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[ People I Met Hitchhiking: Minnesota To Nevada ] [ By Eric Chaet ]
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PEOPLE I MET HITCHHIKING FROM MINNESOTA TO NEVADA
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by Eric Chaet
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The ramp alongside of which I was hitchhiking was on the western edge
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of St. Paul, Minnesota. St. Paul & Minneapolis are the Twin Cities, a giant
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metropolis--a center of flour milling. Minnesota Vikings football team, 3-M
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Corporation (makers of Scotch tape & Post-its)...otherwise, I didn't know
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much about it--or anyone in it.
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Larry Demke, a thin man about 60 with green eyes full of mischief, who
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shared some oatmeal cookies & coffee with me, & who managed silos for a
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grain company he'd been working for since the Great Depression, drove me
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into & thru Minneapolis & St. Paul, & went out of his way to let me out
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here, near the western edge, decreasing the likelihood that I would be stuck
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overnight, where I would have to locate & pay for a room, for the privilege
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of sleeping.
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It was over a hundred degrees, & had been for several days. I was in a
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bright lethargy that had sounded like engines & tires on asphalt long enough
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to seem endlessly. It was late afternoon.
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Tho a few hundred yards away were rows of stores & parked cars--where I
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was, there was no shade. Many cars, & many hours, had gone by, since I had
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taken this position.
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A young police officer--thin, & irritable, still more boy than man,
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therefore with a need to demonstrate manliness--stopped his car, to insist I
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go back up the ramp--he pointed--to the legal side of the "NO PEDESTRIANS
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ALLOWED" sign.
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There, drivers would be unlikely to realize, while there was still time
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for them to stop, if they were so inclined, that I was trying to get a ride
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on the highway: people in this era in this part of the world have HEARD of
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hitchhiking, but few have witnessed it.
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Just as the young policeman was a little out of control & making his
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voice & manner as unpleasant in my direction as possible--because he was in
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a position to do so without my being able to do anything about it--I, too,
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was a little out of control, & told him I wasn't doing anyone any harm, &
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that I was just trying to get on without a car.
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As soon as I said it, I was disappointed in myself, for complaining,
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when there was no market for complaints.
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(I know I don't like to hear them, that I have to force myself to
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listen to the complaints of those I respect & care for, &, even then--tho I
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understand that if we are to be friends we must share the bad things that
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have happened to us, as well as the good--I tell them that I will listen to
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each complaint exactly once.)
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He came right back at me, "It's not MY fault you don't have a car!" &
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with a threat to take me in & lock me up--if I didn't just shut up & obey.
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I felt the old anger inside me, inclined to expand & explode.
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Idiot! I thought, addressing myself, not the policeman. You want the
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consequences of fighting with this boy over this little bit of nothing?
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I picked up my pack, shouldered it, & walked back to where he had
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indicated. There, I shrugged off the pack, & stationed it between my legs,
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again. More likely than not, I would be stuck in the city overnight now.
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The young man got into his patrol car, & drove into the maelstrom of
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city traffic.
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While I was considering how much of a gamble it would be, now, to pick
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up the pack, & resume my original position, a young man driving a pick-up
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passed me, slowing down--& pulled over & stopped. There wasn't much room
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where he was parked on the side of the ramp, one headlight right up against
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a low cement wall--so other cars were accelerating by him, pretty close. I
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gathered up my pack & ran--& he indicated, stony-faced, looking over his
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shoulder thru the rear window, with his thumb, that I should climb into open
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truck-bed, which I did.
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Immediately, he took off--& I anchored myself as best I could, hanging
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on with all the might in my fingers, to a little inward-rounded sheet-metal
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flange on the top of the side-wall of the truck-bed.
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We passed thru & out of suburban traffic, in just a few minutes, into a
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long valley. Gradually, I established a stable, cross-legged position, with
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my pack for a back-rest against the cab of the truck--so I was traveling
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west, backwards, facing east.
