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Underground eXperts United
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Presents...
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[ Escape Macabre, The ] [ By The GNN ]
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ESCAPE MACABRE, THE
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by THE GNN/DualCrew-Shining/uXu
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"lonely eyes, lonely face
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I thought that I
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was all there was to be"
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(Waits, Tom)
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What we cannot accomplish in our real lives, we live out in fake worlds.
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Worlds, created by others or by our selves. Movies, music, books, alcohol,
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drugs. They may all help us to escape from our boring selves and turn us
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into something extra. Fantasy and imagination, for those who are gifted
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with that special feature. No man would stand reality as it really is
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forever. We call it entertainment, but in the end it is a result of
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frustration. It is the escape macabre for creatures who are painfully
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aware of their situation. It is a human disease.
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We want so much we can never have, and that hurts. Since we only have a
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brief moment in this world, we know that it would be a waste to do nothing
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at all. But there is no point in just doing anything, we must do something
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special. What is this thing called 'special'? Is it necessary the search
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for affection from other people, the hunt for power and profit? Perhaps.
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However, it seems as if they are only instruments for the real goal;
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satisfaction. The feeling that one have actually done this special
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something in the short moment of consciousness. The search becomes more
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complicated as we realize that there are no clear rules of what is extra,
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something special. Time flies, we have not got the time to find that out.
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We lean back on what we regard as other people's desires. We try to analyse
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what others believe is good and evil, right or wrong. Then we try to live
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by their rules.
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We live in a paradox, because we ought to be more aware of what we as
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individuals want to do than what other people wants us to do. We have more
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contact with our own sensations than others. But we do not dare to take
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the risk to trust ourselves. Maybe we have desires that no one else has.
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If we live by our own intuitions there might be a chance that they will not
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be accepted by the majority. If our life style is not accepted - instead
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rejected - by the population, we will never receive any affection, nor
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satisfaction. Hence, we play by the rules of other people and keep our
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dreams to the fake worlds.
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It is the escape macabre, because almost everybody live like this. We
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watch the goals of other people and make them our own. Even if we hate the
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goals, the idea of life being mere work, we do not dare to stand out of the
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crowd. We do not fancy people who are not like ourselves and we know that
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other people think the same. Therefor, we conform and join the crowd, the
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majority, the population.
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In front of a movie, a word processor or a bottle of whiskey it is
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different. There we can live in worlds that do not exist, but appeals to
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us. There, we will escape the hard reality for a moment and spend some
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time in a better world. In the real world we may not create much, but as
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soon as we rush away to dream land we will become kings and queens.
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"You shall not try to be someone else," people say. "You should always
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strive to be yourself."
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Be yourself - how is that possible? How come that people who are
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regarded as 'people who are themselves' are admired? When we try to be
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'ourselves', we hate it. We hate the little fool that is the real person
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inside us. It is much better to conform again, try to find out what
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other people think is a great person and live by their rules. That fails
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too, we feel like clowns who participate in a show. We cannot play the role
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as we want to, and in the end we believe that we look like complete idiots.
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We go home and wonder how to play the role better. We watch movies to find
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out, we write stories to create perfect persons and we drink alcohol to
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relax and forget. We admire the one who we believe is him- or herself,
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simply because they have something we believe that we have not.
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We are victims of the majority, we are a part of the majority, hence we
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are victims of ourselves. Sooner or later we die, and perhaps we have
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succeeded in the task of soften our own pain. We live and die like
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dreamers. Those who we regard as successful people do not fancy their
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situation more than we do. No one ever reach the complete satisfaction.
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We need the escape macabre. It does not matter if we are young and
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foolish or grown and mature. If it was not available we would fade away,
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like shadows in the evening. The escape macabre is our own personal dawn.
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//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
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Beyond the minimal state.
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Let us all get lost at FTP.LYSATOR.LIU.SE /pub/texts/uxu
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Come out and Play.
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uXu #221 Underground eXperts United 1994 uXu #221
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Call METALLAND SOUTHWEST -> +1-713-468-5802
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