Junior's esteem, because he said, "Listen,
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on the way back, I'll let you drive a little. And I'll even let you
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see what I got with that money." "Don't kid yourself Junior, they
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ain't gonna let you take the truck." The fact that my uncle was,
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at 14, underage didn't prevent him from being allowed to drive;
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the fact that he'd wrecked three cars and got one stuck in a
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ditch did. His Mama and Daddy would give him the keys
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to the truck the day they were making snowballs in Hell. My
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ingenious uncle was not in the least discouraged by this.
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"We ain't gonna drive the truck. Listen, I've got an idea-- you
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kids just do as I say and keep your mouths shut."
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Gatlin and Buddy ran back outside, letting the screen door
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bang against the frame. Mounting our bikes, with Buddy riding
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double on Sissy's handlebars, we hadn't even hit the red grit of
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the driveway before we were stopped in our tracks by the voice
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of unquestionable authority. "You, Junior! Where are you off to
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with those chill'un?" his Mama called from the porch. I thought
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the whole thing was up, but my uncle just gave her one of his
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most dazzling smiles and lied through his teeth as pretty as
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you please. "We were just goin' by the shop t'see Daddy--
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d'ya want me to get anything for you in town?" Grandmama,
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who was surprisingly fit and good looking for an old lady of 45,
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looked skeptical, but gave us permission to go with the order,
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"You run into your sister in town, you tell her to get home and
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help me with supper,hear?"
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We took off before she could change her mind, legs pumping
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and bicycle wheels churning up the thick rust-colored road grit.
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We rode the half mile into town, drove by the garage where
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Junior's Daddy worked, and waved at it, thus turning Junior's
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story to Grandmama from a *real* lie into a *white* lie. Then, to
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our surprise, Junior turned on his bike in the direction opposite
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of the river. "Junior," Sissy yelled, "this ain't the right way!"
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"Shut up and follow me!"he shouted back at her; our uncle had
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a plan. We were puzzled, but didn't dare not to follow-- if we
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went back home without him, we would get whipped for riding
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back home on the highway by ourselves; Junior would get
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whipped for leaving us; we would all get whipped for lying, and
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then Sissy, Buddy and I would get the living shit beaten out of
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us by Junior for getting him in trouble. So we rode a quarter
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mile out of our way to the Refinery where my Pa worked.
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The Refinery towered over the rest of the town, a white
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monolith with huge blazing smokestacks, giant tankers, and the
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thick, noxious smell of crude oil. When Pa came home from
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work, he had to change clothes on the porch-- it stunk that
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powerful. He had two sets of everything -- boots, jeans, shirts,
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even drawers-- one for home and one for the Refinery. I didn't
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know what we were going to do, but I knew if we got caught by
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one of the employees or the security or a foreman or, God
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forbid, an all-powerful Manager, we'd be in serious trouble.
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There was a lot of heavy equipment and dangerous machinery
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there (not to mention enough pollutants and toxins to single
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handedly burn off a few feet of the ozone layer), and if a
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grownup caught us messing around... Junior didn't seem
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at all nervous, though, he just pulled into the employee's
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parking lot and rode up to Pa's pride and joy, a two-year old,
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midnight blue Chevy pickup, bought and paid for. To my
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surprise, he picked up his bike and threw it in the flatbed.
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"C'mon," said Junior, "we ain't got all day." Sissy looked at
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Junior for a second, then shoved Buddy off her bike and he
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threw *it* into the flatbed. The three of the them waited for me
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to throw my bike in. I sat on my bike, chewing my lip
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and caught in a moral dilemma. Going to the river was bad,
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and so was messing around the Refinery, and lying to
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Grandmama. Doing all these things *plus* taking my Pa's truck
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for a joyride just seemed to be begging for trouble. But, I
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rationalized, we'll only get it if we get caught. And Junior had
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an amazing ability to not get caught. Also, he could talk his
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way out of anything. Besides, they were going with or without
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me. Did I really want to be shamed in the eyes of my teenage
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uncle and hero by acting like a baby? If my younger cousin and
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his sister were going, my own self-respect demanded that I go
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too.