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An eastward-flowing tributary river made its smooth way toward the
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Mississippi, to my right. To my left, a long freight train rattled
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alongside us, also headed west. I leaned over the side of the truck, &
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strained to turn & see, in the direction we were headed. Over-head, a vast,
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ragged gray & pastel sunset was emerging out of the endless afternoon, &
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slowly becoming dimmer & dimmer.
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I slept--after drinking some water from one of the vitamin bottles &
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eating a handful of roasted soybeans--at the edge of a small town, in the
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tall weeds near the highway.
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Next day, I woke up sweating in the heat that came, immediately, with
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the dawn. I drank a little water from one of the vitamin bottles, put it
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back in the pack, then took up my position.
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It being a holiday weekend, a lot of cars went by. I was in a good
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spot. It would have been easy for them to stop. Almost all had their
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windows rolled all the way up: air-conditioning. Most drivers didn't even
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notice me--I watched their faces, ready to meet their eyes, to show my good
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will & respect--until they were even with me, & passing. Quite a few, not
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expecting any such a person or thing, never saw me at all, tho there was
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hardly anything to distract them from noticing me--outside of all the other
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cars proceeding, as customarily, 5 to 10 miles faster than the speed limit.
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I kept finding myself drumming the sides of my thighs with my palms,
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then stopping myself & trying to stand, expressionless & motionless,
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transmitting no message other than my held-up thumb. Finally, I got a ride
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with a clean-shaven fellow about my age, Dennis Rapaport, wearing a white
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shirt with patches of sweat under the arms, & a loosened tie. When he
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learned I'd been standing in the bright sun all morning, he seemed to be
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sincerely distressed for me.
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"We'll stop at the first place we can, & get you a soda," he said, &
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gave me some hard candy to suck on.
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He said he was a labor organizer, & had been involved in a recent
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failed strike at a meat-packing factory, that labor had lost as much ground
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during Reagan's term, as it had gained in the 30's.
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We never came to any place where we could stop & get me a soda.
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"I'm all right," I assured him. "I've got some water in my pack."
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He let me out at the edge of a flat little town.
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To the west was nothing but horizon, the Great Plain. Traffic had
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dissipated, as tho into the near-vacuum of space.
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I walked a mile or so into town, &, at a deserted park where the grass
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was crew-cut & turning brown, I found & used a nice, clean drinking
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fountain. I drank & drank, filled both vitamin bottles, splashed my face.
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There was also an unusually clean concrete & cast iron men's room. It was
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relatively dark & cool inside.
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Then, walking under the fierce Sun to the western edge of town, I went
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into a tavern. Taverns, I usually avoid. But, except for a little house
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with a garden & clothes drying on a line, it was the only place likely to
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have any food or plumbing--along the edge of the empty highway, among fields
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of tall grasses & dandelions gone to seed. I bought a hamburger (with a
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precious leaf of lettuce & slice of greenish tomato), & drank a couple of
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mugs of ice water.
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Then I shouldered my pack, paid the non-committal woman who had served
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me from behind the bar, at the cash register under an array of neon beer
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brand logos, reluctantly left the shelter of the dark bar-room, walked back
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to the highway, & resumed hitchhiking.
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I didn't get any further that day.
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I was up out of my sleeping bag with first light.
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As usual when I hitchhike--which I only do when I just can't think of
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any other way to get something going--I slept not far from the side of the
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road, but far enough, among trees if there were trees, or (as in this case)
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in the tall grass, so that strangers--some bound to tend toward evil &
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taking advantage--wouldn't see me sleeping, defenseless.
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Animals worried me less than people.
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Several times, in western Oklahoma & in Arizona, I had nearly stepped
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on rattlesnakes. Each time, they had lifted their tail ends & rattled to
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warn me to watch out, not step on them--then, their eyes checking mine to be
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sure that they had my attention & that I had no intention of stepping on
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them, they had slithered away.
