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Welcome to the Sand River Journal. Our goal is to provide a proper
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setting for some of the better poetry associated with the newsgroup
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rec.arts.poems. We aim at an objective standard, if such exists for
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poetry, but also strive to include diverse voices, not excluding our
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own work. These poems have all been previously posted to r.a.p. and
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appear by authors' explicit permission. They constitute copyrighted
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material, and we claim ownership only to any poems we have authored.
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Sand River Journal is posted to r.a.p and related newsgroups and to
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regional forums, and is archived at etext.archive.umich.edu/pub/Poetry.
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The PostScript version features high-quality typesetting and is well
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worth printing to hardcopy and sharing. We hope you enjoy this unique
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selection of poems.
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Erik Asphaug asphaug@lpl.arizona.edu
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Zita Marie Evensen * ac869@freenet.hsc.colorado.edu
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John Adam Kaune jkaune@trentu.ca
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. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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Issue 14 --- May Day 1995
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Lovenest
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Two cream fledglings and
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yellow beaks click wet,
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knife and stone's ringing strokes
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in jagged nest.
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But jelly eyes and soft membrane
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push through fresh lids
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and blades fold,
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and beaks nestle in downy necks
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when I've been as honest as eggs.
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Ron Rankin
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u9205147@muss.cis.mcmaster.ca
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Bring to Me Spring
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Arrives the Burpee catalog,
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Canterbury Bells peal Springtime's chimes.
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Wishful mass of floral flash -
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page upon page,
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like the budding roses
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unfolding,
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each turn,
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each aspect of the unfurling petals
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a divergent portrait
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of splendor seeded...
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I plot my plot,
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paint my patch
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in pastels, with Pinks!
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Clumps of lowlying crops
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cover the border bricks
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I dug in, dirtied kneed
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and broken nailed
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eons ahead of this year's
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new arrivals.
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Stakes impaled
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Impatiens sturdied,
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I plan my planting
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cycled with the moons and tides,
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germinating when the Lilacs bloom,
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bury the Mums by Mother's Day-
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my mother's dead, but the day survives
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like perennials, always room
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for another Hallmark sowing.
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Burpee's Best
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are always better
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in pictoral propogation,
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anticipation - my best attempt
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to burrow the Four O' Clocks
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beside the Morning Glories
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o' course creates Circadian conflict -
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time and Cicadas wait for no woman,
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they grow when they feel like it,
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no matter what Sam Burpee says,
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and grasshoppers do eat Marigolds...
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Susan DeCarlo
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Dawn
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waking to the light
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rising from water
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the new dawn turns
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wind swirls
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to buddha robes flapping
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orange across
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the surface
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of a dark animal eye
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Jody Upshaw
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Pleaides
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Butterfly flapping chromatic dots
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Sparkling around a dark illumination
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Careless determined flight
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In a jellyfish bag
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Chalk-black shroud evades
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Organ humming city lights
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Spasmodic dancing
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In quick personal orbits
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Eternal brushstroke
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On a thick-dark molasses masterpiece
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Twinkling command performance
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In a spectator sky
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Christopher J. Hynes
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cricket@cybernetics.net
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Of the Night
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My love rides the night,
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And the fortunate have not laid eyes upon her.
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Which of the rising mists is she?
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What paw print or black wing
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Off the corner of sight
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Tells of her passing?
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For she has become the great evil
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Stalking the land, the stuff of legends
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Future and past.
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Her skin has grown cold, and her eyes
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Blacker than her hair.
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Her love has turned dark, into lust
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For any blood of the human.
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She will come for me.
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My stake and mallet await,
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Ready to pierce the heart
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That once I cherished,
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And free her to sleep.
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When this is done, the world
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Will be left to contend with merely the evils
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Of average men.
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Eric Thomas
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edt@iii.net
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in shamrock, texas
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(Note on pronunciation: "hoooo" is an
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unvoiced "who", like blowing wind, 3 seconds.)
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find me, brush me, pocket me, keep me.
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to the longing in the clouds
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i say,
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in the high, high heaven,
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please do away
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with your forever blue
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hugging you
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and drop them jeans
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in a sacred rain
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onto this forever plain
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that's wrapped in a forever hoooo.
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now i'm a pony
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buckling
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under you, dear load.
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dear load, please grant me thy grace and guidance
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and don't withhold your sweet open
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thighs
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either
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while you are in the granting
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garment-chucking
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mood.
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should you weigh so heavy on me
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in your absence, dear load?
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immortal kisses, kindnesses
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and an afterwife.
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this is the land of divorce,
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there is virtue in widows.
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however, i want to hump with innocence.
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miss innocence,
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oh, to throw the good book at you
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and put a ski on our child...
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and a mac on our table...
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and to teach you how
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to pour your charm into e-mail
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what's that
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and to show you off to other women
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show what?