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"Well, are you gonna go swimmin' or are you gonna sit there
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all day with your thumb up your butt?" Junior demanded,
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snapping me back to reality, and I threw my bike into the
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flatbed.The Refinery was built right on the river, but the water
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was too nasty to swim in for a good five miles in all directions,
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so we drove until we came to an old metal bridge over one of
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the deeper spots. There was a shallow grove off the road's
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shoulder where all the highschoolers parked when they came
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down to drink beer and white lightening, swim, and
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make out. Junior pulled off there so that no passing cars would
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see us, and we ran down the steep, slick incline of the bank to
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the water's edge, stripping off our tee shirts as we went. Gatlin
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and Buddy had worn their swimming suits under their clothes
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because they'd thought we were going to the pool, but Junior
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and I stripped off our cut-off jeans and drawers and dove in
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naked. When I resurfaced, I was shocked to see that my
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littler cousins were following our example and stripping to the
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skin. "Hey! Ya'll leave your clothes on!!" I yelled, "Gatlin, yore
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too old t'go around without anything on!" Cousin Sissy didn't
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even pause in her undressing, but merely stuck out her tongue
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defiantly at me and stepped out of her swimsuit, retorting
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smartly, "Shouldn't be lookin'!" She then jumped in the water,
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followed by Buddy, and they started shrieking and splashing. I
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was going to swim over and *drag* her out, but Junior grabbed
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my shoulder. "Let 'em go ahead," he reasoned, "This water'd
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prob'ly ruin their suits anyhow." He had a point; the water was
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a rich opaque brown, and had a peculiar smell of cold, oily
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mud, decaying fish and rotten tires. Still, it did cool us off, and
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the thrill of being in forbidden territory was exhilarating. We
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swam and played and fought in the water, and before we
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knew it, two hours had passed. When we heard the locusts
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begin to sing in the trees, Junior stood up straight, spilling
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Buddy off his shoulders into the water, and thus forfeiting the
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chicken-fight. "Shit,"Junior exclaimed, "it's late! Hurry, grab
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your clothes, you can get dressed in the truck!!" I didn't get to
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drive, as Junior had promised. Hunched over the wheel, Junior
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did 80 all the way to the Refinery, swearing the whole
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time while we struggled to pull our clothes over our dripping
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bodies in the cramped, stifling, oil-saturated cab of the pickup.
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Junior pulled into the parking lot, nearly sideswiping a truck,
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and screeched to a stop. We dragged our bikes from the
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flatbed and ran two whole blocks, pushing them, before
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jumping on and frantically racing home.
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Just as we were nearly home, and I'd begun to believe we'd
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gotten away with it, Grandaddy Jack passed us in *his* pickup,
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heading home for supper. Gatlin moaned, I almost wrecked my
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bike in dismay, Junior shouted, "SHIT!" Buddy didn't
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understand what was wrong, but seeing us so upset, he figured
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there was trouble and started to whimper. There was
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trouble, all right, because if Granddaddy Jack got home and
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Grandmama asked if where we were, he'd reply how the hell
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should he know, and Grandmama would say well, what'd they
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say to you when they saw you, and he'd say he hadn't seen us
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since breakfast.... we gritted our teeth, lowered our heads, and
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fueled by sheer desparation, pedaled the remaining
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1/8th mile home like hell had opened befind us and the very
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Devil himself was on our heels.
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We made it home faster than I would ever have
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believed possible, eyes watering, mouths
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dust-choked, a fine layer of grit coating our damp hair and
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sweat-soaked clothes. We were too late. Junior's Daddy had
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just beat us; the dust had not yet settled around the wheels of
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his pickup. Junior jumped off his bike without stopping it and
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ran into the house. Sissy, Buddy and I did the same,
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running in breathless and with stomachs knotted, just in time to
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see Grandaddy Jack paused midway through setting the table,
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and giving Junior a skeptical look. Junior was in the middle of
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another artfully created lie, "...But we didn't see yore truck
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anywhere, so we thought maybe you'd gone into town for gas
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or to the hardware store or something, so we went to
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see if we could find you." "More likely, you went in town to try to
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sneak into the movies or shoplift candy from the drugstore,"
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retorted Junior's sister, who was mashing potatoes.