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Their dry skin is marked with diamond patterns & a net of wrinkles.
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Occasionally, you come across such a skin, that a snake has left behind--as
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you would outgrow & leave behind a phase of your life.
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Once, before I had a sleeping bag, & driven crazy by a cloud of giant
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mosquitoes along a section of the Trans-Canada highway thru a marsh in
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Saskatchewan, I had nearly thrown down my red blanket on top of a wolverine.
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The wolverine is a rarely-seen, furry animal with a broad torso, about
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3 feet long, & a bushy tail about another 2 feet, with a reputation for
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unmatched ferocity.
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This one, the only one I've ever seen (except in pictures), was
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considering, as I was, bedding down on the only relatively dry spot--other
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than on the road itself--in the area. Just in time, I met his or her
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glance, amazed that such a creature--with a long pointed face with lots of
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sharp teeth showing--existed, & I pulled the blanket back, almost as a
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matador does his cape.
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Okay, the wolverine seemed to say, eyes to eyes--No foul. And turned &
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walked away.
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I immediately lay down & wrapped the blanket around myself,
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cocoon-like, to keep off the mosquitoes. I was already feverish from all
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the bites. I briefly noticed the effect of the last rays of the sun
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illuminating the red felt of the blanket like stained glass, & fell into a
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black sleep.
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Once, just after dusk, shortly after I had found a spot--a shallow
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oblong depression in the dirt among a few birch trees on a bluff over a
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highway in a part of New Jersey full of mansions & enormous manicured yards
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with gazebos--a deer nearly lay down on top of me. I guess I had chosen the
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deer's spot. Fortunately, when I moved around, disturbed, the deer started,
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& ran off. What that deer did for the night, I don't know.
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When I'm not traveling, almost anything wakes me up or keeps me up. I
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agonize over what I've done or failed to do, & worry about the world & my
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future. But, as soon as the deer--not to speak of the wolverine--was gone,
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I surrendered, & can give no account of anything until morning.
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Animals, I wasn't worried about, much. It was people that I wanted not
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to know where I was.
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I used a little water from one of the vitamin bottles to rinse my face,
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parted my hair, stuffed the bag into its sheathe, & made a tidy package of
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my back-pack: no strings or straps or bits of cloth sticking out. Your
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regular Joe Citizen, his act together.
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This early in the expedition, my clothes were not yet too disheveled.
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How sticky they were wasn't apparent, visually, it seemed to me.
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First ride of the day was with a turbaned & bearded former biology
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professor from near New Delhi, who owned--with a big mortgage, he pointed
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out--a factory back in India, that produced brass urns. His family was
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operating the factory, while he drove from florist shop to florist shop in
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western Minnesota & the Dakotas. He had 3 salesmen, too, selling the urns.
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"Since I could not find a job in America, I had to create one," Dr.
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Hrindayanath said, his English crisp & slightly sing-songy.
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"What's it like, in India, where you're from?" I asked him.
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"It's like this," he said, motioning thru the windows with his hand.
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I was surprised. I guess I was expecting to hear about the crowded
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poverty of the streets of Calcutta, or elephants, tigers, & jungle.
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We were traveling between fields of tall sunflowers, yellow
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blossoms--on thick rigid green stalks--all oriented to catch the sun's
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light. And we had just passed between gently undulating fields of ripening
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yellow-brown wheat & glorious fields of powder blue-flowered flax.
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"And what are YOU up to?" he asked me.
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I groaned, inwardly. Expaining what I had been doing--I had already
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attempted it with so many strangers--seemed overwhelming. I gave him the
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briefest synopsis possible: I had silk-screened posters on cloth--I took a
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couple from the pack & showed him--& I intended to staple them to utility
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poles in San Francisco & Los Angeles.