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like a he'll-marry-me! ring.
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i wish to watch you brush
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our moments
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out of your swollen hair.
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heaven is, if heaven were,
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helping you with a stocking or two.
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there is no discipline i would not abandon
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to learn the texan twang from you
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that patient, exacting kindness:
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no, silly goose, you say it like this...
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in the cleavage of the dark, in the bluebells of the blossom
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...sweetness... i don't want anything else...
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of a country house porch swing
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...moreover, i never wanted less...
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across the unfinished kitchen table
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...this is enough for me...
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in a plastic booth in a dairy queen
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...you make me so very dizzy...
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in the tall grass pearling up around us
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...i once was lost but now i'm found...
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miss innocence, i have a prayer to offer:
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let us take this moment, dear load, in pails
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like pig slop
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or manna from heaven
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my lady of the immaculate nails
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a red like a church-going ford pick-up truck
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and 14k jewelry
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and may i have me granted thy welcoming pussy.
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on my way to the bloodkissed
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santa fe, new mexico
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i stopped here,
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with friends
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but i could have settled
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instead on your shy open hand
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and drunk your scent
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at full strength.
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the texan sun raineth on your head for 20 years. okay.
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monday to sunday, sunday to monday. okay.
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from it you soaked some mysterious rays.
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and they produced true love, aimless and wanton.
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until it has. yes?
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seeped into your lashes, dripped into your eyes.
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slipped into your speech, leached into your walk. my walk?
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and now it wisps out of your pores.
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at the slightest shift of your perfect. perfect?
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ass.
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and it is gleaming
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in that look.
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in those eyes. my eyes?
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trapped under that hair. what about my hair!
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focused in your face.
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and it says.
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hi... boy... you crazy on me yet?
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you've got 5 minutes to axe me out...
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i'd never say thaaaaaaaaaaaat!
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you are a walking country diction
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sweeping succulent idioms aside with your scentful breasts
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and so
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my heart gets yanked from san francisco
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on arrival, out of breath it says:
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girl... we have... not... yet met...
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but between you... and me...
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i would have you...
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framed... in this voracious sky...
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dry...
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framed... in your... sweetness...
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swarming... like bees...
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all hot... and bothered... warm and
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wet.
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Marek Lugowski
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The 1950's
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The doctor thinking he's
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got to learn about the world
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all over again from
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square one
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start
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Looking over words
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as he'd peer
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over a newly trimmed hedge
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seeing something just beyond
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and to one side
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The doctor doesn't think he knows anything for sure
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only the hula hoops and twinkies,
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the blues and violets of his mind
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very late at night
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He doesn't know what he's putting down
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only that he's noticing,
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noting, noticing
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his stethoscope here
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and here
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Red and pink lipstick cases
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with a little mirror on one side,
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hats, stockings, garter belts
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and gloves
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There is sound
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there's the refrigerator
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and the water dripping
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He bought a shirt in 1950 the most remarkable
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feature of which
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is a snag or tear will reduce it
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to nothing.
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It's a shirt made of a single cell
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that, when it's reduced to nothing,
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a single cell remains.
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The original cell of that fabric.
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What he is seeking is a quilt
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made up of the original cells of all the fabrics.
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What the l950s does
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like a blow to the back or side of one's head
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it relocates your mind
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The doctor in Intensive Care
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where he belongs
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if anyone else is here or still here
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that's fine.
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What were the 1950s? Teresa Brewer and the Korean War
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It was hard apples and the popularity of DDT
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Popularity was a word heard a lot of in 1950
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It was James Dean
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and Peter Lawford,
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TV's Karen and Chubby,
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the Mickey Mouse Club
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taken seriously
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It was the time many people who came into their own
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in the 1960s
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first got laid
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or had wet dreams
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the last wet dream the doctor had was sometime in
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the 1950s
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Basketball games on Chicago's north side
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and the walk home at 5 o'clock
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carrying a switchblade knife,
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the two Rosenbergs frying in the electric chair
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McCarthy and his crony Roy Cohn
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the atomic bomb already five years old
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Plastic surgery
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and nose jobs
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fame
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in a new light
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* * *
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Nixon saying, "California politics is a can of worms"
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Captain Kangaroo, Howdy Doody
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Arthur Godfrey on television.
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the Outside
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the Inside
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Outside
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Inside
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Fresh hot toast with butter on it from the mother
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of a friend
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the doctor's own mother dead at 42
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the knowledge there were two different worlds
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giving
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taking
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Epistemology
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Involved elaborate schemes for not making up your
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mind anyway
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"Saturday night is the loneliest night in the week--"
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Taking No-Doz and staying up all night for exams
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Right-handed angel playing a trumpet
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and Moses coming down off the mountain
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not with the 10 Commandments
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but a set of scrolls
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and where the commandments
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would normally go
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double sets of chimes.
