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$$$$$$$$$$$ hogz of entropy #177
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>> "What's Your New Year's Resolution? Huh?" <<
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by -> FyFy
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Date: Wed, 31 Dec 1997 01:54:56
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From: thuhuong@usa.net
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To: mogel@dto.net
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Subject: Submission
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Here is a short one that I quickly whipped up after exploring your
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great site. Hopefully in the future I may submit more if my mind comes to
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it. Anyway enjoy!!!
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---
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What's your New Year's resolution? Huh?
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I want to be someone. I don't want to be the person sitting in the dark and
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talking to myself and wondering where everyone is going and what they're
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doing next. I want to be in the "in" crowd. I want to be the talk among the
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people. I'll be different. I promise. I'll change. I'll do whatever it
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takes. I want...I want...
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Yeah sure that's what you said last year and it never happened. You fuckin'
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screwed up. You're not strong enough to push yourself. You're one worthless
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piece of junk. Remember what happened last year when you went to that party
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where all the guys were checking you out. You totally freaked and started
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talking nonsense bullshit. You scared them away. You're crap!
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Don't call me crap! I'm not crap! I can change this time I promise. This
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year I'll be different I swear to God! I'll make it work. You'll see and
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you'll know I'm telling the truth. I want to change this time. I'm not dumb
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you'll see. Besides it takes time and everyone changes don't they? I mean
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I'm not a freak. They're are others who are way worse than I am. I'm just
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unique.
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Unique? You call sitting in a dark room and talking to yourself unique?!
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I'll tell you what unique is. It's being able to touch people with what you
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are and show them the type of person you are. What you're showing to people
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is someone who needs help. You're so pathetic can't you see no one wants to
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be around you?
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What do you mean? Help? I'm just fine the way I am. I talk to myself because
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most of time you're up there asking me a whole lotta questions. The incident
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with the boys at that party was mostly your fault too. I didn't admit it at
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first but now that I realize it, it was all your fault. You kept saying,
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"Go for it! Go for it!" That's why I started yelling. Then again I should
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blame you for making me the way I am today. You're the one who made me turn
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this way. Can't you see it's you who's running me.
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Me?! Ha! You can't even walk right without me telling you how to. I taught
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you everything you know. Without me you're nothing. If you wanna change,
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girl you gotta work with me. Not without me. Without me you'll be nothing.
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You'll screw up and be like shit. You think you know everything there is to
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know huh? Well think again. Who was there talking to you and comforting you
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when you cried, who was there to tell you that there is danger approaching,
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who was the one who patiently walked you through your problems and guide you
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out? Huh? Huh? Me! Me!
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I hate you! All you do is judge me! You never cared for me! You were always
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trying to be this goody-two shoe. You make me look like a fool in front of
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people. You want to take over me. You want me to become you. You know I
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don't want that. I want to be myself. I can learn to walk right without you.
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I can have others to teach me how. I don't need you. I can call someone
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else. Besides...I like being alone. You're the one always wanting to be
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around people. You know people scare me. But this year I'm gonna change.
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Promise. I'll get to know people better. People will see me. I won't yell
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and shout anymore and drive anyone away. I won't have you telling me what
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to do. Because...you'll be gone.
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-=Thu Huong Nguyen=-
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/ aka \
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/ -=FyFy=- \
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* (c) HoE publications. HoE #177 -- written by FyFy -- 1/4/98 *
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