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The posters showed an indignant male face--in itself politically
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incorrect--with outrageously earnest & authoritative sayings: "HELP ONE
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ANOTHER SUCCEED," for instance, & "DESPITE INJUSTICE & NORMAL MADNESS,
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CHANGE YR SITUATION & OUR WORLD FOREVER FOR BETTER."
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Dr. Hrindayanath twirled one of the points of his mustache. "You
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cannot change the world all by yourself," he said, very kindly & solemnly.
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Someone's got to start, I thought.
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But I didn't want to get into a debate, & kept silent.
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Bismarck was a big town in the midst of grain fields, herds of cattle,
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& confluences of railroad tracks, that I had not previously known existed.
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There were a lot of cars bustling around, all the standard models & colors,
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the sun's rays occasionally glinting off moving glass or chrome. The only
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big building in town--it had to be a government building, 3 or 4 storeys
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high, right in the middle of all the smaller buildings, roads, & cars--had a
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dome on top. There wasn't a cloud in the world.
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I got a ride out of Bismarck with a fellow who told me he was a Mandan
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Indian.
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Had I ever heard of the Mandans? Clarence asked me.
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Actually, yes, I had--but not much. I thought that they used to trade
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furs with the French....
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A very small tribe, he said, brushing off the ancient history.
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Clarence also said that he was gay, that he had hesitated to tell his
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family, for many years--but when, finally, years of desperate loneliness
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drove him to tell, he had been delighted that his mother & sister treated
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him with as much love as ever--with more, realizing his vulnerability & need
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for support.
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He said he made a living 2 ways. He had a guitar, & went from town to
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town, singing popular songs in bar-rooms. Also, along the road, he picked
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flowers & arranged them, & sold them to florist shops.
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I had never given 2 thoughts to florist shops before this trip.
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Briefly, I realized that, once, with my mother, in Chicago, I had been
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inside a florist shop. There were a lot of big pink flowers. And I
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understood that the arrangements involved not only the blossoms, but the
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leaves & stems, too. The fragrance had been over-powering.
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For some people, living in such small towns, or in isolated
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farm-houses, florist shops must serve as something similar to an art museum,
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concert hall, or cathedral, I supposed.
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We compared skin-color. I had been out in the sun so much, that I was
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exactly the same red-brown color as Clarence.
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He asked me if I needed money.
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I said, Thank you, but no, I didn't.
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(I had $103. I had traveled with a lot less. And it was summer.
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Usually the restlessness & indignation overwhelm me during the long nights
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of winter. This was practically a luxury cruise.)
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In case of emergency, I told him, I had a girl-friend in Wisconsin who
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could send me a little.
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He said he was glad for me.
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Then I got a ride up the hundreds-of-miles-long slope that is eastern
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Montana & into the mountains, on the back of a small truck, precariously
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perched on a heap of furniture, & shared a meal in a grimey road-side cafe,
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with the driver, who was intent on starting a new life on some land he owned
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in northern Montana, after the break-up with his wife--& with 2 other
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hitchhikers. One had been on his way to find work as a boiler-maker near
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Seattle. One was a sad, run-down young alcoholic, drifting back & forth in
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recent years, trying, he said, to kick his old life. Both had decided to
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join the driver, to start a kind of (conceived in the course of this trip)
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commune. They invited me to go with them, but I declined as courteously as
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I could.
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Next, at a cross-roads, I waited, serenaded by 2 red-winged blackbirds
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perched on a billboard advertising the Air Force. "Aim High!" it said, &
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showed a straight-backed youth at a radar screen, & a formation of
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fighter-jets.
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Red-winged blackbirds have only a small patch of bright red on each
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wing, at the "shoulder"--like a military patch. On some occasions, they
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make a clacking sound. Other times, as they proceded to do now, they make a
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piercing, metallic sound--& launch themselves, tread air about 10 seconds,
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then catch some bare breath of a breeze, & curve off, fast.