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Moses coming down with castanets
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Saul of Tarsus with a set of drums
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Christ fluting
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Buddha blissful at the keyboard
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* * *
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The jazz was good
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Death was softened, advancements made
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in the salesmanship of everything
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The doctor's own deepest impulses
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were not to nurse or nurture
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but to attack
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Hanging out at Sonny Berkowitz' Pool Hall,
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wearing blue suede shoes,
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Levis and navy blue shirt,
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he bought a zip gun,
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joined a street gang
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Once, doing reconnaissance,
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exploring the intricacies
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of the Chicago Drainage Canal,
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he entered a sewer
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and ambled deeply as he could
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reflecting all the while
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on his chances of surviving
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the synchronizied flushing
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of three-and-a-half million toilets.
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For the first time in 2,000 years
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one went four years to a University
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without saying one true word
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going to work for Hallmark Greeting cards
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or the phone company
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one knew something was at hand because things
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became easy.
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Richard Wilbur's poems
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arrived at one's door
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in little four-line stanzas
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Tin-Pan alley
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people in college dormitories subscribing
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to the KENYON REVIEW
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and listening to Pat Boone
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Five foot two, eyes of blue,
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cotton candy hair
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strapless white lace dress
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zipped up over
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a snug corset
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seated on a sofa
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in a dormitory
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in Champaign, Illinois,
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touch me, touch me
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black patent leather belt open
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and matching black patent leather
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pocket book
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beside her,
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`petting' it was called,
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|
one foot touching the floor at all times
|
||
|
("that's right you two,
|
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|
or I `ll have to ask you to leave"),
|
||
|
ejaculating beneath her dress
|
||
|
somewhere or other
|
||
|
discreetly as possible
|
||
|
|
||
|
Birds flutter and when they walk
|
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|
they flutter too.
|
||
|
|
||
|
The doctor sees giant mushroom cloud
|
||
|
father of the H-Bomb Edward Teller
|
||
|
Police Action Korea Harry Truman
|
||
|
and Dwight David Eisenhower,
|
||
|
each with six legs and arms
|
||
|
dancing to the music
|
||
|
of Lord Shiva and Judy Garland
|
||
|
doing it
|
||
|
on a pink velvet loveseat.
|
||
|
|
||
|
The doctor makes a mental note to turn
|
||
|
his socks inside out to empty
|
||
|
out the sand before putting
|
||
|
them into the laundry bag.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Robert Sward
|
||
|
robert_sward@macmail.ucsc.edu
|
||
|
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|
|
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|
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|
---------------------------------
|
||
|
monet's old studio is a gift shop
|
||
|
---------------------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
I received the dream of the six gardens:
|
||
|
wandering the peculiarities of light -
|
||
|
painting again the damp stacks of hay
|
||
|
by the edge of the Seine, eating lunch.
|
||
|
the old man's celebration
|
||
|
of a simple pond of lilies -
|
||
|
the reflection of long-armed willows
|
||
|
hanging limp in remembrance
|
||
|
of modernity. please, can i return
|
||
|
to the studio now, so i can buy
|
||
|
that small reproduction? thank you.
|
||
|
|
||
|
John Adam Kaune
|
||
|
jkaune@trentu.ca
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------------
|
||
|
this place in winter
|
||
|
--------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
snow blows through an open door
|
||
|
and I curse him
|
||
|
for being so careless
|
||
|
|
||
|
inside
|
||
|
blue pears
|
||
|
no longer ripen on the settee
|
||
|
flurries blur
|
||
|
a windsor castle watercolor
|
||
|
a lincoln family lithograph
|
||
|
from the pantry you can look up at the sky
|
||
|
where paraffin has crumbled from the lids
|
||
|
of mason-jarred preserves
|
||
|
clover and violets uprooted
|
||
|
in the marriage bed
|
||
|
have I forgotten something?
|
||
|
family bible promises
|
||
|
on a homemade altar
|
||
|
|
||
|
I forgive him
|
||
|
for not closing the door
|
||
|
on his way out
|
||
|
|
||
|
this time
|
||
|
|
||
|
I feel a coastal winter wind
|
||
|
slam.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Elizabeth Haight
|
||
|
haight@ipl.rpi.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
----------
|
||
|
Boundaries
|
||
|
----------
|
||
|
|
||
|
The old man went with me when I walked the line,
|
||
|
checking boundaries. We drove round the mountain
|
||
|
to an unkempt farm on its western slope, parked,
|
||
|
and ranged its pasture for a survey marker,
|
||
|
dividing blatting sheep among the trampled
|
||
|
sedges along a line of willow. The sign
|
||
|
of success was a cap of brass, much chewed by
|
||
|
bush hogs and sickle bar mowers: the section
|
||
|
corner. We cut a pole from willow for our
|
||
|
chain, and taking compass in hand, set out south
|
||
|
along the invisible section line, straight
|
||
|
up one knee of the dark mountain, floundering
|
||
|
through viney maples, over old hemlock logs,
|
||
|
around the huge stumps of shipped-out firs, with their
|
||
|
deep-set eyes, which were the notches cut by men
|
||
|
to set their spring boards in to stand on, drawing
|
||
|
their singing misery whips through the bellies
|
||
|
of the silent giants. We flagged the line as
|
||
|
we went, hanging the orange strips from chittims,
|
||
|
blackcherries, huckleberries, bigleaf maple.
