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Underground eXperts United
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[ States Of Confusion ] [ By The GNN ]
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STATES OF CONFUSION
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by THE GNN/DualCrew-Shining/uXu
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NOTE: At first, I wanted to give this file a more catchy title,
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like 'Same Shit - Different Day'. But I quickly realized that no
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one would take it seriously if I did that. Oh well, never mind.
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Just read on. (Hell, why did I include this note at all?)
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Yesterday I saw a program about drug rehabilitation on television. It was
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highly amusing. Five teenagers explained how they had wasted several years
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of their lives abusing various stimulants. In the end, they all assured the
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viewer (and themselves I guess) that they had now left this 'confused way
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of living' in favor for a 'better' one.
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All the way through this programme I kept asking myself the slightly
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trite question "why?".
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Not "why do drugs?", however. In this case, "why quit?".
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You see, I do not think these youngsters really know what awaits them.
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Perhaps they will regain their physical health after giving up drugs. But
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their minds... will just enter another state of confusion that need not be
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any 'better': the only mental state offered and endorsed by the modern
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society, which when carefully examined reveals itself to be a mixture of
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various grotesque values, inconsistent beliefs and dehumanising opinions on
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what is right and wrong.
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The ex-junkies in question all agreed that drugs gave them a twisted view
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of reality. When they, now and then, sobered up, they realized that the
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world they experienced when intoxicated was not the real one. Real or not,
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it must have been utmost appealing, since they constantly returned to it.
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The 'real' reality, as they said, was too hard to cope with. Therefore they
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took drugs, because it gave them a chance to flee. Life in the fast lane
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was in a sense fun, they said; the sad part with it was the tragic fact
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that it was utterly self-defeating. They knew that they would end up in the
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gutter if they had continued.
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What will happen to them now? Sure, they will probably not end up in the
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gutter. But that is no reason for celebration. There is a huge risk that they
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will just end up in something equally bad: this thing usually referred to as
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'the hard reality'. In this 'reality', they will get a nice job (as we all
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know, 'a nice job' is just any socially accepted waste of time that pays), a
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family and... then nothing. Nothing at all. Just a long trek towards death.
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If they are lucky, however, they might be able to convince themselves
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that this kind of life is a life worth living. The human psyche can
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sometimes do magic - any rotten existence can be made into 'worthwhile' with
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the help of good internal rhetoric and self-deception.
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(Now, someone might want to ask how I know that these particular people
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will end up in the 'meaningless existence' I talk about. Well, actually I do
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not know. Perhaps they will actually take care of their potentials and do
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something they really want to do. But I doubt it. Their sad faces revealed
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that the struggle was over, and that it was time to give up.)
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The kids on television had set their minds artificially free with the
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help of drugs. Now they have to do the same thing, but without chemical
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products. Needless to say, this is both a hard and fundamentally meaningless
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project. Because like drugs, the modern society has nothing to offer but
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false prophets and twisted views on what 'the hard reality' is made of.
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"Work! Earn money! Be happy!"
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... is unfortunately not all that different from...
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"Smoke, snort, shoot! Get high! Be happy!"
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And, "I don't wanna fall out of the line, because I feel secure here"
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... is not all that different from...
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"I don't wanna quit drugs, because they make me feel secure."
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Et cetera. It is virtually the same thing. Following from this, it is not
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strange that some people spend their lives going back and forth between
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these two extreme standpoints. Because they find no happiness in any of
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them, just numbness and momentary pleasures. And they cannot be ordered
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lexically, as it is usually claimed, where drugs end up on second place.
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Because hard work gives you nothing more than a long boring life, while
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drugs gives you a short but slightly more enjoyable life - mere health and
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length is not a good criterion for a good life. You have to fill this life
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with meaning too. Drugs will not give you any true meaning. The modern
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society offers you a meaning, but a meaning that you deep down in your mind
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know is false too.
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There are some people who accept all these sad truths, and realize that
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neither standpoint is acceptable. Unfortunately, too many of these people
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flee to a third - equally horrible - state of confusion: religion - which is
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either inspired by the belief in a metaphysical force, 'God', or a natural
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force, 'science'. In this state, the seeker will find an enormous pile of
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explanations to almost everything - which is so complex and incomprehensible
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that the poor individual who desperately need answers often jumps to the
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conclusion that there must be some 'meaning' to be found somewhere in it. Of
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course, they never actually find such a meaning, only more confusion,
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because the project is essentially a fiasco from start. But this is
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something they never understand. Instead, they just dig further down the
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inconsistent pile, telling themselves that everything will be just fine as
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long as they 'keep the faith'.
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Anyway, let me assure you, I am no cynic. I do not believe (in fact, I
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know) that this is everything there is in this world. True happiness is
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possible. But it cannot be achieved or found with the help of drugs, the
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standards of the modern society or religion of any kind. It is to be found
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outside those cramped spheres. None of these misconstructed products can set
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your mind really free. Only one thing can do this, and I know that you know
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what that is.
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If you adjust the set and view the show from the right angle, there is
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much to learn from television.
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uXu #406 Underground eXperts United 1997 uXu #406
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Call DESTINY STONE II -> +61-924-62553
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