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"That's enough, Lis'beth," Grandaddy said, then to Junior,
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" I don't know what kinda foolishness you've been up to, boy,
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but you're lucky you got back in time for dinner." Grandmama
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saw us standing in the doorway, and said, "Ya'll go get
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cleaned up for dinner- what've you kids been into now? You,
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Buddy, what've you got yourself covered with?" My cousin
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looked at his grime encrusted hands, swallowed hard,
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and said meekly, "Just dirt, ma'm." Grandaddy Jack asked
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Junior, eyes narrowed, "Just what were ya'll doin' in town t'get
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so dirty?" Before Junior could answer, Grandmama grabbed
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him by the shirt collar, grabbed Sissy by the arm, and started
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herding us to the washroom, exclaiming, "Never mind how you
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got so dirty, you just march yourself in there and get yourself
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clean! And use *soap* this time, hear? Ya'll ain't settin' down at
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that table 'til I say you're clean!"
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We were crowded around the sink, trying to clean up, and
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starting to relax when we heard Pa's truck pull up outside. The
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minute the door slammed, I knew we were caught, and when
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Pa stormed in the house, banging the screen door and yelling
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for Junior at the top of his voice, I knew we were in for it.
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Junior's face, tanned and sunburnt from a summer of
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playing outdoors, seemed to turn a few shades paler-- but how
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could PA have caught us? We'd gotten the truck back in time!
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*Grandaddy* and *Grandmama* were the ones we had to
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worry about!
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From the kitchen, there was a brief exchange between Pa and
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Grandmama , which we couldn't hear, then the washroom door
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slammed open and my Pa stormed in, holding up a pair of
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Junior's lightening bolts-covered drawers, and demanding to
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know what Junior's underwear was doing in *his* truck.
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My uncle Junior had never been at a loss for words before to
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my knowledge, but at that moment, his just stood there, jaw
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dropped; a look of terrible realization on his face. He stood
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there for only a moment, because my Pa had hauled his little
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brother out into the front room and had him by the scruff of the
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neck, demanding, "Did you use my truck?! Answer me, you
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little punk, did you?! Did you DO IT with a girl in MY
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truck?! When I'm off at work, bustin' my ass to make a livin',
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are you tearin' all over the county with your snot-nosed friends,
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screwin' girls in the truck *I* bought and paid for?!"
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Pa was shaking Junior so hard his teeth were rattling, but he
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managed to gasp, "N-no, honest! I-" He never got beyond that,
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because when Pa heard the word "no", he was like a mad bull.
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He grabbed Junior around the waist with one arm, and with his
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free hand, pulled his leather belt out of his jeans. Gatlin, Buddy
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and I just stood there, watching with a mixture of terror and
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delight as my Pa cracked his belt against the seat of hapless
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Uncle Junior's britches.
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"Don't you lie to me, boy!" My Pa yelled, "If you *din't* have a
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girl in my pickup, what the hell were your drawers doin' in it?!"
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Junior kicked and stuggled, but my skinny 5'10 adolescent
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uncle was no match for his 6'6" brother who was 15 years older
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and 75 pounds heavier. Working all day loading trucks at the
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Refinery had given my Pa a deep, barrel chest, powerful
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shoulders, and biceps and forearms roped with rock-hard
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muscles. He cried, "I ain't lyin'! OW! Honest! Ouch!!
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Daddy, make him stop! OH! Please, Luke, I'll--OW!"