|
||
|
Across to the south side of the hill we shanked,
|
||
|
breaking out into sun sometimes, waist deep in
|
||
|
bracken ferns and trailing blackberries, pushing
|
||
|
through young Douglas firs with their rich Christmas whiff,
|
||
|
down to the alders with ancient yews lurking
|
||
|
in their shade, and crawled through tall salmonberry
|
||
|
at last into my new-made clearing by my
|
||
|
new-built house, hanging a flag only fifteen
|
||
|
feet off the flag we'd hung before we drove out.
|
||
|
The old man admired the results, and said to
|
||
|
the old woman, standing by, "That boy is just
|
||
|
the same in the woods as I am way out on
|
||
|
the water; always knows right where he is." She
|
||
|
nodded, and handed him a cup of coffee,
|
||
|
with cream, no sugar, and not too hot or cold.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Richard Bear
|
||
|
rbear@oregon.uoregon.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
Northern Skies
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
The sky above this garden is ablaze
|
||
|
With shimmer running almost to Orion;
|
||
|
A ghostly movement crosses half the sky
|
||
|
A living luster trembling through a phase.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Finding star-to-star form we plan by,
|
||
|
Remembering by murmuring of ion,
|
||
|
Here between a willow and the stream,
|
||
|
Let's wait awhile to watch our planet dream.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Robert Temple
|
||
|
templerl@aol.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------------------
|
||
|
reflection in the fountain
|
||
|
--------------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
i smell the smell of entire tribes,
|
||
|
order and a grass as fine as hemp,
|
||
|
in the division of water below
|
||
|
my potted palms. bourbon-minced
|
||
|
saliva creeps like cloth.
|
||
|
lips curve an alleyway,
|
||
|
a hardened rot of spilling for substance
|
||
|
and down the coil;
|
||
|
i fall into small thimble,
|
||
|
tip myself into relic
|
||
|
without a thought for foe
|
||
|
or even the flinging out of love that
|
||
|
will replace my lips for conversation.
|
||
|
the waking mouth
|
||
|
hangs just so, off to one side and
|
||
|
then parted. underneath tongue rises
|
||
|
and falls and rises
|
||
|
and falls. sharp-tuned tunnel
|
||
|
catches and i spin out into
|
||
|
stain, rubbed and postured for
|
||
|
future. swells of water
|
||
|
ripple form and swoop the snail
|
||
|
in me - my criminal in apathy.
|
||
|
i regard my shadow with malice
|
||
|
and adorn its shape
|
||
|
with giggles. boots loop my feet,
|
||
|
bulging ankles strapped in leather
|
||
|
as to walk on glass
|
||
|
without fluttering. naughty speaks
|
||
|
through the fountain, hickeys and
|
||
|
tenor visions like stalks. what do i
|
||
|
see but hiding?
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Hillary Joyce
|
||
|
haj2@cornell.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
---------------------
|
||
|
The Changeling's Wife
|
||
|
---------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
i am like the piano you play
|
||
|
that always falters somewhere up ahead
|
||
|
|
||
|
a man but also a dog needing
|
||
|
something to be brave for
|
||
|
|
||
|
i praise the day you filleted me
|
||
|
zipped away the offending spine
|
||
|
|
||
|
pull me to bed with you tonight
|
||
|
let me sleep this curiosity off
|
||
|
|
||
|
the way that the lion feels
|
||
|
for his mate when she brings him red meat
|
||
|
|
||
|
it's the love of the dog that sleeps
|
||
|
curled at the monastery gate
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Michael Finley
|
||
|
mfinley@mirage.skypoint.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
----
|
||
|
wind
|
||
|
----
|
||
|
|
||
|
an empty poem
|
||
|
that has lost its heart,
|
||
|
a sky as hollow
|
||
|
|
||
|
as the mouth of heaven.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Erik Asphaug
|
||
|
asphaug@lpl.arizona.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
-------------------
|
||
|
The Death of My Son
|
||
|
-------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
I sit in a smoke-filled room
|
||
|
A half-empty bottle sits near me.
