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---------------------------- I Bleed for This? ------------------------------
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------04.07.96-----------------------------------------------------#044------
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The World is My Rotten Oyster
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appreciated by IBFT
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Stickboy
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created by Dennis Worden
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I can remember what bliss felt like.. The echo is still there, though
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even that is often lost to me.. It seemed more real, more alive than any
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other state.. Like you knew what it was all about, and this was it..
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There was nothing else to want.. But it's all so subjective.. Was it
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really more "real"? Some say fear is more real or alive than one's
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average state, but how can it be when its narrowing of reality?
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Consciousness constricted, illusion made crystalline, limiting our
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vision.. Fear is a mechanism of survival that's wired too hot, tripping
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on at every imagined threat, no matter how abstract, small or petty..
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That's if you're as sick as most, riding the anxiety-go-round.. Happiness,
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love, bliss aren't wired hot enough, for some unfathomable reason (if
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any), and any teeny imagined obstacle can short it out, like "this isn't
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enough".. Yet it really always is enough, if it's allowed to be, if it's
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seen that way.. Yet even believing that, I can't make myself happy..
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Force doesn't work.. Like trying to fly with a bulldozer.. Or see a
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rainbow with cement glasses.. Or feel velvet with cast iron gloves.. Or
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catch a butterfly with explosives.. Force comes out of fear, and 99% of
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all fear is useless..
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IBFT: No matter how hard you laugh with or at it, you'll NEVER get it.
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http://www.amherst.edu/~mcspinks/ibft/ibfthome.html
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email: mcspinks@unix.amherst.edu
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ftp://ftp.etext.org/pub/Zines/IBFT The Eleventh Hour (617)696-3146
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