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I was remembering, 25 years previous:
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I had noticed a 3 x 5 card tacked to a bulletin board in one of the new
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blond-brick class-room buildings at the University of Missouri, which was
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located approximately a light-year from my parent's house on the South Side
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of Chicago....
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I was as yet without a beard, without my full growth, skinny, pimpled,
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crew-cut. I was still traumatized from a summer earning my year's tuition,
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food, & housing by feeding handfuls of hot corrugated cardboard into a giant
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printer-slotter, night-shift, in a box factory manned almost entirely by
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laborers who had recently migrated from the played-out coal mine towns of
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Kentucky & West Virginia, to Chicago, who were full of denigrating remarks
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about their competitors for prosperity & respectability, the other recent &
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current migrants, the Blacks....
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At the university, I was timid, in the midst of youths full of
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confident high-spirits.... They played the popular songs in their dorm
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rooms, infuriatingly foolish songs, on record-players they'd brought from
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home, loud, when I was trying to master phrases of French, or to comprehend
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what I was reading about a dance performed by members of a tribe in a valley
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in Malaya, in response to the appearance of a new tribe in the valley....
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The other students seemed to care not at all for the wisdom I felt I had to
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have, to survive, let alone thrive--only for girls, beer, cars, &
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football--confident of a future of unperturbed celebration....
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I walked to a modest bank building in the miniature downtown, in the
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street-light evening, down dimly lit steps, to a room in the basement set
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aside for community meetings--where less than a dozen of us tentatively
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organized (I silently watching & listening) a sit-in at a greasy-spoon just
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off-campus, the proprietor of which refused service to Blacks.
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A young, earnest white couple, devoted to one another; a young white
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man with glasses & 2 front teeth missing, who identified himself as a
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Socialist--& there were other Whites...but I couldn't quite...delineate
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them, as I remembered, now...deferring to the yellow-brown young man who led
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the meeting, Johnny Tubbs. He had a brilliant smile. And the stern, darker
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brown fellow, skinny & utterly erect, with intense eyes & a thin beak of a
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nose (not an African nose--European? or Indian?) & a young blond girl-friend
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obviously proud to be with him, herself intelligent & brave, silent....
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After a short while, trying to remember the others--they eluded me,
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like ghosts glimpsed among shadows--exhausted me, &, especially since I
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hadn't chosen the attempt to remember, & didn't know its purpose--I let the
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effort go.
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Something got into me, as I let the effort go, that I was glad to give
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in to. I was glad to be alone & out in the open, in a huge valley, with
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amazing mountains far in the distance on both sides. I took off walking
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along the side of the road--no longer hitchhiking--til it started to get
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dark.
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Then, after some soybeans & a little water, I put my bag down in the
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weeds, just inside a barbed wire fence which I crawled thru--where no one
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would know where I was--& got a night's sleep, dreamless. No tossing, no
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turning--the kind you wake from refreshed, that gives you a longer life than
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you were going to live before it.
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Next morning, I was hitching before dawn in a glorious pine forest.
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The bark of the trees was peculiar, several tones, redder or browner,
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approximately square patches--almost a plaid.
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I was gradually aware of a strange sound growing louder.
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I got a ride into Idaho Falls, just as the orange Sun was rising among
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the lowest branches & needles of the trees, with a fellow reeking of beer,
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the cab of the pick-up also full of jasmine incense, playing his recorded
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music with the bass turned all the way up--that was the sound I had been
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hearing--& wanting to unburden himself about how his girl-friend had dumped
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him. How he LOVED that girl. How he didn't know what to do.
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I told him that the love was in him, & that he would find someone else
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to aim it at--no loss, just experience & freedom, not to panic.
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I was as sure of myself as if I had been explaining to someone who
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didn't know it, that the asphalt of the road rested on the foundation of the
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Earth beneath it.
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He was immensely relieved, & thanked me profusely.
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He told me, when I showed him one, that he would hang up one of my
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posters in the vidoetape store he managed in town.