|
||
|
Glowing cigarettes walk around
|
||
|
In the mouths of black-suited guests.
|
||
|
Mourners, they call themselves.
|
||
|
I know him, he who lies within
|
||
|
Though the bottle takes away his name.
|
||
|
A boy. He used to be my son
|
||
|
Though he never once called me Dad.
|
||
|
I used to see him once a year.
|
||
|
I haven't seen him at all for three.
|
||
|
His mother sits next to another man.
|
||
|
The man is rigid and staring at me.
|
||
|
He is angry that I have come.
|
||
|
I drink again from the bottle.
|
||
|
I find little solace in its contents.
|
||
|
I sense that something is missing.
|
||
|
I sense the wrong one is dead.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Justin Taylor
|
||
|
taylorju@ucs.orst.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
Enigma
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
|
||
|
cryptic dissertations
|
||
|
seek to enlighten
|
||
|
those despaired
|
||
|
|
||
|
existential incantations
|
||
|
espouse revelation
|
||
|
behind reverential masks
|
||
|
|
||
|
can light emanate
|
||
|
from between
|
||
|
dark, parted lips?
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Ron Stewart
|
||
|
ron.stewart@tssbbs.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
another NYC-ku
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
Penn Station after midnight:
|
||
|
even the shadows have echoes.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Paul David Mena
|
||
|
mena@cray.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
-----------
|
||
|
bellybutton
|
||
|
-----------
|
||
|
|
||
|
bellybutton
|
||
|
through
|
||
|
cigarette glasses
|
||
|
waves slippery
|
||
|
still
|
||
|
silver and black
|
||
|
bearing
|
||
|
unblemished
|
||
|
taut ripples
|
||
|
either
|
||
|
freely
|
||
|
poked loose or
|
||
|
blasted
|
||
|
gasping
|
||
|
desperate cotton
|
||
|
shrieks
|
||
|
remove me
|
||
|
young pedophile
|
||
|
listen to my
|
||
|
pupils resonate
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Jon Litchfield
|
||
|
jlitchfi@undergrad.math.uwaterloo.ca
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------------------------
|
||
|
Imaginary Lovers' Conversation
|
||
|
Overheard on the CNR Spurline Trail
|
||
|
-----------------------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
I would steal you a water tower in winter my dearest
|
||
|
and we would walk around its smoother bevelled edges.
|
||
|
I would climb the circular stairs and use my largest
|
||
|
ray gun to puncture the unruly strands of steel.
|
||
|
Not even all the lawyers in the office nearby could
|
||
|
stop our rivers of empire from unfurling in frozen
|
||
|
abandon. And we would kiss each of our blue lips
|
||
|
desperately, wanton in the existence of frigid solitude.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Kate Armstrong
|
||
|
kmarmstr@uoguelph.ca
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
---------------------
|
||
|
having fallen in love
|
||
|
---------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
for the first time real
|
||
|
time frying bits of white onion
|
||
|
in a cast iron pan with
|
||
|
olive green burning to jump
|
||
|
sauteeing sweet smoke and
|
||
|
wanting desperately and coldly
|
||
|
to put my hands into the oil
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Karen Hussey
|
||
|
ai500@freenet.carleton.ca
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
Coffee
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
|
||
|
Out his kitchen window, he watches
|
||
|
a bus pull away from the corner.
|
||
|
He holds his coffee cup,
|
||
|
swirling it although there is
|
||
|
no coffee in it,
|
||
|
considers taking a bath.
|
||
|
|
||
|
She always told him not too
|
||
|
much coffee, just the one cup
|
||
|
in the morning, and that he should
|
||
|
remember to bathe every day,
|
||
|
as these were just the kinds of things
|
||
|
he would soon forget
|
||
|
once she was gone.
|
||
|
|
||
|
He places his cup among others
|
||
|
in the sink. The bathtub is clean
|
||
|
and damp, still warm.
|
||
|
He sits on the toilet
|
||
|
watching as the tub fills.
|
||
|
|
||
|
By custom, he draws too much
|
||
|
water, so that some always runs
|
||
|
out the overflow as he gets in,
|
||
|
leaving behind as much water
|
||
|
as will fit,
|
||
|
making a sound he always
|
||
|
liked hearing.
|
||
|
|
||
|
He images a spider trapped
|
||
|
in the overflow, washing
|
||
|
down the pipes.
|
||
|
As he slides into the water
|
||
|
he thinks of her, so many years,
|
||
|
|
||
|
and although she is not here
|
||
|
to scrub his back he smiles.
|
||
|
His toes surface and submerge:
|
||
|
he watches them break
|
||
|
through floating rafts
|
||
|
of bubbles, then sink again,
|
||
|
like a shipwrecked crew
|
||
|
of drowning men.