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Although it seemed to last forever, Pa only whipped Junior for
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maybe two minutes before Grandmama broke it up and and
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made him let him go. My uncle and Pa stood there, Pa
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red-faced, breathing heavy, and furious, and Junior red-faced
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and rubbing the seat of his bluejeans. Grandaddy Jack said,
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"You chill'un, git. We'll call you when it's time
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t'eat." Well, we didn't have to be told more than once! My
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cousins and I took the first opportunity to run for the back door
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to freedom. Once we were outside, though, we crept under the
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porch to listen. We listened with a mixture of shock, awe, and
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delicious justification as Junior was given the third degree.
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When Junior confessed he took the truck and we
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went to the river, my cousins and I exchanged looks of shock
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and outrage-- Junior was squealing on us!!
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"That's it," Sissy said furiously, "I'm goin' in there and tell
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about that money he took, an' I don't give a hang what he does
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t'me!" Before she could crawl out from under the porch, though,
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we were surprised to hear Grandmama's angry raised voice,
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"Don't you *even* think you're gonna get outta this by blamin'
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them chill'un!! I bet you met some of your no-good friends in
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town an' left those poor chill'un by themselves while you went
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off to th' river t'drink beer!!" "No, Mama, honest--"
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"Don't you lie t'yore Mama, boy!!" (smack!) "But Daddy--OW! I
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ain't lyin'! OW!" Then, from under the porch steps, we crouched
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and watched in delight as Junior was dragged down the steps
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and over to the peach tree, with Grandmama keeping a firm
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grip on his ear as she twisted off a good sized switch and
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proceeded to whale the tar out of him.
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"But Mama--OW!" "Don't you 'but Mama' me! ...I'm gonna beat
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yore butt three shades of blister blue! ...I've *had* it with you
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blamin' them other kids for what you do, and for lyin', and
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drinkin', and I know damn well what happened
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t'that money that was in th' sugarbowl--!" I watched, transfixed,
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an incredulous grin of sadistic glee spreading across my face
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as Junior's Mama held him firmly by the back of the neck,
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slightly bent over one leg, and delivered a stinging whipping
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with the switch to the background of his protests.
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"It's true, I done all them things! I admit it!! But, honest, I
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din't leave th' li'l kids alone in town t'day t'go drinkin'! We went t'
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th riv--OH! OW! OW!That smarts, Mama-- Okay! Okay! I admit
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it! I did it! You're right!" "You did what?!" Demanded
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Grandmama, not even out of breath. "I left th' chill'un in town
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an' went t' the river an' drank beer and skinnydipped!" My
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cousins and I were amazed yet again. Junior had
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deliberately told a lie that put *himself* in the wrong! Even more
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astonding, when he had told the truth, he'd gotten whipped for
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lying!
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Grandmama stood, switch in hand, a look of grim satisfaction
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on her face. Junior was red-faced and wiping snot and tears
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from his face with one had and rubbing his stinging butt with
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the other. He started to slink into the house, grateful that his
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Mama was no longer whuppin' up on him with the fury of a
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caged cyclone, but Grandaddy Jack stopped him and said,
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"You ain't done yet, boy! Now that your Ma's through warmin'
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you up, it's MY turn! Get out t'that shed an' get your britches
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down!" Junior's face turned white. Tears formed in his eyes; his
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lip quivered, "But PA," he whined, "I'm already wore out--"
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He was cut off my his Daddy grabbing him by the ear and
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growling, "I'm gonna *give* you 'wore out' if you keep up this
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sassy back-talk! Now, you march your sorry butt out there t'that
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shed and *git* yore britches down before I whip you so hard
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your nose bleeds buttermilk!!"
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For the next fifteen minutes, I and my cousins listened as
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justice was blissfully served. From our delapitated storage
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shed, we heard every minute of Junior's humiliation, from his
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sniveling and bawling to his Daddy's stern lecture ( "Are you
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*ever* gonna lie t'me and your mama again?!" "OW! Nosir!!"
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"Are you *ever* gonna blame somebody else for somethin' you
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done?! "OW! OW! NOSIR!" "Are you gonna do as your
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*told*?" "Nos-- Yessir! YESSIR! OH! OW!") to every crack of
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the strap as Junior got his well-deserved licks. It was like
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music.
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