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I said, Good, & hoped he would. But I didn't count on it.
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I walked around the outskirts of Idaho Falls--it's not very big--along
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a major set of railroad tracks with hundreds of freight cars standing on
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them. Occasionally big trucks, hauling immense tree trunks, roared by going
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downhill, or crawled by--gears grinding--going uphill.
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I bought a Wall Street Journal from a vending machine in front of the
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Holiday Inn.
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I went in to the restaurant, thru glass doors, & took a seat in a booth
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next to another where a couple of state patrolmen--crisp gray uniforms &
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ties, both giving me a look of shock when I entered & sat down right next to
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them, apparently nothing to hide--were eating pancakes, drinking coffee, &
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joking with a waitress.
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The coffee was strong, & lots of pads of rich butter & a tasty wedge of
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a firm, ripe orange came with the anemic fried eggs, tasteless hash-browned
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potatoes, & toast of white bread from which both flavor & texture had been
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stolen. The cup, plate, & silverware were substantial & immaculate, the
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table-cloth a cheerful checkered pattern, & there were a few plastic flowers
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in a plastic vase. The table was sturdy & stable, the lighting was
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excellent, & the only person in the place anyone was likely to fear was me.
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Tho the food wasn't stellar, I was glad to fork it in; it filled a growling
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hole.
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According to the paper I read while I ate, Gorbachev had cut his visit
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to the USA short, to return to Armenia, which was part of the Soviet Union.
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(No-one anywhere had yet so much as suggested that the Soviet Union would
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soon be no more.) There had been devastating earth-quakes in Armenia, I
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learned.
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I read that there were forest fires burning all over the northwest. I
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was likely to run into a lot of smoke, maybe some detours, maybe some
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danger. It was surprising that I hadn't, yet.
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There was also a lot about a bunch of celebrities--political & cultural
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& show biz. I already knew more about them than I wanted to know. And, of
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course, the numbers on stocks, bonds, & commodities futures. There was
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also, I learned, a market in options. As best I could understand, you
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gambled on whether or not other peoples' futures contracts--in wheat,
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soybeans, oil, or yen, for instance--would go up or down.
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There were stories about enterprises--banking, manufacturing,
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distribution, retail--that were breaking out, beyond mere local accumulation
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of wealth.
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There was a discussion of the escalating debt-load of family farmers,
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competing with huge agri-business cash-crop organizations--buying huge
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tractors, more & more chemical fertilizers, & expensive gasoline--racing
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against foreclosure.
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Unemployment was still high, so were interest rates. Inflation had
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been killed--when the Federal Reserve had imposed the highest interest rates
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in living memory--but the policy-makers were still making policy to kill it,
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punishing borrowers & debtors.
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Millions of motors & engines, belts & gears, dies & machine tools,
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interchangeable parts, extraction & use of coal & oil & uranium, gold &
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silver, iron & steel, smelters & foundries, turbines & electricity,
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electronic sensors & switches & satellites, national languages & machine
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language, COBOL & FORTRAN, international trade patterns & conventions,
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trucks & railroads, tankers & planes, the market in people's time &
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concentration & skills & loyalties, cash & checks, stocks & bonds, property,
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estates, mortgages, corporations & nations, military ordnance, wars,
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dominance & surly adaptation--forces as huge as natural forces, created by
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people, but now it seemed that no one could control them. Tho some had more
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influence on the situation than others--not necessarily those whose
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statements were quoted by the reporters, I thought.
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I paid a visit to the immaculate plumbing--worthy of a palace--washing
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up as thoroughly as possible, paid for my meal at the cash register & asked
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the waitress I paid, who had been joking with the patrolmen--she had
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unusually curly hair, & slightly crossed gray eyes--to dispose of the
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Journal.
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I shouldered my pack, went back out thru the glass doors, & walked on,
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just beyond the edge of town--an insignificant creature looking up thru the
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notch the highway made among the shadows of the trunks & branches of the
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tall trees of the immense forest.