|
||
|
|
||
|
After his bath he watches the water
|
||
|
circle down the drain,
|
||
|
but without his glasses
|
||
|
he cannot tell
|
||
|
if the whirlpool drains
|
||
|
with or counter to the clock,
|
||
|
|
||
|
although he understands
|
||
|
or thinks he remembers
|
||
|
it always turns the same way,
|
||
|
like a dog circling nose to tail
|
||
|
on a carpet looking
|
||
|
for that one best spot.
|
||
|
|
||
|
The word "coriolis"
|
||
|
surfaces slowly and submerges again,
|
||
|
and eyes closed he watches it
|
||
|
as from a moving vehicle,
|
||
|
experiences it as he would a neon
|
||
|
sign flashing past
|
||
|
|
||
|
in the nighttime.
|
||
|
He makes a note on his mental
|
||
|
blackboard to watch closely
|
||
|
next time which way the water
|
||
|
circles as it drains.
|
||
|
He smiles again,
|
||
|
as he can have
|
||
|
his coffee now
|
||
|
that he has bathed.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Michael McNeilley
|
||
|
mmichael@halcyon.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
Elses laughter
|
||
|
--------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
In March,1993
|
||
|
totally without warning
|
||
|
I changed the way I eat apples
|
||
|
and the way I laugh -
|
||
|
I'd been borrowing someone
|
||
|
elses laughter before then.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Ross Munro
|
||
|
rmunro@yarrow.wt.com.au
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
----------------
|
||
|
The Lotus Flower
|
||
|
----------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
If you cannot find the rose
|
||
|
That tireless, blooms,
|
||
|
Here within these arms,
|
||
|
Find instead the timeless lotus flower
|
||
|
Which once you offered and I refused
|
||
|
In a white-hued winter,
|
||
|
Drawn in brilliant colour,
|
||
|
Under a cloudless sky.
|
||
|
|
||
|
If you will not speak of these
|
||
|
Silent whispers,
|
||
|
There within the day,
|
||
|
Speak instead to the snow white lilly
|
||
|
Which grows within my only cavern
|
||
|
In a heart filled with light
|
||
|
Grey and lifeless in pallor,
|
||
|
Under this cooling skin.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Scott Cudmore
|
||
|
scudmore@peinet.pe.ca
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
-----------------------
|
||
|
Leave as you have Lived
|
||
|
-----------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
You are costive in your imaginations,
|
||
|
like Corundum in muddy thought
|
||
|
sinking to the complaisant image
|
||
|
of a prosaic, adequate Self -
|
||
|
All for sake of comformity.
|
||
|
And wiping out your
|
||
|
individuality as you content
|
||
|
yourself out of being.
|
||
|
|
||
|
And you will leave as you have
|
||
|
lived your life: Dead.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Kirian Chowning
|
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moonspark@aol.com
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The wind is a pillow
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The wind is a pillow.
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It rustles like bed clothes
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in the temperature of night.
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I can sense your skin.
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It feels like molten glass
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wrapped in cashmere.
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It's singing!
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I love it like this.
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Ross Munro
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rmunro@yarrow.wt.com.au
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City Square, Buenos Aires
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An outdoor room of bowed walls
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and low defining trees,
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the city square is railed off
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to enclose what no cloister could:
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a fountain made of broken columns
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and a squat equestrian general
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who spurred civic pride
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by surpressing laws, punishing foes,
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curtailing lives with a high necessity.
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This is Borges city,
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a place of traffic, where grey
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historical clouds define oppression
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in other terms, other pantomimes:
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the fidget of pigeons and old men
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pensioned since the last revolution
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or the last coarse drought.
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Yet the boulevards are wide enough
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for tanks, close enough for walks,
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the city square more barren
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than sunlight on catafalques.
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David Barton
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75344.124@compuserve.com
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South Seas Rumba Party
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The Wind flew softly to my side
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Playfully lifting my hair from my eyes
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Kissing my cheek in passing
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On his way to a South Seas Rumba Party
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.Party on, dude, I said!
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The Rain flowed down my face
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Tickling my sides and legs
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Licking my ear in passing
|
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On her way to a South Seas Rumba Party
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|
.Party Hearty, sweets, said I!
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The Lightening sped across my sight
|
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Electrifying my every orifice
|
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Shooting sparks in passing
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On her way to a South Seas Rumba Party
|
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|
.'s Party, I slurred, dazed!
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But when Thunder came rumbling my way
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Growling up my spine to my head
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I roared at him in passing
|
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NOT on my way to a South Seas Rumba Party
|
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|
.Now your Party's mine! (and I swallowed him!)
|
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So if, by chance, you happen upon
|
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A South Seas Rumba Party in progress
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|
Just know in passing
|
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Thunder won't be there, oh no, not him
|
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.Party'd out, we'd say!
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Terry Schorer
|
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|
dragnfox@ix.netcom.com
|
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|
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---------------------------
|
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|
everybody's favorite lunger
|
||
|
---------------------------
|
||
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|
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|
and even pussyfaced doc told wyatt to leave
|
||
|
coughed blood and gargled
|
||
|
the way to live life ain't sittin'
|
||
|
here to grieve.
|
||
|
then he died, laughing. end of movie.
|
||
|
|
||
|
hey pistol pete would you believe
|
||
|
i need a mean ol cowpoke.
|
||
|
or a pussywhipped eyetalian, movie-sized.
|
||
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|
||
|
this crimson a on my chest ain't
|
||
|
like the rest, for school spirit, boys.
|
||
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|
||
|
i want that stain.
|
||
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|
||
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|
||
|
michelle vessel
|
||
|
michellv@co.dona-ana.nm.us
|
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|
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|
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|
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|
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|
-------------
|
||
|
copper of age
|
||
|
-------------
|
||
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|
||
|
take dilaudid in a spoon
|
||
|
add water heat quickly till
|
||
|
a foul smelling smoke is produced
|
||
|
and the liquid bubbles and seethes
|
||
|
this burns off the impurities and
|
||
|
the things that will kill you.
|
||
|
add a bud of cotton wool
|
||
|
insert the needle into the cotton and
|
||
|
draw back the plunger
|
||
|
notice that no matter how carefully
|
||
|
you do this there is always
|
||
|
a small bubble of air in the syringe
|
||
|
this must be removed
|
||
|
so depress the plunger until
|
||
|
a droplet of solution glitters at
|
||
|
the end of the needle.
|
||
|
it is now safe.
|
||
|
you may find it easier to wrap
|
||
|
a belt around your upper arm
|
||
|
watch for the large vein
|
||
|
insert the needle
|
||
|
if you do it right, then
|
||
|
a tendril of blood should shoot
|
||
|
into the solution.
|
||
|
you may now slowly press the plunger.
|
||
|
sit back. relax. sleep.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Adrian Preston
|
||
|
te_s343@atlas.kingston.ac.uk
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
-------------
|
||
|
Danny & Andre
|
||
|
-------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny finds a throw
|
||
|
away medicine cabinet
|
||
|
burned out bulbs
|
||
|
sliding mirror
|
||
|
jagged, tarnished frame
|
||
|
pried from wall.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny props it atop
|
||
|
concrete fencing
|
||
|
next to Lady Luck
|
||
|
Laundromat - he preens
|
||
|
picking his face, nose
|
||
|
wiping fingers
|
||
|
on tan corduroys.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Andre slides up
|
||
|
in chrome wheel chair
|
||
|
spray painted red
|
||
|
with green glitter flecks.
|
||
|
Chicago Bulls emblem
|
||
|
brands the back rest
|
||
|
in black magic
|
||
|
marker and dyslexic hand.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny turns round
|
||
|
high fiver - high
|
||
|
fiver. +Ma boooy+.
|
||
|
He dances everything -
|
||
|
tribal incantations,
|
||
|
polkas, jigs, Swan Lake.
|
||
|
Andre's rag doll legs
|
||
|
impact with callused
|
||
|
palms. He mouths
|
||
|
every instrument
|
||
|
with rhythmic echoes.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny yo yo's
|
||
|
Andre out and back
|
||
|
out, back. Twirling round
|
||
|
popping wheely's.
|
||
|
Andre's vision flies
|
||
|
up to sky, the world circles,
|
||
|
Andre's arms raise hallelujah.
|
||
|
|
||
|
On the outspin Danny catches
|
||
|
his profile and stops,
|
||
|
throwing Andre forward.
|
||
|
He sneaks up to glass mumbling
|
||
|
eyes unblinking. Andre
|
||
|
readjusts his legs.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny tilts his head
|
||
|
left then right,
|
||
|
then behind and in again.
|
||
|
pointing dirty fingers
|
||
|
blackened nails, spitting
|
||
|
the reflection.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny pulls his hair.
|
||
|
clumps of blonde
|
||
|
oiled and gritty curls
|
||
|
sprout from knotted fists.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Andre pulls Danny's
|
||
|
corduroy leg. a dog
|
||
|
begging attention.
|
||
|
He pulls harder
|
||
|
the second time.
|
||
|
Danny flies round
|
||
|
inhales a gust of wind,
|
||
|
propels forward.