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Birds whistled, chirped, chattered, drilled with sharp beaks for
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insects in bark of dead & rotting trees or parts of trees, & occasionally
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darted from branch to branch.
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A pick-up stopped for me. I ran for it, & got in.
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The driver, slim, fair-haired & fair-skinned, had a bad eye, on my
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side.
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"Excuse me," I said, more curious than tactful, "but can you see out of
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this eye?"
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"No. When I was born, I was a twin--not quite Siamese twins--but I was
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leaning right up against my brother. This side's plastic." And, with a
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grin, he knocked out a clever rhythm on the side of his head.
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"You're cheerful enough about it," I said.
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"Oh, I'm a lucky man," he told me.
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Twenty years younger than I am, I gauged.
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We were up near the top of the world now, going thru the amazing forest
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of pines & spruces, the air crisp, the only occasional buildings log cabins
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for federal forest rangers.
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"When I was in high school," Dale said, "people used to ask me what I
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was going to be. 'Johnny Appleseed,' I'd tell them. But they convinced me
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I couldn't be serious. So I got into logging. It paid good--but I didn't
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like it. For one thing, it's noisy. But, mainly--it's cutting down trees.
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"Then I heard about some guys who came in after us, planting seedlings.
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I found them, & joined them. Then I got some contracts myself. Now I have
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contracts all over the West & Canada."
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I'll be reading about him in the Wall Street Journal, when I buy one
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again in a year or 2, I thought.
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He said he had a wonderful, big house--made of logs--high in the
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mountains. Wonderful wife, dogs. He burst into song.
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He wasn't going to be someone that my work would arouse. If it aroused
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anyone.
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And even if it did, there was no way anyone who saw & appreciated it
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could contact me.
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Whether it did what it was intended to do or not, there was no way that
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it would benefit me, personally.
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I intended to put up about 100 of them, in San Francisco & Los Angeles,
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then make my way back to Wisconsin. It was the best thing I could think of
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to do. No one to whom I had submitted my work for about the last decade had
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been interested in proceeding with it, to get it into circulation, for our
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mutual benefit, & the general public's. And everything I hoped would be
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happening was happening in reverse. I had to do something.
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If I had put my girl-friend, Janie's, address or phone number on the
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posters, they wouldn't have the shocking, provocative effect intended.
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They would just be another promotion, then, in a time of competing
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promotions for products & for individuals seeking to advance themselves,
|
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trying to emerge from the bottleneck in the labor-market--millions of
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baby-boomers--approximately all the women as well as approximately all the
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men, Blacks as well as Whites--the nation awash with resumes....
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"Thank God I'm a country boy!" Dale sang, steering confidently with one
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hand, with the finger-tips of the other tapping out rhythm on the plastic
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side of his head.
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From where Dale let me out, I got a ride with a young man from France,
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driving an empty tour-bus. Discovering that I could I understand a great
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deal of what he said in French, & having a lot of thoughts pent-up that he
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was eager to share, he launched into a summary of his life since
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mid-adolescence, speaking too fast for me to grasp much of it.
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As we left the forest, sloping down, first thru pasture land on which
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herds of placid cattle & sheep grazed, then into the desert, & into the
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terrible heat again, I could see, far in the distance, to the southeast--not
|
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in our path--a column of smoke--from one of the fires I'd been reading
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about. I remembered the column of a cloud that accompanied the Hebrews when
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Moses led them thru the Sinai desert, 3,000 years ago, out of Egyptian
|
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slavery, to the already-occupied promised land, Canaan--&, for some reason,
|
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Gorbachev.
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Jean-Claude said he worked for Club Fun, the world-wide resort company.
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He'd started out with them as a waiter at a place on the French Riviera.
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He was going to pick up a group of European tourists at Reno, & drive them
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to Las Vegas.
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