|
||
|
the curls sprinkle
|
||
|
Andre's high-low fade.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny belly laughs, grooves,
|
||
|
skipping, knee slapping,
|
||
|
butt shaking, high fiving
|
||
|
down Park Street.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Andre pulls Danny's medicine
|
||
|
cabinet into his lap. Leans
|
||
|
forward curled to view
|
||
|
his upside down image.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Danny beckons from
|
||
|
the corner +yo brother get
|
||
|
ya dumb ass ova here+
|
||
|
Andre tosses Danny's
|
||
|
medicine cabinet into
|
||
|
the busy street. The glass
|
||
|
breaks. You and I swerve.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Erica L. Wagner
|
||
|
wagnerel@maspo2.mas.yale.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
pauper
|
||
|
------
|
||
|
|
||
|
you stand on the street corner
|
||
|
like a blind man
|
||
|
waiting for the clink of money
|
||
|
in an upturned fedora
|
||
|
my pockets are empty
|
||
|
please do not hold
|
||
|
your heart in your hands
|
||
|
i am a pauper
|
||
|
i do not have gold coins
|
||
|
to fill the emptiness
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
zita marie evensen
|
||
|
ac869@freenet.hsc.colorado.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
----------------------
|
||
|
Standing Prematurely
|
||
|
Before Benedictio's Tomb
|
||
|
------------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
I have never looked for Guy's name in
|
||
|
The Funerary Times or Gestalt World,
|
||
|
Preferring to chuckle on finding it
|
||
|
In unexpected indices.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Adroitest of scholars,
|
||
|
Impeccably reticent,
|
||
|
He understood the commonality of
|
||
|
Socrates and oaken tables.
|
||
|
|
||
|
It took two generations for me
|
||
|
To comprehend that the internal link
|
||
|
Between the elegant poet and my blunt father
|
||
|
Was the purity of their honor.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
Dave W. Mitchell
|
||
|
dmitchel@ednet1.osl.or.gov
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
-------------------------
|
||
|
nightmare in bflat, op.31
|
||
|
-------------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
parades of soft vienna clowns
|
||
|
with lanterns of the hungarian princess
|
||
|
swung before my eyes, laughing their hungry thirst for
|
||
|
smatterings of shattered love letters
|
||
|
which hung like ice crystals on a clear prairie winter morning
|
||
|
|
||
|
living in the shadows of deaf giants
|
||
|
who stole the show right out from under me
|
||
|
leaving me naked for no-one to see
|
||
|
but me
|
||
|
|
||
|
i've played these same scales
|
||
|
over and over and
|
||
|
candles burn down over scores of songs i will never play
|
||
|
|
||
|
in these nights of forlorn horror
|
||
|
of stampeding ghosts
|
||
|
and heckling monotonies
|
||
|
there lies only wicked prostitutes of time by my side
|
||
|
selling me short
|
||
|
selling me....
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
peter j. tolman
|
||
|
an445@freenet.hsc.colorado.edu
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
--------------------
|
||
|
Ruffage For Ruffians
|
||
|
--------------------
|
||
|
|
||
|
Whore mold creeps soft like flu fingers,
|
||
|
picking ear-wax, slave to sleep, while onward it comes,
|
||
|
somnambulant -- hungry for the earlobe, the drum -- and blunders
|
||
|
an awkward chicken-motion, clucking this noise:
|
||
|
|
||
|
our charters, our hooks, our redundancy sunders
|
||
|
the waffle-irons of suburbia, out there
|
||
|
gleaming, twittering like nerves before the numb.
|
||
|
Skulls satiate on raw beans and these words are the bean curd
|
||
|
clusters of the middle-man, supply and demand.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Throw thrift to the dogs, brackish clog of my love there
|
||
|
sitting, there sleeping, there pissing on the cushion
|
||
|
And you were house-broken, trained to beg for coffee grounds
|
||
|
in s. america
|
||
|
before the whip rode miles of thigh,
|
||
|
Forced you to cry.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Door slam, I'm fucked. I'm outta here. I'm not writing poetry
|
||
|
for you,
|
||
|
for approval, for me -- even amounts of discourteousness: I
|
||
|
frown on the
|
||
|
artform and the hyphen --
|
||
|
but you've crawled this far, you've sucked my spoo and here
|
||
|
we meet at
|
||
|
last: toothy plumage blooming in the sweaty hole-mind of hate.
|
||
|
|
||
|
Whatever this means.
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
b-rev.john
|
||
|
numen@halcyon.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
---------
|
||
|
Go Figure
|
||
|
---------
|
||
|
|
||
|
Ten tuna tins with fifteen fins.
|
||
|
Zero zebras and twenty twins.
|
||
|
Thirty ponies pull three red wagons.
|
||
|
Six sneaky snakes chase four dumb dragons.
|
||
|
Seventeen seagulls in the sky.
|
||
|
Eleven hippopotami.
|
||
|
Eighteen red headed boys named Willy.
|
||
|
Don't story problems drive you silly?
|
||
|
|
||
|
Grandpa Tucker
|
||
|
oldcoach77@aol.com
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|
||
|
|